all my tangled hair are all out too! so happy. got them out 1by1 over tv last night. pull out a damn whole lot of my own hair.sobs* and footshopping replied me! but damn, the birks i want is completely sold out. bohoho..

but gd news is, i got my paycheck!!! woots* have been waiting forever. time to go shopping and pamper myself!

i've got all my dreadlocks out! boohoo. kind of sad but yet happy at the same time. finally a load off my hair, super light nw, and smhw im glad about it. trying to get used to my old hair. happy thing is ive already received 4 compliments on hw i look nw! hee. exhilarated can. woots* spent 2 days at home trying to get the dumb locks out. and i had to skip church cos of the terrible state which my hair was in. funny la. d of cos thanks to twinnie who took time off to take out the hair for me. another selfless side i see. (:

really had a gd rest at home during the past weekend. really like having time for myself, simply packing up the room, or watching tv. feels shiok. but of cos too much of it makes me gag too. now i wanna go watch movies! wanna go shopping to. cheque shd come in today. it had better! aft such an embarrassing moment on friday.

slept at 3am last night,woke at 7am, but yet i dont feel tired at all. how strange. gg out tonight with the idiot. thot i told myself that i aint gg out with him anymore cos of the previous stupid issue. oh wells. we'll see how.

.: cortry :.

told monstwin that my colleagues were commenting that my eyebags were popping out the other day. then ytd night twin brought out her cortry when we gg creaming. and so slapped my forehead, thinking she was gonna use it in the car during her free time. but turn out it was for me! hehs. ugly eyebags but sweet twinnie! so touched can.

so we went creaming at daily scoop with rose, send her home then went bk to my house. and twinnie put cortry for me on the eyes. thot it was a little stinging, but went ahead with it. turns out 20 mins aft she took it out, my upper cheek was flushed. like i put blusher on it. damn funny, and sampat twinnie was super scared that smthg worse might happen. so she quickly prayed, super funny. ROFL. but thankfully it subsided aft abt 30mins or so, and finally she can breathe. hahahaha.. silly gal. i wasnt even the least worried but she was like getting all jittery. haaa.

anyway, ITS FRIDAY!!! T.G.I.F. woots*

wheee! today makes post no.4! sigh. not that i really love bloggin or what alright. just so happen that i got nothin better to do. bad news. my birks are no longer on the list. they took it off! so saddening. i love it so so much! hais. nvm. can save that amt of money and perhaps put it to better use. plus, i havent even get my pay yet. ugh. even more saddening.

discipleship was alright. thot we were all struggling, trying to endure n all, tho i dunno when i wil ever give up, cos the fact is ive already given up. the disability to answer qns is driving me up the wall. making my heart race all the time. i just aint cut out for it. cant give brilliant answers, always keeping quiet. nt criterias for the class.

after that went for supper with my bestie. had desserts at ah chew, and thick peanut butter toast with condensed milk. wahaha damn shiok n sinful can. anw, my bestie's sampat la. fancy bring out a whole big bottle of sally hansen nail remover and whole pack of cotton wool to remove her nail polish. where? AT THE BUS STOP WHILE WAITING FOR THE BUS AND IN THE BUS. !!! wth. only sampat ppl like her would do such a thing. slaps forehead* to top it off, she brought her j&j lotion out to. to apply when shes free. sampat. machiam she busy til no time to breath. SIAO!!! haha. strange monster twin.

am waiting for friday to come!!! then can have a gd rest over the weekend. am so zonked out. felt like they suck the life outta me. haaa but then again its cos im having lotsa fun in the nite. serves me right. and 2 already commented on my dark eye rings. sobs. isit that obvious? ugh. time for sm soothing eye therapy.

its so bored n cold in here! brrrrr.

haha ok yes, ive been blogging consecutively for the past 2 days and today makes post no. 3!

wonder why i always get green when kecai gets cheque and i dont. humph. life is unfair. think ive made this pt a million times. sucky. it always happen. when im down, kecai's up, and when kecai's up, im down. hahaa. guessed God plan it this way so that we can be there for one another at all times. guess im jus a silly girl la. fancy getting jealous and all of my bestie. so ashame of myself. ugh. but im glad we cleared the air, and good things always come out of it. so glad n thankful for a fren whom i can just rant everything n anything to. jus pray that i dont take her for granted and jeopardise the frenship in anyway.

