Faith is indeed the key to answered prayer...

Oh my goodness... this is like totally shocking.
cuz i couldnt blog due to some prob with my blogger.
and i jus said a prayer, didnt really mean it
jus said God, plz, if possible, just let it wk k...
and ta-da! he answered it! even tho it was sucha small and unimportant one!
thank u father!

so glad the gals wanna go watch Mama Mia! wahaha...
so happieee.
nickie auddy cmg too.
hope ah mei will come along
else it wouldnt be fun w/o her

was home at 2 last nite.. watching dvd at hawk's place
but i was sleeping thru out the whole show lah
so boring
then that dumb nic use cam and took a pic of me when i was sleeping like a pig
then aft that he fell asleep too
then i gave him a tooth for a tooth! muahaha...

ytd's bbq was quite fun
played with the sparklers
then i think i burnt my eyebrow
haha got one hole down there

the He Shi Bi was super duper sian!
many ppl were like sleeping
then the woman talked to me lah
but before that they were like making me feel damn sad
even the other woman feels that the woman is segregating herself fr me.
but at least got talk a bit la
somehow still feel the uncomfort btw us

it was real glad to see dottie
sucha long time
anyway, am glad to have her back

think nxt monday no need come bk sch anymore
*happieee*
have been waiting very long for this day

u know i really really love my church peeps.
but they seem to disappoint me time and time again
or perhaps im being too sensitive lah
maybe i shd change cell
have been thinking bout it for some time
love Naomi, but i should be in Joshua
feel intimidated in Naomi
Sigh...
but they are all the loveliest ppl in my life.
i really dunno what to do.

havent done my qt for a long long time
i really pray that God'll forgive me.
everyday im jus wasting my time away
i owe God so much so much
pray for me ya peeps

im so glad sch's cmg to an end really soon.
the feeling is great man.
indescribable feeling

Today was quite alright… had a good time laughing at the skit… Thought it was hilarious… Made a new friend today or rather two… So happy! Janice – got to know her so much better today… She’s a funny gal, great sense of humor! Daniel – didn’t really talk much to him, only till today during dinner… Anyway, nice people, hope to get to know them better and better with help from God!

Went to Bt. Timah mkt with the crusaders, and when we jus finished buying food, I saw Nic they all! So happiee! *grins* before that I was still thinking if they will go there for dinna, then TADA! They appeared! Works of God! Then got a lift home from my new neighbors! Think they watching some DVD, but I decided to stay home… too tired le, even though its just the floor above mine! Hee…

Something’s wrong with my lappie… sigh… can’t figure out what’s the prob… man… how lucky can I get? Taking a break from music min this week… Send some quality time alone, to breathe in fresh air, and perhaps help m new neighbors with their things tmr! Maybe will play with my new toys from Diaso, cut the collage thingy from 8-days, arrange my photos, do a masque, play the piano, bake biscotti read the papers, go for a swim, do my tutorials? Pack my things, throw away rubbish, paint my skirt, decorate my bag etc etc etc… Will make sure my free day tomorrow will be a fruitful and fulfilling one!

Went Diaso on Thursday with my daughters… we bought…

Jess – Cookies’ paper bags
Nail art thingy
Binoculars
Eyebrow thingy
Eliz – Milkish bag
Blusher
Loose powder
Eyebrow thingy
Skipping rope

Moi – Milkish bag
Loose powder
Skipping rope
Rainbow-colored Wig (love it!)
Connect 4!

Don’t know why can’t blog… Something’s wrong with my blogger… so had to ask my daughter to help me blog… haha…

Presentations are more or less over, so relieved now… but still got other tests, role-plays etc… life is still very much terrible…

Sigh… seems like ppl are getting colder and colder nowadays… it’s just so hard to reach out to them. Sigh… wonder what’s running in their minds, what’s holding them back.

Ytd no water supply, later no electricity… my house is super jialat… haha… always got this kinda problems… otherwise it’ll be lifts breaking down.. still remembered there was once, when I was still in primary school, both lifts broke down when I was going back with my mum after grocery shopping. Then we had no choice but to start climbing up the never-ending flight of stairs, to 22nd storey… halfway, and I crying and sat down on the stairs. I told my mum that I don’t wanna climb anymore…. Haha.. funny huh… now when I recollect the past, I could imagine the cold beads of sweat that were trickling down my mama’s forehead when I said that! Haha… anyway, hope that’ll nv happen again! Haha… but then my dad will be home late later…hope and pray that he’ll be back safely, cuz he got asthma, and can’t possibly climb 22 x 2 flight of stairs…

Asked ah bee for a break from worship duty this Sunday…really needed it. Im up
every week. Everyweek.. Its not that I don’t wanna serve but I really do need a break badly. Its real taxing… sigh… electricity gg off soon.. nic asks if I’ll be scared.. actually haven tot abt that, but after he asked, started to get the creeps. Plus im HOME ALONE. Ugh. What great luck…

Just a little encouragement to keep my loved ones going...

Drop a pebble in the water: just a splash, and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Spreading, spreading from the center, flowing on out to the sea. And there is no way of telling where the end is going to be.
Drop a pebble in the water: in a minute you forget, But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And those little waves a-flowing to a great big wave have grown; You've disturbed a mighty river just by dropping in a stone.

Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on. They keep spreading, spreading, spreading from the center as they go, And there is no way to stop them, once you've started them to flow.
Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute you forget; But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And perhaps in some sad heart a mighty wave of tears you've stirred, And disturbed a life was happy ere you dropped that unkind word.

Drop a word of cheer and kindness: just a flash and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Bearing hope and joy and comfort on each splashing, dashing wave Till you wouldn't believe the volume of the one kind word you gave.
Drop a word of cheer and kindness: in a minute you forget; But there's gladness still a-swelling, and there's joy circling yet, And you've rolled a wave of comfort whose sweet music can be heard Over miles and miles of water just by dropping one kind word.

so thankful, finally got back my internet connection
today was HQ & SS's wedding
she looked totally gorgeous
but the worst things kinda happen to me
was putting on the bod shop liq foundatn and it splattered all over me
kena on my skirt, right before the wedding
and the loose powder was horrendous
need to get a new one
then drank my mango tea, and it dripped down to my shirt
ugh
dinner's at Meritus Mandarin in town tonight
but im not invited
not that close
but overall fun lah

got my bag ytd
exilarated mannn
cma test is gettg nearer and nearer
sighhh...
bbq tmr, still recovering, dont know can eat or not haha

this week was a tough one
ask them
they will know
so tough u dont know what to do
cleared the problem
but dont know if it'll arise again or not

tmr's the wedding
can't wait
but got no top to wear
sigh
nxt wk cma test
ugh...
sure mati

nxt week's gonna b worse
2 presentations
german role-play
cma test
in deep poop

need to do ppt
paint
draw
color
alamak

bbq on sunday somemore
gonna go do my pacnet thingy later
hopefully wil b ok
have been paying few mths bills
but nt using the net at all
wthell right

heard from eu recently
she took the initiative to msg me
so happie
can tell that she really misses us
asked bout the bbq
but it was gonna end early
so i guess she couldnt come

i wanna go chinatown wif my daughters to get the shades
haha...
i need to have things to look forward to
to keep me going for the week
haha
such as shopping
or some activity
else i'll haf low morale
ahaha
what rubbish right

she didnt msg me at all this wk
prob still mad at me
sigh...
nothing i can do

cheryl pass me the deeds card
so cool
haha tot it was like super fun
going to pass to someone soon

haha cutie gals, me pearlie and june in ccc rm!

so tired...
everyday do proj til going bonkers
meta camp here again
shd i go?
can't stand unrefined guys
totally turn me off
every single guy pisses me and my two daughters off
s*** them

i think she's mad at me
not on talking terms
cant be bothered
dont know wtf is wrong with her

she asked me to lead worship for oct's prayer mtg
but i havent give her an ans
kinda scared

many things happened this week
not a smooth one, sigh...
wish things will be alright soon

passed all my papers
so thankful
that He pulled me thru
wanted to share my joy with her
but...
sigh...
guess no one has any ears for me

how childish can one get
tell me
tell me

why do i get frightened by it so easily
so scared
then got lots of restrictions
alamak

dont know how to do fmgt proj
stuck

ich mag schokolade kuchen!

