.: Christmas :.

23rd dec 2005
it started off with a bang at the party in Jess's house.

24th dec 2005

it was a good one i guess. was at church since 1130 in the morn, cos of the music practices. got changed and prepared for the rally. skit went well, msg was short and sweet, and there was the altar call. i thot i could almost felt his disappointment, but owell, thats always the case.sigh.

anyway the real party began in the night when we thon in church. watched dvds but soo many distractions ard, and unless its horror movies, otherwise it wil be hard for me to be glued to the tv set. was nice having eu staying over with us too, since shes always busy. turbs too, but the poor huagu was sick. hais. but nonetheless, had fun tog. and the 3 of us slept on the sofa. it was madness. couldnt really sleep well, kept tossing and turning. seriously nv imagined that to be possible, cos it was really uncomfy, but i guess its the company that really really matters, and im glad my company's always fantastic.

25th dec 2005
yes its christmas. service as usual, exchanged pressies and went over to george+adel's place to visit their newborn! and the babe was uber cute can!humongous eyes, hehs. guess they are over the moon, they have been waiting for 5 yrs for this little precious to come along. and thank God for this best Christmas pressie ever! hehs. then over to SH's place for mini potluck party. 3 of us tagged along too, uninvited, thats always the case. haaa. and we had lotsa liquor. had that rose liquer thingy, then kahlua with eggnog, red wine - merlot, which is rather smooth when it finishes yr throat! niceee~! hehs. i wanttt more.. and that marks the end of Christmas!

remember how i was dreading it, but it all ended on a good note, and boy was i glad. except that i wish they would stop harping on that issue, cos it is really irritating the shit outta me. once or twice is ok, but too many times jus make me feel like puking in yr face, and making me hate u even more. bitch. no one will call u a mute even when u shut up. ok fine i should stop harping on it too. bleah.

jus to thank the peeps who have gotten me pressies this Christmas. truly appreciate each and every gift for it all comes from the heart of giving.

Naomians
- Twinnie darling & eunie for the magnetic board, musical box, mirror and rock candy fr melbs. thanks so much for remembering abt the things i mention. its uber sweet of u! lovelove.
- Mei for the personalised spag
- Rose for the humongous doh-dough set, sweetie who knows that i like playdough
- Nick and Aud for the earrings

Elijahs
- Maggie and Sharon for the sling bag
- Cindy for the necklace
- Fish for the milkshake bath

StJames peeps
- Pastor Phoebe for the chocolate mint sticks
- Wynne and WQ for the earrings
- Suemay for the cute dog soft toy
- Ruth for the hp strap
- Hawk and Brigitte for the plushy dog cushion hp holder
- Aunty Yuhua for the facial foam haha cute
- Hariette and John for the angel ornament
- Dennis for the lolli and biscuits

NP peeps
- Jess for the scrapbook, absolutely touched by that sweet gesture, as well as the necklace
- Lizzie for the zed and zee cup with the nail polish, buffer and shower confettis
- Eve for the earrings

TSS peeps
- Wenjun for the cute chicks boxers! almost wanted to get it for myself but the good Lord provided me with it haha
- Pearlie for the christmas card
- Kaikit for the christmas card

and to many others for their lovely Christmas greetings! thks for making my Christmas a happy affair. and thank God for the greatest and most precious gift that He have bestowed to us. His son - Jesus Christ.

.: so little time, so many things to do :.

isnt't it scary. its already the wee hours of a thursday. and christmas wil be here in jus 2 days time. and i havent got so many pressies. and im sooo broke. 50 odd dollars is not enough u know that?! this is very bad. how i wish for santa to drop me some money fr the sky. ive been good this year k. so i deserve some spare cash. and ive jus heard fr bh that fucking sph aint gonna pay us yet cos she jus got p/t to do data entry. like wth. so what am i gonna depend on for a living? ive absolutely no idea. damnit.

and i need to bake. and i need to do my forbidden fruit thingy, and my banana fondues. damnit. and i will be out shopping tmr. party's on fri. so many things to do. presents not wrapped. so screwed. feel totally wretched. to top it off, my mama had to target that pathetic packet of pistachio nuts which tasted like shit cos it was meant for baking. ahhhhhh. and it wasnt available in shop n save. i had to go giant and buy! damnit. sooo darn screwddd. which leave me nutless, and there aint enough time to do the biscotti. arghhh.

perhaps i should really really jus hide at home this Christmas. that would really save me alot of trouble. i could go missing and have everyone looking for me. haha but prolly not, cos its the festive season to be jolly and everyone else will be having so much fun and last thing on their mind will be the absence of meee.

silly thought. very silly one. sometimes im simply awed by the daft thoughts that keeps popping up in me. cant help it.

and nicks in msn have been getting cheesy and cheesier. turns me off totally. and the real meaning of christmas is so commercialised and diluted. have u realised? proclaimation of the virgin birth of our Saviour Jesus Christ to come and redeem men's sins has been replaced by secular festivity. it shd have been a day to sing "joy to the world, the lord is come", but this world has been encouraged to jus eat and drink and indulge in merry-making. the thought of it jus make me sick. and i dont deny that sm how or rather i've fallen into that pit w/o even realising it. goodness gracious!

lets jus take some time off, and once again be reminded of His birth that makes salvation possible, and let this simple fact jus awe us for a moment.

the flu bug had hit me and i succumbed to it! :'( it has been raining mucus for the past 2 days, and the feeling sure sucks, especially when Christmas is just around the corner. there are endless presents to buy, and what is left of me is 38cents in my bank a/c. and a total of 4 buckeroos in cash. and there are at least 15 pressies which i havent buy, and i simply have no idea how to get it done. cos no money no talk. and dumb sph is gonna pay me only at the end of this mth, which will jolly well be after Christmas. damnit. grrrr.

but the Lord jus provided me. Amen.

so many things running through the back of my mind, and smtimes there leaves behind no time for me to handle them all. human beings are so complex. i wish i could quit playing the guessing game.

i guess friends dont belong to us. i use to take it for granted, thinking that they will be there forever, 24/7, but smhow i guess we need some breathing space. there are jus certain things which are beyond our control. infact there is nothing which lies in our control, for it all belong to Him. and since there is nothing i can do, im jus gonna pray that the Lord watches over each and everyone of His children.

and i believe all things happen for a reason. instead of getting all green cos i dont have a chance to shine, im jus gonna be thankful, and to learn to appreciate the kind of gifts God have planted in sm ppl. and i need to stop laughing/bitching whenever there is a chance/mocking/bringing them down cos it aint gonna help. tho i cant help wondering why i wasnt rope it.

hate it when i feel vulnerable. and emo.

my latest earworm...

