it came as a surprise when someone chat with me on fb. someone whom i kinda have a deep-seated animosity with. hmmm. was just telling the bestie that i wanna make peace with this person. and probably God saw this in my heart and gave me a chance to mend this "broken friendship." well it wasn't exactly fixed, but it gave an entry to something better to come.

and i believe and thank Him for this window He opened for me.

was over at suntec yesterday for a filming session for our proj. and it sure sucks to have 3projmates puffing their ciggies away in your direction. i am so gg to get lung cancer with all the second-hand smoke! but no doubt the company was much fun, and the exchanges were a riot. will continue our secret filming in class laters and hope it will turn out to be gd.

on another note, everyone's like pushing me to get a job, ): its not like i'm not trying you know. maybe i'm not trying hard enough. but pls jus gimme some time. ugh. who are you to press me when my pops never even once said anythg. boo. i just don't wanna get a 9-5 job where i just wk and wk to no end, just to put dough on the table. i want to do smthg that i enjoy, that i will look forward to, that i will take pride in. is that too much to ask for?

been getting ribbons, paperstock, buttons etc. im really quite serious to go into some online biz. just don't know how to get it started proper. like what the bestie say, we shouldnt just jump into it without proper planning and all. i do hope that we can get it started and running soon, at least ppl won't say we're doodling our time away. bleah.

ok. i'm back! had a 2wk stint at WK again. and it was one super stressed week. it ended, and im glad. though im sure staying on will be gd to my pocket. still, i believe He has greater plans for me. so its back to job-hunting again. sigh. which can be really exhausting. am thinking of selling some arty-fart stuff online, but just can't get down to getting it done.

im so desperate to go bintan with gracie & company. but my skin ain't thick enough, plus need to take over this wk for keyboard. so there. i guess it's just impossible now. ): but i know it is gonna be really fun with all the cute tots that i love gg as well. boo! sobs.

church is gonna move out soon. stipulated date on 3rd May. and we'll be under the roof of Queenstown Lutheran Church for at least a good 2 years. mann, im gonna miss the old building so much, for it keeps so many memories of mine thru all the seasons. - of tears, joy and love. i pray that all these beautiful memories will be deeply etched in my heart til eternity.

the soo sisters and myself are supposed to give phoebe an answer with regards to which cell we've decided to join. pls keep us in prayers with regards to this issue cos we're really unsure, and still feel hurt and disillusioned at how we're being chuck away. felt like we have no worth at all. saddening that such things are happening in the church. but i've learnt to let it go altogether. moving on and letting God.

i really miss those times where we were all so innocent and loving each other so much. now, i find it so tough to look you in the eye. perhaps growing up ain't such a good thing after all.