my daddy on earth is pretty lame, so am i. Its in the genes! haha... dun mean to insult him.. but this is what he told me.. in chinese.. he came down and sat beside me... here it goes...

"i've got a secret to tell you. Don't tell anyone ok?" said dad...
"ok what is it?" i replied..
"promise me u won't tell anyone?"" asked dad...
"yeah! quick tell me!" i said...
"i wanna shit..." said dad..
and he scurried off to the toilet

*SWEAT* -.-"

haha really i was like what the ....! haha... veri lame rite!!! i was laughing like siao lor! YES, thats my dad.. its him its him its him... Think sometimes he bonkers.. haha jus like me! And he even dunno told me smthg like shit has got many small pieces!!! hahaha... oh my.. at times i can't believe he's my dad...

went cine to catch eye2 with jess today! haha.. had a lot of fun and at the same time scared ourselves silly! Worst part was when i was walking along the carpark whiclh led to my house. sooooo scared! cuz there wasnt a single human being around! i was like saying in my heart, God loves me etcetc... haha can't tahan myself! Paid $$$ to scare myself! and then i realised, living on the 22nd storey might not be such a good thing after all.. Cuz taking the lift = long time. Thats not the point. The point is the whole show was filled with pretty scary lift scenes...

Usually when im in the lift, i'll jus kip on looking into the mirror.. But today, i jus kept on looking down at my feeet, praying that it'll reach 22nd storey soon! haha... Anyway, come to think of it, i think the whole thing's really silly lah...

then i had a conference talk ard 11+! its a svc provided by Starhub, then u can talk to multiple ppl.. As in <= 6.. Soooo fun! talk for 1 hr, 7mins n 8 secs! thot it was rather cool! hmmm am gonna do it again tmr! But tink my daddy's gonna scream at me when he sees the bill! haha..

i skipped econs lect this morn again...
Cuz i wanted to zzz! haha...
then cheryl came to my hse for a while
then we went to skool...
think im gonna fail the excel test...
Alamak...

Dot's chicky poxy's serious..
will need one mth to recover!
Means wun get to see her! Sob...
Doc says if she doesnt go see him,
she'll take 6wks to 9 MONTHS
to recover...!!! What the...!

There was a HUMONGOUS insect
at my balcony today!
Wanted to suntan but it was there!
scare the hell outta me!
the worse thing is that
it was carrying a HUMONGOUS
worm/caterpillar/whatsoever
under it.
FREAK me out!

Then i attempted to like push a chair towards it
so that it'll fly away.
And it worked.
but i think the BLOODY FAT insect
DROPPED the worm or whatever it is
at my ladder at the balcony!!!
Ugh.
Hope I'll never ever step on it.
Did econs tutorial.
Sucks man!
Always give us more than what we can do!
Humph!

Gonna go watch eye2 with nick n aud tmr.
Asked Grace along.
She said can consider.
And will let me know tmr.
What the ....!
Haha...

today was agm @ church.. after that went to s'pore island country club for breakfast cum lunch cum tea. Six in the evening but i hadnt eat yet.. nice place.. tons of golfers.. had prawn noodles etc etc.. then went to eat stingray, sotong, satay at alexandra rd there. haha.. then got bk home at 9 plus.. wanted to catch the eye2.. mayb tmr or what..

tmrs excel test.. kinda scared cuz i dunno tons of things.. haha.. i wanna zzz le.. but stil chatting online wid laoda dot they all.. Dot's down with chicken pox! poor thing.. gonna miss her...

God please grant me the strength, wisdom and mental power as i take my excel practical test tmr! Amen!

Was lazy to take bus to church for music prac.. Haha.. I know. Im hopeless.. So i msged Aud ask her what time go. So in the end they came and pick me up. then went church had lunch.. Wanted to study but couldn't really concentrate.. Ugh.. This time realli dead meat le.. Played 2nd keyboard today, cuz can't sing anyway, kept on coughing! So irritating! then Grace had to like teach me cuz i really suck at it.. Then aft we celeb Pastor Wilson's bday in the music room.. Nick and Aud got a chocolate oreo cake for him! YUM! haha.. but i couldn't eat much anyway, cuz of my cough.

