Don’t know why can’t blog… Something’s wrong with my blogger… so had to ask my daughter to help me blog… haha…

Presentations are more or less over, so relieved now… but still got other tests, role-plays etc… life is still very much terrible…

Sigh… seems like ppl are getting colder and colder nowadays… it’s just so hard to reach out to them. Sigh… wonder what’s running in their minds, what’s holding them back.

Ytd no water supply, later no electricity… my house is super jialat… haha… always got this kinda problems… otherwise it’ll be lifts breaking down.. still remembered there was once, when I was still in primary school, both lifts broke down when I was going back with my mum after grocery shopping. Then we had no choice but to start climbing up the never-ending flight of stairs, to 22nd storey… halfway, and I crying and sat down on the stairs. I told my mum that I don’t wanna climb anymore…. Haha.. funny huh… now when I recollect the past, I could imagine the cold beads of sweat that were trickling down my mama’s forehead when I said that! Haha… anyway, hope that’ll nv happen again! Haha… but then my dad will be home late later…hope and pray that he’ll be back safely, cuz he got asthma, and can’t possibly climb 22 x 2 flight of stairs…

Asked ah bee for a break from worship duty this Sunday…really needed it. Im up
every week. Everyweek.. Its not that I don’t wanna serve but I really do need a break badly. Its real taxing… sigh… electricity gg off soon.. nic asks if I’ll be scared.. actually haven tot abt that, but after he asked, started to get the creeps. Plus im HOME ALONE. Ugh. What great luck…

Just a little encouragement to keep my loved ones going...

Drop a pebble in the water: just a splash, and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Spreading, spreading from the center, flowing on out to the sea. And there is no way of telling where the end is going to be.
Drop a pebble in the water: in a minute you forget, But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And those little waves a-flowing to a great big wave have grown; You've disturbed a mighty river just by dropping in a stone.

Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on. They keep spreading, spreading, spreading from the center as they go, And there is no way to stop them, once you've started them to flow.
Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute you forget; But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And perhaps in some sad heart a mighty wave of tears you've stirred, And disturbed a life was happy ere you dropped that unkind word.

Drop a word of cheer and kindness: just a flash and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Bearing hope and joy and comfort on each splashing, dashing wave Till you wouldn't believe the volume of the one kind word you gave.
Drop a word of cheer and kindness: in a minute you forget; But there's gladness still a-swelling, and there's joy circling yet, And you've rolled a wave of comfort whose sweet music can be heard Over miles and miles of water just by dropping one kind word.

so thankful, finally got back my internet connection
today was HQ & SS's wedding
she looked totally gorgeous
but the worst things kinda happen to me
was putting on the bod shop liq foundatn and it splattered all over me
kena on my skirt, right before the wedding
and the loose powder was horrendous
need to get a new one
then drank my mango tea, and it dripped down to my shirt
ugh
dinner's at Meritus Mandarin in town tonight
but im not invited
not that close
but overall fun lah

got my bag ytd
exilarated mannn
cma test is gettg nearer and nearer
sighhh...
bbq tmr, still recovering, dont know can eat or not haha

this week was a tough one
ask them
they will know
so tough u dont know what to do
cleared the problem
but dont know if it'll arise again or not

tmr's the wedding
can't wait
but got no top to wear
sigh
nxt wk cma test
ugh...
sure mati

nxt week's gonna b worse
2 presentations
german role-play
cma test
in deep poop

need to do ppt
paint
draw
color
alamak

bbq on sunday somemore
gonna go do my pacnet thingy later
hopefully wil b ok
have been paying few mths bills
but nt using the net at all
wthell right

heard from eu recently
she took the initiative to msg me
so happie
can tell that she really misses us
asked bout the bbq
but it was gonna end early
so i guess she couldnt come

i wanna go chinatown wif my daughters to get the shades
haha...
i need to have things to look forward to
to keep me going for the week
haha
such as shopping
or some activity
else i'll haf low morale
ahaha
what rubbish right

she didnt msg me at all this wk
prob still mad at me
sigh...
nothing i can do

cheryl pass me the deeds card
so cool
haha tot it was like super fun
going to pass to someone soon

haha cutie gals, me pearlie and june in ccc rm!