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU
Written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

sigh. when u are happy, time seems to not wait for u.

12th dezec
it was a visit to the oriental in the noon, and was indeed an eye-opener for suakus like me. and then over ta camp at changi. thanks turbs for picking me up. was like whining to myself when im there, cos is dirty blah. was glad i was able to sleep tho was tossing and turning at times. and im glad we had a bed to sleep on! shared the single one with turbs.

sort of missing camp already. cos the fellowship was good. was looking back and thinking how childish i was few years ago. all e politics. haha. but this year was really fulfilling. tho it was a tad drama with the 'plagues'. proved a lil too much for me to bear, so i teared a lil. haha.

cooking competition was fun too! totally enjoyed it, tho there were some hiccups. last day was a bonus cos we thot the chalet was booked til thurs, but in the end there was this one day extra. so we spent it swimming, and maiding..

realised anthonys super cutee can. haha. getting to love him!!! lol.

and we sneaked out to have chilli crab. smtimes i hate doing it, cos its like unfair. cos usually turbs and me wil get to go cos we are like the elites. well ok sound bitchy. but is we wil get to go but rose gets left behind. and vincent and ruth came also. so 5 of us with pastor nick. chilli crab dinner. 80 plus buckeroos. didnt know the crabs cost like 50 bucks! madness. but was yummy nv the less. hehs. thanks for the treat tho i know u are nt gonna see this.

and he kept talking abt the reshuffling of cell stuff. i hate to hear it. i know hes prompting us to ask, but smart turbs and me jus shut up. but ruth was askign and asking. haa she was afraid it was gonna affect her cell. but if my speculation's nt wrong, its my cell that needs reshuffling.

and he dropped hint in the car to turbs, on how she can get her revenge on anthony in june. so i guess she wil go to elijah's cell. as for me. =X . is like theyve nv seek us for opinions. so there.

thurs --> an eventful night i think! or rather a series of unfortunate events! haha.. but overall im glad i went. cos i know God has HIS plans for everythig.

have been doing the dishes a whole lot.. fun tho. would have dread it at home, but when everyone's doing it tog, i felt like so happy even when im mopping the floor. hehs.

and bunking with turbs was fun. but i think its fun cos of me. haaaa. cos i always make ppl laugh. heh thick skin eh, but is ok if u dont agree. and it was tickles all night, and the careful analysis of each and every single person before we slept. and how we talk abt the church. i always enjoy such girl talks. luv it. im missing it all already. but the fond memories will last me for some time.

dunno what to get them for christmas. and im so broke. darn it.

1 busy week came and go. jus like that.

i hate free-riders. ugh.damnit. 1 got dinner,and ask when need to submit when the dateline's tomorrow. the other one jus simply dont care/bother, cos she doesnt know a shit as to whats gg on. so there. drove me nuts. and here i am trying so hard to figure out how to get things done but sadly, to no avail.

on a good note, well spent weekend with turbs! now that shes bk, hiak hiak..have been playing mahjong on fri, towning on sat, and harry on sun. woots. loveee yr company turbs~!

and yea i have to agree that some peeps are dominating shit. all they can see is jus a world that revolves around them, and nobody else. smtimes it gets kind of sucky to the extent that i feel like slapping her. LOL. like why shd i even bother when her spouse is trying so hard to appease her?

off ta camp, will be back on thurs~!

this wk flew past exceptionally fast. warped speed! and im so confused. cos smtimes i want it that way, but other times i beg to differ.

was in town today, wanting to get my shoes fr mitju, and when i was there, it wasnt within my sight. =/ no more. sobs. made me learnt a lesson. is like in life, if u want smthg, u gotta just go and get it. any more procrastination and it will all be gone. in a flash that is. oh well. but smthg good came along. (:

sch is cmg to an end soon! yeeps. and turbs is bk.

shitttttttt my hairs so itchy now when ive just washed it like 6 hrs ago. damnit.

christmas celebs
23rd - jess's party 6.30 - 9.00pm
jacq's pajamas party
24th - christmas rally
25th - christmas celebration

hohoho~!

shoot man. that time i asked nick to send me to airport to pick turbs. but turn out he got bbq at diocese cannot goooo. argghhh. so maddening. hahhaa. but then i sort of prayed. a mini one.and then turn out that eu's gonna pick her cos her dada aint free. yay! which means i can tag along. but shucks she havent reply. ahhhhh. ooh she jus replied and said why not! hehs.YAYYYY. hope i can go cos ive already promised her and i dont wanna break it. owellsss.

thanks wenjun babe for lending me yr lappie. yr such a sweetling! hehs. shall treat it with lotsa care & love, i promise! and i sure owe u one! lovelove*

cant wait for next week! where i'll be off ta camp with my lovelies.. and no more sch for like a mth or so. *grins ( :

praise God!

and christmas is cmg....! gonna play first kybrd for christmas service, time to start practicing!

happy happy soul>> (:

whoa. time flies. really it does. and i can already feel the festive mood all ard already. *gushes* woohooooo~! and ive got my pay! and abt half of it is already gone. got jeans,skirt,flipflops,sm christmas pressies. hehs.. its all gonna be so fun!

im feeling a bit sore/blue abt not asked to participate in the skit etc for christmas rally, as well as ccis.. perhaps im someone who likes attention as well. kept forcing myself to laugh it off when i hear them practice the carol, blah. owell.owell. nvm. i guess theres a reason for all that happen.

anyway i just realised how much i love my churchmates. young/old. i loveeee them. not all la, but wil try mega hard.

man the redemption booth at the childrens camp ytd, and it was hell lot of fun. hehs. so many cuties..

its gonna be a busy week in sch, and im already dreading tues. sigh. lets get it over and done with.

mahjong and star awards laters yeeps.

finally got all the pics of the scrapbk uploaded to the pc. seriously im damn proud of this work of art for twinnie! hehs.. and of cos special thanks to nick, aud, fish and suaty for making this possible! if only they will do the same for me! haha.. remember how i yearn for a hand made card year after year fr them.. but i nv seem to get it. owells. shall drop huge hints nxt time round. hehs.

have been playing mahjong for the past 2 nights with the chungs, and i've lost all $420 worth of chips to them! ahhhhh. hehs. not that i cant play well or what ok. it just happened that im in an unlucky streak! BOO. hehs.

one more week and turbs will be BACK!!! yay!

