monday
went for pedicure @ earth element at holland v on mondy with twinnie. thats was pretty fun n ticklish! and we were both kinda sampat, and had a really low threshold for pain. ugh. then went to get pressie for amei. sad night la. sigh.

tuesday
Mei's ROM was awesome! it was by the beach at east coast park, what a pretty sight! nice decorations with the garlands, the nice flowers, organza. it was all sooo pretty! so happy for my girl. had sucha nice time taking pics, eating n drinking til the stars came out to play. it was a first time attending a ROM by the beach for me. heeee, definitely a nice one!

aft that went bk to the chalet for missions camp. rot ard the first night since there were no activities. went out for night supper n saw bapoks! wheeee. i likee.. then as usual had girl talk w twinnie til the wee hours of 5 in the morning. then it was the msg by pastor simon then our bbq. and thats abt the end of it. beginning to enjoy playing bridge whahahaa. sigh. im beginning to feel that im like the claustrophobic friend. hais.

this has got to be the best birthday so far! lovely surprise i had that made me wept buckets.

thursday.
great meet up with my girlies, thanks for the pressie, eve, sijie n jesselyn! niceeee, i like. heehee. and lizzie too, for the nice cute karma like bottle with the sticks. i thnk they are like damn useful can. cos i asked the qns whether if i'll have fun ytd and the answer was a YES! heeee. thanks babes! (:

friday.
took half day off from work. mama rang me in the morning and sang e birthday song to me over the phone. so sweet can. had lunch with the pops in the noon, and then went home. took a nap, and was supp to go for pedicure n then to fish n co to watch dot's fren perform, some band at fish n co.

so twinnie came over, and we cut a cake fr my parents. i am really so touched by it, cos we havent been doing such stuff since a long time ago, cos every yr we'll be so bogged down by the hse that we dont have mood for that. then off we go to bukit timah plaza, but couldnt find the shop.

took a cab down town, cos i didnt want her to be late for her fren' perf which was fr 7-730. she was reluctant, but in the end we stil board one aft much persistence fr me. heh then stop at far east n walk all the way to glass hse jus cos we didnt wana pay the erp charges.hhhaaa wth. so we walked for a bloody 40 mins. and when we went there, her fren wasnt singing already. so she called her and went upstairs and look for her.

and there the whole of my cell group were singing the happy birthday song as soon as went up the stairs. omg. i couldnt believe it. it was really a plesant plesant surprise. and as i sat down, i was simply speechless. and as they sang the song i started crying. tears of joy. im just so thankful that God loves me so so much that he had such a wonderful celebration for me. cos everyone's like really busy, and i realy dont expect them to cast their work aside jus to celeb for me. am so so so so touched. will never forget this man.

thanks so much - eunice, dorothy, grace, eugene, nicholas, audrey, xueying, vincent, ruth. thanks for all the lovely gestures that really melted my heart.

i think i cried for a good 10 mins or so. couldnt control it. so malus. tears kept streaming down my face. ugh. puffyeyed!! then i finally stop and started eating.. then aft a while amei came over and talk to me and i cried again. haaaa crybaby. jus too touched la. really thank God for this group of me. and also for loving me who's undeserving n unworthy. im really really touched.

went to giraffe oppo the istana aft that, had drinks over there.. it's a super nice n chic place, a tad like balcony. had long island tea, pina colada, red wine, tequila sunrise, n blue lagoon. hee nice chill out place. aft which they tried to hook me up with the waiter! wth. haaa they asked for his number for me, saying im the bday girl blah, and he was a gd sport, cos he came back with a card and his name n number on it. haaaa so paiseh can. but i jus shrug it off and play along la. and wth they gave him my number too!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. didnt wanna appear petty, so i jus let them do it. and omg he sms me saying he finish wk for that day already, and that he aint free that night but wouldnt mind gg out for a drink today. haaaa CRAP can. i mean its like HELLO, we're jus kidding cant u tell?? lol. funny day la.

and to all who have wished me a happi birthday, i wanna shout out a big thank you for remembering for each sms/ lovely greeting have touched my heart.