so tired...
everyday do proj til going bonkers
meta camp here again
shd i go?
can't stand unrefined guys
totally turn me off
every single guy pisses me and my two daughters off
s*** them

i think she's mad at me
not on talking terms
cant be bothered
dont know wtf is wrong with her

she asked me to lead worship for oct's prayer mtg
but i havent give her an ans
kinda scared

many things happened this week
not a smooth one, sigh...
wish things will be alright soon

passed all my papers
so thankful
that He pulled me thru
wanted to share my joy with her
but...
sigh...
guess no one has any ears for me

how childish can one get
tell me
tell me

why do i get frightened by it so easily
so scared
then got lots of restrictions
alamak

dont know how to do fmgt proj
stuck

ich mag schokolade kuchen!

Got the news ytd that mag's dad passed away
felt sad for them
but at least i know and have the assurance that
he's up there witht the Lord
and we'll meet one day

God is good to me
really really good to me
and i really really appreciate it
pulled me thru all 5 papers
it wasnt easy
but he was there to lift me up
esp cma
i passed it
it was like a MIRACLE
a miracle that descended from above
i know it was really Him
not me but Him
cause i really didnt know what i wrote
i jus wrote things that were def out of pt
but i knew He helped me thru it
thank u Father
thank u so much
and for also pulling my two daughters thru it
just relieved and thankful

went to pizza huttie with my daughters today
had a great lunch tog
and for once i can sleep in peace tonight
but come to think of it
i sleep like a pig everyday
hahaha...

i guess i made her mad again
but i did it on purpose
really sick and tired of hearing bla bla bla...
can't be bothered
don't know how to help her

so glad wed skool life has come to an end
now i can breathe properly
gonna go for the wake tonight
hope i dont weep buckets
that i'll keep cool

weird eh
forget abt that X
but suddenly hear from X again
err... erm... ehh... hmm... nvm

only when u see a person so close to dying

then will u know how fragile life is

wept buckets ytd

shouldnt have fun

he was breathing so hard

all his cells rob him off his body

feet swell up

sigh

i guess we must live in hope each day

and that God'll really grant us strength to carry thru

many ppl visited him ytd

he was like in a coma

but he was actually sleeping

so weak and skinny

face was sunken

his wife kept crying

it seems that he doesnt wanna leave earth yet

kept holding back

sigh

why does God allow suffering?

i seriously dont know

suppose to go kite flying

but it was raining jus now

don know how

hell damn pissed with her

I AM NOT ACCOUNTABLE FOR U

so SHUT UP and dont tell me whats up

i am so disappointed in her

once so on fire for God

yet backsliding

cuz of a yug

i hate him

hate him

bloody

thanks to June for teaching me how to post pics on my blog!
got back my econs n fmgt...
pass em thank God
but still gt 3 more which im so scared of
sigh...
blaw proj driving me nuts
ugh.
gt a pair of flats on sunday!
haha...gola shoes got sale!
wanna get em too!
and the black roxy bag!
watched 13 going 30 ytd
not really nice
going to watch Stepford wives
hope its nice

haha long long time ago...

brian, super cute@

am i cute? wahaha...

the young gals! made me look old beside em... sigh...

oops, nic exposed!!!

dot n me at my hse pool area!

hehheh.. jus knew how to do this... thanks to june..