 

everyone is going overseas. eve gg korea. adel gg korea. sijie gg states. hawk+family gg china. then taiwan and hongkong.lalallala. and im gg nowhere. im gg singapore. is that cool or what? even mei might be gg china for wk nxt yr!

was at dynamics of tourism lect today.. and it was on modes of transportation. and im like ahhhhh i wanna go on orient express! so niceee. romance on a train journey! woohoo.. then was attempting my tut and there was this article on future advancemt on rail.. i saw this singapore to london ticket! super cool! i wanna be on that. by hook or by crook.

starting to ponder what i shd do aft i grad. sigh. everything seems to be so bleak at the moment, studying is probably out of the picture. working//too lazy. sigh. but i kinda like the idea of graduating at a young age, cos i deem working at 19 to be real cool n happenin. lol. big dreams out there. mayb i shd just go be a tour guide. cos i jus dont see myself cooped up in a tiny cubicle 9-6 daily. life.. thats life! so many decisions to make, so many things to decipher. yet it is fragile. cos u just dont know whats gonna happen next. and most of the time, there aint too much time for u to know whats happening.

i jus realised how fridays are so precious to me now.

i miss twinnie!!! so much so much. want to rant everythg to her. sigh. confidante gone. sobs.

i must admit its fast, cos its gonna be thursday in another halfie's time. today i shall put down the names of the people who have access to my blog. in random order...

june chin
jesselyn lim
pearlie teo
joanna ng
dorothy soo

yes, just 5, sweet and nice. anyway, smtimes i'll wonder if i had told the right ppl abt my address, but i swat it off with the wtheck attitude, cos its an online journal anyway, and i cant simply put a halt to ppl reading this. highlighted JC cos shes my faithful reader, according to herself, hopefully its a reliable source haha.

anyway. was emailing june chin//jc-white//elizabeth tan//snow-white//crystalwhite//i wanttt//coffeeturncold//pools of bethesda// abt tt issue. and then called her up ta chat. thankful for u girl, cos u sure are 1 differnt friend whom i take on altogether! and some of my deepest darkest secrets actually lie with her.. trust her 101%. looking bk, realised its all possible bcos of Him. there can be no denial. fr the first time we met at marina sqr, nt even knowing hw the other party look like, but havin trust in the Lord that He brings His ppl together! hee.. anyway, we've got a sizzling hot date cmg right up, cant wait already, haha.. sigh. keep me in prayers regarding tt issue k, cos its sure bogging me down.

sigh. and smthg is wrong with my lappy. cant access certain websites. and msn too. sigh. my common tool of communication is gone. nw i can only rely on my faithful gmail who havent gave up on me. haha.

it has been chilly these few days, and im deprived of the sun. sigh. but i enjoy the coolness in a way or so. hmmm. may sun in e day, then chilly at nite? haa. machiam i king.

my mama is way too happenin man.. always out nowadays.. sing song la, fren's son's fren bday dinner she also invited, fashion show, cell grp, prayer mtg, blah.. smhw her life is too happening.. haha.. but gd la. i wanna be like her at tt age too! gg out and have fun, nt stuck at hm and be haggardy, knowing how to wash clothes and cook. nahnah.

saw my previous post abt camp. nothing is gg to stop meee. but now theres the bloody dt. is this a test of faith? hahha. shant read too much into it.

im gonna get that pair of shoes fr mitju. hehs. it appeared in the mag. shows how gd my taste is right. hahaa. i want retail therapy. when is my pay ever cmg in?!!! grrrrr.

random entry. random random.

whee. its monday. and it was a good one. not much blues. hehs. holland v for lunch then off to breko. been eons since i last went there. still remembered how often i use to hang out there with e gang wen pea tok. but now its like everyone's so busy leading their own lives. hardly have much time tog.

wisp is driving me mad. esp when u have fucked up proj mates. haaa. what a bitch. oh well. i must learn to love. i jus wan thurs to come and go. and i sort of cant believe im gg to tea on fri with sj to meet the alumni peeps. realised its crap. but then again, it may be gd to socialise with more vips? hehs. take it as an eye opener to know more ppl.

i miss turbo so much! like they say absence makes the heart grows fonder! and it will be another 2 longgg weeks before she comes bk! sobs. and theres so much i want to rant to her abt. sigh. sigh. sigh.

celeb meis bday on sunday. so fun. surprise surprise! did the biscuits curl for her from 7pm til 12.30 am. bake it, dip iin choc, roll in pistacho nuts. yummss hahaha. and the cake was fabulicious, tho i dont like it cos its cheesecake. haha they were wanting for more! hehs. so glad she's happy. at least she wil know that im nt bias. tho i am. haaa.

so mad on saturday abt that bloody issue. why the hell must she blurt it out. argh. nvm. what said is said and cannot be undone.

and i break thru!! went for lunch with eunice. jus me and her. it was tough k, but im so glad she talked pretty much. guess she chooses to talk to certain ppl ---> thats me haha. was strugglin, cos apprehensive la. most of the time shes super quiet. nt quiet. perhaps just that she doesnt like to talk. hehs. breakthru. woohoo!!

and eus bday is ard the corner. and they were saying we shd prolly not celeb for her cos it wil be so awkward, and mayb like last yr, leave all the gifts in her house as a surprise. thot that wil be kinda sad but least that wouldnt be so awkward?! worstill, diam aint ard at this pt of time. sigh. she miss 2 bdays lehs.

ahhhhh. cant wait for 19th dec.

