Wheee~! Time to PARTAYYY n make MERRY! Whoa whoa whoa. Yesterday was our Integrated Presentation and as of now, i am OFFICIALLY FREE! Woohoo! free fr sch, that is! hehheh..so fast, 1 sem down! and i am so happy, and words cannot express how elated i am! heehee.. and i wanna thank God for the little miracle which He had given me. i am simply awed by His faithfulness, even tho i am sucha bad girl, He stil loves me so much so much.

special thanks to NICK: for helping me ta draw the pics! thank u so much! and to 2 BABES who called to ask abt iscream finals. so touched, winning doesnt seem to matter anymore when i have u gals by my side!

time to start mugging for exams, which is like 10days away. but thankfully there are only 3, yes 3 papers~! woot.

Consolation for love-i-scream. guess its rather obvious that we were super disappointed, haha.. but well, guess weve gave it our best shot, so well done guys! lol. strutting ard orchard in blazers n pumps was definitely funs! first time ok! like when wil one ever ever get to wear the sch blazer!lol. trigger happiee~! then had filming for our proj at long johns -->mejessevemarilyn.. haa was damn funny, laughing like mad when we saw the clips.

the route to little india to find my dearies was a happy yet traumatising one! couldnt wait to see them, after a hell week of sch/projs/stress/tension/miscomms/fakers/bitches/sluts/bastards, oops ok enough im getting a lil outta hand. arrived at little india, got out from the exit, and all the lulus ard were like staring at me. sigh. hated it. then had to find my way to tekka mall, but i ended up trapped in a road whr there are NO chinese, but all nehnehs, and right in front of me theres this KERBAU HOTEL! liz glen jess if u are reading this, haaa jerky boys you kicked my dog. like wth! laugh like mad when i called dot and asked her where they were. classic man. hahaa i was like damn scared, so thot i had better head back to the mrt station, and try walking towards the other direction.. then walk thru the mkt, thinking there migh be an exit at the other end, but nooo, there wasnt! and the walk in the mkt was horrible, it stank like MAD. hhahaa. action packed day. then had ddinna there, went off to harbour front coffee club and ate browniee n strawberry stranoff or smthg. yummy. chocolate decadence. needed happy food to perk me up! hehs, so it was off to having sinful stuff!

anyway, im so glad to see my favies aft sucha long n hectic.. always happy when im with them. so thankful to God for letting us share the same faith.sometimes i wonder what wil happen to me if God havent place them in my life. ( :

.: Madness Redefined :.

this week has got to be the busiest for this sch term. the integrated proj is driving me bonkers, and killing me softly. its not that i dont wanna do work, but rather i have absolutely no idea how to get it started as well as not knowing what is expected of the project. can u imagine? its like 4 modules' work incorporated into a 45 min presentation. and yes we're lucky no. 1. first class to present on monday, and FIRST GROUP to get the ball rolling. right. freaking 8.30 in the morn. grrrr. then again, i think there are some perks pertaining to that. hehs. so anyway, im glad in a way, cos after that can hit the books straight away.

solution selling call later, mrs tay's really nice, but stil the thought of it is nerve-wrecking. can already feel the butterflies bumming ard in my tums nw. sigh. just wanna get over it! and afterwhich we gotta integrate all the slides together. *screams* have been fretting abt the proj these few days, but theres this peace in me,knowing that He is in charge, and that He wil lead us on step by step. and yes, im truly thankful, for this part by part completion of the proj. tho its nt done yet, i know its Him who's been guiding us thus far, and making all these possible..

and tommorrow's our I-Scream Finals. somehow happy & proud that we managed to get into the final 6. tinge of excitement, hee.. was recalling how i kept telling ppl nt to come, nt telling them the exact date of the competition, blah blah, but nw that i know they wont be coming, i cant help but feel disappointed. haha.. contrary old bitch yeah..sigh. somehow i just wish that they will pop by, even if its for a short period of time say 5 mins? wishful thinking. but anyway, if u happen to see this, and thought mayb u would like to drop by to take a look/support us/etc, its at Cineleisure, 27aug (sat), anytime from ard 12pm to say 5pm. nt sure if its outside or inside tho. but i think most prollly outside, there wil be booths all ard. and if u see this grp of 3 gals n 1 guy in NP blazer, thats us ---> LOVE - I - SCREAM. ( :

