i took leave on fri, hiak hiak. oops but nt yet signed by my boss. nevertheless im happy.



and MDA replied our email regd the proj! wheee. i just hope she get back to us asap so that we can quickly input all the information in. i pray that God will help us with this proj!



there's class tonight. BOOHOHOOOO...but i shall cheerie up cos its gonna be a short wk fer me!



and i just discovered there's a 1mth break fr sch in sept. hopefully can take a short trip. pls God, pretty pls..



i had a fab fab time with the best friend ytd! absolutely loved the company, i swoon. its so nice to have her back, and spending time with her beats anythg else. more to come pls.



ciao.

its tootsday!

And the 1million and 1 thoughts are still swimming vigorously in my head. damned. where did all those endorphins disappear to?

the circumstances failed me yet again, when i was very much hoping for some kind of say, reconcillation, or on-goings.

but then God spoke to me and once again reminded me to let go of what is not eternal, and to live each day like its the last. I wil learn to free my loved ones and start each day as if its the very last day. and by doing so, i will be upset no more with anyone, and i will no longer bear hatred toward those i don't love.

im trying to live by this nw.
>>keeping up with trends/fashions/popular values just doesn't matter as much anymore.

sidetrack.
suddenly gt this flashback of primary school days when i used to hang out with a indian and a filipino and a chinese gal all the time, cos we were all staying at bt timah bk then. with i could relish those times again. i vividly rem gg to play at the swing and pool of goodluckgarden's condominium which was behind her house, munching tidbits all the way. or to the gal's hse to do project,eat pizza etc. or alternatively we'll go to my filipino fren's hse to play with her dolls, and i thoroughly enjoyed the yummy sandwiches! or we'll go play badminton, or play ball in the gym, and did a million retarded things. mann. im so missing those days of carefreeness, bumming ard and having 0 worries!

hvg said that, its also scary hw ppl have changed, all 3 are like wild animals now. haha. well, changes are inevitable ya. therefore, pls dont send your kids to a convent school! or they'll slowly unleash the animal in them and leave you dumbfounded.

I dont want to be a restless wanderer. Products of past, yes, but not prisoners of it.

its monday. 26th may. 1.10pm and i had just finished lunch. and on top of it all, there are some 1million queer thoughts swimming in my head.

the weekend was, well, not too bad. i couldnt quite sum it up, but its just a wild mix of everythg, and it churns out making me a little funny all over.

its funny how hard i try but smtimes circumstances just fail me.i don't know.

yay. friday! my fav day of the week. and double yay! cos the best friend is cmg bk tmr! i'm so glad. just pray tt her gastric flu will disappear so that she won't have a difficult time on the plane. i can wait no longer! wheee.

somehow these few days i've been thinking... i used to like certain things so much (materials wise), they always seemed so desirable, and i guess its because i don't have the ability/money to buy it. yet when you have the money, all these things doesn't seem so desirable anymore. life's such a paradox. nowadays, when i shop, i only get things i really really like, and usually they are cheap too! and nice. heehee. im nt one who spend lotsa money on an item. i don't exactly believe in the "quality" stuff logic. why pay more when u can get more with less? haa. mayb i jus like cheapo stuff la. can't afford to splurge anw.

and there's classes tonight. and im beginning to feel the stress over the fact that we havent got started on our presentation. nt even the slightest inkling on what to do. and that is terrible. cos the presentation is like 1wk later. sigh. gt a feelg im gonna do badly for this module la.sigh. tmr sure is gonna be a hell of a busy wk. but i pray that i learn to depend on God, and nt myself for brilliant ideas. just that really clueless on a headstart. and the lecturer seems to expect alot, like a WOW presentation. sigh. we have our limitations lor.

am afraid of nxt wk. its gonna be super action packed with the proj shit. i can foresee it alreay. boo. ):

til then, hv a gr8 wkend. (:

the weekend whizzz past me, just like that. usually i wil be lamenting and sulking but this time it's different, cos it means that the best friend is coming back soon. wheee.

