i've lost track of time. it passes so fast, and tmr comes 1st of May. like hello, 1/3 of the year had disappeared just like that.
looking back, its all thanksgiving besides thanksgivings. say work, His providence. Wasn't what I had in mind, ain't alot of money, but the ppl are awesome. School, had been relatively well in context of results. and the ability to juggle btw work and sch. tough at times, but He gave me the strength to persevere on. Having said that, life in church is like rolling down the slope. i find it so hard to catch the momentum. still, im trying, with help from above and the one who's always beside me. constant encouragement is all i need. being in the worship ministry, given the ability to serve has been great. but often i take it for granted, and i fume at the slightest reason. smtimes hidden agendas blurred my vision, and it becomes a display of what i have to show. which i must all repent for it. family has been great, despite a almost non-existent r/s with the sibling. pops are awesome, as always, and im truely thankful for that. and especially the providence of my sch fees. cos i know since im the one who wanted to study, i shd go all out and support myself. but the pops are so nice, wking hard to pay my sch fees so that i can study in peace. friends, always an essential part of my life. i must say i've lost some. perhaps i havent been trying hard, i don't know. or probably as we grow up, mentality differs, views change, and i find myself unable to catch up with them in the rat race. and perhaps is the reason why i cont to grasp tightly to the ones i find worthy. thankful for the best friend, who has became a family fren. the constant shower of love, understanding, and even just by being there. i may nt have mention, but my heart is smiling each time i think of what u've done for me, and how our frenship has blossomed these yrs. its truly amazing, the kind of telepathy,psychic powers.
pardon me for the long post. just wanted to let my fingers run free and share the sudden outburst of emotions which i gotta let out. strange, cos i didnt expect to touch on all these.
its Labour Day tmr. have a good rest my loves.
im just gonna unwind and let my hair down. (:
Monday, April 28, 2008
hello. am back. after what seemed like a hiatus? hmmm actually its jus pure busyness with all the mugging for exam. which i must say the paper came as a shock and a disappointment as well. kinda tough the questions. but now that its over, i will pick myself up and nt brood and linger in the sucky mood.
the best fren has been amazing.gestures so sweet. i am so touched. brought ice cream fr daily scoop and surprised me when i was feeling so stressed up and bogged down with exams and was craving for sm comfort. and suddenly the phone call came, and nxt thing i know, DING DONG! she was there, at my doorstep. the very nxt day yet another sweet surprise, yummy muffs fr Choc and Spice, piping hot, all the way fr tanjong pagar. when u have such fab frens, u'd realise that u dont need any other thing!
wilfy's wedding on fri night was great, nice lomantick ambience n music. company was great, tho there were sm nt very pleasant times, but at the end of the day, the rainbow sneak out to embrace us in the wee hours of the dawn. trigger happy moments. (:
lazy sat, had yummy mcgriddles again, then went swimming before the music min mtg. over to JP and gt skirts at a steal! 1.90! madness. hehs. then the best friend came over for a slumberthon.
svc on sunday and the much dreaded mtg. sigh. i dont know what to feel anymore. poof.
sigh. i cant help but get envious of those who always get to jet set. damnit. boss is gg darwin like friday. boo.when will my dream ever ever come true?
Sunday, April 13, 2008
this weekend was crazy. really crazy.
have been burning midnight oil toiling thru the proj. met up with the rest on friday. prior to that had retail therapy again! at little india. haha. tank tops going at 50cents per piece! can u believe it? my gosh. and sm nice transparent rubber flats which ive gotten a pair for twinnie as well.
then saturday morn we took the car, went to get macs breakfast- mcgriddles! was absofkinglutely yummilicious can! the maple syrup infused muffins were fab fab FAB! wheee. hungry nw. then went exchange shoes and had lunch at little india! woohoo. mei brought us to Komali Vila and we had fantastic poori and thosai! was humongous! shall post sm pics soon or smthg.
then back to shiqis pad for proj. wanted to buy lana cake but ran out of it. so got a mango strudel. then when at her plc, this bitch was trying to pick up a fight with me and frens jus cos she was the sub-editor but her name was taken out and placed elsewhr. wtf. i was seriously pissed. then after fren talked to her, she woke up her idea. but stil as bitchy in my opinion. then we went back. took a cab back cos super tired, smore we didnt have dinna! madness.
