truly well spent wkend with all my loves. its been a long time since i really enjoyed myself with them. i guess acceptance is really impt. and like what ruth said, sounds corny but we really lived like one big family. enjoy all the visitings, all the fellowshipings, all the travelling around in one whole big gang. its sooo heartwarming. but all good things have to come to an end. thats what i hate the most.
overnight at dots place on fri, with suat this time, cos she so wouldnt believe that she will wanna go. and of course i won. and i peeped at it again, and i found out that she have been mtg him!! ok im being a real kaypoh bitch, i admit. infact im knocking into her privacy. ugh. and when i saw it, i was like ok, she got a bf, and shes so gonna chuck me aside soon like what ah mei did to me. cant help feeling upset. ok fine. i guess im thinking too much. cos they have jus met for like prolly 3 times, and i already decided that they will get married. on 1 hand, im happy cos hes a catholic, at least i hope hes not some rotten apple. and he sounds quite decent. ha. then again. im jus sad la. cos i know the same will happen. and history wil repeat itself and no one wil have time for me.
but i guess thats life. frens dont belong to me. yes that fact hurts. but ultimately, we'll be gg separate ways. perhaps i shdnt even be thinking till that far. cos who knows i may be fetched upstairs i hope. tmr. or later. sigh.
and i was getting all so emo cos the fun's over, and its back to reality, school tmr, and shes gonna chuck me aside. but then the sms came, haha right smack all the timing and hot tears started rolling down the cheeks. feels so good to cry. im loving it.
and i realised how i have to learn to put myself in other people's shoes. like in the bus, suat wil always sit alone cos dot wil def sit nxt to me. and its sad. real saddening. but yet i aint the slightest bit empathetic/sympathetic/sensitive. smtimes i think i deserve tons of slaps across the face. im guilty yet not ashamed.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
ok so its weddy! which means i have my intv and role play tmr. fuck! sianings. dreading it like theres no tmr. jus want it done and over with. and i'll be a happy soul. hehs. wanna do some retail therapy. i need to get shoes! but not like i will wear them. damn. always buying but nv wearing. haii. and i need to ask turbs to quickly get the air tics if we are confirm gg. cos i am so afraid i will spend all my savings. that will be real badd.
other than that, life has been pretty much peaches and cream. went to the pool to tan these 2 days. shall cont to do it tmr shd the weather do me justice. hehs. wanna get back my tan! then turbs wont laugh at meee. sobs. i need to work on a nice one. but gg down alone can be so boring and scary. sigh. still, im gonna muster my courage for the sake of my skin. jus a couple of times more and i shall stop. stil havent get the cloth for my mama to make the oriental top. wondering if i shd get it done or jus forget abt it. ahhhh. so mafans. puiii.
cant wait for the weekend to come so that i can hang out with my loves!
other than that, life has been pretty much peaches and cream. went to the pool to tan these 2 days. shall cont to do it tmr shd the weather do me justice. hehs. wanna get back my tan! then turbs wont laugh at meee. sobs. i need to work on a nice one. but gg down alone can be so boring and scary. sigh. still, im gonna muster my courage for the sake of my skin. jus a couple of times more and i shall stop. stil havent get the cloth for my mama to make the oriental top. wondering if i shd get it done or jus forget abt it. ahhhh. so mafans. puiii.
cant wait for the weekend to come so that i can hang out with my loves!
Monday, January 30, 2006
chinese new yr's like so overrated can! one word to describe it all - boring. yawns. svc was a short one. was decked in my old clothes la, couldnt bother much, stil, i think i look nicee.lol.egoego. had breakfast with papamama and aunty yuhua at delifrance! i gave them a treat! hehs. felt kinda good, wheee.then back home, and rotted the whole day off with my 2 male cuzzies. 12 & 9. oh wells. then at night some uncle and aunty came, with their daughter. it was an yearly affair kinda thing, so they are like always ard on the first day. stil, it was a tad quiet, cos huihui and auntie all have gone for a holiday overseas. so there. but we played mahjong jus now! cos they were short of 1 kaki, and bobian have to rope me in. my mama was like really reluctant. haha. but anyway they played with money but not me, so i have no winnings/losses.
mag was in this pair of boots which were really nice but it doesnt suit her la. cos her thighs are thunderous, not that mine are not, but hers are really pear shape. so it doesnt flatter her alot. i was thinking of getting it, but think it wil look the same on me. haha or even worse! but i want to get onee and tuck my jeans in. hehs. but its so bloody exp. she got hers for 80. that i wil rather buy birks!
i want a pair of birks!!! *slurps*
supp to go catch i nt stupid today but certain circumstances does not allow me to do so. anyway, hopefully tmr or smthg la. i want to go shopping too!! ahhhh. collected 178 so far.hehs. but i am a good girl. i return what ought to be returned to my mama. i dont take advantage k. im GOOD.
mag was in this pair of boots which were really nice but it doesnt suit her la. cos her thighs are thunderous, not that mine are not, but hers are really pear shape. so it doesnt flatter her alot. i was thinking of getting it, but think it wil look the same on me. haha or even worse! but i want to get onee and tuck my jeans in. hehs. but its so bloody exp. she got hers for 80. that i wil rather buy birks!
i want a pair of birks!!! *slurps*
supp to go catch i nt stupid today but certain circumstances does not allow me to do so. anyway, hopefully tmr or smthg la. i want to go shopping too!! ahhhh. collected 178 so far.hehs. but i am a good girl. i return what ought to be returned to my mama. i dont take advantage k. im GOOD.
Friday, January 27, 2006
i screwed abacus! sobs. didnt do lotsa theory, jolly well 30 marks plus gone, but jus hope to get a pass. anyway its only 10%, so heck!
checked my a/c and i got my pay! was so freaking happy! lol. like finally, after 2.5 mths. so i went retail therapy with eve and sijie. they always make me feel comfy and welcome, which is good. dunno why but smhow i prefer them to the other 2. oops. got a cheap topshop top. hehs. im always looking for cheap thrills. smhow i dont thhink that one needs to pay a big price for ncie stuff. ha. call me cheapskate, whatever, i dont care. and got a white eyeliner! from missha and a nail polish fr face shop! woohoo. and that cute kodomo powder which i can bring to camp. hehs.
issue with turbs stil gg on. but its over already i guesss. silly gunai kept weeping buckets. like whatever for. whats happen happened, and cannt be undone, so there. she had better be nicer to me from now after all the hurt which she have inflicted onto me. haaa.
anyway snow white came my house. haha. like finally i see her la. and she was so uber sweet to buy food for my mama. im touched.boo. haha. thanks babe! appreciate it lots!
cny is cmg but i aint exactly looking forward to it. so im glad i have 2 dvds with me, gonna watch them during my free time. no vistings etc. boring. yawns.
gotta start saving fr bkk trip. gt a feeling i might jus spend them all on impulse. ahhhh.
checked my a/c and i got my pay! was so freaking happy! lol. like finally, after 2.5 mths. so i went retail therapy with eve and sijie. they always make me feel comfy and welcome, which is good. dunno why but smhow i prefer them to the other 2. oops. got a cheap topshop top. hehs. im always looking for cheap thrills. smhow i dont thhink that one needs to pay a big price for ncie stuff. ha. call me cheapskate, whatever, i dont care. and got a white eyeliner! from missha and a nail polish fr face shop! woohoo. and that cute kodomo powder which i can bring to camp. hehs.
issue with turbs stil gg on. but its over already i guesss. silly gunai kept weeping buckets. like whatever for. whats happen happened, and cannt be undone, so there. she had better be nicer to me from now after all the hurt which she have inflicted onto me. haaa.
anyway snow white came my house. haha. like finally i see her la. and she was so uber sweet to buy food for my mama. im touched.boo. haha. thanks babe! appreciate it lots!
cny is cmg but i aint exactly looking forward to it. so im glad i have 2 dvds with me, gonna watch them during my free time. no vistings etc. boring. yawns.
gotta start saving fr bkk trip. gt a feeling i might jus spend them all on impulse. ahhhh.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
it has been a rude awakening i must say. and i dun deny tt ive been a lil hurt by certain things tt u mentioned. i didnt think it was that serious and bad. sigh. n yes sometimes i wonder to myself, why is it that i always know so much about u n yet u can never know me well enough. it saddens me tt theres stil so much u havent discovered. but hey gal, don't take the blame yourself k. it takes 2 hands to clap. and im glad u said all those stuff instead of keeping them to yrself and not making known to me. i believe theres so much more to this frenship and i'll never wanna jeopardise it in any way. so im gonna learn to give myself more, not for you, but because i want to. really, and theres a whole lot for us to learn abt one another. n of cos the tears wont go wasted. hee. n over dinner ytd, there was this one thing that u said, abt hw u dont care if my existence matters to others but it sure it impt to u. That, is enough to justify yr piece yesterday. U have no ideahow much it touched me tho we were still very much mad at one anohter. and i never intended to portray myself in tt wway. my attitude prob is getting fr bad to worse, tt i have to make an effort to change. Ans no worries k, im ok. am looking forward to so much more of this awesome sisterhood. may it not be words tt im saying, but actions that speaks louder. i love u twinnie, jus rem tt k and u have such a impt place in my heart tt no one can replace. And of cos im gonna claim the HUMONGOUS hug fr u! that is if u still wanna give it to me. (:
Dearie, i ask for ur magnanimous forgiveness about yest's issue. Im so depressed when i returned. I'll doubt even when d whole screen is filled wif tt sobbin emoticon its hardly enuf to express d way i feel. Im so ashamed for causing u misery time n again. U're barely 20! its really bcos of me. fuck! read d online daily bread n it said some psychologist determined jan 24 as d most depressing day of yr. wth la. sigh. can we cast yest's happenings aside? i really dun wa n hope it will not affect our r/s in any way. cos i really do treasure the times wif u n havin tt special connection wif u even when we're apart. its esp in times like this that all d things u did for me, all yr gdness suddenly i think supersedes all else. N its really all those tt matters. Appreciate u lots. I know i cant turn back time. My selfishness n unreasonable self has inflicted hurt and pain on u. Wounds could have been very deep but u try ur best to conceal wif smiles and laughters so i wont feel as bad. Fr nw i hope to shower u wif my love and patience we'll ease the pain recovery tog k. even tho tt psychologist determined the worst day, we still rejoice eh, cos everyday, yest today tmr r days tt Lord made for us n we b iglad in it. can? IM SORRY my twinnn!!! i really do mean it. Can i stil gif u a big hug???! dun cryyy my darling.
history jus repeat itself today, this very faithful day, 24th of january. things always happen when i least expect it to. damnit. or rather thisi night. it was all well, went to watch geisha, and it was when the show ended where it all began again. jus like 29th dec, excecpt that it was much worse this time.
she just refused to tell me where she wanted to go. and we stood there right in the middle of orchard road, jus spacing out. i hated that feeling. yes, i know u want me to make the decision, but doing that right there wasnt jus the wisest thing to do. it seemed like forever, and then we started walking and she jus followed me, not mentioning a single word whatsoever. was almost at my brink of tears but jus hold it back. i didnt know what she wanted. she could have told me. but certainly she didnt. so we jus walk into shops, she looking at her stuff, and me looking at mine. felt totally horrible, the feeling was jus indescribable. i hated it.
but it didnt stop right there. it was carried over to dinner. standing right outside taka food hall, not knowing where to go. and it suck. the feeling realy suck. in the end settled for ajisen. and once again there was that deafening silence creeping in. we jus keep on eating, and she started to speak. telling me so many many things that really brought tears to my eyes. endless times.
