the young gals! made me look old beside em... sigh...

oops, nic exposed!!!

dot n me at my hse pool area!

hehheh.. jus knew how to do this... thanks to june..

in the end never go concourse
went chinatown instead
funnsss
but the shops i wanna go all close already
or mayb they didnt even exist at all

blurt smthg daft fr my mouth
shouldnt have said that
i knew i was in the wrong
but then she didnt have to like said such things
made me felt so sad
feel like crying
but i held it back

am glad things were better

gave her the egg
hope she likes it
havent really talk to her bout him
but guess things are ok
then the phonecall came...
and i guess he asked y shes on duty always
wthack.
she's serving God
dont u geddit.
make sure u dont stop her from coming to church
u idiot.
always going some other churches cuz of him
stupid dumbass
dont know why on earth she's hooked
such great differences
guess opposites do attract after all
wanted to ask her how are things
but it just wouldnt come out from my mouth

i guess i got a bad sense of rhythm
tried to play that song ytd but donno
how the rhythm shd be like
sigh...
haha...

wore the same stuff today
u call it telepathy
denim skirt
belt
pumps
i like hers
cool red color
feet hurts like mad

back to hell tomorrow
sigh...

finally... phew... all the horrendous papers are gone.
gonna do real badly...
but at least it's over.
thank God for pulling me thru...
lotsa topsy and turvies during the week

met WenJun on mond..
so glad to see her
it has been such a long time since we last met up
ketchup loads that day
life is just full of sweet surprises
God just arrange a time for us to meet again!

realli missed the good old days of sec sch
esp sec 4...
mrs MC HAMMER!
lessons under her were freaking scary..
but i enjoyed the suspense!
hahaha...
totally awesome.

went shopping with jess at town ytd
liz came for a while then cabut
saw eve n cera
haha..
what a small world
jess got a pair of pumps
niceee...
wanted smthg similar
but they didnt have my size

got a skirt from FOX @ taka for 27...
supp to be 39
the things there are all going for a song!
hehheh...
then went over to P.O.A at PS
got a pair of pumps for 23.40!
usual price was 39..
mayb i shd go buy 4d
buy the no. 3939?
wahaha...
but its kinda tight leh...
and my left ankle's hurting
UGH!
haha..
but it doesnt matter
girls are born vain
so im happie happie and happie!
then i used the visa card..
over at fox,
but i dint know i was supp to sign at the electronic board
so paiseh
i actually tried to key in my passw.
Ugh...
haha...
but now i know
i think its like super cool and funss...
but not much $$ left...
need to save save save!

went bk then ard 10 plus Sue called
the 'old' peeps were at Alameen...
then went there to look for em
a bit comm breakdown,
went to pool to look for em
then went 23rd...
sigh...
so scary...
then realise they were oppo
anyway, had fun
but my abia shirt's secret kept leaking
haha..
but it doesnt matter...

supp to catch 13 going 30 with pat
but dont feel like
may go concourse instead!
kite flying nxt sunday
so need get some stuff!
funnns!

Found myself drowning in a pool of tears yesterday.
once again i submerged myself into it.
everything's screwed up AGAIN.
b**ch. b**ch. b**ch.
sometimes i feel that women are the most toxic creatures on earth.
you have no idea how well they bite.
when their teeth sink into your skin
thats the end.
hahaha.
to hell with it.
whats up man.
lets hope for a better day.

have been playing too much.
and its all too late.
no one will help me.
cuz ive fallen into the pits...
the never-ending pits.

sometimes i really hate myself
for making myself so miserable...
breathe.

can't tolerate fake people.
so fake that u wanna peel off their skin
and see whats left underneath
probably just rotting flesh

haha.
and why do i sound like im bloody pissed
how i know???
Muahaha...

Some lame stuff...
TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it! *-TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O !
TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin !
TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me !
TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time." TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that?
BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get this MUMMY then?
TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you are wearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots !
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him,what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love ?
TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating ?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog !
TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher

sigh... what a boring saturday
shall go home and watch some tv...
but sat night got no shows..
yesterday was a unlucky day
almost fell down. (x2)
the skin of my left foot came out.
thank God it didnt bleed
went daiso with mag ytd
funss...
bot the paper backs
the charcoal mask, facial foam
and the peanut butter pencil case
hehhehs.
did i make a wrong choice of going to wk on mon n tues?
will i have enough time to study?
Ugh. i dont know.
all i very much want now is to SLEEP.
hahas.
dont understand cma.
how?
sighs.

dont know if my tag board's working or not
watched Lola Run during German class today
nice film.. haha
didnt do well for the test. Ugh.
freaked out at the oral test.
Gonna work nxt monday n tues prob wed.
$68/day should do me well for 2-3 days
hehheh...
but will i have time to study?
oops...
so many projects again.
sigh..
see his face i wanna die n cry

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!
THE NATION CELEBRATES WITH YOU!

