saw my mummy today, and aint i glad, like a familiar face that brightens my day. dunno why had gut feel i'd bump into her and abracadabra! i did but nt exactly bump lah.
so turned out that united artistes network guy was DON, = AH LIE from Double Happiness, the one who kena killed by wenjie, also jiaqian's bf or whatev. so he asked liz n me go down, fill up some form, then had an hr talk. talked bout their Co's aims which is help on realise his or her dreams... what he offered sounds rather lucrative i would say, all the parties, networking with big shots etc etc.. and he mentioned big names too, dick lee, john lee, clarissa monterio, jeremy monterio, ivan heng, yup all the peeps fr the performing arts scene... jeanette aw n fiona xie's also under their mgmt..they were in charge of some productions like light years, forbidden city, the nxt stage etc.. anyway, this Don's like really articulate, and we both thought his voice was quite man over the phone lah, ha.. had a good laugh when we saw him, cuz never did we expect it to be him. but then... must pay lah, 529 leh, to be engaged with them for a period of 18mths.. which includes gg for parties, auditions, engagements, networking with the ppl in the media industry.. definitely sounds fun... but think i shd be concentrating on my studies first, cuz nxt yr will be rather impt.. and i guess only when im free plus i have the money, then i'll go.. so he was saying like it'd be more of the acting scene for me? and i was laughing my head off inside.. ha. and liz will do the hosting one? lol...
i got a skirt fr fox, went home realised it was kinda short. and a sweater! *grins
anyway this week will be quite fucked up la. cuz i gt 2 tests, on thurs n fri, and i havent started much. and time's running out. fuck fuck fuck. damn stress nw i wanna cry. and sleep too. and the bloody **. bitch. waste our time. damn it.
God forgive me.
lao yu shen at hawks hse, thanks guys, it was yummy, haha.. hope fusao'll be aight by tmr, ahaha...
gonna be another d.a.m.n.e.d. day. f-c-u-k.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Sunday, February 13, 2005
damn i super tired. doing the damn om proj can be so tiring. no choice, will be out tmr, so gotta get in done now. will cont tmr, cant take it man. write so much only 785 wds. ugh. help please.
thanks liz for the bbq food. haha.. cool rm u've got. thanks shui jing and tracy too for the angbaos.
legs are numb nw. damn.
think im nt wearing the pink polo jess. kinda small. ugh. prob wont wear the necklace too. ha.
anyway, thanks a million for the photobucket thingy. owe u one.
s.c.a.n.d.a.l.o.u.s.
i hate myself.
thanks liz for the bbq food. haha.. cool rm u've got. thanks shui jing and tracy too for the angbaos.
legs are numb nw. damn.
think im nt wearing the pink polo jess. kinda small. ugh. prob wont wear the necklace too. ha.
anyway, thanks a million for the photobucket thingy. owe u one.
s.c.a.n.d.a.l.o.u.s.
i hate myself.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
A big fat liar - thats ME.
firstly, a big thank you to daniel low for the great party! met esther earlier to get the cake n card.. Really had a great time ketchuping & fellowshipping with the crusaders.. so glad i went, cuz had been ages since i last saw em.. had tons of fun during worship, playing games, playing the piano, and celebrating sharon's bday.. and of cuz the food was fantastic! we had yummy pizza, bee hoon, shepherd's pie, coconut kueh, apple crumble and cake! all were equally YUMMILICIOUS! wahaha... im sucha pig.. and he got a nice house too! very classy like semi-d at west coast! so comfy that u wouldnt mind zzzing on the floor! heehee...
i feel so bad today. why? cuz i told a lie. my mama dropped her pouch for putting her shades in the bus. and when she gt down, i got up cuz she came bk from movie with dad, and i board the bus to holland v. she called and asked me to help check if it's there. i bend down, and there it was, in the front.
the bus was packed, nt very though, but i just find it embarrassing to go infront, bend down and pick it up. plus there were 3 ppl at the seats infront where u face each other. i was like ugh. how how how. gonna reach in a jiffy. did i pick it up? no i didnt. sigh. shit me. i know she'd have been really glad if i did. sigh. what a shitified daughter. useless. sigh. so i called her aft i alighted and told her i didnt see it. God forgive me.
have been sleeping bout 3+ nowdays, which is really nt me, cuz i cant really tahan.. was playing mahjong for the past 2 days, quite fun actually, to my surprise, managed to learn the ropes of it, bit by bit..
have another bbq party at liz's hse tmr! hehheh... hope it'll be fun! visiting my churchmates houses on sunday! cool eh, so much fun.
but damn, gotta submit Om proj on sunday, and we havent precisely get the ball rolling. and i've got 3 tests cmg up. heck & feck.
i feel so bad today. why? cuz i told a lie. my mama dropped her pouch for putting her shades in the bus. and when she gt down, i got up cuz she came bk from movie with dad, and i board the bus to holland v. she called and asked me to help check if it's there. i bend down, and there it was, in the front.
the bus was packed, nt very though, but i just find it embarrassing to go infront, bend down and pick it up. plus there were 3 ppl at the seats infront where u face each other. i was like ugh. how how how. gonna reach in a jiffy. did i pick it up? no i didnt. sigh. shit me. i know she'd have been really glad if i did. sigh. what a shitified daughter. useless. sigh. so i called her aft i alighted and told her i didnt see it. God forgive me.
have been sleeping bout 3+ nowdays, which is really nt me, cuz i cant really tahan.. was playing mahjong for the past 2 days, quite fun actually, to my surprise, managed to learn the ropes of it, bit by bit..
have another bbq party at liz's hse tmr! hehheh... hope it'll be fun! visiting my churchmates houses on sunday! cool eh, so much fun.
but damn, gotta submit Om proj on sunday, and we havent precisely get the ball rolling. and i've got 3 tests cmg up. heck & feck.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
E-commerce Reflections...
Specially Directed for E-commerce Reflections only.
E-commerce to me, have been rapidly becoming a part and parcel of everybody's lives. There has been endless uses to it, such as making purchases online. It has fast spread to all parts of the world, and as long as one is connected to the internet, he/she will be able to make purchases from stores/people from all corners of the earth.
It has never occured to me that i'd ever have to build a website, as I'm not a IT-savvy person. However, after i've been throught the mid-point semester of the EC module, I am happy to say that it has indeed helped me a lot in terms of acquiring the skills and knowledge of designing a website for a online store.
The thing that i've gain most in this e-commerce module, is to build a website using dreamweaver. I am glad to say that building a website thus far have been a rather smooth job, except for a few screw-ups when previewing the site. In conclusion, E-commerce have been a rather interesting module to it, and whatever i've learnt there will certainly be put to good use in the days to come.
E-commerce to me, have been rapidly becoming a part and parcel of everybody's lives. There has been endless uses to it, such as making purchases online. It has fast spread to all parts of the world, and as long as one is connected to the internet, he/she will be able to make purchases from stores/people from all corners of the earth.
It has never occured to me that i'd ever have to build a website, as I'm not a IT-savvy person. However, after i've been throught the mid-point semester of the EC module, I am happy to say that it has indeed helped me a lot in terms of acquiring the skills and knowledge of designing a website for a online store.
The thing that i've gain most in this e-commerce module, is to build a website using dreamweaver. I am glad to say that building a website thus far have been a rather smooth job, except for a few screw-ups when previewing the site. In conclusion, E-commerce have been a rather interesting module to it, and whatever i've learnt there will certainly be put to good use in the days to come.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
blogger is super spastic n sensitive
just a click n everythg i typed previously was gone
damned.
had reunion lunch at grandmama's place.. yummy suckling pig - ate myself! Wahaha.. but then it feels kinda awkward to be there lah.. cuz im nt very close to relatives of my daddy's side.. so am glad its just once a year, haha...
aft went to get the OP plum colored skorts at west mall.. yeeps. then came home, packed my room n the study table, til nt am nt done. cant be bothered.. shall wait til tmr.. anyway, nobody's cmg tmr, so i can sleep in til late, go suntan, cut my mag collage, deco my album, cont to spring clean, watch dvd, watch tv, pig out, sleep again, read mag, do some wk, pig out again, wahaha...
reunion dinner was at hm, me dad n mum n brud. nt very often that we eat tog, so i guess it was kinda nice, tho we dont really talk much.. had steamboat, which was actually disgusting cuz chopsticks used for fishing the food in the soup was also used to fish for food meant to get into our stomach. so i've come to a conclusion: IT WAS THE INTERCHANGED SALIVA THAT BINDS OUR FAMILY TOGETHER. yeah riiigghhhtttttt...
gg chinatown with hemeinu, laoda, nick, brigitte, hawk n ah diam ltr! hopefully i wont get lost in there! wahaha..
anyway, this joshua's mama is very cute, like the way she talked abt joshua etc etc.. make me laugh n feel warm! and then she talk about feng ge, feng didi.. wahaha.. jusy FUNNY.
what shd i do if im still left on the shelf by the age of, say 30? mayb i shd go be a nun, oops i mean a sister and serve God all my life, hahaha.. dunno why im so worried also, guess im feeling old already, yeah im a aunty. mayb i shall meet jess 9 yrs ltr at the place where we made the pact, and fly off to canada where they legalise lesbian marriages. grins. i keep telling ppl that having a bf is nt everythg, yet im actually worrying. contradicting huh. worstill, i need to have a christian bf, which means chances are super slim. think i shd just die n disappear. wahaha.
but then having a boyfriend is nt really everything. i believe that when it's time, and when God says yes my daughter, then its really time. there's no point hurrying and end up getting hurt. some ppl think that its so impt to have a bf, and that they'll die if they dont have 1. i think its like duh.
was watching news and then came this piece on a lil 4 yr old boy who drove to a vcd shop to get vcd! what the!!! goodness, must have scared the shit outta his parents! just 4 years old! but come to think of it, its a lil funny also lah, make one wanna laugh! cute but scary.
ANYWAY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (='0'=)
just a click n everythg i typed previously was gone
damned.
had reunion lunch at grandmama's place.. yummy suckling pig - ate myself! Wahaha.. but then it feels kinda awkward to be there lah.. cuz im nt very close to relatives of my daddy's side.. so am glad its just once a year, haha...
aft went to get the OP plum colored skorts at west mall.. yeeps. then came home, packed my room n the study table, til nt am nt done. cant be bothered.. shall wait til tmr.. anyway, nobody's cmg tmr, so i can sleep in til late, go suntan, cut my mag collage, deco my album, cont to spring clean, watch dvd, watch tv, pig out, sleep again, read mag, do some wk, pig out again, wahaha...
reunion dinner was at hm, me dad n mum n brud. nt very often that we eat tog, so i guess it was kinda nice, tho we dont really talk much.. had steamboat, which was actually disgusting cuz chopsticks used for fishing the food in the soup was also used to fish for food meant to get into our stomach. so i've come to a conclusion: IT WAS THE INTERCHANGED SALIVA THAT BINDS OUR FAMILY TOGETHER. yeah riiigghhhtttttt...
gg chinatown with hemeinu, laoda, nick, brigitte, hawk n ah diam ltr! hopefully i wont get lost in there! wahaha..
anyway, this joshua's mama is very cute, like the way she talked abt joshua etc etc.. make me laugh n feel warm! and then she talk about feng ge, feng didi.. wahaha.. jusy FUNNY.
what shd i do if im still left on the shelf by the age of, say 30? mayb i shd go be a nun, oops i mean a sister and serve God all my life, hahaha.. dunno why im so worried also, guess im feeling old already, yeah im a aunty. mayb i shall meet jess 9 yrs ltr at the place where we made the pact, and fly off to canada where they legalise lesbian marriages. grins. i keep telling ppl that having a bf is nt everythg, yet im actually worrying. contradicting huh. worstill, i need to have a christian bf, which means chances are super slim. think i shd just die n disappear. wahaha.
but then having a boyfriend is nt really everything. i believe that when it's time, and when God says yes my daughter, then its really time. there's no point hurrying and end up getting hurt. some ppl think that its so impt to have a bf, and that they'll die if they dont have 1. i think its like duh.
was watching news and then came this piece on a lil 4 yr old boy who drove to a vcd shop to get vcd! what the!!! goodness, must have scared the shit outta his parents! just 4 years old! but come to think of it, its a lil funny also lah, make one wanna laugh! cute but scary.
ANYWAY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (='0'=)
i am super tired. Oh my. Simply cant believe it. Combed the entire orchard rd a few times and yet i got NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. SOBS. so depressing yeah lizzie... tried on endless lingerie, skirt etc but got NOTHING. proj disussion from bout 12 til 1 plus.. then jalan ard for 9 whole hrs. and then aft that liz n i actually walked from town to grange rd, to gleaneagles, to dempsey rd. think we were a lil crackers to have actually done that. but it was fun anyway, sort of like exercising? ha... just doing lame things while walking, and snapping pictures away... think we made a hell lot of noise. too bad jess left early, she was tired, plus someone visited her... *winks
walked til dempsey, thought we'd take a cab... but we waited for what seems forever, for an empty cab to arrive... and guess what? it didnt! ugh.. so took 75 to jelita, got some ice-cream and hailed for cab, but to no avail. ugh. in the end, took 75 home. wthell can... then liz stop at my place and got a cab, haha.. dunno why but she seems really excited when she managed to get the cab. kind of like high', think a bit mad lah, but nt surprising lor.. think she more ke lian. want cut hair fully booked, want thread brows, fully booked. Sigh.
right now, my legs are aching from all the walking, but it was rather fun lah, something worth remembering. then aud asked me wanna go IMM aft 12am, turned out i think nic n brigitte fell asleep.. haha.. anyway, think my legs are too tired to carry me any further.
turns out that maggie and sharon will be putting out at hawk's place for the time being, which may actually be more than 1/2 a yr! so coooooool can! then can bring them go club and go home late late! Muahaha... but one's 14 and the other's 16... Hmmm... anyway, look forward to that! will be able to go shopping til super late n have companion back hm! yeah and i'll force them to go tanning, swimming with me! whaaha.. and can go for music prac tog! and can watch midnight movies! YAHOO!!! hehheh.. these are such great ideas! hmmm mayb can ask them help sweep the floor, wash toilet at my hse too!! GGGGRRRRRREEEEEEAAAAAATTTTTT!!!!! can do all sorts of CRAZY THINGS! late suppers at ALAMEEN! but they only make us fatter, hmmm nvm, once in a blue moon shd be fine! WONDERFUL!!!
walked til dempsey, thought we'd take a cab... but we waited for what seems forever, for an empty cab to arrive... and guess what? it didnt! ugh.. so took 75 to jelita, got some ice-cream and hailed for cab, but to no avail. ugh. in the end, took 75 home. wthell can... then liz stop at my place and got a cab, haha.. dunno why but she seems really excited when she managed to get the cab. kind of like high', think a bit mad lah, but nt surprising lor.. think she more ke lian. want cut hair fully booked, want thread brows, fully booked. Sigh.
right now, my legs are aching from all the walking, but it was rather fun lah, something worth remembering. then aud asked me wanna go IMM aft 12am, turned out i think nic n brigitte fell asleep.. haha.. anyway, think my legs are too tired to carry me any further.
turns out that maggie and sharon will be putting out at hawk's place for the time being, which may actually be more than 1/2 a yr! so coooooool can! then can bring them go club and go home late late! Muahaha... but one's 14 and the other's 16... Hmmm... anyway, look forward to that! will be able to go shopping til super late n have companion back hm! yeah and i'll force them to go tanning, swimming with me! whaaha.. and can go for music prac tog! and can watch midnight movies! YAHOO!!! hehheh.. these are such great ideas! hmmm mayb can ask them help sweep the floor, wash toilet at my hse too!! GGGGRRRRRREEEEEEAAAAAATTTTTT!!!!! can do all sorts of CRAZY THINGS! late suppers at ALAMEEN! but they only make us fatter, hmmm nvm, once in a blue moon shd be fine! WONDERFUL!!!
