i think i need to squeeze
all the words to the left
so that my tagboard could be seen
haha...

wow, today was jus
another F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C day
S.U.P.E.R.B.
F.U.N

Skipped biz etiq again
went church help the gals out
then 2 daughters went Holland.V
met em aft that,
gonna go Chinatown,
but daughter2 was tired
so she went home and sleep
so left me and the M.A.D daughter1
Yap Wan Zi aka Beth.
oh my.
She was hysterical today
shocked me a few times
totally suaku
took 61 one there
and there was a mad uncle
and im sorry to day that but he
smelt terrible.
couldnt breathe.
had to smell my jacket.
went to Ppl's park
so superduper funnn
and R.E.T.R.O
walked ard
found Tokyo
were over the moon
so many shades
countless
and the really retro earrings
she gt a shades
and i got 1 too
love it lots
cheap and good
$8 a pair
cheap cheap cheap
the aunty was super cute
i mean cute

wanna bring dot there
she'll love it.

then we went to OG.
had fun criticizing clothes
haha.
and we were really terrible
cuz we wanted to wear the shades
and yet feels dumb when ppl
stared at us
so i was putting it on
and removing it
kept repeating the sane steps
felt so daft
but then again
it was really fun
laughed like mad

went Food Street at Chinatown for late tea
had sesame dumplings in peanut soup
and also wu xiang. YUMMY.

then dropped by P.S
so many things we wanna buy
necklaces, shoes, shoes and shoes.
ha.

Conclusion: Daugher1-YAP is NUTS.
i repeat. NUTS.

dirty water, dirty people all around...

lunch at pizza hut wid ma 2 besties and glen
had a great bitching session
conclusion: ppl are selfish, they like to shed crocodile tears, annoying and lots more
then again
no one's perfect. thats why we need God.
its hard, sometimes i just feel like cursing those ppl
esp the dumbass malays.
those on the bikes.
bloody childish.

then we walked bk to sch
the car came and splashed the puddle of dirty water on the road unto us
i was beside daughter 2 - beth
it all happened too fast
wanted to curse and scold
but jus didnt react,
so let out a shrilly scream
so did daughter
haha super funny
we were like crazy
jus kept screaming for some time
mad.
2nd time.
daughter grown smarter.
asked us to stop and let the car passed first
but stil kenaed a bit
but then it was fun la
super relaxing day.
sue tan released us early as well
so glad i dont have to see her anymore

got back my cma
got a 48/100
great yah
first test 52/100
therefore, its ( 52+48 ) / 2 = 50
i got a 50.
God's grace really.
managed to jus scrape thru.
thank u Lord!
now i need to pass my exam to make sure i pass
go gotta really study for it man.

hope we're gg Chinatown tmr.
but 1 thing.
just 1 thing.
i'm B.R.O.KE.

Putting on the apron of humility...

phew, tuesday over. great feeling. one more day in sch down! yeeps!
today ms wong was in a gd mood i guess
bought so much chocs for us. act i think she's quite nice and lame, only if she doesnt bomb us with questions.
can't take all the tremors, so noisy
like they gonna hack down the whole building.
wish the renovations would be done soon man.

watched the invention show last nite
so surprised to see ms chai and mr leong
and turned out that my sec sch won!
so proud of em peeps!
suaty and dot gonna lead worship for fri's prayer mtg
will be playing for em

read purpose driven life ytd
and they were talking abt servanthood
and its really true u know
how many ppl want to be leaders, but not servants
bring me to the pt that as christians
we should not be in the limelight
and that real servants shld maintain a low profile
"put on the apron of humility, to serve one another" - 1 Peter 5:5
i guess that would be a struggle to many ppl
they become addicted to attention, unaware that always being in the spotlight blinds one.
so lets enc one another to keep on serving God
Lastly the words of Jesus
"If as my representatives, you give even a cup of cold water to a little child, you will surely be rewarded.
-Matthew 10:42

Faith is indeed the key to answered prayer...

Oh my goodness... this is like totally shocking.
cuz i couldnt blog due to some prob with my blogger.
and i jus said a prayer, didnt really mean it
jus said God, plz, if possible, just let it wk k...
and ta-da! he answered it! even tho it was sucha small and unimportant one!
thank u father!

so glad the gals wanna go watch Mama Mia! wahaha...
so happieee.
nickie auddy cmg too.
hope ah mei will come along
else it wouldnt be fun w/o her

was home at 2 last nite.. watching dvd at hawk's place
but i was sleeping thru out the whole show lah
so boring
then that dumb nic use cam and took a pic of me when i was sleeping like a pig
then aft that he fell asleep too
then i gave him a tooth for a tooth! muahaha...

