the best friend has left for Haikou aka Hainan Island! my hometown too~! hehs.

and i miss her so! )':

back since she's nt around, I've got to be much more independent, cos I am relatively quite independent already, HAHA.

it's friday today, did u realise? don't u think the speed at which time flies is scary? sometimes i wish i had 36 or even 48 hours a day. i wonder how time escapes when we aint noticing.

proj mtg tmr and im so not looking fwd to it. just wanna quickly get it done and over with. hate all the conflicts and politics. eeks. why can't we all just work in harmony? sigh. but 9 girls is too crazy already. ohwells. i just want sunday to come la! so can relax & chill. hoping to play abit with Thaddeus and the other toddlers. perhaps i shall go get smthg nice for Thad! wheeee* at least i have smthg to look fwd to.

ok, gotta get my ass back to work already!

GOD is so good. He made me sooo busy with work such that time passses by so quickly and that i won't miss the best friend so much. (:

Maundy Thurs, Good Friday, Easter Sunday all came and gone. in a whizz! sadness now.

spent lazy fri at novena. once again, we jetset to a new place. and the cool thing was we attempted to walk back from novena to babe's hse. but towards the last leg, i was dead tired and so we took a bus. but we walked for a whopping 1.5hrs at least! what a feat!

lazy sat, wanted to do those chips dipped in choc, but as usual, we didn't succeed! HAHA. what's new? we're jinxed. so in the end we pack the room, and took out all the farnie clothes! and decided those that are going to the flea mart.

bad start to a day, but a good end to the night.

played for svc ytd and as usual, i screwed up once again. sigh. couldn't pass my own test, and so i broke down, yet again. but im fine now, will pick myself up and emerge stronger. am gonna let no one get me down.

had combined cell after, and topic was on sex. which kinda tickled me, hearing all the responses from the young ones. ! haha. so cute.

then we zipped to ridgewood for waffles and ice cream at Haato! new hangout place again.nice. but ice-cream and waffle was no show-stopping.

then zipped to Great World, park the car there, and we took a bus down to Paragon for Soup Spoon. i seriously think we spend too much on food. every meal seems to be so luscious and exp! we gotta start saving for rainy days! boo.

smtimes i get very blurred by the pack of dirty lies and secrets. i wish u would enlighten me.

the weekend was so short-lived! tsk.

i really enjoyed it! i really did!

pluck and summon all my courage, went to find bestie's pops at coffeeshop to hitch a ride home with them. thankfully, geoffrey was there to entertain me! HAHA. God has it all planned out nicely. i just want to try for u babe. and i promise i will work much harder. (: then afterwhich me, twin, and her mama went over to ikea for sm shopping! heehee. Mamasoo got a blender at a cheap deal, she seemed pretty exhilarated.! then we settled for dinna at Anchorpt! yummy pasta. cont shopping at the factory outlets there, got a top for mama! hee. and yeah, she liked it! and got another nice bag which was absolutely gorgeous! both twinnie and i loved it! and we gonna share share SHARE! (: went over to ikea only at 9pm, then walk ard till 11. got shot glasses, thought of making smthg nice for naomians for easter! also got the pretty white flower light! cos was gg at a song, only 7.90! then gt a nice laundry bag stand, gonna use it to store my bags and wrapping papers!


then saturday had music practice, then went brunch with twin and gracie. walked ard. then watched Rule #1 which wasnt too bad la. then had dinna the homed.

sunday was spent in town n city hall, filled with boisterous laughters, n great company! i laughed so much my stomach hurt! wakaka.. then had a spontaneous stayover at babe's plc. supposed to send me home but i decided to stay! lazy to get butt gg home. super farnie laughing matters while washing up too!! hahaaa.my partner in crime!

the above was drafted before lunch.

now after lunch, the feeling is entirely different.

my toothache is back.sobs. its the root canal coming back to haunt me once again. sigh. i really cant bear the thought of those endless sessions at the dentist, each time a painful experience. that is nthg. but the money to be spent is just too much for me to bear. sigh.w hy cant things be easier for me?

sobs.

once again, the weekend is here, right before my eyes. i waited forever for this day to come, but when it does, i'll let it slip past w/o even knowing it.

