IN AMERICA IS SOOOO NICEEEE!!! tho i hafta admit i dont understand certain parts of the show, its still GREAT!!! haha.. like this kinda show. not sure under what category it should be classified under, but this type of show's good, as in it makes you ponder about many things in life! haha.. huilin came along too.. i like it when im in the movies. feels like im living in another world. and i can simply just cast all my troubles away, and focus on that show, like im part of it!

i HATE going home late. it simply sucks. Soooo scary, creepy, eerie, disturbing, uncanny, just frightening! yet i like to go out at nite.. Sigh.. im always contradicting myself! haha.. got music prac later, 1.30 today..

still got tons of things havent study.. Jialat.. Don't know how im gonna pull thru for my tests.. Gotta depend on God. Actually, we shd always depend on God. But of coz we must do our part by studying, and pray for mental power, concentration etc etc.. i mean we cannot not do anything and expect God to give us As for everything rite?! hahaa...

Managed to change my blog skin!!! haha so proud of myself.. but the tagboard's gone.. tried adding it but need it'll need to take some time for it to be out.. Hopefully it'll be successful!! haha..

fcuking pissed

i was so fcuking angry, pissed, livid, fuming w anger, mad, irate, frustrated. i HATE the BLOODY SCHOOL CALENDAR! DAMN IT TO HELL! Because of the changes made, im unable to go for the hillsongs conference at sydney this year! i was so so mad n sad! Life's so UNFAIR! i have been looking forward to it so much, and yet this is what i get! the feeling of disappointment.. i HATE IT ALL!!! hmmm why does't God make a way for me?? Why why why...? Sigh... i wish it wud all end here but no. people will be happily celebrating Christmas, going for camps but me?? Stuck in Biz hell... Ugh. Life is just soooooooooo UNFAIR!!! SOB... HATE SKOOL!!! deprive me of having fun with friends and family! Just how far is that?! SHITTY Ass...

was contemplating if i shd tell anyone about this. then tot shd wait till tmr then tell ah bee they all. My life was in a big mess.. then at that moment in time, Grace msged me, ask me to jiayou for my test.. Suddenly feel that God has sent someone, someone to listen to my displeasement, whom i can share my frustration with.. Thank God for her.. Poured out all my woes to her.. She was really nice, telling me to start mugging realli hard now, and ta look on the bright side.. im going crazy really soon.. so i need a break. so im gonna hit the movies w pat tonite..

God, i really wanna go hills... *Sigh*

God's Email

One day God was looking down at Earth and saw all of the evil that was going on. He decided to send an angel down to Earth to check it out.

So he called one of His best angels and sent the angel to Earth for a time. When she returned she told God, yes it is bad on Earth, 95% is bad and 5% is good.

Well, he thought for a moment and said maybe I had better send down a second angel to get another point of view. So God called another angel and sent her to Earth for a time too.

When the angel returned she went to God and told him yes, the Earth was in decline, 95% was bad and 5% was good.

God said this was NOT good.

So He decided to E-mail the 5% that were good and He wanted to encourage them, give them a little something to help them keep going.

Do you know what that E-mail said?

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You didn't get one either, huh?

was one of those scary days whenever i had to play for worship. the whole day was filled fear, butterflies simply took charged in my stomach.

skip abt that first. ZW asked me to go study the nite before, since i was free, went with him. All the way to Marina haha.. then i was afraid i'll reach church late in the evening so i went earlier to prac. then cuz the music rm was used by the kindergarten kiddies, so ah bee brot in the kiddie keyboard, those super colorful one.. but i wouldn't mind if i someone gives me that haha.. Oh wake up!

After that went to marina to mit him. took the bus then it was damn pack with all the first three months ppl from RJ. Damn irritating k! Created so much noise and fooled around as if they own the bus! Sickening! Hate em all.. Big deal if u are from RJ?? Who gives a damn man!! was late haha then he wanna eat. haha.. so end up studing for less than 2 hrs. then got this couple fr my skool, kept on and on smooching, GROSS ME OUT! like super hungry for sex like that! YUCKS!!