Trichotillomania is coming back to haunt me. LOL.

yikes! im gg EM lect tmr, cos its revision lect! sucks. *pui. hate mondays. hate hate hate em! arghhh.

sometimes i think i got a very high tolerance level. really. its amazing how i can keep my cool towards such freaks whom i just feel like stabbing them so that they wil just shut up. ahhh. garish demoness.

anyway im thankful for some ppl whom God have planted in my life. and yeah, life is so much more interesting bcos of them. and least i dont have to put on a mask when im with them. not there there aint holdbacks. but at least i know i can lean and fall back on them anytime. at they dont judge. nt much. they are real. they are genuine. u can depend on them. we dont just have fun together. we laugh together. we cry together. we encourage one another. we are accountable for one another. so thankful for them. u guys rock.

oh well. screw IP. like 8 days more to the presentation, and yes, our class has to be the lucky number 1 to present nxt monday. and hell we haven started. really in deep shit this time. ah fff.

my sleeping time's like 4plus nowadays. and its driving me a little edgy. get irritated by the slightest thing that can ever happen.

went jogging on fri. cant believe SP managed to psycho me there. 2 rounds, and thats it, im dead. haaa. shes nt bad la, 4 consistent rounds. aft that went to marina, nicely revamped now, with new shops and everythg.. then went to esplanade.. donno why but i always love gg to esplanade. be it for plays, concerts, fireworks, whatsoever. its like niceee.

and this daughter of mine got into an accident. was on the bike and it buang. freaked me out totally cos it nv occured to me that such things wil happen to someone so close. but thankfully its just scrapes, bruises and bumps. otherwise, i wouldnt dare imagine. anyway, just hope that she recovers fast, will give her a piece of my mind when shes better. now that we are in diff specialisations, i cant really keep a lookout for her. sigh.

what i think is that for friends to stay close, its really impt to spend time tog. but well, everybodys like busy leading their own lives. bf, gf, work, studies, etc etc. sad yeah, but thats life.

some people come to u when they have some problems with their friends, and once they patch things up, they just leave u like that. i especially hate that. sort of treat u like a substitute. then they hurry off and do their own things, forgetting the times whereby u kept them company, etc etc. so hurtful. ): btw, this is not directed at u, so dont be so sensitive pls.

notice that i seldom mention God in my blog, or my msn nick? cos i dun wanna be seen as a stumbling block. i dont want to see as not practising what i preach. and i dont wanna be a big contradictory.

apologies for sucha long post. sometimes my thots are all in a whirlwind. dont exactly know what i want. sigh. i had better get off.

tsk. maiding was kind of dissatisfying, cos the ending was too drama already. and the scares were rather predictable. tsk. one word - mediocre. was expecting smthg more than this. nvm. shall look forward to some other horrors. how contradicting. when a movie is freaky, we get damn scared and paranoid. when its not scary enough, we complain. ahh. humans. but anyway, the story depicts the ugly sides of humans, thats what dot said. but i beg to differ. i think its the gr8 love that the parents have for their son. but in a wrong way. haaa. oh wells.

stooopid cirque didnt call me. ugh. called eve chers but nt me. damn. ahhhh. but i hate intvs anyway. so. whatever.sobs. i dont care! they had bloody well call me. lol.

anyway, its friday. yay. tho it doesnt make much difference to me, stil im glad the weekends here to stay. and damn. exactly 3 weeks fr now will be my first paper. how frightening. nxt wk will prolly be last wk of sch. and then another short sem, and im out of ngee ann. yay. is that cool or what.