saturday was spent with lim. met in town, went for lunch, over to PS, then to clarke quay, over to MeidiYa, then walk all the way to Great World, then back to town for dinner. wth. walked till my legs ached. feeling the muscle strain on my left leg. ): but managed to get sm cheap deals of wallets and sm air refresher thingy for maybe say Mag's bday or smthg.

sunday had lunch with the pops at crystal jade. had dimsum which was sadly, nthg fantastic. and me being the fillial daughter, paid for the meal! haha. then went back home to rest.

ytd met the schoolmates to discuss proj. which was nt exactly productive, cos all are clueless as to what to do. damn. am starting to fret alittle, cos exactly 2wks from now is our presentation. AHHHHHHHHHH. just hope we dont flunk it. then went shop ard a little, and i gt my loot! sm very very stripey, bright and retro jacket from ebase, and cos only 12buckeroos! i really luv it! mann. smore so cheappppp! then saw sm shoes which i like, but tot i shd learn to be more frugal and nt just buy anythg i like. and i want to wait til bestie is back, and i want her opinions! then frens went off for dinna, and so i cont with my expedition to accomplish my mission.! independent woman >> thats me, WANG XIAOJIA! wakakaka...

its tuesday! i want saturday to come soon! i jus hope the mates doesnt spoil the wkend by wanting to meet for proj. i really think there's no pt in mtg up. we need to be efficient and effective darling. mtg up is useless if we have nthing prepared on hand.! bleah.

til then, hv a fab wk.

dont make me fume. dont "HEE" and "HAHAA" when i am asking u a damn question! ANSWER IT. but HENG u manage to salvage yrself at the very last moment. am so pissed! what the hell is wrong with you! slap u silly.

on another note, its friday. which makes me one happy girl.but twinnie is not in town.but i shall go shopping by myself after music prac tmr. (: time to be independent woman!

gt classes later. hope it wil be gd.

I am so bored, and feeling so dull. There is just this lull ringing in my entire body.

Classes wasn't that bad last night. Well, at least we had some fun with that kukus specs i gt from Mustafa. ohwells. but attention span was short, could concentrate no longer after the break. and yeah, got irritated by this classmate who is REALLY nothing but a GLUTTON. everytime w/o fail, she will just 'bio' whatever food we have and then jus reach out and take without even asking. i cant stand it. its like so duh! and so, in the recent weeks, whoever bought food will not take her share into account. its like she always take without any giving, and like taking it all for granted. she could have at least shown sm form of appreciation. the worst thing is she wil smtimes jus leave the rubbish behind on the table for us to clear. GRRR. i hope smone will knock sm sense into her soon. behaving like 猪八戒. super TAM JIAK la.

Was feeling kinda low when gg hm last night. its like everyone gt their dad to pick them up/drove own car. i just feel so lonely suddenly. i don't know why. though im grateful that they did offer to give me a lift smwhr. probably cos the best friend is not in town. ): but im ok now. will pick myself up.

i really really really want a trip to sm exotic place can God? pls? say Aust/USA/Europe? smwhere nice? is it too much to ask for? i really really really hope for a break. )':

thankfully. monday is over. and i've managed to chase the blues away. and the fact that nxt monday is a holi contributes to helping me cheer up a little.

thankfully the bestie is staying put at the hotel with internet access, so we can chat our way through the night, and the distance btw us doenst seem so far anymore.

the bestie has departed for PRC in the wee hours of the dawn. and im feeling lonely already. boo. ):

adding on to my agony is the excruciating pain from cramps, and the sucky blues of monday. yucks. i just wanna get it done and over with.

visited aunt at TTSH ytd. and its kinda sad to see her sitting on the bed, nt exactly able to move ard w/o help. sigh. i just for wisdom in doc to be able to diagnose with precision, so that she'll be fine soon. cos shes always so active/agile. i just hope that nothing goes wrong.

on another note, i gt bk result for Strategic PR & Planning, and yes, by GOD's grace, its a D. extremely thankful. and also to bestie who helped me so much for the assignments and presentation! xiexie.

