15/10/04

after 40 days
finally received an sms from her
and i was jus telling God the other day
that i wished she would take initiative instead
and He paid attention to such a small wish
something that was just so unimportant
thank u Lord
she told me there was this shop
at orchard plaza
poa shoes going for a song @ only 19.90
hahas wil head down, nxt sat this time!

was at church studying then ah bee came
passed me this brochure
told me that reverend ask me to attend
its a praise and worship seminar
- effective piano for worship -
so she said go back and consider lah
and i thot since God want me to do this
why not
so i think im gonna go!
so excited
dots gg with me too
hopefully i'll absorb many things and
have more confidence
and play for worship service!
to put whatever i've learnt into service
for the Lord
$65 for 6 hrs
split into 2 days
sponsored by church
so im gonna go and be inspired!

then one of the most embarrassed things happened to me
took 75 hm fr hv
carrying my camou army green sling
went up the bus
walked to the bk to get a seat
before i could pass the exit door
i was like wthell
how come suddenly theres a force pulling me bk
the elastic strings of my bag got hooked to
somebody else's bag who was in the front
u could have imagine
how bloody paiseh i was
i had to retreat and said
sorry sorry
and settled for a seat in the front
all the paisehness
ugh!
hahaha...
then i had to keep my cool
so i took out my notes and pretend to think real deep
took out my phone and called my mama
hahahha...
so paiseh...
i was imagining the people in the back all snickering
luckily, the bag belongs to a maid
if it was some cute guy,
then thats the end of it. haha...

then grace came over to my place
needed my mama's help to make cheerleading clothes
seems like its a shoot
and she brought the directors along
like so cool man
then they found np magnum force peeps for the shoot
ahahhaha skali got albert
hahaha...
but they want it by nxt wk
so my mama might nt be able to rush...

16/10/04
had hrm paper today
thank God it was a breeze
managed to handle all the questions
wasnt much problem
so glad 1 paper is down.
i guessed the remedial class really helped
hehheh...

shit i feel like going out.
ugh.

i think this girl looks cute... hahaha...

the man and woman are gg putri tmr
sigh, but i cant follow this time
papers are all so near
cant help but feeling a lil excited
tho' stil got tons of stuff stil havent touched yet.

auds bday coming, 21st
mayb will ask amei to get some stuff and share it
im very drained already
not much juice left
alamak.

they wun be ard tmr
but think i'll still make my way to church
only can focus and study there
no idea why also
but i guess its bcuz its
1) quiet
2) no distractions
3) me all alone in the rm
so its good for me!

my cuzzie's wedding's cmg
cant wait
looking forward to it!
uncles aunties gonna come fr m'sia
few yrs since i last saw my lil cuzzies
its gonna be fun

but right now
i've to cross a hurdle first
and God'll guide me thru it
He'll be there with me
holding my hand
til i finish the whole race
and after that
He'll still be there.

i love to blog.
i love to sum up my day in a blog.
it feels good. to blog.
just a release of all emotions.
tho u cant really mention names at times

went to sch
then met wenjun to study
but wif ard
i'll end up talking non-stop like an idiot
then went oppo to killiney to have dinna
think its quite cool to go oppo and eat in da night
hahaha

was playing time crisis at hawk's place
haha so funnnsss
but the aud snatched it from me
jus aft a short while

hawk lives on the 23rd storey
and i lived on the 22nd
didnt wanna take the stairs when i wanna come hm
so i took lift with nic and aud
then guess what?
he wouldnt allow me to press 22nd storey!
i was like what the hell lah!
then had to go up 22nd storeys in the lift alone
kinda scary, 12-35 in the lift all alone.
ugh.
gonna get him for that!!!

they gg m'sia again
i wanna go too
but dots not gg
then i'll feel lonely
still considering lah

there are so many things i wanna get at spotlight
after checking out the catalogue
i wanna get
1) white flower girl halo with white flowers - to be made myself ha
2) the 'get creative' monthly mag
3) sea-play elastane to may into swimming costumes
4) polka dots and stripes cloth
5) printed stretch poplin
6) 'cargo' stripes
7) sunprints
8) cutie pie iron on motifs
9) angel halo
10) glass milk bottle - super cute!
11) 'pink daisy' printed velour - beach towels
12) terry beach blanket

go take a look!
http://www.spotlight.com.sg/new/shopping

all the things are super nice!
i want it all!
so that my mama can make then into nice clothes for me
hehhehs.

catched white chicks ytd
super farnie.
kept laughing and laughing
sigh. there goes my revision.
damn shitty.
dunno balance of payment.
and hrm back chapters are all extremely tough
heck man.
but at least i study more in church.
sian. the exams are so near. so so near.
dot's supp to be mugging
but she went to work at awfully chocolate.
what the!
nvm. shall pop by and ask her to blanja me
hehs.

sometimes,
at one moment.
u are so happy.
i mean E.X.H.I.L.A.R.A.T.E.D.
and the next,
the happiness just burst like a bubble.
and no more happiness.
it's short-lived.
sigh.
wish it was forever.

depression sank in again
on a bright cheery monday.
just 1 email.
and thats enough.
always make my life miserable
nonchalant.
always say im nonchalant.
im not.
idiot.
u are the one who's nonchalant.
im trying very hard you know.
u think i like being mean?
damned.
cant u bloody see im trying.
are u blind or what.
hate.
sad again.
again.
thanks to you.
you never fail to make me sad.
u r such a great friend.
i love you.

just got back. yawns.

this nicholas chung
asked me why i left church early
asked me why nv help him buy rice
then told me someone asked him to pass smthg to me
kept asking him, but he wouldnt reveal it.
kept me in suspense.

then at ard 10.30
asked me go up
pass me the gift
and i open it up
a bottle of stars
ugh.
a little grossed out
what era are u living in sir?
early 1990s?
perhaps im being mean here
i mean it was nice of that someone
i think i know who is it
but i wish it was the other one.
yeah. that man it is.
the.other.one.

not much time left.
yet im nt studying again.
went for brunch at Hawks place.
spaghetti.sausage.ham.wings.garlic bread.eggs.orange juice.yums.
thanks guys.
then went church for prac.
was in a foul mood
didnt wanna sing or play
in the end i played.
then had the music min gathering.
fun.laughs.joy.
then went for dinna with the girls.
kinda pissed by her
didnt understand why it muz be that way
damn.
but i was in the wrong too.
anyway
the other woman
replied my mail and also at the webbie
hmmm
now im confused again.

so once again, i havent study much
just 1 pathetic chapter of cma.
like that how?
encouraging to see pearl's blog
she looks forward to doing qt
and she enjoys it
me?
havent done it for ages.
sigh.
feel guilty.
but im stil not doing it.
God change me please.
please let me have a heart of desire for doing my qt.