Saturday, February 05, 2005
ok this is great, papers down, and i got to go shopping later. sorry i didnt go cocco latte guys.. hope nobody's mad.. know u peeps sure had tons of fun!
oh yeah, nic n aud both got blogs! likle wah serious ah? haha.. nv would i have imagined them to ever ever have a blog, but anyway, good lah, can add to my links! wahaha... supposed to go tanning with fish n suat, but too bad i got prac.. anyway they cmg church later so we can all go shopping! and then ah diam may join us too, yeeps!
JESSELYN LIM!!! wahaha... i'm still SHOCK from the AFTERMATH. cant believe it . omg. omg. omg.
think im gonna have a 1 wk CNY break! cool huh, think it's gonna be e-learning
some things are sure funny. hmmm. really funny. i think my God is really really humourous. think im thinking too much on my part. but i really do wish u'd open your eyes wide and look around you, and tell me what you see.
oh yeah, nic n aud both got blogs! likle wah serious ah? haha.. nv would i have imagined them to ever ever have a blog, but anyway, good lah, can add to my links! wahaha... supposed to go tanning with fish n suat, but too bad i got prac.. anyway they cmg church later so we can all go shopping! and then ah diam may join us too, yeeps!
JESSELYN LIM!!! wahaha... i'm still SHOCK from the AFTERMATH. cant believe it . omg. omg. omg.
think im gonna have a 1 wk CNY break! cool huh, think it's gonna be e-learning
some things are sure funny. hmmm. really funny. i think my God is really really humourous. think im thinking too much on my part. but i really do wish u'd open your eyes wide and look around you, and tell me what you see.
Saturday, January 29, 2005
YES, I've got the phone!
wanna say a huge thanks to my DAD in heaven!
and the one on earth too!
was grinning from ear to ear!
only prob.
i wanted the piano black one
but outta stock
still am very thankful! haha...
my very new toy!!!
gonna be out the whole day tmr
tan, music prac, party, mayb nt party
sunday too
church, aud's place
sigh... wanna study yet i dun wanna miss out the fun
ugh.
EC is nt getting into my head. nt at all.
sobs. and a/cs suck. BIG TIME.
cant wait for tests to be over.
i love gillman village.
wanna go back there soon!
almost wanted to kill that PUB ah beng
so rude n unreasonable.
my dad bathe half-way he switch off the water supply
told him nicely and ask if can switch it back
and he said " BU KE YI"
fcuk lor, go and die lah.
was damn pissed then
haha come to think of it
it was hilarious.
wanna say a huge thanks to my DAD in heaven!
and the one on earth too!
was grinning from ear to ear!
only prob.
i wanted the piano black one
but outta stock
still am very thankful! haha...
my very new toy!!!
gonna be out the whole day tmr
tan, music prac, party, mayb nt party
sunday too
church, aud's place
sigh... wanna study yet i dun wanna miss out the fun
ugh.
EC is nt getting into my head. nt at all.
sobs. and a/cs suck. BIG TIME.
cant wait for tests to be over.
i love gillman village.
wanna go back there soon!
almost wanted to kill that PUB ah beng
so rude n unreasonable.
my dad bathe half-way he switch off the water supply
told him nicely and ask if can switch it back
and he said " BU KE YI"
fcuk lor, go and die lah.
was damn pissed then
haha come to think of it
it was hilarious.
Friday, January 28, 2005
*note to those having their first paper tmr
all the best guys!
i like chinese new year
infact im excited abt it
u get to pig out on goodies
u get angbaos
u get to meet up with ppl u haven seen for a long time!
u get to ketchup with em
u get to play with the kids
u get to play with the toddlers
u get to wear nice clothes
so who doesnt
vincents bday party's this cmg sat
not invited
but esther pulled me along
tot it'd be weird n duh if i go
but esther said rayson's the one who asked em along
kinda feel like gg
ketchup with esther june and all.
hmmm...
super unproductive today
sigh
tests getting nearer
yet i have no sense of urgency
this is so shitified
ugh.
saw this le coq sportif mini canvas tote in the mag
i wanna get it!!
and the freshbox bruce lee tee!!
and the gior jr!!
and the cups fr mini toons!!!
Ahhhh.
LASTLY, i want that phone.
now finally xxx has poured out xxx frustations
and i couldnt really be bothered
i know it all makes sense
but i just refuse to let it sneak into my mind
i dont want to get myself into the shit
yes i know its selfish.
but i shouldnt be the one suffering
i should be well provided for
i dont wanna make comparisons.
but it just isnt fair.
know everything have been given
but its not enough
i know im demanding too much.
sigh.
being a christian is tough.
i think im becoming not a lukewarm one,
but a really cold one
for sucha long time i've been neglecting His word
so long
u wouldnt want to know.
think He's ashamed of me.
i am ashamed of myself too.
very ashamed.
all the best guys!
i like chinese new year
infact im excited abt it
u get to pig out on goodies
u get angbaos
u get to meet up with ppl u haven seen for a long time!
u get to ketchup with em
u get to play with the kids
u get to play with the toddlers
u get to wear nice clothes
so who doesnt
vincents bday party's this cmg sat
not invited
but esther pulled me along
tot it'd be weird n duh if i go
but esther said rayson's the one who asked em along
kinda feel like gg
ketchup with esther june and all.
hmmm...
super unproductive today
sigh
tests getting nearer
yet i have no sense of urgency
this is so shitified
ugh.
saw this le coq sportif mini canvas tote in the mag
i wanna get it!!
and the freshbox bruce lee tee!!
and the gior jr!!
and the cups fr mini toons!!!
Ahhhh.
LASTLY, i want that phone.
now finally xxx has poured out xxx frustations
and i couldnt really be bothered
i know it all makes sense
but i just refuse to let it sneak into my mind
i dont want to get myself into the shit
yes i know its selfish.
but i shouldnt be the one suffering
i should be well provided for
i dont wanna make comparisons.
but it just isnt fair.
know everything have been given
but its not enough
i know im demanding too much.
sigh.
being a christian is tough.
i think im becoming not a lukewarm one,
but a really cold one
for sucha long time i've been neglecting His word
so long
u wouldnt want to know.
think He's ashamed of me.
i am ashamed of myself too.
very ashamed.
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Always freezing cold when I’m out at the balcony
Another day wasted, drifted away to papaya land
I think I’ve grown to be much more independent
Was tanning alone this morn. Alone.
Something that I’d never ever done
So I would proudly declare that I’m proud of myself!
*pat on the back
Guess this term really literally flies
Supposed to submit the PQS report last Thursday
But we just did it yesterday.
Just can believe how terrible we are
Oh my.
Dad says he’s gonna help me change the phone
But with the works going on at home
Doubt he’ll do it anytime soon
So it’s rather disappointing I would say
Perhaps good things come after waiting
So bored staying at home to study
Nothing productive was done at all.
Kept walking and walking around.
Touch this touch that.
I want to get this freshbox tee I saw in seventeen
It had a picture of Bruce Lee on it
Like it lots! Can’t wait…
The gior jr jacket that I wanted was no longer available.
Sobs.
So what if u had money?
It can’t buy you everything.
Another day wasted, drifted away to papaya land
I think I’ve grown to be much more independent
Was tanning alone this morn. Alone.
Something that I’d never ever done
So I would proudly declare that I’m proud of myself!
*pat on the back
Guess this term really literally flies
Supposed to submit the PQS report last Thursday
But we just did it yesterday.
Just can believe how terrible we are
Oh my.
Dad says he’s gonna help me change the phone
But with the works going on at home
Doubt he’ll do it anytime soon
So it’s rather disappointing I would say
Perhaps good things come after waiting
So bored staying at home to study
Nothing productive was done at all.
Kept walking and walking around.
Touch this touch that.
I want to get this freshbox tee I saw in seventeen
It had a picture of Bruce Lee on it
Like it lots! Can’t wait…
The gior jr jacket that I wanted was no longer available.
Sobs.
So what if u had money?
It can’t buy you everything.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
1) I WANNA GO SHOPPING!
Thank God for sending me angels
To fill my pocket with funds
Just that I wish they could so it more often, heh
I need to buy things!!!
2) I WANNA HAVE A GOOD SLEEP
Know I’ve been having enough sleep
But think I’m lacking of oxygen today
Kept yawning and I slept in the hosp
3) I WANNA SPEND TIME WITH NAOMIANS.
Wish they would spare me some of their time
But guess it’s just wishful thinking on my part
They are always so so busy
With work, or rather with boyfriends
Hmmm maybe I should get a life, get a bf
Then again maybe not, haha.
Who would want me?
No thanks, not him. Bleah.
4) I WANNA KETCHUP WITH PEARLIE, JOANNA & VENOM
Want to meet up with them and catch up with one another
Just like we used to in the good’ old days
P’s always busy with what else but her bf
J’s always busy with her church stuff
V’s missing in action.
Probably stuck in some hole in LaSalle.
Sometimes I do wish that I’ll take more initiative in doing things
5) I WANNA PICK UP THAI, SPANISH, FRENCH AND DRUMS.
I want to learn a new lang!
Haha… but I know I’ll never get it done
I want to learn drums.
But… sigh…
Thank God for sending me angels
To fill my pocket with funds
Just that I wish they could so it more often, heh
I need to buy things!!!
2) I WANNA HAVE A GOOD SLEEP
Know I’ve been having enough sleep
But think I’m lacking of oxygen today
Kept yawning and I slept in the hosp
3) I WANNA SPEND TIME WITH NAOMIANS.
Wish they would spare me some of their time
But guess it’s just wishful thinking on my part
They are always so so busy
With work, or rather with boyfriends
Hmmm maybe I should get a life, get a bf
Then again maybe not, haha.
Who would want me?
No thanks, not him. Bleah.
4) I WANNA KETCHUP WITH PEARLIE, JOANNA & VENOM
Want to meet up with them and catch up with one another
Just like we used to in the good’ old days
P’s always busy with what else but her bf
J’s always busy with her church stuff
V’s missing in action.
Probably stuck in some hole in LaSalle.
Sometimes I do wish that I’ll take more initiative in doing things
5) I WANNA PICK UP THAI, SPANISH, FRENCH AND DRUMS.
I want to learn a new lang!
Haha… but I know I’ll never get it done
I want to learn drums.
But… sigh…
Thursday, January 20, 2005
was at zouk ytd with jess liz and lizzies frens
rather fun i would say
just that i totally loathe the bouncer
that idiotic fella who took a llong time checking our ic
think he probably failed maths in school
was there at ard 10.30
had screwdriver, lychee martini
which was so much nicer than acid bar's and
barcardi freezer cranberry
courtesy to liz's frens n jess's sista
music was nice only when it strike abt 2am
anyway like it
but wont be there often
only can sneak out when mamas out
phuture was quite nice
but damn packed
practically have to squeezed and force yr way in
hate that idiotic fella
already so obvious that we didnt want him to dance w us
yet he kept following us
wthell..
and the stripy girl
omg, just kill me
trying too hard. bleah.
but it was real stinky in there
all the smoke were like directed at my face
yucks.
get to see all sorts of ppl
had a good laugh.
anyway photography test was dumb.
wasted 1/2 hr of my time in sch
hol tmr. hols nxt wk.
father of landscape photography - Adams Ansel!!!
i know that! heh.
rather fun i would say
just that i totally loathe the bouncer
that idiotic fella who took a llong time checking our ic
think he probably failed maths in school
was there at ard 10.30
had screwdriver, lychee martini
which was so much nicer than acid bar's and
barcardi freezer cranberry
courtesy to liz's frens n jess's sista
music was nice only when it strike abt 2am
anyway like it
but wont be there often
only can sneak out when mamas out
phuture was quite nice
but damn packed
practically have to squeezed and force yr way in
hate that idiotic fella
already so obvious that we didnt want him to dance w us
yet he kept following us
wthell..
and the stripy girl
omg, just kill me
trying too hard. bleah.
but it was real stinky in there
all the smoke were like directed at my face
yucks.
get to see all sorts of ppl
had a good laugh.
anyway photography test was dumb.
wasted 1/2 hr of my time in sch
hol tmr. hols nxt wk.
father of landscape photography - Adams Ansel!!!
i know that! heh.
Monday, January 17, 2005
so she said she had a fucking day
loads of mtg n quarelling and arguing.
and so i tot it was the bitchiest of the bitches
turn out it was the coffeeshop
ok thats nt too bad
i mean afterall u just go there
and wk and cal the inventories etc
how bad can it get?
then today she couldnt control it anymore
so she wept buckets
which obviously scare the shit out of me
cuz i'll be at lost for words
unless it's kids who are crying
that i may have a way to handle
but now its a 25yr woman
thank God for naomians
who was there for her
lend her listening ears, shoulders to lean on
prayers to encourage her
not to forget hawk nic n the elijahs
guess its really stressful
root of the problem?