was remisnicng abt youth camp last yr. abt the stuff she shared under the covers. the stupid dilemma which im glad she made a smart choice. had to like keep knocking sense into her. and how i kept singing the songs. haaa. was gd. so glad i decided to skip sch during then to go. learnt much more. and hw we would sneak out to have decent meals when the cooked one sucked. then the www where we were both so sick with sore throat, and that silly sex position. so much funs. but this yr, got that stupid domestic trip. but then, im bent on going, so nothing is gonna stop me. i hope.

mei's sweet 26th hatchday

 

pirates party//mama's bday

 

whoa whoa whoa. cant believe it. retail therapy can even take place in sch. all the bazaars. got the faded denim skirt which i have been looking for centuries ago. smmore so cheap, 15 dollars nia! and earrings too. sigh. im so mad abt earrings can. got another pair today with jess at tpy! earrings fetish. mayb sound kinda bimbotic here, but i cant help feelin that all the earrings i get and those that i already possess are all like damn stylo can. all very different fr the usuals. ahaa. and im so brokeee. when is sph ever gonna pay me?! *screams*

heartland shopping with my babes today. hahaa. ok la. i admit i can be too crazy at times. lame, noisy, auntie etc etc. i shall try to tone down before getting cursed by ppl!

sch is craps. taking too much of my time. beginning to loathe it. *pulls hair*

whoa. its wednesday.

tues. went over to twinnies hse and pass the sb to her. silly girl cried. ahaha.. and said she doesnt wanna go to aussie. -.- then she was packing her stuff and i fell asleep. damn. tendency to sleep at frens hse. weird. hehs. then she send me hm then said bye! one thing for sure, im gonna miss this babe like mad. already missing her absence already!

today. whoa. aint i proud of myself. 2 wholesome hours of tanning ALONE. like i say, im an independent girl. and the sun was fabulous. lurvve it. tho it was a tad too hot. shall not do it too often. skin cancer.

gonna play first keyboard on sunday again! woohoo. so excited. hope its nt all the conceitment. i just wanna play for God. to fully utilise what he have given me before he takes it back. wonder when sph will ever ever get me my pay. have been waiting like what seemed ages. checking my a/c every other day. have given up now, cos all i see is a $1.10 in my a/c. yes thats jus how pathetic i am.

im dying to go for a holiday. but nothing/no one can bring me there w/o money.

gonna see twinnie 3 weeks laters! yay.

when was the last time u hugged yr mama and u both cried together? it just happened to me last nite. was pondering how unfair God was, and i was just stucked when i said my routine prayer which doesnt even last for more than a minute. i didnt know what to say anymore. thank Him? that sounds kind of absurd. have been praying regarding the issue umpteen times. and we've waited for so long, faced the never ending disappointments. so i guess i need to take it down lke how i always do.

life is never fair. having lived for 19 years, ive nv been any further than thailand, and it was just a few hrs trip kinda thing cos i was on cruise and they made a stop there. ppl ard me are all gg to the states, to aussie, to korea, thailand, shanghai, taiwan, hongkong etc. and sm are gg to aussie like for the 2/3 time in a row this year. but i kept them all to myself. i nv once complained tho secretly in my heart, i wished that smone would bring me on a tour. or simply an air tix where i can go unwind in another lovely creation of God. but i was nv given the chance, and i think its time i stop fantasizing about all these. realised that its of not much pt,and in the end, all i get is an angry crack in my heart. and i kept asking God, i say why, why can't i just go on a holiday with my family jus like any other of my frens. but there was never an answer. perhaps im just wallowing in self-pity. imponderables.

perhaps i shouldnt even expect so much. afterall, who am i to be thinking of such issues?

sigh. i hate getting emo in the nite. its taking a bad bad toll on me. damnit.

first wk of proper sch with tutorials have been great. and i truly thank God for that.. all the people that He have planted in my life. some go some stay, but im glad for those who stayed. and have been spending time with dots too before she leaves for aussie on tues. was just wondering abt sm stuff, and i thot he was gonna send her off, and thats the case i wil sure follow. then he ask me hw and when im gonna pass the thing to her. wth la.

and i blogsurf and saw this nice pair of green birks. omg. is so pretty and i've set my eyes on it already. gonna get that once i get my pay. confirm plus guarantee chop. then again, i think its like duh to spend 99 buckeroos on a pair of slip ons. ahhhhh. but i had wanted to get it so so much.

theres the pirates party tmr, and also my mamas bday. but i aint too excited abt it la. aand i havent got aud's bday pressie. shit happens. ahaha.

i have 5 friends who knows my blogadd. haha wah what a nice number. FIVE.

and ive ran out of ideas for the SB, so im gonna rope in the others to help as well.

anyway im thankful that my dada loves my mama so much and vice versa. daddy called me when i was napping and asked if he shd get a cake tmr since he got that voucher, but hawk's gonna get it so told dad no need. so sweet right my churchmates.even my mama's bday is like their affair. smhw, im so thankful for each and everyone of them.thats hw different they are fr the rest of the world.

shall skip dt tmr and go tan with twinnie... and wil pray for good weather, so that nothing will thwart our bbq...

monday. no blues. happiee again cos i went out ta play with turbo.diaso followed by concourse. got my uber cutesy note pad! and the correction tape.hehs. cheap thrills.

have been pigging out and feasting like theres no tomorrow these 2 days. its horrendous. our appetites are humongous. lunch yesterday was pad thai at thai express, she had laksa, then we shared a ruby smthg, dinner was carls jr. huge burgers with rings, fries, zuchinnis. burp. lunch today was 2 big bowls of steaming handmade noodles, with carrot cake as side, as well as fried dumplings. -.- dinner was beef horfun at geylang, with calamari, straight after that we headed for soya bean with you tiao. -.-'

burp.

i want my bed.

ok sampat say must blog about happy things, then blogsurf less, and i will be a much happier person. so instead of lamenting on how bad things were, im gonna give it all a thumbs up! deprived of sleep nowadays, getting irritated by the slightest of things. grrrr. but still, i will blog abt happy stuff. so there u go.

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HAPPY.

hahaha.

ok thats craps. anyway was over at concourse cos auntie needed to get sm stuff, saw this uber cute notebk that i wil get tmr which is erm later in the day! by hook or by crook, and the other stuff which i can get for christmas! is like so exciting can. hehs. i can already feel the holiday spirits of Christmas! anticipating my 2 week break fr sch already. sheesh.. that will take effect on the 19 dec - 2 jan! is that cool or what. meanwhile, im gonna make the best out of everythg.

