monday 30.05 and yup thats the gerbera.. :)

hee thats the necklace i got her. i want.

and then we went to great world cityy.. :)

hee my girlies

okies a grp pic in auds office.. hee

and so here's the birthday girl with her 'cake' haaa

clearer view of the tutti fruittis.. marshmallow MIA

the choc fondue we made on sunday.. looks yummy right..

happie 25th twinnie!

shall stop delving abt my unhappy past, cuz im pretty sure everyone is tired already. i am too. and no i dont like to talk abt sch. so lets talk abt happy stuff. :)

today is my sweets 25 bday... :)

a lil miscomm cuz she thot she had sent me the msg, but no, i didnt receive it! so i thot oh ok, so we aint mtg. alright then if thats the case.

but at 6pluspm she sms and asked if wanna meet. haha.. yes and so we did! lol.. was thinking i shd get her flowers or smthg and so in the end i got her a gerbera! so niceeee! its in a nice shade of pink! haha.. realised i dont like sunflower anymore. ewwww.. no. no. no sunflowers. gerbera=daisies=i like.

so we had niceee dinner at pasta cafe. thanks dearie for the treat and the movie too! hee we caught madagascar and it was so cuteee! somehow we can relate to it, cuz of the wakey wakey, and the kukus! lol.. she=marty, and me=alex! hahass..

and yes, my dear twin shed her locks. omg. was simply stunned when i saw her. speechless. darn different. oh my.. haha.. and she got streaks on her hair. and oh *slaps forehead* she went to do the _______________. there is just one word, and only one word to describe her.

vainpot

sometimes it is just awesome when God changes His people to be more like Him. im beginning to see it, and im happy. for that person. grins. its been a blessing.

shall put up some peeks tmr.

i know she wasnt very much in the mood fer a birthday celebration today. but anyway we did it, and yes we succeeded in making the choc fondue. *claps* i thought it tasted good, lol. anyway i hope my twin's happieee. i mean really happiee.. cuz we aint happy people. nt for now. :(

in actual fact, im ___ring. yet again. ARGHHH.

God promises rainbow after the rain. today i saw the rainbow. somehow He just showed it to me. and yes, i was awed, and i thank Him for His faithfulness. He has shown that He cares, and that all things will be made good because of Him. He taught me that as long as we have that trust in Him, He'll make our paths straight. how true. :)

i havent done what i ought to do, and time is definitely not on my side. ugh. HELP!!! ran out of ideas already. hmmm. nvm. keep it simple & sweet.

i gave the shoe fair a miss. sobs.

http://feelingofmagic.friendtest.com -----> take the quiz fer me yeah? thankss..

there are 7 colors in the rainbow.

red orange yellow green blue indigo violet

http://feelingofmagic.friendtest.com

for 2 years i've never felt like this before. never. not until this day when the fact is starting to sink in. tomorrow will be a better day?
yeah riigghhtttt.

stop crying.

stop wallowing in self-pity.

cuz it so aint gonna help.

wake up my idea.

22.may.sunday

been a long time since I was really happy. and i mean really happy. life has been somewhat gloomy for the past few months, but it was different yesterday. It is amazing when you think of the kind of people that God have planted in your life.

Pouring out all our woes together and drowning them in ice-cream was definitely nice. Even though we were a little depressed, but still we know that God will definitely make all things beautiful in His time.

Thank God for blessing me with someone who is so dear to my heart, and that we can just connect and share everything with mutual understanding that is so strong even tho we're years apart. And I know we'll tide through good and bad times together with Him. And yes I've injected cheer into her grind, at least that's what she told me! shiao eh twinnie. and thanks darl fer e sweet messages, cuz it warmed & melted my heart, heehee... shiao eh twinnie.

late suppers and early morning at shopping at mustafa was gr8 too with nick aud eu suat twin me. =)

23rdmay.

hell. my tooth aches like mad. and no it is not wisdom tooth. its the root canal issue again. and so i found myself weeping buckets, first time sobbing so much ever since e hell wk of attachment, cuz it is so freaking scary, and i dont want to waste that money. sobs. and i only got 1 more painkiller left to last the whole night til tomo.how can it be possible, when i just had 1 at 6 and the pain is beginning to come back now? oh God please save me from all these agony. please. going to cry myself to sleep tonight. ='(

useless me always crying. big baby. grow up and get a grip.

sometimes i just feel like telling a person straight in the face whatever i find stupid/disgusting/irritating about the person. yet i cant bring myself to do it, cause i know that it will very much jeopardise the friendship/relationship. some people are just so unlovable. sigh. if you don't like something, that's your problem. but you cant possibly expect me to dislike that something/someone. and i cant imagine having to live with you. nooooooo way. dont expect me to change for you.