- ADAM & EVE -
if nt for them
everything will be fantastic nw
no sins
at all.
no sufferings.
no depressions.
no anger.
but then...
im sure God has His purpose for everything
so i guess theres smthg for her to learn behind all these happenings
so we went to the hosp today
and celebrated suats bday
guess she was a lil surprise
cuz she totally didnt expect it
glad she like the earrings
9 pairs in total
wahaha... a whole year supply
then grace fish eug suat left
so left me n dot
then came nic's relatives
so we went around exploring the hospital
checking out the nursery
the little infants were so cute!
the premature ones were tiny!
i think 3 of my fingers will make up one of their hand
super adorable!
hehheh...
which like dot say,
is a miracle that we can actually grow to the size of what we are now
God's amazing huh
He simple loves to create wonders
then we went to the sleeping disorders ward
but kinda scary la
cuz it says that the patients sleeping are monitored every single min
so i was like uh oh we had better leave the place
then we went to the operating theatre
which was scary too
anyway hospitals kinda freak me out
but it was fun n exhilarating
kinda like going on an adventure
thank God she was alright aft that
just hope that she'll be ok
and nt think too much
and that her stupid uncle will stop being stupid
and that her stupid aunty will stop being stupid
then went bk ward play daidee hahaha
aft that went jalan kayu eat dinner
yummy
yawns
gonna skip tmr's lects
dun even feel like gg for ec class.
ugh.
now i have nothing to look forward to
to keep me going for the week.
sobs.
loads of mtg n quarelling and arguing.
and so i tot it was the bitchiest of the bitches
turn out it was the coffeeshop
ok thats nt too bad
i mean afterall u just go there
and wk and cal the inventories etc
how bad can it get?
then today she couldnt control it anymore
so she wept buckets
which obviously scare the shit out of me
cuz i'll be at lost for words
unless it's kids who are crying
that i may have a way to handle
but now its a 25yr woman
thank God for naomians
who was there for her
lend her listening ears, shoulders to lean on
prayers to encourage her
not to forget hawk nic n the elijahs
guess its really stressful
root of the problem?
- ADAM & EVE -
if nt for them
everything will be fantastic nw
no sins
at all.
no sufferings.
no depressions.
no anger.
but then...
im sure God has His purpose for everything
so i guess theres smthg for her to learn behind all these happenings
so we went to the hosp today
and celebrated suats bday
guess she was a lil surprise
cuz she totally didnt expect it
glad she like the earrings
9 pairs in total
wahaha... a whole year supply
then grace fish eug suat left
so left me n dot
then came nic's relatives
so we went around exploring the hospital
checking out the nursery
the little infants were so cute!
the premature ones were tiny!
i think 3 of my fingers will make up one of their hand
super adorable!
hehheh...
which like dot say,
is a miracle that we can actually grow to the size of what we are now
God's amazing huh
He simple loves to create wonders
then we went to the sleeping disorders ward
but kinda scary la
cuz it says that the patients sleeping are monitored every single min
so i was like uh oh we had better leave the place
then we went to the operating theatre
which was scary too
anyway hospitals kinda freak me out
but it was fun n exhilarating
kinda like going on an adventure
thank God she was alright aft that
just hope that she'll be ok
and nt think too much
and that her stupid uncle will stop being stupid
and that her stupid aunty will stop being stupid
then went bk ward play daidee hahaha
aft that went jalan kayu eat dinner
yummy
yawns
gonna skip tmr's lects
dun even feel like gg for ec class.
ugh.
now i have nothing to look forward to
to keep me going for the week.
sobs.
Friday, January 14, 2005
Thursday, January 13, 2005
today shall be one of the angriest day of my life
fuck it man.
anyway cheryl, now i dont see whats the
big fat hairy deal bout saying this word
u were correct.
u, shut the fuck up.
gonna pay tribute to that.
fuckers bitches bastards all around.
wahaha
now i feel better.
anyway, aud's gonna be outta hosp
and then bk again nxt wk for a minor op
wil pray that all goes well
and theres this super cute guy visiting his fren there
really CUTE.
omg...
heehee...
and the doctor was also CUTE.
really heart melters!
ahaha, and nick says there are also another 2 cute guys
too bad i wasnt there to see for myself.
gonna go entertain aud tmr, hehheh...
miss hols, miss suntanning times, miss gg msia
miss ppl in sjccc, miss sleeping, miss shopping,
miss watching movies, miss church.
and i miss God.
hope u forgive me.
fuck it man.
anyway cheryl, now i dont see whats the
big fat hairy deal bout saying this word
u were correct.
u, shut the fuck up.
gonna pay tribute to that.
fuckers bitches bastards all around.
wahaha
now i feel better.
anyway, aud's gonna be outta hosp
and then bk again nxt wk for a minor op
wil pray that all goes well
and theres this super cute guy visiting his fren there
really CUTE.
omg...
heehee...
and the doctor was also CUTE.
really heart melters!
ahaha, and nick says there are also another 2 cute guys
too bad i wasnt there to see for myself.
gonna go entertain aud tmr, hehheh...
miss hols, miss suntanning times, miss gg msia
miss ppl in sjccc, miss sleeping, miss shopping,
miss watching movies, miss church.
and i miss God.
hope u forgive me.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
was acid bar in the night
kinda fun with the peeps
but was becoming more myself when __________.
anyway, had lychee martini
and it was bloody heavy in alcohol content
dont like it
mayb the one at Harry's wil be nicer,
according to Cheryl
and then had heineken beer,
which is so much more nicer!
and the hilarious part was Slippery Nipples
haha tasted horrible
but it looked damn freaking cute,
wil post the pic when my hello's ready...
guessed we were too noisy
kinda disturbed the others
but i mean
HELLO, we're at a bar
not in a mass
and then started to get high
and took daft pix with the potato chips.
the lamest was the potato mask
haha...
think cheryl's drunk
started blabbering rubbish
then again
think shes nt lah
haha
gtg sleep soon
need wake up at 8.
ugh.
happy birthday pearlie.
happy birthday ruth.
happy birthday fish.
kinda fun with the peeps
but was becoming more myself when __________.
anyway, had lychee martini
and it was bloody heavy in alcohol content
dont like it
mayb the one at Harry's wil be nicer,
according to Cheryl
and then had heineken beer,
which is so much more nicer!
and the hilarious part was Slippery Nipples
haha tasted horrible
but it looked damn freaking cute,
wil post the pic when my hello's ready...
guessed we were too noisy
kinda disturbed the others
but i mean
HELLO, we're at a bar
not in a mass
and then started to get high
and took daft pix with the potato chips.
the lamest was the potato mask
haha...
think cheryl's drunk
started blabbering rubbish
then again
think shes nt lah
haha
gtg sleep soon
need wake up at 8.
ugh.
happy birthday pearlie.
happy birthday ruth.
happy birthday fish.
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
kind of like long time since i last blogged... anyway, connection's fine nw, thanks to hawk.
anyway, im just THANKFUL to have my mama, papa and brother with me, ok mayb nt the brother part. happy for that perfect family, tho tensions may be running high at times. and i really CHERISH my Naomian chums - Dorothy, Grace, Aud, Nic, Suaty that He had blessed me with. No matter what happens, i know i can always count on them. It's just amazing to see how God plants nice people around you, to lend u a hand when u fall. and my two daughters Liz and Jess who have been thru thick and thin with me in school, from day 1 til now, life has been lots of fun with em around, and thank God they can tolerate my nonsense. Not to miss out Cheryl, my gg to sch and gossiping partner! and tho i havent been hanging out with Pearlie and Wenjun, they have a rather impt place in my heart too! and also June, who has been really nice and encouraging!
freaking cold these nights, and i miss suntanning times! ugh. and i 'miss my mummy' tons! poor thing, have to slog it out at the coffeeshop when u dun even know whether u'll get paid or not. i think the worse thing is she actually have to clear the plates, pick up the food from tables etc! that is like totally disgusting. but yet at the same time, im amazed at the fact that she actually does all those, cuz she is really yr typical tai-tai, get what i mean? and i admire her too, i mean how many ppl are willing to go help out at a coffeeshop tho it's their family business? they'd think that its totally degrading, trust me, cuz im one such person. and to be caught by their peers would be their greatest fears. ok ok perhaps im the only one who think in sucha way. anyway, thats her, and really respect her! but just hope that it wont be a barrier btw her and God cuz she missed the previous sunday's svc cuz they needed her there...
went to get fish's bday pressie today, and shun bian watched kungfu, tot it wasnt that nice afterall... should have read Glen's blog before i went! ugh... many things happened recently, ah bee's mama passed away, daughter liz almost blacked out in bus ytd, turned out she had gastric flu, aud's backache prob's back, sigh... tsunami earthquake etc etc... not a good start for the year i guess...
but then again, its a whole brand new year, new beginnings, new resolutions, but who keeps em anyway? so its 2005, and im gonna be 19, which is beginning to scare me, cuz in a moment's time, i'll hit 20s which is like SHIT. haha... im starting to know why women hate it when being asked abt their age, cuz it's really a scary subject to touch on, ugh.
oh and TIME REALLY FLIES, cuz im already in my 5th wk of sch, and projects are falling in and in 3 wks time, it'd be my common test, and i barely know anything abt sch. havent attend a single lecture in marketing and ec. oh my, this term's really a slacking term, ugh, need to buck up before history repeats itself!
gonna get a new pair of white shoes, those slip-on's with the front covered! and i've my eyes on the butterfly slip-ons but think shant get it so soon, else mama will kill me. and i want the gior jr. jacket! but its 32 buckeroos leh... wish someone will get it for me. haha and the wish will never come true, so i'll just dream on...
so many peoples' birthdays in January
- fish, ruth, pastor phoebe, samantha, xueying, pearlie
gonna be really broke.
anyway, im just THANKFUL to have my mama, papa and brother with me, ok mayb nt the brother part. happy for that perfect family, tho tensions may be running high at times. and i really CHERISH my Naomian chums - Dorothy, Grace, Aud, Nic, Suaty that He had blessed me with. No matter what happens, i know i can always count on them. It's just amazing to see how God plants nice people around you, to lend u a hand when u fall. and my two daughters Liz and Jess who have been thru thick and thin with me in school, from day 1 til now, life has been lots of fun with em around, and thank God they can tolerate my nonsense. Not to miss out Cheryl, my gg to sch and gossiping partner! and tho i havent been hanging out with Pearlie and Wenjun, they have a rather impt place in my heart too! and also June, who has been really nice and encouraging!
freaking cold these nights, and i miss suntanning times! ugh. and i 'miss my mummy' tons! poor thing, have to slog it out at the coffeeshop when u dun even know whether u'll get paid or not. i think the worse thing is she actually have to clear the plates, pick up the food from tables etc! that is like totally disgusting. but yet at the same time, im amazed at the fact that she actually does all those, cuz she is really yr typical tai-tai, get what i mean? and i admire her too, i mean how many ppl are willing to go help out at a coffeeshop tho it's their family business? they'd think that its totally degrading, trust me, cuz im one such person. and to be caught by their peers would be their greatest fears. ok ok perhaps im the only one who think in sucha way. anyway, thats her, and really respect her! but just hope that it wont be a barrier btw her and God cuz she missed the previous sunday's svc cuz they needed her there...
went to get fish's bday pressie today, and shun bian watched kungfu, tot it wasnt that nice afterall... should have read Glen's blog before i went! ugh... many things happened recently, ah bee's mama passed away, daughter liz almost blacked out in bus ytd, turned out she had gastric flu, aud's backache prob's back, sigh... tsunami earthquake etc etc... not a good start for the year i guess...
but then again, its a whole brand new year, new beginnings, new resolutions, but who keeps em anyway? so its 2005, and im gonna be 19, which is beginning to scare me, cuz in a moment's time, i'll hit 20s which is like SHIT. haha... im starting to know why women hate it when being asked abt their age, cuz it's really a scary subject to touch on, ugh.
oh and TIME REALLY FLIES, cuz im already in my 5th wk of sch, and projects are falling in and in 3 wks time, it'd be my common test, and i barely know anything abt sch. havent attend a single lecture in marketing and ec. oh my, this term's really a slacking term, ugh, need to buck up before history repeats itself!
gonna get a new pair of white shoes, those slip-on's with the front covered! and i've my eyes on the butterfly slip-ons but think shant get it so soon, else mama will kill me. and i want the gior jr. jacket! but its 32 buckeroos leh... wish someone will get it for me. haha and the wish will never come true, so i'll just dream on...
so many peoples' birthdays in January
- fish, ruth, pastor phoebe, samantha, xueying, pearlie
gonna be really broke.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Thursday, December 30, 2004
saw this in fren's blog
tot it was interesting
so here it goes
SOCIAL COMMENTARYdisclaimer: if the following short contents r likely to miff ur sensibilities (ha!) or bring slander to ur idol or watever hang ups u hav, or ur jus a narrowminded turd in general, pls go boil ur head now. the following blog is a humourous erm, slightly bitchy commentary on our sporean dress sense. it does not represent entirely our culture, its only PART of wat we usually see. u can disagree wid me, ur opinion might defer, but keep it entirely between u and ur imaginery fren. otherwise enjoy ; )
im sure many of us take a road down orchard road wid half a mind on ur fren's conversation, another half on how ur hair is n er another teeny part on wat ppl on the streets wear. (im not particularly good at maths. but anyway) wat singaporeans wear really is diversed. im talking abt our age grp. yes in between 18 to 65.
no jus kidding. most likely 16 to 24. n most of us will fit in one way or another, or a mixture of diff styles when it comes to clothes. n yes clothes does make a diff, it decides on who u attract, who u are and tells us how much money ur daddy makes in a month. hehe
n sometimes there r jus some styles tt we cant ignore. i dont noe abt the rest of the world but i noe i cant. sometimes a certain type of ppl jus stands out n demand my attention n i will be momentarily busy mentally restraining myself frm cutting them wid papercuts to their throats n wrists shouting "WAT WERE U THINKING?!?!"
ok outburst there.it is worth my time to talk abt this cos its also a whole set of thinking behind these diff grps of ppl.
first off, lets start wid a bunch tt hav suddenly popped out frm nowhere within these few yrs. my frens call them
The Trendies
Trendies r ppl who r Different frm us. now i emphasize on Different. cos they r so different, they hav to hav different look, different taste in music, different underwear, different clothes, different everything. n the best thing abt them is tt they hav such a healthy sense of self esteem tt it didnt occur to them tt UR as DIFFERENT AS THE NEXT TRENDY U IDIOT. ur so unique, u look exactly like ur trendy fren! hey wat a new concept. look up Unique in the dictionary.
they listen to obscure bands n read obscure books. anything to make them different, they will know it. so lets say, their typical conversation will be like this:
"yeah i fcuking hate Noamica for not selling me those tics to Glateci's gig. like fcuk man, i wanted to go wid my scene* girls n cant."
point to note. they hav cool names. like so cool, u haven heard of it before. n they always hav a concert they hav to go, a gig happening somewhere somehow. n they end their sentences coolly. its jus all so cool. different ma.
n the girls. they dont clean their mouth after eating n they hav a rice stuck to the side of their mouth. no la jus kidding. its their piercing. u noe the kind of piercing not like mine. mine is a labret. SYMMETRICAL to my face. they hav it at the side.
n they hav so much eyeliner on, their frens wont recognise them when they peel off the 5 inch thick makeup.
i give simple illustration. to spot them, look out for the following: tiny sling bag, black or vintage tops, wid slogan. hair carefully waxed to look messy but carefully n artisticly so. n it is short. rolled up jeans, studded belts, rice piercing, a gallon of eyeliner. n of course tt cool attitude. got cool attitude is a good dude.
though this is not to be confused wid the malay minahs.
the second kind tt is emerging rather proudly in our society r the cute cakeskirts.readers will erm.. by now noe wat im talking abt by cakeskirts.there r 2 kinds. jc n others. im talking abt the act cute kind.take a simple (not skillful) illustration of
the Actcute Cakeskirts.
urgh yes i used cyndi wang cos she is the epitome of demureness i wanna kill her wid my hp's radiation. these ppl will be so cute, u really feel like stabbing a rabbit infront of them.
they r dressed in pink. obviously they watch too much taiwanese idol soap serials. pink pink pink. furry pink. cutsey pink. damn cute the worz~
n their hps wil hav the really adorable soft toy. in my pic, i drew something, im not sure wat, but if its furry n cute, they will like it. they listen to cyndi wang n mouth the intricate n mind boggling lyrics to 5566's newest songs in their slp. when they're drunk, they're likely to burst into emotional rendition of jolin tsai's 72 transformation. or jaychou's something something.
n they tYpE lIkE tHiS dE wOrZ~ lOlx~ =)
its nothing new, so i wont elaborate too much here.
n then there are the queenbees.
