thankfully. monday is over. and i've managed to chase the blues away. and the fact that nxt monday is a holi contributes to helping me cheer up a little.

thankfully the bestie is staying put at the hotel with internet access, so we can chat our way through the night, and the distance btw us doenst seem so far anymore.

the bestie has departed for PRC in the wee hours of the dawn. and im feeling lonely already. boo. ):

adding on to my agony is the excruciating pain from cramps, and the sucky blues of monday. yucks. i just wanna get it done and over with.

visited aunt at TTSH ytd. and its kinda sad to see her sitting on the bed, nt exactly able to move ard w/o help. sigh. i just for wisdom in doc to be able to diagnose with precision, so that she'll be fine soon. cos shes always so active/agile. i just hope that nothing goes wrong.

on another note, i gt bk result for Strategic PR & Planning, and yes, by GOD's grace, its a D. extremely thankful. and also to bestie who helped me so much for the assignments and presentation! xiexie.

to digress a little, was pissed with mei. she's on worship duty, playing drums, and 3 mins before svc starts, she called and said she forgot to set the alarm, and just woke up. sigh. isnt that a really irresponsible thing to do? smtimes i really wonder what goes inside their head. it is sucha terrible thing to do. i really am utterly disappointed la. hw can sm ppl just shrug things off like that? horrendous. but then again, who am i to judge? but i just cant help but feel like WTH!!! haha.

gt lessons later. double sianness. i need some beauty sleep.

once again we had sakae sushi, and to our horror, prices had rose, yet again! 2.29 for a plate of sushi. the standard color plates. guess we cant patron as much as we like now. prices are rocket high la! how to eat? sure pok gai. maybe we can DIY la huh. i cant wait to make out potato salad inari and the potato mackerel pumpkin croquette! wheee.

brought the bread i bot ytd to work and to my horror, there were ants in the bread cos of the sugar. ugh! but i tried to rid them and cont eating. moral of the story: never keep yr bread inside yr room. bad choice. ):

its friday today and im so darn pricked! in other words excited. but its a mixed feeling. cos i know the best fren is departing for PRC, soon. but i shall await the 24th with anticipation.

my prayers are with you love. may the good Lord keep you strong, grant you journey mercies, and may the r/s btw u and loved ones strengthen each day in His love. Stay bright and chirpy for me come what may. and im looking forward to see you 2 weeks later. HUGS & LOVE.

and when you are back, we shall have a wild time tog, celebrating bdays and doing lotsa fun stuff tog! and i sure hope u will come with me and pops to KL. that wil be awesome! dont u dare turn down my papa's invitation ya! we will bring you go eat the yummiest of bak kut teh, a brimming pot of rich soup brewed for many hours filled with lotsa mushroom, think fat juicy shitake, and delicate, silky enoki. and those crispy beancurd skin they throw into the soup, accompanied by crunchy lip-smaking dough sticks. not to forget the well-missed black hokkien mee, a tragic sin of fat noodles clothed in black sauce adorned by the crackling pork lard that melts oh-so-nicely on the tongue. the chee cheong fun, rice rolls wrapping parcels of shrimps, charsiew, soaked in sweet soy sauce, with a dash of shallots and spring onions. pop one into yr mouth and it will send shivers down yr spine. let us not forget the rojak, dominated by cut fruits - green mangoes, papayas, cucumbers, pineapples. the think black paste of molasses and prawn paste are then mixed to perfecto before adding the fruits, taupok, and crunchy dough sticks. then a dash of crushed peanuts and a generous topping of crunchy crackers will round it up nicely.

ok. i shall stop. cos im salivating non-stop already. wakaka.

blessed weekend huns. XOXO.

Blackout in the office! apparently the power tripped. so there. but thankfully, the lights over at my area is wking. so im living in the light! just that earlier on there was no aircon, but nw its reinstated. wheee. no more sweaty sticky pits! haha.

the bestie acc me to shop for presents for the classmates. so in the end we stock up sm treats fr marks and spencer. if u happen to read this, u had better wait for me before starting on the ROAST BEEF AND ONION chips! else i will stuff yr mouth with smthg nasty! heehee.

then had the much missed carl's jr for dindin, loved the onion rings and zuchinni! then went bk to bestie's hse, then she drove me back, but then we decided to go pack tau huay, so we zipped ard to find the beancurd plc at Rochor. which we literally cruise for like 1 hr altogether on the roads. madness.

jus wanna spend more happy times together.period.