Got the news ytd that mag's dad passed away
felt sad for them
but at least i know and have the assurance that
he's up there witht the Lord
and we'll meet one day

God is good to me
really really good to me
and i really really appreciate it
pulled me thru all 5 papers
it wasnt easy
but he was there to lift me up
esp cma
i passed it
it was like a MIRACLE
a miracle that descended from above
i know it was really Him
not me but Him
cause i really didnt know what i wrote
i jus wrote things that were def out of pt
but i knew He helped me thru it
thank u Father
thank u so much
and for also pulling my two daughters thru it
just relieved and thankful

went to pizza huttie with my daughters today
had a great lunch tog
and for once i can sleep in peace tonight
but come to think of it
i sleep like a pig everyday
hahaha...

i guess i made her mad again
but i did it on purpose
really sick and tired of hearing bla bla bla...
can't be bothered
don't know how to help her

so glad wed skool life has come to an end
now i can breathe properly
gonna go for the wake tonight
hope i dont weep buckets
that i'll keep cool

weird eh
forget abt that X
but suddenly hear from X again
err... erm... ehh... hmm... nvm

only when u see a person so close to dying

then will u know how fragile life is

wept buckets ytd

shouldnt have fun

he was breathing so hard

all his cells rob him off his body

feet swell up

sigh

i guess we must live in hope each day

and that God'll really grant us strength to carry thru

many ppl visited him ytd

he was like in a coma

but he was actually sleeping

so weak and skinny

face was sunken

his wife kept crying

it seems that he doesnt wanna leave earth yet

kept holding back

sigh

why does God allow suffering?

i seriously dont know

suppose to go kite flying

but it was raining jus now

don know how

hell damn pissed with her

I AM NOT ACCOUNTABLE FOR U

so SHUT UP and dont tell me whats up

i am so disappointed in her

once so on fire for God

yet backsliding

cuz of a yug

i hate him

hate him

bloody

thanks to June for teaching me how to post pics on my blog!
got back my econs n fmgt...
pass em thank God
but still gt 3 more which im so scared of
sigh...
blaw proj driving me nuts
ugh.
gt a pair of flats on sunday!
haha...gola shoes got sale!
wanna get em too!
and the black roxy bag!
watched 13 going 30 ytd
not really nice
going to watch Stepford wives
hope its nice

haha long long time ago...

brian, super cute@

am i cute? wahaha...

the young gals! made me look old beside em... sigh...

oops, nic exposed!!!

dot n me at my hse pool area!

hehheh.. jus knew how to do this... thanks to june..

in the end never go concourse
went chinatown instead
funnsss
but the shops i wanna go all close already
or mayb they didnt even exist at all

blurt smthg daft fr my mouth
shouldnt have said that
i knew i was in the wrong
but then she didnt have to like said such things
made me felt so sad
feel like crying
but i held it back

am glad things were better

gave her the egg
hope she likes it
havent really talk to her bout him
but guess things are ok
then the phonecall came...
and i guess he asked y shes on duty always
wthack.
she's serving God
dont u geddit.
make sure u dont stop her from coming to church
u idiot.
always going some other churches cuz of him
stupid dumbass
dont know why on earth she's hooked
such great differences
guess opposites do attract after all
wanted to ask her how are things
but it just wouldnt come out from my mouth

i guess i got a bad sense of rhythm
tried to play that song ytd but donno
how the rhythm shd be like
sigh...
haha...

wore the same stuff today
u call it telepathy
denim skirt
belt
pumps
i like hers
cool red color
feet hurts like mad

back to hell tomorrow
sigh...

finally... phew... all the horrendous papers are gone.
gonna do real badly...
but at least it's over.
thank God for pulling me thru...
lotsa topsy and turvies during the week

met WenJun on mond..
so glad to see her
it has been such a long time since we last met up
ketchup loads that day
life is just full of sweet surprises
God just arrange a time for us to meet again!

realli missed the good old days of sec sch
esp sec 4...
mrs MC HAMMER!
lessons under her were freaking scary..
but i enjoyed the suspense!
hahaha...
totally awesome.

went shopping with jess at town ytd
liz came for a while then cabut
saw eve n cera
haha..
what a small world
jess got a pair of pumps
niceee...
wanted smthg similar
but they didnt have my size

got a skirt from FOX @ taka for 27...
supp to be 39
the things there are all going for a song!
hehheh...
then went over to P.O.A at PS
got a pair of pumps for 23.40!
usual price was 39..
mayb i shd go buy 4d
buy the no. 3939?
wahaha...
but its kinda tight leh...
and my left ankle's hurting
UGH!
haha..
but it doesnt matter
girls are born vain
so im happie happie and happie!
then i used the visa card..
over at fox,
but i dint know i was supp to sign at the electronic board
so paiseh
i actually tried to key in my passw.
Ugh...
haha...
but now i know
i think its like super cool and funss...
but not much $$ left...
need to save save save!

went bk then ard 10 plus Sue called
the 'old' peeps were at Alameen...
then went there to look for em
a bit comm breakdown,
went to pool to look for em
then went 23rd...
sigh...
so scary...
then realise they were oppo
anyway, had fun
but my abia shirt's secret kept leaking
haha..
but it doesnt matter...

supp to catch 13 going 30 with pat
but dont feel like
may go concourse instead!
kite flying nxt sunday
so need get some stuff!
funnns!

Found myself drowning in a pool of tears yesterday.
once again i submerged myself into it.
everything's screwed up AGAIN.
b**ch. b**ch. b**ch.
sometimes i feel that women are the most toxic creatures on earth.
you have no idea how well they bite.
when their teeth sink into your skin
thats the end.
hahaha.
to hell with it.
whats up man.
lets hope for a better day.

have been playing too much.
and its all too late.
no one will help me.
cuz ive fallen into the pits...
the never-ending pits.

sometimes i really hate myself
for making myself so miserable...
breathe.

can't tolerate fake people.
so fake that u wanna peel off their skin
and see whats left underneath
probably just rotting flesh

haha.
and why do i sound like im bloody pissed
how i know???
Muahaha...

Some lame stuff...
TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it! *-TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O !
TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin !
TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me !
TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time." TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that?
BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get this MUMMY then?
TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you are wearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots !
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him,what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love ?
TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating ?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog !
TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher

sigh... what a boring saturday
shall go home and watch some tv...
but sat night got no shows..
yesterday was a unlucky day
almost fell down. (x2)
the skin of my left foot came out.
thank God it didnt bleed
went daiso with mag ytd
funss...
bot the paper backs
the charcoal mask, facial foam
and the peanut butter pencil case
hehhehs.
did i make a wrong choice of going to wk on mon n tues?
will i have enough time to study?
Ugh. i dont know.
all i very much want now is to SLEEP.
hahas.
dont understand cma.
how?
sighs.

dont know if my tag board's working or not
watched Lola Run during German class today
nice film.. haha
didnt do well for the test. Ugh.
freaked out at the oral test.
Gonna work nxt monday n tues prob wed.
$68/day should do me well for 2-3 days
hehheh...
but will i have time to study?
oops...
so many projects again.
sigh..
see his face i wanna die n cry

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!
THE NATION CELEBRATES WITH YOU!

