today mark my last day at cnc! mixed feelings. bittersweet i would say. and best of all we'll be released at 3pm! cos theres nt much to do. woohoo. shiok! and ive got a new friend, phyllis! wen's fren.. haaa take over me.. too bad i wont be wking with her cos i gtta be outta here! anyways, all the best babes, both wj n phy! haaa may u gals have a fruitful and fulfilling stay here and may 2007 be filled of caramels of sunshine n happiness for u! hugs & misses.

on the other note, christmas came and gone, all in a flash! much like lightning. u either catch it or u dont. christmas was nt too bad i guess. gt all busy with the perf n carolling.. nt too bad. but guess it doesnt really feel like xmas this yr. kinda like dead. but anyway, am glad there aint anymore chionging to get pressies, cos it sure sucks when u are rushing. all have come to an end. and smhw i'm glad christmas is just once a year. thanks to all for the pressies, for i simply believe its a season of giving...!

gonna take a hiatus fr work and pack my room, spent sm time by myself and hopefully catch up with loved ones and do sm meaningful stuff. like perhaps volunteering at sm orphanage (no empty talk) i hope.

grace's hse is like nice can! i lurveee it. tho there are sm parts which i dont exactly know hw to appreciate. haaa. cant wait for her to move it so that turbs and i can have slumberthon theree. wheee. til then'blessed 2007! (:

super groggy today. sians.

and everyone is getting on my nerves. hibernated at home for 2 days, wishing i could continue the hiatus. its like wednesday blues. bleah. and i see stupid ppl around me! fancy having me to tell u what to do aft sucha long time. sucks eh. wish u could open yr eyes and nt be oblivious to happenings ard u. sickening. pui.

and i havent finished my christmas shopping. that is definitely a headache. boo. need to go down to mustafa soon. thot i had better get smthg small for ppl at cnc.

and i gt 2 pressies already! 1 fr charlize and the other fr jovis, kia's top salesman. wahaha. hope it doesnt stop coming. haha. greedy pig. didnt have proper lunch. im hungry. grrrr. hungry woman is a angry woman. and its freaking cold in here. but at least it hasnt rain yet. hope it goes like this tmr. else our efforts will all go down the drain.

hope i'll recover by tmr. but quite unlikely. boo. i need moolah. i want moolah.

have been out doing all the christmas shopping every other night, but nt to much avail. perhaps im picky, or simply nthing is gd enough to catch my fancy. ohwells.

cant help but have weird mixed feelings abt friends ard me. aft what ive heard. but of cos theres only 1 side of the story, but fr my own judgement, i can conclude n very much believe what ive heard. ive jus seen the ugly side of u. yet again. sigh. u snap, u bite, and u morph into a queen bitch. wtf.

and... my period is finally here! ive been waiting forever for it to come. hehs. no more crankiness for the nxt 2 wks or so i hope. lol.

church contacts in msn all gone! all went for camp. and inside me there's this wish, wishing i was there with them right now. smhw feel a lil sad tt we're unable to join em. afterall, we were there every other year. ohwells. i'll learn to get over it and perhaps grow up too.

shopping time!!

time for a quick peek...

its fri. and as usual i cannot get any happier. but of cos theres this tinge in me wishing that such wouldnt have happened at all. i mean its like fark can. hw can 1 be so selfish. sigh. shd i know, i wouldnt have rope u in. oh wells. too late for regrets. and i guess whatever ive learnt in HR have finally been put to gd use. the pros and cons.. enlightened finally!

fucking period nt here yet. and its definitely driving me insane. just wanna shout at everyone to fuck off!!! big pieces of shit all around. damn. gonna be a long n crazy day tmr with all the stupid cooking etc at the carnival. while the other 2 shits get to do nothing. effing gross.

2 weeks more to christmas. nt even sure now if i shd look forward to it. and theres prac in church tonight. tiring tiring tiring. boo.* if only all of u would give me a break and cut me some slack.

popeye's last nite! am a happy kid now. wahaha.. and my sweets gt me cheese muffin!! warmed up smore. uber sweet. and daddy drove me to work this morn! so nice of him! i totally appreciate it. hehs.

monday flash past in a whiz! and nw im suffering from tues blues. LOL. then again, no la. just stoning away again. and whats with all the stupid ppl jumping off tracks? guess the most 'IN' way to commit suicide is to jump into railway tracks. hw dumb can that be. imagine dying in such a ugly manner, with all yr brain bits flying everywhere..!! and the worse thing is u are wasting other ppl's time n money! time cos they have to wait so long for the train to start operation! and time equates to money! dumbdumb. wanna die, rem to think abt the kind of disruption u wil cause to them first ya? stupid.

these few mornings have been super chilly! *tsk.. n cant wear the black wool since my bestie used it to kiap her armpit. hw nice. so imagine all the overpowering BO!!! omgosh. gonna be a busy morning i presume!! boo. nvm. at least time past faster that way.

chaaaaaaa~!

ok. its clear that the weekend have yet to be eradicated fr my mind. practically lost as i sit in front of the pc this morning. just dont want to do anythg! boo*

bumped into lizzie the other nite, felt so gd to see old faces again, after like half a yr or so. and there she told me abt her blog add.. seems like shes living life on the edge, all the partying! but smhw theres a tinge of melancholic feel in all of her post. infact its quite saddening la, felt as tho she doesnt have much of a clue whats happening in her life, and that everythg is like a whirlwind ard her. ohwells, nt that i know what i want to get out of life, but anyway, im glad we're mtg up real soon. its time for an update. from both of them. for they were inevitable in my life during poly days. thats why i chose to hold on despite times of weariness or simply when i cannot be bothered.

hate all the scandals in church!! yikes. making my goosebumps surface time n again. eeky. what everybody's doing jus make me cringe. and i really dislike it. mayb. mayb its time for a change. mayb i wil be doing better in sm other church? i dont know. am nt really growing in sjc anyway. then again, its my own fault la, no one to blame. sigh.

fashion nowadays is getting ridiculous. all the plunging necklines.. omg.. everywhr i see on pictorials all models revealing more and more cleavage. why is sexiness always defined with skimpicity? (my own creation, haha) dont really get it.. but sure the world has fallen, and is getting from bad to worse each day. and i can only sigh and pray that i dont fall into the trap of it. so many desires, temptations each day. guess it takes a strong will to turn from it all.

its monday. and i sure dont like it.

its FRRRRRRRRRIDAYYYYYYYYY!!! can i get any happier? nahnah. hahaaa..

have been a train of events thus far, out almost every other day, and my nest is smwhat turning into a hotel! only spent like 7 hrs there for slumber, and use the loo. HAHA. didnt even get any chance to pack my room, or talk to my mama! boo*

dinner with j, dessert with turbs, schweeet, came to pick me up fr town! haaaa. know i can always depend on her. the supper escapades, and shopping! the bday celebs!

so its rest time tmr, since ive gt no music prac! woohoo! gonna catch up on my sleep, tidy up my sty, do my christmas list.. wheee...! but am broke. if only i'd get my paycheque soon.bleah.

and i wanna get madrid bronze before they upp the price! need to hunt for ppl to buy birks again.boo.

and dec is gonna be so exciting cos its CHRISTMAS soon! wheeee~! and im gonna go straighten my hairrrrr!