then talked to babe on phone, and realised i left her laptop in the taxi! i wept buckets. literally. for a whole hour i kept crying til there's no tmr. so today i had super puffy and swollen eyes. madness. triple eye-lids . haha. think it actually makes my peepers bigger. and ma said that i shd cry every sat night. SIAO. but anyhw, i was so scared shit outta my ass, cos i was afraid that dot wouldnt want me anymore. that this whole saga wil either make or break our frenship. boo. so i kept crying. then when i was checking online the cab hotline to call, my hands were shaking! then told one of my mates, and she told the other girl, and in the end fren called my and said i left the laptop at her house! AHHHHHHHHHHH. i wanted to shoot and kill myself. sigh. am i forgetful or what. but sure GOD was faithful. He made me learnt many lessons. but after i know it was there i was still crying like siao. suffering from shock la!
then now, stil pia-ing the project. pui. but i really appreciate the best friend for fetching me here and there. despite it being none of her biz. just that we were supp to meet like later but she has to go for dinna with family. but well, family is always more treasured than frens ah. haha. perhaps im post-pmsing. just feeling sad. sigh. supposedly gg out for dinnna. but stomach is like rumbling now. boo.
its monday tmr. and there's work. but imfeeling soooooooo tired. but cant take leave for mon and tues cos the paycheque's issued till 15. sians. i neeeed rest........
and food. byebye.
have been burning midnight oil toiling thru the proj. met up with the rest on friday. prior to that had retail therapy again! at little india. haha. tank tops going at 50cents per piece! can u believe it? my gosh. and sm nice transparent rubber flats which ive gotten a pair for twinnie as well.
then saturday morn we took the car, went to get macs breakfast- mcgriddles! was absofkinglutely yummilicious can! the maple syrup infused muffins were fab fab FAB! wheee. hungry nw. then went exchange shoes and had lunch at little india! woohoo. mei brought us to Komali Vila and we had fantastic poori and thosai! was humongous! shall post sm pics soon or smthg.
then back to shiqis pad for proj. wanted to buy lana cake but ran out of it. so got a mango strudel. then when at her plc, this bitch was trying to pick up a fight with me and frens jus cos she was the sub-editor but her name was taken out and placed elsewhr. wtf. i was seriously pissed. then after fren talked to her, she woke up her idea. but stil as bitchy in my opinion. then we went back. took a cab back cos super tired, smore we didnt have dinna! madness.
then talked to babe on phone, and realised i left her laptop in the taxi! i wept buckets. literally. for a whole hour i kept crying til there's no tmr. so today i had super puffy and swollen eyes. madness. triple eye-lids . haha. think it actually makes my peepers bigger. and ma said that i shd cry every sat night. SIAO. but anyhw, i was so scared shit outta my ass, cos i was afraid that dot wouldnt want me anymore. that this whole saga wil either make or break our frenship. boo. so i kept crying. then when i was checking online the cab hotline to call, my hands were shaking! then told one of my mates, and she told the other girl, and in the end fren called my and said i left the laptop at her house! AHHHHHHHHHHH. i wanted to shoot and kill myself. sigh. am i forgetful or what. but sure GOD was faithful. He made me learnt many lessons. but after i know it was there i was still crying like siao. suffering from shock la!
then now, stil pia-ing the project. pui. but i really appreciate the best friend for fetching me here and there. despite it being none of her biz. just that we were supp to meet like later but she has to go for dinna with family. but well, family is always more treasured than frens ah. haha. perhaps im post-pmsing. just feeling sad. sigh. supposedly gg out for dinnna. but stomach is like rumbling now. boo.
its monday tmr. and there's work. but imfeeling soooooooo tired. but cant take leave for mon and tues cos the paycheque's issued till 15. sians. i neeeed rest........
and food. byebye.
Friday, April 11, 2008
whoa. it's like friday. time crept up so silently i didnt even realise.
but there's proj mtg tonight. and tomorrow! yikes. and the girls are feeling bitchy, keep having stupid conflicts. really stupid ones.
i gt back my assignments. did pretty well. way above all my mates. im so thankful. and happy. and thankful again. thanks to all those who helped me in a way or another. wouldnt have been possible w/o their help.hehs. so happy, im jumping for joy. so im hoping for a distinction for that module. woohoo.
things aint exactly too smooth at home. its the devil at work. sigh. ireally really hate my brother. he seems to always make all of us upset in a way or another. sians.
exam is in like 2 weeks time. and i havent started studying! bah. and i think its gonna be so tough. she doesnt seem like a v lenient marker. let's just hope that i can get down to mug soon. i really hope to ace well through this entire course man. make my pops happy.