Wow, yesterday was totally AWESOME & AMAZING...
The people, the company, the fellowship, the food

Everythingn was super sweet, and love was jus in the air.
So glad that everybody enjoyed themselves and have lotsa fun.
Except for the security guard who was the wet blanket!
Ruth, Nic and the kids went swimming, haha..
Nic n Anthony looked like 2 big balls, in different sizes!
Anthony look super cute, haha with his sparetyres overflowing ard haha

there were 30+ people...
Joshuas - Ruth, Vincent, Eze, ZiHao, WeiWei
Elijahs - Fish, Geoffrey, Maggie, Sharon, Esther, Jason, Dominic, Jacqueline, Cindy
Naomians - Dottie, Suaty, Abia
the older peeps...
SueMay, Chip, and their boy Joshua,
George & Adel
John & Hariette
Hawk & Brigitte
Nicholas & Audrey
Fiona, and her boys, Zachariah & Jeremiah
Seow Hiang & Betty, and their little girl Katrina
Aunty Yvonne & Uncle Frank
Papa & Mama
Phoebe

we had so much fun
singing and singing
from nursery rhymes to hillsongs to lullabyes, to 80s songs...
everyone was in high spirits
all of us jus crowded ard Joshua
and started singing to him
he knows how to clap, smart boy...
soooo adorable

we had so much fun
really we did
and God was Good
he watched over everything
from the weather to the whole event

took pictures, so happie!
haha.. then nic they all got me a cammie,
smthg that they dont use anymore
so nice of them

Katrina wasin her tutus when she came!
loooked like a little fairy...
soooo cute..
then she went swimming too
in her red dress, haha
and she manage to do a sommersault,
showing only her legs erected in the air,
and her head submerged in the water
i was laughing like mad
brave girl huh, only 3 years old
sucha pretty little babe
look very angmoh,
probably cuz she was born in the States?
rich man's daughter...
father's a colonel,
salary's a 5-digit figure

then went to nic's house to thon,
tog with dottie
watched Eurotrip, but fell asleep
as usual hahas...
then went to zzz..
but chatted with dot til 4.30...
then we slept
Eu treated their family to lunch

later gonna pick dot up and go watch the village
hopefully, it'll be nice...

and i have lotsa work to do
but i dont have time
cuz i'll be back home late
4 tutorials to clear
Ugh. Can't breathe AGAIN.

- out -

im at nickie's place now!
Thon overnite with Dottiez!
Cuz his mama is outta town!
BBQ party was absolutely FABULOUS!
Shall up date tmr... Yawns...
HAPPY 34th BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!
HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

haha im fine! forgot bout everythg liao...
thanks, my dear bs mates..
appreciate u gals..
haha cant wait for sunday..
bbq surprise bday celeb for nic..
hehheh..
gonna go grocery shopping later...
had conference call last nite w mei, dot n suat
funsss

haha... im having lunch now... ok alerady, forgot bout everything that has happened! Thank God..

had conference call with mei, suat n dot..
going grocery shopping later! yeeps! haha..
cant wait for sunday!
bbq surprise bday party for nic at my poolside!
30 plus peeps.. hehhheh...

What is wrong with me?
am i ... ... ... ???
why am i so affected by it?
Ugh.
Why did it happen.
Cant sleep.
1 in the morn, and i can't fall asleep.
Thats so unlike me.
and when i wake up,
it was only 8 in the morning.
Suddenly i jus wanted to seek God
Wanted to ask Him why.
Wanted to ask Him whats wrong with me.
Why am i behaving in this way.
Why why why why why why?
Sobbbsss...
Sobbbsss...
i need to tell somebody...
Are you there God? Its me...
Something is terribly wrong with me...
I need medicine...
I dont want ppl to think i.. i..
Sob.
Hate you. Hate you.
Hate both of you for making my life AGAIN.

i want to get out of it.
i don't want to get stuck in the well.
i wanna climb out of it.
i need a ladder to be placed in the well...
Shouts out to God... are you there...? Are you there God?
Why is my life like this again?

I'm still waiting for the answer, for a sign, for everything..
can you please God, please tell me what to do...
Please God..
thank you..

ok i got my lappie back. Dont know if i shd be happy or not. Sigh...

as usual, my life is in another mess. Ugh.

projects, tests, presentations. Ugh. Everyday, everyweek i look forward to fridays.

going for dinner with my BS gals later.. mtg at clementi instead.

think they wanna bowl, but i cant afford to cuz got cma tutorial not yet do. Ugh.

Shit (x3)

i wanna go for a holiday... Sobsss.. get outta S'pore and breathe normally elsewhere.

It was jus great. God's presence was so overpowering, thank Him for that.. Really AWESOME, FABULOUS, AMAZING etc.. Skit was farnie, esp Sharon, that girl can really act man.

three mad woman came.. Jess, Liz n Cheryl. all suan me tog with Grace, Dot.. What great friends i have huh.. Gang up and bully me..

Borrowed a cammie fr my aunty, and there was film inside, but only can take 12 pics! i was like WTH the whole way, cuz i wasted it taking ton of pics of the skit! ARGHHH... Hahaha.. but heng Fish brot hers...

Nic's Birthday is coming-09-08.. Cool huh, the world nation is celebrating it for him.. haha.. muz crack my brains to think of what ta do for him! haha...

Going airport later! Yeeps.. Supposedly to go kaypoh n pick Hariette up, but act going to buy the chocs and eat that whatever chicken they are talking about! haha... 

and there's school tmr, sobsss.. dun wanna go. sobs. and so many projects. Sobbs. Deutsch is driving me CRAZY. Sobss.. and the test is in a few wks time. Ugh. Double, triple UGH.

huh?

cant wait for tmr man.. haha.. haha.. haha.. even got balloons, kinda mad, but still, its gonna be so much fun..

went to diaso jus now.. got all the cool tins/cans! and the retro polka dot mini bags! Cheap n good! hahas.. so funnn.. wanna go back there soon..

was a eventful wk filled with thunderstorms, hardly see and rainbow at all...

so depressed on Fri.. Cheryl shd know why haha.

sometimes i wish i can SHUT PEOPLE up.. but that's jus a thought lah, not a thing i can do.. so it'll remain a dream, and i can only keep dreaming.

frankly speaking, i dont give a damn to your life. so dont tell me about whats going on alright? Jus button up your lips and everyone else will be thanking God.

Dont bullshit abt being sorry when u dont mean it at all. Dont say u r guilty when u are not. Cuz they are mere POLLUTION to my ears. And my ears are clean, so jus make sure u dont dirty it.

gonna get over it. wont let depression get over me.. No way.

ok, its a saturday, and im in church as usual, music prac.
 
tons of work to do, blaw, econs, hr, etc etc. hate it.
 
hate the bloody, spastic, idiotic, moronic, irritating old bitchy spinster.
 
wanna kick her ass and make sure she flies off and never come back.
 
feel like jus stabbing her.
 
everybody's back now safely.
 
got to catch up with em.
 
watched spidy man 2 with em on thurs..
 
dottie came too.
 
quite nice, didnt think i'll ever watch it in the 1st place.
 
anyway, enjoyed it.
 
sign up for that UOB card.
 
gosh, so excited bout it.
 
went for life but didnt get to reallli stay in there.
 
really love the "My reedeemeer lives" jumping.
 
u dont find that in SJCCC.
 
but pray that its really the heart of worship
 
and not jus the jumping.

