dont ask me why. i know 5 is a small number. but at this point of time i only need 2. or even 1. or mayb 0. i don't know.

it has been bad. and i guess u are right. i am really cranky. prolly due to the fact that my period havent come since like 2 mths ago.

schs starting tmr,sj have gone to the states. i have absolutely no mood to go to sch at all. atm make up tut from 3-6, which means i have to go get the laptop from wj. which means 8.15 and i have to leave house to go get it from wj. this is madness. im sinking into depression again. really hate sunday nights, always feel so down, so emo, esp in the night. and its gonna be a damn busy wk for me. human comm presentation, wisp presentation, IP proj submission. all in 1 week. seriously have no idea how im gonna survive it. jus cant wait to graduate fr np.

on the good note, ive been spending quality time with ppl whom i hold close to my heart. guess at the same time i'd need to restore some broken relationships. its gonna be hard, but at least im gonna try. the future seems so obscure. and nothing is forever. now, isnt that sad.

and there are gonna be endless changes in 2006. transitions. new environments. new faces. sigh.perhaps i shouldnt even let my mind wander to that stage, since i dont even know if i'll still be around by then.

wallowing in self-pity. again. damn. i am so hating it.