THE CAKESKIRTS.
URGH! AHA! i used lindsay lohan cos she is the best representative i can think of. her best assets r her dress sense, it is able to draw ppl into looking at her teenage impossible voluptous body n their notorious silicon valley which has its own postal code and fansite.
i wont elaborate too much once again cos its already been too much on my blog.but hey, lets hav a checklist.
small flouncy flirty skirt? check.small tote bag (perhaps something branded daddy bought??) check.small tight top or white something?? check.small kitten heels strictly no more than 2 inch high??
check.girlish! nubile! nymph-like! bubblegum! pop!speaks strictly english, hair brush and totebags each sold separately.batteries not included, comes wid own bf in tow and clubbing mates.
BUT of course there r The Elites (pun unintended). the creme de la creme. the top drawer.
The Models.
gasp for this grp. i will keep silent abt them. shhhhh...dont disturb them cos its they're busy standing ard looking really posh n silent. shhhhh.....
dont get them riled up or they might jus step on u. no wait shhh... dont talk abt them... shh..... they wont look at u cos the world up there quite high, the air so much fresher too. but wait shhhh..... dont disturb them, they r busy now. dont talk to them cos we all noe sound waves travel in a straight line n if ur not 1.9 tall, dont try it. shhhh
__________________________________________________________________
i left out the Sporty ones.
the Roxy Sporty But Not Really Sporty But I Really Wanna Be Sporty ones.
the Silent Nerds
the Ahlians
the spgs
cos we all noe them by heart now. n im really too lazy to put them on. n most likely, we're a combination of some. then again maybe not. its jus SOME of wat we see.n then there r the boy's version. which is another topic altogther.
tot it was interesting
so here it goes
SOCIAL COMMENTARYdisclaimer: if the following short contents r likely to miff ur sensibilities (ha!) or bring slander to ur idol or watever hang ups u hav, or ur jus a narrowminded turd in general, pls go boil ur head now. the following blog is a humourous erm, slightly bitchy commentary on our sporean dress sense. it does not represent entirely our culture, its only PART of wat we usually see. u can disagree wid me, ur opinion might defer, but keep it entirely between u and ur imaginery fren. otherwise enjoy ; )
im sure many of us take a road down orchard road wid half a mind on ur fren's conversation, another half on how ur hair is n er another teeny part on wat ppl on the streets wear. (im not particularly good at maths. but anyway) wat singaporeans wear really is diversed. im talking abt our age grp. yes in between 18 to 65.
no jus kidding. most likely 16 to 24. n most of us will fit in one way or another, or a mixture of diff styles when it comes to clothes. n yes clothes does make a diff, it decides on who u attract, who u are and tells us how much money ur daddy makes in a month. hehe
n sometimes there r jus some styles tt we cant ignore. i dont noe abt the rest of the world but i noe i cant. sometimes a certain type of ppl jus stands out n demand my attention n i will be momentarily busy mentally restraining myself frm cutting them wid papercuts to their throats n wrists shouting "WAT WERE U THINKING?!?!"
ok outburst there.it is worth my time to talk abt this cos its also a whole set of thinking behind these diff grps of ppl.
first off, lets start wid a bunch tt hav suddenly popped out frm nowhere within these few yrs. my frens call them
The Trendies
Trendies r ppl who r Different frm us. now i emphasize on Different. cos they r so different, they hav to hav different look, different taste in music, different underwear, different clothes, different everything. n the best thing abt them is tt they hav such a healthy sense of self esteem tt it didnt occur to them tt UR as DIFFERENT AS THE NEXT TRENDY U IDIOT. ur so unique, u look exactly like ur trendy fren! hey wat a new concept. look up Unique in the dictionary.
they listen to obscure bands n read obscure books. anything to make them different, they will know it. so lets say, their typical conversation will be like this:
"yeah i fcuking hate Noamica for not selling me those tics to Glateci's gig. like fcuk man, i wanted to go wid my scene* girls n cant."
point to note. they hav cool names. like so cool, u haven heard of it before. n they always hav a concert they hav to go, a gig happening somewhere somehow. n they end their sentences coolly. its jus all so cool. different ma.
n the girls. they dont clean their mouth after eating n they hav a rice stuck to the side of their mouth. no la jus kidding. its their piercing. u noe the kind of piercing not like mine. mine is a labret. SYMMETRICAL to my face. they hav it at the side.
n they hav so much eyeliner on, their frens wont recognise them when they peel off the 5 inch thick makeup.
i give simple illustration. to spot them, look out for the following: tiny sling bag, black or vintage tops, wid slogan. hair carefully waxed to look messy but carefully n artisticly so. n it is short. rolled up jeans, studded belts, rice piercing, a gallon of eyeliner. n of course tt cool attitude. got cool attitude is a good dude.
though this is not to be confused wid the malay minahs.
the second kind tt is emerging rather proudly in our society r the cute cakeskirts.readers will erm.. by now noe wat im talking abt by cakeskirts.there r 2 kinds. jc n others. im talking abt the act cute kind.take a simple (not skillful) illustration of
the Actcute Cakeskirts.
urgh yes i used cyndi wang cos she is the epitome of demureness i wanna kill her wid my hp's radiation. these ppl will be so cute, u really feel like stabbing a rabbit infront of them.
they r dressed in pink. obviously they watch too much taiwanese idol soap serials. pink pink pink. furry pink. cutsey pink. damn cute the worz~
n their hps wil hav the really adorable soft toy. in my pic, i drew something, im not sure wat, but if its furry n cute, they will like it. they listen to cyndi wang n mouth the intricate n mind boggling lyrics to 5566's newest songs in their slp. when they're drunk, they're likely to burst into emotional rendition of jolin tsai's 72 transformation. or jaychou's something something.
n they tYpE lIkE tHiS dE wOrZ~ lOlx~ =)
its nothing new, so i wont elaborate too much here.
n then there are the queenbees.
THE CAKESKIRTS.
URGH! AHA! i used lindsay lohan cos she is the best representative i can think of. her best assets r her dress sense, it is able to draw ppl into looking at her teenage impossible voluptous body n their notorious silicon valley which has its own postal code and fansite.
i wont elaborate too much once again cos its already been too much on my blog.but hey, lets hav a checklist.
small flouncy flirty skirt? check.small tote bag (perhaps something branded daddy bought??) check.small tight top or white something?? check.small kitten heels strictly no more than 2 inch high??
check.girlish! nubile! nymph-like! bubblegum! pop!speaks strictly english, hair brush and totebags each sold separately.batteries not included, comes wid own bf in tow and clubbing mates.
BUT of course there r The Elites (pun unintended). the creme de la creme. the top drawer.
The Models.
gasp for this grp. i will keep silent abt them. shhhhh...dont disturb them cos its they're busy standing ard looking really posh n silent. shhhhh.....
dont get them riled up or they might jus step on u. no wait shhh... dont talk abt them... shh..... they wont look at u cos the world up there quite high, the air so much fresher too. but wait shhhh..... dont disturb them, they r busy now. dont talk to them cos we all noe sound waves travel in a straight line n if ur not 1.9 tall, dont try it. shhhh
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i left out the Sporty ones.
the Roxy Sporty But Not Really Sporty But I Really Wanna Be Sporty ones.
the Silent Nerds
the Ahlians
the spgs
cos we all noe them by heart now. n im really too lazy to put them on. n most likely, we're a combination of some. then again maybe not. its jus SOME of wat we see.n then there r the boy's version. which is another topic altogther.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
stayed overnite in church ytd
played daidee with the elijahs
have to admit anthony's really cute
haha see him and u'll wanna pinch his cheeks
ytd's rally was quite fun
cuz i was in a costume
enjoyed the whole thing!
on christmas eve went to jacq's party
but im sorry it was kinda boring
so we left ard 9 and went to hawks place
then played uno attack with ethan n bryan
and stayed there til 3.30 am
wahaha... very exhilarating
cuz u dun know when the cards will suddenly thrust itself out!
haha...
then received another 3 pressies today
1) the led light from church
2) winnie the pooh bear from him
3) clip cum m'm cum enc card from fish
hee thanks
love all the presents!
one of the best part of Christmas!
ok am gonna skip sch tmr, and sleep well
may drop by fish's hse for the potluck party
actually im kinda sad Christmas is over
cuz there's like nothing for me to look forward to already
but mayb we'll have a new year's eve countdown party
and this nic says that when it strikes 12, we'll all
jump into the pool
tell me, how lame can he get
played daidee with the elijahs
have to admit anthony's really cute
haha see him and u'll wanna pinch his cheeks
ytd's rally was quite fun
cuz i was in a costume
enjoyed the whole thing!
on christmas eve went to jacq's party
but im sorry it was kinda boring
so we left ard 9 and went to hawks place
then played uno attack with ethan n bryan
and stayed there til 3.30 am
wahaha... very exhilarating
cuz u dun know when the cards will suddenly thrust itself out!
haha...
then received another 3 pressies today
1) the led light from church
2) winnie the pooh bear from him
3) clip cum m'm cum enc card from fish
hee thanks
love all the presents!
one of the best part of Christmas!
ok am gonna skip sch tmr, and sleep well
may drop by fish's hse for the potluck party
actually im kinda sad Christmas is over
cuz there's like nothing for me to look forward to already
but mayb we'll have a new year's eve countdown party
and this nic says that when it strikes 12, we'll all
jump into the pool
tell me, how lame can he get
Saturday, December 25, 2004
i must say this is kind of dangerous
because uncle hawk actually reads my blog
so i gotta be careful on what i post up here wahaha...
christmas has been great
all by God's grace
received tons of pressies! yeeps
jus wanna post up what i got for christmas this yr
no other meanings to it
1) cute happy hse trinklet box with a happy hse badge & a bracelet and a bottle of cookies with 2 candy canes on it from Jess
2) happy hse piggy best fren pencil holder and the cool sand art DIY brownie from Lizzie
3) fishing game from nic & aud
4) potpurri from pastor phobe
5) Car metal clip thingy with note attached fr dorothy and the nice humongous fruit cake which she baked for us
6) styrofoam snowman head with beaded earrings sitting on a jar filled with marshmallow coated with chocolate then dipped in shredded coconut and biscuits
7) a bag from sharon n maggie
8) a handphone pouch fr a church aunty
9) choc in a shell from eu
10) squeezed paint note on a frame from cheryl
11) self-made cookies from pearlie
12) porcelain basket from ana
13) natural source glittery body shower gel from suemay
14) burning essence & cute earrings from hawk n brigitte
thanks so much people, for all that u've done! appreciate it lots from the bottom of my heart!
but then sometimes i feel that just get too caught up with buying christmas gifts, decorating their houses, having parties, to the extent that the real meaning of Christmas has been deleted from our minds. it seems that everyone is celebrating Christmas, christians, non-christians etc etc... but the real meaning of it often slipped our mind. so as im typing this, i just hope to convey the msg that Jesus Christ was born on this day for u and me! and we ought to share this great news to all around us!
so as we celebrate this merry occasion with our loved ones, let's commemorate and remember that the Prince of Peace was born for us!
blessed christmas, God bless ya! =)
because uncle hawk actually reads my blog
so i gotta be careful on what i post up here wahaha...
christmas has been great
all by God's grace
received tons of pressies! yeeps
jus wanna post up what i got for christmas this yr
no other meanings to it
1) cute happy hse trinklet box with a happy hse badge & a bracelet and a bottle of cookies with 2 candy canes on it from Jess
2) happy hse piggy best fren pencil holder and the cool sand art DIY brownie from Lizzie
3) fishing game from nic & aud
4) potpurri from pastor phobe
5) Car metal clip thingy with note attached fr dorothy and the nice humongous fruit cake which she baked for us
6) styrofoam snowman head with beaded earrings sitting on a jar filled with marshmallow coated with chocolate then dipped in shredded coconut and biscuits
7) a bag from sharon n maggie
8) a handphone pouch fr a church aunty
9) choc in a shell from eu
10) squeezed paint note on a frame from cheryl
11) self-made cookies from pearlie
12) porcelain basket from ana
13) natural source glittery body shower gel from suemay
14) burning essence & cute earrings from hawk n brigitte
thanks so much people, for all that u've done! appreciate it lots from the bottom of my heart!
but then sometimes i feel that just get too caught up with buying christmas gifts, decorating their houses, having parties, to the extent that the real meaning of Christmas has been deleted from our minds. it seems that everyone is celebrating Christmas, christians, non-christians etc etc... but the real meaning of it often slipped our mind. so as im typing this, i just hope to convey the msg that Jesus Christ was born on this day for u and me! and we ought to share this great news to all around us!
so as we celebrate this merry occasion with our loved ones, let's commemorate and remember that the Prince of Peace was born for us!
blessed christmas, God bless ya! =)
Monday, December 13, 2004
watched star awards last night
tot it was entertaining
sch was boring,
except for ec
tot the tutor was kinda nice
God was good to me
He listened to my prayers
thank u Lord
gonna go camp tmr!
yeeps, but think i'll pengsan
from all the bus and train rides
i wanna go Christmas shopping!
gonna go get the toys for the naomians!
or perhaps just some...
nice big bangles for mamadot
hoverdisc for nic
etc etc hehheh...