Aunty
Jesselyn
Audrey
Nick
Dot
Xueying
Pastor Phoebe
Pearlie
Grace
Esther
Ruth

Ginny
Daddy
Mummy
HuiHui
YanBing
Wenjun
Maggie
Joshua
Jacqueline
Sebastian
Kaikit
Haryanti

am gonna treasure all these gd times. these memories can last me a lifetime man. shall post up pics real soon.

back from camp. had a great time with the lovelies, tho i wouldnt say it was the most fantastic or whatsoever, but sure many trigger happies with twinnie. sermon was nt too bad but place wasnt gd n food was sianing. everyday was more or less the same n many had diarrhoea. ugh. haha.

watched slither on sunday with twinnie. kinda hilarious n gruesome. but smone spoilt my morning la. sigh. dont know why she like to say such stuff to hurt ppl. intention or nt, to hell with it. and i must say i was a little disappointed. dunno why i always like to make a big hooha outta smthg. i gotta learn to take things in my stride, and nt put my focus n attention on nonsensical things.

had dinner at geylang with joshua ytd, and we walked ard for 1hrplus in search for the hookers n trannies! and indeed we feast our eyes! haaa. but seeing em makes me feel quite sad la. sigh.

n my birthday is cmg. ive pin so much hopes on it, as usual. haaa always thinking that its gonna be a special day blah. but i guess i gotta slog my ass of as wk la, sians. anyway, thanks for wanting to celeb my bday with me. i really appreciate it lots but i cant help feeling that its out of obligation. perhaps im wallowing in self pity yet again.

today's graduation! but im nt gg. haaaa. wth.

and i might be studyin at SIM. hell. the sch which i always emphasize is for people who are rich but stupid. ugh. karma. so much for it.

a belated shout out to jess: HAPPIE 20TH BIRTHDAY!

my birks are heree! finally. keke. pretty pretty. i likeee.

thanks twinnie babe for driving me ard, apprec it! went icekimo for ice cream. yummy. horlicks, jasmine n cempedak. slurps.

am gg for church camp tmr til sat. cant wait already! woohoo. finally can unwind and get away fr wk.

mtg my missed ones tonite! like finally. happi happi.

it was a great wkend to begin with! twinnie came over for a slumberthon for a change! watched the nun and it sucks. so pls do nt attempt to watch it. yucks. pui.

sat was the grand opening of tsk. went swimming at karinas place and then the potluck/bbq party. and i had my FIRST BIRTHDAY CAKE! how nice! hehheh. n im the only one whose bday falls in june! hiak. that makes me special special SPECIAL! wahaha...... ok kns i know.

then comes sunday where i had my SECOND BIRTHDAY CAKE!! for me and me only. that was from the mthly youth celeb! heehee.. its MAHJONG choc cake, baked by maggies mama! sweet.

towning with sampat darling. hee. it was a gd weekend spent with worthy people.

thanks for all the sweet thoughts and advanced celebrations. appreciate all of u. infinite kisses, abia.

peak period's over nw, can finally take a breather. phew. and yeah! tgif again!! how fast. (: had a great time during the wkend, even tho for the indiv hiccups. am so ashame of causing so much hurt to ppl i love. i need to change!! so sorry. tho i know u wont be seeing this.

mini pj party celeb for twinnies bday on sunday at church. thanks nick for e wonderful bbq! loved the bacon wrapped bananas. yummy. then celeb with twin again on the actual day, with nick n aud. watched davinci, courtesy of twin, and i fell asleep. oops. so paiseh. hahaa. but thot the show sucks la. no climax whatsoever. and it was the 940 show. was too shagged by wk to pry my peepers open.

anyway, its friday soon!! WHEEE!!! how fast. am loving it!! woohoo..

sat's gonna be the secret kitchen's grand opening. why am i nt looking forward to it? hmmm weird. but im sure lookg forward to camp! which reminds me i havent pay my fee.s

did overtime today! 2 whopping hours.. cos rahimah was busy, and needed my help.. new kia magentis cmg in, so sales have been increasing, plus its the end of mth, and theres a target to hit. so its busy busy for me too.

