sigh. think i can get really vicious at times. the kind of thoughts i harbour. tsk tsk. hahaha. but i aint gonna feel too bad abt tt. meanie me. helped turbo but sort of teaching her hw to play the bass/trumpet. she was like so stressesd, screwed also. haha. but aiya first time is always like that what right! my first time was way worse! scary that it.

sunday.. nydc for lunch, then bk ta church to print the pics so that i can start on my scrapbking, but its super tough. no idea how to get it started at all. its so frustrating. had a gd laugh with reverend when we watched all those stupid daft adverts. jus realised james can talk n blabber a hell lot. really is in the genes i guess. but at least he is farnie, unlike the sis. aahaha. meanie me. laugh til i cry hahaha. then over to orchard to window shop, and fish was telling me abt the guy who stared at me from top to bottom. and i jus laugh it off. shdnt have wore black undies when my skirt is like so translucent. but heck, who cares man. isnt turbo's plunging neckline worst? ahaha.. anyway received many compliments, made we fly up. haaa. woohoo. had dinna at adams then nick sent us hm. hahaa part of the reason why i love hanging out with them, cos they wil send me hm. even when gg for music pracs, or when i need to play for sunday svcs. hahaha and the list goes on.. but of cos i love their company as well la. they are such nice n fun ppl to be with.

am missing my shoulder pad n braces fren already! cant wait for her to finish her paper on wed and then we can have a whale of a time! 2 weeks! and they off she goes to aussie, which i am rather worried abt. dunno what on earth she wil be doing there. but since thers nothign i can do abt it, im gonna keep her in my prayers and ask that the Lord wil look after her.. hehs.

and mei is in taiwan now. sent me an sms when she was at the airport ytd. can tell that she very much cherished this frenship. guess she must have been rather sad to see me so close with turbo. but nvm la, she stil got eugene and audrey. and afterall, im so much younger than her. hmm what a weird excuse.

what a long entry. thats when u are so damn borred at hm and wanna start doing smthg which u have absolutely no idea how to go by it. arghhh.

hmmm woke up at 1.30 today. shiok. head felt less terrible. but throat stil bad. cough out disgusting yucky phlegm with tinge of blood in it. yucks. big pieces. bleah. haha.

was talkin to eve and she asked me what she shd wear to go club tmr since the themes halloween. suddenly felt so tempted to go zouk on monday wit jess they all tho i haven heard from her personally that shes gg. cos i can wear my purple polka! and get thsoe fake long lashes! then look like fat barbie girl. haha literally barbie ( pig) hahaha. either that or like what charmaine say look like wilma in flint stones! woohoo then can pile on the mascara, eyeliner, eyeshadow etc. funs funs. but no kakis to go with. hmm. and im lazy. hmm and i dont wanna lie to mama. no pt. so i wil prolly stay hm. or go esplanade to catch the unexpected! too bad turbo got exams, else she wil sure go espl with me! hehs.

and i made the calls today. felt super accomplished aft i made abt 15 calls. haa was dreading it., but am so glad its almost done. left ard 3-5 calls! yay. happy. think of the money i get even happier. cant wait to see the hopefully fat sum in my bank a/c soon! aft ard 2 weeks of calling ppl. some stupid ones too.

poor daddy. if i were him, i would have been scared too. but he shd have a little more faith in God, and in my brother, and in mummy too. hope it gets approved of. then i shall jump up n praise Him. then again, i shdnt wait til then. anyway mei was telling me abt eug and i told her i blogged bt it too but nt telling her the add. haaa. same sentiments.

tmrs sat. mayb wil drop by to help the girl. gotta play on sun for canto. which means up at 730. ahhhh. madness redefined.

spinning around --> kylie minogue

jus when i thought i was the healthiest of all among the lot, i was proven wrong. smhw smthg reminds me of ---> Satan strikes us when we think we are at our strongest. my head's heavy, like spinning n spinning, and i can begin to feel the lump rising up my throat. damnit. i fucking hate sore throats. how to even make those calls tmr! ahhhh.

reluctant to go down to yew tee in e morn, but smhw drag myself off the bed, had beancurd and off i went.thank God the papers were selling fast today. by 1030, all 60 copies were swept off. the uncle gave me sweets today. haha then i bot 8days, and he gave me both freebies. hehs. cheeap thrills. but realy tank God for their niceness. make me nt dread standing there. but right nw i really need a rest, aft abt 2 wks of wk. totally zonked. took a nap for 3 hrs, head felt heavy, just want to kip sleeping. force myself to wake up at 5.30. ah. is this a sign of fever? i sure hope not.

poor eunice is down too. and turbo has lost her voice box and puked blood. omg. how jialat is that! scary. and her papers were bad. sigh. lets jus hope the nxt 2 wil be fine. looking forward to the pay from sph. just that i wonder when.