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have been spending the whole of friday cruising around with cher driving. went all the way to SP to eat pizza, thinking that it would be cheaper there but we were so wrong, so drove back ta bk timah plaze to eat pizza hut haha. how funny eh. got lift to church and did my tutorials there. omgoodness im so hardwking. wahaha. then got a lift fr turbo back home then bathe and waited for chers to come pick me up. cruised from bt timah to yishun, then to katong to fetch glen, then to changi to see bapoks! damn funs. love all the bapoks seeing sessions. haha. jus laugh my ass off. then off ta geylang for beancurd with youtiao! woohhoo yummy. realised we spend abt 3-4 hrs in the car. wth. then sent glen back then eve, then my turn then sijie.

today. oh wells. jus too shock by the words. being too close aint too gd at times. cos we take one another for granted. and tears. hated it. and she left just like that. saddening la. smtimes i think we are jus very silly pigs. to think weeping in the bus. i did it in the toilet. so thtas nt so bad. glad its cleared tho. lets hope our sunday will be a good one, cos saturday was already wasted.

i dont understand how some ppl can get so worked up easily.its like cmon get a life, and stop being so pissed at every single thing. we are brothers n sisters in christ, and what is it that we cannot resolve properly with the love of God. right! sigh. human beings.all the same. thats why we need God.

ive been waiting forever and my pay have not come in yet! sians. lets hope and pray that they didnt get the a/c number wrong cos if that happens, im gonna hang myself.=/

and the first day of school came, and started with a bang! got a lift fr chers bf to sch. first lect was hotel n resort mgmt, they said the lectureer's cute, but to me it was jus so so.. haa his lecture was boring, but at least he's young, so thats nt too bad. seems easy. telling us all abt the diff hotels, hw many stars rated, blah.. then was air travel mgmt, which was kinda cheem. think must attend lect for that mod. then i think theres sm study trip during my camp wk, which is like wth la. sians. i wanna go camp. ugh.

lunch with sj eve n sjs frens. weird man. anyways, went to sijies hse to attempt baking cheeesecake. but we forgot to buy sour cream! ahhhh. so eve was searchiing online for sm other recipes, then sijie and i fell asleep. aha til 5 plus then me n eve left, sijie stil asleep. haa what a day. and im offf ta stay over at the chungs with turbo. gonna help nick color his hair. whoa.

hope this semester wil be a gd one man. kbox during 3 hrs break on fri. haaa all planned out! hehs. wonder when my pay wil ever ever come in! am super duper brokes nw. damnit.

sigh. think i can get really vicious at times. the kind of thoughts i harbour. tsk tsk. hahaha. but i aint gonna feel too bad abt tt. meanie me. helped turbo but sort of teaching her hw to play the bass/trumpet. she was like so stressesd, screwed also. haha. but aiya first time is always like that what right! my first time was way worse! scary that it.

sunday.. nydc for lunch, then bk ta church to print the pics so that i can start on my scrapbking, but its super tough. no idea how to get it started at all. its so frustrating. had a gd laugh with reverend when we watched all those stupid daft adverts. jus realised james can talk n blabber a hell lot. really is in the genes i guess. but at least he is farnie, unlike the sis. aahaha. meanie me. laugh til i cry hahaha. then over to orchard to window shop, and fish was telling me abt the guy who stared at me from top to bottom. and i jus laugh it off. shdnt have wore black undies when my skirt is like so translucent. but heck, who cares man. isnt turbo's plunging neckline worst? ahaha.. anyway received many compliments, made we fly up. haaa. woohoo. had dinna at adams then nick sent us hm. hahaa part of the reason why i love hanging out with them, cos they wil send me hm. even when gg for music pracs, or when i need to play for sunday svcs. hahaha and the list goes on.. but of cos i love their company as well la. they are such nice n fun ppl to be with.

am missing my shoulder pad n braces fren already! cant wait for her to finish her paper on wed and then we can have a whale of a time! 2 weeks! and they off she goes to aussie, which i am rather worried abt. dunno what on earth she wil be doing there. but since thers nothign i can do abt it, im gonna keep her in my prayers and ask that the Lord wil look after her.. hehs.

and mei is in taiwan now. sent me an sms when she was at the airport ytd. can tell that she very much cherished this frenship. guess she must have been rather sad to see me so close with turbo. but nvm la, she stil got eugene and audrey. and afterall, im so much younger than her. hmm what a weird excuse.

what a long entry. thats when u are so damn borred at hm and wanna start doing smthg which u have absolutely no idea how to go by it. arghhh.

hmmm woke up at 1.30 today. shiok. head felt less terrible. but throat stil bad. cough out disgusting yucky phlegm with tinge of blood in it. yucks. big pieces. bleah. haha.

was talkin to eve and she asked me what she shd wear to go club tmr since the themes halloween. suddenly felt so tempted to go zouk on monday wit jess they all tho i haven heard from her personally that shes gg. cos i can wear my purple polka! and get thsoe fake long lashes! then look like fat barbie girl. haha literally barbie ( pig) hahaha. either that or like what charmaine say look like wilma in flint stones! woohoo then can pile on the mascara, eyeliner, eyeshadow etc. funs funs. but no kakis to go with. hmm. and im lazy. hmm and i dont wanna lie to mama. no pt. so i wil prolly stay hm. or go esplanade to catch the unexpected! too bad turbo got exams, else she wil sure go espl with me! hehs.

and i made the calls today. felt super accomplished aft i made abt 15 calls. haa was dreading it., but am so glad its almost done. left ard 3-5 calls! yay. happy. think of the money i get even happier. cant wait to see the hopefully fat sum in my bank a/c soon! aft ard 2 weeks of calling ppl. some stupid ones too.

poor daddy. if i were him, i would have been scared too. but he shd have a little more faith in God, and in my brother, and in mummy too. hope it gets approved of. then i shall jump up n praise Him. then again, i shdnt wait til then. anyway mei was telling me abt eug and i told her i blogged bt it too but nt telling her the add. haaa. same sentiments.

tmrs sat. mayb wil drop by to help the girl. gotta play on sun for canto. which means up at 730. ahhhh. madness redefined.