 

Praise God, they are back! Made in for svc today! Except for Nic, Aud n Dot.. Poor Doral's passport & money got pickpocketted! Sobss.. poor girl!

anyway its so glad to see em! when i saw fish i was like, is that Sharon? then i went closer and realised its Fish! i screamed like mad k! aft that saw Gracie! So HAPPY! i was practically beaming when i saw em! Eug was there also.. Anyway, had a good catching up with her..

am gonna talk loads nxt wk.. haha.. cant wait! so nice, got a BIG NICE HUGG from Gracie! So niceeee...

went to Times n help Grace..

hey gal!!! got ur nice msg from ah bee! we are always thinkin of u here in sydney! everyday we walk long long journeys, think if u are here u shall PENG! haha.. n we save n save like AUNTIES lorr cuz the meals here ard 7dollars k! aiyooo... and when we finally go supermarket today we were so happy tat there are vege n fruits we choose n pick n laugh pple think we muz be NUTS! hahaha...
anyway gtg, hope u r doing fine in school!! HUGZ from sydney!!! :)

the above msg is brought to u by Grace...

i miss em!!! Sobssssssssss...
how i wish i was there!
school's ok but i dun really like it i guess.
then the caterpillar thingy, so traumatising!
lecturers are terrible, horrible.
mad mad people.
and everythg is so tough.
how to cope.
and my lappy.
driving me nuts.
cried my eyes out.
hate it.

7 more days.
and i'll c em.

sobs.
i misss ah mei.
i miss ah dot.

i wanna go sydney.
i wanna go sydney.
i wanna go sydney.

sobs.
sobs.
sobs.

haha.. two more days and im bk to biz hell.. went wild wild wet the other day! it was sooper fun man! tho things were kinda screwed up, and the f-word came out. didnt mean to but the stupid guy was so damn rude.. lotsa peeps, so crowded! 14 of us there, basically Naomi n Elijah cells.. heehee wanna go bk there soon!

Ah mei's in KL, n Dot's working tmr, so wil see em only 3 wks later, when they get bk from sydney. sob.. so unfair. whole world gets to go, except me!

guess i'll try to forget them!! haha.. meanies.. i dun wan presents, i want presence! but guess it's impossible.. gonna miss them lots lots lots.. Sob. Bohohoho...

ok im back. and i had GREAT FUN. GREAT GREAT GREAT FUN.

14/06/04
malacca was great, KL was great. Nic, Aud, Dot, Grace, Eu, Suaty, Hawk, n Brigitte celebrated my birthday for me! very touched, and happy. thankful for such great people that God placed in my life. Got many pressies from em too..

Grace - She made a t-shirt for me, with my name Abia on it. hahaz.. and they forced me to put it on, so i had to. and when i look into the mirror, i realised it looked like the words A PIG. ugh. nevermind, haha.. stil it was sweet of her.

Nick & Audv - the ikea stool, the bracelets from m'cca and 2 nike sports bra. haha..

Suaty - A mouse & cheese note pad

Dot - two seashells with my name n greetings squinted on with pop-up glitter.

Eu - a book mark n a card

Ginny - a perfume from body shop

Hawk & Brigitte - a cute wallet! haha..

anyway, it was really sweet and nice of em all. appreciate it. Love them all.

took lotsa pics in M'cca n KL. haha.. shared a room wif grace n we had great fun! then we had an adjoining rm which connects us to dot n eu's rm! haha.. cool man.. then we went to their chinatown to shop.. got some souveniers.. then many of us did some fruit acid tattoo thingy haha.. i had a butterfly on my inner right calve. but think it's cracking already..

and we all got new nick names again. And ,my latest invention - "HUAT!" which means to strike! haha.. that was really hilarious!

God really empowered the speaker with wisdom and he spoke to us on what was right and precise. veri encouraged too.. food was great, company was great, place was great. fellowship was great. God is GREAT. Amen.

15/06/04
then me, dot, suat, nick n aud, hawk n brigitte went up to KL. reached the place, and there was no electricity. Ugh. but aft a few hrs of negotiation, it came bk. the condo was filthy, and we had to mop the place. haha... then we went to the nearby shopping centres to shop n eat, shop and eat..

16/06/04
went to KLCC to shop.. haha.. then went to sing KTV.. damn fun, the rm was humongous, and it was real hi-tech.. haha

17/06/04
went shopping, this time at mid-valley, then we went to chinatown at nite.. the place was like bugis street in S'pore. Lotsa imitation stuff, and those adidas, lecoq sportif shoes.. hhaha..

18/06/06
Nick n Hawk brought us to the Times Square shopping centre! and there it was, the indoor theme park! the roller coaster was really scary.. and since i was there, i had no choice but to go up with Dot.. haha.. yeah, and i managed to cross the first obstacle and went on it. Still cant believe i went up. damn freaking scary, but i had to say it was FUN! and i went up with dot again! haha.. funs! but went it went 360degrees i was like, totally clueless where i am liao.. haha.. whether up or down, left or right.. hahas..

in the end, i got 2 bags, a pencil case, 2 pairs of earrings, a 3/4 pants, a pair of lecoq sportif shoes, and 3 watches.. hehheh.. and 4 wrapping papers!

and lotsa fun.. then came back to s'pore, reached at 10.. then went to church to put bk all the instruments etc.. then went to Adam rd for supper.. haha..

then went to airport at ard 1 to send my grandmama off.. she's going to hainan island haha.. And first time i knew there was a Hainan Airlines.

reached home at 4.30, went straight to bed. haha.. Adeline's gonns cook, so am going there for dinna with nic n Aud.. haha

FUN.

Firstly, i'll like to wish Marilyn, Jesselyn a very Happie 18th Birthday!

ok, this is great, cuz at this time tmr, i'll be off to Reinaissance Hotel @ Malacca, away at camp! Finally its here... but nid to bring tons of things, cuz gonna go KL til fri.. hmm, then the blur nick n aud actually forgot to bring the sleeping bags, so i have ta take 5 from church tmr! plus all the worship files! how to handle? ugh.. muz ask all the other women to help me!

pat treat me to harry potter on thurs.. bad show.. tot it was lousy, didnt even know it had ended.. getting worse.. ooh then went to Times to see the stuff that i'll be helping Grace with.. so scary.. hope i can bring a fren with me to the place..

met jess jus now to have lunch and pass her the pressie. haha.. so nice to see her again.. but this stupid mercs sorta ram into her, and knocked her elbow.. hope she's alright.. hahaz...

gonna do the bloody IS enrolment. mayb i shall take german with liz n jess.. haha.. wanted french tho..

guess im gonna spend my burfday in KL! funs.. haha! hope all wil be alright! pray for journey mercies, and protection over all of us! and to haf a great tiime of fellowship tog! hehheh..

got my first burfday perssie from nic n aud.. chose a teak/bamboo stool from ikea! haha... anyway, wil be back at sch in a couple of weeks time.. Ugh.. but looking it forward to it. haha..

exactly one wk later and it'll be MOI BIRTHDAY! Hooray! haha... guess i'll be in KL.. with nic, aud, hawk, eu, dot, suat and me! a pity grace anint going.. but still, i'll kip my fingers crossed! so wil be gone from this sun til nxt fri!