i think i need to change
my character. my attitude. my tempers.
i should be saying things that build ppl up,
not tear them down.
sigh.
things are kinda bad
but im gonna let God take control
hope it just get better.
i think im getting cranky and crankier.
and i seem to crave for attention.
mann.
i need to be TRANSFORM!
hehs.
funny eh.
stop laughing you.
idiot.

this is post is gonna be a super long one
so please bear with it.
kinda zonked out

07/10
left at 8, went to hyatt at J.B
quite a nice place, but it was too businessy
so aud say no no
then we proceeded to Summerset Colonial resort
abt 3hrs drive fr s'pore
so was singing, reading, crapping in the car
reached there, and it was like a ghost town.
kinda creepy. not a single soul in sight.
then that dumb mary ghost joke kinda scare me
it was like a rainforest there
landscape was nt very nice, but think angmohs will like it there
very deserted
the rooms were ok, but the function rms were horrid.
hot, stinks, and the paint's peeling off
but we took a really 'nice' pic
will post it up soon
went to the sea area, saw a cricket
then nic used it to pretend to throw at dot
and guess what?
she C.R.I.E.D.
then drove out for dinner
dinner was great
then we walked ard to shop for some tidbits and satay
before heading bk to the resort
jus rotted in nic's rm and play daidee
nut much lah'
had a good sleep...

08/10
woke up, went for breakfast
and it was pathetic
but the ppl there treated us cuz we were supp to get a deal
for having camp nxt yr
so we had nasi lemak noodles omelette chipolata sausage hashbrowns toast. yums'
and my fav honey stars haha
then went swimming
super fun
learnt freestyle from nic
but still dun really noe how to swim ha
but had fun
a little burnt tho.
then drove bk to J.B,
was shopping the night away
bot my big hoop earrings
hehs.
everythg is so cheap there!

thanksgivings*
1) safe journey to and fro
2) prayed for rain to stop, and God answered it immediately.
3) good time of fellowship
4) a time of retreat

hmmm, she replied my mail.
eh now im ashamed.
very ashamed.

even wilfy visits the web
alamak, shall not post anythihg nxt time.

im confused.
totally confused.

so how now?
how, you tell me.

went for blaw tutorial today
as usual, boring.
went church to mug after that
but nothing much went into the head
haha...
too noisy at hm,
with all the renovations gg on downstairs
think i wil go crazy

gg off to m'sia tomo morning
so excited
like taking a break
but then suppose to be mugging for exams
but anyway, wil be back on fri lah
so not that bad
will try ta study in the car too!
haven pack my stuff yet, ugh.
hope tt God'll grant us journey mercies
and that we'll have a blessed stay there
bye peeps! take care... *winks

i wanna go MAMMA MIA!!! *grins*

so tired... jus fell asleep sitting on the sofa
sigh, nothing productive done again
test was flop
so many things i dont know haha...
gg away on thurs to m'sis with nic, aud, n dot
gonna go to recci nxt yr's campsite
staying at the hotel
they offer water sports there
hopfully can canoe?
haha but think its gonna be dangerous

thanks to all my friends who cared
and ask me why i was so sad
got over it!
am not gonna bother anymore
daughter1 cut her hair!
tot she look nice, demure, haha...
pukes...
looks like joey swee in the 9o'clock serial
hahahahahahhahahaha...

think gonna skip classes tmr
so tired, wanna sleep till late late
cant wait for thurs, yet feel tt i wont have time to study if i go away
but yet i want + definitely will go
hopeless...
exams so near, yet im still playing

*yawns*

i wrote her an email, and it went like this:

hey gal... whats up man... havent had heart to heart talk with you for a really long time. nv receive any smses from u at all for some time... realise u havent sat beside me during svc for quite some time also... are u like mad at me or smthg? or is it because of the kite-flying incident? the nonchalant reply fr me? its bothering me, that we seem nt as closed as before... noticed that u are like extremely busy nowadays... and you dont look as cheerful as u used to... perhaps u are too stressed out over all yr work etc?

saddens me very much really, that we both seem to distance ourselves... prob its just me being too sensitive. i don't know... things ok between u and him? u dont talk much abt him, so i guess and hope all's well...

anyway, i really, sincerely hope that we'll remain close, and let nothing ever jeopardise our friendship. may God's blessings be poured unto you in the week to come. take care..

before she could reply me, i went into our cell webbie and there was a reply from her to my question of "Does anybody cares? Where's everyone? sobs...and it says:

everyone seems mia, but they are around n they care, n u did a wonderful job with updating the site. my dear sister, it ain\'t our absence that matters, but what results fr our presence that matters (not alot too, haha..) i guess this cloak of cynicism to protect us fr disappointmt shd be shed cuz it\'s not helping. wat disappointment are we reali goint thru??tat\'s gotta stem fr asking ourselves wat do we want? a lot of hang out time? or quality time where everyone\'s eager to come n share out tots n feelings n pray 4 each other? watz the thermometer we are using to measure our frenship/fellowship? no. of hours tog? no. of activities tog? no. of jokes we share? in fact, can we honestly say our cellmtgs r satisfying n wat hv we done 2 make it so? am i disappointed? do i have to be? i think not. it's life. it's reality. to see u gals in church is heartening enough. i dun have to doubt or question if u gals care, cuz i know u all do. n so wat if u dun, i dun even myself to wander ttat dangerous zone to be disappointed. many times life n all itz suckiness obstruct us fr translating our love/concern into chirpy emails/sms/calls but does it reali matter IF we can look fwd to a warm sharing time on sunday? IF....anyway, jus shooting off here, dunno how to wrap up all these thoughts with sugary sweet language but heck, who reads?? n it's facts wat, hahaa... so jus feel free to shoot off whatever thoughts here cuz i guess we do care n maybe being face to face may hinder sharing? cuz we are all so timid/shy at heart. hahha........... adiosss wif luv.

jus saddened by this, and tears just start rolling down my cheeks. and as im writing this, the tears are still flowing... sigh... jus wrote her an email, telling her that answers all my questions.
im jus sad, really sad... why do things have to turn out this way? i hate myself, i hate everyone.

another one! groovy huh!

another pic of 2 chic women in our retro shades! thx for the pics, jess!

lizzie and me at Np Hill in our cool shades!

didnt have cell today
went to pizza hut at bk timah plaza with dot and suat
today was children's sunday @ church
the sunday sch's kiddies put up a few songs and dance
its sucha joy to watch all of them perform

still didnt sit beside me today
really dont know when that will ever end.
sigh.
now that we've talked abt her
i realise she wasnt as happy as she used to be
perhaps shes trying very hard
to balance everythg
kind of pity her
yet at the same time mad at her

felt terrible these few days
pmsing away.
exams are here soon
but im still doing nthg.
ugh.

had a nice brunch at Hawks place'
nice spaghetti sausage egg and bread
yums
went to church kaypoh for music prac
sort of help dot get on the track for keyboardist 2
ah bee kept saying im good enough for main keyboardist
but i doubt so
prayer mtg already freak me out
imagine playing for normal svc
need to coordinate with drummer bassist worship leader
sure gabra til jialat one
haha.
i know my own pattern

jam for a while then went oppo to walk walk with dots
wanted to get pressie for sm
but nothing much there
in the end i got those hp strap
which i was supposed to do cross-stitches on
the thread wasnt enough damn.
so i jus left it as it is
had extra thread of other colors
so i sewed her name on it.
so nice. kinda like it myself
but kept getting my fingers pricked

gonna play for canto svc tmr
so gotta wake up at 7 plus
nic picking me.
ugh. will be super tired.
aft that got cell, then wil go ppl's pk with dots hehheh.
gonna get shades, buttons etc etc!