Left ard 6.15, reached church at 6.50.. haha.. then quickly went to practice with ah bee. Really really thank God that everything went really smooth, as in the worship haha.. there wasn't much mistakes, perhaps 1 or 2.. Mini ones, by God's grace. Im gonna depend on HIS strength! just that maybe the rhythm kinda wrong, for the last song, cuz it was new - ah bee heard it from somewhere. She only had the words, no chords at all! so i have to try and figure it out! Tough but still i know God's able. Didnt sound veri good but still can make it lah ahaha.. AMEN!

then rev went to talk bout our church's dilemma... Hmmm dont wish to talk much bout it here.. made me think and reflect about how much we owe God.. Makes me feel shamefaced, guilty, blamable, accountable, conscience-stricken, liable, etc etc. Really need to ask God for forgiveness, and to seek His directions in all that we do. But Satan has his works in this too.. i believe he has smthg up his sleeves.. Humph! But God is the one who overcomes all evil! So as long as we pray, God'll be there to protect us! AMEN!

Gonna spend today studying, tho its difficult, i'll have to try. Else its Monday before i know it.

a boring day.. spent da whole day at home. tried to study a little bit.. but kinda lethargic, haha.. attempted to make mango pudding using my cousin's recipe but it was a total disaster! haha... it i followed the instructions and poured 400ml of water but it turned out to be too much. Then it couldn't gel up haha became watery, since 2 til now! haha... wanted to bring some for nick n aud they all but now i seriously don't think so! Wahaha...

then suntan again but the sun wasn't that strong today.. Aunt went for dinna with the other peeps and i wanted to follow. but then my mama doesn't wanna go, so in the end i never go.. Sigh...

got a msg fr pastor phoebe, asking me to play for worship tmr nite... Wanted to but was veri scared cuz my piano skills suck terribly.. So im gonna depend on God's strength. Hopefully everything will go well and that i'll not hit a wrong chord.. haha... Kinda stress over it now but i know it's God im playing for..

No point getting jealous. Cuz i know satan's at work the very moment. Dear Lord, i pray that u'll forgive all my sins.. Things that i've done wrong, thoughts, actions etc. God i pray that u'll take all the bad and nasty thots away from me. And that satan will not haf any chance to attack me at all. Thank you God. In Jesus mighty name i pray, AMEN.

i hate it when im jealous. i get really pissed. i get mad. i get livid. i get irritated. why can they have it all. why can't i. I hate them. i hate them all. bloody people.

Joke of da Day... *wink*

A cowboy walked into a barber shop, sat on the barber's chair
and said, "I'll have a shave and a shoe shine." The barber
began to lather his face while a woman with the biggest,
firmest, most beautiful breasts that he had ever seen
knelt down and began to shine his shoes.

The cowboy said, "Young lady, you and I should go and spend
some time in a hotel room."

She replied, "I'm married and my husband wouldn't like that.

The cowboy said, "Tell him your working overtime and I'll pay
you the difference."

She said, "You tell him. He is the one shaving you."

the very much anticipated break is finally here.. one whole week for me to rot n turn into a piece of fungus! Wahaha...
First lemme talk bout Sat's paper.. time given was so short, and there was so many calculations to do, how am i gonna finish them all on time...? Sigh... aft that nick n aud came pick me up fr skool to church for lunch then music prac. then surprise surprise, ah Mei came haha, was dressed up super nice, cuz she went to attend fren's weddin haha...
in the evening, i went to ikea wif nick, audrey, george n adeline haha... Got a laptop bag! Red in color haha.. haf been looking for one since a long time heehee.. In case u are wondering who these ppl are, Nick is my youth pastor, aud's his wife... I always out with em cuz they live near me n can tompang me home, plus they are real fun to be with! haha... George n adel's my churchmates. these 2 couples are ard 30+ of age lah, so im like haha i'd say extra when im with em. But nevertheless, im veri sure thry love having me ard them! haha *puke*... But they are wonderful to be with. Just cut it short, i love all ma churchmates lah! Tho some are just so unlovely, but still i'll TRY.. haha... aft we went for dinna at this hill quite a nice place, near SAJC.. Then we proceeded to the Portsdown Rd for coffeee. That place was damn cool, its like so so retro n nostalgic! Feels like im living in the 60s! haha.. think the shop was also featured in mags n tv! Soooo nice! Got lotsa angmohs too.. but then, the things there are super duper expensive! Plus the road to da place was realli creepy too, cuz its veri dark n the houses there look like haunted houses which u see in movies! haha... many colonial-styled houses there.. oh yah think the things ex bcuz lotsa expats that, so muz make a pile outta them! heehee.. the nite didnt end there! went home, bathe, got prepared for round 2! haha.. nick came pick me up n we went to george+adels house to watch vcd n thon there! my 3rd time in their house.. Veri huge n nice, jus the 2 of em staying there, but i think i'll get freaked out if im all alone in da nite..
nxt morn went church then got alpha.. Dot din come at all.. dunno wat the hell is wrong with her.. always MIA.. Veri pissed, couldn't be bothered with her anymore.. then went home with Grace.. haha the end of Sunday.. Thenn dunno y i kept on thinking abt church retreat.. Wished it'd be here soon, but yet once it's here, it's gone before u know it.
Oh yeah went for lunch aft da cip lecture.. ate chicken rice oppo ma hze with donn, liz n Zhiwei.. ordered too much food but was damn shiok! haha... then quite cheap also cuz got chicken flu, oops i mean bird flu, yeah thats why... Wanna suntan but the stoopid sun is not in my direction. Ugh.