After that we had a jamming session! haha.. Aud came down to play drums! then after a while, she became tired so she went up.. then left me, grace, eze n pastor nick.. So grace n i were fiddling with the keyboards, since there were two! So no fighting! *peace* haha.. then it was damn farnie, cuz she was like pressing some buttons, and then there were those pre-recorded music.. And guess what? She played "reaching for you" in the oldies style.. i almost died of laughter.. But i was on drums, so i jus played along.. i was thinking maybe we can book the room every fri nite and play those nightclub songs, then ask those anuties come listen, and we charge them 2 bucks each.. Not a bad idea rite? haha.. mayb i shd propose this to reverend.. haha.. im bonkers..

then we went to dinna at thomson plaza.. grace, me, eze, nick and aud altogether.. then after that we drove grace to the station cuz she's going on air tonite... then nick was driving super fast cuz Grace was kinda late! IT WAS SOOOOOOOO BLOODY SCARYYYY k... He always drive very fast, and make us scream in the car! haha! so daft rite! then he turn here turn there jus like that, like he owned the roads! and yes, he's a pastor, trust him to be doing that! haha...

ok after that, haha we went for round 2 dinna with george and adeline.. haha.. had prata at Jalan Kayu.. But the food wasnt veri nice.. they say the shop's standard hae dropped! then act wanted to go for round 3 at Adams Rd but in the end didnt lah.. haha..

So now here i am, home, ALONE. haha... then to my surprise, this person in frenster wanted to be my fren. BTW its a gal lah haha.. then i was like hmmm why on earth wud she wanna do that.. but i added her anyway.. then someone added me in messenger, turns out to be Kevin Li, my sec classmate.. haha.. this type of feeling is kinda good cuz like in one day u found 2 frens.. that sorta thing.. haha.. anyway, my fingers are gonna cramp soon haha.. type so much..

Let's pray that i'll have a fruitful Sunday k... Ciao...

Still coughing leh... Throat's super itchy... haha.. today went skool early to do project. Then finis at 12.. Was with my lms frens, and they wanted to luch at Canteen 2.. they had a few their classmates wid them. Felt sooooooooooooooooo EXTRA k! and awkward... Hated that kind of feeling.. so i left them, cuz i really can't imagine if i were to luch with em. ANd i went to look for Liz and ZW at alameen... Was sick so didnt wanna eat prata, then went to tapow chicken rice! haha.. then when i went to look for em, Cheryl and Hazel was there too! Such an coincidence! Then we took a cab bk to skool, as usual haha..

Anyway we didnt have tennis today! Cuz the skies were gloomy.. But in the end, it didnt really pour.. So Gopi jus gave us a mini lecture on BMI, heart rate etc.. Veri lag! haha... Then i walk home! ALONE! so proud of myself k.. Dunno why also.. ahaha.. Crazy already.. Then saw Suhadah on my way bk.. Stil as crazeee with tons of eyeliner on her eyes! haha... Then i got hm.. nut much.. Tmr got music prac. Think i gonna be on keyboard cuz can't really sing..

Very glad its Fri! Finally.. this wk passed quite fast.. But it means that the tests are here before i know it. Ugh... Still coughing.. Alamak... Dunno why mucus started arrriving at the doorstep of my nose... ahaha... hate it. Ugh. Think i'll have sexy voice tmr! Hmmm i like it! *Bapoks*

Someday
by Kelly Breece

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What a picture of blissfulness. In his car seat, he had turned his chubby cheeks to the window to let the sunshine warm him. With his favorite stuffed dolphin cushioning his head, and a baby-blue teddy bear in his arms, he sweetly slipped into a tranquil nap. In his sleep, however, from time to time, we heard tiny little giggles and when we looked back at him, we'd catch a glimpse of a smile for just a second, never opening his eyes. My husband and I laughed quietly as we watched our little boy in his slumber, completely unaware of anything but this peaceful dreamland that he had entered.
We turned back around and sat quietly in our thoughts on this beautiful April drive through the country. Then my husband asked me, "What do you think he's dreaming about?" We joked that he was dreaming about the next bottle of milk. The truth is I really began to ponder that question. What could an 8-month old little boy dream about? After all, he's been in this world for less than a year. His world consists of cartoons in the morning, naps in the afternoon, and playing with his stuffed animals and toys. So far, that's all. The spectrum of his thoughts is narrow. He's very limited on what he could dream about based on what he knows.

There is so much that I haven't experienced yet.
He's yet to experience the crash of ocean waves and sand between his toes. He's never seen a sunset through mountaintops in the west. He doesn't know what it's like to pick an apple straight from a tree and taste its pure sweetness. He's never fallen in love with a beautiful girl or held a newborn puppy in his arms. But ... I know he will someday. I felt a pure sense of peace at that moment and I realized that our Heavenly Father had just revealed something precious to me.

