today is Friday. and Friday makes Abia one happy girl! tho its gonna be short-lived. still, im relieved. cos from nxt wk onwards, its gonna be a long stretch of nightmares week! sigh. the best friend will be gg off again. just back for 2 weeks and off she goes again. it is so saddening, really it is. i wish she didn't have to go. no more confidante for the nxt few weeks. the worse thing is she doesn't even know when she will be back. sigh. hate it! sobs.

and sch is startg nxt wk, and theres where the other set of nightmare will begin. getting all tired, frenzy and all. sobs. and theres no one around to share my woes. damnit. sigh. i hate the new year already!

and im so tired with all the happenings in church. i guess its really time to quit stjames and move on to othr churches where i can grow, where true love is manifested. the scenes at sjccc are plain ugly. i don't even know where to begin. its so saddening to see how everyone shirks responsibility and turn the table around. im so very disgusted. sigh. even the ones above who're supp to be gd role models are living a life of the opposite. there is no confidentiality, no respect, nothing. feel like im just hanging on cos of the responsiblities in the worship team. its becmg a duty, a routine. yes, im ashame. but i cant help it. sigh. time to move on.