It's MONDAY.

1.12pm. and my monday blues hasnt even the slightest hint that it will vanish. ):

eeks leh. why did God create mondays? its jus the most saddening day of the wk. sobs.!

pass week was extremely eventful. so eventful it was scary. i just pray that God make me a better person. am going to try to do nice to everybody!

sorry my dearest friend, for the incessant tortures from me. spiritually/physically/mentally. when i thought of the things i did in the car that night, i too, was horrified of myself. forgive me.

thankfully, God made things right in the end.

new module awaits me. another 1.5mths of battle before i can take a break. we'll see how it goes ok. (:

may God keep the ones i love beside me. don't take them away from me pls.

i've lost track of time. it passes so fast, and tmr comes 1st of May. like hello, 1/3 of the year had disappeared just like that.

looking back, its all thanksgiving besides thanksgivings. say work, His providence. Wasn't what I had in mind, ain't alot of money, but the ppl are awesome. School, had been relatively well in context of results. and the ability to juggle btw work and sch. tough at times, but He gave me the strength to persevere on. Having said that, life in church is like rolling down the slope. i find it so hard to catch the momentum. still, im trying, with help from above and the one who's always beside me. constant encouragement is all i need. being in the worship ministry, given the ability to serve has been great. but often i take it for granted, and i fume at the slightest reason. smtimes hidden agendas blurred my vision, and it becomes a display of what i have to show. which i must all repent for it. family has been great, despite a almost non-existent r/s with the sibling. pops are awesome, as always, and im truely thankful for that. and especially the providence of my sch fees. cos i know since im the one who wanted to study, i shd go all out and support myself. but the pops are so nice, wking hard to pay my sch fees so that i can study in peace. friends, always an essential part of my life. i must say i've lost some. perhaps i havent been trying hard, i don't know. or probably as we grow up, mentality differs, views change, and i find myself unable to catch up with them in the rat race. and perhaps is the reason why i cont to grasp tightly to the ones i find worthy. thankful for the best friend, who has became a family fren. the constant shower of love, understanding, and even just by being there. i may nt have mention, but my heart is smiling each time i think of what u've done for me, and how our frenship has blossomed these yrs. its truly amazing, the kind of telepathy,psychic powers.

pardon me for the long post. just wanted to let my fingers run free and share the sudden outburst of emotions which i gotta let out. strange, cos i didnt expect to touch on all these.

its Labour Day tmr. have a good rest my loves.

im just gonna unwind and let my hair down. (:

hello. am back. after what seemed like a hiatus? hmmm actually its jus pure busyness with all the mugging for exam. which i must say the paper came as a shock and a disappointment as well. kinda tough the questions. but now that its over, i will pick myself up and nt brood and linger in the sucky mood.

the best fren has been amazing.gestures so sweet. i am so touched. brought ice cream fr daily scoop and surprised me when i was feeling so stressed up and bogged down with exams and was craving for sm comfort. and suddenly the phone call came, and nxt thing i know, DING DONG! she was there, at my doorstep. the very nxt day yet another sweet surprise, yummy muffs fr Choc and Spice, piping hot, all the way fr tanjong pagar. when u have such fab frens, u'd realise that u dont need any other thing!

wilfy's wedding on fri night was great, nice lomantick ambience n music. company was great, tho there were sm nt very pleasant times, but at the end of the day, the rainbow sneak out to embrace us in the wee hours of the dawn. trigger happy moments. (:

lazy sat, had yummy mcgriddles again, then went swimming before the music min mtg. over to JP and gt skirts at a steal! 1.90! madness. hehs. then the best friend came over for a slumberthon.

svc on sunday and the much dreaded mtg. sigh. i dont know what to feel anymore. poof.