Paradise was near, really near...

okok i changed skin again...
but its cos of the tagborad lah
today... worst day of 2004 i guess

went to church in the noon
was at the busstop waiting for 970
ppl were smoking
so i kept inhaling the disgusting smoke
waited for what seems eternity for the bus
and when the bus came
i felt totally weak.
legs were wobbly, hands were numb
things were fading in color
stomach cramp was unbearable
but i forced myself up the bus
was really uncomfortable
couldnt sit still
felt very cold
but yet i was sweating
but the beads of sweat were cold too
so scared
i just felt terrible
felt like i was so helpless
and that i was dying soon
finally reached hv.
told myself no matter what
i had to make my way to church
the journey seems exceptionally long
it took ages for me to get there
had to cover my lips with tissue paper
cuz i knew it'd have gone all white
and i was right.
it had been a long time since i last felt like this
so scared and frightened
but i kept praying
i said God please stop the pain
please let me be ok soon
but the pain didnt subside.
then went up to church office
went straight to counselling rm to lie down on the sofa
couldnt take it
the cramps were really unbearable
i was jus lying on the sofa
with my hands clutched to my stomah
kept curling my body up
it was really scary
and i had to inhale real deeply
to breathe normally
the pain was on and off
but the it was off for just a few sec
didnt want to call for their help
so i jus felt that i needed to talk to my mum
rang my mum and told her what happen
jus started telling her
and hot tears rolled down my cheeks
i felt really helpless and scared
my mama was worried sick
and she kept asking if she needed to come pick me hm or not
must have scared her as well
aft that she called pastor phoebe
which was funny
cuz she didnt know i was in church
anyway aft that i just went out
and asked Aud if she gt any painkillers
took 2 panadols
and the pain went away
the panadols were like elixirs

aft that felt so much better
and was back to normal
frightened myself so much
guess dominique was shocked too
kept asking if i was ok
really nice of him
sigh...
sometimes i wonder if God listens at all
sigh...
then i called my mama again
to tell her i was alright already
and i started crying again.
thank God for giving me a mum.
really thank Him for that.
i jus felt really relieved when i hear her voice
and that she asked me to keep praying
its reall great to have parents who are christians
u'll feel the joy really
that we all share the same faith
and that we can trust in Him tog
it was tough for me today
felt that God wasnt there
and that He was like making me suffer
was kind of angry
angry Him for not curing me
but i hope He'll forgive me.

was so happy when i got back to normal mode
chatted with aud
then went out for dinna with
dot, suat, dom, nic n aud
after that was prayer mtg

went out for supper
drive to many places
6th ave, Adam rd hawker centre, Holland
before settling down at Fong Seng Cheese prata
at west coast area
had egg prata and horlicks.
yums.
then got hm at 1.
mayb gonna go church kaypoh tmr.
if not wil stay hm.
mayb wil got hawks place for the breakfast spread tmr morn
provided i can wake up.
hehs.

i think i need to squeeze
all the words to the left
so that my tagboard could be seen
haha...

wow, today was jus
another F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C day
S.U.P.E.R.B.
F.U.N

Skipped biz etiq again
went church help the gals out
then 2 daughters went Holland.V
met em aft that,
gonna go Chinatown,
but daughter2 was tired
so she went home and sleep
so left me and the M.A.D daughter1
Yap Wan Zi aka Beth.
oh my.
She was hysterical today
shocked me a few times
totally suaku
took 61 one there
and there was a mad uncle
and im sorry to day that but he
smelt terrible.
couldnt breathe.
had to smell my jacket.
went to Ppl's park
so superduper funnn
and R.E.T.R.O
walked ard
found Tokyo
were over the moon
so many shades
countless
and the really retro earrings
she gt a shades
and i got 1 too
love it lots
cheap and good
$8 a pair
cheap cheap cheap
the aunty was super cute
i mean cute

wanna bring dot there
she'll love it.

then we went to OG.
had fun criticizing clothes
haha.
and we were really terrible
cuz we wanted to wear the shades
and yet feels dumb when ppl
stared at us
so i was putting it on
and removing it
kept repeating the sane steps
felt so daft
but then again
it was really fun
laughed like mad

went Food Street at Chinatown for late tea
had sesame dumplings in peanut soup
and also wu xiang. YUMMY.

then dropped by P.S
so many things we wanna buy
necklaces, shoes, shoes and shoes.
ha.

Conclusion: Daugher1-YAP is NUTS.
i repeat. NUTS.

dirty water, dirty people all around...

lunch at pizza hut wid ma 2 besties and glen
had a great bitching session
conclusion: ppl are selfish, they like to shed crocodile tears, annoying and lots more
then again
no one's perfect. thats why we need God.
its hard, sometimes i just feel like cursing those ppl
esp the dumbass malays.
those on the bikes.
bloody childish.

then we walked bk to sch
the car came and splashed the puddle of dirty water on the road unto us
i was beside daughter 2 - beth
it all happened too fast
wanted to curse and scold
but jus didnt react,
so let out a shrilly scream
so did daughter
haha super funny
we were like crazy
jus kept screaming for some time
mad.
2nd time.
daughter grown smarter.
asked us to stop and let the car passed first
but stil kenaed a bit
but then it was fun la
super relaxing day.
sue tan released us early as well
so glad i dont have to see her anymore

got back my cma
got a 48/100
great yah
first test 52/100
therefore, its ( 52+48 ) / 2 = 50
i got a 50.
God's grace really.
managed to jus scrape thru.
thank u Lord!
now i need to pass my exam to make sure i pass
go gotta really study for it man.

hope we're gg Chinatown tmr.
but 1 thing.
just 1 thing.
i'm B.R.O.KE.

