finally got all the pics of the scrapbk uploaded to the pc. seriously im damn proud of this work of art for twinnie! hehs.. and of cos special thanks to nick, aud, fish and suaty for making this possible! if only they will do the same for me! haha.. remember how i yearn for a hand made card year after year fr them.. but i nv seem to get it. owells. shall drop huge hints nxt time round. hehs.

have been playing mahjong for the past 2 nights with the chungs, and i've lost all $420 worth of chips to them! ahhhhh. hehs. not that i cant play well or what ok. it just happened that im in an unlucky streak! BOO. hehs.

one more week and turbs will be BACK!!! yay!

 

everyone is going overseas. eve gg korea. adel gg korea. sijie gg states. hawk+family gg china. then taiwan and hongkong.lalallala. and im gg nowhere. im gg singapore. is that cool or what? even mei might be gg china for wk nxt yr!

was at dynamics of tourism lect today.. and it was on modes of transportation. and im like ahhhhh i wanna go on orient express! so niceee. romance on a train journey! woohoo.. then was attempting my tut and there was this article on future advancemt on rail.. i saw this singapore to london ticket! super cool! i wanna be on that. by hook or by crook.

starting to ponder what i shd do aft i grad. sigh. everything seems to be so bleak at the moment, studying is probably out of the picture. working//too lazy. sigh. but i kinda like the idea of graduating at a young age, cos i deem working at 19 to be real cool n happenin. lol. big dreams out there. mayb i shd just go be a tour guide. cos i jus dont see myself cooped up in a tiny cubicle 9-6 daily. life.. thats life! so many decisions to make, so many things to decipher. yet it is fragile. cos u just dont know whats gonna happen next. and most of the time, there aint too much time for u to know whats happening.

i jus realised how fridays are so precious to me now.

i miss twinnie!!! so much so much. want to rant everythg to her. sigh. confidante gone. sobs.

i must admit its fast, cos its gonna be thursday in another halfie's time. today i shall put down the names of the people who have access to my blog. in random order...

june chin
jesselyn lim
pearlie teo
joanna ng
dorothy soo

yes, just 5, sweet and nice. anyway, smtimes i'll wonder if i had told the right ppl abt my address, but i swat it off with the wtheck attitude, cos its an online journal anyway, and i cant simply put a halt to ppl reading this. highlighted JC cos shes my faithful reader, according to herself, hopefully its a reliable source haha.

anyway. was emailing june chin//jc-white//elizabeth tan//snow-white//crystalwhite//i wanttt//coffeeturncold//pools of bethesda// abt tt issue. and then called her up ta chat. thankful for u girl, cos u sure are 1 differnt friend whom i take on altogether! and some of my deepest darkest secrets actually lie with her.. trust her 101%. looking bk, realised its all possible bcos of Him. there can be no denial. fr the first time we met at marina sqr, nt even knowing hw the other party look like, but havin trust in the Lord that He brings His ppl together! hee.. anyway, we've got a sizzling hot date cmg right up, cant wait already, haha.. sigh. keep me in prayers regarding tt issue k, cos its sure bogging me down.

sigh. and smthg is wrong with my lappy. cant access certain websites. and msn too. sigh. my common tool of communication is gone. nw i can only rely on my faithful gmail who havent gave up on me. haha.

it has been chilly these few days, and im deprived of the sun. sigh. but i enjoy the coolness in a way or so. hmmm. may sun in e day, then chilly at nite? haa. machiam i king.

my mama is way too happenin man.. always out nowadays.. sing song la, fren's son's fren bday dinner she also invited, fashion show, cell grp, prayer mtg, blah.. smhw her life is too happening.. haha.. but gd la. i wanna be like her at tt age too! gg out and have fun, nt stuck at hm and be haggardy, knowing how to wash clothes and cook. nahnah.

saw my previous post abt camp. nothing is gg to stop meee. but now theres the bloody dt. is this a test of faith? hahha. shant read too much into it.

im gonna get that pair of shoes fr mitju. hehs. it appeared in the mag. shows how gd my taste is right. hahaa. i want retail therapy. when is my pay ever cmg in?!!! grrrrr.

random entry. random random.

whee. its monday. and it was a good one. not much blues. hehs. holland v for lunch then off to breko. been eons since i last went there. still remembered how often i use to hang out there with e gang wen pea tok. but now its like everyone's so busy leading their own lives. hardly have much time tog.

wisp is driving me mad. esp when u have fucked up proj mates. haaa. what a bitch. oh well. i must learn to love. i jus wan thurs to come and go. and i sort of cant believe im gg to tea on fri with sj to meet the alumni peeps. realised its crap. but then again, it may be gd to socialise with more vips? hehs. take it as an eye opener to know more ppl.

i miss turbo so much! like they say absence makes the heart grows fonder! and it will be another 2 longgg weeks before she comes bk! sobs. and theres so much i want to rant to her abt. sigh. sigh. sigh.

