saw this in fren's blog
tot it was interesting
so here it goes

SOCIAL COMMENTARYdisclaimer: if the following short contents r likely to miff ur sensibilities (ha!) or bring slander to ur idol or watever hang ups u hav, or ur jus a narrowminded turd in general, pls go boil ur head now. the following blog is a humourous erm, slightly bitchy commentary on our sporean dress sense. it does not represent entirely our culture, its only PART of wat we usually see. u can disagree wid me, ur opinion might defer, but keep it entirely between u and ur imaginery fren. otherwise enjoy ; )

im sure many of us take a road down orchard road wid half a mind on ur fren's conversation, another half on how ur hair is n er another teeny part on wat ppl on the streets wear. (im not particularly good at maths. but anyway) wat singaporeans wear really is diversed. im talking abt our age grp. yes in between 18 to 65.

no jus kidding. most likely 16 to 24. n most of us will fit in one way or another, or a mixture of diff styles when it comes to clothes. n yes clothes does make a diff, it decides on who u attract, who u are and tells us how much money ur daddy makes in a month. hehe

n sometimes there r jus some styles tt we cant ignore. i dont noe abt the rest of the world but i noe i cant. sometimes a certain type of ppl jus stands out n demand my attention n i will be momentarily busy mentally restraining myself frm cutting them wid papercuts to their throats n wrists shouting "WAT WERE U THINKING?!?!"

ok outburst there.it is worth my time to talk abt this cos its also a whole set of thinking behind these diff grps of ppl.

first off, lets start wid a bunch tt hav suddenly popped out frm nowhere within these few yrs. my frens call them

The Trendies

Trendies r ppl who r Different frm us. now i emphasize on Different. cos they r so different, they hav to hav different look, different taste in music, different underwear, different clothes, different everything. n the best thing abt them is tt they hav such a healthy sense of self esteem tt it didnt occur to them tt UR as DIFFERENT AS THE NEXT TRENDY U IDIOT. ur so unique, u look exactly like ur trendy fren! hey wat a new concept. look up Unique in the dictionary.

they listen to obscure bands n read obscure books. anything to make them different, they will know it. so lets say, their typical conversation will be like this:

"yeah i fcuking hate Noamica for not selling me those tics to Glateci's gig. like fcuk man, i wanted to go wid my scene* girls n cant."

point to note. they hav cool names. like so cool, u haven heard of it before. n they always hav a concert they hav to go, a gig happening somewhere somehow. n they end their sentences coolly. its jus all so cool. different ma.

n the girls. they dont clean their mouth after eating n they hav a rice stuck to the side of their mouth. no la jus kidding. its their piercing. u noe the kind of piercing not like mine. mine is a labret. SYMMETRICAL to my face. they hav it at the side.

n they hav so much eyeliner on, their frens wont recognise them when they peel off the 5 inch thick makeup.

i give simple illustration. to spot them, look out for the following: tiny sling bag, black or vintage tops, wid slogan. hair carefully waxed to look messy but carefully n artisticly so. n it is short. rolled up jeans, studded belts, rice piercing, a gallon of eyeliner. n of course tt cool attitude. got cool attitude is a good dude.

though this is not to be confused wid the malay minahs.

the second kind tt is emerging rather proudly in our society r the cute cakeskirts.readers will erm.. by now noe wat im talking abt by cakeskirts.there r 2 kinds. jc n others. im talking abt the act cute kind.take a simple (not skillful) illustration of

the Actcute Cakeskirts.

urgh yes i used cyndi wang cos she is the epitome of demureness i wanna kill her wid my hp's radiation. these ppl will be so cute, u really feel like stabbing a rabbit infront of them.

they r dressed in pink. obviously they watch too much taiwanese idol soap serials. pink pink pink. furry pink. cutsey pink. damn cute the worz~

n their hps wil hav the really adorable soft toy. in my pic, i drew something, im not sure wat, but if its furry n cute, they will like it. they listen to cyndi wang n mouth the intricate n mind boggling lyrics to 5566's newest songs in their slp. when they're drunk, they're likely to burst into emotional rendition of jolin tsai's 72 transformation. or jaychou's something something.

n they tYpE lIkE tHiS dE wOrZ~ lOlx~ =)

its nothing new, so i wont elaborate too much here.

n then there are the queenbees.

THE CAKESKIRTS.

URGH! AHA! i used lindsay lohan cos she is the best representative i can think of. her best assets r her dress sense, it is able to draw ppl into looking at her teenage impossible voluptous body n their notorious silicon valley which has its own postal code and fansite.

i wont elaborate too much once again cos its already been too much on my blog.but hey, lets hav a checklist.

small flouncy flirty skirt? check.small tote bag (perhaps something branded daddy bought??) check.small tight top or white something?? check.small kitten heels strictly no more than 2 inch high??

check.girlish! nubile! nymph-like! bubblegum! pop!speaks strictly english, hair brush and totebags each sold separately.batteries not included, comes wid own bf in tow and clubbing mates.

BUT of course there r The Elites (pun unintended). the creme de la creme. the top drawer.

The Models.

gasp for this grp. i will keep silent abt them. shhhhh...dont disturb them cos its they're busy standing ard looking really posh n silent. shhhhh.....

dont get them riled up or they might jus step on u. no wait shhh... dont talk abt them... shh..... they wont look at u cos the world up there quite high, the air so much fresher too. but wait shhhh..... dont disturb them, they r busy now. dont talk to them cos we all noe sound waves travel in a straight line n if ur not 1.9 tall, dont try it. shhhh

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i left out the Sporty ones.
the Roxy Sporty But Not Really Sporty But I Really Wanna Be Sporty ones.
the Silent Nerds
the Ahlians
the spgs

cos we all noe them by heart now. n im really too lazy to put them on. n most likely, we're a combination of some. then again maybe not. its jus SOME of wat we see.n then there r the boy's version. which is another topic altogther.

stayed overnite in church ytd
played daidee with the elijahs
have to admit anthony's really cute
haha see him and u'll wanna pinch his cheeks
ytd's rally was quite fun
cuz i was in a costume
enjoyed the whole thing!

on christmas eve went to jacq's party
but im sorry it was kinda boring
so we left ard 9 and went to hawks place
then played uno attack with ethan n bryan
and stayed there til 3.30 am
wahaha... very exhilarating
cuz u dun know when the cards will suddenly thrust itself out!
haha...

then received another 3 pressies today
1) the led light from church
2) winnie the pooh bear from him
3) clip cum m'm cum enc card from fish

hee thanks
love all the presents!
one of the best part of Christmas!

ok am gonna skip sch tmr, and sleep well
may drop by fish's hse for the potluck party

actually im kinda sad Christmas is over
cuz there's like nothing for me to look forward to already

but mayb we'll have a new year's eve countdown party
and this nic says that when it strikes 12, we'll all
jump into the pool
tell me, how lame can he get

i must say this is kind of dangerous
because uncle hawk actually reads my blog
so i gotta be careful on what i post up here wahaha...

