sobs.
i misss ah mei.
i miss ah dot.

i wanna go sydney.
i wanna go sydney.
i wanna go sydney.

sobs.
sobs.
sobs.

haha.. two more days and im bk to biz hell.. went wild wild wet the other day! it was sooper fun man! tho things were kinda screwed up, and the f-word came out. didnt mean to but the stupid guy was so damn rude.. lotsa peeps, so crowded! 14 of us there, basically Naomi n Elijah cells.. heehee wanna go bk there soon!

Ah mei's in KL, n Dot's working tmr, so wil see em only 3 wks later, when they get bk from sydney. sob.. so unfair. whole world gets to go, except me!

guess i'll try to forget them!! haha.. meanies.. i dun wan presents, i want presence! but guess it's impossible.. gonna miss them lots lots lots.. Sob. Bohohoho...

ok im back. and i had GREAT FUN. GREAT GREAT GREAT FUN.

14/06/04
malacca was great, KL was great. Nic, Aud, Dot, Grace, Eu, Suaty, Hawk, n Brigitte celebrated my birthday for me! very touched, and happy. thankful for such great people that God placed in my life. Got many pressies from em too..

Grace - She made a t-shirt for me, with my name Abia on it. hahaz.. and they forced me to put it on, so i had to. and when i look into the mirror, i realised it looked like the words A PIG. ugh. nevermind, haha.. stil it was sweet of her.

Nick & Audv - the ikea stool, the bracelets from m'cca and 2 nike sports bra. haha..

Suaty - A mouse & cheese note pad

Dot - two seashells with my name n greetings squinted on with pop-up glitter.

Eu - a book mark n a card

Ginny - a perfume from body shop

Hawk & Brigitte - a cute wallet! haha..

anyway, it was really sweet and nice of em all. appreciate it. Love them all.

took lotsa pics in M'cca n KL. haha.. shared a room wif grace n we had great fun! then we had an adjoining rm which connects us to dot n eu's rm! haha.. cool man.. then we went to their chinatown to shop.. got some souveniers.. then many of us did some fruit acid tattoo thingy haha.. i had a butterfly on my inner right calve. but think it's cracking already..

and we all got new nick names again. And ,my latest invention - "HUAT!" which means to strike! haha.. that was really hilarious!

God really empowered the speaker with wisdom and he spoke to us on what was right and precise. veri encouraged too.. food was great, company was great, place was great. fellowship was great. God is GREAT. Amen.

15/06/04
then me, dot, suat, nick n aud, hawk n brigitte went up to KL. reached the place, and there was no electricity. Ugh. but aft a few hrs of negotiation, it came bk. the condo was filthy, and we had to mop the place. haha... then we went to the nearby shopping centres to shop n eat, shop and eat..

16/06/04
went to KLCC to shop.. haha.. then went to sing KTV.. damn fun, the rm was humongous, and it was real hi-tech.. haha

17/06/04
went shopping, this time at mid-valley, then we went to chinatown at nite.. the place was like bugis street in S'pore. Lotsa imitation stuff, and those adidas, lecoq sportif shoes.. hhaha..

18/06/06
Nick n Hawk brought us to the Times Square shopping centre! and there it was, the indoor theme park! the roller coaster was really scary.. and since i was there, i had no choice but to go up with Dot.. haha.. yeah, and i managed to cross the first obstacle and went on it. Still cant believe i went up. damn freaking scary, but i had to say it was FUN! and i went up with dot again! haha.. funs! but went it went 360degrees i was like, totally clueless where i am liao.. haha.. whether up or down, left or right.. hahas..

in the end, i got 2 bags, a pencil case, 2 pairs of earrings, a 3/4 pants, a pair of lecoq sportif shoes, and 3 watches.. hehheh.. and 4 wrapping papers!

and lotsa fun.. then came back to s'pore, reached at 10.. then went to church to put bk all the instruments etc.. then went to Adam rd for supper.. haha..

then went to airport at ard 1 to send my grandmama off.. she's going to hainan island haha.. And first time i knew there was a Hainan Airlines.

reached home at 4.30, went straight to bed. haha.. Adeline's gonns cook, so am going there for dinna with nic n Aud.. haha

FUN.

