wondering if its time to take a hiatus fr blogging, or simply change blog add. smhw feel it aint so safe anymore. then again, this is for me to rant my frustrations, nt up to u to judge me whatsoever.

and if history ever repeats again, i sure dont know what to do anymore. i knew it was never going to be easy, but once again i fell. im so tired of it all, wanna take a break and go smwhere where i can be left alone to ponder all my wrongdoings. (or perhaps u shd bear part of it) i did try. i tried very hard, yet u saw through it all. no matter how hard i hide, it was just futile. the grass is greener on the other side. how many times have i heard it, i lost count. but i will keep trying and not let the devil get a foothold of me. its going to get really tough, and the path to come seems difficult. im nt sure how i can ever live up to it all. sigh.

but in retrospect, for all that happened, i played a big part. it all sparked off bcos of me, and it ended up that way bcos of me. was wandering if i shd shun it or just let it remain like this. bawled my eyes out and had a hard time falling asleep but who knows? haha... wallowing in self-pity TIME AND AGAIN. if only i dont take things so hard, stop making comparisons, be thankful for everything, i wouldnt have to make myself suffer like this.

maybe i'll just wake up and it would all just fade off and never haunt me again. let's just h.o.p.e.

and maybe it would do us good if u would keep your promises. cos i promise i'll try to be good.