christmas has been great
all by God's grace
received tons of pressies! yeeps

jus wanna post up what i got for christmas this yr
no other meanings to it

1) cute happy hse trinklet box with a happy hse badge & a bracelet and a bottle of cookies with 2 candy canes on it from Jess
2) happy hse piggy best fren pencil holder and the cool sand art DIY brownie from Lizzie
3) fishing game from nic & aud
4) potpurri from pastor phobe
5) Car metal clip thingy with note attached fr dorothy and the nice humongous fruit cake which she baked for us
6) styrofoam snowman head with beaded earrings sitting on a jar filled with marshmallow coated with chocolate then dipped in shredded coconut and biscuits
7) a bag from sharon n maggie
8) a handphone pouch fr a church aunty
9) choc in a shell from eu
10) squeezed paint note on a frame from cheryl
11) self-made cookies from pearlie
12) porcelain basket from ana
13) natural source glittery body shower gel from suemay
14) burning essence & cute earrings from hawk n brigitte

thanks so much people, for all that u've done! appreciate it lots from the bottom of my heart!

but then sometimes i feel that just get too caught up with buying christmas gifts, decorating their houses, having parties, to the extent that the real meaning of Christmas has been deleted from our minds. it seems that everyone is celebrating Christmas, christians, non-christians etc etc... but the real meaning of it often slipped our mind. so as im typing this, i just hope to convey the msg that Jesus Christ was born on this day for u and me! and we ought to share this great news to all around us!

so as we celebrate this merry occasion with our loved ones, let's commemorate and remember that the Prince of Peace was born for us!

blessed christmas, God bless ya! =)

watched star awards last night
tot it was entertaining

sch was boring,
except for ec
tot the tutor was kinda nice

God was good to me
He listened to my prayers
thank u Lord
gonna go camp tmr!
yeeps, but think i'll pengsan
from all the bus and train rides

i wanna go Christmas shopping!
gonna go get the toys for the naomians!
or perhaps just some...
nice big bangles for mamadot
hoverdisc for nic
etc etc hehheh...
*winks* ;-)

i have to admit sch sucks
sigh
how to survive like that
alamak
have been skipping lectures

my brother gave me a levi's voucher
$60
i got a top
$79.90
their clothes are really exp
only rich ppl cab afford to buy

ytd was the rehearsal for christmas rally
it was kinda fun i guess
1) but i get conceited
too often
i try to harmonise
i sing at the top of my lungs
hoping that it can be heard
thats when it all happens
and God doesnt like it

so when i pray i ask God for a humble heart
in all i do
that its all for Him
truly from my heart

2) i told lies
i skipped lectures
and bluff my mama n papa
that theres no sch
im hopeless

3) i spend a lot
i go out with them
instead of lectures
go for hi tea
go for movie
go suntanning
oh no, im hopeless

next wk's camp
may skip a few lectures again
omy...
im really terrible.
really hate going to sch in dec!
ARGHHH....

God shave me...

twinkling of an eye, its gone
its gone gone GONE!
ugh, sobs.
no more swimming with my besties.
no more shopping with my besties.
humph.
but then...
im actually lookng forward to sch
why
cos i can catch up with my frens
wahaha...
and laugh my head off with em'

christmas is gonna be so fun
with all the party and the rally
cant wait!

sparkles!

MAMMA MIA! here i go again!

cake made by me and dot for grace's bday! nice huh!

3 chao ah lians! wahaha

another one!

more or less the same pic! haha lame...

Auds bday surprise on 21st oct!

taken during beginning of oct, before exams at the msia resort!

Mamma Mia was FANTASTIC, AWESOME, AMAZING!
songs were great, makes u wanna stand up and dance
but i didnt lah, haha, cuz the rest wasnt on enough
whole of tues was fun lah
was sunbasking in the morn with mamadot
then we attempted to bake ah mei's bday cake
quite successful! haha
tot it looked kinda nice!
then we dolled up ourselves
theme was retro
so i asked my mama to make smthg retro for me!
haha then there was a massive jam when we were on our way there
and nic's car sort of skidded
so scary!
and we were later, but were admitted in after 3 songs
so didnt miss out that much!
but the rest were sporting enough
didnt dress retro
only me and dot did
nevertheless
i stil had tons of fun
i think im the winner lah
winner of the best costume!
haha jus kidding
then we celebrated ah meis bday outside esplanade
took tons of pictures!
after which she left with eug
and the 5 of us went for supper at laopasat
think i look kinda out
people's staring at me like im some alien
wil try to upload some pics if poss
the rest are stil in the cam,
haven finis taking!
wil wait til after christmas then can develop!

went arab street with mama ytd
kinda fun
bought lotsa fabrics
think she can bargain super well

have been spending lotsa time with dot this hols
but shes wking today til sunday.
so am gonna miss my mummy!
will miss all the slappings, pinchings and tickles!
hahaha...
schools starting soon!
heehee

new timetable's out
tot it was quite cool lah, cept for monday
still, am gonna make doubly sure i'll have fun thruout the whole sem
didnt sleep a wink last nite
kept tossing and turnin
always the case when it aint my own bed

having a diary is kinda good.
i mean not a blog
but the one u write down with a pen or whatsoever
u know u just penned down all yr thoughts
whatever u feel
yr problems
how yr day passed
joys, trials, temptations
talk about yr loved ones
etc etc

i always tell myself
that i need to ring my grandmama up
at least once a week
to show that i care
but i never seemed to be able to do it
and on the other hand
it was she who always took the initiative to call us up
ask us how we are etc
makes me guilty
really guilty
yet im not doing anything bout it
guess its time for a change
because time is limited
u never know when u'll be gone
i mean if God wants u up,
u gotta be up

jus a note to ppl out there who are depressed
love and cherish all that has been blessed unto you

staying over at nick's place with my new found mummy, dorothy!
hehs
gonna fly kite tmr!
such clean fun huh?!
tanning this wk again, mon, tues, thurs...
wanna get super duper black
but that dumb mummy kept saying my tummy's super fair!
humphs!
saw SAW, the incredibles
both are not that nice shows

went out with kaikit today
been 2/3 yrs since we last went out tog
rather fun
went bugis then meet up with my *mummy

Mamma Mia is cmg cmg COMING!

sigh...
wish i can blog daily
but that bloody comp's screwed up again
miss my daughters
and my bs mates
will hope to go out with em on monday!
have been swimming and tanning everyday
hope i get to be like a charcoal!
wahaha...

