.: Christmas :.

23rd dec 2005
it started off with a bang at the party in Jess's house.

24th dec 2005

it was a good one i guess. was at church since 1130 in the morn, cos of the music practices. got changed and prepared for the rally. skit went well, msg was short and sweet, and there was the altar call. i thot i could almost felt his disappointment, but owell, thats always the case.sigh.

anyway the real party began in the night when we thon in church. watched dvds but soo many distractions ard, and unless its horror movies, otherwise it wil be hard for me to be glued to the tv set. was nice having eu staying over with us too, since shes always busy. turbs too, but the poor huagu was sick. hais. but nonetheless, had fun tog. and the 3 of us slept on the sofa. it was madness. couldnt really sleep well, kept tossing and turning. seriously nv imagined that to be possible, cos it was really uncomfy, but i guess its the company that really really matters, and im glad my company's always fantastic.

25th dec 2005
yes its christmas. service as usual, exchanged pressies and went over to george+adel's place to visit their newborn! and the babe was uber cute can!humongous eyes, hehs. guess they are over the moon, they have been waiting for 5 yrs for this little precious to come along. and thank God for this best Christmas pressie ever! hehs. then over to SH's place for mini potluck party. 3 of us tagged along too, uninvited, thats always the case. haaa. and we had lotsa liquor. had that rose liquer thingy, then kahlua with eggnog, red wine - merlot, which is rather smooth when it finishes yr throat! niceee~! hehs. i wanttt more.. and that marks the end of Christmas!

remember how i was dreading it, but it all ended on a good note, and boy was i glad. except that i wish they would stop harping on that issue, cos it is really irritating the shit outta me. once or twice is ok, but too many times jus make me feel like puking in yr face, and making me hate u even more. bitch. no one will call u a mute even when u shut up. ok fine i should stop harping on it too. bleah.

jus to thank the peeps who have gotten me pressies this Christmas. truly appreciate each and every gift for it all comes from the heart of giving.

Naomians
- Twinnie darling & eunie for the magnetic board, musical box, mirror and rock candy fr melbs. thanks so much for remembering abt the things i mention. its uber sweet of u! lovelove.
- Mei for the personalised spag
- Rose for the humongous doh-dough set, sweetie who knows that i like playdough
- Nick and Aud for the earrings

Elijahs
- Maggie and Sharon for the sling bag
- Cindy for the necklace
- Fish for the milkshake bath

StJames peeps
- Pastor Phoebe for the chocolate mint sticks
- Wynne and WQ for the earrings
- Suemay for the cute dog soft toy
- Ruth for the hp strap
- Hawk and Brigitte for the plushy dog cushion hp holder
- Aunty Yuhua for the facial foam haha cute
- Hariette and John for the angel ornament
- Dennis for the lolli and biscuits

NP peeps
- Jess for the scrapbook, absolutely touched by that sweet gesture, as well as the necklace
- Lizzie for the zed and zee cup with the nail polish, buffer and shower confettis
- Eve for the earrings

TSS peeps
- Wenjun for the cute chicks boxers! almost wanted to get it for myself but the good Lord provided me with it haha
- Pearlie for the christmas card
- Kaikit for the christmas card

and to many others for their lovely Christmas greetings! thks for making my Christmas a happy affair. and thank God for the greatest and most precious gift that He have bestowed to us. His son - Jesus Christ.

.: so little time, so many things to do :.

isnt't it scary. its already the wee hours of a thursday. and christmas wil be here in jus 2 days time. and i havent got so many pressies. and im sooo broke. 50 odd dollars is not enough u know that?! this is very bad. how i wish for santa to drop me some money fr the sky. ive been good this year k. so i deserve some spare cash. and ive jus heard fr bh that fucking sph aint gonna pay us yet cos she jus got p/t to do data entry. like wth. so what am i gonna depend on for a living? ive absolutely no idea. damnit.

and i need to bake. and i need to do my forbidden fruit thingy, and my banana fondues. damnit. and i will be out shopping tmr. party's on fri. so many things to do. presents not wrapped. so screwed. feel totally wretched. to top it off, my mama had to target that pathetic packet of pistachio nuts which tasted like shit cos it was meant for baking. ahhhhhh. and it wasnt available in shop n save. i had to go giant and buy! damnit. sooo darn screwddd. which leave me nutless, and there aint enough time to do the biscotti. arghhh.