spinning around --> kylie minogue

jus when i thought i was the healthiest of all among the lot, i was proven wrong. smhw smthg reminds me of ---> Satan strikes us when we think we are at our strongest. my head's heavy, like spinning n spinning, and i can begin to feel the lump rising up my throat. damnit. i fucking hate sore throats. how to even make those calls tmr! ahhhh.

reluctant to go down to yew tee in e morn, but smhw drag myself off the bed, had beancurd and off i went.thank God the papers were selling fast today. by 1030, all 60 copies were swept off. the uncle gave me sweets today. haha then i bot 8days, and he gave me both freebies. hehs. cheeap thrills. but realy tank God for their niceness. make me nt dread standing there. but right nw i really need a rest, aft abt 2 wks of wk. totally zonked. took a nap for 3 hrs, head felt heavy, just want to kip sleeping. force myself to wake up at 5.30. ah. is this a sign of fever? i sure hope not.

poor eunice is down too. and turbo has lost her voice box and puked blood. omg. how jialat is that! scary. and her papers were bad. sigh. lets jus hope the nxt 2 wil be fine. looking forward to the pay from sph. just that i wonder when.

whoa. hehs. no one asked abt my blog yet, except chers. haaa. gonna keep it a secret, until when i need audience. haa but not for now. mayb nt her as my audience. what a bitch--> me. haa. yesterday was a big hooha at sph. the mad man who made bee har cried over the phone, and drove taknee bonkers n called the other lady idiot. this kinda man shd be castrated. damnit. bastard like what the other girl say.

ytd night called quite a lot aft we cam bk fr dinna. haha. cos got al the private residences which made it much easier to called. think shall go there today n tmr, and thats it! dont think i wanna do the SM morning papers. hahaa.

this fris the bbq but apparently, they are all nt recovered yet. sgih.like that hw. alamak.seems like a gd day to suntan!! but gotta wk later. sians.

woohoo! i changed my blog address again! wahaha. cos of the zara incident.damnit. was bloody pissed when i saw the post. wtf. bitch. fuck u. gonna stuff u with PORK the next time i see u. arghh.

anyway, cremecheeks sound uber cute can, haha. so happy with this name. jus suddenly dont feel like having np peeps reading my blog. so i prolly tell this to june, wenjun, and other sjccc peeps shd they ask for it.

watched flightplan today, quite boring, but at least can hangout tog with twinnie, thats nt too bad. poor her, lost her voice. and some are down with sore throat etc. poor george n adel, cmg down with fever and everythg. hope everyone else wil stay healthy man. wil cont to keep them all in prayers. was thinking abt the bf issue again. how long would i have to keep waiting ah?! or shd girls actually take the first move? hmmm sure is a issue that is imponderable. sigh. life, filled with endless imponderables.

and we didnt get the bank loan. and shes on the verge of insanity. told twinnie abt it. lets hope she keeps it a secret. im trying nt to hide too much fr her, since we're almost so close. well i guess life is nv fair, and everyone have their fair share of problems. jus dont understand when it comes to an end. either when God comes, or we go find HIm first.

today played first for svc. i must say i wasnt really scared or stressed. just that the day before i wept buckets, thanks to my mama. and the sudden want to change from the key of D to C 5 mins before svc almost drive me bonkers. stil , thank God for this brand new area of serving Him.

its modnay already. have to wk again. one more wk to sch. damn.

anyway, happy to see eug come up to altar to receive blessings from Rev. hope slowly, He accpet Christ as His Lord and savior. as for gary, .......

finally a break from the calls. met up with lizzie n jessie on wed for awhile in town. crapped tons n neoprints again.wahaha. then off ta wk, this time brought lizzie along. then today went town again with kaikit. been ages since we last met up. hehs. and i got the watch n a top. been doing quite some retail therapy. luckily my loanshark's nt haunting me. caught skeleton key. damn pissed off by this girl who kept screaming at every single scary scene. shd put some sandpaper on her ass.
p.s. so jess n liz must think of smthg else to buy for me! i dont mind some exodus shoes, or birkenstocks, madrids pls, in size 38. lol.

//back to wk again tmr. yawns. pirates party postponed. boo.
//miss turbofren. sat breakie quick come.
//ive been making more n more sense nowadays. pat on the bk.

happy birthday JADE

see those sweet bandanas n the attached note? hehs. all done by amei. so sweet & nice right! meant for our pirates party but it has been postponed to a later date. stil, thanks babe, lurrvve it!

 

past wkend

 

charmaine n mooncher

 

sundays. i always love them.

raining cats n dogs e whole time, so we bot cup noodles n ate at church.yumms. aft which went for porridge buffet//bugis//mustafa. and i made a silly remark//def on e brink of tears. smtimes i dont know why i say such hurtful stuff. sigh. lets just hope that nobody gets too affected. in one ear n out the other. no more maskings. cos im so sick and tired of it all. so nw its the real exhaust pipe that u know. 100% genuine/authentic/real. even i myself was surprised at how honest i was, baring my heart+soul.

then had yummy soya bean milk with you tiao, xiaolongbao, yummy porkflossegg crepes at geylang. shiok!

working at sph today. mktg-R&D dept. nice environment!!! i likeeee.super high ceiling.. felt like a journalist.lol.krapps. hee. basically making outgg calls regarding the delivery svcs of newspapers vendor. quite relaxing, but my throats kinda hurting. TN said that we can even go to the library and read the mags there etc! funs. pays quite gd too. woohoo. tmr bee wont be gg in the morn, so its me alone again! breakthru once more i hope. hahaha.

but im so tired now. completely zonked out. fell asleep while chatting online just now. gonna turn in early today. chaaaa~!

14th - it was a gd day of cycling n kayaking tho the weather was very much unpredictable. this time i rode on a mountain bike, n the feeling was q diff, scary infact. kept braking suddenly, was almost thrown out a few times. on the verge of knocking others down too.lol. kayaking was damn shiok n relaxing tho it was a mere 1 hr. nice calm peaceful sea. tranquility. hehs. then caught the wig which i must say FREAKED me out totally. was so scared that i went ta twinnies house to bunk with her. slept at the attic.so funs. except for the squeaky bed.shant go into details. she have been my source of atm the whole time.hehs.cos i had no cash with me.haaa. hope she can continue being my atm tho.