*winks* ;-)
tot it was entertaining
sch was boring,
except for ec
tot the tutor was kinda nice
God was good to me
He listened to my prayers
thank u Lord
gonna go camp tmr!
yeeps, but think i'll pengsan
from all the bus and train rides
i wanna go Christmas shopping!
gonna go get the toys for the naomians!
or perhaps just some...
nice big bangles for mamadot
hoverdisc for nic
etc etc hehheh...
*winks* ;-)
Sunday, December 12, 2004
i have to admit sch sucks
sigh
how to survive like that
alamak
have been skipping lectures
my brother gave me a levi's voucher
$60
i got a top
$79.90
their clothes are really exp
only rich ppl cab afford to buy
ytd was the rehearsal for christmas rally
it was kinda fun i guess
1) but i get conceited
too often
i try to harmonise
i sing at the top of my lungs
hoping that it can be heard
thats when it all happens
and God doesnt like it
so when i pray i ask God for a humble heart
in all i do
that its all for Him
truly from my heart
2) i told lies
i skipped lectures
and bluff my mama n papa
that theres no sch
im hopeless
3) i spend a lot
i go out with them
instead of lectures
go for hi tea
go for movie
go suntanning
oh no, im hopeless
next wk's camp
may skip a few lectures again
omy...
im really terrible.
really hate going to sch in dec!
ARGHHH....
God shave me...
sigh
how to survive like that
alamak
have been skipping lectures
my brother gave me a levi's voucher
$60
i got a top
$79.90
their clothes are really exp
only rich ppl cab afford to buy
ytd was the rehearsal for christmas rally
it was kinda fun i guess
1) but i get conceited
too often
i try to harmonise
i sing at the top of my lungs
hoping that it can be heard
thats when it all happens
and God doesnt like it
so when i pray i ask God for a humble heart
in all i do
that its all for Him
truly from my heart
2) i told lies
i skipped lectures
and bluff my mama n papa
that theres no sch
im hopeless
3) i spend a lot
i go out with them
instead of lectures
go for hi tea
go for movie
go suntanning
oh no, im hopeless
next wk's camp
may skip a few lectures again
omy...
im really terrible.
really hate going to sch in dec!
ARGHHH....
God shave me...
Saturday, December 04, 2004
twinkling of an eye, its gone
its gone gone GONE!
ugh, sobs.
no more swimming with my besties.
no more shopping with my besties.
humph.
but then...
im actually lookng forward to sch
why
cos i can catch up with my frens
wahaha...
and laugh my head off with em'
christmas is gonna be so fun
with all the party and the rally
cant wait!
its gone gone GONE!
ugh, sobs.
no more swimming with my besties.
no more shopping with my besties.
humph.
but then...
im actually lookng forward to sch
why
cos i can catch up with my frens
wahaha...
and laugh my head off with em'
christmas is gonna be so fun
with all the party and the rally
cant wait!
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Mamma Mia was FANTASTIC, AWESOME, AMAZING!
songs were great, makes u wanna stand up and dance
but i didnt lah, haha, cuz the rest wasnt on enough
whole of tues was fun lah
was sunbasking in the morn with mamadot
then we attempted to bake ah mei's bday cake
quite successful! haha
tot it looked kinda nice!
then we dolled up ourselves
theme was retro
so i asked my mama to make smthg retro for me!
haha then there was a massive jam when we were on our way there
and nic's car sort of skidded
so scary!
and we were later, but were admitted in after 3 songs
so didnt miss out that much!
but the rest were sporting enough
didnt dress retro
only me and dot did
nevertheless
i stil had tons of fun
i think im the winner lah
winner of the best costume!
haha jus kidding
then we celebrated ah meis bday outside esplanade
took tons of pictures!
after which she left with eug
and the 5 of us went for supper at laopasat
think i look kinda out
people's staring at me like im some alien
wil try to upload some pics if poss
the rest are stil in the cam,
haven finis taking!
wil wait til after christmas then can develop!
went arab street with mama ytd
kinda fun
bought lotsa fabrics
think she can bargain super well
have been spending lotsa time with dot this hols
but shes wking today til sunday.
so am gonna miss my mummy!
will miss all the slappings, pinchings and tickles!
hahaha...
schools starting soon!
heehee
songs were great, makes u wanna stand up and dance
but i didnt lah, haha, cuz the rest wasnt on enough
whole of tues was fun lah
was sunbasking in the morn with mamadot
then we attempted to bake ah mei's bday cake
quite successful! haha
tot it looked kinda nice!
then we dolled up ourselves
theme was retro
so i asked my mama to make smthg retro for me!
haha then there was a massive jam when we were on our way there
and nic's car sort of skidded
so scary!
and we were later, but were admitted in after 3 songs
so didnt miss out that much!
but the rest were sporting enough
didnt dress retro
only me and dot did
nevertheless
i stil had tons of fun
i think im the winner lah
winner of the best costume!
haha jus kidding
then we celebrated ah meis bday outside esplanade
took tons of pictures!
after which she left with eug
and the 5 of us went for supper at laopasat
think i look kinda out
people's staring at me like im some alien
wil try to upload some pics if poss
the rest are stil in the cam,
haven finis taking!
wil wait til after christmas then can develop!
went arab street with mama ytd
kinda fun
bought lotsa fabrics
think she can bargain super well
have been spending lotsa time with dot this hols
but shes wking today til sunday.
so am gonna miss my mummy!
will miss all the slappings, pinchings and tickles!
hahaha...
schools starting soon!
heehee
Friday, November 19, 2004
new timetable's out
tot it was quite cool lah, cept for monday
still, am gonna make doubly sure i'll have fun thruout the whole sem
didnt sleep a wink last nite
kept tossing and turnin
always the case when it aint my own bed
having a diary is kinda good.
i mean not a blog
but the one u write down with a pen or whatsoever
u know u just penned down all yr thoughts
whatever u feel
yr problems
how yr day passed
joys, trials, temptations
talk about yr loved ones
etc etc
i always tell myself
that i need to ring my grandmama up
at least once a week
to show that i care
but i never seemed to be able to do it
and on the other hand
it was she who always took the initiative to call us up
ask us how we are etc
makes me guilty
really guilty
yet im not doing anything bout it
guess its time for a change
because time is limited
u never know when u'll be gone
i mean if God wants u up,
u gotta be up
jus a note to ppl out there who are depressed
love and cherish all that has been blessed unto you
tot it was quite cool lah, cept for monday
still, am gonna make doubly sure i'll have fun thruout the whole sem
didnt sleep a wink last nite
kept tossing and turnin
always the case when it aint my own bed
having a diary is kinda good.
i mean not a blog
but the one u write down with a pen or whatsoever
u know u just penned down all yr thoughts
whatever u feel
yr problems
how yr day passed
joys, trials, temptations
talk about yr loved ones
etc etc
i always tell myself
that i need to ring my grandmama up
at least once a week
to show that i care
but i never seemed to be able to do it
and on the other hand
it was she who always took the initiative to call us up
ask us how we are etc
makes me guilty
really guilty
yet im not doing anything bout it
guess its time for a change
because time is limited
u never know when u'll be gone
i mean if God wants u up,
u gotta be up
jus a note to ppl out there who are depressed
love and cherish all that has been blessed unto you
staying over at nick's place with my new found mummy, dorothy!
hehs
gonna fly kite tmr!
such clean fun huh?!
tanning this wk again, mon, tues, thurs...
wanna get super duper black
but that dumb mummy kept saying my tummy's super fair!
humphs!
saw SAW, the incredibles
both are not that nice shows
went out with kaikit today
been 2/3 yrs since we last went out tog
rather fun
went bugis then meet up with my *mummy
Mamma Mia is cmg cmg COMING!
hehs
gonna fly kite tmr!
such clean fun huh?!
tanning this wk again, mon, tues, thurs...
wanna get super duper black
but that dumb mummy kept saying my tummy's super fair!
humphs!
saw SAW, the incredibles
both are not that nice shows
went out with kaikit today
been 2/3 yrs since we last went out tog
rather fun
went bugis then meet up with my *mummy
Mamma Mia is cmg cmg COMING!
Saturday, November 13, 2004
sigh...
wish i can blog daily
but that bloody comp's screwed up again
miss my daughters
and my bs mates
will hope to go out with em on monday!
have been swimming and tanning everyday
hope i get to be like a charcoal!
wahaha...
and yes, im going to Mamma Mia!
Yes, finally!
so excited bout it,
and we're gonna celeb ah mei's bday aft that!
but the prob is, eug's gg as well.
sian.
cant help but say the word sian.
the 3 of us gonna bake and make a swimming pool cake for her!
wahaha...
jus read the others' blogs
so many peeps outta town!
got back results ytd
and by God's grace
really, He's amazing
He always does wonders for me
always.
and im truly thankful to Him
it wasnt easy for me
comparing answers aft exams
realising answers were totally different from the rest
the pang of disappointment and fear crept in
deeply etched in my mind - the fear of repeating modules
being separated from my besties
having to be on my own,
to be independent
cant bear the tot of that
but really it's Him who picked me up during that time
and pulled me thru it
realy realy its Him.
wouldnt have done it w/o Him.
hope everyone else managed to scrape thru/do well
twinkling of an eye
half of the hols gone
looking bk,
dunno whether it has been fruitful not
hmmm but still feel that i havent got much time for self
cuz went to genting
came back
swimming
going out etc etc
well, just hope to enjoy the rest of it!
got many christmas pressies already!
looking forward to christmas!
and the new school term!
hehhehs...
i think my cuzzies are all very sweet
they nv seem to forget my mama's birthday
one surprise celeb at my aunts hse
with the surprise yummy oreo ice-cream cake and pressie
they remembered the mascara incident
so they got her some make up kit from estee lauder
so sweet
another cuzzie treated my mama to dinna
then bot cake and celebrated for her
so nice of them
haha but well, i dont get those perks at all
haha...
a long entry,
but dont feel like ending it here...
so much more i wanna update
saw him but hell he was like an idiot lah
what a dumbass
wish i can blog daily
but that bloody comp's screwed up again
miss my daughters
and my bs mates
will hope to go out with em on monday!
have been swimming and tanning everyday
hope i get to be like a charcoal!
wahaha...
and yes, im going to Mamma Mia!
Yes, finally!
so excited bout it,
and we're gonna celeb ah mei's bday aft that!
but the prob is, eug's gg as well.
sian.
cant help but say the word sian.
the 3 of us gonna bake and make a swimming pool cake for her!
wahaha...
jus read the others' blogs
so many peeps outta town!
got back results ytd
and by God's grace
really, He's amazing
He always does wonders for me
always.
and im truly thankful to Him
it wasnt easy for me
comparing answers aft exams
realising answers were totally different from the rest
the pang of disappointment and fear crept in
deeply etched in my mind - the fear of repeating modules
being separated from my besties
having to be on my own,
to be independent
cant bear the tot of that
but really it's Him who picked me up during that time
and pulled me thru it
realy realy its Him.
wouldnt have done it w/o Him.
hope everyone else managed to scrape thru/do well
twinkling of an eye
half of the hols gone
looking bk,
dunno whether it has been fruitful not
hmmm but still feel that i havent got much time for self
cuz went to genting
came back
swimming
going out etc etc
well, just hope to enjoy the rest of it!
got many christmas pressies already!
looking forward to christmas!
and the new school term!
hehhehs...
i think my cuzzies are all very sweet
they nv seem to forget my mama's birthday
one surprise celeb at my aunts hse
with the surprise yummy oreo ice-cream cake and pressie
they remembered the mascara incident
so they got her some make up kit from estee lauder
so sweet
another cuzzie treated my mama to dinna
then bot cake and celebrated for her
so nice of them
haha but well, i dont get those perks at all
haha...
a long entry,
but dont feel like ending it here...
so much more i wanna update
saw him but hell he was like an idiot lah
what a dumbass
Saturday, October 30, 2004
twice a wk ive been to PS
and heading there again ltr
first wk of hols
and im turning into a panda
glad work was over.
money could do me some good
attended the seminar
it was so inspiring
wonder when can i ever play like the pastor
he made me fall in love with the piano
wish i could play like him
but had difficulty catching up
cuz he was talking bout those
suspension, inversion, diminish etc
then there was stupid auntie
kept asking questions
damn irritating
everytime it'd be her
without fail.
damn it man.
super hungry and freezing cold now
it has been raining everyday
can the clouds please get your butt outta the way
and let the sun out
got the satin with cute monkey prints for mei's pressie
gonna make her a pyjamas
hehheh..
and those cap like Santa's with a furry ball there
can't take it,
fingers are numb!
and heading there again ltr
first wk of hols
and im turning into a panda
glad work was over.
money could do me some good
attended the seminar
it was so inspiring
wonder when can i ever play like the pastor
he made me fall in love with the piano
wish i could play like him
but had difficulty catching up
cuz he was talking bout those
suspension, inversion, diminish etc
then there was stupid auntie
kept asking questions
damn irritating
everytime it'd be her
without fail.
damn it man.
super hungry and freezing cold now
it has been raining everyday
can the clouds please get your butt outta the way
and let the sun out
got the satin with cute monkey prints for mei's pressie
gonna make her a pyjamas
hehheh..
and those cap like Santa's with a furry ball there
can't take it,
fingers are numb!
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
cant go online again
smthg has cocked up with the domain system
so here i am at hawks place
exams have come to an end
never been happier
life is finally back to its normal pace
so glad.
all papers were horrendous
except for law n hrm
just dont wanna think abt em now
went to daiso with liz on sat
got the orange eye masque, frog tape, choc mould and the brush
hehs.
then went for family dinner with my relatives
warm and nice feeling seeing all my cuzzies
a few yrs since i last saw them
sun morn woke up at 7 plus
followed my cuzzies n all to fetch the bride
but was in a foul mood lah
thanks to my mama and her mascara
but dinner was quite fun lah
anyway gonna wk at cuzzies office fr wed-fri
8.5 should do me jus fine
but then am quite sian by the thought of it
imagine waking up at 7plus on a holiday
ugh
then may go msia nxt week with other cuzzies
some guys are really gross...
grossed me out.
and they piss the hell out of me.
plz look into the mirror
tell me what u see
smthg has cocked up with the domain system
so here i am at hawks place
exams have come to an end
never been happier
life is finally back to its normal pace
so glad.
all papers were horrendous
except for law n hrm
just dont wanna think abt em now
went to daiso with liz on sat
got the orange eye masque, frog tape, choc mould and the brush
hehs.
then went for family dinner with my relatives
warm and nice feeling seeing all my cuzzies
a few yrs since i last saw them
sun morn woke up at 7 plus
followed my cuzzies n all to fetch the bride
but was in a foul mood lah
thanks to my mama and her mascara
but dinner was quite fun lah
anyway gonna wk at cuzzies office fr wed-fri
8.5 should do me jus fine
but then am quite sian by the thought of it
imagine waking up at 7plus on a holiday
ugh
then may go msia nxt week with other cuzzies
some guys are really gross...
grossed me out.
and they piss the hell out of me.
plz look into the mirror
tell me what u see
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Monday, October 18, 2004
absolutely fun morn + noon
except for the fact that i had to study
which i obviously didnt
heck.
was like excited
cuz waited damn long for sunday to come
anyway, mooncher and charmaine came today
so glad ta see em
last saw em was camp in June
anyway, the girls are really cute lah
wasnt on worship duty this wk
then end of svc
music team was praying
then ah mei pulled me up
so she told em abt me n dot having exams
so nic asked her to pray
haha
and she did, thanks sista!
its really encouragin and heartwarming
to know that people care after all
then she passed me this photo of us when she won the dj competition
and this encouragement card!
so sweet of her! grins
really very happy to know theres always
this group of ppl who are there for me
no matter what happens
then adeline gave us some hair spray thingy
so sweet and nice of her too!
went for lunch with the girls
and head home aft that
when i got hm there was so many ppl in da hse
cousins came to try on clothes for the wedding
then mooncher charmaine and their grandmama was there
i tot"shit lah no need study liao
but God brought them to another place
soon after that
hee thank u God
but looking forward to greater times with them aft my exams!
didnt study much
die.
econs driving me nuts.
and im really scared.
feel like crying.
sso scared i'll fail and retake.