saying that she dont like one-sided stuff. and like the 2 way thingy. abt how she always share so much with me but yet im unwilling to open up. and always becoming so quiet. and how i can always say" thats so you" but she can never say the same to me cos she will never know me enough to do that. it is sad i tell you. very saddening. i jus sat there speechless and dumbfounded once again. i knew she was hoping for some kind of reaction fr me. be it rebuking her, scolding her, slapping her, anything but keeping quiet. but i chose to do the latter. cos thats me. everything she said is so true and right.
and of cos she doesnt expect me to change/ give her answers that she wanna hear. and that she was wondering if things wil turn sour btwn us. so i answered. i told her some stuff. and then i mentioned abt my existence. saying that it doesnt matter like when last sunday at the dialogue session. and the sweetest thing that touched me most is what she said. cant exactly remembered it word by word, but it goes like this "your existence may nt be important to other people, but it sure is important to me. i dont care if other ppl notice it or not, but always remember it does matter to me " i almost felt the tears welling up in my eyes haha. cos i didnt expect smthg that sweet to turn up. but i was really touched . words can never express how i feel.
aft which she tried to brighten the atmosphere a little, saying that its her fault cos she tends to think too much and stuff like that. she jus need to let it out and then she will be fine. or that she is expecting way too much fr this frenship. but she mention a lil stuff abt how she can do away superficial and surface frens which made me go a bit eh uh.
i didnt want it to end like tt and gg home, so we went to have a talk and things were pretty much norman. took 171 back to her hse and asked her to send me home. haa. but i didnt want to go home, so in the end we drove to mustafa and hang ard til 1 plus. yes jus me and her w/o the chungs. gues we got some things cleared. at least, i hope.
i believe she really treasures this frenship/sisterhood and thats why all the talks every now and then. it takes heart to hear such things. tho it may not be presented well, but i know that underlying it is a piece of love for this beautiful relationship which God had blessed us with. it aint easy, but one thing for sure, im gonna try to open up my real self, cos i believe thats hw a real frenship can grow and blossom. and im gonna speak my heart and mind in the right way. God pls give me the wisdom on how to get abt doing it and i jus want to commit this awesome sister into yr hands, and may the things we do/say cont to glorify yr name. amen.
she just refused to tell me where she wanted to go. and we stood there right in the middle of orchard road, jus spacing out. i hated that feeling. yes, i know u want me to make the decision, but doing that right there wasnt jus the wisest thing to do. it seemed like forever, and then we started walking and she jus followed me, not mentioning a single word whatsoever. was almost at my brink of tears but jus hold it back. i didnt know what she wanted. she could have told me. but certainly she didnt. so we jus walk into shops, she looking at her stuff, and me looking at mine. felt totally horrible, the feeling was jus indescribable. i hated it.
but it didnt stop right there. it was carried over to dinner. standing right outside taka food hall, not knowing where to go. and it suck. the feeling realy suck. in the end settled for ajisen. and once again there was that deafening silence creeping in. we jus keep on eating, and she started to speak. telling me so many many things that really brought tears to my eyes. endless times.
saying that she dont like one-sided stuff. and like the 2 way thingy. abt how she always share so much with me but yet im unwilling to open up. and always becoming so quiet. and how i can always say" thats so you" but she can never say the same to me cos she will never know me enough to do that. it is sad i tell you. very saddening. i jus sat there speechless and dumbfounded once again. i knew she was hoping for some kind of reaction fr me. be it rebuking her, scolding her, slapping her, anything but keeping quiet. but i chose to do the latter. cos thats me. everything she said is so true and right.
and of cos she doesnt expect me to change/ give her answers that she wanna hear. and that she was wondering if things wil turn sour btwn us. so i answered. i told her some stuff. and then i mentioned abt my existence. saying that it doesnt matter like when last sunday at the dialogue session. and the sweetest thing that touched me most is what she said. cant exactly remembered it word by word, but it goes like this "your existence may nt be important to other people, but it sure is important to me. i dont care if other ppl notice it or not, but always remember it does matter to me " i almost felt the tears welling up in my eyes haha. cos i didnt expect smthg that sweet to turn up. but i was really touched . words can never express how i feel.
aft which she tried to brighten the atmosphere a little, saying that its her fault cos she tends to think too much and stuff like that. she jus need to let it out and then she will be fine. or that she is expecting way too much fr this frenship. but she mention a lil stuff abt how she can do away superficial and surface frens which made me go a bit eh uh.
i didnt want it to end like tt and gg home, so we went to have a talk and things were pretty much norman. took 171 back to her hse and asked her to send me home. haa. but i didnt want to go home, so in the end we drove to mustafa and hang ard til 1 plus. yes jus me and her w/o the chungs. gues we got some things cleared. at least, i hope.
i believe she really treasures this frenship/sisterhood and thats why all the talks every now and then. it takes heart to hear such things. tho it may not be presented well, but i know that underlying it is a piece of love for this beautiful relationship which God had blessed us with. it aint easy, but one thing for sure, im gonna try to open up my real self, cos i believe thats hw a real frenship can grow and blossom. and im gonna speak my heart and mind in the right way. God pls give me the wisdom on how to get abt doing it and i jus want to commit this awesome sister into yr hands, and may the things we do/say cont to glorify yr name. amen.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
usually i would have thisn depression! y cos its sunday nite. but nt today, cos theres only ib tut tmr! haha and elearning on wed and fri, but got abacus test. sucky!
job was damn fun, tho i was aching all over esp my shoulders. could really feel the ache! madness. signs of aging.lol. but it was fun man. saw jack neo and the cast, and 933 deejays. too bad i wasnt captured on tv!haha.. tiring but fun nevertheless. after which went down town with a cosmopolitan group again! me eve taojing and karen. wahaha. really get to know them so much better. but shucks i think i portray a mad woman on the loose woman image. again. damnn. ahaha. tao is so much fun, tho im pretty unsure of her gender identity. hehs. farniee woman. i likeee.
today was svc and then lunch recep at quadrangle. george's baby's first mth! baby's cute but looks kinda scary to me. ha cos of the humongous eyes. then had celeb for jan babies, then the dialogue session. back home cos turbs had to rush her proj.
came back and sleep for 2 hrs. nt enough man.
anyway, that guy left me a msg on frenster again. i guess when someones really serious abt smthg they wil do that yea? but too disgusting for my liking. and i dont like that kind of idea. sigh. if only its someone i know or i like. but fat hope la.
job was damn fun, tho i was aching all over esp my shoulders. could really feel the ache! madness. signs of aging.lol. but it was fun man. saw jack neo and the cast, and 933 deejays. too bad i wasnt captured on tv!haha.. tiring but fun nevertheless. after which went down town with a cosmopolitan group again! me eve taojing and karen. wahaha. really get to know them so much better. but shucks i think i portray a mad woman on the loose woman image. again. damnn. ahaha. tao is so much fun, tho im pretty unsure of her gender identity. hehs. farniee woman. i likeee.
today was svc and then lunch recep at quadrangle. george's baby's first mth! baby's cute but looks kinda scary to me. ha cos of the humongous eyes. then had celeb for jan babies, then the dialogue session. back home cos turbs had to rush her proj.
came back and sleep for 2 hrs. nt enough man.
anyway, that guy left me a msg on frenster again. i guess when someones really serious abt smthg they wil do that yea? but too disgusting for my liking. and i dont like that kind of idea. sigh. if only its someone i know or i like. but fat hope la.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
yay. its fridayyy. my fav day of the week! hehs.
anyway, was blogsurfing cos sj was talking abt glen gg bkpacking with his frens. so i jus went to read it. was like wow, he gets to go to japan with his classmates, airfares all paid for by his parents. thinking why are some ppl so rich, and they can have what they want. and saying things like he got his levi's jeans blah. know hes not bragging but smtimes i cannot comprehend why ppl like to go for such branded stuff? does it really make u very cool by wearing all those? and what sort of happiness does it bring you? is it all that matters? perhaps i aint brought up this way, where i can have all thse things, mayb im eating sour grapes? i dont know.
and we went shopping in town, and sj got this belt for her bf. its like 40 bucks aft discount. and she got this portrait of them drawn by some china guy. was also wondering why do couples like to get expensive stuff for one another? i really dont understand. they like to get things like perfume, clothes, belts, all the expensive stuff. i seriously cannot comprehend at all. money isnt everything u know. whats the pt of getting all these things? i deem them to be boring, conventional, and really thoughtless. // should one day, one day when i have a bf, i sure wouldnt get him such stuff. u may say that its cos i dont have money/cant bear to spend on him etc. but no i guarantee that i will nv ever do that. the idea's so saturated and super eeks la.
was glad tt abt the change of plan. well hope that shes happy despite nt receving any pressies. so there. she was cranky today, and i hated it. i pop by pretty fit to kaypoh and realised that her pair of bloody shoes cost a whopping 69.90. whoa. rich woman. im gonna rip her off. haha. isnt it crazy to spend so much money on a pair of shoes??? sigh. but well thats nt my moolah, and not my life. so whatever makes her happy. smtimes i wish i can not be so kaypoh. haha. anyway simple fare at nydc, kept harping on james. its kinda irritating i must say. cmon i dont like him ok, tho i may be a little despo. so stop harping. anyway hes a dumb ass. booksmart. too square a brain la! realised all brothers cannot help to keep surprises. sigh. useless bums.
and elaine cheng is lke so screewed today. man i dont give a flying fuck about u man. biatch.
anyway, will be wking tmr morn, which im actually looking forward to, cos its some events for the sneak peek of i nt stupid 2! gonna give out goodie bags etc, mayb can see cute celebs also! hehs and good pay of 60 buckeroos for 6 hrs. but doubt they gonna pay on the spot. am so broke now. only 6 bucks on me. haha. and i havent paid for the cake! ahhhhh.
anyway, was blogsurfing cos sj was talking abt glen gg bkpacking with his frens. so i jus went to read it. was like wow, he gets to go to japan with his classmates, airfares all paid for by his parents. thinking why are some ppl so rich, and they can have what they want. and saying things like he got his levi's jeans blah. know hes not bragging but smtimes i cannot comprehend why ppl like to go for such branded stuff? does it really make u very cool by wearing all those? and what sort of happiness does it bring you? is it all that matters? perhaps i aint brought up this way, where i can have all thse things, mayb im eating sour grapes? i dont know.
and we went shopping in town, and sj got this belt for her bf. its like 40 bucks aft discount. and she got this portrait of them drawn by some china guy. was also wondering why do couples like to get expensive stuff for one another? i really dont understand. they like to get things like perfume, clothes, belts, all the expensive stuff. i seriously cannot comprehend at all. money isnt everything u know. whats the pt of getting all these things? i deem them to be boring, conventional, and really thoughtless. // should one day, one day when i have a bf, i sure wouldnt get him such stuff. u may say that its cos i dont have money/cant bear to spend on him etc. but no i guarantee that i will nv ever do that. the idea's so saturated and super eeks la.
was glad tt abt the change of plan. well hope that shes happy despite nt receving any pressies. so there. she was cranky today, and i hated it. i pop by pretty fit to kaypoh and realised that her pair of bloody shoes cost a whopping 69.90. whoa. rich woman. im gonna rip her off. haha. isnt it crazy to spend so much money on a pair of shoes??? sigh. but well thats nt my moolah, and not my life. so whatever makes her happy. smtimes i wish i can not be so kaypoh. haha. anyway simple fare at nydc, kept harping on james. its kinda irritating i must say. cmon i dont like him ok, tho i may be a little despo. so stop harping. anyway hes a dumb ass. booksmart. too square a brain la! realised all brothers cannot help to keep surprises. sigh. useless bums.
and elaine cheng is lke so screewed today. man i dont give a flying fuck about u man. biatch.
anyway, will be wking tmr morn, which im actually looking forward to, cos its some events for the sneak peek of i nt stupid 2! gonna give out goodie bags etc, mayb can see cute celebs also! hehs and good pay of 60 buckeroos for 6 hrs. but doubt they gonna pay on the spot. am so broke now. only 6 bucks on me. haha. and i havent paid for the cake! ahhhhh.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
WHEN YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR, WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU LOOK AT?
my pretty face!
HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU?
25 buckeroos
WHAT'S A WORD THAT RHYMES WITH "TEST"?
pest
FAVORITE PLANT?
gerberas
WHO IS THE 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST ON YOUR CELL PHONE?
evelyn
WHAT IS YOUR MAIN RING TONE ON YOUR PHONE?
speakers down. Boo.
WHAT SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
OP lol
DO YOU "LABEL" YOURSELF?
no.
NAME THE BRAND OF YOUR SHOES YOU"RE CURRENTLY WEARING?
barefoot
BRIGHT OR DARK ROOM?
Dark
WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT
proj/msning
WHAT WAS YOUR LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED ON YOUR CELL?
thanks for helping me ask!
DO YOU EVER CLICK ON "POP UPS" OR BANNERS?
nah..
WHAT'S A SAYING THAT YOU SAY A LOT?
shit
WHO TOLD YOU THEY LOVED YOU LAST?
my twinnie!
LAST FURRY THING YOU TOUCHED?
cannot remember
HOW MANY DRUGS HAVE YOU DONE IN THE PAST THREE DAYS?
zilch.
HOW MANY ROLLS OF FILM DO YOU NEED TO GET DEVELOPED?
zilch. It’s the pc la darling.
FAVORITE AGE YOU HAVE BEEN SO FAR?
18?
YOUR WORST ENEMY?
nah.
WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE?
collage of twinnie and me
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE?
what are you doing? To my mama haha
IF YOU HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN A MILLION BUCKS OR TO BE ABLE TO CHANGE A MAJOR REGRET?
a million bucks la!
THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO?
my hump, black eyed peas
i tag no one.
june perhaps? haha
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
its weddy!!! woohoo. this week have been great thus far, giving me lotsa time to rest, rot and slack at home! hehs. coool.
seriously dunno why we like to talk abt the humps. i mean its like yeah i have it but so? does it mean that it have to be flaunt? im nt like u alright, always in that. thats jus now me. so even if it looks in proportion, good, yummy, whatsoever i dont give a damn. smtimes i hate u. hate u for what u have, hate u for always harping on the same stuff. it gets on my nerves at times. realy it does. and your forgetfulness. always. guess its a love and hate kinda thing.cranky. thats what u always say i am. and yes i admit im cranky. but thats me. jus me. either love me or hate me. i wont stop u.
lol i mus be mad to write all of the above. anyway. cranky again i guess.
today a even bigger and better surprise! i got back my dt test paper! i got 75%. my peers were a few mks lower than me and i felt a little teeny smart cos i didnt study much, and i even asked them for answers. but turned out i did well for the first part, which was w./o their help. and that was good, cos according to the tutor, thats what will come out for the exams. cant help grinning fr ear to ear. but all these can happen only bcos of Him, so i will learn to eat humble pie.
she got herpes zoster, and she stil wants to come to sch tmr. damn it. and its the same stuff that causes chicken pox. damnit. contagious. i dont want to have chicken pox for CNY. damn. how ahhhhh. shit.
her bdays cmg and nobody can be bothered. oh mannn. how how how. and theres no pressies. sigh. everyone's too busy to bother. damnit. selfish creatures.
seriously dunno why we like to talk abt the humps. i mean its like yeah i have it but so? does it mean that it have to be flaunt? im nt like u alright, always in that. thats jus now me. so even if it looks in proportion, good, yummy, whatsoever i dont give a damn. smtimes i hate u. hate u for what u have, hate u for always harping on the same stuff. it gets on my nerves at times. realy it does. and your forgetfulness. always. guess its a love and hate kinda thing.cranky. thats what u always say i am. and yes i admit im cranky. but thats me. jus me. either love me or hate me. i wont stop u.
lol i mus be mad to write all of the above. anyway. cranky again i guess.
today a even bigger and better surprise! i got back my dt test paper! i got 75%. my peers were a few mks lower than me and i felt a little teeny smart cos i didnt study much, and i even asked them for answers. but turned out i did well for the first part, which was w./o their help. and that was good, cos according to the tutor, thats what will come out for the exams. cant help grinning fr ear to ear. but all these can happen only bcos of Him, so i will learn to eat humble pie.
she got herpes zoster, and she stil wants to come to sch tmr. damn it. and its the same stuff that causes chicken pox. damnit. contagious. i dont want to have chicken pox for CNY. damn. how ahhhhh. shit.
her bdays cmg and nobody can be bothered. oh mannn. how how how. and theres no pressies. sigh. everyone's too busy to bother. damnit. selfish creatures.
Monday, January 16, 2006
finally i can have a break today! ip's down, ib presentation's down, so left human comm, wisp assgmt 3, cem, hpm, atm test blah to come. so glad for the breather today! stomach cramps left me in convulsions! hate it. and the leakage's like damn lot la! already 3/4th day but stil coming a whole lot. eeks!
atm tutorial was cancelled, so only 2 hrs in sch. was in pain the whole time, yet i was like obligated to have lunch with her whatsoever. was like wtf la, dont take me for granted. i mean its like cmon u got yr proj stuff to do, and u expect me to wait for u to have lunch with u? dream on man. i wouldve done it if i wasnt in such great pain u know. and anyay, who are u that i shd wait and lunch with. damnit. why cant some ppl jus be more considerate? it irks me a whole lot. anyway, took cab to and fro fr sch today. felt so terrible that i jus couldnt bear the thot of taking a bus.
yesterday was spent with turbs n suats watching in her shoes. oh wells. some yaya sisterhood kinda show, a little dry, but still, a movie always work wonders for me. the cny mood seems to be setting in, with all the cheesy cny songs, tv comms. thot i was perhaps a lil excited bout it. at least thats the only thing i look forward to now. sigh. i constantly need things to excite me so that life can get going. its bad isnt it.
and turbs told me abt the msn thing ytd. lol. i suck in that picture tt guy stil complimented??? hahaha. my heart was actually smiling, and head a lil swelling. tho i acted as if i couldnt be bother. anyway, she doesnt even know who the hell he is. craps.
suats bday is coming.and nobody seems to be bothered. oh wells. like what to do. sigh. supp to have a big celeb, since hers is always neglected. moreover, shes gonna go up to adult zone. hais. the talk ytd is making us alil worry. jus wonder how shes gonna take it.
shit. now i have craving for tau huay. wth.
atm tutorial was cancelled, so only 2 hrs in sch. was in pain the whole time, yet i was like obligated to have lunch with her whatsoever. was like wtf la, dont take me for granted. i mean its like cmon u got yr proj stuff to do, and u expect me to wait for u to have lunch with u? dream on man. i wouldve done it if i wasnt in such great pain u know. and anyay, who are u that i shd wait and lunch with. damnit. why cant some ppl jus be more considerate? it irks me a whole lot. anyway, took cab to and fro fr sch today. felt so terrible that i jus couldnt bear the thot of taking a bus.
yesterday was spent with turbs n suats watching in her shoes. oh wells. some yaya sisterhood kinda show, a little dry, but still, a movie always work wonders for me. the cny mood seems to be setting in, with all the cheesy cny songs, tv comms. thot i was perhaps a lil excited bout it. at least thats the only thing i look forward to now. sigh. i constantly need things to excite me so that life can get going. its bad isnt it.
and turbs told me abt the msn thing ytd. lol. i suck in that picture tt guy stil complimented??? hahaha. my heart was actually smiling, and head a lil swelling. tho i acted as if i couldnt be bother. anyway, she doesnt even know who the hell he is. craps.
suats bday is coming.and nobody seems to be bothered. oh wells. like what to do. sigh. supp to have a big celeb, since hers is always neglected. moreover, shes gonna go up to adult zone. hais. the talk ytd is making us alil worry. jus wonder how shes gonna take it.
shit. now i have craving for tau huay. wth.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
caught the heirloom. which was super NOT NICE btw. yucks man. nt scary plus i dont get the ending. off ta crystal jade for dinna, and as usual ordered truckloads of food. thats what happen when u have jus ONE fren who eat like pigS.hehs. off ta huagus house hse to thon. watched the kingkong, haa but we both fell alseep at different times, lol. then girls talk again til the wee hours. 5:05am. that is madness redefined. anyway, it was fun altogether. ((((((((:
got my period. which means fuck. i really hate it man. sucks! having all those cramps, worrying if u wil stain yrself. blah blah blah. eeksss! had a sudden craving for jelly, so i went to get it plus my sanitary napkins and my cup noodles. ha ha ha! but its nt satisfied yet, cos i cant find my gimme one gimme one gimme one more! shall attempt to cont searching for the purrfect jelly tml! hehs. *snort.
anyway, went down with mama to get those stuff before she went to wash her hair. and while we were getting a dustpan for my auntie, she gave me a hug and told me she love me. awwww. and i told her the same too. im glad that me and my mama are so cool with all this verbal and non-verbal lang, showing our affections for one another. i know it doesnt happen much in asian families, so i make sure it doesnt extinct btw us. hee. i lovee her u know, tho she drive me crazy at times, but its all for my own good. (((((((:
its late, and i had better go get some sleep. out*
got my period. which means fuck. i really hate it man. sucks! having all those cramps, worrying if u wil stain yrself. blah blah blah. eeksss! had a sudden craving for jelly, so i went to get it plus my sanitary napkins and my cup noodles. ha ha ha! but its nt satisfied yet, cos i cant find my gimme one gimme one gimme one more! shall attempt to cont searching for the purrfect jelly tml! hehs. *snort.
anyway, went down with mama to get those stuff before she went to wash her hair. and while we were getting a dustpan for my auntie, she gave me a hug and told me she love me. awwww. and i told her the same too. im glad that me and my mama are so cool with all this verbal and non-verbal lang, showing our affections for one another. i know it doesnt happen much in asian families, so i make sure it doesnt extinct btw us. hee. i lovee her u know, tho she drive me crazy at times, but its all for my own good. (((((((:
its late, and i had better go get some sleep. out*
Thursday, January 12, 2006
while waiting for jess to send me the ip, thot i could like blog or smthg.
am so glad that time flies at warped speed smtimes. tho dreading it, this time im gladdd. ((((: and tomorrow is friday, am gg out with turbs to catch either in her shoes or the heirloom. prollly go stay at her place too if we are watching heirloon. cos we wil be too freaked out. but sigh, her hse's like so proper and scary la. then gotta see eu, then later she wil think why is this girl always cmg to stay at my hse. then again, i may think too much. its like so weird la. know both of them yet im close to turbs, and not really to her sis. and when i go over, we wil sleep at the attic, and eu alone. sigh. mixed feelings!
jus talked to sijie online!tho it was a short while. still, i was excited. wish she was back here with me. then i wouldnt have felt to lonely. sigh. gues i use to take things for granted, but gonna learn nt to do so anymore.
