ok, im not trying to be cynical, or cold-blooded. there has been the recent big hoo-ha abt the misfortunate event of the 5 dragonboaters.what i cannot understand is the numerous no. of ppl being so upset about it when they aren't even related to them in anw. just like the princess di phenomenon. reminded me of the show"money no enough" whereby these few sisters wept buckets when they heard abt demise of princess di, and when their mother died, they couldnt even be bothered about it. mayb its just me being skeptical. smhw i feel that everyone seems to want a piece of it. being involved. attending their wake. signing on memoirs. whatever. i deem it as nt entirely genuine.

makes me wonder if it happened to a relative/whatsoever, would u be as bothered? sigh. this is so confusing. call me heartless, whatever. i don't care. but i'll sure cherish those ard me. i shall try.

and i shall skip class today and go for a hair cut. wheee. and tgif soon. sucks to have lesson on sat tho.sigh.

school has started and i was in much anticipation of it, only to be dismayed by a monotonous, uninteresting, ho hum lecturer. to think i have such high expectations of angmoh, but this guy makes me sleep. bah! the way he delivers is impossible. hypnotizing. and only this grp of girls in front are entertaining him. i thought young angmohs might be u know, engaging but i was wrong! So i started toying with rocher wrappers on the table, making hair extensions, making dummy ones which is seemingly real for mates. haha. funny shit. but yeah, thats what keeping me gg. dreading class on thurs and sat already. sigh. Am so not looking forward to it. deprive me of my beauty sleep and time i get to spend with loved ones. bleah.

on another note, went to watch my dad perf at sm singing competition. and i sure laugh my head off over his silly antics, nt forgetting all those farnie stuff that happened. the super unpolished emcees, the aunties with the blings and bk cracks instead of cleavage cracks(cos the dress were too tight), and some really impossible singers. ROFL. followed by supper with 2 unknown strangers, well frens of pops and they sent the twinie and i home. had supper with them and it was way beyond awkward. but they were rather nice la. cept that they make me feel a little small.poof.

on another note, i can hardly pry my eyes open in the morning. cant keep them fr closing. ugh. hate mornings! and ps. i dreamt of the stupid elf and the stupid pixie again.sigh. what does it mean if i keep dreaming of ppl i don't like? sigh.

22 november 2007

my mind was in a whirlpool. i was tired: physically, mentally and emotionally. somehow i feel God likes to play jokes on me. i don't know why either. some people try so hard getting things that were never meant to be theirs, some dont have to try and it just appear to their doorstep.

was reading my text for theories of comm and persuasion, saw this theory by this Bourdieu guy. and i kinda thot it ties in nicely. Quote"value is placed on products according to their social status, as well as cost and scarcity....Individuals and groups identify each other and their social positioning according to their taste, including their taste in music and clothing styles... people are not born with superior or inferior tastes in cultural products; rather, the economic system of capitalism requires disctinctions in order to operate.

the other fella critical of Bourdieu is good too. He, Baudrillard, in fact begins from a rather different perspective to that of Bourdieu. For him, contemporary culture is a deluge of signs, symbols and images. Quotes"the Princess Di phenomenon, the killings at Columbine, the love affairs of Leonardo DiCaprio-all are constituted through a new televisual culture, a new reality, a hyperreality, which has no substance and no fixed form. This hyperreality creates new forms of stimulation, new forms of arousal and demand, new forms of erratic consumption. The product becomes intensely sexualized, often through the deployment of a young female body - but this arousal is a stimulation and can never be satisfied.The consumer is prompted to act and consume; however, the deluge of images and signs is unending and the urge to consume is never consummated, never quite complete.

In Baudrillard's terms, therefore, the sign overtakes the product as the primary source of arousal and action. Because it is nothing more than a sign, a powerfully sexualized sign, the consumer can never escape its abstraction. The proliferation of signs continues to stimulate.The BMW is sexually imaged and motivates some form of consumption - if not the car, then something else. But ultimately, there is nothing there. the sign is vacant, leading merely to another sign, another amorphous arousal, another vacuous avatar.... EVERYTHING IS AN IMITATION OF AN IMITATION - A SIMULACRA."

sorry if this is too much to digest for a friday, just some food for thought... thought it all makes sense. so duh can, then why the hell am i always so caught up in the rat race? ugh.life's a contradictory.