ytd's bbq was quite fun
played with the sparklers
then i think i burnt my eyebrow
haha got one hole down there

the He Shi Bi was super duper sian!
many ppl were like sleeping
then the woman talked to me lah
but before that they were like making me feel damn sad
even the other woman feels that the woman is segregating herself fr me.
but at least got talk a bit la
somehow still feel the uncomfort btw us

it was real glad to see dottie
sucha long time
anyway, am glad to have her back

think nxt monday no need come bk sch anymore
*happieee*
have been waiting very long for this day

u know i really really love my church peeps.
but they seem to disappoint me time and time again
or perhaps im being too sensitive lah
maybe i shd change cell
have been thinking bout it for some time
love Naomi, but i should be in Joshua
feel intimidated in Naomi
Sigh...
but they are all the loveliest ppl in my life.
i really dunno what to do.

havent done my qt for a long long time
i really pray that God'll forgive me.
everyday im jus wasting my time away
i owe God so much so much
pray for me ya peeps

im so glad sch's cmg to an end really soon.
the feeling is great man.
indescribable feeling

Today was quite alright… had a good time laughing at the skit… Thought it was hilarious… Made a new friend today or rather two… So happy! Janice – got to know her so much better today… She’s a funny gal, great sense of humor! Daniel – didn’t really talk much to him, only till today during dinner… Anyway, nice people, hope to get to know them better and better with help from God!

Went to Bt. Timah mkt with the crusaders, and when we jus finished buying food, I saw Nic they all! So happiee! *grins* before that I was still thinking if they will go there for dinna, then TADA! They appeared! Works of God! Then got a lift home from my new neighbors! Think they watching some DVD, but I decided to stay home… too tired le, even though its just the floor above mine! Hee…

Something’s wrong with my lappie… sigh… can’t figure out what’s the prob… man… how lucky can I get? Taking a break from music min this week… Send some quality time alone, to breathe in fresh air, and perhaps help m new neighbors with their things tmr! Maybe will play with my new toys from Diaso, cut the collage thingy from 8-days, arrange my photos, do a masque, play the piano, bake biscotti read the papers, go for a swim, do my tutorials? Pack my things, throw away rubbish, paint my skirt, decorate my bag etc etc etc… Will make sure my free day tomorrow will be a fruitful and fulfilling one!

Went Diaso on Thursday with my daughters… we bought…

Jess – Cookies’ paper bags
Nail art thingy
Binoculars
Eyebrow thingy
Eliz – Milkish bag
Blusher
Loose powder
Eyebrow thingy
Skipping rope

Moi – Milkish bag
Loose powder
Skipping rope
Rainbow-colored Wig (love it!)
Connect 4!

Don’t know why can’t blog… Something’s wrong with my blogger… so had to ask my daughter to help me blog… haha…

Presentations are more or less over, so relieved now… but still got other tests, role-plays etc… life is still very much terrible…

Sigh… seems like ppl are getting colder and colder nowadays… it’s just so hard to reach out to them. Sigh… wonder what’s running in their minds, what’s holding them back.

Ytd no water supply, later no electricity… my house is super jialat… haha… always got this kinda problems… otherwise it’ll be lifts breaking down.. still remembered there was once, when I was still in primary school, both lifts broke down when I was going back with my mum after grocery shopping. Then we had no choice but to start climbing up the never-ending flight of stairs, to 22nd storey… halfway, and I crying and sat down on the stairs. I told my mum that I don’t wanna climb anymore…. Haha.. funny huh… now when I recollect the past, I could imagine the cold beads of sweat that were trickling down my mama’s forehead when I said that! Haha… anyway, hope that’ll nv happen again! Haha… but then my dad will be home late later…hope and pray that he’ll be back safely, cuz he got asthma, and can’t possibly climb 22 x 2 flight of stairs…

Asked ah bee for a break from worship duty this Sunday…really needed it. Im up
every week. Everyweek.. Its not that I don’t wanna serve but I really do need a break badly. Its real taxing… sigh… electricity gg off soon.. nic asks if I’ll be scared.. actually haven tot abt that, but after he asked, started to get the creeps. Plus im HOME ALONE. Ugh. What great luck…

Just a little encouragement to keep my loved ones going...

Drop a pebble in the water: just a splash, and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Spreading, spreading from the center, flowing on out to the sea. And there is no way of telling where the end is going to be.
Drop a pebble in the water: in a minute you forget, But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And those little waves a-flowing to a great big wave have grown; You've disturbed a mighty river just by dropping in a stone.

Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on. They keep spreading, spreading, spreading from the center as they go, And there is no way to stop them, once you've started them to flow.
Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute you forget; But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And perhaps in some sad heart a mighty wave of tears you've stirred, And disturbed a life was happy ere you dropped that unkind word.