i wanted to be the editor for the magazine proj.but sm others jus self-volunteered. it's like yr english is so bloody lousy and u still wanna be editor? *rolls eyes. seriously, what is the world coming to? sigh. i know i might portray some kinda arrogant, ignorant, dominating bitch, but honestly all i wanted was for us to get a fantastic score for our proj! sigh. i really hope God wil make things wk. some titles they came up with for the food magazine are unbelievable. super stupid and lame. i mean, cmon, INTAKE as a title for food magazine? u seriously got to be kidding me. let's hope and pray they will like the ideas i have!

or mayb let's pray that God wil change me and make me a more cooperative person, less of myself and more of others. sigh. so confusing la! tsk. i hate it! GRRRR.

i need to catch up on my beauty sleep! have a blessed weekend girls! relish it while u can~!

XOXO, girl with endless unlaundered secrets* winks.

this is what i want. like NOW. grrr.

eeks! its monday. my most dreaded day of the week. hais.

decided to take 185 to wk today. cos it's only 1 stop from home to wkplc! can u believe it? just one stop! but must walk abit to jurong east to take. still, its darn fast but to my dismay, i waited 10+ mins for the bus! so was late! but only ard 10minutes. still, it means i have to go out earlier if i wanna take that bus. boohoo.

ytd we sang to our hearts content at kbox, so as to fulfill dot's wish. HAHA. no more kbox til 6mths later pls!

was feelg very pekchek,pissed n down during cell.s igh. i desperately need to find another cell. or even another church. i know i can blame no one for my spiritual dryness. but im really v tired towards this entire issue. sigh. perhaps its time i move on to better places where i can do greater things for God? hmmm.ugh. i don't know la, grrrr.

friday night at home. was eventful, even in that tiny little space. the brother, the mother. sigh. smtimes i wish she didnt give birth to him. real hateful thing. trust such words to come out fr his mouth. sigh. poor mama. i do hope God sees it and does smthg abt it. i dont like it when she gets hurt like that time n again.

its back to sch tmr. supposedly looking fwd to the module. but the thot of the proj > to produce a 64-page magazine is giving me the heebies jeeebiess already! ))):

i want the weekend!!! ))):

its the weekend today!

yesterday marks the 4th twinniversary! haha. yup. 3years and our psychic powers are brewing up a storm! heehee. had a very nice dinna at pasta cafe, courtesy to bestie. then we zoom zoom zoom to mustafa where she grab some food for stockup. stop having just oats babe.! conspiracy. u are ANOREXIC.

anw, as i was saying, its FRIDAY! friday leh! my fav day of the week can. cos we are so gg to mediacorp's wardrobe sale tmr! and theres breakie at macs, i do hope we can wake up.(haha) its just gonna be lazy and warm saturday out! i sure hope the sun will not fail us tmr. then we can perhaps go kayak with the elijahs! and snap! if m.mil cant make it today, i shall have a nice rest at hm first before heading over to babe's pad. anyhw, we tried us this really cute pjs from cotton on. made us look like we got pink measles! so cuteee~!

blessed wkend.

by afternoon, i learn to let go and let God, knowing that things are beyond my control. i learn not to take things too hard, i learn to forget unhappy things.

it felt funny having my pops over at the office cos they needed ma's help to tailor sm uniforms. haha. nice time showing them ard, introducing them to colleagues. hehs. feels strange at same time, but well, strangeness in a nice way.

was a bad morning la. damnit. gt onto the ever packed 189 with a million ppl in the bus. was standing all the way to the front and when the driver did a swerve, i lost my footing and stepped on smone. i pity that person. can u imagine having yr foot stomped by an elephant? ouch. that hurts.

and it doesnt get any better when i thot of things that made me unhappy. liar. who ain't a liar? smtimes i wish i can let go and see beyond, and let the good ride over the evil. the more i scoop, the more yummy stuff i discovered, but these yummy stuff are so cloying. i wish i hadnt even scoop them up in the first place.

and just when i was thinking abt u, u appeared. period.