the weekend is here. savour it~! XOXO.
but there's proj mtg tonight. and tomorrow! yikes. and the girls are feeling bitchy, keep having stupid conflicts. really stupid ones.
i gt back my assignments. did pretty well. way above all my mates. im so thankful. and happy. and thankful again. thanks to all those who helped me in a way or another. wouldnt have been possible w/o their help.hehs. so happy, im jumping for joy. so im hoping for a distinction for that module. woohoo.
things aint exactly too smooth at home. its the devil at work. sigh. ireally really hate my brother. he seems to always make all of us upset in a way or another. sians.
exam is in like 2 weeks time. and i havent started studying! bah. and i think its gonna be so tough. she doesnt seem like a v lenient marker. let's just hope that i can get down to mug soon. i really hope to ace well through this entire course man. make my pops happy.
the weekend is here. savour it~! XOXO.
Monday, April 07, 2008
i woke up feeling blue, cos why? its monday.
i really abhor mornings you know. esp when one has to work. SIGH. why can't the weekend be longer? sobs. i wish all good things didn't have to come to an end.
was on the phone with bestie last night, was complaining to her how my fren keep telling everyone that she and her bf break up. like broadcasting to the world. sigh. im so tired abt this whole issue. why is it that every topic has to be abt bf, sex etc etc? just feel like crawling into a hole and hide. probably that's the reason why i haven't initiate any meet-up with my other frens besides church ppl. its all superficiality and pure shallowness. the thought of it is revolting. almost felt like throwing up when i was washing up this morning. all the funny thoughts of being in this rat race is making me sick. everything we see is so so plastic! sobs. i don't like it. sigh. but yet i found myself being trapped in it at times. sigh. smtimes i wish God will just come and take me away altogether. there seems to be no other way out.
nthing substantial ever arise from convo with ppl ard me. its all abt BF, SEX, JOB, MONEY, INCOME, CLOTHES, BLAH. i am so so sick of it! yucks! sobs.
i just want to go back to the very basics.
i really abhor mornings you know. esp when one has to work. SIGH. why can't the weekend be longer? sobs. i wish all good things didn't have to come to an end.
was on the phone with bestie last night, was complaining to her how my fren keep telling everyone that she and her bf break up. like broadcasting to the world. sigh. im so tired abt this whole issue. why is it that every topic has to be abt bf, sex etc etc? just feel like crawling into a hole and hide. probably that's the reason why i haven't initiate any meet-up with my other frens besides church ppl. its all superficiality and pure shallowness. the thought of it is revolting. almost felt like throwing up when i was washing up this morning. all the funny thoughts of being in this rat race is making me sick. everything we see is so so plastic! sobs. i don't like it. sigh. but yet i found myself being trapped in it at times. sigh. smtimes i wish God will just come and take me away altogether. there seems to be no other way out.
nthing substantial ever arise from convo with ppl ard me. its all abt BF, SEX, JOB, MONEY, INCOME, CLOTHES, BLAH. i am so so sick of it! yucks! sobs.
i just want to go back to the very basics.
Friday, April 04, 2008
i am so freaking bored at work. and its basically because i have nothing to do. sigh. smtimes i wish my wk will never stop so that 5.30 will be here before i know it. but i shall spend time to start mugging for my paper already. just flipped thru the past yr papers and its so bloody difficult. this time i think sure die. =X
on another note. i gt my result today for reading media text module. the module which i have so little confidence in, cos of sm screwups during presentation etc. but God, who was ever faithful gave me a distinction for it. got 78mks leh! what a joke right! highest among the 3 results i gt back so far. smtimes i think God is really humorous. so besides thanksgiving, it is still thanksgiving la.
hope i can keep up with the good work. if only i had study much harder since young. ugh. too late for regrets. nvm.
out for lunch with adel at clementi cos she wanted to get sm files fr big bookshop.but sold out. so just had lunch, her treat again. so nice. i feeling paiseh leh. i really did tried to pay but she always forbid me to. sigh. shall get her a big pressie when i say byebye worldkitchen.
its friday. but im nt as exhilarated as before. because...
1) it will come and go so fast, i don't even realise its existence
2) sucky proj mtg which i know will be super unproductive.