Putting on the apron of humility...

phew, tuesday over. great feeling. one more day in sch down! yeeps!
today ms wong was in a gd mood i guess
bought so much chocs for us. act i think she's quite nice and lame, only if she doesnt bomb us with questions.
can't take all the tremors, so noisy
like they gonna hack down the whole building.
wish the renovations would be done soon man.

watched the invention show last nite
so surprised to see ms chai and mr leong
and turned out that my sec sch won!
so proud of em peeps!
suaty and dot gonna lead worship for fri's prayer mtg
will be playing for em

read purpose driven life ytd
and they were talking abt servanthood
and its really true u know
how many ppl want to be leaders, but not servants
bring me to the pt that as christians
we should not be in the limelight
and that real servants shld maintain a low profile
"put on the apron of humility, to serve one another" - 1 Peter 5:5
i guess that would be a struggle to many ppl
they become addicted to attention, unaware that always being in the spotlight blinds one.
so lets enc one another to keep on serving God
Lastly the words of Jesus
"If as my representatives, you give even a cup of cold water to a little child, you will surely be rewarded.
-Matthew 10:42

Faith is indeed the key to answered prayer...

Oh my goodness... this is like totally shocking.
cuz i couldnt blog due to some prob with my blogger.
and i jus said a prayer, didnt really mean it
jus said God, plz, if possible, just let it wk k...
and ta-da! he answered it! even tho it was sucha small and unimportant one!
thank u father!

so glad the gals wanna go watch Mama Mia! wahaha...
so happieee.
nickie auddy cmg too.
hope ah mei will come along
else it wouldnt be fun w/o her

was home at 2 last nite.. watching dvd at hawk's place
but i was sleeping thru out the whole show lah
so boring
then that dumb nic use cam and took a pic of me when i was sleeping like a pig
then aft that he fell asleep too
then i gave him a tooth for a tooth! muahaha...

ytd's bbq was quite fun
played with the sparklers
then i think i burnt my eyebrow
haha got one hole down there

the He Shi Bi was super duper sian!
many ppl were like sleeping
then the woman talked to me lah
but before that they were like making me feel damn sad
even the other woman feels that the woman is segregating herself fr me.
but at least got talk a bit la
somehow still feel the uncomfort btw us

it was real glad to see dottie
sucha long time
anyway, am glad to have her back

think nxt monday no need come bk sch anymore
*happieee*
have been waiting very long for this day

u know i really really love my church peeps.
but they seem to disappoint me time and time again
or perhaps im being too sensitive lah
maybe i shd change cell
have been thinking bout it for some time
love Naomi, but i should be in Joshua
feel intimidated in Naomi
Sigh...
but they are all the loveliest ppl in my life.
i really dunno what to do.

havent done my qt for a long long time
i really pray that God'll forgive me.
everyday im jus wasting my time away
i owe God so much so much
pray for me ya peeps

im so glad sch's cmg to an end really soon.
the feeling is great man.
indescribable feeling

Today was quite alright… had a good time laughing at the skit… Thought it was hilarious… Made a new friend today or rather two… So happy! Janice – got to know her so much better today… She’s a funny gal, great sense of humor! Daniel – didn’t really talk much to him, only till today during dinner… Anyway, nice people, hope to get to know them better and better with help from God!

Went to Bt. Timah mkt with the crusaders, and when we jus finished buying food, I saw Nic they all! So happiee! *grins* before that I was still thinking if they will go there for dinna, then TADA! They appeared! Works of God! Then got a lift home from my new neighbors! Think they watching some DVD, but I decided to stay home… too tired le, even though its just the floor above mine! Hee…

Something’s wrong with my lappie… sigh… can’t figure out what’s the prob… man… how lucky can I get? Taking a break from music min this week… Send some quality time alone, to breathe in fresh air, and perhaps help m new neighbors with their things tmr! Maybe will play with my new toys from Diaso, cut the collage thingy from 8-days, arrange my photos, do a masque, play the piano, bake biscotti read the papers, go for a swim, do my tutorials? Pack my things, throw away rubbish, paint my skirt, decorate my bag etc etc etc… Will make sure my free day tomorrow will be a fruitful and fulfilling one!

Went Diaso on Thursday with my daughters… we bought…

Jess – Cookies’ paper bags
Nail art thingy
Binoculars
Eyebrow thingy
Eliz – Milkish bag
Blusher
Loose powder
Eyebrow thingy
Skipping rope

Moi – Milkish bag
Loose powder
Skipping rope
Rainbow-colored Wig (love it!)
Connect 4!

Don’t know why can’t blog… Something’s wrong with my blogger… so had to ask my daughter to help me blog… haha…

Presentations are more or less over, so relieved now… but still got other tests, role-plays etc… life is still very much terrible…

Sigh… seems like ppl are getting colder and colder nowadays… it’s just so hard to reach out to them. Sigh… wonder what’s running in their minds, what’s holding them back.

Ytd no water supply, later no electricity… my house is super jialat… haha… always got this kinda problems… otherwise it’ll be lifts breaking down.. still remembered there was once, when I was still in primary school, both lifts broke down when I was going back with my mum after grocery shopping. Then we had no choice but to start climbing up the never-ending flight of stairs, to 22nd storey… halfway, and I crying and sat down on the stairs. I told my mum that I don’t wanna climb anymore…. Haha.. funny huh… now when I recollect the past, I could imagine the cold beads of sweat that were trickling down my mama’s forehead when I said that! Haha… anyway, hope that’ll nv happen again! Haha… but then my dad will be home late later…hope and pray that he’ll be back safely, cuz he got asthma, and can’t possibly climb 22 x 2 flight of stairs…

Asked ah bee for a break from worship duty this Sunday…really needed it. Im up
every week. Everyweek.. Its not that I don’t wanna serve but I really do need a break badly. Its real taxing… sigh… electricity gg off soon.. nic asks if I’ll be scared.. actually haven tot abt that, but after he asked, started to get the creeps. Plus im HOME ALONE. Ugh. What great luck…

Just a little encouragement to keep my loved ones going...

Drop a pebble in the water: just a splash, and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Spreading, spreading from the center, flowing on out to the sea. And there is no way of telling where the end is going to be.
Drop a pebble in the water: in a minute you forget, But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And those little waves a-flowing to a great big wave have grown; You've disturbed a mighty river just by dropping in a stone.

Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on. They keep spreading, spreading, spreading from the center as they go, And there is no way to stop them, once you've started them to flow.
Drop an unkind word, or careless: in a minute you forget; But there's little waves a-flowing, and there's ripples circling yet, And perhaps in some sad heart a mighty wave of tears you've stirred, And disturbed a life was happy ere you dropped that unkind word.