and yes, im going to Mamma Mia!
Yes, finally!
so excited bout it,
and we're gonna celeb ah mei's bday aft that!
but the prob is, eug's gg as well.
sian.
cant help but say the word sian.
the 3 of us gonna bake and make a swimming pool cake for her!
wahaha...
jus read the others' blogs
so many peeps outta town!

got back results ytd
and by God's grace
really, He's amazing
He always does wonders for me
always.
and im truly thankful to Him
it wasnt easy for me
comparing answers aft exams
realising answers were totally different from the rest
the pang of disappointment and fear crept in
deeply etched in my mind - the fear of repeating modules
being separated from my besties
having to be on my own,
to be independent
cant bear the tot of that
but really it's Him who picked me up during that time
and pulled me thru it
realy realy its Him.
wouldnt have done it w/o Him.
hope everyone else managed to scrape thru/do well

twinkling of an eye
half of the hols gone
looking bk,
dunno whether it has been fruitful not
hmmm but still feel that i havent got much time for self
cuz went to genting
came back
swimming
going out etc etc
well, just hope to enjoy the rest of it!
got many christmas pressies already!
looking forward to christmas!
and the new school term!
hehhehs...

i think my cuzzies are all very sweet
they nv seem to forget my mama's birthday
one surprise celeb at my aunts hse
with the surprise yummy oreo ice-cream cake and pressie
they remembered the mascara incident
so they got her some make up kit from estee lauder
so sweet
another cuzzie treated my mama to dinna
then bot cake and celebrated for her
so nice of them
haha but well, i dont get those perks at all
haha...

a long entry,
but dont feel like ending it here...
so much more i wanna update
saw him but hell he was like an idiot lah
what a dumbass

twice a wk ive been to PS
and heading there again ltr
first wk of hols
and im turning into a panda
glad work was over.
money could do me some good

attended the seminar
it was so inspiring
wonder when can i ever play like the pastor
he made me fall in love with the piano
wish i could play like him
but had difficulty catching up
cuz he was talking bout those
suspension, inversion, diminish etc
then there was stupid auntie
kept asking questions
damn irritating
everytime it'd be her
without fail.
damn it man.

super hungry and freezing cold now
it has been raining everyday
can the clouds please get your butt outta the way
and let the sun out

got the satin with cute monkey prints for mei's pressie
gonna make her a pyjamas
hehheh..
and those cap like Santa's with a furry ball there

can't take it,
fingers are numb!

cant go online again
smthg has cocked up with the domain system
so here i am at hawks place

exams have come to an end
never been happier
life is finally back to its normal pace
so glad.

all papers were horrendous
except for law n hrm
just dont wanna think abt em now
went to daiso with liz on sat
got the orange eye masque, frog tape, choc mould and the brush
hehs.
then went for family dinner with my relatives
warm and nice feeling seeing all my cuzzies
a few yrs since i last saw them
sun morn woke up at 7 plus
followed my cuzzies n all to fetch the bride
but was in a foul mood lah
thanks to my mama and her mascara
but dinner was quite fun lah

anyway gonna wk at cuzzies office fr wed-fri
8.5 should do me jus fine
but then am quite sian by the thought of it
imagine waking up at 7plus on a holiday
ugh
then may go msia nxt week with other cuzzies

some guys are really gross...
grossed me out.
and they piss the hell out of me.
plz look into the mirror
tell me what u see

kinda like this pic... my bday celeb during camp this yr! with the abia shirt made by amei! yup the one with the cabbage hair cupping my face! hehs...

absolutely fun morn + noon
except for the fact that i had to study
which i obviously didnt
heck.

was like excited
cuz waited damn long for sunday to come
anyway, mooncher and charmaine came today
so glad ta see em
last saw em was camp in June
anyway, the girls are really cute lah
wasnt on worship duty this wk
then end of svc
music team was praying
then ah mei pulled me up
so she told em abt me n dot having exams
so nic asked her to pray
haha
and she did, thanks sista!
its really encouragin and heartwarming
to know that people care after all
then she passed me this photo of us when she won the dj competition
and this encouragement card!
so sweet of her! grins
really very happy to know theres always
this group of ppl who are there for me
no matter what happens
then adeline gave us some hair spray thingy
so sweet and nice of her too!
went for lunch with the girls
and head home aft that
when i got hm there was so many ppl in da hse
cousins came to try on clothes for the wedding
then mooncher charmaine and their grandmama was there
i tot"shit lah no need study liao
but God brought them to another place
soon after that
hee thank u God
but looking forward to greater times with them aft my exams!
didnt study much
die.
econs driving me nuts.
and im really scared.
feel like crying.
sso scared i'll fail and retake.
But i know God's grace is sufficient for me
and that He'll sustain me thru this period!

at the end of the day
i wanna thank God for all the sweet messages
He have sent me thru so many people
all the "jiayous", pats on the bk, prayers
words of encouragement
and even little cards and gifts
thank u Lord!
thank u my dear lovely churchmates!

lastly, something that was on the card
dedicated to everyone

"God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.

But God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labor, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love."

15/10/04

after 40 days
finally received an sms from her
and i was jus telling God the other day
that i wished she would take initiative instead
and He paid attention to such a small wish
something that was just so unimportant
thank u Lord
she told me there was this shop
at orchard plaza
poa shoes going for a song @ only 19.90
hahas wil head down, nxt sat this time!

was at church studying then ah bee came
passed me this brochure
told me that reverend ask me to attend
its a praise and worship seminar
- effective piano for worship -
so she said go back and consider lah
and i thot since God want me to do this
why not
so i think im gonna go!
so excited
dots gg with me too
hopefully i'll absorb many things and
have more confidence
and play for worship service!
to put whatever i've learnt into service
for the Lord
$65 for 6 hrs
split into 2 days
sponsored by church
so im gonna go and be inspired!

then one of the most embarrassed things happened to me
took 75 hm fr hv
carrying my camou army green sling
went up the bus
walked to the bk to get a seat
before i could pass the exit door
i was like wthell
how come suddenly theres a force pulling me bk
the elastic strings of my bag got hooked to
somebody else's bag who was in the front
u could have imagine
how bloody paiseh i was
i had to retreat and said
sorry sorry
and settled for a seat in the front
all the paisehness
ugh!
hahaha...
then i had to keep my cool
so i took out my notes and pretend to think real deep
took out my phone and called my mama
hahahha...
so paiseh...
i was imagining the people in the back all snickering
luckily, the bag belongs to a maid
if it was some cute guy,
then thats the end of it. haha...

then grace came over to my place
needed my mama's help to make cheerleading clothes
seems like its a shoot
and she brought the directors along
like so cool man
then they found np magnum force peeps for the shoot
ahahhaha skali got albert
hahaha...
but they want it by nxt wk
so my mama might nt be able to rush...