to digress a little, was pissed with mei. she's on worship duty, playing drums, and 3 mins before svc starts, she called and said she forgot to set the alarm, and just woke up. sigh. isnt that a really irresponsible thing to do? smtimes i really wonder what goes inside their head. it is sucha terrible thing to do. i really am utterly disappointed la. hw can sm ppl just shrug things off like that? horrendous. but then again, who am i to judge? but i just cant help but feel like WTH!!! haha.

gt lessons later. double sianness. i need some beauty sleep.

once again we had sakae sushi, and to our horror, prices had rose, yet again! 2.29 for a plate of sushi. the standard color plates. guess we cant patron as much as we like now. prices are rocket high la! how to eat? sure pok gai. maybe we can DIY la huh. i cant wait to make out potato salad inari and the potato mackerel pumpkin croquette! wheee.

brought the bread i bot ytd to work and to my horror, there were ants in the bread cos of the sugar. ugh! but i tried to rid them and cont eating. moral of the story: never keep yr bread inside yr room. bad choice. ):

its friday today and im so darn pricked! in other words excited. but its a mixed feeling. cos i know the best fren is departing for PRC, soon. but i shall await the 24th with anticipation.

my prayers are with you love. may the good Lord keep you strong, grant you journey mercies, and may the r/s btw u and loved ones strengthen each day in His love. Stay bright and chirpy for me come what may. and im looking forward to see you 2 weeks later. HUGS & LOVE.

and when you are back, we shall have a wild time tog, celebrating bdays and doing lotsa fun stuff tog! and i sure hope u will come with me and pops to KL. that wil be awesome! dont u dare turn down my papa's invitation ya! we will bring you go eat the yummiest of bak kut teh, a brimming pot of rich soup brewed for many hours filled with lotsa mushroom, think fat juicy shitake, and delicate, silky enoki. and those crispy beancurd skin they throw into the soup, accompanied by crunchy lip-smaking dough sticks. not to forget the well-missed black hokkien mee, a tragic sin of fat noodles clothed in black sauce adorned by the crackling pork lard that melts oh-so-nicely on the tongue. the chee cheong fun, rice rolls wrapping parcels of shrimps, charsiew, soaked in sweet soy sauce, with a dash of shallots and spring onions. pop one into yr mouth and it will send shivers down yr spine. let us not forget the rojak, dominated by cut fruits - green mangoes, papayas, cucumbers, pineapples. the think black paste of molasses and prawn paste are then mixed to perfecto before adding the fruits, taupok, and crunchy dough sticks. then a dash of crushed peanuts and a generous topping of crunchy crackers will round it up nicely.

ok. i shall stop. cos im salivating non-stop already. wakaka.

blessed weekend huns. XOXO.

Blackout in the office! apparently the power tripped. so there. but thankfully, the lights over at my area is wking. so im living in the light! just that earlier on there was no aircon, but nw its reinstated. wheee. no more sweaty sticky pits! haha.

the bestie acc me to shop for presents for the classmates. so in the end we stock up sm treats fr marks and spencer. if u happen to read this, u had better wait for me before starting on the ROAST BEEF AND ONION chips! else i will stuff yr mouth with smthg nasty! heehee.

then had the much missed carl's jr for dindin, loved the onion rings and zuchinni! then went bk to bestie's hse, then she drove me back, but then we decided to go pack tau huay, so we zipped ard to find the beancurd plc at Rochor. which we literally cruise for like 1 hr altogether on the roads. madness.

jus wanna spend more happy times together.period.

It's MONDAY.

1.12pm. and my monday blues hasnt even the slightest hint that it will vanish. ):

eeks leh. why did God create mondays? its jus the most saddening day of the wk. sobs.!

pass week was extremely eventful. so eventful it was scary. i just pray that God make me a better person. am going to try to do nice to everybody!

sorry my dearest friend, for the incessant tortures from me. spiritually/physically/mentally. when i thought of the things i did in the car that night, i too, was horrified of myself. forgive me.

thankfully, God made things right in the end.

new module awaits me. another 1.5mths of battle before i can take a break. we'll see how it goes ok. (:

may God keep the ones i love beside me. don't take them away from me pls.