bbq was gr8.or rather the gathering was gr8. am thankful fer all my uncles, aunties, cuzzies, cuzzies' kids. i love it when we get to meet up once in a while.. and i really love each and everyone of the kids, cuz they are simply adorable. and seeing them play together warms my heart. hee.
shall post the snaps tmr.

oh well, mixed feelings la. to sum it all, its just bittersweet. all things, good or bad, will have to come to an end. sweet cos no more waking up at 7 and taking the 1hr busride, bitter cuz i have to say goodbye to people who have been so nice to me ever since day1. can't really bear to leave the place. it's like u have already developed feelings for the people, the place. and just when u have settled down in the new environment, you got to get yr butt out and go back to sch. what can i say? life's like that.

and sklai is so nice, gave us extra 80 buckeroos as a token of appreciation. was surprised when i was called to go in, thank God BH was there also. anyway, think SK's quite nice la, haaa.. kinda lame.. anyway he invited us to join SKLai shd we wanna do audit/acc. lol. and miss lee got us a bracelet. so scchhwweeet. sigh. shes so nice, yet she's nt married, and it feels to me that she lead a rather sheltered life. hope that she will stay happy always.

anyway, glad they liked and enjoyed the cookies, hee. i did basically nothing today, lol.. SP was supposed to get me some stuff ta do, but she didnt come in, so i just stared into the screen the whole time, lol. feeling a little lost right now. cant seem to absorb the fact that attachmt's over. and sch is on its way. but im definitely looking forward to sch. and wong wai mun called me.. mktg people pls attend the lectures nxt wk, cuz got briefing etc. krapps la. lol.

feel so shagged right now. so looking forward to that trip to slumberland. and yay, bbq at chalet tmr. gonna be a gr8 gathering. eyelids are beginning to droop already, ta ta!

yes i made a big mess outta the cookies. ugh. and lots are burnt. damn it. wasted. but nvm, managed to pack 15 bags. am gonna give it to em tmr, hahas. thanks bee for the help! so tired now. still got tons of things to clear, but think wil just ask my mama to clean it, hee..

yup 1 more day. just 1 more day, and thats the end of my attachment. like what i always say, time flies at warped speed. somehow its spooky, cuz things are happening way to fast.

2 treats this wk. 1 by sophia, the other one by the rest. thank u guys.

isnt it weird.last day of attachment. i oughta be celebrating. but yet i've got no programs lined up over the wkend. i mean more of fri night. nvm. mayb i shd just go shopping with abia.lol.

lame twin ask me ta go do this draw a pig test. here are my results

Toward the middle, you are a realist.

Facing front, you are direct, enjoy playing devil's advocate and neither fear nor avoid discussions.

With few details, you are emotional and naive, they care little for details and are a risk-taker.

With less than 4 legs, they are insecure or are living through a period of major change.

The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are.
The bigger the better. You drew medium sized ears, you are a good listener

u know what? i think the results are pretty accurate.

http://drawapig.desktopcreatures.com/draw.asp

go on. dont be shy. try it.

chers i aint too sure also. lol. will tell ya when i c u? lol.. try ask eve

:: letting go ::

yes i am pretty much unpredictable. yet sometimes i beg to differ on that. sigh. havent been feeling well.. blocked nose since mon, and voice have turned hoarse, a lil feverish and was caught in the rain a couple of times. ughs.

and yes 2 more days. 2 more days to bye bye SKLai. am gonna miss the peeps, the place. they've been really nice all along. ever since day 1.. always helping me when i needed it, offering me sweets, helping me to solve some wk problems, helping me do this do that, bringing me ard to diff places fer lunch, etc etc. this would have all been impossible w/o Him.

and yes a brand new start of a new sch yr. sigh. wonder what is gonna happen next. but i'll be anticipating it. sch is definitely better than work. lol. and haha eve, thanks fer the update. there will be 1, yes 1 GUY in my class. how fpathetic is that? no new eye candies, sobs. lol.

im so looking forward to camp, mainly bcuz i'll be bunking with evilt. lol. i'll make sure i'l bring all my props, pliers, superglue, big bottle of perfume, clock, radio, doll etc etc. gonna have a gd time freaking her out, simply by switching off the lights, muahaha... just pray that she doesnt bombard me with her silly questions like what she did the previous time, making me so traumatised. haaaa... she's just pure silly. but seriously 3d2n is way too short. cuz it'll be over b4 u even know it. but im happie that my papa+mama gg as well. but think i gotta pay my own fees. wt.

some things used to matter so much to me in the past. but somehow right now, it doesn't seem that important anymore. a little bit sad tho, but i've learnt to get over it. u cant always have the best of both worlds. sometimes we just have to let go. though it is fpain.

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother
What will I be
Will I be pretty
Will I be rich
Here's what she said to me

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart
What lies ahead
Will we have rainbows
Day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

Now I have Children of my own
They ask their mother
What will I be
Will I be handsome
Will I be rich
I tell them tenderly

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
Que Sera, Sera