oh yeah, and im glad we now say prayers tog before meals! i dont even recall us doing it for a looooong looooong time, and im over the moon abt that. silly it may seem but thats how i feel! i want a frenship based on our r/s with God. thats what i want! so im thankful abt all our prayers tog. and simply praying out loud during prayer mtg and during cell grp. all those make my heart smiles. hee.

caught click ytd with bestie. nt too bad a show. and thank God i didnt dozed off. haaa had prata at thomsom before home sweet home. hit the sheets at 2 and now im totally zonked out. ugh.

and i WANTTT TO BUY BIRKS!!! fuck. the pair which i want is no longer in the website. i am so sad i wanna cry. boo*

ok. the cupboard have been given a new lease of life. decided that i shd give them a chance. and they look great now. problem is, the color doesnt match my room color. haahaa wth. nvm. guess it doesnt matter that much nw. mayb shd repaint my rm again. HAHA. and then i wil be slaughtered by my dad.

the ability to go home at 6 really feels gd. simply rotting infront of the tv! and i did my discipleship wk til i fell asleep. lengthy bible chapters to read. ugh. old testament is really driving me up the wall. the numerous stories, never-ending reading to do. then i woke up an hr later to continue. hehs.

and today wil be off at 6 too, if nothing goes wrong! seems pretty free now, having ample time simply starin into space. daydreaming is shiok if u ask me. hopefully tmr'll wil be the same. then wil have time for dinna with twinnie!

only thing now is im waiting for the damn cheque! ugh. then i can go shopping!! wheee. i wanna buy birks, and i cant find ppl who wants to buy too. sobsobs. stupid problem that is i know. and i want to go travelling too! anywhr wil do..! need to get specs done, need to go take pics. so many things to do! bor eng. and i wanna take out my hair soon. then go for haircut. its all over the place now, and the lustrous bunch have wilted and only a few strands are left standing. sobs. hahahaa.

til then...

i typed/saved as draft/deleted. and here's a completely new post. thot the other one was like random. nt that this wil make much diff.

anyway, disgusting ppl are still ard me. cant seem to brush them off. need to find a sol. haa ok fine am bring cynical again. but i dont care. *poof.irritants!

sigh. how can i ever forget the powers of the internet? damn. stupid me. and of all post, it has gotta be that. ugh. gonna die of emb.

snow city last sunday was fun, tho there was jus 1 pathetic ride. guess its the company as always! but damn those who werent there. who promised to go tog but didnt make it in the end. whatever reason/excuse u give, to hell with it. haaaa.

and my mama jus nagged at me ytd. hate it when they nagged. arghhh.

i need retail therapy. LIKE NOW. *GRRRR.

wed 23rd aug...

sigh. what a night! if only i had pay more attention to the needs of others around me. i swear it was freaking scary. didnt expect things to turn out this way. this is what happens when we take smone for granted. esp smone we love so dearly. made the call and then the crying began again. didnt know what to say in times like this. if i knew it was so terrible, i would have scolded the bitch upfront. wth. so not encouraging. has she forgotten that we are brothers and sisters in Christ? isnt the class all about learning together? so why the fuck did the bitch say that the things she shared are fei4 hua4? fuck u! fuck u for being such an asshole. for causing unnecessary hurt and upsetting my loved one so much. pui.*

jus wondering why things always turn out to be so ugly all the time, in the midst of so looking forward to see one another, and jus one issue, and everythg turn sour. fuck that man.

that aside. realised that yisanba has been trying to be funny with me. and smhow, i wish what she said was true! i would have been over the moon. but the sister will always be a barrier. haha. it appears to me that ysb kept trying to like prompt me to speak. from my observation, it has been around 3 wks since that happen. all the evidence seems to point at one direction, haaa. but perhaps it was never intended for, and jus wishful thinking on my own part.

armragte.

hmmm. poor girl. new staff and got tekan, being throwed so much work. sigh. feel so sad for her. jus hope that she wil pull thru and prove all of em wrong. no idea why certain ppl can be so nasty.. jus mere 4 days and they expect her to know everythg? impossible what! even if u want smone to learn, thats nt the way to do it what...! sigh. feel so so sorry for her. poor thing! she even came bk to office on sat to wk can! arghh.

aunty susan.

saw her on fri and i realise i miss her! miss her booming voice, and miss her passionate heart for bringing more to God, even tho she sort of got into my nerves during the rally on fri. shdnt have gone. smhow i jus cannot comprehend all the slaining and speaking in tongues thingy. its super scary for me! and there was this girl who got the monkey spirit in her. sounded kinda farnie but its horrifying too! she was shriekign and screaming, saying "bu yao" and the elders and pastor kept praying for her, driving the devil out. was damn scary scene. *creepy.