perhaps i should really really jus hide at home this Christmas. that would really save me alot of trouble. i could go missing and have everyone looking for me. haha but prolly not, cos its the festive season to be jolly and everyone else will be having so much fun and last thing on their mind will be the absence of meee.

silly thought. very silly one. sometimes im simply awed by the daft thoughts that keeps popping up in me. cant help it.

and nicks in msn have been getting cheesy and cheesier. turns me off totally. and the real meaning of christmas is so commercialised and diluted. have u realised? proclaimation of the virgin birth of our Saviour Jesus Christ to come and redeem men's sins has been replaced by secular festivity. it shd have been a day to sing "joy to the world, the lord is come", but this world has been encouraged to jus eat and drink and indulge in merry-making. the thought of it jus make me sick. and i dont deny that sm how or rather i've fallen into that pit w/o even realising it. goodness gracious!

lets jus take some time off, and once again be reminded of His birth that makes salvation possible, and let this simple fact jus awe us for a moment.

the flu bug had hit me and i succumbed to it! :'( it has been raining mucus for the past 2 days, and the feeling sure sucks, especially when Christmas is just around the corner. there are endless presents to buy, and what is left of me is 38cents in my bank a/c. and a total of 4 buckeroos in cash. and there are at least 15 pressies which i havent buy, and i simply have no idea how to get it done. cos no money no talk. and dumb sph is gonna pay me only at the end of this mth, which will jolly well be after Christmas. damnit. grrrr.

but the Lord jus provided me. Amen.

so many things running through the back of my mind, and smtimes there leaves behind no time for me to handle them all. human beings are so complex. i wish i could quit playing the guessing game.

i guess friends dont belong to us. i use to take it for granted, thinking that they will be there forever, 24/7, but smhow i guess we need some breathing space. there are jus certain things which are beyond our control. infact there is nothing which lies in our control, for it all belong to Him. and since there is nothing i can do, im jus gonna pray that the Lord watches over each and everyone of His children.

and i believe all things happen for a reason. instead of getting all green cos i dont have a chance to shine, im jus gonna be thankful, and to learn to appreciate the kind of gifts God have planted in sm ppl. and i need to stop laughing/bitching whenever there is a chance/mocking/bringing them down cos it aint gonna help. tho i cant help wondering why i wasnt rope it.

hate it when i feel vulnerable. and emo.

my latest earworm...

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU
Written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

sigh. when u are happy, time seems to not wait for u.

12th dezec
it was a visit to the oriental in the noon, and was indeed an eye-opener for suakus like me. and then over ta camp at changi. thanks turbs for picking me up. was like whining to myself when im there, cos is dirty blah. was glad i was able to sleep tho was tossing and turning at times. and im glad we had a bed to sleep on! shared the single one with turbs.

sort of missing camp already. cos the fellowship was good. was looking back and thinking how childish i was few years ago. all e politics. haha. but this year was really fulfilling. tho it was a tad drama with the 'plagues'. proved a lil too much for me to bear, so i teared a lil. haha.

cooking competition was fun too! totally enjoyed it, tho there were some hiccups. last day was a bonus cos we thot the chalet was booked til thurs, but in the end there was this one day extra. so we spent it swimming, and maiding..

realised anthonys super cutee can. haha. getting to love him!!! lol.

and we sneaked out to have chilli crab. smtimes i hate doing it, cos its like unfair. cos usually turbs and me wil get to go cos we are like the elites. well ok sound bitchy. but is we wil get to go but rose gets left behind. and vincent and ruth came also. so 5 of us with pastor nick. chilli crab dinner. 80 plus buckeroos. didnt know the crabs cost like 50 bucks! madness. but was yummy nv the less. hehs. thanks for the treat tho i know u are nt gonna see this.

and he kept talking abt the reshuffling of cell stuff. i hate to hear it. i know hes prompting us to ask, but smart turbs and me jus shut up. but ruth was askign and asking. haa she was afraid it was gonna affect her cell. but if my speculation's nt wrong, its my cell that needs reshuffling.