But i know God's grace is sufficient for me
and that He'll sustain me thru this period!
at the end of the day
i wanna thank God for all the sweet messages
He have sent me thru so many people
all the "jiayous", pats on the bk, prayers
words of encouragement
and even little cards and gifts
thank u Lord!
thank u my dear lovely churchmates!
lastly, something that was on the card
dedicated to everyone
"God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
But God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labor, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love."
except for the fact that i had to study
which i obviously didnt
heck.
was like excited
cuz waited damn long for sunday to come
anyway, mooncher and charmaine came today
so glad ta see em
last saw em was camp in June
anyway, the girls are really cute lah
wasnt on worship duty this wk
then end of svc
music team was praying
then ah mei pulled me up
so she told em abt me n dot having exams
so nic asked her to pray
haha
and she did, thanks sista!
its really encouragin and heartwarming
to know that people care after all
then she passed me this photo of us when she won the dj competition
and this encouragement card!
so sweet of her! grins
really very happy to know theres always
this group of ppl who are there for me
no matter what happens
then adeline gave us some hair spray thingy
so sweet and nice of her too!
went for lunch with the girls
and head home aft that
when i got hm there was so many ppl in da hse
cousins came to try on clothes for the wedding
then mooncher charmaine and their grandmama was there
i tot"shit lah no need study liao
but God brought them to another place
soon after that
hee thank u God
but looking forward to greater times with them aft my exams!
didnt study much
die.
econs driving me nuts.
and im really scared.
feel like crying.
sso scared i'll fail and retake.
But i know God's grace is sufficient for me
and that He'll sustain me thru this period!
at the end of the day
i wanna thank God for all the sweet messages
He have sent me thru so many people
all the "jiayous", pats on the bk, prayers
words of encouragement
and even little cards and gifts
thank u Lord!
thank u my dear lovely churchmates!
lastly, something that was on the card
dedicated to everyone
"God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
But God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labor, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love."
Saturday, October 16, 2004
15/10/04
after 40 days
finally received an sms from her
and i was jus telling God the other day
that i wished she would take initiative instead
and He paid attention to such a small wish
something that was just so unimportant
thank u Lord
she told me there was this shop
at orchard plaza
poa shoes going for a song @ only 19.90
hahas wil head down, nxt sat this time!
was at church studying then ah bee came
passed me this brochure
told me that reverend ask me to attend
its a praise and worship seminar
- effective piano for worship -
so she said go back and consider lah
and i thot since God want me to do this
why not
so i think im gonna go!
so excited
dots gg with me too
hopefully i'll absorb many things and
have more confidence
and play for worship service!
to put whatever i've learnt into service
for the Lord
$65 for 6 hrs
split into 2 days
sponsored by church
so im gonna go and be inspired!
then one of the most embarrassed things happened to me
took 75 hm fr hv
carrying my camou army green sling
went up the bus
walked to the bk to get a seat
before i could pass the exit door
i was like wthell
how come suddenly theres a force pulling me bk
the elastic strings of my bag got hooked to
somebody else's bag who was in the front
u could have imagine
how bloody paiseh i was
i had to retreat and said
sorry sorry
and settled for a seat in the front
all the paisehness
ugh!
hahaha...
then i had to keep my cool
so i took out my notes and pretend to think real deep
took out my phone and called my mama
hahahha...
so paiseh...
i was imagining the people in the back all snickering
luckily, the bag belongs to a maid
if it was some cute guy,
then thats the end of it. haha...
then grace came over to my place
needed my mama's help to make cheerleading clothes
seems like its a shoot
and she brought the directors along
like so cool man
then they found np magnum force peeps for the shoot
ahahhaha skali got albert
hahaha...
but they want it by nxt wk
so my mama might nt be able to rush...
16/10/04
had hrm paper today
thank God it was a breeze
managed to handle all the questions
wasnt much problem
so glad 1 paper is down.
i guessed the remedial class really helped
hehheh...
shit i feel like going out.
ugh.
after 40 days
finally received an sms from her
and i was jus telling God the other day
that i wished she would take initiative instead
and He paid attention to such a small wish
something that was just so unimportant
thank u Lord
she told me there was this shop
at orchard plaza
poa shoes going for a song @ only 19.90
hahas wil head down, nxt sat this time!
was at church studying then ah bee came
passed me this brochure
told me that reverend ask me to attend
its a praise and worship seminar
- effective piano for worship -
so she said go back and consider lah
and i thot since God want me to do this
why not
so i think im gonna go!
so excited
dots gg with me too
hopefully i'll absorb many things and
have more confidence
and play for worship service!
to put whatever i've learnt into service
for the Lord
$65 for 6 hrs
split into 2 days
sponsored by church
so im gonna go and be inspired!
then one of the most embarrassed things happened to me
took 75 hm fr hv
carrying my camou army green sling
went up the bus
walked to the bk to get a seat
before i could pass the exit door
i was like wthell
how come suddenly theres a force pulling me bk
the elastic strings of my bag got hooked to
somebody else's bag who was in the front
u could have imagine
how bloody paiseh i was
i had to retreat and said
sorry sorry
and settled for a seat in the front
all the paisehness
ugh!
hahaha...
then i had to keep my cool
so i took out my notes and pretend to think real deep
took out my phone and called my mama
hahahha...
so paiseh...
i was imagining the people in the back all snickering
luckily, the bag belongs to a maid
if it was some cute guy,
then thats the end of it. haha...
then grace came over to my place
needed my mama's help to make cheerleading clothes
seems like its a shoot
and she brought the directors along
like so cool man
then they found np magnum force peeps for the shoot
ahahhaha skali got albert
hahaha...
but they want it by nxt wk
so my mama might nt be able to rush...
16/10/04
had hrm paper today
thank God it was a breeze
managed to handle all the questions
wasnt much problem
so glad 1 paper is down.
i guessed the remedial class really helped
hehheh...
shit i feel like going out.
ugh.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
the man and woman are gg putri tmr
sigh, but i cant follow this time
papers are all so near
cant help but feeling a lil excited
tho' stil got tons of stuff stil havent touched yet.
auds bday coming, 21st
mayb will ask amei to get some stuff and share it
im very drained already
not much juice left
alamak.
they wun be ard tmr
but think i'll still make my way to church
only can focus and study there
no idea why also
but i guess its bcuz its
1) quiet
2) no distractions
3) me all alone in the rm
so its good for me!
my cuzzie's wedding's cmg
cant wait
looking forward to it!
uncles aunties gonna come fr m'sia
few yrs since i last saw my lil cuzzies
its gonna be fun
but right now
i've to cross a hurdle first
and God'll guide me thru it
He'll be there with me
holding my hand
til i finish the whole race
and after that
He'll still be there.
sigh, but i cant follow this time
papers are all so near
cant help but feeling a lil excited
tho' stil got tons of stuff stil havent touched yet.
auds bday coming, 21st
mayb will ask amei to get some stuff and share it
im very drained already
not much juice left
alamak.
they wun be ard tmr
but think i'll still make my way to church
only can focus and study there
no idea why also
but i guess its bcuz its
1) quiet
2) no distractions
3) me all alone in the rm
so its good for me!
my cuzzie's wedding's cmg
cant wait
looking forward to it!
uncles aunties gonna come fr m'sia
few yrs since i last saw my lil cuzzies
its gonna be fun
but right now
i've to cross a hurdle first
and God'll guide me thru it
He'll be there with me
holding my hand
til i finish the whole race
and after that
He'll still be there.
i love to blog.
i love to sum up my day in a blog.
it feels good. to blog.
just a release of all emotions.
tho u cant really mention names at times
went to sch
then met wenjun to study
but wif ard
i'll end up talking non-stop like an idiot
then went oppo to killiney to have dinna
think its quite cool to go oppo and eat in da night
hahaha
was playing time crisis at hawk's place
haha so funnnsss
but the aud snatched it from me
jus aft a short while
hawk lives on the 23rd storey
and i lived on the 22nd
didnt wanna take the stairs when i wanna come hm
so i took lift with nic and aud
then guess what?
he wouldnt allow me to press 22nd storey!
i was like what the hell lah!
then had to go up 22nd storeys in the lift alone
kinda scary, 12-35 in the lift all alone.
ugh.
gonna get him for that!!!
they gg m'sia again
i wanna go too
but dots not gg
then i'll feel lonely
still considering lah
there are so many things i wanna get at spotlight
after checking out the catalogue
i wanna get
1) white flower girl halo with white flowers - to be made myself ha
2) the 'get creative' monthly mag
3) sea-play elastane to may into swimming costumes
4) polka dots and stripes cloth
5) printed stretch poplin
6) 'cargo' stripes
7) sunprints
8) cutie pie iron on motifs
9) angel halo
10) glass milk bottle - super cute!
11) 'pink daisy' printed velour - beach towels
12) terry beach blanket
go take a look!
http://www.spotlight.com.sg/new/shopping
all the things are super nice!
i want it all!
so that my mama can make then into nice clothes for me
hehhehs.
i love to sum up my day in a blog.
it feels good. to blog.
just a release of all emotions.
tho u cant really mention names at times
went to sch
then met wenjun to study
but wif ard
i'll end up talking non-stop like an idiot
then went oppo to killiney to have dinna
think its quite cool to go oppo and eat in da night
hahaha
was playing time crisis at hawk's place
haha so funnnsss
but the aud snatched it from me
jus aft a short while
hawk lives on the 23rd storey
and i lived on the 22nd
didnt wanna take the stairs when i wanna come hm
so i took lift with nic and aud
then guess what?
he wouldnt allow me to press 22nd storey!
i was like what the hell lah!
then had to go up 22nd storeys in the lift alone
kinda scary, 12-35 in the lift all alone.
ugh.
gonna get him for that!!!
they gg m'sia again
i wanna go too
but dots not gg
then i'll feel lonely
still considering lah
there are so many things i wanna get at spotlight
after checking out the catalogue
i wanna get
1) white flower girl halo with white flowers - to be made myself ha
2) the 'get creative' monthly mag
3) sea-play elastane to may into swimming costumes
4) polka dots and stripes cloth
5) printed stretch poplin
6) 'cargo' stripes
7) sunprints
8) cutie pie iron on motifs
9) angel halo
10) glass milk bottle - super cute!
11) 'pink daisy' printed velour - beach towels
12) terry beach blanket
go take a look!
http://www.spotlight.com.sg/new/shopping
all the things are super nice!
i want it all!
so that my mama can make then into nice clothes for me
hehhehs.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
catched white chicks ytd
super farnie.
kept laughing and laughing
sigh. there goes my revision.
damn shitty.
dunno balance of payment.
and hrm back chapters are all extremely tough
heck man.
but at least i study more in church.
sian. the exams are so near. so so near.
dot's supp to be mugging
but she went to work at awfully chocolate.
what the!
nvm. shall pop by and ask her to blanja me
hehs.
sometimes,
at one moment.
u are so happy.
i mean E.X.H.I.L.A.R.A.T.E.D.
and the next,
the happiness just burst like a bubble.
and no more happiness.
it's short-lived.
sigh.
wish it was forever.
super farnie.
kept laughing and laughing
sigh. there goes my revision.
damn shitty.
dunno balance of payment.
and hrm back chapters are all extremely tough
heck man.
but at least i study more in church.
sian. the exams are so near. so so near.
dot's supp to be mugging
but she went to work at awfully chocolate.
what the!
nvm. shall pop by and ask her to blanja me
hehs.
sometimes,
at one moment.
u are so happy.
i mean E.X.H.I.L.A.R.A.T.E.D.
and the next,
the happiness just burst like a bubble.
and no more happiness.
it's short-lived.
sigh.
wish it was forever.
Monday, October 11, 2004
depression sank in again
on a bright cheery monday.
just 1 email.
and thats enough.
always make my life miserable
nonchalant.
always say im nonchalant.
im not.
idiot.
u are the one who's nonchalant.
im trying very hard you know.
u think i like being mean?
damned.
cant u bloody see im trying.
are u blind or what.
hate.
sad again.
again.
thanks to you.
you never fail to make me sad.
u r such a great friend.
i love you.
on a bright cheery monday.
just 1 email.
and thats enough.
always make my life miserable
nonchalant.
always say im nonchalant.
im not.
idiot.
u are the one who's nonchalant.
im trying very hard you know.
u think i like being mean?
damned.
cant u bloody see im trying.
are u blind or what.
hate.
sad again.
again.
thanks to you.
you never fail to make me sad.
u r such a great friend.
i love you.
just got back. yawns.
this nicholas chung
asked me why i left church early
asked me why nv help him buy rice
then told me someone asked him to pass smthg to me
kept asking him, but he wouldnt reveal it.
kept me in suspense.
then at ard 10.30
asked me go up
pass me the gift
and i open it up
a bottle of stars
ugh.
a little grossed out
what era are u living in sir?
early 1990s?
perhaps im being mean here
i mean it was nice of that someone
i think i know who is it
but i wish it was the other one.
yeah. that man it is.
the.other.one.
this nicholas chung
asked me why i left church early
asked me why nv help him buy rice
then told me someone asked him to pass smthg to me
kept asking him, but he wouldnt reveal it.
kept me in suspense.
then at ard 10.30
asked me go up
pass me the gift
and i open it up
a bottle of stars
ugh.
a little grossed out
what era are u living in sir?
early 1990s?
perhaps im being mean here
i mean it was nice of that someone
i think i know who is it
but i wish it was the other one.
yeah. that man it is.
the.other.one.