Drop a word of cheer and kindness: just a flash and it is gone; But there's half-a-hundred ripples circling on and on and on, Bearing hope and joy and comfort on each splashing, dashing wave Till you wouldn't believe the volume of the one kind word you gave.
Drop a word of cheer and kindness: in a minute you forget; But there's gladness still a-swelling, and there's joy circling yet, And you've rolled a wave of comfort whose sweet music can be heard Over miles and miles of water just by dropping one kind word.

so thankful, finally got back my internet connection
today was HQ & SS's wedding
she looked totally gorgeous
but the worst things kinda happen to me
was putting on the bod shop liq foundatn and it splattered all over me
kena on my skirt, right before the wedding
and the loose powder was horrendous
need to get a new one
then drank my mango tea, and it dripped down to my shirt
ugh
dinner's at Meritus Mandarin in town tonight
but im not invited
not that close
but overall fun lah

got my bag ytd
exilarated mannn
cma test is gettg nearer and nearer
sighhh...
bbq tmr, still recovering, dont know can eat or not haha

this week was a tough one
ask them
they will know
so tough u dont know what to do
cleared the problem
but dont know if it'll arise again or not

tmr's the wedding
can't wait
but got no top to wear
sigh
nxt wk cma test
ugh...
sure mati

nxt week's gonna b worse
2 presentations
german role-play
cma test
in deep poop

need to do ppt
paint
draw
color
alamak

bbq on sunday somemore
gonna go do my pacnet thingy later
hopefully wil b ok
have been paying few mths bills
but nt using the net at all
wthell right

heard from eu recently
she took the initiative to msg me
so happie
can tell that she really misses us
asked bout the bbq
but it was gonna end early
so i guess she couldnt come

i wanna go chinatown wif my daughters to get the shades
haha...
i need to have things to look forward to
to keep me going for the week
haha
such as shopping
or some activity
else i'll haf low morale
ahaha
what rubbish right

she didnt msg me at all this wk
prob still mad at me
sigh...
nothing i can do

cheryl pass me the deeds card
so cool
haha tot it was like super fun
going to pass to someone soon

haha cutie gals, me pearlie and june in ccc rm!

so tired...
everyday do proj til going bonkers
meta camp here again
shd i go?
can't stand unrefined guys
totally turn me off
every single guy pisses me and my two daughters off
s*** them

i think she's mad at me
not on talking terms
cant be bothered
dont know wtf is wrong with her

she asked me to lead worship for oct's prayer mtg
but i havent give her an ans
kinda scared

many things happened this week
not a smooth one, sigh...
wish things will be alright soon

passed all my papers
so thankful
that He pulled me thru
wanted to share my joy with her
but...
sigh...
guess no one has any ears for me

how childish can one get
tell me
tell me

why do i get frightened by it so easily
so scared
then got lots of restrictions
alamak

dont know how to do fmgt proj
stuck

ich mag schokolade kuchen!

Got the news ytd that mag's dad passed away
felt sad for them
but at least i know and have the assurance that
he's up there witht the Lord
and we'll meet one day

God is good to me
really really good to me
and i really really appreciate it
pulled me thru all 5 papers
it wasnt easy
but he was there to lift me up
esp cma
i passed it
it was like a MIRACLE
a miracle that descended from above
i know it was really Him
not me but Him
cause i really didnt know what i wrote
i jus wrote things that were def out of pt
but i knew He helped me thru it
thank u Father
thank u so much
and for also pulling my two daughters thru it
just relieved and thankful

went to pizza huttie with my daughters today
had a great lunch tog
and for once i can sleep in peace tonight
but come to think of it
i sleep like a pig everyday
hahaha...

i guess i made her mad again
but i did it on purpose
really sick and tired of hearing bla bla bla...
can't be bothered
don't know how to help her

so glad wed skool life has come to an end
now i can breathe properly
gonna go for the wake tonight
hope i dont weep buckets
that i'll keep cool

weird eh
forget abt that X
but suddenly hear from X again
err... erm... ehh... hmm... nvm

only when u see a person so close to dying

then will u know how fragile life is

wept buckets ytd

shouldnt have fun

he was breathing so hard

all his cells rob him off his body

feet swell up

sigh

i guess we must live in hope each day

and that God'll really grant us strength to carry thru

many ppl visited him ytd

he was like in a coma

but he was actually sleeping

so weak and skinny

face was sunken

his wife kept crying

it seems that he doesnt wanna leave earth yet

kept holding back

sigh

why does God allow suffering?

i seriously dont know

suppose to go kite flying

but it was raining jus now

don know how

hell damn pissed with her

I AM NOT ACCOUNTABLE FOR U

so SHUT UP and dont tell me whats up

i am so disappointed in her

once so on fire for God

yet backsliding

cuz of a yug

i hate him

hate him

bloody

thanks to June for teaching me how to post pics on my blog!
got back my econs n fmgt...
pass em thank God
but still gt 3 more which im so scared of
sigh...
blaw proj driving me nuts
ugh.
gt a pair of flats on sunday!
haha...gola shoes got sale!
wanna get em too!
and the black roxy bag!
watched 13 going 30 ytd
not really nice
going to watch Stepford wives
hope its nice

haha long long time ago...

brian, super cute@

am i cute? wahaha...

the young gals! made me look old beside em... sigh...

oops, nic exposed!!!

dot n me at my hse pool area!

hehheh.. jus knew how to do this... thanks to june..

in the end never go concourse
went chinatown instead
funnsss
but the shops i wanna go all close already
or mayb they didnt even exist at all

blurt smthg daft fr my mouth
shouldnt have said that
i knew i was in the wrong
but then she didnt have to like said such things
made me felt so sad
feel like crying
but i held it back

am glad things were better

gave her the egg
hope she likes it
havent really talk to her bout him
but guess things are ok
then the phonecall came...
and i guess he asked y shes on duty always
wthack.
she's serving God
dont u geddit.
make sure u dont stop her from coming to church
u idiot.
always going some other churches cuz of him
stupid dumbass
dont know why on earth she's hooked
such great differences
guess opposites do attract after all
wanted to ask her how are things
but it just wouldnt come out from my mouth

i guess i got a bad sense of rhythm
tried to play that song ytd but donno
how the rhythm shd be like
sigh...
haha...

wore the same stuff today
u call it telepathy
denim skirt
belt
pumps
i like hers
cool red color
feet hurts like mad

back to hell tomorrow
sigh...

finally... phew... all the horrendous papers are gone.
gonna do real badly...
but at least it's over.
thank God for pulling me thru...
lotsa topsy and turvies during the week

met WenJun on mond..
so glad to see her
it has been such a long time since we last met up
ketchup loads that day
life is just full of sweet surprises
God just arrange a time for us to meet again!

realli missed the good old days of sec sch
esp sec 4...
mrs MC HAMMER!
lessons under her were freaking scary..
but i enjoyed the suspense!
hahaha...
totally awesome.

went shopping with jess at town ytd
liz came for a while then cabut
saw eve n cera
haha..
what a small world
jess got a pair of pumps
niceee...
wanted smthg similar
but they didnt have my size

got a skirt from FOX @ taka for 27...
supp to be 39
the things there are all going for a song!
hehheh...
then went over to P.O.A at PS
got a pair of pumps for 23.40!
usual price was 39..
mayb i shd go buy 4d
buy the no. 3939?
wahaha...
but its kinda tight leh...
and my left ankle's hurting
UGH!
haha..
but it doesnt matter
girls are born vain
so im happie happie and happie!
then i used the visa card..
over at fox,
but i dint know i was supp to sign at the electronic board
so paiseh
i actually tried to key in my passw.
Ugh...
haha...
but now i know
i think its like super cool and funss...
but not much $$ left...
need to save save save!

went bk then ard 10 plus Sue called
the 'old' peeps were at Alameen...
then went there to look for em
a bit comm breakdown,
went to pool to look for em
then went 23rd...
sigh...
so scary...
then realise they were oppo
anyway, had fun
but my abia shirt's secret kept leaking
haha..
but it doesnt matter...

supp to catch 13 going 30 with pat
but dont feel like
may go concourse instead!
kite flying nxt sunday
so need get some stuff!
funnns!