16/10/04
had hrm paper today
thank God it was a breeze
managed to handle all the questions
wasnt much problem
so glad 1 paper is down.
i guessed the remedial class really helped
hehheh...

shit i feel like going out.
ugh.

i think this girl looks cute... hahaha...

the man and woman are gg putri tmr
sigh, but i cant follow this time
papers are all so near
cant help but feeling a lil excited
tho' stil got tons of stuff stil havent touched yet.

auds bday coming, 21st
mayb will ask amei to get some stuff and share it
im very drained already
not much juice left
alamak.

they wun be ard tmr
but think i'll still make my way to church
only can focus and study there
no idea why also
but i guess its bcuz its
1) quiet
2) no distractions
3) me all alone in the rm
so its good for me!

my cuzzie's wedding's cmg
cant wait
looking forward to it!
uncles aunties gonna come fr m'sia
few yrs since i last saw my lil cuzzies
its gonna be fun

but right now
i've to cross a hurdle first
and God'll guide me thru it
He'll be there with me
holding my hand
til i finish the whole race
and after that
He'll still be there.

i love to blog.
i love to sum up my day in a blog.
it feels good. to blog.
just a release of all emotions.
tho u cant really mention names at times

went to sch
then met wenjun to study
but wif ard
i'll end up talking non-stop like an idiot
then went oppo to killiney to have dinna
think its quite cool to go oppo and eat in da night
hahaha

was playing time crisis at hawk's place
haha so funnnsss
but the aud snatched it from me
jus aft a short while

hawk lives on the 23rd storey
and i lived on the 22nd
didnt wanna take the stairs when i wanna come hm
so i took lift with nic and aud
then guess what?
he wouldnt allow me to press 22nd storey!
i was like what the hell lah!
then had to go up 22nd storeys in the lift alone
kinda scary, 12-35 in the lift all alone.
ugh.
gonna get him for that!!!

they gg m'sia again
i wanna go too
but dots not gg
then i'll feel lonely
still considering lah

there are so many things i wanna get at spotlight
after checking out the catalogue
i wanna get
1) white flower girl halo with white flowers - to be made myself ha
2) the 'get creative' monthly mag
3) sea-play elastane to may into swimming costumes
4) polka dots and stripes cloth
5) printed stretch poplin
6) 'cargo' stripes
7) sunprints
8) cutie pie iron on motifs
9) angel halo
10) glass milk bottle - super cute!
11) 'pink daisy' printed velour - beach towels
12) terry beach blanket

go take a look!
http://www.spotlight.com.sg/new/shopping

all the things are super nice!
i want it all!
so that my mama can make then into nice clothes for me
hehhehs.

catched white chicks ytd
super farnie.
kept laughing and laughing
sigh. there goes my revision.
damn shitty.
dunno balance of payment.
and hrm back chapters are all extremely tough
heck man.
but at least i study more in church.
sian. the exams are so near. so so near.
dot's supp to be mugging
but she went to work at awfully chocolate.
what the!
nvm. shall pop by and ask her to blanja me
hehs.

sometimes,
at one moment.
u are so happy.
i mean E.X.H.I.L.A.R.A.T.E.D.
and the next,
the happiness just burst like a bubble.
and no more happiness.
it's short-lived.
sigh.
wish it was forever.

depression sank in again
on a bright cheery monday.
just 1 email.
and thats enough.
always make my life miserable
nonchalant.
always say im nonchalant.
im not.
idiot.
u are the one who's nonchalant.
im trying very hard you know.
u think i like being mean?
damned.
cant u bloody see im trying.
are u blind or what.
hate.
sad again.
again.
thanks to you.
you never fail to make me sad.
u r such a great friend.
i love you.

just got back. yawns.

this nicholas chung
asked me why i left church early
asked me why nv help him buy rice
then told me someone asked him to pass smthg to me
kept asking him, but he wouldnt reveal it.
kept me in suspense.

then at ard 10.30
asked me go up
pass me the gift
and i open it up
a bottle of stars
ugh.
a little grossed out
what era are u living in sir?
early 1990s?
perhaps im being mean here
i mean it was nice of that someone
i think i know who is it
but i wish it was the other one.
yeah. that man it is.
the.other.one.

not much time left.
yet im nt studying again.
went for brunch at Hawks place.
spaghetti.sausage.ham.wings.garlic bread.eggs.orange juice.yums.
thanks guys.
then went church for prac.
was in a foul mood
didnt wanna sing or play
in the end i played.
then had the music min gathering.
fun.laughs.joy.
then went for dinna with the girls.
kinda pissed by her
didnt understand why it muz be that way
damn.
but i was in the wrong too.
anyway
the other woman
replied my mail and also at the webbie
hmmm
now im confused again.

so once again, i havent study much
just 1 pathetic chapter of cma.
like that how?
encouraging to see pearl's blog
she looks forward to doing qt
and she enjoys it
me?
havent done it for ages.
sigh.
feel guilty.
but im stil not doing it.
God change me please.
please let me have a heart of desire for doing my qt.

i think i need to change
my character. my attitude. my tempers.
i should be saying things that build ppl up,
not tear them down.
sigh.
things are kinda bad
but im gonna let God take control
hope it just get better.
i think im getting cranky and crankier.
and i seem to crave for attention.
mann.
i need to be TRANSFORM!
hehs.
funny eh.
stop laughing you.
idiot.

this is post is gonna be a super long one
so please bear with it.
kinda zonked out

07/10
left at 8, went to hyatt at J.B
quite a nice place, but it was too businessy
so aud say no no
then we proceeded to Summerset Colonial resort
abt 3hrs drive fr s'pore
so was singing, reading, crapping in the car
reached there, and it was like a ghost town.
kinda creepy. not a single soul in sight.
then that dumb mary ghost joke kinda scare me
it was like a rainforest there
landscape was nt very nice, but think angmohs will like it there
very deserted
the rooms were ok, but the function rms were horrid.
hot, stinks, and the paint's peeling off
but we took a really 'nice' pic
will post it up soon
went to the sea area, saw a cricket
then nic used it to pretend to throw at dot
and guess what?
she C.R.I.E.D.
then drove out for dinner
dinner was great
then we walked ard to shop for some tidbits and satay
before heading bk to the resort
jus rotted in nic's rm and play daidee
nut much lah'
had a good sleep...