and praise God, my salary came rolling in! like finally. phew. and i can finally heave a sigh of relief nw! woohoo. just that it appears i cant withdraw it. weird. nvm. and tmr im gonna send in my other payslip! shiok man.. wheee. gonna start saving up, but gt urge to go shopping alone on fri aft wk! zara, here i come! woots.

today mag asked when im staying in c&c till. then i told her 7th july, but part of me wants to extend my stay there. how weird. sigh. dunno la. but think their pay quite miserable also.

and tmr i'll have to ask mag abt all the leave that i wanna take. hais. so scary.! ugh. hope she approve them. if u happen to see this, rem to keep me in yr prayers! hehs.

cant wait for my birkies! woohoooooo. and i cant wait for friday too.

so the week came and past as usual. and CX gt fired. think they shdve told her nicely and gave her another chance. nt like she made a grave mistake. perhaps its the attitude.. hais. scary la. jus hope that it wouldnt happen to me.

am starting to like the ppl there, and enjoy doing even the mundane and repetitive job. only concern nw is that i havent got my pay yet, and am kinda worried they deposit the moolah into the wrong a/c. ugh, hope i'll nt be that suay! other than that, alls well, jus that it has been busier these days, since its towards he end of the mth, and the salesppl have to achieve their target!

had the diocese sports day ytd.. tons of fun despite nt winning anythg at all. but my poor poor twinnie sprained her ankle and had to see a osteopath! nick sent her there straigh aft the match! after which being the usual nice me, i went over to her place to keep her company! watched tv, had our girl talks n dinner in room!! thanks to yati. wahaha.. hope her zhujiao's much better nw! so she didnt come today!! gotta rest the zhujiao, so means less time tog. but gonna anticipate her recovery and we'll go davinci...!

skipped the mtg with rev today. went to crystal jade for lunch with the pops and the rest! good old days are cmg bk i hope! aft that went to arab st with auntie yl, charmaine and mooncher.. the 2 girls were driving me crazy! mayb cos im pmsing, so got really cranky and all. came home, took a nap and watched sgp idol.. and my pri sch mate gt into the 2nd round.. watch out for charmaine..

now the only thing i look forward to is friday. wahaha. how nice. and we're gonna reminisce and have our pajamas party again on sunday to celeb twinnies bday! how funs. hehheh, jus that it will prolly bring me pre-monday blues.

i just realised how attractive one can be. how u can outshine others cos of the quality u possess. jus showed me how worthy u are and how pale in comparison the other was when beside u.

7th - 14th may

 

more or less settled down at work already... scandals were cmg in, and i found it downright hilarious...! i need these kinda gossips to inject cheer into my daily grind! ting n debra left, and amy will be leaving on the 25th, which means serene me n cx to cope by ourselves. i dont like cx. she is like so blur and all, doesnt do her things well. ok fine im nt perfect, but its jus that she's too careless, n i dont like it. hais. and she has been blacklisted by the ppl already. im jus glad that there's serene w me!

it has been a really short wk, thanks to the holi. spent thurs n fri night at twinnies place... went tanning, shopping n attempted to night cycle at 1am last night! that was totally cool n fun! really enjoyed it, less the barkings fr stupid dogs, cars, and the occasional nehnehs who pop out fr no where, causing me to forget my other fears and pedal real fast. wheee. the company has been really good, despite the ups n downs which were inevitable. but still, im wking towards escalating the friendship ladder.

ive havent been on talking terms with him ever since the incident last saturday. but anyway, i dont have much chance to do so since i have to work. feel kinda weird abt it. hais.

i figured out i'll be really broke aft getting my salary. cos
52.5 x 7days = 367.5
367.5 x 0.8 = 294
294 - 150(campfees) = 154
154 - 55birks = 99
99 - 35pedicure = 64

how nice. i'd have 64 bucks to spend. SO MUCHHHH can!!! and i need to save up for our little get-away.

sometimes i wish i can tell you the truth, but it seems so difficult.

hope the pre-monday blues will NOT cm in tomorrow.

time for an update...!