its tootsday darling! and i thought it was monday. wakaka. cos i had monday off. which was shiokness, minus sucky fact tt i had to chiong my assignmt. thanks girl for helping me with it, sharing the burden as if its yr proj too. thanks. can nv thank u enough la. for staying up till 5plus in the wee hours with me. am thankful. wkend. zipped ard again in the cute little red button of franc, haha! went to Great World macs and spent hours on that dumb ass assignmt. bleah. afterwhich we saw leap years!! nice. so lomantick i tell u. sigh. but smwhat a dream la, as if such happen in reality. lazy sunday aft svc, hm again to pia the dumb assignmt. lazy monday, i took leave! shiokness man. then went submit assignmt (Like FINALLY) then to btp, had pizza! slurps.then went grocery shopping and damn we keep bumping into ppl we dont exactly wish to bump into. so we made a quick exit. wakaka. and i got some nice colorful bags! with stickers. happy leh. cheap thrills!!! but the going home part was scary. we bumped into smone whom kinda resembles what KASTARI might look like! prior to that when we were walking to the bus-stop, sm lady was like running to btp. and when we turn to look at him, he too, to our horror, turn back, stopped walking and stared at us! and he was clad in dark clothes, with a cap pulled over his eyes. scary. and kinda walking with a slight limp. ahhhhh. we couldnt really identify him, so didnt call the police. but he sure is scary.

sigh. i know im getting over-paranoid. but who can i blame? the fact that a terrorist is roaming the streets and can just appear anywhr with a bomb is driving me bonkers. i sure hope and pray he be caught soon. think i'll have nightmares with his face passing every nw and then. grrrr.

its back to work today, and 1 week of break before school starts again. am gonna make sure i party hard!

notice the updates and all? perhaps ive taken a liking to blogging. or maybe im too bored.

as i was walking up the stairs for lunch, the sunlight was unbelievable awesome. adel said: wah today's sun very strong eh". then suddenly i had this wish of being able to soak up the sun, to be out there, having fun, heading to the beach, heading to the pool. i really do miss those times where we could do such so freely. of cos i need to work and support myself, but boy do i wish for say a week of break! then again, its prolly 1 more mth(max) at world kitchen, and its byebye WK, hello happy days again. which also means tt i need to get a new job. hais. life really is a paradox. smtimes i dont even understand why the necessity for the passing of each day. ):

i had a great time of unwinding ytd. we zipped ard the sub-urbs, went for prata at Fongseng, went for indian rojak at west coast, nostalgic i tell u! miss my sec sch days already. )': then we rounded the trip off with a stop at west coast park. and we had so much fun there. ridding, sliding, climbing. and we actually saw FROGS amidst the sand! madness. 3, THREE FREAKING FROGS. scary leh! they were like camouflage, cant really spot them. was so scared i'd step on them. eeks. and RORO actually said they might be PRINCES in disguise. like wth. say if i kiss them mayb the frog will turn into a prince. that's what u'll get when u have frens reading too much into a fairytale. haha. WAKE UP! anyhw, there's an extra 2 frogs for u to choose from also. so there. we'll take 1 each and leave the remaining one alone.

on another note, i haven't get started for the project. and this time, im really really clueless as to whr to begin. cham already.

revival mtg. do hope i'll get sm sort of encouragement in a way. bye and have a blessed wk ahead.

may friday be here soon, lest i smell it! (:

i scream "modular break!" wheee. its overrr! and i get 2weeks of R&R before another mad frenzy awaits me! but then, i'll be lookg forward cos its the Magazine Writing and Production module! smells like fun, albeit the sucky fact that i probably gotta do tons of writing. still, im gonna go have a wild time. had the test(40%) ytd. thankfully, it was relatively alright, cos i eh, uh, didnt exactly study for it! heehee. and once again i left the earliest. really do hope my classmates don't think im proud/snobbish or anythg.

weekend was goot! i had fun with loved ones. (: and it was so justified for i was thirsting for it like a dog. HAHA. supp to go swimming at delta on fri but we didnt made it in the end. day was turning dark, started drizzling. so we settled for a hearty, healthy, wholesome meal at tiong bahru mkt! Roro finally had her SHARKS MEAT lor mee.