Wow, yesterday was totally AWESOME & AMAZING...
The people, the company, the fellowship, the food

Everythingn was super sweet, and love was jus in the air.
So glad that everybody enjoyed themselves and have lotsa fun.
Except for the security guard who was the wet blanket!
Ruth, Nic and the kids went swimming, haha..
Nic n Anthony looked like 2 big balls, in different sizes!
Anthony look super cute, haha with his sparetyres overflowing ard haha

there were 30+ people...
Joshuas - Ruth, Vincent, Eze, ZiHao, WeiWei
Elijahs - Fish, Geoffrey, Maggie, Sharon, Esther, Jason, Dominic, Jacqueline, Cindy
Naomians - Dottie, Suaty, Abia
the older peeps...
SueMay, Chip, and their boy Joshua,
George & Adel
John & Hariette
Hawk & Brigitte
Nicholas & Audrey
Fiona, and her boys, Zachariah & Jeremiah
Seow Hiang & Betty, and their little girl Katrina
Aunty Yvonne & Uncle Frank
Papa & Mama
Phoebe

we had so much fun
singing and singing
from nursery rhymes to hillsongs to lullabyes, to 80s songs...
everyone was in high spirits
all of us jus crowded ard Joshua
and started singing to him
he knows how to clap, smart boy...
soooo adorable

we had so much fun
really we did
and God was Good
he watched over everything
from the weather to the whole event

took pictures, so happie!
haha.. then nic they all got me a cammie,
smthg that they dont use anymore
so nice of them

Katrina wasin her tutus when she came!
loooked like a little fairy...
soooo cute..
then she went swimming too
in her red dress, haha
and she manage to do a sommersault,
showing only her legs erected in the air,
and her head submerged in the water
i was laughing like mad
brave girl huh, only 3 years old
sucha pretty little babe
look very angmoh,
probably cuz she was born in the States?
rich man's daughter...
father's a colonel,
salary's a 5-digit figure

then went to nic's house to thon,
tog with dottie
watched Eurotrip, but fell asleep
as usual hahas...
then went to zzz..
but chatted with dot til 4.30...
then we slept
Eu treated their family to lunch

later gonna pick dot up and go watch the village
hopefully, it'll be nice...

and i have lotsa work to do
but i dont have time
cuz i'll be back home late
4 tutorials to clear
Ugh. Can't breathe AGAIN.

- out -

im at nickie's place now!
Thon overnite with Dottiez!
Cuz his mama is outta town!
BBQ party was absolutely FABULOUS!
Shall up date tmr... Yawns...
HAPPY 34th BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!
HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

haha im fine! forgot bout everythg liao...
thanks, my dear bs mates..
appreciate u gals..
haha cant wait for sunday..
bbq surprise bday celeb for nic..
hehheh..
gonna go grocery shopping later...
had conference call last nite w mei, dot n suat
funsss

haha... im having lunch now... ok alerady, forgot bout everything that has happened! Thank God..

had conference call with mei, suat n dot..
going grocery shopping later! yeeps! haha..
cant wait for sunday!
bbq surprise bday party for nic at my poolside!
30 plus peeps.. hehhheh...

What is wrong with me?
am i ... ... ... ???
why am i so affected by it?
Ugh.
Why did it happen.
Cant sleep.
1 in the morn, and i can't fall asleep.
Thats so unlike me.
and when i wake up,
it was only 8 in the morning.
Suddenly i jus wanted to seek God
Wanted to ask Him why.
Wanted to ask Him whats wrong with me.
Why am i behaving in this way.
Why why why why why why?
Sobbbsss...
Sobbbsss...
i need to tell somebody...
Are you there God? Its me...
Something is terribly wrong with me...
I need medicine...
I dont want ppl to think i.. i..
Sob.
Hate you. Hate you.
Hate both of you for making my life AGAIN.

i want to get out of it.
i don't want to get stuck in the well.
i wanna climb out of it.
i need a ladder to be placed in the well...
Shouts out to God... are you there...? Are you there God?
Why is my life like this again?

I'm still waiting for the answer, for a sign, for everything..
can you please God, please tell me what to do...
Please God..
thank you..

ok i got my lappie back. Dont know if i shd be happy or not. Sigh...

as usual, my life is in another mess. Ugh.

projects, tests, presentations. Ugh. Everyday, everyweek i look forward to fridays.

going for dinner with my BS gals later.. mtg at clementi instead.

think they wanna bowl, but i cant afford to cuz got cma tutorial not yet do. Ugh.