It wasn't an easy day.. the whole world seems to think that im so carefree, that i can laugh everyday, and that i have no stress at all etc. But IM NOT. It's NOT true at all.. They only see the outer side of me, but they never know what im experiencing inside. Started with biz stats in the morning. Am realli clueless as to what's going on. That wasn't the end. Lecture was hellish. Chen was not there, but ONG was instead. Started rattling, n i don't know a single shit as to what he's saying, plus i brought the wrong notes. That wasn't the worst. the place where i was sitting was bloody bloody cold. and i mean it was freezing in there, cuz i was sitting directly under the air-con. Couldn't stand it anymore. The lecturer and the aircon. So me n liz took the plunge and walk out of the lecture hall.. sounds cool eh, but it was the back door,wahahaha... Sat at the porch of blk 73 till the lecture ended. Went to Holland v for lunch, then glenn, zw n donn came along too.. On the way bk to skool, i was really exhausted, like someone suck the life outta me! Sigh... think im on low batt mode now, need to charge myself haha... Loooking forward to the break, cuz i nid it really really badly. And i only managed to do 1 chpt of stats when my test is like 1 day away. HA.HA.HA. i don't wanna go for tennis.

Joke of the day... "Burger King"

The local Burger King was running a promotion. If you told them "It just
tastes better." when ordering they would give you an extra Whopper for
your trouble.

So I ordered the combo meal and told the girl I wanted the extra Whopper
with that. So she told me I'd have to say the phrase to get the free
burger.

"You're kidding.", I said. "No, sir, go ahead and say it." she laughed.
"Come on...." I said, hesitating. Did I really have to mouth an
advertising slogan to this cute little thing half my age?

We were both laughing by now. I figured she was serious about it. So I
blurted out "You just taste better!" into the speaker. All of a sudden
the speaker lit up with the laughter of the staff, as she managed to choke
out, "Please drive through sir!". :-)

Little Johnny's is coming home from the store swinging the loaf
of bread in one hand and the other hand in his pants pocket.

Along come Priest Joe and he thinks to himself, "This is a good
opportunity to say something from the bible to Little Johnny."

He walks up to Little Johnny and says, "I see Little Johnny that
you have the Staff of Life in one hand. What do you have in the
other?"

Little Johnny replies, "A loaf of bread Father."

sian, add a new entry juz now but dunno why it didn't get posted.. ARGHHH... Wrote so many things there but none appeared! so i guess i'll jus kip this short! got so much work to clear.. Biz stats, 2 lms essays, test on Sat.. dunno how im gonna pull thru man...! then today i realise, that donna's really tee koh... she peeps at people's undies and bra, she even told me that the girl sitting near us was wearing a bra with words.. She's lecherous right? Dun judge a book by its cover k!! haha..Think she's gonna get me for this... heehee.. oh no, im really stressed up now, jialat... HELP!!!!!!!!!