camp is jus a few days away, yeeps! cant wait cant wait.. went to skool to get the space bar fixed, but stil nt done.. gotta bring it bk again.. ugh.. and it was damn crowded.. all the freshies there. then went to lib to borrow some bks.. haha.. i got the idiot's guide to learning guitar! haha.. then two books, and some drawing bk..gonna put them ino good use! am going to borrow a cam, so i can take lotsa pics!


have been filling in the white cards since 2.. am going crazy soon. haha..

haha.. going old airport rd for dinna nw with nic, aud, ezekiel, hawk n brigitte.. then to the airport cuz brigitte needs to mk her papers!

stupid np dun lemme go check my timetable.. will try my luck again tmr..

it was june's burfday today, n we went to surprise her at her house! *funsss* then nick came to pick me up.. later got music prac..

then aud said maybe, maybe, after camp, we'll drive up to KL! that'd be totally AWESOME! Provided hawk can get leave, then all 9 of us can go tog! hehheh... cool cool cool.. cant wait.. really hope n kip my fingers crossed that his boss will approve him taking leave!

grace made a webbie for our cell.. nice but no pics! hahaa.. duh rite.. aniway, wondering if she went for the Singapore Idol today... gonna ask her tmr.. haha.. got a hunch she's going for it.. but i dun nc it.. all bout stardom, fame, and lots of money, and the happiness wun last, so whats the point.. oh yeah candice went for it, but i seriously doubt she ain't gonna make it.. cuz her singing is, o well.. shant say much.. but at least she got the courage!

went to apply the ndp04 tix! sure hope i get it.. i simply enjoy watching it live! haha... lookin forward to it man.. simply adore the month of june.. Awesome lah haha!

life has been pretty gd for nw.. not much worries.. am all geared up for camp! gracie went to perm her hair. looks like cabbage cum cauliflower nw.. and nick says im tao geh (beansprouts) haha.. cuz of my bangs.. WAhaha... then nick's onion cuz of his onion hairstyle.. haha.. mad peeps..

had fun everyday rotting at hm.. haha.. went to watch shrek2 n day aft tmr.. both r nice shows! haha. but then when watchin day aft tmr damn stress.. haha.. but it was a good show never-the-less..

mooncher n charmaine came to my place the other day.. shouldnt have shown them the sand art! mess up everythg in my rm! pur everythg here and there! almost wanted to kill them! haha.. KIDS! scary! then i had to sweep the rm.. sigh.. i've learnt a lesson, never be too nice. and nv let em play in yr rm! haha.. then brot them to the pool.. charmaine totally went berserk. started splashing water at us. MAD WOMAN. haha.. then went to aunt pris's cell chalet at costa sands.. lotsa food! haha.. yum.. guess thats was the ony fun thing i did for the wk.. now at church, jus finished retreat stuff.. got prayer mtg later.. and im playing again. hope nothing screws up.. ha..

hols kinda swim past really fast.. bout less than 1 mth.. sob.. haha.. but im looking forward to skool anyway! went to kimage let the students there cut my hair.. haha.. only 5.20.. damn cheap.. haha. i wanna cut spiky hair but think my face too big liao! haha..

ok, firstly, dad has cleared my net bills, and hp bill. so now im relieved. thank God. but think nid some time to fix bk the net stuff, get password, etc.. first thing i woke up on thurs was switching on my phone. aft that i juz put it bk under the pillow. and this vibration came, then came the NP results.. ugh. scared the hell outta me! imagine stil in dreamland, then comes this type of shock. haha. but thank God. really. He's faithful. pull me thru again! cleared everythg, including stats. thank God. was freaking scary. tot i will def fail and haf to retake but i didnt! AMEN! didnt do well lah, as usual, but real thankful for everythg! *smileeesssss*.

oh ya, then i saw clarabelle on wed at PS! oh my! i was so happy yet nervous, cuz haven seen her since P6! so its a whopping 6 yrs! she's stil the same, jus that she's bigger than before! one of my bestest fren in pri 3-4.. stil remembered she came my place n thon for a wk after my bday! haha.. she's in RJC nw, smart huh.. not like me! but stil am glad n thankful to see her! haf been searching for her high n low! haha.. then we exchange nos... sun's dot's bday.. made smthg fo her, looks kind of daft but never mind! its the tot that counts rite! 2 wks more to camp! yeeps!

have been rotting at hm almoz everyday... sit infronta lappie n play all the lame games.. haha.. and oh yeah, American idol's fantastic! Fantasia won! felt a lil sad for diana, but i guess there can only be one winner! looking forwartd to S'pore idol! but think they cant sing well.. haha.. send fish off last sunday! fun! love going to the airport.. dot, grace, suat, aud, nick n me! FUNNN! hhaha... im bonkers..

think i got flu. ugh. and i think wil haf the sexy voice pretty soon! charmaine n mooncher are sooper cute! followed my mama to her cell last nite, then played with the two of em! haha.. am so glad they are going for camp too! haha.. but so sad that they cant take chocs, cuz they have sensitive skin.. terrible..

anyway, hope everyone else's enjoying their hols! cheeeerrrrrsssss!

still no internet connection.. so cant blog regularly. Ugh. Nvm.. gonna send my lappy for servicing.. space bar cant work.. ugh.. hols are driving me crazy. Left me penniless, and rotting like fungi.. haha! basically i HIBERNATE in da room.. haha... sleep n sleep w/o getting any productive things done. haha.. im hopeless.. went for that cell last nite.. real different dominations man.. haha.. then my cousin's kid went also! and goodness gracious, he got CHICKEN POX, and his grandmama berot him there. how dumb can ppl get?! to think there was a pregnant lady there! oh my... i freaked out when i heard he got the deadly chicky poxy! u have no idea how scared i am! almost burst into tears man! haha.. useless me..

then went to my aunts house aft that.. stayed there chatting til 3am.. power huh! haha.. five women.. frankly speaking i think it probably wasnt enuff at all. haha.. give us more time and we can cont till forever.. haha.. cuz y? WOMEN. WOMEN. WOMEN.

hmmm another wk down.. whats left.. 5 more wks of freedom. hope everybody else is having a great time!

hehheh..i bloggeed... but cuz no internet connection, so cant blog! sob... many things happened these few days.. really eventful i guess! anyway, i hate male chavinistic pigs.. and i guess u are right. LOVE IS BLIND. INDEED BLIND. just how dumb can certain girls get.. i hope she wakes up in time. went to her hse to console her that very nite.. til 3.30 in the morning.thats what frens are for rite.. but i guess it didnt help, cuz she already know what she wants. DAMN IT. what an idiot..! dun wanna talk bout her, only makes my blood boil! ARGHHH... stoooopiD.. PURE STUPIDITY! not gonna care next time... DUMABASSSSSSSS.....

haha 2 primary frens left me a msg in frenster! almoz couldnt recognize em! wahaha.... the feelings great i guess.. gonna b bz this wk... catch up with pat & hl, go singing, class chalet.. but am damn broke.. really broke.. how likE that???

starting to miss all my frens!! haha.. jess, liz etc etc... my clazzzzmates! haha... and lotsa other peeps... saw sijie at Suntec on sunday, then saw donna on tues! haha wat a small world!

take care, people around... God Bless u! Cheers...

finally... and i say finally... my dreaded exams are over!!! thank God that i am still alive well and kicking! muz realli thank God for pulling me thru this sem.. and thanks to all my frens who've been rooting for me all these while! appreciate it tons! Hugs...

gonna haf fun for a few weeks or so! before the results are out.. gonna leave them all in His hands... Dun wanna think abt it for nw! haha.. this type of feeling's really great! like you've been released from a kidnapper, or rather released from jail, given a new lease of life! ahaha... kinda exaggerating i know.. but that's how im really feeling now!

hehheh.. my lappy's sick, nid to reformatt... Ugh... hope pastor nick can help me with it! waahahhahahaaa... few things that i wanna do in the hols, hopefully i'll finish whatever i've promised myselF.. LASTLY, CHURCH CAMP!!! cant wait for it man! its gonna be cool! haha...

ciao for now...