Found myself drowning in a pool of tears yesterday.
once again i submerged myself into it.
everything's screwed up AGAIN.
b**ch. b**ch. b**ch.
sometimes i feel that women are the most toxic creatures on earth.
you have no idea how well they bite.
when their teeth sink into your skin
thats the end.
hahaha.
to hell with it.
whats up man.
lets hope for a better day.

have been playing too much.
and its all too late.
no one will help me.
cuz ive fallen into the pits...
the never-ending pits.

sometimes i really hate myself
for making myself so miserable...
breathe.

can't tolerate fake people.
so fake that u wanna peel off their skin
and see whats left underneath
probably just rotting flesh

haha.
and why do i sound like im bloody pissed
how i know???
Muahaha...

Some lame stuff...
TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it! *-TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O !
TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin !
TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me !
TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time." TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that?
BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get this MUMMY then?
TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you are wearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots !
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him,what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love ?
TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating ?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog !
TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher

sigh... what a boring saturday
shall go home and watch some tv...
but sat night got no shows..
yesterday was a unlucky day
almost fell down. (x2)
the skin of my left foot came out.
thank God it didnt bleed
went daiso with mag ytd
funss...
bot the paper backs
the charcoal mask, facial foam
and the peanut butter pencil case
hehhehs.
did i make a wrong choice of going to wk on mon n tues?
will i have enough time to study?
Ugh. i dont know.
all i very much want now is to SLEEP.
hahas.
dont understand cma.
how?
sighs.

dont know if my tag board's working or not
watched Lola Run during German class today
nice film.. haha
didnt do well for the test. Ugh.
freaked out at the oral test.
Gonna work nxt monday n tues prob wed.
$68/day should do me well for 2-3 days
hehheh...
but will i have time to study?
oops...
so many projects again.
sigh..
see his face i wanna die n cry

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!
THE NATION CELEBRATES WITH YOU!

Wow, yesterday was totally AWESOME & AMAZING...
The people, the company, the fellowship, the food

Everythingn was super sweet, and love was jus in the air.
So glad that everybody enjoyed themselves and have lotsa fun.
Except for the security guard who was the wet blanket!
Ruth, Nic and the kids went swimming, haha..
Nic n Anthony looked like 2 big balls, in different sizes!
Anthony look super cute, haha with his sparetyres overflowing ard haha

there were 30+ people...
Joshuas - Ruth, Vincent, Eze, ZiHao, WeiWei
Elijahs - Fish, Geoffrey, Maggie, Sharon, Esther, Jason, Dominic, Jacqueline, Cindy
Naomians - Dottie, Suaty, Abia
the older peeps...
SueMay, Chip, and their boy Joshua,
George & Adel
John & Hariette
Hawk & Brigitte
Nicholas & Audrey
Fiona, and her boys, Zachariah & Jeremiah
Seow Hiang & Betty, and their little girl Katrina
Aunty Yvonne & Uncle Frank
Papa & Mama
Phoebe

we had so much fun
singing and singing
from nursery rhymes to hillsongs to lullabyes, to 80s songs...
everyone was in high spirits
all of us jus crowded ard Joshua
and started singing to him
he knows how to clap, smart boy...
soooo adorable

we had so much fun
really we did
and God was Good
he watched over everything
from the weather to the whole event

took pictures, so happie!
haha.. then nic they all got me a cammie,
smthg that they dont use anymore
so nice of them

Katrina wasin her tutus when she came!
loooked like a little fairy...
soooo cute..
then she went swimming too
in her red dress, haha
and she manage to do a sommersault,
showing only her legs erected in the air,
and her head submerged in the water
i was laughing like mad
brave girl huh, only 3 years old
sucha pretty little babe
look very angmoh,
probably cuz she was born in the States?
rich man's daughter...
father's a colonel,
salary's a 5-digit figure

then went to nic's house to thon,
tog with dottie
watched Eurotrip, but fell asleep
as usual hahas...
then went to zzz..
but chatted with dot til 4.30...
then we slept
Eu treated their family to lunch

later gonna pick dot up and go watch the village
hopefully, it'll be nice...

and i have lotsa work to do
but i dont have time
cuz i'll be back home late
4 tutorials to clear
Ugh. Can't breathe AGAIN.

- out -

im at nickie's place now!
Thon overnite with Dottiez!
Cuz his mama is outta town!
BBQ party was absolutely FABULOUS!
Shall up date tmr... Yawns...
HAPPY 34th BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!
HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

haha im fine! forgot bout everythg liao...
thanks, my dear bs mates..
appreciate u gals..
haha cant wait for sunday..
bbq surprise bday celeb for nic..
hehheh..
gonna go grocery shopping later...
had conference call last nite w mei, dot n suat
funsss

haha... im having lunch now... ok alerady, forgot bout everything that has happened! Thank God..

had conference call with mei, suat n dot..
going grocery shopping later! yeeps! haha..
cant wait for sunday!
bbq surprise bday party for nic at my poolside!
30 plus peeps.. hehhheh...

What is wrong with me?
am i ... ... ... ???
why am i so affected by it?
Ugh.
Why did it happen.
Cant sleep.
1 in the morn, and i can't fall asleep.
Thats so unlike me.
and when i wake up,
it was only 8 in the morning.
Suddenly i jus wanted to seek God
Wanted to ask Him why.
Wanted to ask Him whats wrong with me.
Why am i behaving in this way.
Why why why why why why?
Sobbbsss...
Sobbbsss...
i need to tell somebody...
Are you there God? Its me...
Something is terribly wrong with me...
I need medicine...
I dont want ppl to think i.. i..
Sob.
Hate you. Hate you.
Hate both of you for making my life AGAIN.

i want to get out of it.
i don't want to get stuck in the well.
i wanna climb out of it.
i need a ladder to be placed in the well...
Shouts out to God... are you there...? Are you there God?
Why is my life like this again?