saturday: went for lecture in the morn, and left shortly after to rescue Roro from the clutches of the pixie's sista. who can be equally toxic.! haa. its so obvious that she was so crestfallen when she saw me. oops. haha. and i actually felt good abt me. man, i know i can be a real bitch at times. then aftward mei, dennis n weijian had a spin in twinnie's daddy's new car! a spanking red mazda 2! heehee. so funns. i think i've smwhat fallen in love with that cute little red button.woots. afterwhich we zip ard town with gracie cos she needed to buy sm groceries etc! and it was retail therapy yet again! last week itself i gt 5tops and a dress. scary. i need to STOP spending and start saving for rainy days i know. and then gt eyelash curler from daiso, plus those cute little paper gift bags! and plum mints! then there was sale at chomel, which came as a shock cos we actually stepped in there. haha. it was a off-our-usual shop kinda thing. but they actually had sm really pretty tops and dresses, all going at a song! whee.e a fruitful day with cheap thrills.

svc n cell on sunday. then we caught JUNO, which i found very endearing and heartwarming. discourses were all so witty and entertaining. niceee. (:

and its back to work ): and back to assignment 3, back to revival mtg tmr. period of lent.

the very much sought after/craved for/awaited F-R-Y-D-A-E is finally, i repeat, FINALLY here! i have 0 idea why, but i seriously have been looking forward to this day. probably bcos the week was a tiring one, zapping and draining all energy off me. and perhaps the previous wkend was insanely packed with a million worries. oh wells, im just glad its friday once again. tho its gonna be super short-lived. stil, im glad. and i can at least let my hair down a little, party and rest.

i love shopping. shopping does wonders. its makes me exhilarated. its like all the happy endorphins starts swimming around in a frenzy. shopping is so therapeutic. be it a small piece of sticker, a bday banner, a silly octopus toy, a dress, whatever. i really derive lots of satisfaction by it. sigh. much to contrary, christians aint supp to be caught up with all these materials of the earth. ohwell. i dont know. guess i will try not to be overly obesessed with it. just wanted to emphasize the kind of joy.

that aside, i need some encouragemt for my horrible / almost non-existent spiritual life. i need a little boost and a little prayer. it seems so tough to even find time. everyday's about work and school, and playing a little. smtimes i wonder how i can have the cheek to leaf thru a magazine, or flip the papers yet am always procrastinating and pushing God's word aside. i need to repent, and start doing smthg soon. otherwise, i can forget getting into the kingdom.

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some people try so hard to get things they want but often they dont get it. some without trying, it just comes to them so easily. ): food for thought. sigh.

time for an update! its sch n wk this week, in betweens sandwiched with mini shopping time! gt nice tops over at westmall! so chio right dot! haaa.prob wanna go exchange sm dress today.hmm. that is if the bestie doesn't want it.

did lotsa manual labour, packing those leftover stock the company had, to be distributed for a whopping 3 hours. madness. can feel the ache today. ugh. tired! am thankful its thurs already. i need a breakkk! riyoki has gone home, home feels kinda empty. haha. i've forged a bond with that velvety chinchilla for about 1mth or so. hehs.

i really do appreciate the fact that smone much more seniority that me seeks my opinions for her nail colors, shoe color, clutch bag, etc! sounds v bimbotic i know but i like it tt way. helpg each other out regardless of age or whatever. (;

this is the 4857490818391832th time im gonna emphasize, i want a well-deserved break! a short getaway, an escapade, roadtrip, cruise, jet set to anywhere! pls bring me, pretty pls. )':

dear all, it's monday! another brand new beginning wk to challenges, work, school and evermore grace from above.