15th - went to her sch cos she had to return bks. off ta church tho i had no prac. haaa fun jamming time with the babes. then lunch then send fish to get her stuff and he was there.omg. hahahaaa. need to thk my jie-jies for winding the window down n then saying hi for me. have been doing some retail therapy recently. got 2 tops, shoes fr p.o.a n my flipflops from island shop. cheap thrills. happieee* over to tanglin mall, then to katong to get the awfully choc banana n choc cake for hock's bday. then went over to surprise him with the jiejie n gorgor. i like our version of 933 bday song. damn nice + funny.

can't believe how truthful i'm trying to be cos i take this frenship seriously, so it = no hidings/wearing of a mask. being a shoulder pad n braces fren 24/7. lol she told me her pin number, and i was like super excited when i attempted to draw money! madness.

just endless funny affairs these days. am thankful. am on cloud 9 stil. (:

sneek peek

on cloud 9 recently. and realised im turning into a much more independent girl nw. infact, i didnt expect that kind of change nor did i see it coming. life's rather rosy right at the moment. and thankfully the peeps whom i telesurveyed were all nice n patient. hehs. and the uncles at the kiosk were so nice, offering me chair/water/newspaper, most imptly helping me to push the sales of the papers, tho that wasnt really my concern. still, am glad that i overcome my fears.

and tommorrow wil be a even better day cos im going to ECP again! mac breakie at kap, cycle n kayak hopefully at ecp! decided not to cos we might just tip u into the sea. so its all for yr own safety. aft which we gonna go wigging. woohoo! shit. think im gonna be so damn broke.

time-table's out already. and u can say im happy with it, except for the fact that we have classes at 9am daily.sucker. stil, i knock off at 1pm on mon + wed, n since tues noon is lecture, i shall jolly well skip it!

off to PS nw. tata~!

sunday 9th oct - cheese fondue
me//cute miniature apples at 6thaves coldstorage//dot
us//weekly creaming session//us
//me n my mask//
it doesnt look like a sanitary napkin k auntie. it doesnt. haaa.
couldnt stand the pungence of the cheese fondue. cos it had white wine in it, which made it taste bitter and smelt terrible. ewwww.

charis//daryl//brian
joel//joy//ewen
ethan//joshua//katrina

ecp with mamadot

groggy voice over the other end when i gave the morn call at 11. went over to her hse n rot while she get ready. then we went down town to change a bus. was walkin at e underpass n was demonstrating how i was tanning at home when i suddenly realised my left hand had hit a uncle right at his tummy. oops. so paiseh. hee. n i pronounced marine parade as marade parine. hw smart. me n my endless kukus acts.

and managed to get there ard 2pm hehs. nt bad. shes rather streetwise, so we got down at the right stop n minimised walking. and we rented the bikes. heh. it was hell lot of fun, but i was really scared that i'd fall so didnt managed to even balance during the first half n hr. but slowly got the hang of it! hee mayb can ride say 50m? lol. shall go bk there again soon!

im truly touched by what this girl has done for me. just wanna appreciate her for all those. firstly was lending me an extra shirt jus in case i needed it. then she brought a handkerchief for me as well, so that we could wipe ourselves aft that. brot cheezels jus in case we'll get hungry. she didnt get to cycle much cos she had to teach me how to ride a bike. then she went to buy drinks for me. held my drinks when i was nt finished with it. carry my bag for me, took care of all the rental fees. got me my 2nd drink at mac. remembering abt my results. being so encouraging n patient. all these will plaster a smile on my heart. besides thankful, its still thankfulness for letting us cross paths. definitely cherish this kinda of sisterhood, cos i believe i can never find them elsewhere.

anyway, it was an actionpacked day with all those weird characters appearing at ecp. first was the man who asked if can ride our bike?like wth.scary. 2nd came the really loose man, one look n u know he's bo ho say. 3rd came the man who sung to himself. and the stupid 7-11 uncle who thot we were stealing sanitary napkins. stooopid uncle. asshole. see him again n i'll give him the middle finger. _|_

*amazed by the kind of music
simply awed.

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met "snow-white" in the morn at np lib cos she wanted to borrow bks and she is no longer a student at np.being the nice xiaojia, i woke up bright n early and got to sch to lend her my matric card. (:

miss wee says she expect to see a post when she wake up from her beauty sleep. 1b+,3bs,1c+ booboo. thankful.

dreamt that i got a few As for my results. haaaa. then smhw woke myself up and realised its jus a dream, which is the total opposite of reality. =/

sometimes i wish u will care a little more. but well, i've learnt to cope with it.

pressie//ronald macdonald's hamburg mould//playdough//cute
my first children's day present since a decade ago?lol
from my mamadot

town+bugis jalan with wenjun before her nightmare begins. and we saw suhadah! how happy. ( :

 

saw this woman at bugis mrt with super long hair. freaky. hantu! ahhhh

 

this is long overdue. patrina.

 

was a big boo boo ytd. the approach by that negro sure left me freaked out. but then again i thot it was kinda funny. so didnt manage to turn up. sigh. what an eventful nite. felt to silly. stuck in nehnehs land. oh well.

anyway was reading lizzies blog and my name was right on top, regarding the big 7. ugh. so i have to get it done, since she would love to see me do this. haaa.. requires lot of thinking so will try ta post it up sometime soon. hehheh.

and this stupid friendster actually allows u to see who have viewed your profiles. damnit. now i've become a stalker. haaa. luckily i can change the settings to viewing others' profiles anonymously. otherwise, i think i wouldnt dare frenster anymore hahaha.

going tanning with wenjun later.yay.please let the sun come out to play.