Saturday, October 09, 2004
not much time left.
yet im nt studying again.
went for brunch at Hawks place.
spaghetti.sausage.ham.wings.garlic bread.eggs.orange juice.yums.
thanks guys.
then went church for prac.
was in a foul mood
didnt wanna sing or play
in the end i played.
then had the music min gathering.
fun.laughs.joy.
then went for dinna with the girls.
kinda pissed by her
didnt understand why it muz be that way
damn.
but i was in the wrong too.
anyway
the other woman
replied my mail and also at the webbie
hmmm
now im confused again.
so once again, i havent study much
just 1 pathetic chapter of cma.
like that how?
encouraging to see pearl's blog
she looks forward to doing qt
and she enjoys it
me?
havent done it for ages.
sigh.
feel guilty.
but im stil not doing it.
God change me please.
please let me have a heart of desire for doing my qt.
i think i need to change
my character. my attitude. my tempers.
i should be saying things that build ppl up,
not tear them down.
sigh.
things are kinda bad
but im gonna let God take control
hope it just get better.
i think im getting cranky and crankier.
and i seem to crave for attention.
mann.
i need to be TRANSFORM!
hehs.
funny eh.
stop laughing you.
idiot.
yet im nt studying again.
went for brunch at Hawks place.
spaghetti.sausage.ham.wings.garlic bread.eggs.orange juice.yums.
thanks guys.
then went church for prac.
was in a foul mood
didnt wanna sing or play
in the end i played.
then had the music min gathering.
fun.laughs.joy.
then went for dinna with the girls.
kinda pissed by her
didnt understand why it muz be that way
damn.
but i was in the wrong too.
anyway
the other woman
replied my mail and also at the webbie
hmmm
now im confused again.
so once again, i havent study much
just 1 pathetic chapter of cma.
like that how?
encouraging to see pearl's blog
she looks forward to doing qt
and she enjoys it
me?
havent done it for ages.
sigh.
feel guilty.
but im stil not doing it.
God change me please.
please let me have a heart of desire for doing my qt.
i think i need to change
my character. my attitude. my tempers.
i should be saying things that build ppl up,
not tear them down.
sigh.
things are kinda bad
but im gonna let God take control
hope it just get better.
i think im getting cranky and crankier.
and i seem to crave for attention.
mann.
i need to be TRANSFORM!
hehs.
funny eh.
stop laughing you.
idiot.
this is post is gonna be a super long one
so please bear with it.
kinda zonked out
07/10
left at 8, went to hyatt at J.B
quite a nice place, but it was too businessy
so aud say no no
then we proceeded to Summerset Colonial resort
abt 3hrs drive fr s'pore
so was singing, reading, crapping in the car
reached there, and it was like a ghost town.
kinda creepy. not a single soul in sight.
then that dumb mary ghost joke kinda scare me
it was like a rainforest there
landscape was nt very nice, but think angmohs will like it there
very deserted
the rooms were ok, but the function rms were horrid.
hot, stinks, and the paint's peeling off
but we took a really 'nice' pic
will post it up soon
went to the sea area, saw a cricket
then nic used it to pretend to throw at dot
and guess what?
she C.R.I.E.D.
then drove out for dinner
dinner was great
then we walked ard to shop for some tidbits and satay
before heading bk to the resort
jus rotted in nic's rm and play daidee
nut much lah'
had a good sleep...
08/10
woke up, went for breakfast
and it was pathetic
but the ppl there treated us cuz we were supp to get a deal
for having camp nxt yr
so we had nasi lemak noodles omelette chipolata sausage hashbrowns toast. yums'
and my fav honey stars haha
then went swimming
super fun
learnt freestyle from nic
but still dun really noe how to swim ha
but had fun
a little burnt tho.
then drove bk to J.B,
was shopping the night away
bot my big hoop earrings
hehs.
everythg is so cheap there!
thanksgivings*
1) safe journey to and fro
2) prayed for rain to stop, and God answered it immediately.
3) good time of fellowship
4) a time of retreat
hmmm, she replied my mail.
eh now im ashamed.
very ashamed.
even wilfy visits the web
alamak, shall not post anythihg nxt time.
im confused.
totally confused.
so how now?
how, you tell me.
so please bear with it.
kinda zonked out
07/10
left at 8, went to hyatt at J.B
quite a nice place, but it was too businessy
so aud say no no
then we proceeded to Summerset Colonial resort
abt 3hrs drive fr s'pore
so was singing, reading, crapping in the car
reached there, and it was like a ghost town.
kinda creepy. not a single soul in sight.
then that dumb mary ghost joke kinda scare me
it was like a rainforest there
landscape was nt very nice, but think angmohs will like it there
very deserted
the rooms were ok, but the function rms were horrid.
hot, stinks, and the paint's peeling off
but we took a really 'nice' pic
will post it up soon
went to the sea area, saw a cricket
then nic used it to pretend to throw at dot
and guess what?
she C.R.I.E.D.
then drove out for dinner
dinner was great
then we walked ard to shop for some tidbits and satay
before heading bk to the resort
jus rotted in nic's rm and play daidee
nut much lah'
had a good sleep...
08/10
woke up, went for breakfast
and it was pathetic
but the ppl there treated us cuz we were supp to get a deal
for having camp nxt yr
so we had nasi lemak noodles omelette chipolata sausage hashbrowns toast. yums'
and my fav honey stars haha
then went swimming
super fun
learnt freestyle from nic
but still dun really noe how to swim ha
but had fun
a little burnt tho.
then drove bk to J.B,
was shopping the night away
bot my big hoop earrings
hehs.
everythg is so cheap there!
thanksgivings*
1) safe journey to and fro
2) prayed for rain to stop, and God answered it immediately.
3) good time of fellowship
4) a time of retreat
hmmm, she replied my mail.
eh now im ashamed.
very ashamed.
even wilfy visits the web
alamak, shall not post anythihg nxt time.
im confused.
totally confused.
so how now?
how, you tell me.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
went for blaw tutorial today
as usual, boring.
went church to mug after that
but nothing much went into the head
haha...
too noisy at hm,
with all the renovations gg on downstairs
think i wil go crazy
gg off to m'sia tomo morning
so excited
like taking a break
but then suppose to be mugging for exams
but anyway, wil be back on fri lah
so not that bad
will try ta study in the car too!
haven pack my stuff yet, ugh.
hope tt God'll grant us journey mercies
and that we'll have a blessed stay there
bye peeps! take care... *winks
as usual, boring.
went church to mug after that
but nothing much went into the head
haha...
too noisy at hm,
with all the renovations gg on downstairs
think i wil go crazy
gg off to m'sia tomo morning
so excited
like taking a break
but then suppose to be mugging for exams
but anyway, wil be back on fri lah
so not that bad
will try ta study in the car too!
haven pack my stuff yet, ugh.
hope tt God'll grant us journey mercies
and that we'll have a blessed stay there
bye peeps! take care... *winks
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
so tired... jus fell asleep sitting on the sofa
sigh, nothing productive done again
test was flop
so many things i dont know haha...
gg away on thurs to m'sis with nic, aud, n dot
gonna go to recci nxt yr's campsite
staying at the hotel
they offer water sports there
hopfully can canoe?
haha but think its gonna be dangerous
thanks to all my friends who cared
and ask me why i was so sad
got over it!
am not gonna bother anymore
daughter1 cut her hair!
tot she look nice, demure, haha...
pukes...
looks like joey swee in the 9o'clock serial
hahahahahahhahahaha...
think gonna skip classes tmr
so tired, wanna sleep till late late
cant wait for thurs, yet feel tt i wont have time to study if i go away
but yet i want + definitely will go
hopeless...
exams so near, yet im still playing
*yawns*
sigh, nothing productive done again
test was flop
so many things i dont know haha...
gg away on thurs to m'sis with nic, aud, n dot
gonna go to recci nxt yr's campsite
staying at the hotel
they offer water sports there
hopfully can canoe?
haha but think its gonna be dangerous
thanks to all my friends who cared
and ask me why i was so sad
got over it!
am not gonna bother anymore
daughter1 cut her hair!
tot she look nice, demure, haha...
pukes...
looks like joey swee in the 9o'clock serial
hahahahahahhahahaha...
think gonna skip classes tmr
so tired, wanna sleep till late late
cant wait for thurs, yet feel tt i wont have time to study if i go away
but yet i want + definitely will go
hopeless...
exams so near, yet im still playing
*yawns*
Monday, October 04, 2004
i wrote her an email, and it went like this:
hey gal... whats up man... havent had heart to heart talk with you for a really long time. nv receive any smses from u at all for some time... realise u havent sat beside me during svc for quite some time also... are u like mad at me or smthg? or is it because of the kite-flying incident? the nonchalant reply fr me? its bothering me, that we seem nt as closed as before... noticed that u are like extremely busy nowadays... and you dont look as cheerful as u used to... perhaps u are too stressed out over all yr work etc?
saddens me very much really, that we both seem to distance ourselves... prob its just me being too sensitive. i don't know... things ok between u and him? u dont talk much abt him, so i guess and hope all's well...
anyway, i really, sincerely hope that we'll remain close, and let nothing ever jeopardise our friendship. may God's blessings be poured unto you in the week to come. take care..
before she could reply me, i went into our cell webbie and there was a reply from her to my question of "Does anybody cares? Where's everyone? sobs...and it says:
everyone seems mia, but they are around n they care, n u did a wonderful job with updating the site. my dear sister, it ain\'t our absence that matters, but what results fr our presence that matters (not alot too, haha..) i guess this cloak of cynicism to protect us fr disappointmt shd be shed cuz it\'s not helping. wat disappointment are we reali goint thru??tat\'s gotta stem fr asking ourselves wat do we want? a lot of hang out time? or quality time where everyone\'s eager to come n share out tots n feelings n pray 4 each other? watz the thermometer we are using to measure our frenship/fellowship? no. of hours tog? no. of activities tog? no. of jokes we share? in fact, can we honestly say our cellmtgs r satisfying n wat hv we done 2 make it so? am i disappointed? do i have to be? i think not. it's life. it's reality. to see u gals in church is heartening enough. i dun have to doubt or question if u gals care, cuz i know u all do. n so wat if u dun, i dun even myself to wander ttat dangerous zone to be disappointed. many times life n all itz suckiness obstruct us fr translating our love/concern into chirpy emails/sms/calls but does it reali matter IF we can look fwd to a warm sharing time on sunday? IF....anyway, jus shooting off here, dunno how to wrap up all these thoughts with sugary sweet language but heck, who reads?? n it's facts wat, hahaa... so jus feel free to shoot off whatever thoughts here cuz i guess we do care n maybe being face to face may hinder sharing? cuz we are all so timid/shy at heart. hahha........... adiosss wif luv.
jus saddened by this, and tears just start rolling down my cheeks. and as im writing this, the tears are still flowing... sigh... jus wrote her an email, telling her that answers all my questions.
im jus sad, really sad... why do things have to turn out this way? i hate myself, i hate everyone.
hey gal... whats up man... havent had heart to heart talk with you for a really long time. nv receive any smses from u at all for some time... realise u havent sat beside me during svc for quite some time also... are u like mad at me or smthg? or is it because of the kite-flying incident? the nonchalant reply fr me? its bothering me, that we seem nt as closed as before... noticed that u are like extremely busy nowadays... and you dont look as cheerful as u used to... perhaps u are too stressed out over all yr work etc?
saddens me very much really, that we both seem to distance ourselves... prob its just me being too sensitive. i don't know... things ok between u and him? u dont talk much abt him, so i guess and hope all's well...
anyway, i really, sincerely hope that we'll remain close, and let nothing ever jeopardise our friendship. may God's blessings be poured unto you in the week to come. take care..
before she could reply me, i went into our cell webbie and there was a reply from her to my question of "Does anybody cares? Where's everyone? sobs...and it says:
everyone seems mia, but they are around n they care, n u did a wonderful job with updating the site. my dear sister, it ain\'t our absence that matters, but what results fr our presence that matters (not alot too, haha..) i guess this cloak of cynicism to protect us fr disappointmt shd be shed cuz it\'s not helping. wat disappointment are we reali goint thru??tat\'s gotta stem fr asking ourselves wat do we want? a lot of hang out time? or quality time where everyone\'s eager to come n share out tots n feelings n pray 4 each other? watz the thermometer we are using to measure our frenship/fellowship? no. of hours tog? no. of activities tog? no. of jokes we share? in fact, can we honestly say our cellmtgs r satisfying n wat hv we done 2 make it so? am i disappointed? do i have to be? i think not. it's life. it's reality. to see u gals in church is heartening enough. i dun have to doubt or question if u gals care, cuz i know u all do. n so wat if u dun, i dun even myself to wander ttat dangerous zone to be disappointed. many times life n all itz suckiness obstruct us fr translating our love/concern into chirpy emails/sms/calls but does it reali matter IF we can look fwd to a warm sharing time on sunday? IF....anyway, jus shooting off here, dunno how to wrap up all these thoughts with sugary sweet language but heck, who reads?? n it's facts wat, hahaa... so jus feel free to shoot off whatever thoughts here cuz i guess we do care n maybe being face to face may hinder sharing? cuz we are all so timid/shy at heart. hahha........... adiosss wif luv.
jus saddened by this, and tears just start rolling down my cheeks. and as im writing this, the tears are still flowing... sigh... jus wrote her an email, telling her that answers all my questions.
im jus sad, really sad... why do things have to turn out this way? i hate myself, i hate everyone.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
didnt have cell today
went to pizza hut at bk timah plaza with dot and suat
today was children's sunday @ church
the sunday sch's kiddies put up a few songs and dance
its sucha joy to watch all of them perform
still didnt sit beside me today
really dont know when that will ever end.
sigh.
now that we've talked abt her
i realise she wasnt as happy as she used to be
perhaps shes trying very hard
to balance everythg
kind of pity her
yet at the same time mad at her
felt terrible these few days
pmsing away.
exams are here soon
but im still doing nthg.
ugh.
went to pizza hut at bk timah plaza with dot and suat
today was children's sunday @ church
the sunday sch's kiddies put up a few songs and dance
its sucha joy to watch all of them perform
still didnt sit beside me today
really dont know when that will ever end.
sigh.
now that we've talked abt her
i realise she wasnt as happy as she used to be
perhaps shes trying very hard
to balance everythg
kind of pity her
yet at the same time mad at her
felt terrible these few days
pmsing away.
exams are here soon
but im still doing nthg.
ugh.
had a nice brunch at Hawks place'
nice spaghetti sausage egg and bread
yums
went to church kaypoh for music prac
sort of help dot get on the track for keyboardist 2
ah bee kept saying im good enough for main keyboardist
but i doubt so
prayer mtg already freak me out
imagine playing for normal svc
need to coordinate with drummer bassist worship leader
sure gabra til jialat one
haha.
i know my own pattern
jam for a while then went oppo to walk walk with dots
wanted to get pressie for sm
but nothing much there
in the end i got those hp strap
which i was supposed to do cross-stitches on
the thread wasnt enough damn.
so i jus left it as it is
had extra thread of other colors
so i sewed her name on it.
so nice. kinda like it myself
but kept getting my fingers pricked
gonna play for canto svc tmr
so gotta wake up at 7 plus
nic picking me.
ugh. will be super tired.
aft that got cell, then wil go ppl's pk with dots hehheh.
gonna get shades, buttons etc etc!
nice spaghetti sausage egg and bread
yums
went to church kaypoh for music prac
sort of help dot get on the track for keyboardist 2
ah bee kept saying im good enough for main keyboardist
but i doubt so
prayer mtg already freak me out
imagine playing for normal svc
need to coordinate with drummer bassist worship leader
sure gabra til jialat one
haha.
i know my own pattern
jam for a while then went oppo to walk walk with dots
wanted to get pressie for sm
but nothing much there
in the end i got those hp strap
which i was supposed to do cross-stitches on
the thread wasnt enough damn.
so i jus left it as it is
had extra thread of other colors
so i sewed her name on it.
so nice. kinda like it myself
but kept getting my fingers pricked
gonna play for canto svc tmr
so gotta wake up at 7 plus
nic picking me.
ugh. will be super tired.
aft that got cell, then wil go ppl's pk with dots hehheh.
gonna get shades, buttons etc etc!