When I dream at night, He smiles, knowing that there is so much that I haven't experienced yet. But ... He knows that I will someday. I'll know things that I couldn't possibly dream about today because my spectrum of thoughts is so very narrow on this earth. I can't write about them because the words don't exist yet. But they will. I'll see all the glory that God has told us about. You'll see all His glory. He promised.

"No mere man has ever seen, heard or even imagined what wonderful things God has ready for those who love the Lord." (1 Corinthians 2:9)

Im stil sick.
Cough cough cough...
Throat's itchy.
How. How. How.

My stats is in a bad state.
I don't know how to do.
The tutor doesn't help.
Who can i turn to?
I've given up doing my work.
Don't know how im gonna take the test.

Seems like today's the last ocomm lect.
the girls bought him cake and flowers.
Looks like he's gonna be on a reality show soon.
Life is good for him.
No worries.
But parties all day long.

Wish i can be set free.
i hate studying.
Really.
i detest it to the core.

i am exhausted.
With all the work.
But i know He cares.
And He gives me rest.

But i owe Him too much.
I havent done QT for a long time.
Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
i need to get a hold of my life.
else i'll be wasting what God has given me.

im sick.
sore throat.
cough.
headache.
stomachache.
u name it.
i have it.
i hate it.
can't help it.
can't remove it.

Sigh... Sob... really hate it when i have sorethroat. deprive me of talking... Sob... And my head's so heavy... Sob...

Thank God today's presentation went well... Am thankful... But dreading nxt wk, cuz all the tests cmg up. Ugh. Veri scared, cuz my econs and stats suck big time.

Am i difficult to fathom? i think so. Always having mood swings now and then. But i can't help it leh. But i think i need to change. Or rather i need God to change me. Like what fish say, i have high external control. Means that i get swayed easily by others... i'll have to say its really true... Jus like now, im in a state of depression. Again. Haha... Hopeless me... Whats the point right? but it jus come... Sigh... Perhaps im PMSing? ha... Soooo tired... Really wished that the june hols are already here... Can't wait man..

Haven't done my QT for a veri long time. God i hope that u'll forgive me. i know i owe you too too much.

think im getting sick soon... Ugh... Hate it.. can feel the lump rising in my throat.. Oh noooo... Sigh... Pray for me if u happen to read this k.. Cant wait for June hols... Hope the presentation will go well tmr... Changed skin again, haha...

Woohoo... Finally 1 presentation down! One more tmr.. But that ain't my worries.. My BIGGEST worry is the coming stats test.. i really don't know all the probability stuff.. Ugh. how how how? i need help.. Sigh... then got ano prob.. i dunno what to choose for my IS modules... Biz etiqutte? Psychology? French? Spanish? German? Drama & poetry??? Sometimes it ain't good when u haf too many choices to choose from.. Ugh.

Yest me, grace, dot, eu, fish, suat, aud were all wearing the same gior jr tee! so nice!!! haha.. Then we ask nic to take pics for us! His phone power k, soooper clear! haha... Sooooo happy! then aft we me n dot follow em go Jurong pt.. Aud was having a manicure... with harriet.. So we went swensens with Pastor Nick to kill time! aft that we went for those real korean bbq with nick, aud, harriet, john, hawk and brigitte! haha... They are my churhmates lah, all wid kids already.. haha.. very YUMMY, but sooper ex! 8 of us there, so it total up to $200+++... Scary rite... Budden they blanja me a bit, so me and dot pay 15 oni. But now im super broke! haha... but it was FUN!

soooo zzzpy... almoz wanted to skip the 8o'clock lect again.. But i didnt lah.. haha.. hmmm gonna go take a nap soon! Then i'll be recharged!

have been wanting to blog, but time does not permit me to do so... So tied up, with projects, projects and projects.i dunno how to cope, i really dunno. I want to do my CIP, but i just dunno how. Totally clueless.

Yesterday... Thank God for seeing us thru the whole worship. It wasn't the best, but we definitely put in our best. For God. And i know He takes delight in us. Went to KAP for dinna aft that.. Talked to Jessica, sort of ketchup with her.. I don't really know her. But i'm sure it's God's will to lemme noe her.. A humble servant of God.. One w/o airs tho she's from mass comm.. Very nice sista, who's true... Am glad to know her, and am thankful for the time of sharing.. Perhaps she's reaally quiet when there are many peeps ard. But im sure God wants me to take this step to know her even better.. I pray that in the days to come, our frenship will grow!