celeb meis bday on sunday. so fun. surprise surprise! did the biscuits curl for her from 7pm til 12.30 am. bake it, dip iin choc, roll in pistacho nuts. yummss hahaha. and the cake was fabulicious, tho i dont like it cos its cheesecake. haha they were wanting for more! hehs. so glad she's happy. at least she wil know that im nt bias. tho i am. haaa.

so mad on saturday abt that bloody issue. why the hell must she blurt it out. argh. nvm. what said is said and cannot be undone.

and i break thru!! went for lunch with eunice. jus me and her. it was tough k, but im so glad she talked pretty much. guess she chooses to talk to certain ppl ---> thats me haha. was strugglin, cos apprehensive la. most of the time shes super quiet. nt quiet. perhaps just that she doesnt like to talk. hehs. breakthru. woohoo!!

and eus bday is ard the corner. and they were saying we shd prolly not celeb for her cos it wil be so awkward, and mayb like last yr, leave all the gifts in her house as a surprise. thot that wil be kinda sad but least that wouldnt be so awkward?! worstill, diam aint ard at this pt of time. sigh. she miss 2 bdays lehs.

ahhhhh. cant wait for 19th dec.

was remisnicng abt youth camp last yr. abt the stuff she shared under the covers. the stupid dilemma which im glad she made a smart choice. had to like keep knocking sense into her. and how i kept singing the songs. haaa. was gd. so glad i decided to skip sch during then to go. learnt much more. and hw we would sneak out to have decent meals when the cooked one sucked. then the www where we were both so sick with sore throat, and that silly sex position. so much funs. but this yr, got that stupid domestic trip. but then, im bent on going, so nothing is gonna stop me. i hope.

mei's sweet 26th hatchday

 

pirates party//mama's bday

 

whoa whoa whoa. cant believe it. retail therapy can even take place in sch. all the bazaars. got the faded denim skirt which i have been looking for centuries ago. smmore so cheap, 15 dollars nia! and earrings too. sigh. im so mad abt earrings can. got another pair today with jess at tpy! earrings fetish. mayb sound kinda bimbotic here, but i cant help feelin that all the earrings i get and those that i already possess are all like damn stylo can. all very different fr the usuals. ahaa. and im so brokeee. when is sph ever gonna pay me?! *screams*

heartland shopping with my babes today. hahaa. ok la. i admit i can be too crazy at times. lame, noisy, auntie etc etc. i shall try to tone down before getting cursed by ppl!

sch is craps. taking too much of my time. beginning to loathe it. *pulls hair*

whoa. its wednesday.

tues. went over to twinnies hse and pass the sb to her. silly girl cried. ahaha.. and said she doesnt wanna go to aussie. -.- then she was packing her stuff and i fell asleep. damn. tendency to sleep at frens hse. weird. hehs. then she send me hm then said bye! one thing for sure, im gonna miss this babe like mad. already missing her absence already!

today. whoa. aint i proud of myself. 2 wholesome hours of tanning ALONE. like i say, im an independent girl. and the sun was fabulous. lurvve it. tho it was a tad too hot. shall not do it too often. skin cancer.

gonna play first keyboard on sunday again! woohoo. so excited. hope its nt all the conceitment. i just wanna play for God. to fully utilise what he have given me before he takes it back. wonder when sph will ever ever get me my pay. have been waiting like what seemed ages. checking my a/c every other day. have given up now, cos all i see is a $1.10 in my a/c. yes thats jus how pathetic i am.

im dying to go for a holiday. but nothing/no one can bring me there w/o money.

gonna see twinnie 3 weeks laters! yay.

when was the last time u hugged yr mama and u both cried together? it just happened to me last nite. was pondering how unfair God was, and i was just stucked when i said my routine prayer which doesnt even last for more than a minute. i didnt know what to say anymore. thank Him? that sounds kind of absurd. have been praying regarding the issue umpteen times. and we've waited for so long, faced the never ending disappointments. so i guess i need to take it down lke how i always do.

life is never fair. having lived for 19 years, ive nv been any further than thailand, and it was just a few hrs trip kinda thing cos i was on cruise and they made a stop there. ppl ard me are all gg to the states, to aussie, to korea, thailand, shanghai, taiwan, hongkong etc. and sm are gg to aussie like for the 2/3 time in a row this year. but i kept them all to myself. i nv once complained tho secretly in my heart, i wished that smone would bring me on a tour. or simply an air tix where i can go unwind in another lovely creation of God. but i was nv given the chance, and i think its time i stop fantasizing about all these. realised that its of not much pt,and in the end, all i get is an angry crack in my heart. and i kept asking God, i say why, why can't i just go on a holiday with my family jus like any other of my frens. but there was never an answer. perhaps im just wallowing in self-pity. imponderables.

perhaps i shouldnt even expect so much. afterall, who am i to be thinking of such issues?

sigh. i hate getting emo in the nite. its taking a bad bad toll on me. damnit.

first wk of proper sch with tutorials have been great. and i truly thank God for that.. all the people that He have planted in my life. some go some stay, but im glad for those who stayed. and have been spending time with dots too before she leaves for aussie on tues. was just wondering abt sm stuff, and i thot he was gonna send her off, and thats the case i wil sure follow. then he ask me hw and when im gonna pass the thing to her. wth la.

