no retail therapy but more n more binging
like i aint fat enough, haaaa
town today was awesome, just tt i didnt buy anythg, sob.
walked with lizzie til tanglin mall again
jess went watch movie with marilyn...

my results
aaa70/100
ec 77/100
om 31/50
pmkt 43.5/50
ep 90/100

im happy, and thankful. but i need to wk so much more harder on my aaa and om... pqs paper was ok, think i shd be able to pass. Ecd was a sucker. damn. so bloody difficult, wondering if i can sail thru it..

was blog surfing yesterday, and saw many depressing posts, all about having lost their papas/mamas, and it was really tear-jerking... come to realise that i should nt take things for granted, but to really cherish my parents and appreciate all the things they have done for us.

one particular one

- why is life filled with so many obligations? obligation to tidy my house, obligation to take care of my brother.. obligation to inject... medicine into my mother....
that long syringe... the worry of my mother's wounds being affected if i didnt wash my hands
properly... the tube that is partly inserted in her body and partly outside for me to inject the medicine to it.

the feelings of pain when i injected the medicine into her.. the tiredness she has... and the long days of not seeing my sis ard at home just because she cannot accept the fact that my mum is down with sickness... and i have the obligation to do the part of injection in sec 3.

"yesterday is yr chinese birthday, she died after that." the words that i heard fr my godma when i reached the hosp too late. the pain that i've felt have been tormenting me till now, she had waited.. after that..

i really wish i had the chance of sharing the gospel with her. she need the Lord. to get a new lease of hope, hope that is rooted in the wonderful acts of God in creation and history.

i L.O.V.E. walking.