whoa. hehs. no one asked abt my blog yet, except chers. haaa. gonna keep it a secret, until when i need audience. haa but not for now. mayb nt her as my audience. what a bitch--> me. haa. yesterday was a big hooha at sph. the mad man who made bee har cried over the phone, and drove taknee bonkers n called the other lady idiot. this kinda man shd be castrated. damnit. bastard like what the other girl say.

ytd night called quite a lot aft we cam bk fr dinna. haha. cos got al the private residences which made it much easier to called. think shall go there today n tmr, and thats it! dont think i wanna do the SM morning papers. hahaa.

this fris the bbq but apparently, they are all nt recovered yet. sgih.like that hw. alamak.seems like a gd day to suntan!! but gotta wk later. sians.

woohoo! i changed my blog address again! wahaha. cos of the zara incident.damnit. was bloody pissed when i saw the post. wtf. bitch. fuck u. gonna stuff u with PORK the next time i see u. arghh.

anyway, cremecheeks sound uber cute can, haha. so happy with this name. jus suddenly dont feel like having np peeps reading my blog. so i prolly tell this to june, wenjun, and other sjccc peeps shd they ask for it.

watched flightplan today, quite boring, but at least can hangout tog with twinnie, thats nt too bad. poor her, lost her voice. and some are down with sore throat etc. poor george n adel, cmg down with fever and everythg. hope everyone else wil stay healthy man. wil cont to keep them all in prayers. was thinking abt the bf issue again. how long would i have to keep waiting ah?! or shd girls actually take the first move? hmmm sure is a issue that is imponderable. sigh. life, filled with endless imponderables.

and we didnt get the bank loan. and shes on the verge of insanity. told twinnie abt it. lets hope she keeps it a secret. im trying nt to hide too much fr her, since we're almost so close. well i guess life is nv fair, and everyone have their fair share of problems. jus dont understand when it comes to an end. either when God comes, or we go find HIm first.

today played first for svc. i must say i wasnt really scared or stressed. just that the day before i wept buckets, thanks to my mama. and the sudden want to change from the key of D to C 5 mins before svc almost drive me bonkers. stil , thank God for this brand new area of serving Him.

its modnay already. have to wk again. one more wk to sch. damn.

anyway, happy to see eug come up to altar to receive blessings from Rev. hope slowly, He accpet Christ as His Lord and savior. as for gary, .......

finally a break from the calls. met up with lizzie n jessie on wed for awhile in town. crapped tons n neoprints again.wahaha. then off ta wk, this time brought lizzie along. then today went town again with kaikit. been ages since we last met up. hehs. and i got the watch n a top. been doing quite some retail therapy. luckily my loanshark's nt haunting me. caught skeleton key. damn pissed off by this girl who kept screaming at every single scary scene. shd put some sandpaper on her ass.
p.s. so jess n liz must think of smthg else to buy for me! i dont mind some exodus shoes, or birkenstocks, madrids pls, in size 38. lol.

//back to wk again tmr. yawns. pirates party postponed. boo.
//miss turbofren. sat breakie quick come.
//ive been making more n more sense nowadays. pat on the bk.

happy birthday JADE

see those sweet bandanas n the attached note? hehs. all done by amei. so sweet & nice right! meant for our pirates party but it has been postponed to a later date. stil, thanks babe, lurrvve it!

 

past wkend

 

charmaine n mooncher

 

sundays. i always love them.

raining cats n dogs e whole time, so we bot cup noodles n ate at church.yumms. aft which went for porridge buffet//bugis//mustafa. and i made a silly remark//def on e brink of tears. smtimes i dont know why i say such hurtful stuff. sigh. lets just hope that nobody gets too affected. in one ear n out the other. no more maskings. cos im so sick and tired of it all. so nw its the real exhaust pipe that u know. 100% genuine/authentic/real. even i myself was surprised at how honest i was, baring my heart+soul.

then had yummy soya bean milk with you tiao, xiaolongbao, yummy porkflossegg crepes at geylang. shiok!

working at sph today. mktg-R&D dept. nice environment!!! i likeeee.super high ceiling.. felt like a journalist.lol.krapps. hee. basically making outgg calls regarding the delivery svcs of newspapers vendor. quite relaxing, but my throats kinda hurting. TN said that we can even go to the library and read the mags there etc! funs. pays quite gd too. woohoo. tmr bee wont be gg in the morn, so its me alone again! breakthru once more i hope. hahaha.

but im so tired now. completely zonked out. fell asleep while chatting online just now. gonna turn in early today. chaaaa~!

14th - it was a gd day of cycling n kayaking tho the weather was very much unpredictable. this time i rode on a mountain bike, n the feeling was q diff, scary infact. kept braking suddenly, was almost thrown out a few times. on the verge of knocking others down too.lol. kayaking was damn shiok n relaxing tho it was a mere 1 hr. nice calm peaceful sea. tranquility. hehs. then caught the wig which i must say FREAKED me out totally. was so scared that i went ta twinnies house to bunk with her. slept at the attic.so funs. except for the squeaky bed.shant go into details. she have been my source of atm the whole time.hehs.cos i had no cash with me.haaa. hope she can continue being my atm tho.