weekend came, and gone all in a whizzz! didnt even get to enjoy it cos of the proj. many thanks to help fr demin, i think i need to acknowledge her in the reference, as well as attribute to her. hehs. so glad its done and over with, and at least i can rest for a wk before beginning on another battle which wil last me 2 weeks! madness.



work is so sianing. totally dread hvg to wake up at 7plus in the morn. i so abhor mornings! if only nights will last forever. on another note, the pops are nt in town, over to our neighbour for some unwinding. wish i was there, sigh... so gotta seek refuge at the bestie's plc. who has been really nice and make me feel so welcome as usual. but i gotta cm outta the shell and nt be so frightened of the pops. and sista.



i wanna go do smthg fun. like to the beach.(ps nt cycling pls) haha. to the zoo.night saf.science centre. sentosa. smthg to let me unwind. i need it badly. nt shopping/movie. smthg else. desperately. gg bonkers in the office. but i did ot last fri and that day fetch me a good 100buckeroos. im sucha moneyface. need to get over it for materials like plastic, never last.

today is tuesday. aka tu4si3 day. hate the sucky feeling of gg bk to work. yucks.

anw, have been neglecting this baby of mine. thanks to endless piles of notes to study. dont even have time for reading newspapers/magazines but TV yes. haha. am so glad its all over! nw have to pia for proj then can let hair down for a wk before sch starts to torture me.

on a happier note, PR paper was a breeze!wheee. mann i studied damn hard for it ok! hehs. and God was faithful too. just hope proj can do well and at least get a distinction! went out with the class peeps for lunch at super sucky place called yuki yaki. RIGHT, IT WAS YAKI(YUCKY). gross man. i really think i cant click with sm of them. fancy gg to such places for lunch. if it was nt for the bday girl, i'd have violently objected! but i have to say churning the ice cream was fun tho i totally suck at it. boo. then went for some retail therapy before mtg the bestie.

outta here now. lunchtime's over. boohohoo...

i realised that if u stop counting down, time will just fly past! haha. gd or bad i dont know. but sure is scary. eeks. and i gt a million things to complete. study for paper, proj. heng managed to chiong out mtg mins.

anws, monday was scary. i rem vividly telling my incharge at ducktours saying i cant wk til end of mth. then sudd she msg me on monday ask me why im nt at wk. ugh. and so i told her say i cant commit anymore. scary! i was so very freaked out. but ive said byebye to duck already. so its hello world kitchen. which is gd. cos i think world kitchen pays me quite handsomely. wahaha. for the kinda work produce. and i always snake during work! haha. but have to snake secretly. but waking up so early sucks!

anw, i hope to go for the getaway to msia with mumsy and twin(maybe)! i wanna gooo eat shop play let my hair down.hehs.

combed jurong west on sunday and we met this scary ahjek. wat a day to rem. he was practical stuck to the window of our car and asking for money. so scary! gdness. always gt so many scary ppl ard me.ugh

anw.gg to sleep liao. nights all.

daddy banged sm motorcyclist down ytd.sigh. cos he was so kanchiong to pick up a passenger..motorcyclist turns out to be a butch la, and she was bleeding on her head and legs.sigh. ambulance came and all. thank God daddy's ok. jus that the glass on cab or smthg broke. but must pay ard 1k plus. hais. wth.

anw. today's last lecture for PR writing! wheeee. revision leh. then hvg exam on 12nov. if u happen to see this pls keep me in yr prayers thanks. dunno whr to start revising also.

anw, jus feel like heading out to sentosa/sm places of interest to have sm fun! hahas. job is mundane but peeps cannot be any nicer. (; sigh. theres nothing for me to look forward to now. sians! i need smthg exciting/thrilling to keep me gg. mann.

work is boring and mundane and it makes me so sleepy.boo.

tgif. gonna meet the best friend tonight!wheee. aft sucha long time.mann. mayb we'll go up the dhl balloon tonight or smthg. since i can tkae it free! wheeeeeeee. haha. have been looking forward to the weekend. and mama's almost done altering my maternity dress wahaha. which means i might get to wear it on sunday.muahaha. happieee. and i got another HD n another D for assignmt! one more HD and i'll get my full 10% for participation. hehs. ohwells. am over the moon. thank God for sustaining me. honestly i feel that my work's only mediocre. writing aint that well. but perhaps like wat he said, it was more of the formatting. so there. nxt wk's last wk of lect and then exam 3 wks later. ugh. fast or what. then start another new mod which means 4 days of sch in a wk. ugh. smore sat is from 9-5.pengs

theres so little time and theres so much to do. proj, minutes... sians! sigh. hope God wil cont to grant me strength! cross fingers for a great nite ahead. have a gd weekend girlies! til then~! (:

strangely dev symptoms of gastric flu - self diagnosed. and had diarrhoea like 5 times within 5hrs. gross. so had to skip church. which felt oddly dubious. and watching teevee when the rest were worshipping God made me felt smthg funny inside me stir. ohwells. but had a gd rest at home. and i miraculously recovered the following day, which was today. God is amazing man.woots. He knew i'd promised to go wk at cuzzies place so He sustained me. thank u God.

