Another new year beckons

Because it's a new year, I've decided to set some resolutions, though fully aware that none of it will be fulfilled! haha. and maybe cause I would like to document some stuff that has happened in the past year.

the person whom I thought I might have a future with got married, no kidding, and they had marital issues. but of course I am not harbouring any thoughts at all, though many times i really felt like texting you. that is as good as committing adultery? I don't know.

then i met the deejay, and for the first time, i thought i fell in love, but as always, he is attached with a girl. how the hell did i ever think that i would stand a chance? 28 years and still back to square one at the end of the day. not sure if i should feel sorry for myself, but hey, life is short, and God has His own plans for me, I know.

On another note, i have been blessed with the chance to visit taiwan, australia and japan. i really appreciate these opportunities and the time spent with loved ones. despite a not very pleasant maiden trip to australia, still thankful for the chance.

work has been kind to me, personally i felt that i have learnt a lot, though at times i find it very frustrating and stressful, but each challenge has become a learning process, and i am rather proud of what i have achieved, of course knowing God has been navigating my life.

dad is sick, stage 4 of prostate cancer. i don't know how much more time he has. yes i am very sad, but i do not know how to deal with it. sometimes i feel bad that i am not very concerned about him, but at times i just feel that i don't know what to do. i only pray that he will be able to see me get married, and even carry a grandchild? it seems very far-fetched, and i am nowhere near that. it's sad, but there's nothing i can do about it. i have been asking God, i have been patient, but nothing to date.

it's okay i guess. I'm already used to it. it just suck bad when mum tells me so and so is attached etc. she says she is okay with it but i know deep down she hopes that i can meet someone. but hey, isn't all these in God's plans?

okay, on a more positive note, here are some resolutions
1. Lose weight, lose weight and LOSE WEIGHT
sigh so difficult one leh. God can you please help me on this?! perpetually a problem for me my whole life
2. Travel! I am hoping to go new places, if God permits… i really enjoy travelling…….
3. Be less of a boring person, go out, have fun. okay maybe not too much fun, but just be more happening
4. Spend more time with family, and extended family members, because life is so short.
5. Read the bible, do my QT. i am so guilty of not doing this, but God pls help me to persevere, for i desire to know more about the Lord's words.

okay, that's it for now.

swiss air is selling air tics at dirt rate prices - just $708 nett for round trip to Zurich! really cannot believe our luck. hoping we can somehow go. been wanting to travel to some angmoh country since forever and i really dont want to miss this.

on another note, loving my new work place tho it makes me more nua, and is kinda far. but i have a great boss and not too bad colleagues, so what's not to love? unfortunately the best friend is not as lucky. trying to find a right opportunity to ask boss if there's any opening so that she can join us here. loving whatever i'm doing though it is not as dynamic as the previous corporations. still, it's heaven compared to SSO. wahahaha.

still stuck at meeting with the chairman and im so bored and im so hungry. i want my lunch and i hope this angmoh can get off soon. grrr.

a brand new beginning

today marks a brand new beginning, for you, for me, for all of us.

just to recap on some major happenings in 2012

- taiwan trip, bangkok trip

- best friend got a job! yeeps.

- left seatrade. joined SSO. left SSO.

- you almost happened, but left before it happened.

all in all, im thankful to God for all the various experiences i encountered in the past year. be it good or bad, i know He has His purpose and all that happened definitely helped to mould me into a better person.

am gonna embark on a new job tomorrow at FFTH, not sure how things are gonna be like, but just hope it won't be like SSO. trust that the Lord has prepared everything for me. kinda excited to start work too. praying for great colleagues and boss!

at the same time, the best friend will also be starting work. i am so happy for her. yes she has a much higher salary and i can't help being green but i am truly delirious for her. she has waited so long and she totally deserves it! praying that she too will be blessed with fab colleagues who are ever willing to lend a helping hand.

and may 2013 find us both love! someone who is after God's heart and someone who deserves our love. 

here's to love, friendship and lots more. x

hello my dearest beloved blog. it's me again your dearest beloved owner! i guess it is much safer here, lest i commit the silly error of posting smthg so dreadful on facebook.

got hold of news from the best friend yesterday. im not going to deny the fact that it does bother me. how could you really, how could you?! to think we almost had it all. i was so stupid all along, and even tried to take initiative when all these while you were happily spending time at another person's house. shame on you really. all the bullshit you told me, all but lies. you LIAR!

i shall not allow myself to fall into the trap of getting upset. you are just not worth my time, my tears.

please get out of my life. you . jerk .