08/10
woke up, went for breakfast
and it was pathetic
but the ppl there treated us cuz we were supp to get a deal
for having camp nxt yr
so we had nasi lemak noodles omelette chipolata sausage hashbrowns toast. yums'
and my fav honey stars haha
then went swimming
super fun
learnt freestyle from nic
but still dun really noe how to swim ha
but had fun
a little burnt tho.
then drove bk to J.B,
was shopping the night away
bot my big hoop earrings
hehs.
everythg is so cheap there!

thanksgivings*
1) safe journey to and fro
2) prayed for rain to stop, and God answered it immediately.
3) good time of fellowship
4) a time of retreat

hmmm, she replied my mail.
eh now im ashamed.
very ashamed.

even wilfy visits the web
alamak, shall not post anythihg nxt time.

im confused.
totally confused.

so how now?
how, you tell me.

went for blaw tutorial today
as usual, boring.
went church to mug after that
but nothing much went into the head
haha...
too noisy at hm,
with all the renovations gg on downstairs
think i wil go crazy

gg off to m'sia tomo morning
so excited
like taking a break
but then suppose to be mugging for exams
but anyway, wil be back on fri lah
so not that bad
will try ta study in the car too!
haven pack my stuff yet, ugh.
hope tt God'll grant us journey mercies
and that we'll have a blessed stay there
bye peeps! take care... *winks

i wanna go MAMMA MIA!!! *grins*

so tired... jus fell asleep sitting on the sofa
sigh, nothing productive done again
test was flop
so many things i dont know haha...
gg away on thurs to m'sis with nic, aud, n dot
gonna go to recci nxt yr's campsite
staying at the hotel
they offer water sports there
hopfully can canoe?
haha but think its gonna be dangerous

thanks to all my friends who cared
and ask me why i was so sad
got over it!
am not gonna bother anymore
daughter1 cut her hair!
tot she look nice, demure, haha...
pukes...
looks like joey swee in the 9o'clock serial
hahahahahahhahahaha...

think gonna skip classes tmr
so tired, wanna sleep till late late
cant wait for thurs, yet feel tt i wont have time to study if i go away
but yet i want + definitely will go
hopeless...
exams so near, yet im still playing

*yawns*

i wrote her an email, and it went like this:

hey gal... whats up man... havent had heart to heart talk with you for a really long time. nv receive any smses from u at all for some time... realise u havent sat beside me during svc for quite some time also... are u like mad at me or smthg? or is it because of the kite-flying incident? the nonchalant reply fr me? its bothering me, that we seem nt as closed as before... noticed that u are like extremely busy nowadays... and you dont look as cheerful as u used to... perhaps u are too stressed out over all yr work etc?

saddens me very much really, that we both seem to distance ourselves... prob its just me being too sensitive. i don't know... things ok between u and him? u dont talk much abt him, so i guess and hope all's well...

anyway, i really, sincerely hope that we'll remain close, and let nothing ever jeopardise our friendship. may God's blessings be poured unto you in the week to come. take care..

before she could reply me, i went into our cell webbie and there was a reply from her to my question of "Does anybody cares? Where's everyone? sobs...and it says:

everyone seems mia, but they are around n they care, n u did a wonderful job with updating the site. my dear sister, it ain\'t our absence that matters, but what results fr our presence that matters (not alot too, haha..) i guess this cloak of cynicism to protect us fr disappointmt shd be shed cuz it\'s not helping. wat disappointment are we reali goint thru??tat\'s gotta stem fr asking ourselves wat do we want? a lot of hang out time? or quality time where everyone\'s eager to come n share out tots n feelings n pray 4 each other? watz the thermometer we are using to measure our frenship/fellowship? no. of hours tog? no. of activities tog? no. of jokes we share? in fact, can we honestly say our cellmtgs r satisfying n wat hv we done 2 make it so? am i disappointed? do i have to be? i think not. it's life. it's reality. to see u gals in church is heartening enough. i dun have to doubt or question if u gals care, cuz i know u all do. n so wat if u dun, i dun even myself to wander ttat dangerous zone to be disappointed. many times life n all itz suckiness obstruct us fr translating our love/concern into chirpy emails/sms/calls but does it reali matter IF we can look fwd to a warm sharing time on sunday? IF....anyway, jus shooting off here, dunno how to wrap up all these thoughts with sugary sweet language but heck, who reads?? n it's facts wat, hahaa... so jus feel free to shoot off whatever thoughts here cuz i guess we do care n maybe being face to face may hinder sharing? cuz we are all so timid/shy at heart. hahha........... adiosss wif luv.

jus saddened by this, and tears just start rolling down my cheeks. and as im writing this, the tears are still flowing... sigh... jus wrote her an email, telling her that answers all my questions.
im jus sad, really sad... why do things have to turn out this way? i hate myself, i hate everyone.

another one! groovy huh!

another pic of 2 chic women in our retro shades! thx for the pics, jess!

lizzie and me at Np Hill in our cool shades!

didnt have cell today
went to pizza hut at bk timah plaza with dot and suat
today was children's sunday @ church
the sunday sch's kiddies put up a few songs and dance
its sucha joy to watch all of them perform

still didnt sit beside me today
really dont know when that will ever end.
sigh.
now that we've talked abt her
i realise she wasnt as happy as she used to be
perhaps shes trying very hard
to balance everythg
kind of pity her
yet at the same time mad at her

felt terrible these few days
pmsing away.
exams are here soon
but im still doing nthg.
ugh.

had a nice brunch at Hawks place'
nice spaghetti sausage egg and bread
yums
went to church kaypoh for music prac
sort of help dot get on the track for keyboardist 2
ah bee kept saying im good enough for main keyboardist
but i doubt so
prayer mtg already freak me out
imagine playing for normal svc
need to coordinate with drummer bassist worship leader
sure gabra til jialat one
haha.
i know my own pattern

jam for a while then went oppo to walk walk with dots
wanted to get pressie for sm
but nothing much there
in the end i got those hp strap
which i was supposed to do cross-stitches on
the thread wasnt enough damn.
so i jus left it as it is
had extra thread of other colors
so i sewed her name on it.
so nice. kinda like it myself
but kept getting my fingers pricked

gonna play for canto svc tmr
so gotta wake up at 7 plus
nic picking me.
ugh. will be super tired.
aft that got cell, then wil go ppl's pk with dots hehheh.
gonna get shades, buttons etc etc!