other than that, havent been getting enough rest. ot almost every other day and its driving me bonkers. i wanna go home at 6!!! sobs. got my zara in red n white stripes. dunno why they have to give dumb comments that i honestly dont need time and again. sigh. thnk i need to change my wardrobe. need to get tudungs, and long sleeves and long pants. all covered up. whee!

its disciple class again tongiht. hope i dont screw up. and i want less ot and more dinner time with my lovelies! i want to shop too. if only my salary wil come in like now. sigh. need to wait at least a gd old 2 wks. ugh. hair's jutting out, 1 word, ugly. sobs. but i wanna keep it leh! sigh. wanna go sentosa too, and swimming and tanning! but ive got no time. boo*

time for an update.

its back to cnc again. ok right the other time i said the signs are clear that i shd leave. but anw, im back there, and wj with me this time. anyway, waking up at 7 sucks big time. eeks. and squeezing with ppl on the bus is eeky too. not much work to be done, since its the mere beginning of the month. goodie. can slack. haaaa.

twinnie came over to stay on tues.. but had to rush home ytd half way cos her daddy's cut his finger. 1/3 of it came off. freaking scary. so had surgery last night. hope all's well and that everybody at home is ok too.

over at marina to catch a glimpse of the fireworks on tues. quite pretty, but it was dumb that we spent time queing at ljs, wasting our chances to catch the whole 12 mins. perhaps shd go down again on sat. hehheh. twinnie might be gg dubai at the end of yr. i wanna go too. but i dont have the moolah leh. if only i can save all my pay, then i'll follow her. but im scared. freaking scared that ltr when we're thr, they'll wanna do stupid stuff.. like clubbing/marijuanaing, smoke pot. then i wil faint. since her fren's pretty notorious. haaa. oops.

other than that, ive attempted packing my clothes into the cupboard. but suck it la, cupboards freaking ugly, and one side of the door seems to be falling out pretty soon. hope it happens soon, so that i can get a new one. perhaps i shd keep banging it, n then it wil fall out.

chaaa~!

been putting up at twinnie's place for 1 wk already. everyone's really nice, except that i stil get the jitters when we have dinner tog. hais. cant help feeling super shy n paiseh. haaaa. have been slacking all day long, watching satc, and sleeping most of the time. feel like a paralyzed nw. oops.

getting used to the hair nw, doesnt seem as heavy or irritating nw. but i dropped 1 strand of the dreadlocks on friday! ugh. yati picked it up for me and tied a knot. smwhat look like a pretzel. wahaha. think will take it off pretty soon. but other than that, im loving my hair! have received pretty cool comments abt it. hahaaa. quite fun actually, smthg diff i guess!

am lacking of ice cubes. cos twinnie forbid me to eat them. but 1 or 2 occasionally. feel like im a drug addict. only diff is im an ice addict. sigh. thinking of them simply makes me drool. anyway... its discipleship class tmr. so fast. and ive yet to done the work. ugh... hope we can drive out later to have ice cream or smthg. im pretty bored cooped up at home all day long. makes me super lazy.

jus realised i havent enrol for sim jan intake. hope i'll get it done soon. chaaaaa~!

am back from bkk. like ive said a million times, TIME FLIES WHEN U R HAVING FUN. boo* how sad. but travelling is sure fun with the right company. tho i admit ive been pretty much a bitch, being cranky, demanding, selfish and cold at times. hope she wont be frighten horrid by me. hee.

anyway, back at twinnie's house since everythings is a really huge mess over at 171. almost couldnt believe my eyes when she drove me there earlier on. yikes. guess wil be putting up at twinnie's for the nxt few days.

super sian. felt as if im bk from holi, and that nobody wants me anymore. wth. back to a place where its so messy. toilet's nt done up. furnitures unwrapped. boxes unpacked. dont even feel like gg bk there til its all done up for me. eeks. sad too. jus wanna get it over and done with. if only we didnt have to move. feel like a nomad now la.

anyway... bangkok has been prettty awesome. loved the fact that all things are dirt cheap, and we are like living the lifestyle of the rich n famous there, giving tips and all. wahaha. didnt do much shopping tho, seriously if u asked me, things there can all be found in sgp, so nothing much for grabs. its more of the company and the window shopping that i enjoy. simply appreciating the fact for different ways of life. amaze me a whole lot.