turbs told me the time capsule thingy! sounds exciting. imagine keeping all our good/bad thoughts abt one another/writing abt our wishes/ and seeing them only after 1 year! and we'll laugh at it together. simply heartwarming and fun isnt it? am so looking forward to it already. trust turbs to come up with smthg like that!
on another note, ruth's mama was hospitalised again. sigh. shes always falling sick, really weak i guess. gonna uphold her in my prayers.
am so glad that time flies at warped speed smtimes. tho dreading it, this time im gladdd. ((((: and tomorrow is friday, am gg out with turbs to catch either in her shoes or the heirloom. prollly go stay at her place too if we are watching heirloon. cos we wil be too freaked out. but sigh, her hse's like so proper and scary la. then gotta see eu, then later she wil think why is this girl always cmg to stay at my hse. then again, i may think too much. its like so weird la. know both of them yet im close to turbs, and not really to her sis. and when i go over, we wil sleep at the attic, and eu alone. sigh. mixed feelings!
jus talked to sijie online!tho it was a short while. still, i was excited. wish she was back here with me. then i wouldnt have felt to lonely. sigh. gues i use to take things for granted, but gonna learn nt to do so anymore.
turbs told me the time capsule thingy! sounds exciting. imagine keeping all our good/bad thoughts abt one another/writing abt our wishes/ and seeing them only after 1 year! and we'll laugh at it together. simply heartwarming and fun isnt it? am so looking forward to it already. trust turbs to come up with smthg like that!
on another note, ruth's mama was hospitalised again. sigh. shes always falling sick, really weak i guess. gonna uphold her in my prayers.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
from the beginning i already knew that it was a bad week.
he asked to see me and proceeded to asking me abt the sch fees. i was for a moment quite touched actually, to think someone bothers. haha but then i realised he's my advisor, and he is obliged to do that.lol. anyway i told her abt it. and then during lunch... ... ... sighh. smtimes i wish i can jus die. wonder whether if God is there. wonder why i cant live like some normal kid. why are some people born rich, have looks, money, brains, everything. live in big house, party all day long, get ferry around, handsome bfs, go to prestigious schs, have everythg they want, gg for hols etc etc. life is sure is unfair, but i guess ive learnt not to complaint anymore.
i jus realise i really love to wallow in self-pity, which is not a good sign.
he asked to see me and proceeded to asking me abt the sch fees. i was for a moment quite touched actually, to think someone bothers. haha but then i realised he's my advisor, and he is obliged to do that.lol. anyway i told her abt it. and then during lunch... ... ... sighh. smtimes i wish i can jus die. wonder whether if God is there. wonder why i cant live like some normal kid. why are some people born rich, have looks, money, brains, everything. live in big house, party all day long, get ferry around, handsome bfs, go to prestigious schs, have everythg they want, gg for hols etc etc. life is sure is unfair, but i guess ive learnt not to complaint anymore.
i jus realise i really love to wallow in self-pity, which is not a good sign.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
dont ask me why. i know 5 is a small number. but at this point of time i only need 2. or even 1. or mayb 0. i don't know.
it has been bad. and i guess u are right. i am really cranky. prolly due to the fact that my period havent come since like 2 mths ago.
schs starting tmr,sj have gone to the states. i have absolutely no mood to go to sch at all. atm make up tut from 3-6, which means i have to go get the laptop from wj. which means 8.15 and i have to leave house to go get it from wj. this is madness. im sinking into depression again. really hate sunday nights, always feel so down, so emo, esp in the night. and its gonna be a damn busy wk for me. human comm presentation, wisp presentation, IP proj submission. all in 1 week. seriously have no idea how im gonna survive it. jus cant wait to graduate fr np.
on the good note, ive been spending quality time with ppl whom i hold close to my heart. guess at the same time i'd need to restore some broken relationships. its gonna be hard, but at least im gonna try. the future seems so obscure. and nothing is forever. now, isnt that sad.
and there are gonna be endless changes in 2006. transitions. new environments. new faces. sigh.perhaps i shouldnt even let my mind wander to that stage, since i dont even know if i'll still be around by then.
wallowing in self-pity. again. damn. i am so hating it.
it has been bad. and i guess u are right. i am really cranky. prolly due to the fact that my period havent come since like 2 mths ago.
schs starting tmr,sj have gone to the states. i have absolutely no mood to go to sch at all. atm make up tut from 3-6, which means i have to go get the laptop from wj. which means 8.15 and i have to leave house to go get it from wj. this is madness. im sinking into depression again. really hate sunday nights, always feel so down, so emo, esp in the night. and its gonna be a damn busy wk for me. human comm presentation, wisp presentation, IP proj submission. all in 1 week. seriously have no idea how im gonna survive it. jus cant wait to graduate fr np.
on the good note, ive been spending quality time with ppl whom i hold close to my heart. guess at the same time i'd need to restore some broken relationships. its gonna be hard, but at least im gonna try. the future seems so obscure. and nothing is forever. now, isnt that sad.
and there are gonna be endless changes in 2006. transitions. new environments. new faces. sigh.perhaps i shouldnt even let my mind wander to that stage, since i dont even know if i'll still be around by then.
wallowing in self-pity. again. damn. i am so hating it.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
God had jus sent me an angel to pass me the moolah. and indeed im real thankful.
on the other note, i almost couldnt believe what i heard. i thought the old man had died, but turned out that he waved to her, and hahaha tigeress saw it. how dumb can she get. and into the box she will hide for 1 week. was ordered not to step out of the house. henpecked& useless creature. what jolt me was finally, after 5 years, the dream is almost vivid. and when it happens, all nations will celebrate. and my panties will be raised onto the pole, declaring that that is mine. now and forever. and i will no longer live in darkness. no longer lying in a bed of lies.
oh ya, by the way, i hate ppl who despise me. and if u think u've got me down, u are so fucking wrong. hahaha. the mere sight of you makes me so sick i wanna throw uppppp. puiiii. lalala..
on the other note, i almost couldnt believe what i heard. i thought the old man had died, but turned out that he waved to her, and hahaha tigeress saw it. how dumb can she get. and into the box she will hide for 1 week. was ordered not to step out of the house. henpecked& useless creature. what jolt me was finally, after 5 years, the dream is almost vivid. and when it happens, all nations will celebrate. and my panties will be raised onto the pole, declaring that that is mine. now and forever. and i will no longer live in darkness. no longer lying in a bed of lies.
oh ya, by the way, i hate ppl who despise me. and if u think u've got me down, u are so fucking wrong. hahaha. the mere sight of you makes me so sick i wanna throw uppppp. puiiii. lalala..
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
had dot paper today and it was bullcrapps. ugh. stunned by the qns, and there goes my integrity.bah. off ta westmall for lunch with chers eve adel sijie then bk to sch for the discover orchard briefing. will be station master at the duck and hippo tours.yawns. then back to wm again for kingkong! niceee movie but had my ass freeze for 3 bloody hours. i am so broke. no more angels to send me moolah. wanna cut hair but no moolah. wanna buy bag but no moolah. stooooopid sph.grrrr. _|_
and people say moolah cant buy happiness? oh puh-leasee.
and people say moolah cant buy happiness? oh puh-leasee.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
.: byebye 2005, hello 2thousand6 :.
whee~! its been a year! one which flew past without leaving much time for me to be fully aware of the happenings around me. Tho wishing i could make time standstill, i still had to give myself a rude awakening so that i'd face reality. looking back, i must say that it have been a eventful year, remembering the horrendous itp, the secret admirer... mid year came and it was time to enter to another new class with new faces. i could almost recall the unhappiness and sadness which was so overwhelming that i wept buckets during the first week. but the Lord provided me with good friends who saw me thru each class. and smhow im really grateful for them.
ups and downs were inevitable thruout the year, but God had always sent angels to boost my spirits, and inject cheer into my daily grind. esp the naomians. i wish that this sisterhood would be brought to a higher level but smthg had to thwart my plans. the changes that are gonna happen. i dont even let my mind wander to that state, cos i am so unsure of what it will bring and i simply dislike uncertainties.
some new year resolutions:
>> to be more selfless
>> procrastinate less
>> have my own stand
>> be more independent
>> curb my swearings
>> save money
>> tidy up my stuff at least once fortnightly
>> restore broken relationships
lets all learn to embrace 2006 with love and joy in abundance
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have been playing alot these days, jus feel like im in the holiday spirits already! wed was narnia with the zone, thurs was dimsum buffet, fri was aqua park at ecp, which was a whole lot of fun except the fact that i screwed it up. thon at twinnies hse which was funs cos i simply lovee our girl talkss! hee..
and i mus say thurs night was a little hanabaloo! cos of the confrontations, haha.. i didnt know it was bottled up for sucha long time, and boy was i glad tt she decided to tell me whats wrong. it jus warms my heart so much that smone would actually bother, so that this sistahood can be elevated to a higher level. (:
was cracking our brains on sat night, thinking of the endless possibilities of places we could go for countdown but not to much avail. and we finally decide to get our butts moving and gg bk to dots hse so that she could get the car and we could go smwhr. hee but the car wasnt home. and we thot it was eu but the actual fact was that her parents werent back yet. so we spent it at her house, doing a silent countdown with the hollow man & blair witch proj 2 as our companions! it sure was a different and memorable one. (: not the things that we did, but always the company that i love!
papers on tues, and i havent started studying much. sigh. and im so depressed right now, cos everyones starting sch, and theres not much time for play. boo.
ups and downs were inevitable thruout the year, but God had always sent angels to boost my spirits, and inject cheer into my daily grind. esp the naomians. i wish that this sisterhood would be brought to a higher level but smthg had to thwart my plans. the changes that are gonna happen. i dont even let my mind wander to that state, cos i am so unsure of what it will bring and i simply dislike uncertainties.
some new year resolutions:
>> to be more selfless
>> procrastinate less
>> have my own stand
>> be more independent
>> curb my swearings
>> save money
>> tidy up my stuff at least once fortnightly
>> restore broken relationships
lets all learn to embrace 2006 with love and joy in abundance
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have been playing alot these days, jus feel like im in the holiday spirits already! wed was narnia with the zone, thurs was dimsum buffet, fri was aqua park at ecp, which was a whole lot of fun except the fact that i screwed it up. thon at twinnies hse which was funs cos i simply lovee our girl talkss! hee..
and i mus say thurs night was a little hanabaloo! cos of the confrontations, haha.. i didnt know it was bottled up for sucha long time, and boy was i glad tt she decided to tell me whats wrong. it jus warms my heart so much that smone would actually bother, so that this sistahood can be elevated to a higher level. (:
was cracking our brains on sat night, thinking of the endless possibilities of places we could go for countdown but not to much avail. and we finally decide to get our butts moving and gg bk to dots hse so that she could get the car and we could go smwhr. hee but the car wasnt home. and we thot it was eu but the actual fact was that her parents werent back yet. so we spent it at her house, doing a silent countdown with the hollow man & blair witch proj 2 as our companions! it sure was a different and memorable one. (: not the things that we did, but always the company that i love!
papers on tues, and i havent started studying much. sigh. and im so depressed right now, cos everyones starting sch, and theres not much time for play. boo.
Monday, December 26, 2005
.: Christmas :.
23rd dec 2005
it started off with a bang at the party in Jess's house.