temping there is gd. cos of gd money. 8.5/hr w/o cpf. hopefully it wil be for long, then i can kick ducktours away. hiaks. but job is mundane.but peeps are extremely nice. mayb cos im my cuzzie's cuzzie.

that aside. im so touched by the overwhelming concern from my churchmates when they knew i was under the weather! so schweeet. the endless smses. cmg in today stil. and the best part! BESTIE! spring a surprise on me with a HUMONGOUS and i mean really HUMONGOUS sunflower can! and my fav brazillian soy bun, yums walnut&raisin loaf with a crusty sweet top.yums. slurps. thanks babe. tho u prob came and feasted more than u visit me. plus always falling asleep at my plc. HAHA. anw, loves!

gathering on sat with the chua side of the familieee was great. cept they spoilt my dangdangs. am abit upset abt it.but shall mend it and restore it to its original place soon.

finally home after almost a week of seeking refuge at the best friend's house.

XOXO for picking me from sch, driving me all da way to Changi Airport so tt i can have Popeye's! so sweet. all also on thurs night all the way to little india for dimsum, and nt forgetting out happy moments at mustafa! wheee. i <3 mustafa! so glad for surprises picked up there. the mirror, and my maternity dress! wahaha. yesss i got a maternity dress! i lurveee it absolutely, much to the disgust of the bestie. but gonna alter it and make it look niceee. wheee. hahahaha.

1 good news i got a HD for my assignmt! wheee. nt exactly an assignmt, but a marked exercise asking us to state our goals for public relations and hw we're to go abt achieving it. thanks babe for the copyright idea! i bluffed and said i wanna be a PR writer for FJ Benjamin! wakaka. wat bullcraps. but i gt a high distinction anw! im soooo happieeee. praise God!

gg for 2 intvs nxt wk. one's a hospitality officer at singapore national museum, the other's a guest relations associate at singapore discovery centre, tho nt concrete yet. hehs. if all goes well and i get the offers, i guess i'll quit the job at ducktours. its not providing me well. boo. hehs.

anw, the weathers so bloody hot nowadays its driving me barmy, making me pekchek! hate it. rains of blessing pls! till then. loves

pops nagged again abt so many things today. but primary issue is the job. sigh. asked me to change job since ducktours only require me to wk on so little days. sigh. i guess they wil probably be happier if they see me less. prob rejoicing if i have to do ot etc. like HELLO. im really not taking alot of money from you am i. the money u gave me will prob be used to buy 2 dresses by smone else. fuck. smtimes u sound as tho u give me like 3 thousand a month or smthg. hais. its so saddening la.

classes tonight. dont really dread it now. jus gonna go with an open heart n learn new things. have been chatting to classmates online and its amazing the kind of things they let me in. telling me abt family issues. wah. i seriously am taken aback. guess its a gd way to start things. weird thing is these peeps aint even in my clique. HAHA. ohwells. God wks in funny ways smtimes i reckon.

now i really hope nhb wil ring me bk n ask me down for an intv. sigh. then again. im really confused. perhaps i gotta go find a full time job or smthg. kinda regretted nt gg down for intv for internship at project smitten.

too late for regrets.

school is getting better i guess. God is stil nice to me. tho i dont deserve it. i've decided to do the proj with them. thot i shd prob not outcast myself. so there. mayb i'll just volunteer to compile it or smthg.

another marked exercise today. bleah. asked us to write our goals for public relations writing, what we hope to accomplish blah. have been eons since i last wrote smthg proper. ugh. i really think my angmoh cannot. eeks. and so i crapped saying i hope to be a public relations writer for FJ Benjamin! haha paiseh, i 'borrowed' yr ideal wk place twinnie. wahhaa. and say in order to get the scoops and all i have to read more fashion mags, blah. sigh. hope i can get a credit and above for it man. tho i think not. cos my writing is like shit = many diff pieces. HAHA.