we covered almost the whole part of bkk, went to chatuchak, pratunam, baiyoke sky, suanlom, siam centre, siam paragon, siam discovery centre, mahboonkrong, khaosan. all markets, cept for a few shopping centres. chatuchaks like super hot la, making me pek chek jus by walking. took the ferries wheel over at suanlom. loveeee it. so nice. oops. and we watched the thai girls show too. finally know what all the hype is abt. anyway, its jus girls using their vaginal muscles to perform stunts. the things they do are quite shocking. openign a coke bottle, playing pingpong, pulling out long strips of blades, bells, flowers, shooting balloons using the arrows on their vagina, etc etc, all with the use of their vaginas. scary but am taken aback at the same time. and they ended it by having sex. wth. that sure freaked me out cos we were sitting right on the first row. eeks. but anyway, its all jus for the exposure.

everywhere we go, we took the taxi, except the first day where we took the tuktuk. that was absolutely fun, like we are in a really huge toy car. haaaa. hate the noise+air pollution tho. took their train too and its so short. alamak. one thing that scares me silly are the beggars on the street. omg. one was maimed in one leg, and he was sitting on the floor and moving using his butt n legs. was a scary sight. the other fella was also maim in one leg, he was lying flat right on the floor, with a container in one of his hands. scary. sigh. and saddening too.

food was gd, had phadtai almost every other day, had jap bbq, calamari, black olive rice, and lots of fruit shakes. loved the lychee shake. had dunkin donuts and a&w too. slurps. and 2 times of popeye's chicken, during our departure and arrival. hee.

guess the most significant thing we did there to remind us the remnants of bkk has got to be my DREADLOCKS and twinnie's BRAIDING. hahaha. but the itch is driving us bonkers. and its so heavy that we cant really sleep with it on. contemplating to remove it tho its a mere 1 day. haaa but nt so soon cos i spent a bloody S$60 on it. anyway, mine can last foreveer for twinnies one only for 2 mths. got a hunch shes gonna get it out really soon. haaaa. anyway, still liking my dreadlocks tho its making me feel really uncomfortable at the same time.

overall, it has been a gd trip. relly enjoyed myself. have nv been anywhr, so am really glad abt this trip, and i must say it was pretty much satisfying. thanks to my babe who have been so accomodating and doing such a gd job of taking care of me. am so glad shes the one whom i went there with. wanna go out of SEA now. i wish...

woke up early this morn, follow the pops to get the toilet stuff, plus lights for the house! and i chose a white one which looks like birdnest! lurrveeee it. starting to see the bright side of moving house already, thanks to twinnie's analysis n encouragemt. she have been a real darling, helping me pack my stuff, cheering me in times of need, and also painting of my room. appreciate it so much. wonder what i'll do w/o her.

anyway, we are off to bkk tmr night! finally its here. hehs. but wil be gone in a flash too.

fyi, my new add... blk 171 bukit batok west ave 8 #04-359 s650171

other than that, life has been pretty much fun ever since i stopped work. love having all the time in my hands. but am so broke nw. changed 400bucks for bkk trip. broke broke broke. wil need another job soon. think im prolly gg sim jan's intake. hope i'll rem to register for it, plus collect my dip cert! ugh. suddenly life seems void. so many things gg on. cant really get hold of it all.

til then, ciao!

slumberthon at my place for the past few nites, twinnie came over. and we watched sex n the city. hahaaa damn hilarious n daft too! but i fell asleep quite a few times during the wee hours. have been sleepign at like 6in the morn. madness! zits are all popping out now. ugh. suntannign was fun too! and all the piggingg out, and durians in the middle of the night in geylang. all except when i got scolded til i cried. sobs.

my babes are gone to aussie. am gonna miss them tons! til we meet again in dec yeah. (:

its 1 more week to bangkok! so excited can! *giggles

shifting in a wks time. too bad i wont be ard. gotta start packing already. hope the loo's nice. i want a new n spanking clean one.

p.s thks june for the lovely pressies from jap!! heres to more cabbing nxt time! hee

ok.the signs are even clearer nw. 3 more days to byebye cnc! hehs. finally can take a break aft like 2 mths of slogging my ass off. no more papercuts too!

twinnie was so sweet to have thot of lunching with me at anchorpt ytd. poor gal had to go see the osteopath alone. now the trotter's wrapped up again and she is grounded at home. ugh.

