shit happens because its a shitty day. sigh. first the hairdresser, then the pops, then the internship then the bloody jeans.skunk. __ anw i gt a job. so hopefully that will make YOU happy. i will jolly well get anothr since its part time. no worries, i will work v hard to support myself. and its work day tmr. meaning i must be up at 7. sigh. the thought of it is sianing enough. ohwells. do i have a choice? guess i dont. but am just thankful enough for a job. but already fretting what i shd do during lunchtime. sobs. sigh.

i need to cut my hair desperately. cos the locks are so long, its making me feel super HOT as in PERSPIRINGLY HOT. grrrr. and chris is missing. hw nice. ahhhh. guess its contributing to the temper these days. darn.

sigh. im feeling super down today. huai4 liao1.tsktsktsk. i hate myself for being in self-denial, self-deluding all the time. i always think that things will happen that way but it always turn out the other. sigh. i really oughta snap out of it. perhaps i mean nothing after all. and mayb when i reach enlightenment, things like this will nv bother me again and i wil be a free, spirited soul. yes i will be.

i hope the embark of a brand new day ahead will bring me surprises filled with lotsa love from above. God gimme strength, wisdom too pls. thank uuu.