today i managed to make more frens, and also exchange emails n nos. and all. things are probably picking up. i really hope it will. sucky part is that ive gotta craft a news release over the weekend! eeks.

actually lessons are quite interesting, i kinda enjoy it. and ive got farnie classmates who smell a little strange with their endless silly questions. i pray that things wil get better and better pls!

then had dinna with pops aft lesson n daddy send us home. awwww. so sweeeeeet.

per se: twinnie babe. i know u are going thru a rough period at this pt of time. but hang in there ok. God sees yr heart and i am so positive that He'll forgive us as long as we are willing to repent. it may seem bleak at the moment, but perk yrself up, it wil all be over soon. the rainbow will be out to embrace us, and from there shall we start anew.
*looking forward to our mtg tmr for i miss u so much! hugs & love.

my heart is pounding. any moment and it will explode. ahhh fuck. not like i dont have enough worries of my own. mediocre as it may seem to be. smtimes i wish i wasnt the one who fired it all. but then again, i'd nv have imagined such to happen. im so hating all these shit! fuck. i jus feel like dying. sobs.

why cant things be easier for me. sobs. i nv wanted much. jus small little things. or even for u to be happy with me. my heart is literally throbbing. so much pain in it. perhaps i am asking too much. perhaps its all too far-fetched. or mayb theres so much which i havent perceive it to be.

and i stil get jitters before gg for classes. really hate the process of makign new frens. its so gross and fake and smelly. and i really wanna do the assignmt alone, yet am afraid that nxt time when i need projmates, others will already form their own teams. sigh. why cant God make it easier for me. why do i have to go thru all these shit. sobs.

why do stars fall down from the sky
everytime you walk by?
just like me, they long to be
close to you.

God is faithful. and im really thankful how He has pulled me thru the past few days. to begin with, first day at sch sucked. i was late n so jus sat down along the aisle with sm girl. and i didnt exactly have much chance to mingle ard la, so i felt really friendless. sigh. was a depressing start. PR writing seems pretty tough. and work on wed was nt getting any better. cos familiar ppl weren't ard, but i gt 2 malays and 1 extremely quiet guy. sigh. hate tt freaking combi. and they made me take over a counter. like HELLO its only my 2nd day, and they seemed to expect me to rem everythg so clearly. bullcraps. then made me stay til the last duck came bk. like wth lor. the 1st day there, others were all so nice to me, and i even managed to knock off super early. but sigh. i sure hope i dont get that disgusting combi again. *cross fingers*. to top it off, my phone was cut off, no access to calling/smsing cos of delay in paymt of bill. that made me even more upset. was in tears when i rang twin up using the public phone. but thankfully i was able to use it aft an hr. and twin came to visit me cos she was mtg her friend there. then she lingered ard til i knock off n have dinna tog. sweet. then went for my mtg in church and she came to pick me up to send me home to take things n bk to her plc again.

then before i went back aft wk on wed, ppl fr office asked me to be on the kermee bus the whole day on thurs cos apparently there was some shoot going on, and i jus need to sit ard and make sure they dont do anythg stupid. so i went, thank God i called the captain, else he would have missed me cos they bloody didnt told him i was cmg along. anw i was redundant la. they were shootg a commercial to be aired in India. long story la. but quite interesting. tho i hate the fact that the peeps there were 99% guys. eeks. smore either ahbangs/nehnehs. so there. but adored the fact that i didnt have to be at counter! but then again, i really do get satisfaction when tourists smile at me, or even seemed really grateful for the info provided and all. haha. ohwells. what a contradictory. anw, went off to sch really early, like an hr early. haha. and i made new friends! wheee. i feel so much happier n relieved nw man. phew.

have been helping twinnie with the publicity thingy using macromedia. first time! and im so proud of myself for the little bit of poster done! but its making us pull all our hair out. ugh. can be quite frustrating man.

and tmr's the mid-autumn celeb thingy in church. hope the ktv doesnt screw up pls God. and that the balloon can be blown. (and burst too.HAHA.)

blessed wkend ahead~!

first day at ducktours last thurs. nice peeps there. but still feel pretty much lonely tho there was a new intern with me. prob takes time to settle down and mix in. so there. almost got myself screwed when we miscalculated and forgot to charge for 6 tics! thank God we managed to get the person. else habis. anw, job scope's pretty fun. haha. required to do boarding, meaning use the mic n asking them to gather and watch a 5min video before boarding the duck, then bringing them out to the duck, then tearing off the tic stubs. haha. slack! but just started training for the sales of tickets. guess i dont like that too much. haha scary! and then i had a nice surprise from bestie! she came with her mama. oops.paiseh. and she brought me mangopassionfruit from starbucks! so sweet. hee. muacks.