Firstly, i'll like to wish Marilyn, Jesselyn a very Happie 18th Birthday!

ok, this is great, cuz at this time tmr, i'll be off to Reinaissance Hotel @ Malacca, away at camp! Finally its here... but nid to bring tons of things, cuz gonna go KL til fri.. hmm, then the blur nick n aud actually forgot to bring the sleeping bags, so i have ta take 5 from church tmr! plus all the worship files! how to handle? ugh.. muz ask all the other women to help me!

pat treat me to harry potter on thurs.. bad show.. tot it was lousy, didnt even know it had ended.. getting worse.. ooh then went to Times to see the stuff that i'll be helping Grace with.. so scary.. hope i can bring a fren with me to the place..

met jess jus now to have lunch and pass her the pressie. haha.. so nice to see her again.. but this stupid mercs sorta ram into her, and knocked her elbow.. hope she's alright.. hahaz...

gonna do the bloody IS enrolment. mayb i shall take german with liz n jess.. haha.. wanted french tho..

guess im gonna spend my burfday in KL! funs.. haha! hope all wil be alright! pray for journey mercies, and protection over all of us! and to haf a great tiime of fellowship tog! hehheh..

got my first burfday perssie from nic n aud.. chose a teak/bamboo stool from ikea! haha... anyway, wil be back at sch in a couple of weeks time.. Ugh.. but looking it forward to it. haha..

exactly one wk later and it'll be MOI BIRTHDAY! Hooray! haha... guess i'll be in KL.. with nic, aud, hawk, eu, dot, suat and me! a pity grace anint going.. but still, i'll kip my fingers crossed! so wil be gone from this sun til nxt fri!

camp is jus a few days away, yeeps! cant wait cant wait.. went to skool to get the space bar fixed, but stil nt done.. gotta bring it bk again.. ugh.. and it was damn crowded.. all the freshies there. then went to lib to borrow some bks.. haha.. i got the idiot's guide to learning guitar! haha.. then two books, and some drawing bk..gonna put them ino good use! am going to borrow a cam, so i can take lotsa pics!


have been filling in the white cards since 2.. am going crazy soon. haha..

haha.. going old airport rd for dinna nw with nic, aud, ezekiel, hawk n brigitte.. then to the airport cuz brigitte needs to mk her papers!

stupid np dun lemme go check my timetable.. will try my luck again tmr..

it was june's burfday today, n we went to surprise her at her house! *funsss* then nick came to pick me up.. later got music prac..

then aud said maybe, maybe, after camp, we'll drive up to KL! that'd be totally AWESOME! Provided hawk can get leave, then all 9 of us can go tog! hehheh... cool cool cool.. cant wait.. really hope n kip my fingers crossed that his boss will approve him taking leave!

grace made a webbie for our cell.. nice but no pics! hahaa.. duh rite.. aniway, wondering if she went for the Singapore Idol today... gonna ask her tmr.. haha.. got a hunch she's going for it.. but i dun nc it.. all bout stardom, fame, and lots of money, and the happiness wun last, so whats the point.. oh yeah candice went for it, but i seriously doubt she ain't gonna make it.. cuz her singing is, o well.. shant say much.. but at least she got the courage!

went to apply the ndp04 tix! sure hope i get it.. i simply enjoy watching it live! haha... lookin forward to it man.. simply adore the month of june.. Awesome lah haha!

life has been pretty gd for nw.. not much worries.. am all geared up for camp! gracie went to perm her hair. looks like cabbage cum cauliflower nw.. and nick says im tao geh (beansprouts) haha.. cuz of my bangs.. WAhaha... then nick's onion cuz of his onion hairstyle.. haha.. mad peeps..

had fun everyday rotting at hm.. haha.. went to watch shrek2 n day aft tmr.. both r nice shows! haha. but then when watchin day aft tmr damn stress.. haha.. but it was a good show never-the-less..