Drop a word of cheer and kindness: just a flash and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Bearing hope and joy and comfort on each splashing, dashing wave Till you wouldn't believe the volume of the one kind word you gave.
Drop a word of cheer and kindness: in a minute you forget; But there's gladness still a-swelling, and there's joy circling yet, And you've rolled a wave of comfort whose sweet music can be heard Over miles and miles of water just by dropping one kind word.

so thankful, finally got back my internet connection
today was HQ & SS's wedding
she looked totally gorgeous
but the worst things kinda happen to me
was putting on the bod shop liq foundatn and it splattered all over me
kena on my skirt, right before the wedding
and the loose powder was horrendous
need to get a new one
then drank my mango tea, and it dripped down to my shirt
ugh
dinner's at Meritus Mandarin in town tonight
but im not invited
not that close
but overall fun lah

got my bag ytd
exilarated mannn
cma test is gettg nearer and nearer
sighhh...
bbq tmr, still recovering, dont know can eat or not haha

this week was a tough one
ask them
they will know
so tough u dont know what to do
cleared the problem
but dont know if it'll arise again or not

tmr's the wedding
can't wait
but got no top to wear
sigh
nxt wk cma test
ugh...
sure mati

nxt week's gonna b worse
2 presentations
german role-play
cma test
in deep poop

need to do ppt
paint
draw
color
alamak

bbq on sunday somemore
gonna go do my pacnet thingy later
hopefully wil b ok
have been paying few mths bills
but nt using the net at all
wthell right

heard from eu recently
she took the initiative to msg me
so happie
can tell that she really misses us
asked bout the bbq
but it was gonna end early
so i guess she couldnt come

i wanna go chinatown wif my daughters to get the shades
haha...
i need to have things to look forward to
to keep me going for the week
haha
such as shopping
or some activity
else i'll haf low morale
ahaha
what rubbish right

she didnt msg me at all this wk
prob still mad at me
sigh...
nothing i can do

cheryl pass me the deeds card
so cool
haha tot it was like super fun
going to pass to someone soon

haha cutie gals, me pearlie and june in ccc rm!

so tired...
everyday do proj til going bonkers
meta camp here again
shd i go?
can't stand unrefined guys
totally turn me off
every single guy pisses me and my two daughters off
s*** them

i think she's mad at me
not on talking terms
cant be bothered
dont know wtf is wrong with her

she asked me to lead worship for oct's prayer mtg
but i havent give her an ans
kinda scared

many things happened this week
not a smooth one, sigh...
wish things will be alright soon

passed all my papers
so thankful
that He pulled me thru
wanted to share my joy with her
but...
sigh...
guess no one has any ears for me

how childish can one get
tell me
tell me

why do i get frightened by it so easily
so scared
then got lots of restrictions
alamak

dont know how to do fmgt proj
stuck

ich mag schokolade kuchen!

Got the news ytd that mag's dad passed away
felt sad for them
but at least i know and have the assurance that
he's up there witht the Lord
and we'll meet one day

God is good to me
really really good to me
and i really really appreciate it
pulled me thru all 5 papers
it wasnt easy
but he was there to lift me up
esp cma
i passed it
it was like a MIRACLE
a miracle that descended from above
i know it was really Him
not me but Him
cause i really didnt know what i wrote
i jus wrote things that were def out of pt
but i knew He helped me thru it
thank u Father
thank u so much
and for also pulling my two daughters thru it
just relieved and thankful

went to pizza huttie with my daughters today
had a great lunch tog
and for once i can sleep in peace tonight
but come to think of it
i sleep like a pig everyday
hahaha...

i guess i made her mad again
but i did it on purpose
really sick and tired of hearing bla bla bla...
can't be bothered
don't know how to help her

so glad wed skool life has come to an end
now i can breathe properly
gonna go for the wake tonight
hope i dont weep buckets
that i'll keep cool

weird eh
forget abt that X
but suddenly hear from X again
err... erm... ehh... hmm... nvm

only when u see a person so close to dying

then will u know how fragile life is

wept buckets ytd

shouldnt have fun

he was breathing so hard

all his cells rob him off his body

feet swell up

sigh

i guess we must live in hope each day

and that God'll really grant us strength to carry thru

many ppl visited him ytd

he was like in a coma

but he was actually sleeping

so weak and skinny

face was sunken

his wife kept crying

it seems that he doesnt wanna leave earth yet

kept holding back

sigh

why does God allow suffering?

i seriously dont know

suppose to go kite flying

but it was raining jus now

don know how

hell damn pissed with her

I AM NOT ACCOUNTABLE FOR U

so SHUT UP and dont tell me whats up

i am so disappointed in her

once so on fire for God

yet backsliding

cuz of a yug

i hate him

hate him

bloody