what a weekend! action-packed and gone with a whizzz! was soooo happy when fri was finally here! out with the bestie and the other babes...! hmmm... drama on saturday. i couldnt believe that sort of thing actually happen. i mean yeah i know my shoes are all over the place, and the jigsaw are starting to collect dust, but u could have told me nicely and nt messed them up into pieces, for u have NO F**KING IDEA how long ive spent on it. seriously, im damn disappointed in you. i think i'll nv want to talk to u again. hurt me so much i wept buckets. to hell with it.

its monday. the blues have set in. but soon it will be gone! it wasnt too bad a day to start with cos basically had nthing to do aft lunch.. wahaha. but really hope i didnt screw up the mailing stuff.. those are still giving me butterflies in my stomach. hais!

everybody's been telling me that ive gt a really nicee and pretty phone. hehheh so oriental, i likeeee. (:

looking forward to thursday cos of holi!! and payday too. wheeee.

hey peeps.im back!

ok so its nt that bad afterall, just that mitsubishi, kia and mercs benz are driving me up the wall. am stil confused after 2 days!!

3 girls who are all 19 are wking there as temp too, leaving soon, so they are like supp to show us the ropes.. they are quite nice ppl and they get along really well with the peeps there.. like super chummy and all, makes me feel a little out of place. and in came 2 new girls today, 1 of them are cousins with the temp girl.. hmmm so i gt closer to the other new girl. who seems really decent.. the other one's kinda like ah-lianish.. oops. but yeah..

then there's this auntie fr the cafeteria who'll push a trolley up to our office during breakfast and tea times selling food, which i thought was absolutely cute. i mean how many times have u cm across smthg like that? haha..

and theres the lady boss as usual.. whos really tall, pretty and sexy for her age, tho at first look may look like a tranny! wahaha.. but shes quite hot la.. always get creeps when she calls us, but its always to get the documents. sigh. bad exp makes me like this!

then there's the funny bunch, the weird spinster, the ah lian, yada yada! other than that, its nt too bad. jus hope and pray that i'll get the things right, and nt be so blur! wk's more or less repetitive stuff everyday.. whether more or less to do. so there.. pls cont to keep me in prayers! thanks!!

and i wanna say thanks to all those who've shown their concern regarding my job in a way or so. i appreciate all of u.

eve
jess
june
twin
xueying

and thanks daddy for getting me this! remembered how i cry the other time when she told me she gt a new phone, and yet i gotta like shift house, downgrade blah, lamenting how unfair life was, blah.. and tada! God is so niceeee to give me a new phone.. nothing very grand, but its jus sweet to know that smone cares! (:

.:sunday:.

hung out with my cellies as usual, then one by one left and theres only mee n twinnie. gt my mphosis white birkies! haaaa.. happieee but this time, im really really broke. how sad. anyway yesterday was ... ... ... wondering how many times certain things have to happen. then again, i think im the problematic one! hais. i really oughta change...

.:monday:.

daddy gt sm m1 voucher...asked if i wanted to change hp but i think the choices are quite limited! haha.. and there really isnt one which i really want.. so there.. but im happy cos i was thnking abt it last night, hw im gonna earn money and get 1 for myself and ta-da! he asked.. hee thank u Lord! but perhaps nt changing la..cos i cant find the warranty card. craps!! ahhhh.

Kecai was at macs studying so i went down to look for her! always make me laugh til peng. PUN INTENDED OR NOT, still love her the same!

that aside... im starting work TOMORROW!! and it is freaking me out like mad!! sigh. really afraid of mtg new ppl, being in a new environmt where theres no one whom i know. really getting the jitters!! heebies jeebies. UGH. pls keep me in yr prayers if u happen to see this! hope ive smthg happy to blog abt tmr....! for now, i jus wanna prep myself mentally for it! hahaaa.. till then, auf wiedesehen! (:

girls night out - lizzie's 20th celeb (:

 

june is a jammed-pack month! its gonna be chockful, brimming & bustling with activities!