Paradise was near, really near...

okok i changed skin again...
but its cos of the tagborad lah
today... worst day of 2004 i guess

went to church in the noon
was at the busstop waiting for 970
ppl were smoking
so i kept inhaling the disgusting smoke
waited for what seems eternity for the bus
and when the bus came
i felt totally weak.
legs were wobbly, hands were numb
things were fading in color
stomach cramp was unbearable
but i forced myself up the bus
was really uncomfortable
couldnt sit still
felt very cold
but yet i was sweating
but the beads of sweat were cold too
so scared
i just felt terrible
felt like i was so helpless
and that i was dying soon
finally reached hv.
told myself no matter what
i had to make my way to church
the journey seems exceptionally long
it took ages for me to get there
had to cover my lips with tissue paper
cuz i knew it'd have gone all white
and i was right.
it had been a long time since i last felt like this
so scared and frightened
but i kept praying
i said God please stop the pain
please let me be ok soon
but the pain didnt subside.
then went up to church office
went straight to counselling rm to lie down on the sofa
couldnt take it
the cramps were really unbearable
i was jus lying on the sofa
with my hands clutched to my stomah
kept curling my body up
it was really scary
and i had to inhale real deeply
to breathe normally
the pain was on and off
but the it was off for just a few sec
didnt want to call for their help
so i jus felt that i needed to talk to my mum
rang my mum and told her what happen
jus started telling her
and hot tears rolled down my cheeks
i felt really helpless and scared
my mama was worried sick
and she kept asking if she needed to come pick me hm or not
must have scared her as well
aft that she called pastor phoebe
which was funny
cuz she didnt know i was in church
anyway aft that i just went out
and asked Aud if she gt any painkillers
took 2 panadols
and the pain went away
the panadols were like elixirs

aft that felt so much better
and was back to normal
frightened myself so much
guess dominique was shocked too
kept asking if i was ok
really nice of him
sigh...
sometimes i wonder if God listens at all
sigh...
then i called my mama again
to tell her i was alright already
and i started crying again.
thank God for giving me a mum.
really thank Him for that.
i jus felt really relieved when i hear her voice
and that she asked me to keep praying
its reall great to have parents who are christians
u'll feel the joy really
that we all share the same faith
and that we can trust in Him tog
it was tough for me today
felt that God wasnt there
and that He was like making me suffer
was kind of angry
angry Him for not curing me
but i hope He'll forgive me.

was so happy when i got back to normal mode
chatted with aud
then went out for dinna with
dot, suat, dom, nic n aud
after that was prayer mtg

went out for supper
drive to many places
6th ave, Adam rd hawker centre, Holland
before settling down at Fong Seng Cheese prata
at west coast area
had egg prata and horlicks.
yums.
then got hm at 1.
mayb gonna go church kaypoh tmr.
if not wil stay hm.
mayb wil got hawks place for the breakfast spread tmr morn
provided i can wake up.
hehs.

i think i need to squeeze
all the words to the left
so that my tagboard could be seen
haha...

wow, today was jus
another F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C day
S.U.P.E.R.B.
F.U.N

Skipped biz etiq again
went church help the gals out
then 2 daughters went Holland.V
met em aft that,
gonna go Chinatown,
but daughter2 was tired
so she went home and sleep
so left me and the M.A.D daughter1
Yap Wan Zi aka Beth.
oh my.
She was hysterical today
shocked me a few times
totally suaku
took 61 one there
and there was a mad uncle
and im sorry to day that but he
smelt terrible.
couldnt breathe.
had to smell my jacket.
went to Ppl's park
so superduper funnn
and R.E.T.R.O
walked ard
found Tokyo
were over the moon
so many shades
countless
and the really retro earrings
she gt a shades
and i got 1 too
love it lots
cheap and good
$8 a pair
cheap cheap cheap
the aunty was super cute
i mean cute

wanna bring dot there
she'll love it.

then we went to OG.
had fun criticizing clothes
haha.
and we were really terrible
cuz we wanted to wear the shades
and yet feels dumb when ppl
stared at us
so i was putting it on
and removing it
kept repeating the sane steps
felt so daft
but then again
it was really fun
laughed like mad

went Food Street at Chinatown for late tea
had sesame dumplings in peanut soup
and also wu xiang. YUMMY.

then dropped by P.S
so many things we wanna buy
necklaces, shoes, shoes and shoes.
ha.

Conclusion: Daugher1-YAP is NUTS.
i repeat. NUTS.

dirty water, dirty people all around...

lunch at pizza hut wid ma 2 besties and glen
had a great bitching session
conclusion: ppl are selfish, they like to shed crocodile tears, annoying and lots more
then again
no one's perfect. thats why we need God.
its hard, sometimes i just feel like cursing those ppl
esp the dumbass malays.
those on the bikes.
bloody childish.

then we walked bk to sch
the car came and splashed the puddle of dirty water on the road unto us
i was beside daughter 2 - beth
it all happened too fast
wanted to curse and scold
but jus didnt react,
so let out a shrilly scream
so did daughter
haha super funny
we were like crazy
jus kept screaming for some time
mad.
2nd time.
daughter grown smarter.
asked us to stop and let the car passed first
but stil kenaed a bit
but then it was fun la
super relaxing day.
sue tan released us early as well
so glad i dont have to see her anymore

got back my cma
got a 48/100
great yah
first test 52/100
therefore, its ( 52+48 ) / 2 = 50
i got a 50.
God's grace really.
managed to jus scrape thru.
thank u Lord!
now i need to pass my exam to make sure i pass
go gotta really study for it man.

hope we're gg Chinatown tmr.
but 1 thing.
just 1 thing.
i'm B.R.O.KE.

Putting on the apron of humility...

phew, tuesday over. great feeling. one more day in sch down! yeeps!
today ms wong was in a gd mood i guess
bought so much chocs for us. act i think she's quite nice and lame, only if she doesnt bomb us with questions.
can't take all the tremors, so noisy
like they gonna hack down the whole building.
wish the renovations would be done soon man.

watched the invention show last nite
so surprised to see ms chai and mr leong
and turned out that my sec sch won!
so proud of em peeps!
suaty and dot gonna lead worship for fri's prayer mtg
will be playing for em

read purpose driven life ytd
and they were talking abt servanthood
and its really true u know
how many ppl want to be leaders, but not servants
bring me to the pt that as christians
we should not be in the limelight
and that real servants shld maintain a low profile
"put on the apron of humility, to serve one another" - 1 Peter 5:5
i guess that would be a struggle to many ppl
they become addicted to attention, unaware that always being in the spotlight blinds one.
so lets enc one another to keep on serving God
Lastly the words of Jesus
"If as my representatives, you give even a cup of cold water to a little child, you will surely be rewarded.
-Matthew 10:42

Faith is indeed the key to answered prayer...