and i blogsurf and saw this nice pair of green birks. omg. is so pretty and i've set my eyes on it already. gonna get that once i get my pay. confirm plus guarantee chop. then again, i think its like duh to spend 99 buckeroos on a pair of slip ons. ahhhhh. but i had wanted to get it so so much.

theres the pirates party tmr, and also my mamas bday. but i aint too excited abt it la. aand i havent got aud's bday pressie. shit happens. ahaha.

i have 5 friends who knows my blogadd. haha wah what a nice number. FIVE.

and ive ran out of ideas for the SB, so im gonna rope in the others to help as well.

anyway im thankful that my dada loves my mama so much and vice versa. daddy called me when i was napping and asked if he shd get a cake tmr since he got that voucher, but hawk's gonna get it so told dad no need. so sweet right my churchmates.even my mama's bday is like their affair. smhw, im so thankful for each and everyone of them.thats hw different they are fr the rest of the world.

shall skip dt tmr and go tan with twinnie... and wil pray for good weather, so that nothing will thwart our bbq...

monday. no blues. happiee again cos i went out ta play with turbo.diaso followed by concourse. got my uber cutesy note pad! and the correction tape.hehs. cheap thrills.

have been pigging out and feasting like theres no tomorrow these 2 days. its horrendous. our appetites are humongous. lunch yesterday was pad thai at thai express, she had laksa, then we shared a ruby smthg, dinner was carls jr. huge burgers with rings, fries, zuchinnis. burp. lunch today was 2 big bowls of steaming handmade noodles, with carrot cake as side, as well as fried dumplings. -.- dinner was beef horfun at geylang, with calamari, straight after that we headed for soya bean with you tiao. -.-'

burp.

i want my bed.

ok sampat say must blog about happy things, then blogsurf less, and i will be a much happier person. so instead of lamenting on how bad things were, im gonna give it all a thumbs up! deprived of sleep nowadays, getting irritated by the slightest of things. grrrr. but still, i will blog abt happy stuff. so there u go.

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HAPPY.

hahaha.

ok thats craps. anyway was over at concourse cos auntie needed to get sm stuff, saw this uber cute notebk that i wil get tmr which is erm later in the day! by hook or by crook, and the other stuff which i can get for christmas! is like so exciting can. hehs. i can already feel the holiday spirits of Christmas! anticipating my 2 week break fr sch already. sheesh.. that will take effect on the 19 dec - 2 jan! is that cool or what. meanwhile, im gonna make the best out of everythg.

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have been spending the whole of friday cruising around with cher driving. went all the way to SP to eat pizza, thinking that it would be cheaper there but we were so wrong, so drove back ta bk timah plaze to eat pizza hut haha. how funny eh. got lift to church and did my tutorials there. omgoodness im so hardwking. wahaha. then got a lift fr turbo back home then bathe and waited for chers to come pick me up. cruised from bt timah to yishun, then to katong to fetch glen, then to changi to see bapoks! damn funs. love all the bapoks seeing sessions. haha. jus laugh my ass off. then off ta geylang for beancurd with youtiao! woohhoo yummy. realised we spend abt 3-4 hrs in the car. wth. then sent glen back then eve, then my turn then sijie.

today. oh wells. jus too shock by the words. being too close aint too gd at times. cos we take one another for granted. and tears. hated it. and she left just like that. saddening la. smtimes i think we are jus very silly pigs. to think weeping in the bus. i did it in the toilet. so thtas nt so bad. glad its cleared tho. lets hope our sunday will be a good one, cos saturday was already wasted.

i dont understand how some ppl can get so worked up easily.its like cmon get a life, and stop being so pissed at every single thing. we are brothers n sisters in christ, and what is it that we cannot resolve properly with the love of God. right! sigh. human beings.all the same. thats why we need God.

ive been waiting forever and my pay have not come in yet! sians. lets hope and pray that they didnt get the a/c number wrong cos if that happens, im gonna hang myself.=/

and the first day of school came, and started with a bang! got a lift fr chers bf to sch. first lect was hotel n resort mgmt, they said the lectureer's cute, but to me it was jus so so.. haa his lecture was boring, but at least he's young, so thats nt too bad. seems easy. telling us all abt the diff hotels, hw many stars rated, blah.. then was air travel mgmt, which was kinda cheem. think must attend lect for that mod. then i think theres sm study trip during my camp wk, which is like wth la. sians. i wanna go camp. ugh.

lunch with sj eve n sjs frens. weird man. anyways, went to sijies hse to attempt baking cheeesecake. but we forgot to buy sour cream! ahhhh. so eve was searchiing online for sm other recipes, then sijie and i fell asleep. aha til 5 plus then me n eve left, sijie stil asleep. haa what a day. and im offf ta stay over at the chungs with turbo. gonna help nick color his hair. whoa.

hope this semester wil be a gd one man. kbox during 3 hrs break on fri. haaa all planned out! hehs. wonder when my pay wil ever ever come in! am super duper brokes nw. damnit.