B.O.O.
then on thurs, classmate ask me help her buy sausage so i did. and its like she never even attempt to pay me back. sigh. honestly, its nt the money that mattered, but i just dont like this kinda "pai2kuan4" attitude. i think its a really ugly trait. and the other day when i bought water for her too. she just conveniently forgot cos she was on the phone. so now, once bitten, twice shy. i've learnt to play it smart.
but when i thought of all these, i rem smwhere in the bible where it goes like: if someone slaps you on the right cheek, offer yr left cheek to them too. i know im over-reacting/exaggerating. but yeah, at least i was the victim, and i was "cheated", not i cheat you.
its just a few dollars. i know. but this yucky character of yrs just turns me off. and also when u keep rattling abt yr life, abt yr bf, abt hw this guy is after u. honestly, yawns. bugger off. its nt like im jealous. but u are so self-centred. and the topic keeps revolving ard you. EWWWW. gross. am gonna put an end to all these!
colleague is gg to states. how i wish it was me.
i think my greatest dream ever, for now, is to travel. smwhr outta SEA. hopefully say America, Australia, Europe. and i will die happy.
but no worries, i know a dream's a dream, and the reason it remains a dream because a dream is something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence.
source: www.dictionary.reference.com/browse/dream
on another note. i gt my result today for reading media text module. the module which i have so little confidence in, cos of sm screwups during presentation etc. but God, who was ever faithful gave me a distinction for it. got 78mks leh! what a joke right! highest among the 3 results i gt back so far. smtimes i think God is really humorous. so besides thanksgiving, it is still thanksgiving la.
hope i can keep up with the good work. if only i had study much harder since young. ugh. too late for regrets. nvm.
out for lunch with adel at clementi cos she wanted to get sm files fr big bookshop.but sold out. so just had lunch, her treat again. so nice. i feeling paiseh leh. i really did tried to pay but she always forbid me to. sigh. shall get her a big pressie when i say byebye worldkitchen.
its friday. but im nt as exhilarated as before. because...
1) it will come and go so fast, i don't even realise its existence
2) sucky proj mtg which i know will be super unproductive.
B.O.O.
then on thurs, classmate ask me help her buy sausage so i did. and its like she never even attempt to pay me back. sigh. honestly, its nt the money that mattered, but i just dont like this kinda "pai2kuan4" attitude. i think its a really ugly trait. and the other day when i bought water for her too. she just conveniently forgot cos she was on the phone. so now, once bitten, twice shy. i've learnt to play it smart.
but when i thought of all these, i rem smwhere in the bible where it goes like: if someone slaps you on the right cheek, offer yr left cheek to them too. i know im over-reacting/exaggerating. but yeah, at least i was the victim, and i was "cheated", not i cheat you.
its just a few dollars. i know. but this yucky character of yrs just turns me off. and also when u keep rattling abt yr life, abt yr bf, abt hw this guy is after u. honestly, yawns. bugger off. its nt like im jealous. but u are so self-centred. and the topic keeps revolving ard you. EWWWW. gross. am gonna put an end to all these!
colleague is gg to states. how i wish it was me.
i think my greatest dream ever, for now, is to travel. smwhr outta SEA. hopefully say America, Australia, Europe. and i will die happy.
but no worries, i know a dream's a dream, and the reason it remains a dream because a dream is something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence.
source: www.dictionary.reference.com/browse/dream
Thursday, April 03, 2008
2 things that I told myself in the past week
1) I will not measure myself according to the standards that the world has set for me.
2) I will not allow anyone to hurt me.
food for thought eh, hmmm.
went for a haircut, looked the same as before. over to Raffles City to check our Shokudo, that marche concept Japanese Food Bazaar. but the queue was seriously crazy. So went to PS, had Ichiban, which ain't too nice. late dinner, had gastric, so even the yummiest of food wouldn't turn me on. HAHA.
Got a lift home, but it wasn't a pleasant end to the night. It's occuring too often. And i don't know what triggered me to react the way i did. sigh. instant guilt. its scary hw my mood changes within split seconds and then spillover effect to ppl whom i love dearly. Besides Sorry, its still SORRY.
classes tonight.what a dread,drag too. am so tired, perhaps i will give it a miss. bleah. I am so not in the mood!
was googling forums/blogs on Shokudo, and it does seem like they serve the loveliest of food there at affordable rates. damned, we shdve gone there ytd.
on another note, its thursday. shudders. scary how time flies.
mug hard June! (:
1) I will not measure myself according to the standards that the world has set for me.
2) I will not allow anyone to hurt me.
food for thought eh, hmmm.
went for a haircut, looked the same as before. over to Raffles City to check our Shokudo, that marche concept Japanese Food Bazaar. but the queue was seriously crazy. So went to PS, had Ichiban, which ain't too nice. late dinner, had gastric, so even the yummiest of food wouldn't turn me on. HAHA.