24th dec 2005
anyway the real party began in the night when we thon in church. watched dvds but soo many distractions ard, and unless its horror movies, otherwise it wil be hard for me to be glued to the tv set. was nice having eu staying over with us too, since shes always busy. turbs too, but the poor huagu was sick. hais. but nonetheless, had fun tog. and the 3 of us slept on the sofa. it was madness. couldnt really sleep well, kept tossing and turning. seriously nv imagined that to be possible, cos it was really uncomfy, but i guess its the company that really really matters, and im glad my company's always fantastic.
25th dec 2005
yes its christmas. service as usual, exchanged pressies and went over to george+adel's place to visit their newborn! and the babe was uber cute can!humongous eyes, hehs. guess they are over the moon, they have been waiting for 5 yrs for this little precious to come along. and thank God for this best Christmas pressie ever! hehs. then over to SH's place for mini potluck party. 3 of us tagged along too, uninvited, thats always the case. haaa. and we had lotsa liquor. had that rose liquer thingy, then kahlua with eggnog, red wine - merlot, which is rather smooth when it finishes yr throat! niceee~! hehs. i wanttt more.. and that marks the end of Christmas!
remember how i was dreading it, but it all ended on a good note, and boy was i glad. except that i wish they would stop harping on that issue, cos it is really irritating the shit outta me. once or twice is ok, but too many times jus make me feel like puking in yr face, and making me hate u even more. bitch. no one will call u a mute even when u shut up. ok fine i should stop harping on it too. bleah.
jus to thank the peeps who have gotten me pressies this Christmas. truly appreciate each and every gift for it all comes from the heart of giving.
Naomians
- Twinnie darling & eunie for the magnetic board, musical box, mirror and rock candy fr melbs. thanks so much for remembering abt the things i mention. its uber sweet of u! lovelove.
- Mei for the personalised spag
- Rose for the humongous doh-dough set, sweetie who knows that i like playdough
- Nick and Aud for the earrings
Elijahs
- Maggie and Sharon for the sling bag
- Cindy for the necklace
- Fish for the milkshake bath
StJames peeps
- Pastor Phoebe for the chocolate mint sticks
- Wynne and WQ for the earrings
- Suemay for the cute dog soft toy
- Ruth for the hp strap
- Hawk and Brigitte for the plushy dog cushion hp holder
- Aunty Yuhua for the facial foam haha cute
- Hariette and John for the angel ornament
- Dennis for the lolli and biscuits
NP peeps
- Jess for the scrapbook, absolutely touched by that sweet gesture, as well as the necklace
- Lizzie for the zed and zee cup with the nail polish, buffer and shower confettis
- Eve for the earrings
TSS peeps
- Wenjun for the cute chicks boxers! almost wanted to get it for myself but the good Lord provided me with it haha
- Pearlie for the christmas card
- Kaikit for the christmas card
- Twinnie darling & eunie for the magnetic board, musical box, mirror and rock candy fr melbs. thanks so much for remembering abt the things i mention. its uber sweet of u! lovelove.
- Mei for the personalised spag
- Rose for the humongous doh-dough set, sweetie who knows that i like playdough
- Nick and Aud for the earrings
Elijahs
- Maggie and Sharon for the sling bag
- Cindy for the necklace
- Fish for the milkshake bath
StJames peeps
- Pastor Phoebe for the chocolate mint sticks
- Wynne and WQ for the earrings
- Suemay for the cute dog soft toy
- Ruth for the hp strap
- Hawk and Brigitte for the plushy dog cushion hp holder
- Aunty Yuhua for the facial foam haha cute
- Hariette and John for the angel ornament
- Dennis for the lolli and biscuits
NP peeps
- Jess for the scrapbook, absolutely touched by that sweet gesture, as well as the necklace
- Lizzie for the zed and zee cup with the nail polish, buffer and shower confettis
- Eve for the earrings
TSS peeps
- Wenjun for the cute chicks boxers! almost wanted to get it for myself but the good Lord provided me with it haha
- Pearlie for the christmas card
- Kaikit for the christmas card
and to many others for their lovely Christmas greetings! thks for making my Christmas a happy affair. and thank God for the greatest and most precious gift that He have bestowed to us. His son - Jesus Christ.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
.: so little time, so many things to do :.
isnt't it scary. its already the wee hours of a thursday. and christmas wil be here in jus 2 days time. and i havent got so many pressies. and im sooo broke. 50 odd dollars is not enough u know that?! this is very bad. how i wish for santa to drop me some money fr the sky. ive been good this year k. so i deserve some spare cash. and ive jus heard fr bh that fucking sph aint gonna pay us yet cos she jus got p/t to do data entry. like wth. so what am i gonna depend on for a living? ive absolutely no idea. damnit.
and i need to bake. and i need to do my forbidden fruit thingy, and my banana fondues. damnit. and i will be out shopping tmr. party's on fri. so many things to do. presents not wrapped. so screwed. feel totally wretched. to top it off, my mama had to target that pathetic packet of pistachio nuts which tasted like shit cos it was meant for baking. ahhhhhh. and it wasnt available in shop n save. i had to go giant and buy! damnit. sooo darn screwddd. which leave me nutless, and there aint enough time to do the biscotti. arghhh.
perhaps i should really really jus hide at home this Christmas. that would really save me alot of trouble. i could go missing and have everyone looking for me. haha but prolly not, cos its the festive season to be jolly and everyone else will be having so much fun and last thing on their mind will be the absence of meee.
silly thought. very silly one. sometimes im simply awed by the daft thoughts that keeps popping up in me. cant help it.
and nicks in msn have been getting cheesy and cheesier. turns me off totally. and the real meaning of christmas is so commercialised and diluted. have u realised? proclaimation of the virgin birth of our Saviour Jesus Christ to come and redeem men's sins has been replaced by secular festivity. it shd have been a day to sing "joy to the world, the lord is come", but this world has been encouraged to jus eat and drink and indulge in merry-making. the thought of it jus make me sick. and i dont deny that sm how or rather i've fallen into that pit w/o even realising it. goodness gracious!
lets jus take some time off, and once again be reminded of His birth that makes salvation possible, and let this simple fact jus awe us for a moment.
and i need to bake. and i need to do my forbidden fruit thingy, and my banana fondues. damnit. and i will be out shopping tmr. party's on fri. so many things to do. presents not wrapped. so screwed. feel totally wretched. to top it off, my mama had to target that pathetic packet of pistachio nuts which tasted like shit cos it was meant for baking. ahhhhhh. and it wasnt available in shop n save. i had to go giant and buy! damnit. sooo darn screwddd. which leave me nutless, and there aint enough time to do the biscotti. arghhh.
perhaps i should really really jus hide at home this Christmas. that would really save me alot of trouble. i could go missing and have everyone looking for me. haha but prolly not, cos its the festive season to be jolly and everyone else will be having so much fun and last thing on their mind will be the absence of meee.
silly thought. very silly one. sometimes im simply awed by the daft thoughts that keeps popping up in me. cant help it.
and nicks in msn have been getting cheesy and cheesier. turns me off totally. and the real meaning of christmas is so commercialised and diluted. have u realised? proclaimation of the virgin birth of our Saviour Jesus Christ to come and redeem men's sins has been replaced by secular festivity. it shd have been a day to sing "joy to the world, the lord is come", but this world has been encouraged to jus eat and drink and indulge in merry-making. the thought of it jus make me sick. and i dont deny that sm how or rather i've fallen into that pit w/o even realising it. goodness gracious!
lets jus take some time off, and once again be reminded of His birth that makes salvation possible, and let this simple fact jus awe us for a moment.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
the flu bug had hit me and i succumbed to it! :'( it has been raining mucus for the past 2 days, and the feeling sure sucks, especially when Christmas is just around the corner. there are endless presents to buy, and what is left of me is 38cents in my bank a/c. and a total of 4 buckeroos in cash. and there are at least 15 pressies which i havent buy, and i simply have no idea how to get it done. cos no money no talk. and dumb sph is gonna pay me only at the end of this mth, which will jolly well be after Christmas. damnit. grrrr.
but the Lord jus provided me. Amen.
so many things running through the back of my mind, and smtimes there leaves behind no time for me to handle them all. human beings are so complex. i wish i could quit playing the guessing game.
i guess friends dont belong to us. i use to take it for granted, thinking that they will be there forever, 24/7, but smhow i guess we need some breathing space. there are jus certain things which are beyond our control. infact there is nothing which lies in our control, for it all belong to Him. and since there is nothing i can do, im jus gonna pray that the Lord watches over each and everyone of His children.
and i believe all things happen for a reason. instead of getting all green cos i dont have a chance to shine, im jus gonna be thankful, and to learn to appreciate the kind of gifts God have planted in sm ppl. and i need to stop laughing/bitching whenever there is a chance/mocking/bringing them down cos it aint gonna help. tho i cant help wondering why i wasnt rope it.
hate it when i feel vulnerable. and emo.
my latest earworm...
but the Lord jus provided me. Amen.
so many things running through the back of my mind, and smtimes there leaves behind no time for me to handle them all. human beings are so complex. i wish i could quit playing the guessing game.
i guess friends dont belong to us. i use to take it for granted, thinking that they will be there forever, 24/7, but smhow i guess we need some breathing space. there are jus certain things which are beyond our control. infact there is nothing which lies in our control, for it all belong to Him. and since there is nothing i can do, im jus gonna pray that the Lord watches over each and everyone of His children.
and i believe all things happen for a reason. instead of getting all green cos i dont have a chance to shine, im jus gonna be thankful, and to learn to appreciate the kind of gifts God have planted in sm ppl. and i need to stop laughing/bitching whenever there is a chance/mocking/bringing them down cos it aint gonna help. tho i cant help wondering why i wasnt rope it.
hate it when i feel vulnerable. and emo.
my latest earworm...
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU
Written by Mariah Carey and Walter Afanasieff
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You... Friday, December 16, 2005
sigh. when u are happy, time seems to not wait for u.
12th dezec
it was a visit to the oriental in the noon, and was indeed an eye-opener for suakus like me. and then over ta camp at changi. thanks turbs for picking me up. was like whining to myself when im there, cos is dirty blah. was glad i was able to sleep tho was tossing and turning at times. and im glad we had a bed to sleep on! shared the single one with turbs.
sort of missing camp already. cos the fellowship was good. was looking back and thinking how childish i was few years ago. all e politics. haha. but this year was really fulfilling. tho it was a tad drama with the 'plagues'. proved a lil too much for me to bear, so i teared a lil. haha.
cooking competition was fun too! totally enjoyed it, tho there were some hiccups. last day was a bonus cos we thot the chalet was booked til thurs, but in the end there was this one day extra. so we spent it swimming, and maiding..
realised anthonys super cutee can. haha. getting to love him!!! lol.
and we sneaked out to have chilli crab. smtimes i hate doing it, cos its like unfair. cos usually turbs and me wil get to go cos we are like the elites. well ok sound bitchy. but is we wil get to go but rose gets left behind. and vincent and ruth came also. so 5 of us with pastor nick. chilli crab dinner. 80 plus buckeroos. didnt know the crabs cost like 50 bucks! madness. but was yummy nv the less. hehs. thanks for the treat tho i know u are nt gonna see this.
and he kept talking abt the reshuffling of cell stuff. i hate to hear it. i know hes prompting us to ask, but smart turbs and me jus shut up. but ruth was askign and asking. haa she was afraid it was gonna affect her cell. but if my speculation's nt wrong, its my cell that needs reshuffling.
and he dropped hint in the car to turbs, on how she can get her revenge on anthony in june. so i guess she wil go to elijah's cell. as for me. =X . is like theyve nv seek us for opinions. so there.
thurs --> an eventful night i think! or rather a series of unfortunate events! haha.. but overall im glad i went. cos i know God has HIS plans for everythig.
have been doing the dishes a whole lot.. fun tho. would have dread it at home, but when everyone's doing it tog, i felt like so happy even when im mopping the floor. hehs.
and bunking with turbs was fun. but i think its fun cos of me. haaaa. cos i always make ppl laugh. heh thick skin eh, but is ok if u dont agree. and it was tickles all night, and the careful analysis of each and every single person before we slept. and how we talk abt the church. i always enjoy such girl talks. luv it. im missing it all already. but the fond memories will last me for some time.
dunno what to get them for christmas. and im so broke. darn it.