Ahaha... What a day.. but lemme talk bout yest first... ok went to the gay talk then nick ask me help bk-up cuz the dumb Eng con peeps dunno how ta sing chinese songs.. then in the end me and dot got con into going, but guess what? they nv even sing a stanza of chi! then me n dot stand there like kukuz lor, when they did da my redeemer lives.. Oh well, anyway, glad it was over. hmmm the talk was well, hmmm, quite interesting i had to say. To speaker was quite funny.. so it wasn't that bad. then during the talk me and grace was like trying to be funny, so she like lied on my shoulders, then i lied on her shoulders! haha.. then nick, 2Xwei n james were sitting rite at the bk and suddenly looked at our direction and shudder, then turn away! haha when nick told us bout that i was laughing like 'siao' man! Wahaha... Hmmm but IM STRAIGHT k, get this clear, and Grace is too. haha.. then aft that celeb weiwei's 19th bday.. It was quite fun in the pantry haha, all the laughing, eating, and talking.. Thats not all, went to Adam's Rd hawker centre to haf supper... Then there was this couple who was acting real lovey dovey was sitting in fronta us, then the guy who looks like a chee ko pek who can't wait to eat that woman up, kept on caressing that char bor... it was so damn gross lor, spoil my appetite! ARGGHHH... Was home at only around 12:30... V v tired..

Ok today.. hmmmm lecturer was late and she look kinda sick, dunno what happened... anyway, had oral comm, then it was our turn for TTS.. ahaha.. then he asked eliz bout bad things with regards to BA, on the other hand, i was to talk bout the good things! So i just crap my way thru the two minutes, saying everything was great, time-table, Is class, P.E... Then i dunno why they all laugh also, i was telling the truth all the time, SOMPA! Haiya, i was just speaking my mind mah haha...

Then i think that Donna is super pervert lor, go peep at people's undies, and bras also! Somemore tell me this girl's bra got words! Didnt noe she so lecherous! haha don't judge a book by its cover man! Shiny pants, and Bao Qing Tian! Kinda rhymes actually! Wahhahaha..

Gonna go see Audrey cut hair at my aunt's shop.. ahaha... hope it won't be disastrous!

Another silly joke to cheer yr day up!

Would You Be Scared?

I was trying to get my seventh-grade history class to understand how the Indians must have felt when they first encountered the Spanish explorers.

"How would you feel," I asked, "if someone showed up on your doorstep who looked very different, spoke a strange language and wore unusual clothes? Wouldn't you be a bit scared?"

"Nah," one boy answered, "I'd just figure it was my sister's date."

Thanks to Ana, she helped me change my blogskin etc haha.. it looked so so soooo much better now! haha.. will blog later, gonna rush for my lms assignment.. plus later got a talk or whatsoever at church, hope its nor boring man..

Btw, here's a little joke for u

MIRROR MIRROR

There were 3 girls standing in front of a mirror. There was a redhead, brunette, and a blonde. The mirror is a magical mirror. The deal is with it is that if you tell a lie you get sucked in.

The redhead goes and stands infront of the mirror and says, "I think I am the smartest person in the world." Nothing happens.

The brunette does the same and says, "I think I am the prettiest person in the world." Nothing happens.

The blonde goes up and says "I think....." and gets sucked into the mirror.

wanted to blog desperately yesterday but my stupid brud was using my notebk.. Led worship for ALPHA, scared the shit out of me.. Anyway, Sunday's over lah, so its Monday, again! realli hate 8 o'clock lecture, total GARBAGE! *Retard, retard* Deprive me of exploring Snoozeland! That's not all, i forgot to take my pocket money!!! AGAIN!!! always like that.. ARGHH.. Went to Bk timah plaza to haf lunch wid Liz, Jess met us there.. and today we touched on belly hair!! haha cuz of hmmm, a shop!! That was really farnie.. Going out wid them makes me happy, cuz i noe that people like liz appreciate my jokes, and it makes me feel good and healthy haha, happy endorphins are swimming in my bod! Can't believe we actually went for CIP lecture.. i mean its like the other time we were there was like the 1st lect?? Act it wasn't that bad lah, cuz the lecturer was lame and she managed to entertain me a little, i repeat, a little with her chilly jokes... Sun was good today, haha! so i can sun-tan.. but just like Emmanuel, i was born tragically pale too, so its really hard for me to get black, i mean really BLACK. haha.. its my genes.. and self-tanner doesn't really help me, cuz i dun put it on a daily basis, plus its really ex to me... Time flies, its gonna be 7 soon, and the day will be over, before you know it...