As I was walking down life's highway many years ago, I came upon a sign that read
Heavens Grocery Store.

When I got a little closer the doors swung open wide
And when I came to myself, I was standing inside.

I saw a host of angels.

They were standing everywhere

One handed me a basket and said "My child, shop with care."

Everything a human needed was in that grocery store

And what you could not carry you could come back for more

First I got some Patience.

Love was in that same row.

Further down was Understanding,

You need that everywhere you go.

I got a box or two of Wisdom and Faith a bag or two.

And Charity of course

I would need some of that too.

I couldn't miss the Holy Ghost

It was all over the place.

And then some Strength and Courage to help me run this race.

My basket was getting full but I remembered I needed Grace,

And then I chose Salvation for Salvation was for free

I tried to get enough of that to do for you and me.

Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill,

For I thought I had everything to do the Masters will.

As I went up the aisle
I saw Prayer and put that in,

For I knew when I stepped outside I would run into sin.

Peace and Joy were plentiful, the last things on the shelf.

Song and Praise were hanging near so I just helped myself.

Then I said to the angel
"Now how much do I owe?"

He smiled and said "Just take them everywhere you go."

Again I asked "Really now, How much do I owe?"

"My child" he said,
"God paid your bill a long long time ago."

another day gone, and i've done nothing..

spent the day in church, music prac... aft that went over to HV to get some stuff.. then went for dinner with nick, aud, george n adel, and fish... wanted to dine at Fish and Co. at the glass house, but then the queue was super long.. so we went sizzler at tpy.. haha heartlander again.. its was so fun.. and i ate til so full! so paiseh that they treated me n fish again.. they always treat us, simply cuz we're students, not earning $$ yet... but cannot everytime like that! i was like so paiseh... will be like 'erm dun think i'll go out too often with them cuz they'll treat me again.. but i like their company! but its jus that i dun wan them to pay everytime! Ugh.. shall treat them one day.. or mayb jus be veri veri nice to them... haha..

now im starrting to worry again for my exams... Fish had her last paper today.. So envious...

hehheh didnt go for tennis...
skies were gloomy, any moment, and it'll pour...
so i stayed hm..
Liz say can make up again tmr...
then aft that Glen helped us check the attendance
turn out that we they forgot to mark us absent for 1 lesson
so i guess we can miss again!
hopefully no one will ever find out!
else i'll fail S&W!
that'd be terrible!

i wanna go out and take a breather! Ugh...
haf been home for so many days, and its suffocating me!
can't wait for tmr!
at least i'll be out of the house!
hopefully can go out in the night...
town, dinner, anythg, anywhere!
Just wanna be out out out!

Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...
Somebody help me please!
Wonder if i can transfer course or smthg...
but think its impossible...

don't know why blogger's not publishing my posts... ugh... getting on my nerves! i havent study much... jialat.. no time.. but i get really distracted at hm... TV, lappie, fridge, magazines, bed etc etc.. how?! theres so much i dunno! and stats next thurs!! how to pass?? so scared yet im not doing much abt it! oh no... Sigh...

got tennis tmr.. damn sianing one.. Ugh... LIfe's in a humongous mess again...

cant believe it, jus 1 day, and im starting to miss my mama already... cant wait for sunday! hope she's having fun in Shanghai man... so jealous...

Grace is sneaking that Mono Lisa Smile's diaries for em... and she did it! haha.. so scared she get caught! but thank God she didnt.. haha.. anyway, it was nice of her to get that for em.. she got me one first and pass it to me on tues... and shes at NP lib nw.. WT...!

i wanna go to IGOR'S! Went to check out the website! looks all fun n cool! but its damn expensive! ard $70 per head.. then i was jus browsing thru the papers and i saw this ad! - One for one at IGOR'S interlude with the vampire! til may 22.. i was like *tink* sort of like hmmm is it hinting me to go?? haha... but i really wanna go! hopefully one fine day!

im very scared, worried, frettied, agonized, distressed, miserable now... only God can help me.. but how? when im not even willing to help myself and let Him help... Sigh... i really hope miracles will unfold, and that suddenly i'll know all my work.. But its mission impossible...

A little girl walked to and from school daily.

Though the weather that morning was questionable and clouds were forming,
she made her daily trek to the elementary school.

As the afternoon progressed, the winds whipped up, along with thunder and lightning.

The mother of the little girl felt concerned that her daughter would be frightened as she walked home from school and she herself feared that the electrical storm might harm her child.

Following the roar of thunder, lightning, like a flaming sword, would cut through the sky.

Full of concern, the mother quickly got into her car and drove along the route to her child's school. As she did so, she saw her little girl walking along, but at each flash of lightning, the child would stop, look up and smile. Another and another were to follow quickly and with each the little girl would look at the streak of light and smile

When the mother's car drew up beside the child she lowered the window and called to her, "What are you doing? Why do you keep stopping?"

The child answered, "I am trying to look pretty. God keeps taking my picture."

May God bless you today as you face the storms that come your way.

Tuesday...

an eventful day i would say...

left for town after stats remedial to get pressie for someone... met Grace after that at city hall to for ShouMing LaoShi's wake at commonwealth.

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Ah Soh is filling up an application form for a job.
She supplied the information for the columns on Name, Age, Address etc
Then she comes to column on "Salary Expected" She is not sure of the
question.
After much thought, she writes " Yes "

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hmmm... went to get subway sandwich with grace n suat before cell.. yummy... didnt know i'd like it.. but it was nice! haha... had cell grp, and i really thank God for it. tho i didnt speak much... i always dun speak much during cell.. dunno why also.. guess cuz they got lots to share so i jus listen..

but i feel that in a cell it shd be like this.. some ppl share, and some listen, and enc by agreeing, by nodding, by giving non-verbal encouragements.. its jus that they always have lots of things to say.. and i am jus clueless on what to say.. either that or im afraid i'll go out of point.. i guess im really cautious of how others look at me, or how they perceive the stuff i say.. thats why i dont talk much.

i dont want it to be like this.. but it always happens. i wanna share too but dunno why i just get dumbfounded.. Ugh.. i pray that God'll grant me the wisdom, courage to share more during cell.. and that what i say may build others up, not pull them down...

was soooper tired, cuz wake up at 7 plus cuz have ta go early to church.. so i was in dreamland at ard 11..

feel that the NKF shows really daft.. inflicting pain on themselves, to get ppl to donate money... it shouldnt be that way. ppl shd donate money, cuz they care for those patients.. but not cuz of the degree to which the danger of the silly stunts the celebrities were carrying out.. all of it were dumb.. totally stupid. not a good way at all.. dunno why some singaporeans are so dumb... and nw i know being a ceeleb is not easy... haha... anyway, since its dumb, dun expect me to donate at all! Wahahahz..

gonna make this a short one...

anyway, im a good girl today... cuz im not out! jus got hm at 6 tho.. Grace plucked out 3 white hairs for me! Ugh! Fancy me having white hairs?? haha... shows that im stress?? but it doesnt seem to be the case leh.. Weird.. Playing for the canto svc tmr.. SCARY! got cell tmr, and i've completely forgotten that i am leading worship.. DOUBLE UGH.