12th dezec
it was a visit to the oriental in the noon, and was indeed an eye-opener for suakus like me. and then over ta camp at changi. thanks turbs for picking me up. was like whining to myself when im there, cos is dirty blah. was glad i was able to sleep tho was tossing and turning at times. and im glad we had a bed to sleep on! shared the single one with turbs.
sort of missing camp already. cos the fellowship was good. was looking back and thinking how childish i was few years ago. all e politics. haha. but this year was really fulfilling. tho it was a tad drama with the 'plagues'. proved a lil too much for me to bear, so i teared a lil. haha.
cooking competition was fun too! totally enjoyed it, tho there were some hiccups. last day was a bonus cos we thot the chalet was booked til thurs, but in the end there was this one day extra. so we spent it swimming, and maiding..
realised anthonys super cutee can. haha. getting to love him!!! lol.
and we sneaked out to have chilli crab. smtimes i hate doing it, cos its like unfair. cos usually turbs and me wil get to go cos we are like the elites. well ok sound bitchy. but is we wil get to go but rose gets left behind. and vincent and ruth came also. so 5 of us with pastor nick. chilli crab dinner. 80 plus buckeroos. didnt know the crabs cost like 50 bucks! madness. but was yummy nv the less. hehs. thanks for the treat tho i know u are nt gonna see this.
and he kept talking abt the reshuffling of cell stuff. i hate to hear it. i know hes prompting us to ask, but smart turbs and me jus shut up. but ruth was askign and asking. haa she was afraid it was gonna affect her cell. but if my speculation's nt wrong, its my cell that needs reshuffling.
and he dropped hint in the car to turbs, on how she can get her revenge on anthony in june. so i guess she wil go to elijah's cell. as for me. =X . is like theyve nv seek us for opinions. so there.
thurs --> an eventful night i think! or rather a series of unfortunate events! haha.. but overall im glad i went. cos i know God has HIS plans for everythig.
have been doing the dishes a whole lot.. fun tho. would have dread it at home, but when everyone's doing it tog, i felt like so happy even when im mopping the floor. hehs.
and bunking with turbs was fun. but i think its fun cos of me. haaaa. cos i always make ppl laugh. heh thick skin eh, but is ok if u dont agree. and it was tickles all night, and the careful analysis of each and every single person before we slept. and how we talk abt the church. i always enjoy such girl talks. luv it. im missing it all already. but the fond memories will last me for some time.
dunno what to get them for christmas. and im so broke. darn it.
Monday, December 12, 2005
1 busy week came and go. jus like that.
i hate free-riders. ugh.damnit. 1 got dinner,and ask when need to submit when the dateline's tomorrow. the other one jus simply dont care/bother, cos she doesnt know a shit as to whats gg on. so there. drove me nuts. and here i am trying so hard to figure out how to get things done but sadly, to no avail.
on a good note, well spent weekend with turbs! now that shes bk, hiak hiak..have been playing mahjong on fri, towning on sat, and harry on sun. woots. loveee yr company turbs~!
and yea i have to agree that some peeps are dominating shit. all they can see is jus a world that revolves around them, and nobody else. smtimes it gets kind of sucky to the extent that i feel like slapping her. LOL. like why shd i even bother when her spouse is trying so hard to appease her?
off ta camp, will be back on thurs~!
i hate free-riders. ugh.damnit. 1 got dinner,and ask when need to submit when the dateline's tomorrow. the other one jus simply dont care/bother, cos she doesnt know a shit as to whats gg on. so there. drove me nuts. and here i am trying so hard to figure out how to get things done but sadly, to no avail.
on a good note, well spent weekend with turbs! now that shes bk, hiak hiak..have been playing mahjong on fri, towning on sat, and harry on sun. woots. loveee yr company turbs~!
and yea i have to agree that some peeps are dominating shit. all they can see is jus a world that revolves around them, and nobody else. smtimes it gets kind of sucky to the extent that i feel like slapping her. LOL. like why shd i even bother when her spouse is trying so hard to appease her?
off ta camp, will be back on thurs~!
Friday, December 09, 2005
this wk flew past exceptionally fast. warped speed! and im so confused. cos smtimes i want it that way, but other times i beg to differ.
was in town today, wanting to get my shoes fr mitju, and when i was there, it wasnt within my sight. =/ no more. sobs. made me learnt a lesson. is like in life, if u want smthg, u gotta just go and get it. any more procrastination and it will all be gone. in a flash that is. oh well. but smthg good came along. (:
sch is cmg to an end soon! yeeps. and turbs is bk.
shitttttttt my hairs so itchy now when ive just washed it like 6 hrs ago. damnit.
hohoho~!
was in town today, wanting to get my shoes fr mitju, and when i was there, it wasnt within my sight. =/ no more. sobs. made me learnt a lesson. is like in life, if u want smthg, u gotta just go and get it. any more procrastination and it will all be gone. in a flash that is. oh well. but smthg good came along. (:
sch is cmg to an end soon! yeeps. and turbs is bk.
shitttttttt my hairs so itchy now when ive just washed it like 6 hrs ago. damnit.
christmas celebs
23rd - jess's party 6.30 - 9.00pm
jacq's pajamas party
24th - christmas rally
25th - christmas celebration
23rd - jess's party 6.30 - 9.00pm
jacq's pajamas party
24th - christmas rally
25th - christmas celebration
hohoho~!
Monday, December 05, 2005
shoot man. that time i asked nick to send me to airport to pick turbs. but turn out he got bbq at diocese cannot goooo. argghhh. so maddening. hahhaa. but then i sort of prayed. a mini one.and then turn out that eu's gonna pick her cos her dada aint free. yay! which means i can tag along. but shucks she havent reply. ahhhhh. ooh she jus replied and said why not! hehs.YAYYYY. hope i can go cos ive already promised her and i dont wanna break it. owellsss.
thanks wenjun babe for lending me yr lappie. yr such a sweetling! hehs. shall treat it with lotsa care & love, i promise! and i sure owe u one! lovelove*
cant wait for next week! where i'll be off ta camp with my lovelies.. and no more sch for like a mth or so. *grins ( :
praise God!
and christmas is cmg....! gonna play first kybrd for christmas service, time to start practicing!
happy happy soul>> (:
thanks wenjun babe for lending me yr lappie. yr such a sweetling! hehs. shall treat it with lotsa care & love, i promise! and i sure owe u one! lovelove*
cant wait for next week! where i'll be off ta camp with my lovelies.. and no more sch for like a mth or so. *grins ( :
praise God!
and christmas is cmg....! gonna play first kybrd for christmas service, time to start practicing!
happy happy soul>> (:
Sunday, December 04, 2005
whoa. time flies. really it does. and i can already feel the festive mood all ard already. *gushes* woohooooo~! and ive got my pay! and abt half of it is already gone. got jeans,skirt,flipflops,sm christmas pressies. hehs.. its all gonna be so fun!
im feeling a bit sore/blue abt not asked to participate in the skit etc for christmas rally, as well as ccis.. perhaps im someone who likes attention as well. kept forcing myself to laugh it off when i hear them practice the carol, blah. owell.owell. nvm. i guess theres a reason for all that happen.
anyway i just realised how much i love my churchmates. young/old. i loveeee them. not all la, but wil try mega hard.
man the redemption booth at the childrens camp ytd, and it was hell lot of fun. hehs. so many cuties..
its gonna be a busy week in sch, and im already dreading tues. sigh. lets get it over and done with.
mahjong and star awards laters yeeps.
im feeling a bit sore/blue abt not asked to participate in the skit etc for christmas rally, as well as ccis.. perhaps im someone who likes attention as well. kept forcing myself to laugh it off when i hear them practice the carol, blah. owell.owell. nvm. i guess theres a reason for all that happen.
anyway i just realised how much i love my churchmates. young/old. i loveeee them. not all la, but wil try mega hard.
man the redemption booth at the childrens camp ytd, and it was hell lot of fun. hehs. so many cuties..
its gonna be a busy week in sch, and im already dreading tues. sigh. lets get it over and done with.
mahjong and star awards laters yeeps.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
finally got all the pics of the scrapbk uploaded to the pc. seriously im damn proud of this work of art for twinnie! hehs.. and of cos special thanks to nick, aud, fish and suaty for making this possible! if only they will do the same for me! haha.. remember how i yearn for a hand made card year after year fr them.. but i nv seem to get it. owells. shall drop huge hints nxt time round. hehs.
have been playing mahjong for the past 2 nights with the chungs, and i've lost all $420 worth of chips to them! ahhhhh. hehs. not that i cant play well or what ok. it just happened that im in an unlucky streak! BOO. hehs.
one more week and turbs will be BACK!!! yay!
Friday, November 25, 2005
everyone is going overseas. eve gg korea. adel gg korea. sijie gg states. hawk+family gg china. then taiwan and hongkong.lalallala. and im gg nowhere. im gg singapore. is that cool or what? even mei might be gg china for wk nxt yr!
was at dynamics of tourism lect today.. and it was on modes of transportation. and im like ahhhhh i wanna go on orient express! so niceee. romance on a train journey! woohoo.. then was attempting my tut and there was this article on future advancemt on rail.. i saw this singapore to london ticket! super cool! i wanna be on that. by hook or by crook.
starting to ponder what i shd do aft i grad. sigh. everything seems to be so bleak at the moment, studying is probably out of the picture. working//too lazy. sigh. but i kinda like the idea of graduating at a young age, cos i deem working at 19 to be real cool n happenin. lol. big dreams out there. mayb i shd just go be a tour guide. cos i jus dont see myself cooped up in a tiny cubicle 9-6 daily. life.. thats life! so many decisions to make, so many things to decipher. yet it is fragile. cos u just dont know whats gonna happen next. and most of the time, there aint too much time for u to know whats happening.
i jus realised how fridays are so precious to me now.
i miss twinnie!!! so much so much. want to rant everythg to her. sigh. confidante gone. sobs.
was at dynamics of tourism lect today.. and it was on modes of transportation. and im like ahhhhh i wanna go on orient express! so niceee. romance on a train journey! woohoo.. then was attempting my tut and there was this article on future advancemt on rail.. i saw this singapore to london ticket! super cool! i wanna be on that. by hook or by crook.
starting to ponder what i shd do aft i grad. sigh. everything seems to be so bleak at the moment, studying is probably out of the picture. working//too lazy. sigh. but i kinda like the idea of graduating at a young age, cos i deem working at 19 to be real cool n happenin. lol. big dreams out there. mayb i shd just go be a tour guide. cos i jus dont see myself cooped up in a tiny cubicle 9-6 daily. life.. thats life! so many decisions to make, so many things to decipher. yet it is fragile. cos u just dont know whats gonna happen next. and most of the time, there aint too much time for u to know whats happening.
i jus realised how fridays are so precious to me now.