it has been shopping and more shopping nowadays. and ive finally found the joy of shopping alone aft 20 yrs. really enjoy having that time for yrself, walking ard and jus enjoying the pretty sights. and i jus counted, i blew 900buckeroos of my salary on shoppg, treats, n the bkk trip. ahhhhh. madness. and theres the jap buffet on thurs, eve's bday, farewell gift for the girls. madness redefined!

sudden whirl of excitemt when i thot of gg bk to sch in sim. hmmm.

after much procrastination. sin-bkk, finnair. amazing thailand here we come! lol. 21st to 25 jul! cool yeah. jus dorothy soo n me since the rest cant make it. and my mamas mad. cos i booked the tics n paid w/o her agreeing to it. sigh. obviously i understand that its bcos shes worried and all. but c'mon i havent been to anywhr in my whole 20 yrs. wish she wil understand me too. sigh.

so we went chinatown to get it all booked. flying finnair! hw funs. cant wait already. but to be frank, im also a lil scared. imagine 2 girls al alone in foreign land. and thailand aint exactly safe. and i wanna watch thai girls show. yet im scared. haha kukus me.

and i am so damn broke now. only abt 10 bucks left. and theres zara sale. ahhhhhhhhh. how irritating! lets hope the pay come in soon, and the sale will linger on! waka.

im gonna get busy...! gotta meet up with joshua before he goes to NS. gotta meet wenjun before i leave. wanna catch up with june. gotta meet the girls b4 they leave for auzzie. gotta have a thank u party for suat. busy busy!

serene's contract ended today. sigh so sad. no more lunch partner. dont really click with xiuwen. and the new temp staff cmg in are her frens. 2 guys smmore. think i shall be like amy n stay in office n eat. mayb can diet too. hehheh. and bitch with rahimah.

God has been really gd, giving me answers as to whether to stay in cnc or nt. the signs are clear. thank u Lord. beginning to see the dark side of it all. am smhw glad tthat im having my last wk soon. no more ot. no more slogging my ass off, getting paper cuts, sarcarsm fr stupid ppl. but im sure gonna miss rahimah and the trolley auntie. keke and nice ones like phllip. hehs.

gonna go turn in soon. everyday ive been out. turning into panda soon. nights! gd wkend.... (:

twinnie is sucha sweetpea! text me n offered to help my pack my stuff. and so she came n we started packing. then again, theres not much to pack. kakaka. girl talk again til 12 plus n then we head to geylang for our supper! hehheh so fun but kinda scary too. anyway, it was a splendid night! made up for the monday blues, and all the silly squabbles & unhappy times. am looking forward to so much more.

its gonna be a longgg day at wk. hais. and i think they are gonna hire perm staff, which is making me kinda happy. nothin's concrete, but i need a break. contract's ending nxt fri, God pls show me the way! *confused again. ugh.

friday.
had our silly argument again. this time it gt worse. and i thot it was all gonna end there since she wants me to stay away. felt totally awful. can almost die in the bus la. i mean its like wtf u ask me out and yet thats how u treat me? boo*

saturday.
am so glad that things have changed for the better! way better. she was in her normal self. hehs. but i was stil scared n hurt la. dont know when she wil do it again. damn. haaaa.. and we went out. almost miscomm again during lunch. bleah. went down to chinatown to check out stuff for our bkk ttrip! so many laobeibeis there can. tsk.

then caught silent hill and its another stupid show la. then had dinner at ps. n twinnie brot me to tcc for dark devotion. super yummy warm choc cake with choc fudge oozing out! super nice can. but damn exp. 9.90. ugh. anyway ostrich concluded that its cos we've seen too much of each other! getting on each others nerves. everyday for 9 days! madness. but im glad all things are solved la. guess when frens get too close, they tend to take each other for granted.

sunday.
rehearsal for youth sunday. i must say i had pretty much lots of fun.they sure make me laugh lots! lookg forward to the nxt rehearsal where i can laugh my ass off again. haaaa. off to town with the cellies. wonder hw we are gonna go bkk tog when they are all in their own world. wondering if they wil ever have a break thru. else its jus gonna be so so WEIRD. hais. dunno how to deal with it also. bleah.

caught jsut my lack. it was lacklustre la. haaaa. but am glad they found it ok. cos i thot it was borringgg. retail therapy at mango! gt my denim jacket n a top. hehhehs. cheap thrills. HAPPY. but nw ive got no money to go bkk. ugh. wondering if i shd extend my stay at cnc. confused. boooooooo. gonna be a busyyy day! byeeeeeeeeeee