5th june - June's bday
8th-10th june - Church camp
12th june - Jess's bday
13th june - Graduation ceremony
16th june - My burpday
18th june - Cera's bday
19th june - Donna's bday
20th june - Grace's ROM
24thjune - Ana's bday
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i just finished a 500pcs puzzle and i realised theres 1 piece missing. doubleewteeeff.

am gonna replenish my sleep before i embark on waking up at like 7am in the morn. ugh.

i signed the contract today!!! ugh. i feel BONDED. )=

• Client: Cycle & Carriage Industries Pte Ltd
• Contract duration: 2nd May til 7th July 2006
• Breach of Contract: You must complete the assignment for the contracted period. Should you wish to resign during the period of contract, you will be liable to pay Recruit Express the remaining unworked days of the contracted period.
  

so scary! i am so damn scared now. please pray for

no1. ability to take leave for retreat + grad ceremony
no2. niceeee people. (no more chaonehnehs pls, im really petrified by the bad exp)
no3. casual dress code to wk! (hate black pants and ugly shirts)

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retail therapy really make my day!
- got 2 pairs of shoes, 1 for mama! see im a fillial daughter!
- 2 knickers fr topshop
- 1 top from zara
- ripples flipflops for lizzie

hehheh i heart shopping!

fuck. i just got a job!!!

cycle and carriage.. cust svc for 2mths..8.5-6 mon-fri. looks like theres no way im gonna turn it down already. sigh.

my main concerns:
no1. i cannot go for church camp!
( if that happens im gonna kill my in-charge. )
no2. having to wk on twinnie's bday
no3. having to wk on my bday
no4. unable to attend ahmei's rom
no5. unable to attend graduation
(quite impossible)
no.6 unable to attend the evangelism camp

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I AM SO SCREWED!!! tmd. _|_

i thought it was pretty obvious that i wanted to make it a surprise, therefore nt asking her to put it into the list, but she still did. stupid or what? guess she dont want the surprise idea, cos it would deem unfair to the rest? i dont know..

have been staying home fixing jigsaw these days.. over to btp for a swim with wj ytd. disgusted by the worms and insects, we left the vicinity within 30mins. they really ought to change the water. filter is nv clean!

attempted to do the potato corn bake today. and i guess it was a success, except that it was a tad runny! hehs.. so it means im gonna bring that to the party!! wheee..

told the bestie abt how i felt! didnt want to harbour such evil thoughts cos we are like so close. and im so glad she totally understand. no hard feelings i hope. haaa.. and she said that she's gonna help me with my life puzzle when she's done with her papers! thot that was quite funny.

ive been rotting away for 2 bloody mths already. and i keep turning down job offers. sigh. u call it lazy, apathetic, bum, careless, comatose, dallying, dilatory, drowsy, dull, flagging, heavy-footed, idle, inattentive, indifferent, indolent, inert, lackadaisical, laggard, lagging, languid, languorous, lethargic, lifeless, loafing, neglectful, passive, procrastinating, remiss, sack artist, shiftless, slack, sleepy, slothful, slow, slow-moving, snoozy, somnolent, supine, tardy, tired, torpid, trifling, unconcerned, unenergetic, unindustrious, unpersevering, unready, wear. screw it man. hard to find pt that needs me for jus a few wks, plus allow me nt to wk or wkends.

double sigh.

oops they did it again!

and why does it always have to happen on a sunday? there are like 7 days in a week, but why must it be sunday? fk it. anyway, ive gathered that no1. consultations are nt needed. 2. opinions are nv aired. 3. its better to mmob.

im a total wreck, and my life can never get any messier. i have absolutely no idea how many times i must go thru all these shit. endless. and each time aft bawling my eyes out, nothing gets done, and all's the same. its time to accept the fact that there can never be equalities in life. as much as i would love to be in denial.

and why do people always get what they want? without having to earn for it. born with a silver spoon. buy all they want, and spend like theres nt tmr. sour grapes or what. fkkkkk.

i was just thinking.. if it actually pays to be nice? will the person appreciate it? do they deserve my niceness? why am i always so thoughtful to em? will u do the same for me? but i have to keep reminding myself that they are all attached with no strings. but smtimes its really tiring. mayb its time to stop doing nice afterall.

sobs.

why do bad things happen to good people?!

Keli & Kecai