Today's a much better day, compared to yesterday.. Supposed to meet Liz on the bus but i missed it! haha cuz went to get smthg then the place dun haf so nid go watsons, then when i was on the bridge, i just see the bus waltzing away from me! hahaha damn funny lor! i was like what the h*ll.. Then was contemplating whether to go for tennis or not cuz really very sian n tired.. in the end me n liz concluded that might as well go this wk then next wk skip since got bstats test.. didn't go for life-meeting.. Sigh.. im always like that, never go and feeling guilt-ridden after that. Duh rite, but that's always the case.. Tennis was quite fun today, crapped many lame jokes n made liz rolled on the ground.. haha.. That's the way things should be, that is to laugh all day round, instead of jus frowning the day away with puckered brows. but sometimes, i have to admit, its hard. Things are beyond our control and we never know what will happen.
Then ZW saw 'Stefanie Sun' in the bus and he was like so excited! haha.. think he really ga-ga over her! Hmmm tuned in to Grace today, quite good lah she, dunno why she say scared.. haha! Spent the whole evening infront of the noteboo, really tink its not good for my eyes. Ugh.. Told Ah Bee i veri tired, dun wished to bk up or play.. She said ok, but i was thinking if i did the right thing.. but guess i really really do need a break, else i'll go berserk! haha..
Ooh and its Valentine's day tomorrow.. Just wonder what i'll be doing.. Study for bstats?? haha.. how romantic that is yah?! Think i'll just be alone, for once, on a sat nite! haha... how exciting!! Suddenly the depressed feeling is back again.. think i nidta see a psychiatrist really soon. always having mood swings every now and then.. its not good, i know, its not good..

i managed to finish my ob project, by God's grace. Saw suaty online, talked to her bout the NCD etc.. Kinda depress suddenly, don't know why but feel that we're like not doing enough for God, in fact not even doing anything for Him. We owe Him so so much. It saddens me that we've not been growing as a church, as one body of Christ. Then we started talking about worship.. i told her i'm realli drained, cuz im either playing or singing everyweek... of course i know it's a great privilege to serve God, but at times it makes me feel realli tired. and i feel that sometimes God is not in the picture. It's not good, i know.. That's why i'm asking God, asking Him to come and gif me directions, to lead me in this walk of life. At times i really really wish to just worship with the congregation, but.. Bk-up singing n playing 2nd keyboard starts to be like a chore for me.. Maybe i shd tell Pastor Phoebe that i need a break.. Sometimes i wonder, God, why am i placed in St James? I'm sure He has his reasons, but just what is it? i guess it will be revealed in His time.. I'm really tired, really really tired, God. btw its 11.30pm...

Oh my goodness! i can't believe im able to do this man! i actually logged in using the correct username n password! Praise God! haha... hmmm oh i got my new phone! Finally... Nothing big but it's super precious to me, cuz have been waiting for a super long time! haha.. then went to bazaar at atrium, bot a pair of flip-flops! haha... so happie! but gotta do my OB individual assignment, *sian*... then its like i went home, but before that i was at shop & save. i wanted to get a copy of Cleo but then ah, the peeps there damn slow, haven pack it properly yet... then everyone's like realli bz, so i was just standing there like a dumbass, dunno who to approach or what to do. Finally i pluck up the courage n went to approach this guy.. then it doesn't come with the mascara thingy. its not that i need that mascara desperately or what, but if wanna get smthg shd get the full whole pack rite?? veri duh lor, wasted my time there procrastinating what to do! Arghh...

OH WHAT A DAY! it started at 9 this morn, to a tutorial which stressed me out weekly.. Made myself happo by the thought of getting a new phone today! But guess what? Turns out that dad forgot to clear the hp bill then muz wait till another day or two! I was so so DISAPPOINTED! Sigh... i realli hate this kinda feeling... makes me feel like i don't belong to the world, and that im just a passer-by.. Really pray n hope that i'll get it real soon.