Went for music prac today.. Quite fun, but think it ended a lil too late. Nevertheless it was fun! Party at my house! hehheh... cuz my cousin's baby is 1 yr old! haha.. so many peeps! Aunties, uncles, cousins, kids! haha.. my mama prepare steamboat! YUMMY! then the cake was soooooper huge! those retro type with a huge no.1 on it! haha... FUN! then i did that glitter tattoo on all da kiddies! haha.. hmmm perhaps it wasnt a veri pathetic sat afterall! haha... but at church i was soooper sad, cuz grace, nic aud they all going out, then i can't! but hmmm, i had my fair share of fun too!

looking forward to tmr, bcuz we're all gonna wear the gior jr. tmr! haha.. it'll be sooo fun! but its gonna be over before i know it.. And it'll be Monday liao... Sian...

the kiddies are all in my room! Ugh.. cant do my work! How? How? How? SOOOOO NOISY!!! I may jus end up killing 5 kids in one nite! Muahahaha....................................

HE WON!!!
MARK ZEE WON!
SO PROUD OF HIM!
MY OCOM TUTOR!
HEHHEH...
HEHHEH...
HEHHEH...

haha.. so glad i didn't go for the party! Thank God! Cuz jess, cera n marilyn couldn't get in! Imagine, all pretty and ready, yet had to be disappointed... Waste time too, to get there.. Soooo far away! Haha... Anyway, Donn sent me a pic of him, he looked soooo cute! haha.. Wonder if he'll win?! Gonna play for life tmr, so fast... Im soooo scared... that i'll play wrongly, that people will laugh at me.

But i'll pray, i'll pray that its God who's playing and leading the whole thing. Not us, who are mere human...

Dear God, thank you so much for giving me the gift of playing the piano. Lord i pray that you'll come and use me tmr, that i'll play beautiful music for You, and that we'll all worship You whole-heartedly. Father please come and take away all the fear that we have, of not able to coordinate well, or to sing well. For we know that You look at our hearts, not how well we sing or play. May we not care how others see us, cuz the importance and significance of this whole worship is You, and You alone God. in Jesus' name, AMEN.

so many things up my neck.
how. how. how.
tutorials, church, projects, parties.
how to survive like that
tests are around the corneer
but im still playing
SHIT.

the bachelor's party's tonite
so should i go?
or should i just stay home?
it seems fun
but yet im not very keen

Ugh. I HATE school.
i detest it.
Every single part.
Always giving me stress.

Tennis tmr.
How? Heard he's gonna test one by one.
Ugh.
Scared.

Eve got tix to the Cleo Bachelor's Party at Zouk on thurs.. Guess im going! Didnt want to but the whole class's going, so if i dont i'll be missing out a lot of fun! Then they going Hendrix aft that, but dun think im going.. not those cheonging type! haha...

Changed my blogskin again.. haha... cuz i concluded i didnt like the bubble one anymore. Think this is rather cute.. u may disagree but stil i like it! dreading school, looking forward to Saturday. Im always like that. Hate school, projects and everything.

Super tired, cuz u r not suppose to zzz well in camps anyway haha.. wanted to snooze in the aft yest, but in the end i didnt. Then now im really really exhausted.. Tmr's lecture at 10.. Mayb im gonna skip it. Haha..

was a smooth day... til i went to prac for fridays life. I WAS SOOOO PISSSSEDDDDDD!!!!! Some people are just so tactless, straight-forward, irritating, made me so stress! i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. Is not my fault that i can't play that well. Nobody's perfect. You can't expect me to be like you. We're both DIFFERENT. Now im all stressed up, livid, etc. I can't help it. I really can't.

Dear God, i pray that you'll take away all these anger thats in me, and that i'll love those who are unlovely. I know its going to be difficult, but with Yr strength, i know i can. Amen.

slept at 5 this morn... kinda early i guess.. haha.. Grace was snoring soooo LOUD! those deep, snorting snores! haha... Totally zonked out! Then woke up officially at 12pm.. Hehheh... Most of the peeps gone already, only left eze they all. Then when i washed uo etc, they were all gone! So left me, grace, dot, eu and geoffrey.. Was about to leave and it started raining.. So waited for a while... Then eu drove here so she drove bk hm wid her sis n brud.. Think they nid to packet food bk for their mama..