gonna try study... try only... ahaha...

it had been a long and tiring day... was dreading it cuz of the skit.. Well the last day of sch. had so much gladness in my heart. anticipated the arrival of this day. Finally, i can take a break. but theres gonna lots that i nid ta do.
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the skit was kinda disastrous, cuz of some problems.. but shdnt dwell on it, since its over. Tennis was rather fun.. jus played by ourselves.. but was very tired aft that.. always weary on Fridays.. Exhausted too, like something suck the life outta me.. Played for life today.. Was really scared & stressed.. but He pulled me thru.. yeah, thank you Lord. Tho i couldnt hear myself.. but stil i know i had the peace from God..
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what is it like to like somebody of the opposite sex? why is the person u like always close to other people that u cant really click with? weird eh.. and sometimes, when u least expected it, something good happens.. isit God answering my prayers? but it doesnt seems like it.. cuz when piece together, it doesnt come out to be a complete jigsaw puzzle. parts of it are missing.. and instead of guiding one another, the pieces are actually misleading their fellow parts.. im really baffled. why get my hopes high when it'll all turn out to be nonentity. Sigh. i really dont like that kind of feeling. why do i get jealous easily? isit cuz im really fond of that person? i wish God'll tell me what to do, and where my problem lies exactly...
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in the twinkling of an eye, the school term has come to an end... i would say i am stil in a state of shock, because i feel that i've not settle down yet. but now, sch's done for the term... and i've done nothing productive. Suddenly it dawned on me that time really flies. Come to think of it, its rather scary. So many things beyond our grasp. Yet we want them all. Help.

was supp to meet Suaty for lunch.. but her eyes were sooooper swollen, like luohan fish.. damn jialat.. in fact, can't see her eyes at all. they were barely open.. cuz the doc gave her the wrong medication! WTH! how could she be so reckless! if its other more serious case, ppl wud have died!

so i went ta find glen, donn n sijie who were lunching at HV.. then had lunch with them, then walk ard.. hahaz.. quite fun.. then we went to town.. first time gg out with donn n sijie.. but it was fun lah! quite crazy peeps... and then glen kept saying Sijie was pointing her middle finger at him! but i nv see it leh.. haaa.. so sorry glen.. then aft went bk to cuz got check-out for tmr's Singspiration..

ate my fave green tea ice-cream from hagen Daz! so YUMMILICIOUS... hahaz... then went bk n ate this special ferrero hazelnut choc.. so nice! from germany.. but my mama went to gif the other 2 to my aunty! WTH! hahaz...

having my lms skit tmr.. dunno why kinda like dread it.. then got an extra make-up class early in the morn.. Sian... then somemore got tennis.. Ugh.. gonna be a long n tiring day. Ugh..

Gonna watch AMI..

went town wid jess today... combed the whole of wisma.. then taka then heerens... saw Yanti! so shock to see her in MI.. so guess she's there.. pretty much the same, skinny as ever! then went home... then was over the moon! becuz of that ...! sooo happy that i was screaming with joy n my mama tot i was nuts. perhaps it was a small part of an answered prayer.. hope the other parts wil slowly be answered too.. haha..

blackout now.. some parts of bk timah.. all of toh yi, kilat... damn jialat... cuz street lights also gone.. veri dangerous for cars on the road.. "Let there be light..." pray for those peeps on the roads yeah! that God wil grant them journey mercies!

have been an eventful week... Maundy Thurs, Good Friday, Easter... Everyday was filled with laughter! And im truly thankful for that! Was at church every other day since last wed.. the music prac on wed's definitely the best one i ever had! Everyone was soooper CRAZY, singing, dancing the MAD, AND FUNNY way! Esp Nick!! was supposed to be like, sad when we sing but in the end we did a happening renditions of the songs, with added Rapping etc! IT WAS JUST SO FUN AND COOL!

then came thurs.. i was bloody mad that say. Cuz i couldnt watch Passion. just bcuz i wasnt 18! How fair is that?! and i was stuck in the other theatre alone watching Hildago. So sad yeah. Act the person didnt check, and i cud have went in. BUT... anyway, shdnt be angry... it's over.. and btw, Hildago was nice! tot i'd zzz but i didnt.. then it was Maundy thurs at church.. really like the altar stripping part. it was so nice, quiet and peaceful, and in the darkness was the mighty cross, with a hint of blue light behind it.

then came Good Friday.. really thank God for sending His son to die on the cross for our sins. And only thru Him may we receive eternal life. there was altar calling, and peeps came to renew their love for GOd. It was really touching. I could really feel God's presence then.. Aft svc, helped to sweep office... Aft that went to get Maggie's bk-up singing clothes. went to tpy, with nick, aud, grace n sharon.. managed to get the shirt for her.. then we headed to jurong pt since it was near mag n sha's hze. thank God we managed to find the pants! by that time we were super exhausted already! so went for a good dinner!

then sat had prac at church then went home to study.. but couldnt really concentrate.. kept watching tv instead.. or rather playing the piano..

the veri much anticipated Easter was here! a joyous occasion, as we celebrate Jesus' resurrection and His victory over sins and death! Jason and Dominique was baptised! So happy for them, but err, forgot to congrats them.. then aft got buffet at church.. whenever there's a big occasion, theres always buffet! haha.. then Yingle came, Wenxin also.. oh yah weitings mama also got baptised! went home to study after that.. turns out my mama's fren came along too, to my house, with her two granddaughters.. So i had to like entertain them.. play with them.. but they both very cute, and pretty! One's Charmaine, the other Mooncher... pronounced as mooncia... haha..

then today.. nightmare! i was about to leave home for ocomm paper then i realised i lost my key! was searching for it frantically! so scared, close to bursting into tears! it was driving me nuts! then i tried calling my mama n papa, but to no avail cuz they were at some karaoke thingy! but at last my mama answered.. then my papa took a cab bk to open the door for me.. but before he came bk, i already managed to open the door with a super rusty spare key! i was like HALLELUIA, PRAISE GOD! God is good, all the time! then i quickly called my papa.. but he was reaching already! and he was super pissed with me that he hang up on me!

Could have imagine how i felt! Sorry, scared, and stiil shaking a little... then cheryl accompanied to bktimah plaza for dinner.. when i finished, my dad called.. he was like, mummy got cook, so you come bk for dinner ah, and i went like okok... haha so thankful that he wasnt mad anymore!

Journey

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

Ooh! What a day! FUN FUN FUN's the word! hmmm fulla adventures! Wahahaha.. not gonna mention school cuz its just so uninteresting!

Went to TPY wid jess! haha.. We were at the bus stop for so long, and the 157 didnt come.. then aft that ana they all went to bus stop to change bus. then aft they had gone, the 157 was not here yet. And when it was finally here, me n jess actually missed it cuz we were bz talking. WTH! haha.. thank God another one came shortly aft that!

hmmm ok thats the appetiser... Now i'll proceed to the main course!

We went for lunch at Mos and guess who i saw?? Grace! Wahaha.. What a small world.. But then she always at TPY so it ain't surprising to locate her there! haha.. before that she was messaging me then like haha such a coincidence! when i went to her table, she screamed lor... Mad woman, made me so embarrassed! ahaha.. but come to think of it, it was quite fun lah. to bump into yr bestie! ahaha.. jess act tot i was the one screaming. *Sweating profusely..* haha..

then she zao with her fren so jess n i jus continued eating.. ahahaz... tthen we went to cash converter! and we saw the i-zone cammie for only $8! And we were soooper tempted to get it.. so we asked the salesman to show it to us lah, but he didnt, he said that ppl have bot, and couldnt find the place to get the sticker film.. so we were like kind of disappointed! but we didnt give up hope yet! haha so we continued walking ard, shopping, etc etc.. then we went to gior and saw a cute tee! but didnt get it immediately.. so we walked ard that area, and found a photo-dev shop. But we found no trace of the sticker film.. So we were rather disheartened... then we went to that cheap cheap store and got a $3 skirt! haha.. with stripes at the side! haha...CHEAP N GOOD! Wahaha... then headed back to Gior and got the t-shirt! haha.. So happiee!!!