 

caught the dukes of hazzard with wenjun today... at great world! the latter is mad la. funny she laugh, not funny she also laugh. making hell lot of noise. madness. not the usual peeps i hang out with! anyway shes my sec sch fren, and my gg hm companion cos she stays near me. another good fren that im gonna keep forever! and she said that hanging out with me makes her happy cos i always got lotsa lame antics! haa! kinda flattered. hehs*

btw he's so nice to me nowadays. gave me 20bucks. how nice. and he's gonna give me his ipod shuffle cos he got a nice new NANO! damn it. NANO. wth. then he showed me this webbie where they got nice ipod shuffle skins which are absolutely cute & pretty, and he said i can choose 2/3! so sweet can! im gonna get those in the pic! anyway im nt really into these kinda mp3, whatsoever, so im taking it as a bonus! hehs.. goodness.. how nice.. i am soooo touched.

and yes i wil turn up for the bbq. cos of chers & her testi. she got me this time!

supposedly class gathering at geylang ytd. so much for the turnup. but still less is more.

me jess//me eve cher//babes alert//
glen ordering food//yummy beef horfun//glen serving us
niceee soya beancurd with youtiao//at the kallang station cntrl

went tanning with wenjun today and the sun was soooo gd! happieee

 

bbq craze was still ongoing yesterday nite. madness. this time w/o eunice. poor girl fell sick. anyway it was a great time of worship. right mei. hee. i enjoyed it totally. and i hope that it wil nt just be that 2 hrs on sunday, but in fact each and everyday. cell was short and sweet. can sense that its somewhat getting better, am thankful for that. lets just hope that the r/s with one another n with God wil grow deeper. gr8 to have eug join us for a lil while too. ( :

jubilee church aft seminar//going bananas at giant//
yes bbq again lol//the pro skewers//

 

was over at the hawker centre for lunch aft cell and we saw this chao ah lian aunty! check out her thong. its enough to rid me off my appetite! like gross can! and her tattoo. *pengsan

 

my charlie's angels. i was clad in the yellow youth tee.ugh.

 

i scared 3 person silly today. 1 during the seminar, 1 at marina sqr, 1 at ikea. sigh. i think i need to stop my retarded antics. i basically wrang my but the expressions worn on their faces were priceless.

instead of getting inspired and all that at the seminar, i concluded that im not musically inclined. super low morale can! ahhhh. madness. but company was gd la. drove each other nuts. sometimes im quite ashame of the way i behave. is totally outrageous, no respect whatsoever for others. i will try to change for the better. and when we thot the seminar wil end at 3.3, it finished at 5.3. hunk+babe came pick us and we headed for carls jr. hehs.satisfied.then off to ikea to get stuff then went to have dessert. like i said, life has been good.

ytd was good too. except that the weatherman failed us again. ugh. went ta find adeline ytd.. humongous house la! madness. and to think shes not afraid of being in there alone when george's outta town. brave brave. *applause* 3 storeys high with a attic, and its super dark! anyway her hse's way cool with all the latest electronic gadgets in town, --> A VIRTUAL KEYBOARD! --> check out the pic! and tablet pc in the kitchen, iBook in the room, PSP, tons of PDA, PDA phones, ipod mini, shuffle, and the list never end!! and theres all the nice nice mirrors in the warm light.. hee.. thats why i say its impt to marry a rich fella, cos u get provided for. hahaaa..

which brings me to a rather sad story la. my mamas fren suspect her husband got an affair with a maid who lives below them. sigh. and she is like damn sad, asking my mama what she shd do. apparently, she said that her husband like kena gong tao *black magic* like that.. kept drawing money and giving it to the maid.. sigh.. and she dont have money to hire a PI, so she sort of at her wits end. so sad. i was thinking mayb i can go try snap pics of her husband and the maid. hmmm.

sometimes i cannot believe how _ _ l _ _ h people are. yucks. the thot of it is revolting enough. puiii* its unbelievable. just bcos u dont like someone means that i have to follow suit. poof*

on a lighter note, i've been enjoyin myself thus far. tues was spent with patrina in town, and ive got cheap thrills! white shoes that is.. i think i got a fetish for white shoes.. hee! grins..but sigh i think its a tad girly.

attempted to go swim alone on wed. but to no avail, cos when i got to the pool, the dumb thunders came and scare me.. haaaa! hope the sun wil be good tmr.. will be visiting my best fren's wife tmr since he's away in beijing.. hee..

meanwhile, i just realised that picasa is hell lots of fun! kept me entertained while im online with those picture grids and collage! and the adjustmt of brightness intensity.. wahaha~! im get entertained pretty easily!

i miss 1+2b21 peeps! cos they rock and 3b18 sucks! whoops.

 

miss those days...

 

wheee~! ever since hols begun on fri, the most fun i really had was yesterday nite!

another round of bbqing biao ge, this time we did it at church! hehheh hush hush affair! i thought the peanut butter toast were heavenly.. went out to buy disposable pits with dot. felt so paiseh when we strutted to cold storage cos i was clad in a t-shirt and a really cannot make it pair of shorts which dot said looked like boxers. -.-" came back running cos we were so scared of the door that was opened. haaa. that wasnt the worst. screamt in fright when aud wave at us and let out a "hello!" scared us outta our my wits.

super cosy, warm, and nice feeling, like having a slumberparty! after that we had a movie marathon, exorcist the beginning, and deuce bigalo2 i think.. exorcist was a little slow but i enjoyed it! hahaaa.. weird tho cos only 2 of us screaming away. then came deuce bigalow and only 2 of us laughing. shortly aft the movie started, 2 of us were already drifting into slumberland. sigh. hopeless* theres either smthg wrong with the 2 of us, or theres smthg wrong witht the 4 of them. went back at 1+.. plonk myself unto the bed!

actually it wasnt the things that we did that made me so happy. its the company. i have ALWAYS loved their company, even tho at times they drive me insane from their incessant crazy talk, i still very much love them.hee. naomians that is. and of cos nick n audrey. everytime when i think abt it, i cant help but thank God for placing this grp of ppl in my life. its just amazing how He let us cross paths with one another. so glad we held on despite all the differences we had. and i am so glad to have eunice back with us too. and gracie too..

and thats why im so close to em. i just cant seem to find that kind of frenship/relationship elsewhere. and once again all these can happen cos of HIM. and its the faith we shared that bind us together.

emo emo. lol.

so vexed, so sick. i am beginning to hate myself. and i am so mad at myself. bad beginning. why do i always allow such issues to bog me down. im determine to shut my trap so that i dont appear stupid all the time.

the way they drive me mad is indescribable. bottomline - guys suck and they shd just go fuck each other and then die.

p.s. JC i love u like theres no tommorrow.

over at the esplanade last saturday - mei's concert!

inside the concert hall