i miss twinnie!!! so much so much. want to rant everythg to her. sigh. confidante gone. sobs.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
i must admit its fast, cos its gonna be thursday in another halfie's time. today i shall put down the names of the people who have access to my blog. in random order...
yes, just 5, sweet and nice. anyway, smtimes i'll wonder if i had told the right ppl abt my address, but i swat it off with the wtheck attitude, cos its an online journal anyway, and i cant simply put a halt to ppl reading this. highlighted JC cos shes my faithful reader, according to herself, hopefully its a reliable source haha.
anyway. was emailing june chin//jc-white//elizabeth tan//snow-white//crystalwhite//i wanttt//coffeeturncold//pools of bethesda// abt tt issue. and then called her up ta chat. thankful for u girl, cos u sure are 1 differnt friend whom i take on altogether! and some of my deepest darkest secrets actually lie with her.. trust her 101%. looking bk, realised its all possible bcos of Him. there can be no denial. fr the first time we met at marina sqr, nt even knowing hw the other party look like, but havin trust in the Lord that He brings His ppl together! hee.. anyway, we've got a sizzling hot date cmg right up, cant wait already, haha.. sigh. keep me in prayers regarding tt issue k, cos its sure bogging me down.
sigh. and smthg is wrong with my lappy. cant access certain websites. and msn too. sigh. my common tool of communication is gone. nw i can only rely on my faithful gmail who havent gave up on me. haha.
it has been chilly these few days, and im deprived of the sun. sigh. but i enjoy the coolness in a way or so. hmmm. may sun in e day, then chilly at nite? haa. machiam i king.
my mama is way too happenin man.. always out nowadays.. sing song la, fren's son's fren bday dinner she also invited, fashion show, cell grp, prayer mtg, blah.. smhw her life is too happening.. haha.. but gd la. i wanna be like her at tt age too! gg out and have fun, nt stuck at hm and be haggardy, knowing how to wash clothes and cook. nahnah.
saw my previous post abt camp. nothing is gg to stop meee. but now theres the bloody dt. is this a test of faith? hahha. shant read too much into it.
im gonna get that pair of shoes fr mitju. hehs. it appeared in the mag. shows how gd my taste is right. hahaa. i want retail therapy. when is my pay ever cmg in?!!! grrrrr.
random entry. random random.
june chin
jesselyn lim
pearlie teo
joanna ng
dorothy soo
jesselyn lim
pearlie teo
joanna ng
dorothy soo
yes, just 5, sweet and nice. anyway, smtimes i'll wonder if i had told the right ppl abt my address, but i swat it off with the wtheck attitude, cos its an online journal anyway, and i cant simply put a halt to ppl reading this. highlighted JC cos shes my faithful reader, according to herself, hopefully its a reliable source haha.
anyway. was emailing june chin//jc-white//elizabeth tan//snow-white//crystalwhite//i wanttt//coffeeturncold//pools of bethesda// abt tt issue. and then called her up ta chat. thankful for u girl, cos u sure are 1 differnt friend whom i take on altogether! and some of my deepest darkest secrets actually lie with her.. trust her 101%. looking bk, realised its all possible bcos of Him. there can be no denial. fr the first time we met at marina sqr, nt even knowing hw the other party look like, but havin trust in the Lord that He brings His ppl together! hee.. anyway, we've got a sizzling hot date cmg right up, cant wait already, haha.. sigh. keep me in prayers regarding tt issue k, cos its sure bogging me down.
sigh. and smthg is wrong with my lappy. cant access certain websites. and msn too. sigh. my common tool of communication is gone. nw i can only rely on my faithful gmail who havent gave up on me. haha.
it has been chilly these few days, and im deprived of the sun. sigh. but i enjoy the coolness in a way or so. hmmm. may sun in e day, then chilly at nite? haa. machiam i king.
my mama is way too happenin man.. always out nowadays.. sing song la, fren's son's fren bday dinner she also invited, fashion show, cell grp, prayer mtg, blah.. smhw her life is too happening.. haha.. but gd la. i wanna be like her at tt age too! gg out and have fun, nt stuck at hm and be haggardy, knowing how to wash clothes and cook. nahnah.
saw my previous post abt camp. nothing is gg to stop meee. but now theres the bloody dt. is this a test of faith? hahha. shant read too much into it.
im gonna get that pair of shoes fr mitju. hehs. it appeared in the mag. shows how gd my taste is right. hahaa. i want retail therapy. when is my pay ever cmg in?!!! grrrrr.
random entry. random random.
Monday, November 21, 2005
whee. its monday. and it was a good one. not much blues. hehs. holland v for lunch then off to breko. been eons since i last went there. still remembered how often i use to hang out there with e gang wen pea tok. but now its like everyone's so busy leading their own lives. hardly have much time tog.
wisp is driving me mad. esp when u have fucked up proj mates. haaa. what a bitch. oh well. i must learn to love. i jus wan thurs to come and go. and i sort of cant believe im gg to tea on fri with sj to meet the alumni peeps. realised its crap. but then again, it may be gd to socialise with more vips? hehs. take it as an eye opener to know more ppl.
i miss turbo so much! like they say absence makes the heart grows fonder! and it will be another 2 longgg weeks before she comes bk! sobs. and theres so much i want to rant to her abt. sigh. sigh. sigh.
celeb meis bday on sunday. so fun. surprise surprise! did the biscuits curl for her from 7pm til 12.30 am. bake it, dip iin choc, roll in pistacho nuts. yummss hahaha. and the cake was fabulicious, tho i dont like it cos its cheesecake. haha they were wanting for more! hehs. so glad she's happy. at least she wil know that im nt bias. tho i am. haaa.
so mad on saturday abt that bloody issue. why the hell must she blurt it out. argh. nvm. what said is said and cannot be undone.
and i break thru!! went for lunch with eunice. jus me and her. it was tough k, but im so glad she talked pretty much. guess she chooses to talk to certain ppl ---> thats me haha. was strugglin, cos apprehensive la. most of the time shes super quiet. nt quiet. perhaps just that she doesnt like to talk. hehs. breakthru. woohoo!!
and eus bday is ard the corner. and they were saying we shd prolly not celeb for her cos it wil be so awkward, and mayb like last yr, leave all the gifts in her house as a surprise. thot that wil be kinda sad but least that wouldnt be so awkward?! worstill, diam aint ard at this pt of time. sigh. she miss 2 bdays lehs.
ahhhhh. cant wait for 19th dec.
was remisnicng abt youth camp last yr. abt the stuff she shared under the covers. the stupid dilemma which im glad she made a smart choice. had to like keep knocking sense into her. and how i kept singing the songs. haaa. was gd. so glad i decided to skip sch during then to go. learnt much more. and hw we would sneak out to have decent meals when the cooked one sucked. then the www where we were both so sick with sore throat, and that silly sex position. so much funs. but this yr, got that stupid domestic trip. but then, im bent on going, so nothing is gonna stop me. i hope.
wisp is driving me mad. esp when u have fucked up proj mates. haaa. what a bitch. oh well. i must learn to love. i jus wan thurs to come and go. and i sort of cant believe im gg to tea on fri with sj to meet the alumni peeps. realised its crap. but then again, it may be gd to socialise with more vips? hehs. take it as an eye opener to know more ppl.
i miss turbo so much! like they say absence makes the heart grows fonder! and it will be another 2 longgg weeks before she comes bk! sobs. and theres so much i want to rant to her abt. sigh. sigh. sigh.
celeb meis bday on sunday. so fun. surprise surprise! did the biscuits curl for her from 7pm til 12.30 am. bake it, dip iin choc, roll in pistacho nuts. yummss hahaha. and the cake was fabulicious, tho i dont like it cos its cheesecake. haha they were wanting for more! hehs. so glad she's happy. at least she wil know that im nt bias. tho i am. haaa.
so mad on saturday abt that bloody issue. why the hell must she blurt it out. argh. nvm. what said is said and cannot be undone.
and i break thru!! went for lunch with eunice. jus me and her. it was tough k, but im so glad she talked pretty much. guess she chooses to talk to certain ppl ---> thats me haha. was strugglin, cos apprehensive la. most of the time shes super quiet. nt quiet. perhaps just that she doesnt like to talk. hehs. breakthru. woohoo!!
and eus bday is ard the corner. and they were saying we shd prolly not celeb for her cos it wil be so awkward, and mayb like last yr, leave all the gifts in her house as a surprise. thot that wil be kinda sad but least that wouldnt be so awkward?! worstill, diam aint ard at this pt of time. sigh. she miss 2 bdays lehs.
ahhhhh. cant wait for 19th dec.
was remisnicng abt youth camp last yr. abt the stuff she shared under the covers. the stupid dilemma which im glad she made a smart choice. had to like keep knocking sense into her. and how i kept singing the songs. haaa. was gd. so glad i decided to skip sch during then to go. learnt much more. and hw we would sneak out to have decent meals when the cooked one sucked. then the www where we were both so sick with sore throat, and that silly sex position. so much funs. but this yr, got that stupid domestic trip. but then, im bent on going, so nothing is gonna stop me. i hope.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
whoa whoa whoa. cant believe it. retail therapy can even take place in sch. all the bazaars. got the faded denim skirt which i have been looking for centuries ago. smmore so cheap, 15 dollars nia! and earrings too. sigh. im so mad abt earrings can. got another pair today with jess at tpy! earrings fetish. mayb sound kinda bimbotic here, but i cant help feelin that all the earrings i get and those that i already possess are all like damn stylo can. all very different fr the usuals. ahaa. and im so brokeee. when is sph ever gonna pay me?! *screams*
heartland shopping with my babes today. hahaa. ok la. i admit i can be too crazy at times. lame, noisy, auntie etc etc. i shall try to tone down before getting cursed by ppl!
sch is craps. taking too much of my time. beginning to loathe it. *pulls hair*
heartland shopping with my babes today. hahaa. ok la. i admit i can be too crazy at times. lame, noisy, auntie etc etc. i shall try to tone down before getting cursed by ppl!
sch is craps. taking too much of my time. beginning to loathe it. *pulls hair*
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
whoa. its wednesday.
tues. went over to twinnies hse and pass the sb to her. silly girl cried. ahaha.. and said she doesnt wanna go to aussie. -.- then she was packing her stuff and i fell asleep. damn. tendency to sleep at frens hse. weird. hehs. then she send me hm then said bye! one thing for sure, im gonna miss this babe like mad. already missing her absence already!
today. whoa. aint i proud of myself. 2 wholesome hours of tanning ALONE. like i say, im an independent girl. and the sun was fabulous. lurvve it. tho it was a tad too hot. shall not do it too often. skin cancer.
gonna play first keyboard on sunday again! woohoo. so excited. hope its nt all the conceitment. i just wanna play for God. to fully utilise what he have given me before he takes it back. wonder when sph will ever ever get me my pay. have been waiting like what seemed ages. checking my a/c every other day. have given up now, cos all i see is a $1.10 in my a/c. yes thats jus how pathetic i am.
im dying to go for a holiday. but nothing/no one can bring me there w/o money.
gonna see twinnie 3 weeks laters! yay.
tues. went over to twinnies hse and pass the sb to her. silly girl cried. ahaha.. and said she doesnt wanna go to aussie. -.- then she was packing her stuff and i fell asleep. damn. tendency to sleep at frens hse. weird. hehs. then she send me hm then said bye! one thing for sure, im gonna miss this babe like mad. already missing her absence already!
today. whoa. aint i proud of myself. 2 wholesome hours of tanning ALONE. like i say, im an independent girl. and the sun was fabulous. lurvve it. tho it was a tad too hot. shall not do it too often. skin cancer.
gonna play first keyboard on sunday again! woohoo. so excited. hope its nt all the conceitment. i just wanna play for God. to fully utilise what he have given me before he takes it back. wonder when sph will ever ever get me my pay. have been waiting like what seemed ages. checking my a/c every other day. have given up now, cos all i see is a $1.10 in my a/c. yes thats jus how pathetic i am.
im dying to go for a holiday. but nothing/no one can bring me there w/o money.
gonna see twinnie 3 weeks laters! yay.