mooncher n charmaine came to my place the other day.. shouldnt have shown them the sand art! mess up everythg in my rm! pur everythg here and there! almost wanted to kill them! haha.. KIDS! scary! then i had to sweep the rm.. sigh.. i've learnt a lesson, never be too nice. and nv let em play in yr rm! haha.. then brot them to the pool.. charmaine totally went berserk. started splashing water at us. MAD WOMAN. haha.. then went to aunt pris's cell chalet at costa sands.. lotsa food! haha.. yum.. guess thats was the ony fun thing i did for the wk.. now at church, jus finished retreat stuff.. got prayer mtg later.. and im playing again. hope nothing screws up.. ha..

hols kinda swim past really fast.. bout less than 1 mth.. sob.. haha.. but im looking forward to skool anyway! went to kimage let the students there cut my hair.. haha.. only 5.20.. damn cheap.. haha. i wanna cut spiky hair but think my face too big liao! haha..

ok, firstly, dad has cleared my net bills, and hp bill. so now im relieved. thank God. but think nid some time to fix bk the net stuff, get password, etc.. first thing i woke up on thurs was switching on my phone. aft that i juz put it bk under the pillow. and this vibration came, then came the NP results.. ugh. scared the hell outta me! imagine stil in dreamland, then comes this type of shock. haha. but thank God. really. He's faithful. pull me thru again! cleared everythg, including stats. thank God. was freaking scary. tot i will def fail and haf to retake but i didnt! AMEN! didnt do well lah, as usual, but real thankful for everythg! *smileeesssss*.

oh ya, then i saw clarabelle on wed at PS! oh my! i was so happy yet nervous, cuz haven seen her since P6! so its a whopping 6 yrs! she's stil the same, jus that she's bigger than before! one of my bestest fren in pri 3-4.. stil remembered she came my place n thon for a wk after my bday! haha.. she's in RJC nw, smart huh.. not like me! but stil am glad n thankful to see her! haf been searching for her high n low! haha.. then we exchange nos... sun's dot's bday.. made smthg fo her, looks kind of daft but never mind! its the tot that counts rite! 2 wks more to camp! yeeps!

have been rotting at hm almoz everyday... sit infronta lappie n play all the lame games.. haha.. and oh yeah, American idol's fantastic! Fantasia won! felt a lil sad for diana, but i guess there can only be one winner! looking forwartd to S'pore idol! but think they cant sing well.. haha.. send fish off last sunday! fun! love going to the airport.. dot, grace, suat, aud, nick n me! FUNNN! hhaha... im bonkers..

think i got flu. ugh. and i think wil haf the sexy voice pretty soon! charmaine n mooncher are sooper cute! followed my mama to her cell last nite, then played with the two of em! haha.. am so glad they are going for camp too! haha.. but so sad that they cant take chocs, cuz they have sensitive skin.. terrible..

anyway, hope everyone else's enjoying their hols! cheeeerrrrrsssss!

still no internet connection.. so cant blog regularly. Ugh. Nvm.. gonna send my lappy for servicing.. space bar cant work.. ugh.. hols are driving me crazy. Left me penniless, and rotting like fungi.. haha! basically i HIBERNATE in da room.. haha... sleep n sleep w/o getting any productive things done. haha.. im hopeless.. went for that cell last nite.. real different dominations man.. haha.. then my cousin's kid went also! and goodness gracious, he got CHICKEN POX, and his grandmama berot him there. how dumb can ppl get?! to think there was a pregnant lady there! oh my... i freaked out when i heard he got the deadly chicky poxy! u have no idea how scared i am! almost burst into tears man! haha.. useless me..

then went to my aunts house aft that.. stayed there chatting til 3am.. power huh! haha.. five women.. frankly speaking i think it probably wasnt enuff at all. haha.. give us more time and we can cont till forever.. haha.. cuz y? WOMEN. WOMEN. WOMEN.

hmmm another wk down.. whats left.. 5 more wks of freedom. hope everybody else is having a great time!

hehheh..i bloggeed... but cuz no internet connection, so cant blog! sob... many things happened these few days.. really eventful i guess! anyway, i hate male chavinistic pigs.. and i guess u are right. LOVE IS BLIND. INDEED BLIND. just how dumb can certain girls get.. i hope she wakes up in time. went to her hse to console her that very nite.. til 3.30 in the morning.thats what frens are for rite.. but i guess it didnt help, cuz she already know what she wants. DAMN IT. what an idiot..! dun wanna talk bout her, only makes my blood boil! ARGHHH... stoooopiD.. PURE STUPIDITY! not gonna care next time... DUMABASSSSSSSS.....