I'm still waiting for the answer, for a sign, for everything..
can you please God, please tell me what to do...
Please God..
thank you..

ok i got my lappie back. Dont know if i shd be happy or not. Sigh...

as usual, my life is in another mess. Ugh.

projects, tests, presentations. Ugh. Everyday, everyweek i look forward to fridays.

going for dinner with my BS gals later.. mtg at clementi instead.

think they wanna bowl, but i cant afford to cuz got cma tutorial not yet do. Ugh.

Shit (x3)

i wanna go for a holiday... Sobsss.. get outta S'pore and breathe normally elsewhere.

It was jus great. God's presence was so overpowering, thank Him for that.. Really AWESOME, FABULOUS, AMAZING etc.. Skit was farnie, esp Sharon, that girl can really act man.

three mad woman came.. Jess, Liz n Cheryl. all suan me tog with Grace, Dot.. What great friends i have huh.. Gang up and bully me..

Borrowed a cammie fr my aunty, and there was film inside, but only can take 12 pics! i was like WTH the whole way, cuz i wasted it taking ton of pics of the skit! ARGHHH... Hahaha.. but heng Fish brot hers...

Nic's Birthday is coming-09-08.. Cool huh, the world nation is celebrating it for him.. haha.. muz crack my brains to think of what ta do for him! haha...

Going airport later! Yeeps.. Supposedly to go kaypoh n pick Hariette up, but act going to buy the chocs and eat that whatever chicken they are talking about! haha... 

and there's school tmr, sobsss.. dun wanna go. sobs. and so many projects. Sobbs. Deutsch is driving me CRAZY. Sobss.. and the test is in a few wks time. Ugh. Double, triple UGH.

huh?

cant wait for tmr man.. haha.. haha.. haha.. even got balloons, kinda mad, but still, its gonna be so much fun..

went to diaso jus now.. got all the cool tins/cans! and the retro polka dot mini bags! Cheap n good! hahas.. so funnn.. wanna go back there soon..

was a eventful wk filled with thunderstorms, hardly see and rainbow at all...

so depressed on Fri.. Cheryl shd know why haha.

sometimes i wish i can SHUT PEOPLE up.. but that's jus a thought lah, not a thing i can do.. so it'll remain a dream, and i can only keep dreaming.

frankly speaking, i dont give a damn to your life. so dont tell me about whats going on alright? Jus button up your lips and everyone else will be thanking God.

Dont bullshit abt being sorry when u dont mean it at all. Dont say u r guilty when u are not. Cuz they are mere POLLUTION to my ears. And my ears are clean, so jus make sure u dont dirty it.

gonna get over it. wont let depression get over me.. No way.

ok, its a saturday, and im in church as usual, music prac.
 
tons of work to do, blaw, econs, hr, etc etc. hate it.
 
hate the bloody, spastic, idiotic, moronic, irritating old bitchy spinster.
 
wanna kick her ass and make sure she flies off and never come back.
 
feel like jus stabbing her.
 
everybody's back now safely.
 
got to catch up with em.
 
watched spidy man 2 with em on thurs..
 
dottie came too.
 
quite nice, didnt think i'll ever watch it in the 1st place.
 
anyway, enjoyed it.
 
sign up for that UOB card.
 
gosh, so excited bout it.
 
went for life but didnt get to reallli stay in there.
 
really love the "My reedeemeer lives" jumping.
 
u dont find that in SJCCC.
 
but pray that its really the heart of worship
 
and not jus the jumping.

 

Praise God, they are back! Made in for svc today! Except for Nic, Aud n Dot.. Poor Doral's passport & money got pickpocketted! Sobss.. poor girl!

anyway its so glad to see em! when i saw fish i was like, is that Sharon? then i went closer and realised its Fish! i screamed like mad k! aft that saw Gracie! So HAPPY! i was practically beaming when i saw em! Eug was there also.. Anyway, had a good catching up with her..

am gonna talk loads nxt wk.. haha.. cant wait! so nice, got a BIG NICE HUGG from Gracie! So niceeee...

went to Times n help Grace..

hey gal!!! got ur nice msg from ah bee! we are always thinkin of u here in sydney! everyday we walk long long journeys, think if u are here u shall PENG! haha.. n we save n save like AUNTIES lorr cuz the meals here ard 7dollars k! aiyooo... and when we finally go supermarket today we were so happy tat there are vege n fruits we choose n pick n laugh pple think we muz be NUTS! hahaha...
anyway gtg, hope u r doing fine in school!! HUGZ from sydney!!! :)

the above msg is brought to u by Grace...

i miss em!!! Sobssssssssss...
how i wish i was there!
school's ok but i dun really like it i guess.
then the caterpillar thingy, so traumatising!
lecturers are terrible, horrible.
mad mad people.
and everythg is so tough.
how to cope.
and my lappy.
driving me nuts.
cried my eyes out.
hate it.

7 more days.
and i'll c em.

sobs.
i misss ah mei.
i miss ah dot.

i wanna go sydney.
i wanna go sydney.
i wanna go sydney.

sobs.
sobs.
sobs.

haha.. two more days and im bk to biz hell.. went wild wild wet the other day! it was sooper fun man! tho things were kinda screwed up, and the f-word came out. didnt mean to but the stupid guy was so damn rude.. lotsa peeps, so crowded! 14 of us there, basically Naomi n Elijah cells.. heehee wanna go bk there soon!

Ah mei's in KL, n Dot's working tmr, so wil see em only 3 wks later, when they get bk from sydney. sob.. so unfair. whole world gets to go, except me!

guess i'll try to forget them!! haha.. meanies.. i dun wan presents, i want presence! but guess it's impossible.. gonna miss them lots lots lots.. Sob. Bohohoho...

ok im back. and i had GREAT FUN. GREAT GREAT GREAT FUN.

14/06/04
malacca was great, KL was great. Nic, Aud, Dot, Grace, Eu, Suaty, Hawk, n Brigitte celebrated my birthday for me! very touched, and happy. thankful for such great people that God placed in my life. Got many pressies from em too..

Grace - She made a t-shirt for me, with my name Abia on it. hahaz.. and they forced me to put it on, so i had to. and when i look into the mirror, i realised it looked like the words A PIG. ugh. nevermind, haha.. stil it was sweet of her.

Nick & Audv - the ikea stool, the bracelets from m'cca and 2 nike sports bra. haha..

Suaty - A mouse & cheese note pad

Dot - two seashells with my name n greetings squinted on with pop-up glitter.

Eu - a book mark n a card

Ginny - a perfume from body shop

Hawk & Brigitte - a cute wallet! haha..

anyway, it was really sweet and nice of em all. appreciate it. Love them all.

took lotsa pics in M'cca n KL. haha.. shared a room wif grace n we had great fun! then we had an adjoining rm which connects us to dot n eu's rm! haha.. cool man.. then we went to their chinatown to shop.. got some souveniers.. then many of us did some fruit acid tattoo thingy haha.. i had a butterfly on my inner right calve. but think it's cracking already..

and we all got new nick names again. And ,my latest invention - "HUAT!" which means to strike! haha.. that was really hilarious!