then i cut my hair on fri. bohoho. guess i dont like it. too much on the sides makes my face look fat.! ugh.nvm. hope it will grow out soon.

sat was spent at church for prac then over to suntec for bike fest. went down with twin, thinking mei wil be alone but alas! eug was there. haiya. nvm. its good to do nice at times.

sunday was good! had lunch aft svc then went to vivo for mini retail therapy at daiso! hee. then we caught evan almighty which was NICEEEEE N FARNIEEEE. hehhehes. then over to clarke for riverside indonesian food...! then we walked ard, and took many silly piccas. loved the day!
hope theres more to come with babe. cos it feels like a long time since we last hung out so freely. cos there was the chinatrip, the funeral.. so there. more happy times pls babe! (:

theres classes tmr! first class! ugh.s cary again. haiyo. new frens, new projmates. hope God'll grant me with nice peeps man.

work on wed n thurs. think i shd prolly get another job. any lobangs pls tell me, thanks!

shit happens because its a shitty day. sigh. first the hairdresser, then the pops, then the internship then the bloody jeans.skunk. __ anw i gt a job. so hopefully that will make YOU happy. i will jolly well get anothr since its part time. no worries, i will work v hard to support myself. and its work day tmr. meaning i must be up at 7. sigh. the thought of it is sianing enough. ohwells. do i have a choice? guess i dont. but am just thankful enough for a job. but already fretting what i shd do during lunchtime. sobs. sigh.

i need to cut my hair desperately. cos the locks are so long, its making me feel super HOT as in PERSPIRINGLY HOT. grrrr. and chris is missing. hw nice. ahhhh. guess its contributing to the temper these days. darn.

sigh. im feeling super down today. huai4 liao1.tsktsktsk. i hate myself for being in self-denial, self-deluding all the time. i always think that things will happen that way but it always turn out the other. sigh. i really oughta snap out of it. perhaps i mean nothing after all. and mayb when i reach enlightenment, things like this will nv bother me again and i wil be a free, spirited soul. yes i will be.

i hope the embark of a brand new day ahead will bring me surprises filled with lotsa love from above. God gimme strength, wisdom too pls. thank uuu.

woohoo! the best friend is back! and we met ytd tho for a short time. adored the company. too bad she had to leave early. then this morn she was supp to acc for an intv, and go chop our hair. but rec the devastating news that her grandpa passed away. sigh. life is fragile aint it. dear if u see this, cheerie up ok, he is in a much better place now. (: and so... i had to go for intv alone! contemplated nt gg but i went anw. and thank God it was ok, tho she did asked me qns which i hadnt thot of. but anw, she say i might get the job, hehs, gonna wait for her call on sunday, and which she says i wil hv to go down for anth chitchat with her. mann i really do hope to get the job, if its according to God's plans! customer relations officer for ducktours! sounds fun already. wheee. job scope seems pretty fun too, according to her that is. just that smtimes we do get sucky customers. whatever it is, im gonna pray for His plans to reveal to me! and then took bus back, passed by substance and it was closed! got a bad feeling the shop's GONE. cos i called the plc, and the number was nt in use. sure hope i can get Chris, else i will be quite sad, no one to handle my locks. boo.

meeting jess n liz tmr. sigh. dunno what to expect also. smtimes the convo can get pretty DUH. cos they seemed to enjoy talking abt bfs and all. i mean HELLO there is much more to life right? haha perhaps i am eating sour grapes, i dunno. but like what twin says, ppl who need a bf/gf are selfish, which to a certain extent i think its true. no offence yeah.

anw, gtget outta here. blessed wkend babes.

hi. im back! with a bang. carnival on satty was a-okay. it could have been much better if fatty was around. but nvm, cos the best friend is coming back today! wheee. thats the only thing keeping me happy.boy do i miss her! sweet girl always sneaking calls every night w/o fail when her dad is in the shower. just like what twinnie said in the mail, >> in sg when we cld talk to each other at ease, we simply take advantage and perhaps reluctant to raise a topic or talk much. but i figured just nw, when we know we hav such short time, we shoot. fr this i know we do treasure each other<< man. so true.