15th - went to her sch cos she had to return bks. off ta church tho i had no prac. haaa fun jamming time with the babes. then lunch then send fish to get her stuff and he was there.omg. hahahaaa. need to thk my jie-jies for winding the window down n then saying hi for me. have been doing some retail therapy recently. got 2 tops, shoes fr p.o.a n my flipflops from island shop. cheap thrills. happieee* over to tanglin mall, then to katong to get the awfully choc banana n choc cake for hock's bday. then went over to surprise him with the jiejie n gorgor. i like our version of 933 bday song. damn nice + funny.

can't believe how truthful i'm trying to be cos i take this frenship seriously, so it = no hidings/wearing of a mask. being a shoulder pad n braces fren 24/7. lol she told me her pin number, and i was like super excited when i attempted to draw money! madness.

just endless funny affairs these days. am thankful. am on cloud 9 stil. (:

sneek peek

on cloud 9 recently. and realised im turning into a much more independent girl nw. infact, i didnt expect that kind of change nor did i see it coming. life's rather rosy right at the moment. and thankfully the peeps whom i telesurveyed were all nice n patient. hehs. and the uncles at the kiosk were so nice, offering me chair/water/newspaper, most imptly helping me to push the sales of the papers, tho that wasnt really my concern. still, am glad that i overcome my fears.

and tommorrow wil be a even better day cos im going to ECP again! mac breakie at kap, cycle n kayak hopefully at ecp! decided not to cos we might just tip u into the sea. so its all for yr own safety. aft which we gonna go wigging. woohoo! shit. think im gonna be so damn broke.

time-table's out already. and u can say im happy with it, except for the fact that we have classes at 9am daily.sucker. stil, i knock off at 1pm on mon + wed, n since tues noon is lecture, i shall jolly well skip it!

off to PS nw. tata~!

sunday 9th oct - cheese fondue
me//cute miniature apples at 6thaves coldstorage//dot
us//weekly creaming session//us
//me n my mask//
it doesnt look like a sanitary napkin k auntie. it doesnt. haaa.
couldnt stand the pungence of the cheese fondue. cos it had white wine in it, which made it taste bitter and smelt terrible. ewwww.

charis//daryl//brian
joel//joy//ewen
ethan//joshua//katrina

ecp with mamadot

groggy voice over the other end when i gave the morn call at 11. went over to her hse n rot while she get ready. then we went down town to change a bus. was walkin at e underpass n was demonstrating how i was tanning at home when i suddenly realised my left hand had hit a uncle right at his tummy. oops. so paiseh. hee. n i pronounced marine parade as marade parine. hw smart. me n my endless kukus acts.

and managed to get there ard 2pm hehs. nt bad. shes rather streetwise, so we got down at the right stop n minimised walking. and we rented the bikes. heh. it was hell lot of fun, but i was really scared that i'd fall so didnt managed to even balance during the first half n hr. but slowly got the hang of it! hee mayb can ride say 50m? lol. shall go bk there again soon!

im truly touched by what this girl has done for me. just wanna appreciate her for all those. firstly was lending me an extra shirt jus in case i needed it. then she brought a handkerchief for me as well, so that we could wipe ourselves aft that. brot cheezels jus in case we'll get hungry. she didnt get to cycle much cos she had to teach me how to ride a bike. then she went to buy drinks for me. held my drinks when i was nt finished with it. carry my bag for me, took care of all the rental fees. got me my 2nd drink at mac. remembering abt my results. being so encouraging n patient. all these will plaster a smile on my heart. besides thankful, its still thankfulness for letting us cross paths. definitely cherish this kinda of sisterhood, cos i believe i can never find them elsewhere.

anyway, it was an actionpacked day with all those weird characters appearing at ecp. first was the man who asked if can ride our bike?like wth.scary. 2nd came the really loose man, one look n u know he's bo ho say. 3rd came the man who sung to himself. and the stupid 7-11 uncle who thot we were stealing sanitary napkins. stooopid uncle. asshole. see him again n i'll give him the middle finger. _|_

*amazed by the kind of music
simply awed.

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met "snow-white" in the morn at np lib cos she wanted to borrow bks and she is no longer a student at np.being the nice xiaojia, i woke up bright n early and got to sch to lend her my matric card. (:

miss wee says she expect to see a post when she wake up from her beauty sleep. 1b+,3bs,1c+ booboo. thankful.

dreamt that i got a few As for my results. haaaa. then smhw woke myself up and realised its jus a dream, which is the total opposite of reality. =/

sometimes i wish u will care a little more. but well, i've learnt to cope with it.

pressie//ronald macdonald's hamburg mould//playdough//cute
my first children's day present since a decade ago?lol
from my mamadot