God really empowered the speaker with wisdom and he spoke to us on what was right and precise. veri encouraged too.. food was great, company was great, place was great. fellowship was great. God is GREAT. Amen.

15/06/04
then me, dot, suat, nick n aud, hawk n brigitte went up to KL. reached the place, and there was no electricity. Ugh. but aft a few hrs of negotiation, it came bk. the condo was filthy, and we had to mop the place. haha... then we went to the nearby shopping centres to shop n eat, shop and eat..

16/06/04
went to KLCC to shop.. haha.. then went to sing KTV.. damn fun, the rm was humongous, and it was real hi-tech.. haha

17/06/04
went shopping, this time at mid-valley, then we went to chinatown at nite.. the place was like bugis street in S'pore. Lotsa imitation stuff, and those adidas, lecoq sportif shoes.. hhaha..

18/06/06
Nick n Hawk brought us to the Times Square shopping centre! and there it was, the indoor theme park! the roller coaster was really scary.. and since i was there, i had no choice but to go up with Dot.. haha.. yeah, and i managed to cross the first obstacle and went on it. Still cant believe i went up. damn freaking scary, but i had to say it was FUN! and i went up with dot again! haha.. funs! but went it went 360degrees i was like, totally clueless where i am liao.. haha.. whether up or down, left or right.. hahas..

in the end, i got 2 bags, a pencil case, 2 pairs of earrings, a 3/4 pants, a pair of lecoq sportif shoes, and 3 watches.. hehheh.. and 4 wrapping papers!

and lotsa fun.. then came back to s'pore, reached at 10.. then went to church to put bk all the instruments etc.. then went to Adam rd for supper.. haha..

then went to airport at ard 1 to send my grandmama off.. she's going to hainan island haha.. And first time i knew there was a Hainan Airlines.

reached home at 4.30, went straight to bed. haha.. Adeline's gonns cook, so am going there for dinna with nic n Aud.. haha

FUN.

Firstly, i'll like to wish Marilyn, Jesselyn a very Happie 18th Birthday!

ok, this is great, cuz at this time tmr, i'll be off to Reinaissance Hotel @ Malacca, away at camp! Finally its here... but nid to bring tons of things, cuz gonna go KL til fri.. hmm, then the blur nick n aud actually forgot to bring the sleeping bags, so i have ta take 5 from church tmr! plus all the worship files! how to handle? ugh.. muz ask all the other women to help me!

pat treat me to harry potter on thurs.. bad show.. tot it was lousy, didnt even know it had ended.. getting worse.. ooh then went to Times to see the stuff that i'll be helping Grace with.. so scary.. hope i can bring a fren with me to the place..

met jess jus now to have lunch and pass her the pressie. haha.. so nice to see her again.. but this stupid mercs sorta ram into her, and knocked her elbow.. hope she's alright.. hahaz...

gonna do the bloody IS enrolment. mayb i shall take german with liz n jess.. haha.. wanted french tho..

guess im gonna spend my burfday in KL! funs.. haha! hope all wil be alright! pray for journey mercies, and protection over all of us! and to haf a great tiime of fellowship tog! hehheh..

got my first burfday perssie from nic n aud.. chose a teak/bamboo stool from ikea! haha... anyway, wil be back at sch in a couple of weeks time.. Ugh.. but looking it forward to it. haha..

exactly one wk later and it'll be MOI BIRTHDAY! Hooray! haha... guess i'll be in KL.. with nic, aud, hawk, eu, dot, suat and me! a pity grace anint going.. but still, i'll kip my fingers crossed! so wil be gone from this sun til nxt fri!

camp is jus a few days away, yeeps! cant wait cant wait.. went to skool to get the space bar fixed, but stil nt done.. gotta bring it bk again.. ugh.. and it was damn crowded.. all the freshies there. then went to lib to borrow some bks.. haha.. i got the idiot's guide to learning guitar! haha.. then two books, and some drawing bk..gonna put them ino good use! am going to borrow a cam, so i can take lotsa pics!


have been filling in the white cards since 2.. am going crazy soon. haha..

haha.. going old airport rd for dinna nw with nic, aud, ezekiel, hawk n brigitte.. then to the airport cuz brigitte needs to mk her papers!

stupid np dun lemme go check my timetable.. will try my luck again tmr..

it was june's burfday today, n we went to surprise her at her house! *funsss* then nick came to pick me up.. later got music prac..

then aud said maybe, maybe, after camp, we'll drive up to KL! that'd be totally AWESOME! Provided hawk can get leave, then all 9 of us can go tog! hehheh... cool cool cool.. cant wait.. really hope n kip my fingers crossed that his boss will approve him taking leave!

grace made a webbie for our cell.. nice but no pics! hahaa.. duh rite.. aniway, wondering if she went for the Singapore Idol today... gonna ask her tmr.. haha.. got a hunch she's going for it.. but i dun nc it.. all bout stardom, fame, and lots of money, and the happiness wun last, so whats the point.. oh yeah candice went for it, but i seriously doubt she ain't gonna make it.. cuz her singing is, o well.. shant say much.. but at least she got the courage!

went to apply the ndp04 tix! sure hope i get it.. i simply enjoy watching it live! haha... lookin forward to it man.. simply adore the month of june.. Awesome lah haha!

life has been pretty gd for nw.. not much worries.. am all geared up for camp! gracie went to perm her hair. looks like cabbage cum cauliflower nw.. and nick says im tao geh (beansprouts) haha.. cuz of my bangs.. WAhaha... then nick's onion cuz of his onion hairstyle.. haha.. mad peeps..

had fun everyday rotting at hm.. haha.. went to watch shrek2 n day aft tmr.. both r nice shows! haha. but then when watchin day aft tmr damn stress.. haha.. but it was a good show never-the-less..

mooncher n charmaine came to my place the other day.. shouldnt have shown them the sand art! mess up everythg in my rm! pur everythg here and there! almost wanted to kill them! haha.. KIDS! scary! then i had to sweep the rm.. sigh.. i've learnt a lesson, never be too nice. and nv let em play in yr rm! haha.. then brot them to the pool.. charmaine totally went berserk. started splashing water at us. MAD WOMAN. haha.. then went to aunt pris's cell chalet at costa sands.. lotsa food! haha.. yum.. guess thats was the ony fun thing i did for the wk.. now at church, jus finished retreat stuff.. got prayer mtg later.. and im playing again. hope nothing screws up.. ha..

hols kinda swim past really fast.. bout less than 1 mth.. sob.. haha.. but im looking forward to skool anyway! went to kimage let the students there cut my hair.. haha.. only 5.20.. damn cheap.. haha. i wanna cut spiky hair but think my face too big liao! haha..