back to carnival, reached at 12, left at 3.. dominated by whole of eng congre, feel like an aboriginal there, wakaka! bought smthg for bestie, a bag for myself, dont even know why i buy it, and mei gt a bag too. all at the bazaar. thank God managed to borrow a cam fr shazzie so can snap piccas for the bestie to see! reached there and saw HAY getting dunked.. there were the game stalls, food stalls, a mini e-zone rented playarea with a tunnel slide and lotsa colorful balls. smwhat like playarea at ikea, and also this airblown thing where kids get to jump and tumble around in. then little thaddeus gt glitter tattoos on, he was elated! didnt want to leave his chair, wanted another one done on his hand. haha CUTE. walked ard with gracie, then mag.. mama's stall was selling donuts. was selling like hot cakes. ppl buy them by the boxes! but i thot it wasnt anythg compared to krispy kreme. haha. fad i presume.

still on the lookout for jobs. today i sent 3. hopefully i get the ducktours one. seems pretty interesting. but quite disheartening nt to hear fr any so far. ugh.

bestie surprised me yet AGAIN! that sweet pea dropped me a huge ass letter in my mailbox on the night before she left. the silly girl scribbled pages of notes using the sweet dot paper from daiso in the car, put it in a huge brown envelop and pop it into my mailbox! heehee. i was grinning from ear to ear when i saw it on the table ytd. love her!

she called from PRC last night using her papas phone when he was in the shower! i was so happy to hear her voice. man. i really miss her. tho it has been just 1 day. and then she started to fill me in on details of the plc, what her dad n the uncle n auntie wants her to do there. stay in the fact, manage it, fly bk on weekends, blah blah... and i started sobbing. and even aft she hung up i was stil sobbing. sigh. i dont want her to go over there to work! its so unfair!!! sigh. and knowing this girl, this very nice girl, i know she will now turn it down, cos of fear of them nt able to find a trustworthy/known person to do the job. sigh. i wish God wil come and turn the situation around. i really hate the fact that they are deciding everythg for her!its nt fair. sigh. sobs. wish they will put their selves in her shoes and nt be so selfish! argghhh. hate them. right nw i just want her to come back to singapore. grrrr.

after weeks of living life in a frenzied state, im thankful to say it has finally come to a halt. and God has been faithful all these while, showing me how much people around me care n love, im truly touched and i can never thank God enough. esp my pops and the best friend who stood by me, and helped me so so much. (:

enrolment on tues, boringg. yawns. many seemed to be in cliques already. kinda worried abt first day of sch nw. mayb i'll bring bestie along if shes free, haha. read thru sm lecture notes, gonna do PR Practice and Writing. know i'm gg to love it, thought i aint gonna excel or anythg. right nw i just wanna put in my 100% and get a degree with distinction to make my pops proud! but eh i think kinda far-fetched. haha. it also meaans time for a job. no calls from the resumes i send, kinda disheartening, but then again, i sent so few, whats there to complain!

went to sentosa the past sunday with bestie! we had so much fun tog. was so spontaneous. caught songs of the sea, smwhat like musical fountain, cept this time we had to pay! but there were sm firewks too, lovely. caught 3 movies since beginning of aug til nw, 881, Hairspray and Ratatouille! all are nice, esp the latter! man, i really enjoyed every bit of it, the animation was fantastic, and it brought in the romantic scent of Paris, whoa, i felt as tho i was a part of the show! haha. dont mind catching a second time shd smone sponsor me. hehs. so girls, go catch it!!! great storyline too, teaches us never to give up! (((((:

bestie left for PRC this noon. boo. the moment she left, my dad scolded me.sigh. all cause of my mama's quarrel with brother ytd, then my mama complained to my dad, then my dad see my room so messy and all, so he attacked me. boo. but luckily he stopped after fixing my bed. btw i got a spanking new bed! wheee. queen size.nt brand new, from my mama's fren. she shifted, so i got a new bed! wheeee. now i can roll around like a spring roll! haha. happieeeeee.

church fundraising carnival on sat. i aint the least bit excited. perhaps like what bestie said, cos i can go, and it doesnt seem like such a big deal. if i were the one who couldnt go, i might feel the pinch of sadness too! ohwells. promise i'll get u smthg k twinnie! cheerie up, u'll be back soon and we'll go chop off our hair tog! am missing u as im typing this. awwww. anw, theres gonna be a dunking machine too, guess Nick will surely get dunked, since he's a humongous roly-poly!

i need to go pack my room, make it neat, so that the folks wil be pleased with me! cha~!