Shit (x3)

i wanna go for a holiday... Sobsss.. get outta S'pore and breathe normally elsewhere.

It was jus great. God's presence was so overpowering, thank Him for that.. Really AWESOME, FABULOUS, AMAZING etc.. Skit was farnie, esp Sharon, that girl can really act man.

three mad woman came.. Jess, Liz n Cheryl. all suan me tog with Grace, Dot.. What great friends i have huh.. Gang up and bully me..

Borrowed a cammie fr my aunty, and there was film inside, but only can take 12 pics! i was like WTH the whole way, cuz i wasted it taking ton of pics of the skit! ARGHHH... Hahaha.. but heng Fish brot hers...

Nic's Birthday is coming-09-08.. Cool huh, the world nation is celebrating it for him.. haha.. muz crack my brains to think of what ta do for him! haha...

Going airport later! Yeeps.. Supposedly to go kaypoh n pick Hariette up, but act going to buy the chocs and eat that whatever chicken they are talking about! haha... 

and there's school tmr, sobsss.. dun wanna go. sobs. and so many projects. Sobbs. Deutsch is driving me CRAZY. Sobss.. and the test is in a few wks time. Ugh. Double, triple UGH.

huh?

cant wait for tmr man.. haha.. haha.. haha.. even got balloons, kinda mad, but still, its gonna be so much fun..

went to diaso jus now.. got all the cool tins/cans! and the retro polka dot mini bags! Cheap n good! hahas.. so funnn.. wanna go back there soon..

was a eventful wk filled with thunderstorms, hardly see and rainbow at all...

so depressed on Fri.. Cheryl shd know why haha.

sometimes i wish i can SHUT PEOPLE up.. but that's jus a thought lah, not a thing i can do.. so it'll remain a dream, and i can only keep dreaming.

frankly speaking, i dont give a damn to your life. so dont tell me about whats going on alright? Jus button up your lips and everyone else will be thanking God.

Dont bullshit abt being sorry when u dont mean it at all. Dont say u r guilty when u are not. Cuz they are mere POLLUTION to my ears. And my ears are clean, so jus make sure u dont dirty it.

gonna get over it. wont let depression get over me.. No way.

ok, its a saturday, and im in church as usual, music prac.
 
tons of work to do, blaw, econs, hr, etc etc. hate it.
 
hate the bloody, spastic, idiotic, moronic, irritating old bitchy spinster.
 
wanna kick her ass and make sure she flies off and never come back.
 
feel like jus stabbing her.
 
everybody's back now safely.
 
got to catch up with em.
 
watched spidy man 2 with em on thurs..
 
dottie came too.
 
quite nice, didnt think i'll ever watch it in the 1st place.
 
anyway, enjoyed it.
 
sign up for that UOB card.
 
gosh, so excited bout it.
 
went for life but didnt get to reallli stay in there.
 
really love the "My reedeemeer lives" jumping.
 
u dont find that in SJCCC.
 
but pray that its really the heart of worship
 
and not jus the jumping.

 

Praise God, they are back! Made in for svc today! Except for Nic, Aud n Dot.. Poor Doral's passport & money got pickpocketted! Sobss.. poor girl!

anyway its so glad to see em! when i saw fish i was like, is that Sharon? then i went closer and realised its Fish! i screamed like mad k! aft that saw Gracie! So HAPPY! i was practically beaming when i saw em! Eug was there also.. Anyway, had a good catching up with her..

am gonna talk loads nxt wk.. haha.. cant wait! so nice, got a BIG NICE HUGG from Gracie! So niceeee...

went to Times n help Grace..

hey gal!!! got ur nice msg from ah bee! we are always thinkin of u here in sydney! everyday we walk long long journeys, think if u are here u shall PENG! haha.. n we save n save like AUNTIES lorr cuz the meals here ard 7dollars k! aiyooo... and when we finally go supermarket today we were so happy tat there are vege n fruits we choose n pick n laugh pple think we muz be NUTS! hahaha...
anyway gtg, hope u r doing fine in school!! HUGZ from sydney!!! :)

the above msg is brought to u by Grace...

i miss em!!! Sobssssssssss...
how i wish i was there!
school's ok but i dun really like it i guess.
then the caterpillar thingy, so traumatising!
lecturers are terrible, horrible.
mad mad people.
and everythg is so tough.
how to cope.
and my lappy.
driving me nuts.
cried my eyes out.
hate it.

7 more days.
and i'll c em.