and he dropped hint in the car to turbs, on how she can get her revenge on anthony in june. so i guess she wil go to elijah's cell. as for me. =X . is like theyve nv seek us for opinions. so there.

thurs --> an eventful night i think! or rather a series of unfortunate events! haha.. but overall im glad i went. cos i know God has HIS plans for everythig.

have been doing the dishes a whole lot.. fun tho. would have dread it at home, but when everyone's doing it tog, i felt like so happy even when im mopping the floor. hehs.

and bunking with turbs was fun. but i think its fun cos of me. haaaa. cos i always make ppl laugh. heh thick skin eh, but is ok if u dont agree. and it was tickles all night, and the careful analysis of each and every single person before we slept. and how we talk abt the church. i always enjoy such girl talks. luv it. im missing it all already. but the fond memories will last me for some time.

dunno what to get them for christmas. and im so broke. darn it.

1 busy week came and go. jus like that.

i hate free-riders. ugh.damnit. 1 got dinner,and ask when need to submit when the dateline's tomorrow. the other one jus simply dont care/bother, cos she doesnt know a shit as to whats gg on. so there. drove me nuts. and here i am trying so hard to figure out how to get things done but sadly, to no avail.

on a good note, well spent weekend with turbs! now that shes bk, hiak hiak..have been playing mahjong on fri, towning on sat, and harry on sun. woots. loveee yr company turbs~!

and yea i have to agree that some peeps are dominating shit. all they can see is jus a world that revolves around them, and nobody else. smtimes it gets kind of sucky to the extent that i feel like slapping her. LOL. like why shd i even bother when her spouse is trying so hard to appease her?

off ta camp, will be back on thurs~!

this wk flew past exceptionally fast. warped speed! and im so confused. cos smtimes i want it that way, but other times i beg to differ.

was in town today, wanting to get my shoes fr mitju, and when i was there, it wasnt within my sight. =/ no more. sobs. made me learnt a lesson. is like in life, if u want smthg, u gotta just go and get it. any more procrastination and it will all be gone. in a flash that is. oh well. but smthg good came along. (:

sch is cmg to an end soon! yeeps. and turbs is bk.

shitttttttt my hairs so itchy now when ive just washed it like 6 hrs ago. damnit.

christmas celebs
23rd - jess's party 6.30 - 9.00pm
jacq's pajamas party
24th - christmas rally
25th - christmas celebration

hohoho~!

shoot man. that time i asked nick to send me to airport to pick turbs. but turn out he got bbq at diocese cannot goooo. argghhh. so maddening. hahhaa. but then i sort of prayed. a mini one.and then turn out that eu's gonna pick her cos her dada aint free. yay! which means i can tag along. but shucks she havent reply. ahhhhh. ooh she jus replied and said why not! hehs.YAYYYY. hope i can go cos ive already promised her and i dont wanna break it. owellsss.

thanks wenjun babe for lending me yr lappie. yr such a sweetling! hehs. shall treat it with lotsa care & love, i promise! and i sure owe u one! lovelove*

cant wait for next week! where i'll be off ta camp with my lovelies.. and no more sch for like a mth or so. *grins ( :

praise God!

and christmas is cmg....! gonna play first kybrd for christmas service, time to start practicing!

happy happy soul>> (:

whoa. time flies. really it does. and i can already feel the festive mood all ard already. *gushes* woohooooo~! and ive got my pay! and abt half of it is already gone. got jeans,skirt,flipflops,sm christmas pressies. hehs.. its all gonna be so fun!

im feeling a bit sore/blue abt not asked to participate in the skit etc for christmas rally, as well as ccis.. perhaps im someone who likes attention as well. kept forcing myself to laugh it off when i hear them practice the carol, blah. owell.owell. nvm. i guess theres a reason for all that happen.

anyway i just realised how much i love my churchmates. young/old. i loveeee them. not all la, but wil try mega hard.

man the redemption booth at the childrens camp ytd, and it was hell lot of fun. hehs. so many cuties..

its gonna be a busy week in sch, and im already dreading tues. sigh. lets get it over and done with.

mahjong and star awards laters yeeps.