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Paradise was near, really near...
okok i changed skin again...
but its cos of the tagborad lah
today... worst day of 2004 i guess
went to church in the noon
was at the busstop waiting for 970
ppl were smoking
so i kept inhaling the disgusting smoke
waited for what seems eternity for the bus
and when the bus came
i felt totally weak.
legs were wobbly, hands were numb
things were fading in color
stomach cramp was unbearable
but i forced myself up the bus
was really uncomfortable
couldnt sit still
felt very cold
but yet i was sweating
but the beads of sweat were cold too
so scared
i just felt terrible
felt like i was so helpless
and that i was dying soon
finally reached hv.
told myself no matter what
i had to make my way to church
the journey seems exceptionally long
it took ages for me to get there
had to cover my lips with tissue paper
cuz i knew it'd have gone all white
and i was right.
it had been a long time since i last felt like this
so scared and frightened
but i kept praying
i said God please stop the pain
please let me be ok soon
but the pain didnt subside.
then went up to church office
went straight to counselling rm to lie down on the sofa
couldnt take it
the cramps were really unbearable
i was jus lying on the sofa
with my hands clutched to my stomah
kept curling my body up
it was really scary
and i had to inhale real deeply
to breathe normally
the pain was on and off
but the it was off for just a few sec
didnt want to call for their help
so i jus felt that i needed to talk to my mum
rang my mum and told her what happen
jus started telling her
and hot tears rolled down my cheeks
i felt really helpless and scared
my mama was worried sick
and she kept asking if she needed to come pick me hm or not
must have scared her as well
aft that she called pastor phoebe
which was funny
cuz she didnt know i was in church
anyway aft that i just went out
and asked Aud if she gt any painkillers
took 2 panadols
and the pain went away
the panadols were like elixirs
aft that felt so much better
and was back to normal
frightened myself so much
guess dominique was shocked too
kept asking if i was ok
really nice of him
sigh...
sometimes i wonder if God listens at all
sigh...
then i called my mama again
to tell her i was alright already
and i started crying again.
thank God for giving me a mum.
really thank Him for that.
i jus felt really relieved when i hear her voice
and that she asked me to keep praying
its reall great to have parents who are christians
u'll feel the joy really
that we all share the same faith
and that we can trust in Him tog
it was tough for me today
felt that God wasnt there
and that He was like making me suffer
was kind of angry
angry Him for not curing me
but i hope He'll forgive me.
was so happy when i got back to normal mode
chatted with aud
then went out for dinna with
dot, suat, dom, nic n aud
after that was prayer mtg
went out for supper
drive to many places
6th ave, Adam rd hawker centre, Holland
before settling down at Fong Seng Cheese prata
at west coast area
had egg prata and horlicks.
yums.
then got hm at 1.
mayb gonna go church kaypoh tmr.
if not wil stay hm.
mayb wil got hawks place for the breakfast spread tmr morn
provided i can wake up.
hehs.
but its cos of the tagborad lah
today... worst day of 2004 i guess
went to church in the noon
was at the busstop waiting for 970
ppl were smoking
so i kept inhaling the disgusting smoke
waited for what seems eternity for the bus
and when the bus came
i felt totally weak.
legs were wobbly, hands were numb
things were fading in color
stomach cramp was unbearable
but i forced myself up the bus
was really uncomfortable
couldnt sit still
felt very cold
but yet i was sweating
but the beads of sweat were cold too
so scared
i just felt terrible
felt like i was so helpless
and that i was dying soon
finally reached hv.
told myself no matter what
i had to make my way to church
the journey seems exceptionally long
it took ages for me to get there
had to cover my lips with tissue paper
cuz i knew it'd have gone all white
and i was right.
it had been a long time since i last felt like this
so scared and frightened
but i kept praying
i said God please stop the pain
please let me be ok soon
but the pain didnt subside.
then went up to church office
went straight to counselling rm to lie down on the sofa
couldnt take it
the cramps were really unbearable
i was jus lying on the sofa
with my hands clutched to my stomah
kept curling my body up
it was really scary
and i had to inhale real deeply
to breathe normally
the pain was on and off
but the it was off for just a few sec
didnt want to call for their help
so i jus felt that i needed to talk to my mum
rang my mum and told her what happen
jus started telling her
and hot tears rolled down my cheeks
i felt really helpless and scared
my mama was worried sick
and she kept asking if she needed to come pick me hm or not
must have scared her as well
aft that she called pastor phoebe
which was funny
cuz she didnt know i was in church
anyway aft that i just went out
and asked Aud if she gt any painkillers
took 2 panadols
and the pain went away
the panadols were like elixirs
aft that felt so much better
and was back to normal
frightened myself so much
guess dominique was shocked too
kept asking if i was ok
really nice of him
sigh...
sometimes i wonder if God listens at all
sigh...
then i called my mama again
to tell her i was alright already
and i started crying again.
thank God for giving me a mum.
really thank Him for that.
i jus felt really relieved when i hear her voice
and that she asked me to keep praying
its reall great to have parents who are christians
u'll feel the joy really
that we all share the same faith
and that we can trust in Him tog
it was tough for me today
felt that God wasnt there
and that He was like making me suffer
was kind of angry
angry Him for not curing me
but i hope He'll forgive me.
was so happy when i got back to normal mode
chatted with aud
then went out for dinna with
dot, suat, dom, nic n aud
after that was prayer mtg
went out for supper
drive to many places
6th ave, Adam rd hawker centre, Holland
before settling down at Fong Seng Cheese prata
at west coast area
had egg prata and horlicks.
yums.
then got hm at 1.
mayb gonna go church kaypoh tmr.
if not wil stay hm.
mayb wil got hawks place for the breakfast spread tmr morn
provided i can wake up.
hehs.
Thursday, September 30, 2004
i think i need to squeeze
all the words to the left
so that my tagboard could be seen
haha...
wow, today was jus
another F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C day
S.U.P.E.R.B.
F.U.N
Skipped biz etiq again
went church help the gals out
then 2 daughters went Holland.V
met em aft that,
gonna go Chinatown,
but daughter2 was tired
so she went home and sleep
so left me and the M.A.D daughter1
Yap Wan Zi aka Beth.
oh my.
She was hysterical today
shocked me a few times
totally suaku
took 61 one there
and there was a mad uncle
and im sorry to day that but he
smelt terrible.
couldnt breathe.
had to smell my jacket.
went to Ppl's park
so superduper funnn
and R.E.T.R.O
walked ard
found Tokyo
were over the moon
so many shades
countless
and the really retro earrings
she gt a shades
and i got 1 too
love it lots
cheap and good
$8 a pair
cheap cheap cheap
the aunty was super cute
i mean cute
wanna bring dot there
she'll love it.
then we went to OG.
had fun criticizing clothes
haha.
and we were really terrible
cuz we wanted to wear the shades
and yet feels dumb when ppl
stared at us
so i was putting it on
and removing it
kept repeating the sane steps
felt so daft
but then again
it was really fun
laughed like mad
went Food Street at Chinatown for late tea
had sesame dumplings in peanut soup
and also wu xiang. YUMMY.
then dropped by P.S
so many things we wanna buy
necklaces, shoes, shoes and shoes.
ha.
Conclusion: Daugher1-YAP is NUTS.
i repeat. NUTS.
all the words to the left
so that my tagboard could be seen
haha...
wow, today was jus
another F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C day
S.U.P.E.R.B.
F.U.N
Skipped biz etiq again
went church help the gals out
then 2 daughters went Holland.V
met em aft that,
gonna go Chinatown,
but daughter2 was tired
so she went home and sleep
so left me and the M.A.D daughter1
Yap Wan Zi aka Beth.
oh my.
She was hysterical today
shocked me a few times
totally suaku
took 61 one there
and there was a mad uncle
and im sorry to day that but he
smelt terrible.
couldnt breathe.
had to smell my jacket.
went to Ppl's park
so superduper funnn
and R.E.T.R.O
walked ard
found Tokyo
were over the moon
so many shades
countless
and the really retro earrings
she gt a shades
and i got 1 too
love it lots
cheap and good
$8 a pair
cheap cheap cheap
the aunty was super cute
i mean cute
wanna bring dot there
she'll love it.
then we went to OG.
had fun criticizing clothes
haha.
and we were really terrible
cuz we wanted to wear the shades
and yet feels dumb when ppl
stared at us
so i was putting it on
and removing it
kept repeating the sane steps
felt so daft
but then again
it was really fun
laughed like mad
went Food Street at Chinatown for late tea
had sesame dumplings in peanut soup
and also wu xiang. YUMMY.
then dropped by P.S
so many things we wanna buy
necklaces, shoes, shoes and shoes.
ha.
Conclusion: Daugher1-YAP is NUTS.
i repeat. NUTS.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
dirty water, dirty people all around...
lunch at pizza hut wid ma 2 besties and glen
had a great bitching session
conclusion: ppl are selfish, they like to shed crocodile tears, annoying and lots more
then again
no one's perfect. thats why we need God.
its hard, sometimes i just feel like cursing those ppl
esp the dumbass malays.
those on the bikes.
bloody childish.
then we walked bk to sch
the car came and splashed the puddle of dirty water on the road unto us
i was beside daughter 2 - beth
it all happened too fast
wanted to curse and scold
but jus didnt react,
so let out a shrilly scream
so did daughter
haha super funny
we were like crazy
jus kept screaming for some time
mad.
2nd time.
daughter grown smarter.
asked us to stop and let the car passed first
but stil kenaed a bit
but then it was fun la
super relaxing day.
sue tan released us early as well
so glad i dont have to see her anymore
got back my cma
got a 48/100
great yah
first test 52/100
therefore, its ( 52+48 ) / 2 = 50
i got a 50.
God's grace really.
managed to jus scrape thru.
thank u Lord!
now i need to pass my exam to make sure i pass
go gotta really study for it man.
hope we're gg Chinatown tmr.
but 1 thing.
just 1 thing.
i'm B.R.O.KE.
had a great bitching session
conclusion: ppl are selfish, they like to shed crocodile tears, annoying and lots more
then again
no one's perfect. thats why we need God.
its hard, sometimes i just feel like cursing those ppl
esp the dumbass malays.
those on the bikes.
bloody childish.
then we walked bk to sch
the car came and splashed the puddle of dirty water on the road unto us
i was beside daughter 2 - beth
it all happened too fast
wanted to curse and scold
but jus didnt react,
so let out a shrilly scream
so did daughter
haha super funny
we were like crazy
jus kept screaming for some time
mad.
2nd time.
daughter grown smarter.
asked us to stop and let the car passed first
but stil kenaed a bit
but then it was fun la
super relaxing day.
sue tan released us early as well
so glad i dont have to see her anymore
got back my cma
got a 48/100
great yah
first test 52/100
therefore, its ( 52+48 ) / 2 = 50
i got a 50.
God's grace really.
managed to jus scrape thru.
thank u Lord!
now i need to pass my exam to make sure i pass
go gotta really study for it man.
hope we're gg Chinatown tmr.
but 1 thing.
just 1 thing.
i'm B.R.O.KE.
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Putting on the apron of humility...
phew, tuesday over. great feeling. one more day in sch down! yeeps!
today ms wong was in a gd mood i guess
bought so much chocs for us. act i think she's quite nice and lame, only if she doesnt bomb us with questions.
can't take all the tremors, so noisy
like they gonna hack down the whole building.
wish the renovations would be done soon man.
watched the invention show last nite
so surprised to see ms chai and mr leong
and turned out that my sec sch won!
so proud of em peeps!
suaty and dot gonna lead worship for fri's prayer mtg
will be playing for em
read purpose driven life ytd
and they were talking abt servanthood
and its really true u know
how many ppl want to be leaders, but not servants
bring me to the pt that as christians
we should not be in the limelight
and that real servants shld maintain a low profile
"put on the apron of humility, to serve one another" - 1 Peter 5:5
i guess that would be a struggle to many ppl
they become addicted to attention, unaware that always being in the spotlight blinds one.
so lets enc one another to keep on serving God
Lastly the words of Jesus
"If as my representatives, you give even a cup of cold water to a little child, you will surely be rewarded.
-Matthew 10:42
today ms wong was in a gd mood i guess
bought so much chocs for us. act i think she's quite nice and lame, only if she doesnt bomb us with questions.
can't take all the tremors, so noisy
like they gonna hack down the whole building.
wish the renovations would be done soon man.
watched the invention show last nite
so surprised to see ms chai and mr leong
and turned out that my sec sch won!
so proud of em peeps!
suaty and dot gonna lead worship for fri's prayer mtg
will be playing for em
read purpose driven life ytd
and they were talking abt servanthood
and its really true u know
how many ppl want to be leaders, but not servants
bring me to the pt that as christians
we should not be in the limelight
and that real servants shld maintain a low profile
"put on the apron of humility, to serve one another" - 1 Peter 5:5
i guess that would be a struggle to many ppl
they become addicted to attention, unaware that always being in the spotlight blinds one.
so lets enc one another to keep on serving God
Lastly the words of Jesus
"If as my representatives, you give even a cup of cold water to a little child, you will surely be rewarded.
-Matthew 10:42
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