Then we walk ard to find the sticker film! AND WE FINALLY FOUND IT! SO HAPPIE! hahaha... then off we went to get the i-zone cammie! then...
"Miss, you sure you want it?"
"No refund one ok!"
"i let you know first, otherwise later u ask then cannot..."
then me n jess was like "yah sure sure ok ok!"

and when we reach the cashier...
"Miss, confirm you want it?"
"No refund ah, got ppl buy, and then cant find the , you sure you want?"

*sweat sweat sweat* haha...

the salepeeps were so loud when they said that, and many ppl were like staring at us. i felt like crawling into a hole and hide there forever! haha.. told em we want it alredy what! ARGHHH...! haha... then we went ard the interchange in vain, to find a seat so that we cud try to snap a pic n see if it was working! in the end, we sat at some staircase, and tried to snap... in the end we realised there were no batteries.. and so we cudnt snap anythg at all. so went to get batt. then guess what? jess's one got flash, n it was working but mine couldnt! i was like! ARGHHH WHAT THE HELL!!! haha.. so pek chek, and frustrated, and angry, upset etc etc! so off we went, bk to the shop to see if i cud exchange.. Thank God i cud, so i jus kept on trying all the cammies to see if anyone else can work..

in the end all can't until one last one.. IT WORKED! PRAISE GOD! i was so thankful, happy, delighted! haha... afterall there's one that worked! GOD IS GOOD!

haha.. then when we were on our way back, saw Grace again, talked a little, said bye and left... then a few steps later since i last saw her, i was like, eh shd haf taken a pic with her! haha so headed bk, and pulled her out of the shop to take a pic wid me! haha.. then jess took for us.. 1st time came out kinda spoilt, cuz i was so kan chiong, and i keppt on flipping the pic so turn out got extra patterns by the side! haha.. then took again! SOOOOOO HAPPPPPPPYYYYYYYY!!!!! then we said bye again lah haha.. then i came home!

feeling happy, elated, delighted!!! Thank God!

YIPPEEEEEE!!! i finally finish my test! so happy n thankful! Wahaha... tho im 100% sure im gonna fail, stil glad its over!

Today's my daddy's birthday! Happy Birthday Dad! haha didnt get anything for him.. feel so bad. but come to think of it, i've never gave him pressies since i was in primary school?? but then i went to get a cake on my way home lah... but $$$ sponsored by my mama! haha..

thinki over stressed already... went back hm, had to pass thru beauty world, so i decided to hit the supermarket to get smthg, be it chips, sweets or chocs.. but in the end, guess what i got? Come on make a guess... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ! A BOX CONTAINING 20PKTS OF TISSUE PAPER! Wahaha! Cool eh?? Can't believe it man... but then i've always like that tissue paper cuz of its material.. material of the packet, not the tissue! haha.. shd go check it out, PULPPY brand.. $2 for 20 pkts.. ok i know it, im bonkers! feel like an idiot after that!

then the worm story.. Gross me out.. turns out that insect is having a home in my house's ladder! damn gross... my papa went to like push all the contents out! then guess what? there are about 10 fat caterpillars in it! YUCKS!!! DISGUSTING eh? my mama n i were like screaming while watching! then act the home of the insect is its larvae, their kiddies lah.. quite fat also! then the larvae was suppose to feed on the caterpillars... most caterpillars died already, except for 2 or 3 still wriggling! YIKES! Scare the hell outta me! however.. i feel a bit sorry for the insect.. imagine it coming bk, then all its kids gone.. but nevertheless, IM GLAD ITS GONE! AND I HOPE IT WILL NEVER COME BACK! then guess what my mama say? she say later when she's out with my dad, the insect will bring all its family and frens to attack me! hahaha.... lame yeah! but if that really happen, i'll rather die now haha.. worst part is the caterpillars! all green, fat and juicy! hahaha. YUMMY! Ugh.

Grace Buy is going to Saturday Night Fever! and i WANNA GO TOO! so jealous... but i got no $$.. or rather i'll rather buy shoes or what.. but i wanna go leh.. if get $16 one like cant see much.. 50 plus one like cant see that clearly also.. wish some kind soul would sponsor me n liz so we can go tog! haha.. BIG FAT HOPE yeah...

hmmm as we step into the Holy Week, i cant help but feel excited! cuz its where we get reminded of the last supper, Jesus's sacrifice for us on the cross, and His resurrection! *grins* i pray that the Lord will watch over our hearts in these 3 svcs and may His holy spirit continue to be with us and guide us! Amen.

Oh yeah, and retreat!!! CAN'T WAIT! yes saw pics of the place!! cool leh! gonna be sooo sooo sooo funnnnnn! hehheh.. i jus hope that the Lord will provide for me, papa n mama to go! then i'll even be happier! CAN'T WAIT!

I forgot to print the OB notes for the class again.. Sigh.. too many tests left me like this.. hope they wun blame me.. will tell the tutor tmr that its my fault again.. Sigh.. Ugh. Gonna do my econs n ob tutorial now.. Sian..

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU!

She was so scared, nervous, anxious,
worried, jumpy, edgy, tensed, panicky, uneasy
when she went for her paper
but it was ok. at least in was better than her first one
of cuz it doesnt mean that she'll do well
but she gave her best.

then she went for dinna wid her mama..
then went for prayer mtg.
she was surprised to see that gal there too
but nevertheless she was happy...

she felt that churchmates were simply
the best things that happened to her life
how much they love her
how much they care for her
was really appreciated by her...

she kept thinking bout
her church camp these few days..
she really look forward to it
tho she knows that the 3 days
will be over before she knows it.
yet she can't wait.

now that econs is over
she had to worry bout stats.
she knew zilch about it..
what to do. what to do.
she wished someone can help her.
but who will it be?
she doesnt know...

she was lazy to blog.
too tired in fact.
she didnt know what she was doing in np.
she was tied up with tests, that drove her berserk.
tmr's econs, and she still know nothing bout it.
what shd she do?
so many graphs and definitions and equations.

ppl ard her are all so smart.
frens say they don't know a single thing
but always do well in tests & exams.
so she chose not to listen to them.
ppl ard her caused her to feel stressed.
all day long, they are studying
but she, she's sighing away...

she decided to skip schoo, tmr.
and study for her test.
but wil it help?
she doesnt know..
only God knows..

and so here's her prayer.

Dear God. Thank you for everything.
good or bad that has happened.
For it is Yr plans Lord.
i know im weak.
so Lord i pray that u'll strengthen me,
in all things that i do.
and that it's u who's working in me
not by my own strength.
but Yours.
thank you for seeing me thru each and every day of my life.
i know that You
will never leave me
nor forsake me.
You're faithful.

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Every move i make
i make in You.
You make me move, Jesus
Every breath i take
i breathe in You

Every step i take
i take in You
You are my way Jesus
Every breath i take
i breathe in You

Waves of mercy
Waves of grace
Everywhere i look
i see Your face
Your love has captured me
Oh my God this love
How can it be...

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