So me, grace & nick went for lunch at Toa Payoh.. Aud brot her mama for appointment so she wasn;t with us.. Spent some time talking n eating.. Then i think Grace got too much zzz, Nick got too little, or rather no zzz at all, so they were talking really funnily. Like zao siah... (out o f tune!) haha... think im gonna do my tutorials, UGH. then gonna take a nap!!!

hehheh... im at church now.. Jus finished watching Passion of Christ. I had to say i was really distracted, or rather cuz the lang was smthg i din understand. Makes me think and reflect. Of how God did on the cross for us. It sort of like hit me right in the heart. Things like im not worthy. And it was really a price too big to pay.

Today i was damn bored and tired. had insomnia last night. ugh. so today im like a walking ZOMBIE! then all 3 sessions of Alpha made sooooo lethargic. But bbq was fun! YUMMY! Lots of great food and i didnt have to move a finger at all and food was served to me! haha.... Of cuz muz thank the guys and the NYGs... haha.. This dorothy say im acting cute. What the...! haha...

Grace is like a pig lor. DOZED off when we just started the show. haha... Anyway, she came so late then jus to zzz... Whats the point right? Duh.. Perhaps jus to like show face? Whatever.. Anyway not in a veri good mood today. PMS??? haha... Gonna skip econs lect! hehheh... My all time favourite activity~! haha...

Quite tired but yet energectic... haha... Think im bonkers!!! UGH. Got a new testi from Rae..! haha think its too flattering!

bubbye... for now...

IM FREAKING BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH. Tons of tutorials and projects to do.. But im jus not in the mood! HELP! This is a SATURDAY! Sigh... im so lazy... im a slacker... Just wanna have tons of fun... Oh no... Damn sian leh... got music prac later but starts at 2. Maybe i can go church early and chit-chat wid em? After all im sooooo bored... Ugh... Hate school... Sucks man!

Grandma Saperstein and Grandpa Rabinowitz are sitting on the veranda
of the old folks
home rocking back and forth in their rocking chairs. Grandpa
Rabinowitz rocks forward in
his chair and says to Grandma, "Fuck you!"
Grandma Saperstein rocks forward in her chair and says to Grandpa,
"Fuck you too!"
Grandpa becomes very much excited and shouts, "Fuck you!" swinging
more forward
again.
Grandma remains graceful but leans forward and says, "Fuck you again."
This goes on for about 10 minutes. Finally Grandpa says, "You know
something,
Grandma, this oral sex thing ain't all it's cracked up to be."

the weekend is finally here...

am i hopeless? Skipped econs lecture cuz i was tired on Monday. Skipped OB as usual and went to Venezia's on Wed. And today, i skipped tennis and went to Ikea with Liz and Zhiwei. Am i beyond cure? I don't know... But im really slacking... Sigh... Niway, had a fun time today.. Laughed til peng ah.. Met my lms project mates to discuss bout proj and we had so much fun laughing.. ahhaha... That was part 1. Part 2 was even worse, with Liz around. She thought me a new hokkien term, "JEK TEOH"...(fractured) And then i kept on using it on everything. And it send her laughing till she cry! haha...

Then we ate da hotdog! Sooooo nice.... aft we were about to leave so i pass Liz my drink. She threw it away, thinking that i don't want it! Ugh... haha cuz i guess the dustbin was beside her and she misinterpret that i wanna ask her to dump it! haha... i was realli hungry so i asked ZW to help me buy one more hotdog. and he was soooooo blur! hhaha! Guessed what he got me??! he got me another drink! UGH... haha... great communicating skills eh?! hhaha...

it was a fun day lah... finally the weekend is here.. haf been waiting really long for it! hehheh... its my church's Alpha weekend on the Holy Spirit.. So we gonna haf a bbq n a sleepover at church! so excited! haha.. but think Grace not going... Sigh... Part of the fun is gone... Then dorothy gotta work... Ugh.. so even if she come it'll be in the night... But still i wish both of em will come.... Then i wun be so sian...

Gonna skip skool on mon, since there's only econs lect.. Cip's e-learning... Hmmm.. then i can spend more time playing in church! hehheh... can zzz longer too! Gonna go shopping for bbq tmr with nick and audrey after music prac haha... Gonna be fun! Can't wait!

God, i pray and hope that u'll bring Grace, Dorothy and Eunice to da sleepover, and that You'll come and touch each and everyone of our lives. Please protect us from the evil one, and may the Holy Spirit be with us and guide us in all that we do. And i also wanna pray for a great time of fellowship with all the brothers and sisters who'll be going.. Thank you Lord. Amen.