30th anniv celebration came and gone, with nothing very much interesting for me to look forward to. boo. wasnt too bad of a celeb, but i wouldnt say it was fantastic whatsoever, just happy to meet up with old friends. time flies at warped speed, and changes are inevitable! scary. cny will be 0ver pretty soon, time to look for a job!! def have to decide if am gonna study or not. hais.. hate it. hate having to make major decisions. how i wish everything was planned for. ohwells in a way it is by God, but i just wish certain things would be made transparent to me then i wouldnt have to bother. what i fear is probably making the wrong choices.

caught norbit with chak over at great world ytd. many cheap thrills! anw, silly showww! hahaaa but had a good laugh anw. didnt want anythg too heavy.. stay home tues since chak went hm ytd.. gotta pack the room again and do some piano... zzz...zzz...zzz...

3 nights of insane frenzy rushing out the clergys' gifts almost drove us bonkers and edgy, snapping at each other and almost biting each others' head off! eeks. but im so glad we're finally (oh wells, almost) done with them all. just hope that we wont get any cynical comments upon seeing it la. definitely need to catch up with our sleep, esp my insane fren who slept at 7am last morn. me being the PIG as usual, succumbed to the sheets at a mere 3am. hahaaa what a traitor!!

blog-surfing and ended up reading some old sec-sch frens' blogs.. smhw its nice knowing that they still keep in contact with ppl in their cliques. kinda envious at the frequency which they meet one another. just wish mine was like that too, seems impossible tho. but, like what i always say, ppl grow up and move on. just want to keep certain r/s close to my heart and not let it go!

am super perplexed, wondering why on earth is that person having all the things that i have?! isit really such a coincidence??? definitely is strange. and i dont like it. sigh. wonder if it will ever ever end, or will it just continue forever to annoy me to no end? ugh.

i need to get a job real soon. sigh. but i loatheeeeeeeeee the process of getting a job, gg for intvs and all. gross. and i need to like sign up for sch soon too. time is running out! and im nt even sure what i wanna study or do. its time i stop avoiding the issue altogether.

and theres patrina's 21st bday party at secret garden 2 wks ltr. looking forward, wheee~!

.: imitation is the highest form of flattery :.

how true can that statement get. but fk u! for trying to imitate me cos its simply sucks on u. scrawny ugly thing. gross. oops. im a big meanie. shall repent. but i really hate it when ppl have the same things as me, esp aft when i've jus got it. what looks 'nice' on me might nt necessarily be nice on you, so wake up! anyway. notice the inversions, dont really mean the NICE nice. anyway. its jus smthg i loathe, wish u wil get a grip and get a life! bleah.

cny can not get any badder. with the asshole constantly screwing up my life, and driving me up the wall. cant even have a gd night's rest. wish u will just die n disappear. eekssssssssssss. puiiiiiii. bawled my eyes out for the slightest reason. dunno why im forever sucha emo wreck. gross. i want to grow out of it!

anw, cny is totally boring. definitely NOTHING for me to look forward to. except for maybe the moolah. u call it mercenary whatever, i dont care. HAHA. its just the cynical and skeptical me. so there, its a total waste of my time. poof.

other than tt, alls pretty fine except that i have to like spend 30 mins to blowdry my hair each time i wash it. high maintenance! price u have to pay for vanity.

over to graces hse w a cosmopolitant grp ytd. just bitching n more bitching. hehs. so much for confidentiality. haaaa. and theres this super cute toddler, who kept laughing and muttering, much like a funny ahjek! cuteeee!

as for nw gotta start preparing the clergys gift for the anniversary. bit of a bummer. cos it aint turning out the way we want it to be! ahhhhhhhhhh.

til then, enjoy yr cny!

cut my hair wheee like finally. look like bobbit! hehs. thanks junie for bringing me thereee, apprec it. met up with eve n sj! like happy. was a wk belated bday celeb for sj, yes, zhichar at coffeeshop near my place. hw hip eh. anw, was a nice ketchup with em before they fly off to perth. jealous.

chinatown with twinnie, suaty and my pops ytd! cosmopolitant grp but was fun! hee. am glad they all went afterall. can really feel the festive mood there except for a few stupid ahjeks. bleah. cny is cmg and im gonna be so bored at home... boo.

stil having tons of fun rotting around, nt having to do anything. but sigh i am so broke nw that i can only stay at home. boo. i need a job desperately. but im lazieeeeeeeee. ugh. starting to get the jitterbugs of playing nxt sunday. so many ppl . bet i wil sure screw up. sigh. was thinking abt it in the bus earlier on and the thot of it is scaring me. and i have to nice clothes or new shoes to wear........

its valentines day tmr!!!!!!!!!!! and i have a date! wheee. with 12 other people in discipleship class. wahahaaa.. too bad cant go for grace's invite to her place. nvm. i just hope nthing stupid will happen during discipleship tmr.

2 weeeeks since the last update. peaches and creme, rather rosy i would say. but of cos there were the turbulence, eject me fr the seat and send me crashing down again.

met up with juneeee! it was a good one. and yes meet up soon k babe!! know u'll see this, so here it goes... thanks so much for everything! the flower, the fab company and all the girls talk. really apprec n thank God for YOU girl!

and adels party on sat night..a tad boring, but glad i went in a way or so. at least i got to catch up with eve n sijie n chers.. etc etc. but sm things stil remain the same. the cynism, the skepticalism, whatever my own words la. and im quite sad it doesnt change. but guess its the character.

the more i think abt certain things, the more i gathered that life is unfair!! humph. dunno why i keep allowing such issues to rule my life. hate it.bleah. and things that permeate so easily that it will eventually spark off to a new dimension. yikes! cringe at the thought of it.

and its really ok to nt get me involved, cos thats forever the case. then again, no regrets cos i let it happen. right under my nose.poof. wicked, evil ppl. but it might be a good thing. sigh. dunno why im so angsty nowadays. 1 word, im wretched.