Oh my goodness... this is like totally shocking.
cuz i couldnt blog due to some prob with my blogger.
and i jus said a prayer, didnt really mean it
jus said God, plz, if possible, just let it wk k...
and ta-da! he answered it! even tho it was sucha small and unimportant one!
thank u father!

so glad the gals wanna go watch Mama Mia! wahaha...
so happieee.
nickie auddy cmg too.
hope ah mei will come along
else it wouldnt be fun w/o her

was home at 2 last nite.. watching dvd at hawk's place
but i was sleeping thru out the whole show lah
so boring
then that dumb nic use cam and took a pic of me when i was sleeping like a pig
then aft that he fell asleep too
then i gave him a tooth for a tooth! muahaha...

ytd's bbq was quite fun
played with the sparklers
then i think i burnt my eyebrow
haha got one hole down there

the He Shi Bi was super duper sian!
many ppl were like sleeping
then the woman talked to me lah
but before that they were like making me feel damn sad
even the other woman feels that the woman is segregating herself fr me.
but at least got talk a bit la
somehow still feel the uncomfort btw us

it was real glad to see dottie
sucha long time
anyway, am glad to have her back

think nxt monday no need come bk sch anymore
*happieee*
have been waiting very long for this day

u know i really really love my church peeps.
but they seem to disappoint me time and time again
or perhaps im being too sensitive lah
maybe i shd change cell
have been thinking bout it for some time
love Naomi, but i should be in Joshua
feel intimidated in Naomi
Sigh...
but they are all the loveliest ppl in my life.
i really dunno what to do.

havent done my qt for a long long time
i really pray that God'll forgive me.
everyday im jus wasting my time away
i owe God so much so much
pray for me ya peeps

im so glad sch's cmg to an end really soon.
the feeling is great man.
indescribable feeling

Today was quite alright… had a good time laughing at the skit… Thought it was hilarious… Made a new friend today or rather two… So happy! Janice – got to know her so much better today… She’s a funny gal, great sense of humor! Daniel – didn’t really talk much to him, only till today during dinner… Anyway, nice people, hope to get to know them better and better with help from God!

Went to Bt. Timah mkt with the crusaders, and when we jus finished buying food, I saw Nic they all! So happiee! *grins* before that I was still thinking if they will go there for dinna, then TADA! They appeared! Works of God! Then got a lift home from my new neighbors! Think they watching some DVD, but I decided to stay home… too tired le, even though its just the floor above mine! Hee…

Something’s wrong with my lappie… sigh… can’t figure out what’s the prob… man… how lucky can I get? Taking a break from music min this week… Send some quality time alone, to breathe in fresh air, and perhaps help m new neighbors with their things tmr! Maybe will play with my new toys from Diaso, cut the collage thingy from 8-days, arrange my photos, do a masque, play the piano, bake biscotti read the papers, go for a swim, do my tutorials? Pack my things, throw away rubbish, paint my skirt, decorate my bag etc etc etc… Will make sure my free day tomorrow will be a fruitful and fulfilling one!

Went Diaso on Thursday with my daughters… we bought…

Jess – Cookies’ paper bags
Nail art thingy
Binoculars
Eyebrow thingy
Eliz – Milkish bag
Blusher
Loose powder
Eyebrow thingy
Skipping rope

Moi – Milkish bag
Loose powder
Skipping rope
Rainbow-colored Wig (love it!)
Connect 4!

Don’t know why can’t blog… Something’s wrong with my blogger… so had to ask my daughter to help me blog… haha…

Presentations are more or less over, so relieved now… but still got other tests, role-plays etc… life is still very much terrible…

Sigh… seems like ppl are getting colder and colder nowadays… it’s just so hard to reach out to them. Sigh… wonder what’s running in their minds, what’s holding them back.

Ytd no water supply, later no electricity… my house is super jialat… haha… always got this kinda problems… otherwise it’ll be lifts breaking down.. still remembered there was once, when I was still in primary school, both lifts broke down when I was going back with my mum after grocery shopping. Then we had no choice but to start climbing up the never-ending flight of stairs, to 22nd storey… halfway, and I crying and sat down on the stairs. I told my mum that I don’t wanna climb anymore…. Haha.. funny huh… now when I recollect the past, I could imagine the cold beads of sweat that were trickling down my mama’s forehead when I said that! Haha… anyway, hope that’ll nv happen again! Haha… but then my dad will be home late later…hope and pray that he’ll be back safely, cuz he got asthma, and can’t possibly climb 22 x 2 flight of stairs…

Asked ah bee for a break from worship duty this Sunday…really needed it. Im up
every week. Everyweek.. Its not that I don’t wanna serve but I really do need a break badly. Its real taxing… sigh… electricity gg off soon.. nic asks if I’ll be scared.. actually haven tot abt that, but after he asked, started to get the creeps. Plus im HOME ALONE. Ugh. What great luck…

Just a little encouragement to keep my loved ones going...

Drop a pebble in the water: just a splash, and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Spreading, spreading from the center, flowing on out to the sea. And there is no way of telling where the end is going to be.
Drop a pebble in the water: in a minute you forget, But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And those little waves a-flowing to a great big wave have grown; You've disturbed a mighty river just by dropping in a stone.

Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on. They keep spreading, spreading, spreading from the center as they go, And there is no way to stop them, once you've started them to flow.
Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute you forget; But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And perhaps in some sad heart a mighty wave of tears you've stirred, And disturbed a life was happy ere you dropped that unkind word.

Drop a word of cheer and kindness: just a flash and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Bearing hope and joy and comfort on each splashing, dashing wave Till you wouldn't believe the volume of the one kind word you gave.
Drop a word of cheer and kindness: in a minute you forget; But there's gladness still a-swelling, and there's joy circling yet, And you've rolled a wave of comfort whose sweet music can be heard Over miles and miles of water just by dropping one kind word.

so thankful, finally got back my internet connection
today was HQ & SS's wedding
she looked totally gorgeous
but the worst things kinda happen to me
was putting on the bod shop liq foundatn and it splattered all over me
kena on my skirt, right before the wedding
and the loose powder was horrendous
need to get a new one
then drank my mango tea, and it dripped down to my shirt
ugh
dinner's at Meritus Mandarin in town tonight
but im not invited
not that close
but overall fun lah

got my bag ytd
exilarated mannn
cma test is gettg nearer and nearer
sighhh...
bbq tmr, still recovering, dont know can eat or not haha

this week was a tough one
ask them
they will know
so tough u dont know what to do
cleared the problem
but dont know if it'll arise again or not

tmr's the wedding
can't wait
but got no top to wear
sigh
nxt wk cma test
ugh...
sure mati

nxt week's gonna b worse
2 presentations
german role-play
cma test
in deep poop

need to do ppt
paint
draw
color
alamak

bbq on sunday somemore
gonna go do my pacnet thingy later
hopefully wil b ok
have been paying few mths bills
but nt using the net at all
wthell right

heard from eu recently
she took the initiative to msg me
so happie
can tell that she really misses us
asked bout the bbq
but it was gonna end early
so i guess she couldnt come

i wanna go chinatown wif my daughters to get the shades
haha...
i need to have things to look forward to
to keep me going for the week
haha
such as shopping
or some activity
else i'll haf low morale
ahaha
what rubbish right

she didnt msg me at all this wk
prob still mad at me
sigh...
nothing i can do

cheryl pass me the deeds card
so cool
haha tot it was like super fun
going to pass to someone soon

haha cutie gals, me pearlie and june in ccc rm!

so tired...
everyday do proj til going bonkers
meta camp here again
shd i go?
can't stand unrefined guys
totally turn me off
every single guy pisses me and my two daughters off
s*** them

i think she's mad at me
not on talking terms
cant be bothered
dont know wtf is wrong with her

she asked me to lead worship for oct's prayer mtg
but i havent give her an ans
kinda scared

many things happened this week
not a smooth one, sigh...
wish things will be alright soon

passed all my papers
so thankful
that He pulled me thru
wanted to share my joy with her
but...
sigh...
guess no one has any ears for me

how childish can one get
tell me
tell me

why do i get frightened by it so easily
so scared
then got lots of restrictions
alamak

dont know how to do fmgt proj
stuck

ich mag schokolade kuchen!

