and i finally made the choice, went down to sim to register for mc. am just waiting for the results. and if i dont get it this time, i honestly have no idea what to do next. feeling alittle detach from my parents nowadays. perhaps im just guilty each time i see them, for not wking since a long time ago, and always asking money from em. sigh. wish i wasnt such a lazybone.

voice is almost back, but still coughing. do hope i will recover soon. being ill sure make a person feel lousy. on top of that, there had to be much frustration and anger over certain issues. smtimes i wish i could take a hold on myself, and stop letting my emotions ride over me. ugh. i need to calm down. just hope 777 wil quickly come and go. had enough of it.

the tooth issue is coming back to me once again. sigh. everytime i look at it,i get this worried pang in my heart. what if it suddenly drop off? what am i to do? but i cant bear with the idea of going thru the whole process again, the numerous trips to the dentist, the amount of money to be paid.sigh. i know i cant avoid the problem for long. and all i do is to pray for a miracle to happen. wish i didnt had such issues plaguing me. sobs. and my gums are extremely week. just a harder brush and it'll bleed. not a lot tho but still am bothered.

sometimes i really wonder whats the reason for our existence? what does it bring?