Got a lift home, but it wasn't a pleasant end to the night. It's occuring too often. And i don't know what triggered me to react the way i did. sigh. instant guilt. its scary hw my mood changes within split seconds and then spillover effect to ppl whom i love dearly. Besides Sorry, its still SORRY.
classes tonight.what a dread,drag too. am so tired, perhaps i will give it a miss. bleah. I am so not in the mood!
was googling forums/blogs on Shokudo, and it does seem like they serve the loveliest of food there at affordable rates. damned, we shdve gone there ytd.
on another note, its thursday. shudders. scary how time flies.
mug hard June! (:
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
and one week later, the best friend is coming back! woots~! heehee. then i won't feel so lonely anymore. and then i can rant about anything and everything to her! my partner in crime!
anyhw, met with a nasty encounter on sat. it was definitely gross. yucks. scary too. thankfully had 8other classmates with me.
here the story goes:
We left a teammate's pad aft discuss our proj. so me and 7 other girls went off, all heading towards the MRT. we stopped along the street to grab some drinks before making our way to the MRT. i was walking in the front, and suddenly i heard this CHINESE AH JEK IN HIS FIFTIES on my right making some "noise", kinda ushering us towards his direction, since he was obviously trying to get our attention. and to my much horror/disgust, he was fiddling with his cock. it was hanging out and he was shaking it, wanting us to see!!! SCARY AND GROSS la! then 2 other girls saw it too, but the rest didnt. Little India sure is one hell of a scary place with MAD ppl! we contemplated calling the cops, but we didnt in the end. sigh. procrastination la. then we wanted to head back and all take out our cameras and start snapping pics of his bird. asshole!!!
super suay lor. i dont want anymore of such deals pls!
now twinnie and i sama sama liao. cos she met a flasher before too! LOL.
then on the very same day, i got 2 dresses, 2 pairs of shoes, and 2 skirts, all for the good deal of 53bucks! cheap or what?! hehhehs. and those things i gt were lovely!
but i shall quit being sucha shoppaholic.
on another note, church camp looks uber fun. they screened the slide show with a pic of times square and the image of twinnie and me on the roller coaster appeared at the back of my mind. fond memories it brought me. but sadly, most prob i can't make it cos of the exam on the last day of camp. sigh. saddening la. ): first time in 10yrs leh that i cant go for church camp.boo.
i want to jetset smwhere! wonder why i always feel so jealous upon receiving emails from the elf n pixie. just cant help but get jealous at the fact that they are having a gd time in sweden, and even have a chance to go jerusalem, bethlehem. blah. bleah. ):
anyhw, met with a nasty encounter on sat. it was definitely gross. yucks. scary too. thankfully had 8other classmates with me.
here the story goes:
We left a teammate's pad aft discuss our proj. so me and 7 other girls went off, all heading towards the MRT. we stopped along the street to grab some drinks before making our way to the MRT. i was walking in the front, and suddenly i heard this CHINESE AH JEK IN HIS FIFTIES on my right making some "noise", kinda ushering us towards his direction, since he was obviously trying to get our attention. and to my much horror/disgust, he was fiddling with his cock. it was hanging out and he was shaking it, wanting us to see!!! SCARY AND GROSS la! then 2 other girls saw it too, but the rest didnt. Little India sure is one hell of a scary place with MAD ppl! we contemplated calling the cops, but we didnt in the end. sigh. procrastination la. then we wanted to head back and all take out our cameras and start snapping pics of his bird. asshole!!!
super suay lor. i dont want anymore of such deals pls!
now twinnie and i sama sama liao. cos she met a flasher before too! LOL.
then on the very same day, i got 2 dresses, 2 pairs of shoes, and 2 skirts, all for the good deal of 53bucks! cheap or what?! hehhehs. and those things i gt were lovely!
but i shall quit being sucha shoppaholic.
on another note, church camp looks uber fun. they screened the slide show with a pic of times square and the image of twinnie and me on the roller coaster appeared at the back of my mind. fond memories it brought me. but sadly, most prob i can't make it cos of the exam on the last day of camp. sigh. saddening la. ): first time in 10yrs leh that i cant go for church camp.boo.
i want to jetset smwhere! wonder why i always feel so jealous upon receiving emails from the elf n pixie. just cant help but get jealous at the fact that they are having a gd time in sweden, and even have a chance to go jerusalem, bethlehem. blah. bleah. ):
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