haha 2 primary frens left me a msg in frenster! almoz couldnt recognize em! wahaha.... the feelings great i guess.. gonna b bz this wk... catch up with pat & hl, go singing, class chalet.. but am damn broke.. really broke.. how likE that???

starting to miss all my frens!! haha.. jess, liz etc etc... my clazzzzmates! haha... and lotsa other peeps... saw sijie at Suntec on sunday, then saw donna on tues! haha wat a small world!

take care, people around... God Bless u! Cheers...

finally... and i say finally... my dreaded exams are over!!! thank God that i am still alive well and kicking! muz realli thank God for pulling me thru this sem.. and thanks to all my frens who've been rooting for me all these while! appreciate it tons! Hugs...

gonna haf fun for a few weeks or so! before the results are out.. gonna leave them all in His hands... Dun wanna think abt it for nw! haha.. this type of feeling's really great! like you've been released from a kidnapper, or rather released from jail, given a new lease of life! ahaha... kinda exaggerating i know.. but that's how im really feeling now!

hehheh.. my lappy's sick, nid to reformatt... Ugh... hope pastor nick can help me with it! waahahhahahaaa... few things that i wanna do in the hols, hopefully i'll finish whatever i've promised myselF.. LASTLY, CHURCH CAMP!!! cant wait for it man! its gonna be cool! haha...

ciao for now...

As I was walking down life's highway many years ago, I came upon a sign that read
Heavens Grocery Store.

When I got a little closer the doors swung open wide
And when I came to myself, I was standing inside.

I saw a host of angels.

They were standing everywhere

One handed me a basket and said "My child, shop with care."

Everything a human needed was in that grocery store

And what you could not carry you could come back for more

First I got some Patience.

Love was in that same row.

Further down was Understanding,

You need that everywhere you go.

I got a box or two of Wisdom and Faith a bag or two.

And Charity of course

I would need some of that too.

I couldn't miss the Holy Ghost

It was all over the place.

And then some Strength and Courage to help me run this race.

My basket was getting full but I remembered I needed Grace,

And then I chose Salvation for Salvation was for free

I tried to get enough of that to do for you and me.

Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill,

For I thought I had everything to do the Masters will.

As I went up the aisle
I saw Prayer and put that in,

For I knew when I stepped outside I would run into sin.

Peace and Joy were plentiful, the last things on the shelf.

Song and Praise were hanging near so I just helped myself.

Then I said to the angel
"Now how much do I owe?"

He smiled and said "Just take them everywhere you go."

Again I asked "Really now, How much do I owe?"

"My child" he said,
"God paid your bill a long long time ago."

another day gone, and i've done nothing..

spent the day in church, music prac... aft that went over to HV to get some stuff.. then went for dinner with nick, aud, george n adel, and fish... wanted to dine at Fish and Co. at the glass house, but then the queue was super long.. so we went sizzler at tpy.. haha heartlander again.. its was so fun.. and i ate til so full! so paiseh that they treated me n fish again.. they always treat us, simply cuz we're students, not earning $$ yet... but cannot everytime like that! i was like so paiseh... will be like 'erm dun think i'll go out too often with them cuz they'll treat me again.. but i like their company! but its jus that i dun wan them to pay everytime! Ugh.. shall treat them one day.. or mayb jus be veri veri nice to them... haha..

now im starrting to worry again for my exams... Fish had her last paper today.. So envious...

hehheh didnt go for tennis...
skies were gloomy, any moment, and it'll pour...
so i stayed hm..
Liz say can make up again tmr...
then aft that Glen helped us check the attendance
turn out that we they forgot to mark us absent for 1 lesson
so i guess we can miss again!
hopefully no one will ever find out!
else i'll fail S&W!
that'd be terrible!

i wanna go out and take a breather! Ugh...
haf been home for so many days, and its suffocating me!
can't wait for tmr!
at least i'll be out of the house!
hopefully can go out in the night...
town, dinner, anythg, anywhere!
Just wanna be out out out!

Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...
Somebody help me please!
Wonder if i can transfer course or smthg...
but think its impossible...

don't know why blogger's not publishing my posts... ugh... getting on my nerves! i havent study much... jialat.. no time.. but i get really distracted at hm... TV, lappie, fridge, magazines, bed etc etc.. how?! theres so much i dunno! and stats next thurs!! how to pass?? so scared yet im not doing much abt it! oh no... Sigh...

got tennis tmr.. damn sianing one.. Ugh... LIfe's in a humongous mess again...

cant believe it, jus 1 day, and im starting to miss my mama already... cant wait for sunday! hope she's having fun in Shanghai man... so jealous...

Grace is sneaking that Mono Lisa Smile's diaries for em... and she did it! haha.. so scared she get caught! but thank God she didnt.. haha.. anyway, it was nice of her to get that for em.. she got me one first and pass it to me on tues... and shes at NP lib nw.. WT...!

i wanna go to IGOR'S! Went to check out the website! looks all fun n cool! but its damn expensive! ard $70 per head.. then i was jus browsing thru the papers and i saw this ad! - One for one at IGOR'S interlude with the vampire! til may 22.. i was like *tink* sort of like hmmm is it hinting me to go?? haha... but i really wanna go! hopefully one fine day!

im very scared, worried, frettied, agonized, distressed, miserable now... only God can help me.. but how? when im not even willing to help myself and let Him help... Sigh... i really hope miracles will unfold, and that suddenly i'll know all my work.. But its mission impossible...

A little girl walked to and from school daily.

Though the weather that morning was questionable and clouds were forming,
she made her daily trek to the elementary school.

As the afternoon progressed, the winds whipped up, along with thunder and lightning.

The mother of the little girl felt concerned that her daughter would be frightened as she walked home from school and she herself feared that the electrical storm might harm her child.

Following the roar of thunder, lightning, like a flaming sword, would cut through the sky.

Full of concern, the mother quickly got into her car and drove along the route to her child's school. As she did so, she saw her little girl walking along, but at each flash of lightning, the child would stop, look up and smile. Another and another were to follow quickly and with each the little girl would look at the streak of light and smile

When the mother's car drew up beside the child she lowered the window and called to her, "What are you doing? Why do you keep stopping?"

The child answered, "I am trying to look pretty. God keeps taking my picture."

May God bless you today as you face the storms that come your way.

Tuesday...

an eventful day i would say...

left for town after stats remedial to get pressie for someone... met Grace after that at city hall to for ShouMing LaoShi's wake at commonwealth.

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Ah Soh is filling up an application form for a job.
She supplied the information for the columns on Name, Age, Address etc
Then she comes to column on "Salary Expected" She is not sure of the
question.
After much thought, she writes " Yes "

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hmmm... went to get subway sandwich with grace n suat before cell.. yummy... didnt know i'd like it.. but it was nice! haha... had cell grp, and i really thank God for it. tho i didnt speak much... i always dun speak much during cell.. dunno why also.. guess cuz they got lots to share so i jus listen..

but i feel that in a cell it shd be like this.. some ppl share, and some listen, and enc by agreeing, by nodding, by giving non-verbal encouragements.. its jus that they always have lots of things to say.. and i am jus clueless on what to say.. either that or im afraid i'll go out of point.. i guess im really cautious of how others look at me, or how they perceive the stuff i say.. thats why i dont talk much.

i dont want it to be like this.. but it always happens. i wanna share too but dunno why i just get dumbfounded.. Ugh.. i pray that God'll grant me the wisdom, courage to share more during cell.. and that what i say may build others up, not pull them down...

was soooper tired, cuz wake up at 7 plus cuz have ta go early to church.. so i was in dreamland at ard 11..

feel that the NKF shows really daft.. inflicting pain on themselves, to get ppl to donate money... it shouldnt be that way. ppl shd donate money, cuz they care for those patients.. but not cuz of the degree to which the danger of the silly stunts the celebrities were carrying out.. all of it were dumb.. totally stupid. not a good way at all.. dunno why some singaporeans are so dumb... and nw i know being a ceeleb is not easy... haha... anyway, since its dumb, dun expect me to donate at all! Wahahahz..