*time is running out.

got this email fr a fren.. this was found on the toilet door at PS. the day before was a real manequin. guess it scared the shit outta too many ppl so they got it changed. nonetheless a gd mktg strategy.

this was the manequin that was initially hanging outside the toilet door at PS. lol

whoa. wednesday it is.

just EM tut on monday, 2hrs, and thats it for the whole of this week. seriously wondering how on earth im gonna get thru this sem esp Sales Mgmt. tsk tsk.

kboxing yest at tpy w pea. haaa we sang til 4 tho we were supp to go at 2. gd deal. lol. felt so paiseh. then was on the way bk n this woman came up ask me do survey abt NU Skin then fixed a time w me to go for some facial at Tanjong Pagar. i was too stunned to react cos she just asked me for my no. and say that she wil leave a miss call. so i have to like take out my phone. gd tactic. to make sure that i dont give her a fake number. damn. but of cos i wont go la. she must be mad if she thinks im gonna follow her there and get tricked into some stooopid stufff. wake up yr idea aunty.

maiding tomorrow pls!

and oops, i think im supp to go jogging with dot. ugh. she and her ideas. =X

anyway check out the mktg gimmick for the maid. on top.

ok im outta here.

looking at the speed which time flies, i get the jitters. all i can do is to look back and everything just plaster a smile unto my face. nowadays im quite a happy being. i no longer get bogged down by silly things. its so much easier this way.

anyway, my dgl's bf proposed to her thru Cleo. how sweet. awwww.

Gr8 weekend, thank God. and thank God for Aunty SP. (:

and crystal-clear jc, thanks so much for everythg. u're such a darling. i appreciate it, really.

got this really nice big golden rose scrunchie fr sijie. thanks babe, love it lots!

went creaming with SP at the daily scoop.. walked round and round the shops at sunset way but to no avail. decided to ask the 7-11 fella, and he said there isnt one there. -.- but heng got this angmoh woman who knows bout it and sort of directed us there. place is like damn secluded, all the way in to those big houses.. anyway the ice cream is super yummy! peanut butter and lychee martini were darn darn niceeee! SP had cempedak and hazelnut.. cempedak was alrite but hazelnut was a no no..

walked ard china square and there was this temple lookalike but is some tourist attraction.. went in ta have a look, and theres so many interesting things there.. like the firecrackers wrappers from last time, the iron, cam, bowls and utensils, the wedding certificate which were used in the 50s? is like cool can! dinner at Hans.. which was really fun and entertaining - thanks to this little fella who was only 17 mths, just started learning to walk. boy was he hilarious! the way he walk is like so cute! then his daddy says how do u blink? and he will demo.sooo cuteee can. he was like entertaining us la.. lol.. but i think his daddy's a tad too talkative. kept asking whr we studying, whr we stay, told us what he's doing fer a living, blah blah.. somehw he makes me associate him with henry koh. kinda like his brother or smthg. anyway i think i like kids when they are at the toddler stage, meaning 2 yrs old and below. the stage when they are cutest! after that u wanna strangle em.

had a drink at cafe cartel, and we miss the last bus..lol damn funny laa.. took NR.. first time. okok super sampat i know. then it just dawned on me that its already 12 plus, which means its 13aug! and i haven done my elearning for SM & MR which i was supp to complete by 12 aug! arggh. yawns. just got it done, but cant find the cal qns, heck.

zonked out. last nite 3.30am. tonite 2.30 am. hopefully tmr 1.30 am.

quote for the day "being different isnt always a bad thing.

in life there is great sadness and great happiness, a gamut of emotions. u cant run away from it. u cannot simply say i wanna be happy and be happy. that is self-deceiving. so i think is ok to be emo at times, as long as it doesnt spillover and affect others. haaa dont know what rubbish im blabbering here, cos im always spilling it to ppl ard me. so pardon me yeah, lol. i think its the 2am syndrome.hehs.