i haven't been the most faithful to God, havent been doing my quiet time for what seems like eons, and i haven't been praying much. but really, GOD has been ever gracious to me, making me learn to be thankful in all circumstances. His love is really UNCONDITIONAL.esp pertaining to my presentation on saturday. i do not deny it was freaking scary, and had butterflies in my tummy, to the extent that u feel the ache and wanna go bomb, which i did in the end, jus slightly before my presentation. but i so felt the peace from God during the whole 3mins of presentation!! wheee. hee. can u imagine talking in front of some 50ppl? was really horrifying, but i managed to breeze thru it, and even earned a 'interesting' from my lecturer! woohoo. i was pretty sure i was the first one he ever said such, and boy am i grinning fr ear to ear when i heard that. woots* but really am thankful to God for providing such a great fren, dot! that girl gave me all the great ideas, found all her grpmate's previous projs and emailed me so that i didnt have to do much research. and all those wk she sent me were distinctions! thank u so much babe. for staying up with me at macs til about 3am on fri night, for being with me, giving me soooo much support, for initiating to bring yr laptop, thumbdrive, lending it to me, being so involved as tho it was yr presentation, and for helping me so much in the entire proj! i am so ashame when i thot of the times when i snapped at u, and got irritated and pekchek, and cranky with u. i apologise here. but really, u the best babe! XOXO (:

other than that, wkend was pretty awesome. tho super shagged! only caught 3 hrs of sleep on fri nite. went over to ahmei's house for minibbq n steamboat on the hot plate! hee. had fun with eug,mei,suats n twin. was a cosy affair. i like it this way. i think i kinda prefer the "the less the merrier" idea. haaa.fun time of sharing and cooking, and we were all stuffed to the brim, busted! had custard apple too, was absoyummilicious! then gt angbao from mei, sm goodies she brought bk for us fr taiwan and nice shades, tho twin's one was kinda SONG2. still, we had fun! then took the 1130 66 from her pad to twin's plc then i took a cab home cos was so freaking lethargic. boo.

ytd we brought charmaine n mooncher out and i almost want to kill them when they couldnt come to a concensus as to where to have lunch. damnit. i always tell myself nv to bring them out but smhw the heart will soften, and we'll say yes, and regret soon after. wth. life's a contrary bitch la. but really wanted to strangle n kill them! grrr. thanks babe, for being with me and staying on, and taking charge. sorry for blowing my top off at u. ):

went hm early last nite,slept from 7-10, haha! i need it very much. am feelg more refreshed n recharged now. and my mama is bonkers la. gt sm dinner tonight and keep asking if i gt clothes she can wear, and keep disturbing me when im trying to fall asleep! tsk. but im glad we can share clothes!!! haha tho she said she aint sure its a gd thing or not. cos either 1) she put on weight or 2) i lost weight. but cant be the latter so haha not so gd for her!

anw, blessed wk ahead babes (:

ello, happy well-lantern's day! Mei u bee more row man thick, sack sea, bee tea full, loaf lee n at track teeth. heehee.

i had an awesome pre-valentine's/frenship day surp from adifferentdot. hee. went all the way to get a rose from holland v fr me. hw sweet. (: not forgetting the balloon and super cute card! such an apt card, with one of our fav songs "you light up my life" what a nice surprise! hee. and God made it happier by giving me another DISTINCTION for my theories of communication and persuasion module! wheee!

hee and i shall proudly attach a pic of it! am so thankful to God for making all these possible. juggling work with sch hadnt been so smooth n easy but He made it happened. am glad.

back to work on tues, and have been getting angbaos!! hee. tues from adel, wed from angie n beeling, thurs fr cuzzie, and today from sophia n belin. wahahaa. so nice ya. sweet gestures.

and being the sweet me, i gt nice little boxes of chocs and gerberas for the classmates and the bestfren! all in diff hues of pink. i luv gerberas! but i really abhor the auntie's attitude of hurrying me when i had to do the wrapping myself. HELLO u are supp to do it for me, im the customer lor! grrrr.made me so kanchiongfied. bleah.

went IMM during lunch ytd, grabbed all the pressies. was madness. but really, God is like 'scary' at times. He made things which seemed so far, so impossible, POSSIBLE! God really hears our wishes and prayers, no matter how insignificant we feel they are. so there!

anyhw, 29feb marks the last day of work for me at worldkitchen. shd be quite confirmed. hmmm. mixed feelgs. ugh. means i have to get my ass to start scouting for a job. new changes, new faces. damnit, hate that kinda phase. eeks. but for now, im elated its friday. tho i have classes tmr and the sucky 3-min presentatn. just pray that i wont talk at warped speed pls.