in the end never go concourse
went chinatown instead
funnsss
but the shops i wanna go all close already
or mayb they didnt even exist at all

blurt smthg daft fr my mouth
shouldnt have said that
i knew i was in the wrong
but then she didnt have to like said such things
made me felt so sad
feel like crying
but i held it back

am glad things were better

gave her the egg
hope she likes it
havent really talk to her bout him
but guess things are ok
then the phonecall came...
and i guess he asked y shes on duty always
wthack.
she's serving God
dont u geddit.
make sure u dont stop her from coming to church
u idiot.
always going some other churches cuz of him
stupid dumbass
dont know why on earth she's hooked
such great differences
guess opposites do attract after all
wanted to ask her how are things
but it just wouldnt come out from my mouth

i guess i got a bad sense of rhythm
tried to play that song ytd but donno
how the rhythm shd be like
sigh...
haha...

wore the same stuff today
u call it telepathy
denim skirt
belt
pumps
i like hers
cool red color
feet hurts like mad

back to hell tomorrow
sigh...

finally... phew... all the horrendous papers are gone.
gonna do real badly...
but at least it's over.
thank God for pulling me thru...
lotsa topsy and turvies during the week

met WenJun on mond..
so glad to see her
it has been such a long time since we last met up
ketchup loads that day
life is just full of sweet surprises
God just arrange a time for us to meet again!

realli missed the good old days of sec sch
esp sec 4...
mrs MC HAMMER!
lessons under her were freaking scary..
but i enjoyed the suspense!
hahaha...
totally awesome.

went shopping with jess at town ytd
liz came for a while then cabut
saw eve n cera
haha..
what a small world
jess got a pair of pumps
niceee...
wanted smthg similar
but they didnt have my size

got a skirt from FOX @ taka for 27...
supp to be 39
the things there are all going for a song!
hehheh...
then went over to P.O.A at PS
got a pair of pumps for 23.40!
usual price was 39..
mayb i shd go buy 4d
buy the no. 3939?
wahaha...
but its kinda tight leh...
and my left ankle's hurting
UGH!
haha..
but it doesnt matter
girls are born vain
so im happie happie and happie!
then i used the visa card..
over at fox,
but i dint know i was supp to sign at the electronic board
so paiseh
i actually tried to key in my passw.
Ugh...
haha...
but now i know
i think its like super cool and funss...
but not much $$ left...
need to save save save!

went bk then ard 10 plus Sue called
the 'old' peeps were at Alameen...
then went there to look for em
a bit comm breakdown,
went to pool to look for em
then went 23rd...
sigh...
so scary...
then realise they were oppo
anyway, had fun
but my abia shirt's secret kept leaking
haha..
but it doesnt matter...

supp to catch 13 going 30 with pat
but dont feel like
may go concourse instead!
kite flying nxt sunday
so need get some stuff!
funnns!

Found myself drowning in a pool of tears yesterday.
once again i submerged myself into it.
everything's screwed up AGAIN.
b**ch. b**ch. b**ch.
sometimes i feel that women are the most toxic creatures on earth.
you have no idea how well they bite.
when their teeth sink into your skin
thats the end.
hahaha.
to hell with it.
whats up man.
lets hope for a better day.

have been playing too much.
and its all too late.
no one will help me.
cuz ive fallen into the pits...
the never-ending pits.

sometimes i really hate myself
for making myself so miserable...
breathe.

can't tolerate fake people.
so fake that u wanna peel off their skin
and see whats left underneath
probably just rotting flesh

haha.
and why do i sound like im bloody pissed
how i know???
Muahaha...

Some lame stuff...
TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it! *-TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O !
TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin !
TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me !
TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time." TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that?
BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get this MUMMY then?
TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you are wearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots !
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him,what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love ?
TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating ?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog !
TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher

sigh... what a boring saturday
shall go home and watch some tv...
but sat night got no shows..
yesterday was a unlucky day
almost fell down. (x2)
the skin of my left foot came out.
thank God it didnt bleed
went daiso with mag ytd
funss...
bot the paper backs
the charcoal mask, facial foam
and the peanut butter pencil case
hehhehs.
did i make a wrong choice of going to wk on mon n tues?
will i have enough time to study?
Ugh. i dont know.
all i very much want now is to SLEEP.
hahas.
dont understand cma.
how?
sighs.