4 days of being caged up at hm, alone! so glad im gonna be released tmr! even tho its gg to sch! and hopefully creaming aft that... 1 whole week of wholesome rotting.. hahaa like some kinda holiday.. shiok man.. caught up with my sleep n teevee. btw if u happen to catch ndp, ruien looks anorexic ya. her arms are so painful to look at. shudders. fireworks are absolutely awesome. saw it live-courtesy to the fantastic view fr my parents bedrm, lol. kept running to and fro the tv in the living rm to the bedrm. haha think of it, its quite silly.

anyway, one of my mamas mahjong kaki smokes la.. then theres smthg wrong with her lighter. and guess she resort to doing what? she went into the kitchen and took the gas lighter, the one that looks like a gun to light her ciggy. wtf. is damn funny can.

ok im tired. enough rubbish.

thought of the day - Life's a contrary old bitch.

sometimes i think too much, other times i dont bother.

the weekend flew past just like tt. well, i guess all happy things must come to an end. anyway, thank God it was a rather splendid one with people i absolutely adore.

thurs: charlie & choc factory was gr8. "yipppeee, i love grapes...!"

fri: fop was great except for a few hiccups. think only Bizma knows abt it. lol. cant believe tt kinda thing actually happened to me. ugh.

sat: craving fer hotcakes and thanks to Bizma who went with me. (: then grocery shopping fer the bbq. spent 2 hours cutting only 10+ chicken wings. hee only managed to pick up speed in the third hr, cutting 80 others chicken wings. fingers reeked of blood. but anyway Bizma and i had a good time entertaining ourselves with the unfair treatment of the chickens. lol.

sun: svc, swim, bbq and home sweet home. totally zonked out. am gonna hit the sheets right after this. drained.

3 somebodies who somehow dampened my weekend.

1) sometimes i dont understand why certain people like to say things that hurt me. the thought of it just makes me feel so so sick i wanna throw up. sigh. anyway i think if u have nothing better to say, just shut yr trap. really.. whats the pt of saying smthg that wil not help to build a person up, but on the other hand cos the person to accumulate the hatred that he/she has on you? damn. u are stupid. really stupid.

2) and you. what the hell do you take me for? come and look for me only when u bloody well need my help. and telling me things like u can go out with me aft that. f-off. since when did i say i need yr company? asshole.

3) and the other you, stop bombarding me with yr bullcrap. give me some peace will u. _|_

thought of the day " a fair face may hide a foul soul..."

slept at 3.30 aft i finished the bk. woke up at 10.30. cant sleep much nowadays. signs of aging. ugh. lol. today im much happier cos im gonna watch charlie and choc factory tonite! it has been sometime since i last went out. hehheh. and theres fop tmr nite, and nick's bday celeb on sunday! anticipating all of it!

keeping my fingers crossed that there wont be em tut on monday, so that i can lunch with sklai peeps.. miss them tons!

what i would love to have now is that brilliant sunshine and warm tropical air and a tanning place to boot.

music for the soul "happy endings arent for cowards.

and i woke up, feeling better. to top it off, i received an sms saying that em tutorial for tmr has been postponed to nxt wk. sleep really does wonders.

mayb i should go on sleeping forever.

wake up feeling rather sad and anxious. sad - no idea why. anxious - cuz of ibs on fri. totally not in the mood for sch. just wanted to stay home and hide in there. but i went in the end as usual nothing went in and finished 4 juicy tabloids fr aussie courtesy to cher.. and her yummy treat..

just wanted to quickly rush back home and hide.. haha.. dont know whats wrong with me. but i just feel very lonely.. all of a sudden. and then bk home to an empty house, which i deem good in times like this. its like really weird la, can't quite put it into words. weird concoction of emos.

and worst of all theres make up class for em tmr. fr 3-5pm. when i had pretty much think tt i wil treasure this free day of mine fer this week.

or perhaps i should just go to sleep and hopefully wake up feelin better.

group pic

chers with her cake

cheapskate heart shape balloons

chers 19th bday