im dying for a holi, a short getaway, an escapade, a roadtrip. whatever.

was blogsurfing, happen to bump into this girl's blog which i'd thot was permitting private viewing but apparently some updates are still up. her life seems to be sooo funn! mann. and she is so pretty and she has gorgeous clothes! how green i got. was thinking, looks sure mean everythg eh? it is so easy to get things in yr favour. mann. i always wonder and ask God why i aint born with the perfect set of teeth, the highest of nose bridges, the megawatt smile, the sparkling eyes. but i realise, damn, ive nthg to complain. and who am i to complain?

that aside, CNY has been amazing so far. it has been mtg of same grp of relatives for the past 3 days but i really really had a good time. its really smthg to be thankful for. for keeping us so closely together after all these years. despite rare meet ups. they make the most significant ppl in my life. but of cos am refering to mama's side. daddy's side are just more distant and aloof. i just enjoy the discourses btw my ma, aunt and cousins. always so funny! *warm and fuzzy feel* despite certain times of "dunnowhattodoness" cos my aunt tends to be so enthu abt sharing how good God is in her life that she smtimes dunno when she shd stop. i mean its good that she's so hyper abt it, but smtimes we gotta tone it down a little, and prolly be a lil more sensitive to others ard us? i dunno. i do applaud her for ever being so open, so awed by God's grace in her family. but smtimes she need to brake! hehs.

anw, i learnt not to complain la. cos grass always greener at the other side. and i reckon there will be no end to it. anyhw, i seriously think i've put on weight, and in accordance to wat my relatives said, i've double confirmed it. ugh. i really need to shed some pounds else i'll turn into 200POUNDS BEAUTY SOON! hahahaa...

and once again, time flieeeeeeeesssssss when one is hvg fun. its sat alreayd, how fast. 2 more days and im back to sch, back to wk with nthg to look fwd to,damnit. and theres the mass comma party which im so nt lookg fwd to, so not thrilled. and i tot of giving it a miss. ohwells we'll see how it goes tmr.

i jus play 1 round of mahjong and here i am just back from it and they are laughing at me! ahhh. paiseh can. u all laojiao i only new bird, amateur hor. tsk!! bleah. and i gotta wait til ma finish mahjoning with cousins til ard 3 then dad come pick us.bleah. tired.. i wanna zzzzzzzz.

til then, u babes cont to have lotsa fun during this festive season! rem take gd care of health too! tata~! (:

hey babes, an advanced Happy Chinese New Year!

let out a long post earlier on but thot i shall not publish it. since it's over and seriously like duh of me. but anyhw, CNY is here! which means i get to rot, sleep and eat til like theres no tmr! wheee. am so happy now. i really do need the break badly. poof.

and im so gonna kapok some magazines back to read and kill time! but oops, i never return them all the time.ugh.

and oh, wenjun, if u happen to see this, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRL! am so sorry it slipped my mind. i really did want to wish u, but kinda tied up and just didnt remember. perhaps alzhemier came a little too early. haha. still, i hope u had a blast with yr loved ones, which i think u did, esp the lorries yeah? hee. take care and have a blessed CNY girl, and lets meet up soon!!! i promise i wil plan ok hehs.

bestie and i colored our hair. i dont like mine and she doesnt like hers. hahaha. wth. was a bad move. but heck la! just for the fun for it. and we always have such great psychic powers that its scary. in same color combi yet again! ahjek. hahaaa.

wheeee, am so happy, nthg can spoil my mood i hope. happy cny once again! (:

and 1 week later, here i am, giving a little update, we didnt so much screw the presentatn as we thot we'd did! God is amazing, cos He gave us a surprise, we got a DISTINCTION! wheee. tho others had HD, but im thankful enough!

and i got a DISTINCTION for my 1st module, PR Practice & Writing! woohoo!! first mod and this is my grade, im hairpeeee~! what a great kickstart to sch n 2008! (: cannot be any happier. and after submittg my remaining assignments tonight, im officially a free bird!! break for 2 wks! yay! happieeeeeee..and so i can enjoy my CNY in peace. thumbs up! but its only tues, and work is a bore! but gonna head to chinatown tmr so am lookg fwd!

.loves