Monday, November 14, 2005
when was the last time u hugged yr mama and u both cried together? it just happened to me last nite. was pondering how unfair God was, and i was just stucked when i said my routine prayer which doesnt even last for more than a minute. i didnt know what to say anymore. thank Him? that sounds kind of absurd. have been praying regarding the issue umpteen times. and we've waited for so long, faced the never ending disappointments. so i guess i need to take it down lke how i always do.
life is never fair. having lived for 19 years, ive nv been any further than thailand, and it was just a few hrs trip kinda thing cos i was on cruise and they made a stop there. ppl ard me are all gg to the states, to aussie, to korea, thailand, shanghai, taiwan, hongkong etc. and sm are gg to aussie like for the 2/3 time in a row this year. but i kept them all to myself. i nv once complained tho secretly in my heart, i wished that smone would bring me on a tour. or simply an air tix where i can go unwind in another lovely creation of God. but i was nv given the chance, and i think its time i stop fantasizing about all these. realised that its of not much pt,and in the end, all i get is an angry crack in my heart. and i kept asking God, i say why, why can't i just go on a holiday with my family jus like any other of my frens. but there was never an answer. perhaps im just wallowing in self-pity. imponderables.
perhaps i shouldnt even expect so much. afterall, who am i to be thinking of such issues?
sigh. i hate getting emo in the nite. its taking a bad bad toll on me. damnit.
life is never fair. having lived for 19 years, ive nv been any further than thailand, and it was just a few hrs trip kinda thing cos i was on cruise and they made a stop there. ppl ard me are all gg to the states, to aussie, to korea, thailand, shanghai, taiwan, hongkong etc. and sm are gg to aussie like for the 2/3 time in a row this year. but i kept them all to myself. i nv once complained tho secretly in my heart, i wished that smone would bring me on a tour. or simply an air tix where i can go unwind in another lovely creation of God. but i was nv given the chance, and i think its time i stop fantasizing about all these. realised that its of not much pt,and in the end, all i get is an angry crack in my heart. and i kept asking God, i say why, why can't i just go on a holiday with my family jus like any other of my frens. but there was never an answer. perhaps im just wallowing in self-pity. imponderables.
perhaps i shouldnt even expect so much. afterall, who am i to be thinking of such issues?
sigh. i hate getting emo in the nite. its taking a bad bad toll on me. damnit.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
first wk of proper sch with tutorials have been great. and i truly thank God for that.. all the people that He have planted in my life. some go some stay, but im glad for those who stayed. and have been spending time with dots too before she leaves for aussie on tues. was just wondering abt sm stuff, and i thot he was gonna send her off, and thats the case i wil sure follow. then he ask me hw and when im gonna pass the thing to her. wth la.
and i blogsurf and saw this nice pair of green birks. omg. is so pretty and i've set my eyes on it already. gonna get that once i get my pay. confirm plus guarantee chop. then again, i think its like duh to spend 99 buckeroos on a pair of slip ons. ahhhhh. but i had wanted to get it so so much.
theres the pirates party tmr, and also my mamas bday. but i aint too excited abt it la. aand i havent got aud's bday pressie. shit happens. ahaha.
i have 5 friends who knows my blogadd. haha wah what a nice number. FIVE.
and ive ran out of ideas for the SB, so im gonna rope in the others to help as well.
anyway im thankful that my dada loves my mama so much and vice versa. daddy called me when i was napping and asked if he shd get a cake tmr since he got that voucher, but hawk's gonna get it so told dad no need. so sweet right my churchmates.even my mama's bday is like their affair. smhw, im so thankful for each and everyone of them.thats hw different they are fr the rest of the world.
shall skip dt tmr and go tan with twinnie... and wil pray for good weather, so that nothing will thwart our bbq...
and i blogsurf and saw this nice pair of green birks. omg. is so pretty and i've set my eyes on it already. gonna get that once i get my pay. confirm plus guarantee chop. then again, i think its like duh to spend 99 buckeroos on a pair of slip ons. ahhhhh. but i had wanted to get it so so much.
theres the pirates party tmr, and also my mamas bday. but i aint too excited abt it la. aand i havent got aud's bday pressie. shit happens. ahaha.
i have 5 friends who knows my blogadd. haha wah what a nice number. FIVE.
and ive ran out of ideas for the SB, so im gonna rope in the others to help as well.
anyway im thankful that my dada loves my mama so much and vice versa. daddy called me when i was napping and asked if he shd get a cake tmr since he got that voucher, but hawk's gonna get it so told dad no need. so sweet right my churchmates.even my mama's bday is like their affair. smhw, im so thankful for each and everyone of them.thats hw different they are fr the rest of the world.
shall skip dt tmr and go tan with twinnie... and wil pray for good weather, so that nothing will thwart our bbq...
Monday, November 07, 2005
monday. no blues. happiee again cos i went out ta play with turbo.diaso followed by concourse. got my uber cutesy note pad! and the correction tape.hehs. cheap thrills.
have been pigging out and feasting like theres no tomorrow these 2 days. its horrendous. our appetites are humongous. lunch yesterday was pad thai at thai express, she had laksa, then we shared a ruby smthg, dinner was carls jr. huge burgers with rings, fries, zuchinnis. burp. lunch today was 2 big bowls of steaming handmade noodles, with carrot cake as side, as well as fried dumplings. -.- dinner was beef horfun at geylang, with calamari, straight after that we headed for soya bean with you tiao. -.-'
burp.
i want my bed.
have been pigging out and feasting like theres no tomorrow these 2 days. its horrendous. our appetites are humongous. lunch yesterday was pad thai at thai express, she had laksa, then we shared a ruby smthg, dinner was carls jr. huge burgers with rings, fries, zuchinnis. burp. lunch today was 2 big bowls of steaming handmade noodles, with carrot cake as side, as well as fried dumplings. -.- dinner was beef horfun at geylang, with calamari, straight after that we headed for soya bean with you tiao. -.-'
burp.
i want my bed.
ok sampat say must blog about happy things, then blogsurf less, and i will be a much happier person. so instead of lamenting on how bad things were, im gonna give it all a thumbs up! deprived of sleep nowadays, getting irritated by the slightest of things. grrrr. but still, i will blog abt happy stuff. so there u go.
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HAPPY.
hahaha.
ok thats craps. anyway was over at concourse cos auntie needed to get sm stuff, saw this uber cute notebk that i wil get tmr which is erm later in the day! by hook or by crook, and the other stuff which i can get for christmas! is like so exciting can. hehs. i can already feel the holiday spirits of Christmas! anticipating my 2 week break fr sch already. sheesh.. that will take effect on the 19 dec - 2 jan! is that cool or what. meanwhile, im gonna make the best out of everythg.
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im happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happyhappy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy.
HAPPY.
hahaha.
ok thats craps. anyway was over at concourse cos auntie needed to get sm stuff, saw this uber cute notebk that i wil get tmr which is erm later in the day! by hook or by crook, and the other stuff which i can get for christmas! is like so exciting can. hehs. i can already feel the holiday spirits of Christmas! anticipating my 2 week break fr sch already. sheesh.. that will take effect on the 19 dec - 2 jan! is that cool or what. meanwhile, im gonna make the best out of everythg.
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Saturday, November 05, 2005
have been spending the whole of friday cruising around with cher driving. went all the way to SP to eat pizza, thinking that it would be cheaper there but we were so wrong, so drove back ta bk timah plaze to eat pizza hut haha. how funny eh. got lift to church and did my tutorials there. omgoodness im so hardwking. wahaha. then got a lift fr turbo back home then bathe and waited for chers to come pick me up. cruised from bt timah to yishun, then to katong to fetch glen, then to changi to see bapoks! damn funs. love all the bapoks seeing sessions. haha. jus laugh my ass off. then off ta geylang for beancurd with youtiao! woohhoo yummy. realised we spend abt 3-4 hrs in the car. wth. then sent glen back then eve, then my turn then sijie.
today. oh wells. jus too shock by the words. being too close aint too gd at times. cos we take one another for granted. and tears. hated it. and she left just like that. saddening la. smtimes i think we are jus very silly pigs. to think weeping in the bus. i did it in the toilet. so thtas nt so bad. glad its cleared tho. lets hope our sunday will be a good one, cos saturday was already wasted.
i dont understand how some ppl can get so worked up easily.its like cmon get a life, and stop being so pissed at every single thing. we are brothers n sisters in christ, and what is it that we cannot resolve properly with the love of God. right! sigh. human beings.all the same. thats why we need God.
ive been waiting forever and my pay have not come in yet! sians. lets hope and pray that they didnt get the a/c number wrong cos if that happens, im gonna hang myself.=/
today. oh wells. jus too shock by the words. being too close aint too gd at times. cos we take one another for granted. and tears. hated it. and she left just like that. saddening la. smtimes i think we are jus very silly pigs. to think weeping in the bus. i did it in the toilet. so thtas nt so bad. glad its cleared tho. lets hope our sunday will be a good one, cos saturday was already wasted.
i dont understand how some ppl can get so worked up easily.its like cmon get a life, and stop being so pissed at every single thing. we are brothers n sisters in christ, and what is it that we cannot resolve properly with the love of God. right! sigh. human beings.all the same. thats why we need God.
ive been waiting forever and my pay have not come in yet! sians. lets hope and pray that they didnt get the a/c number wrong cos if that happens, im gonna hang myself.=/
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
and the first day of school came, and started with a bang! got a lift fr chers bf to sch. first lect was hotel n resort mgmt, they said the lectureer's cute, but to me it was jus so so.. haa his lecture was boring, but at least he's young, so thats nt too bad. seems easy. telling us all abt the diff hotels, hw many stars rated, blah.. then was air travel mgmt, which was kinda cheem. think must attend lect for that mod. then i think theres sm study trip during my camp wk, which is like wth la. sians. i wanna go camp. ugh.
lunch with sj eve n sjs frens. weird man. anyways, went to sijies hse to attempt baking cheeesecake. but we forgot to buy sour cream! ahhhh. so eve was searchiing online for sm other recipes, then sijie and i fell asleep. aha til 5 plus then me n eve left, sijie stil asleep. haa what a day. and im offf ta stay over at the chungs with turbo. gonna help nick color his hair. whoa.
hope this semester wil be a gd one man. kbox during 3 hrs break on fri. haaa all planned out! hehs. wonder when my pay wil ever ever come in! am super duper brokes nw. damnit.
lunch with sj eve n sjs frens. weird man. anyways, went to sijies hse to attempt baking cheeesecake. but we forgot to buy sour cream! ahhhh. so eve was searchiing online for sm other recipes, then sijie and i fell asleep. aha til 5 plus then me n eve left, sijie stil asleep. haa what a day. and im offf ta stay over at the chungs with turbo. gonna help nick color his hair. whoa.
hope this semester wil be a gd one man. kbox during 3 hrs break on fri. haaa all planned out! hehs. wonder when my pay wil ever ever come in! am super duper brokes nw. damnit.
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