Got the news ytd that mag's dad passed away
felt sad for them
but at least i know and have the assurance that
he's up there witht the Lord
and we'll meet one day

God is good to me
really really good to me
and i really really appreciate it
pulled me thru all 5 papers
it wasnt easy
but he was there to lift me up
esp cma
i passed it
it was like a MIRACLE
a miracle that descended from above
i know it was really Him
not me but Him
cause i really didnt know what i wrote
i jus wrote things that were def out of pt
but i knew He helped me thru it
thank u Father
thank u so much
and for also pulling my two daughters thru it
just relieved and thankful

went to pizza huttie with my daughters today
had a great lunch tog
and for once i can sleep in peace tonight
but come to think of it
i sleep like a pig everyday
hahaha...

i guess i made her mad again
but i did it on purpose
really sick and tired of hearing bla bla bla...
can't be bothered
don't know how to help her

so glad wed skool life has come to an end
now i can breathe properly
gonna go for the wake tonight
hope i dont weep buckets
that i'll keep cool

weird eh
forget abt that X
but suddenly hear from X again
err... erm... ehh... hmm... nvm

only when u see a person so close to dying

then will u know how fragile life is

wept buckets ytd

shouldnt have fun

he was breathing so hard

all his cells rob him off his body

feet swell up

sigh

i guess we must live in hope each day

and that God'll really grant us strength to carry thru

many ppl visited him ytd

he was like in a coma

but he was actually sleeping

so weak and skinny

face was sunken

his wife kept crying

it seems that he doesnt wanna leave earth yet

kept holding back

sigh

why does God allow suffering?

i seriously dont know

suppose to go kite flying

but it was raining jus now

don know how

hell damn pissed with her

I AM NOT ACCOUNTABLE FOR U

so SHUT UP and dont tell me whats up

i am so disappointed in her

once so on fire for God

yet backsliding

cuz of a yug

i hate him

hate him

bloody

thanks to June for teaching me how to post pics on my blog!
got back my econs n fmgt...
pass em thank God
but still gt 3 more which im so scared of
sigh...
blaw proj driving me nuts
ugh.
gt a pair of flats on sunday!
haha...gola shoes got sale!
wanna get em too!
and the black roxy bag!
watched 13 going 30 ytd
not really nice
going to watch Stepford wives
hope its nice

haha long long time ago...

brian, super cute@

am i cute? wahaha...

the young gals! made me look old beside em... sigh...

oops, nic exposed!!!

dot n me at my hse pool area!

hehheh.. jus knew how to do this... thanks to june..

in the end never go concourse
went chinatown instead
funnsss
but the shops i wanna go all close already
or mayb they didnt even exist at all

blurt smthg daft fr my mouth
shouldnt have said that
i knew i was in the wrong
but then she didnt have to like said such things
made me felt so sad
feel like crying
but i held it back

am glad things were better

gave her the egg
hope she likes it
havent really talk to her bout him
but guess things are ok
then the phonecall came...
and i guess he asked y shes on duty always
wthack.
she's serving God
dont u geddit.
make sure u dont stop her from coming to church
u idiot.
always going some other churches cuz of him
stupid dumbass
dont know why on earth she's hooked
such great differences
guess opposites do attract after all
wanted to ask her how are things
but it just wouldnt come out from my mouth

i guess i got a bad sense of rhythm
tried to play that song ytd but donno
how the rhythm shd be like
sigh...
haha...

wore the same stuff today
u call it telepathy
denim skirt
belt
pumps
i like hers
cool red color
feet hurts like mad

back to hell tomorrow
sigh...

finally... phew... all the horrendous papers are gone.
gonna do real badly...
but at least it's over.
thank God for pulling me thru...
lotsa topsy and turvies during the week

met WenJun on mond..
so glad to see her
it has been such a long time since we last met up
ketchup loads that day
life is just full of sweet surprises
God just arrange a time for us to meet again!

realli missed the good old days of sec sch
esp sec 4...
mrs MC HAMMER!
lessons under her were freaking scary..
but i enjoyed the suspense!
hahaha...
totally awesome.

went shopping with jess at town ytd
liz came for a while then cabut
saw eve n cera
haha..
what a small world
jess got a pair of pumps
niceee...
wanted smthg similar
but they didnt have my size

got a skirt from FOX @ taka for 27...
supp to be 39
the things there are all going for a song!
hehheh...
then went over to P.O.A at PS
got a pair of pumps for 23.40!
usual price was 39..
mayb i shd go buy 4d
buy the no. 3939?
wahaha...
but its kinda tight leh...
and my left ankle's hurting
UGH!
haha..
but it doesnt matter
girls are born vain
so im happie happie and happie!
then i used the visa card..
over at fox,
but i dint know i was supp to sign at the electronic board
so paiseh
i actually tried to key in my passw.
Ugh...
haha...
but now i know
i think its like super cool and funss...
but not much $$ left...
need to save save save!

went bk then ard 10 plus Sue called
the 'old' peeps were at Alameen...
then went there to look for em
a bit comm breakdown,
went to pool to look for em
then went 23rd...
sigh...
so scary...
then realise they were oppo
anyway, had fun
but my abia shirt's secret kept leaking
haha..
but it doesnt matter...

supp to catch 13 going 30 with pat
but dont feel like
may go concourse instead!
kite flying nxt sunday
so need get some stuff!
funnns!

Found myself drowning in a pool of tears yesterday.
once again i submerged myself into it.
everything's screwed up AGAIN.
b**ch. b**ch. b**ch.
sometimes i feel that women are the most toxic creatures on earth.
you have no idea how well they bite.
when their teeth sink into your skin
thats the end.
hahaha.
to hell with it.
whats up man.
lets hope for a better day.

have been playing too much.
and its all too late.
no one will help me.
cuz ive fallen into the pits...
the never-ending pits.

sometimes i really hate myself
for making myself so miserable...
breathe.

can't tolerate fake people.
so fake that u wanna peel off their skin
and see whats left underneath
probably just rotting flesh

haha.
and why do i sound like im bloody pissed
how i know???
Muahaha...

Some lame stuff...
TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it! *-TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O !
TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin !
TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me !
TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time." TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that?
BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get this MUMMY then?
TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you are wearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots !
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him,what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love ?
TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating ?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog !
TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher