Because it's a new year, I've decided to set some resolutions, though fully aware that none of it will be fulfilled! haha. and maybe cause I would like to document some stuff that has happened in the past year.
the person whom I thought I might have a future with got married, no kidding, and they had marital issues. but of course I am not harbouring any thoughts at all, though many times i really felt like texting you. that is as good as committing adultery? I don't know.
then i met the deejay, and for the first time, i thought i fell in love, but as always, he is attached with a girl. how the hell did i ever think that i would stand a chance? 28 years and still back to square one at the end of the day. not sure if i should feel sorry for myself, but hey, life is short, and God has His own plans for me, I know.
On another note, i have been blessed with the chance to visit taiwan, australia and japan. i really appreciate these opportunities and the time spent with loved ones. despite a not very pleasant maiden trip to australia, still thankful for the chance.
work has been kind to me, personally i felt that i have learnt a lot, though at times i find it very frustrating and stressful, but each challenge has become a learning process, and i am rather proud of what i have achieved, of course knowing God has been navigating my life.
dad is sick, stage 4 of prostate cancer. i don't know how much more time he has. yes i am very sad, but i do not know how to deal with it. sometimes i feel bad that i am not very concerned about him, but at times i just feel that i don't know what to do. i only pray that he will be able to see me get married, and even carry a grandchild? it seems very far-fetched, and i am nowhere near that. it's sad, but there's nothing i can do about it. i have been asking God, i have been patient, but nothing to date.
it's okay i guess. I'm already used to it. it just suck bad when mum tells me so and so is attached etc. she says she is okay with it but i know deep down she hopes that i can meet someone. but hey, isn't all these in God's plans?
okay, on a more positive note, here are some resolutions
1. Lose weight, lose weight and LOSE WEIGHT
sigh so difficult one leh. God can you please help me on this?! perpetually a problem for me my whole life
2. Travel! I am hoping to go new places, if God permits… i really enjoy travelling…….
3. Be less of a boring person, go out, have fun. okay maybe not too much fun, but just be more happening
4. Spend more time with family, and extended family members, because life is so short.
5. Read the bible, do my QT. i am so guilty of not doing this, but God pls help me to persevere, for i desire to know more about the Lord's words.
okay, that's it for now.
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