sigh. i cant help but get envious of those who always get to jet set. damnit. boss is gg darwin like friday. boo.when will my dream ever ever come true?

this weekend was crazy. really crazy.

have been burning midnight oil toiling thru the proj. met up with the rest on friday. prior to that had retail therapy again! at little india. haha. tank tops going at 50cents per piece! can u believe it? my gosh. and sm nice transparent rubber flats which ive gotten a pair for twinnie as well.

then saturday morn we took the car, went to get macs breakfast- mcgriddles! was absofkinglutely yummilicious can! the maple syrup infused muffins were fab fab FAB! wheee. hungry nw. then went exchange shoes and had lunch at little india! woohoo. mei brought us to Komali Vila and we had fantastic poori and thosai! was humongous! shall post sm pics soon or smthg.

then back to shiqis pad for proj. wanted to buy lana cake but ran out of it. so got a mango strudel. then when at her plc, this bitch was trying to pick up a fight with me and frens jus cos she was the sub-editor but her name was taken out and placed elsewhr. wtf. i was seriously pissed. then after fren talked to her, she woke up her idea. but stil as bitchy in my opinion. then we went back. took a cab back cos super tired, smore we didnt have dinna! madness.

then talked to babe on phone, and realised i left her laptop in the taxi! i wept buckets. literally. for a whole hour i kept crying til there's no tmr. so today i had super puffy and swollen eyes. madness. triple eye-lids . haha. think it actually makes my peepers bigger. and ma said that i shd cry every sat night. SIAO. but anyhw, i was so scared shit outta my ass, cos i was afraid that dot wouldnt want me anymore. that this whole saga wil either make or break our frenship. boo. so i kept crying. then when i was checking online the cab hotline to call, my hands were shaking! then told one of my mates, and she told the other girl, and in the end fren called my and said i left the laptop at her house! AHHHHHHHHHHH. i wanted to shoot and kill myself. sigh. am i forgetful or what. but sure GOD was faithful. He made me learnt many lessons. but after i know it was there i was still crying like siao. suffering from shock la!

then now, stil pia-ing the project. pui. but i really appreciate the best friend for fetching me here and there. despite it being none of her biz. just that we were supp to meet like later but she has to go for dinna with family. but well, family is always more treasured than frens ah. haha. perhaps im post-pmsing. just feeling sad. sigh. supposedly gg out for dinnna. but stomach is like rumbling now. boo.

its monday tmr. and there's work. but imfeeling soooooooo tired. but cant take leave for mon and tues cos the paycheque's issued till 15. sians. i neeeed rest........

and food. byebye.

whoa. it's like friday. time crept up so silently i didnt even realise.

but there's proj mtg tonight. and tomorrow! yikes. and the girls are feeling bitchy, keep having stupid conflicts. really stupid ones.

i gt back my assignments. did pretty well. way above all my mates. im so thankful. and happy. and thankful again. thanks to all those who helped me in a way or another. wouldnt have been possible w/o their help.hehs. so happy, im jumping for joy. so im hoping for a distinction for that module. woohoo.

things aint exactly too smooth at home. its the devil at work. sigh. ireally really hate my brother. he seems to always make all of us upset in a way or another. sians.

exam is in like 2 weeks time. and i havent started studying! bah. and i think its gonna be so tough. she doesnt seem like a v lenient marker. let's just hope that i can get down to mug soon. i really hope to ace well through this entire course man. make my pops happy.

the weekend is here. savour it~! XOXO.

i woke up feeling blue, cos why? its monday.

i really abhor mornings you know. esp when one has to work. SIGH. why can't the weekend be longer? sobs. i wish all good things didn't have to come to an end.

was on the phone with bestie last night, was complaining to her how my fren keep telling everyone that she and her bf break up. like broadcasting to the world. sigh. im so tired abt this whole issue. why is it that every topic has to be abt bf, sex etc etc? just feel like crawling into a hole and hide. probably that's the reason why i haven't initiate any meet-up with my other frens besides church ppl. its all superficiality and pure shallowness. the thought of it is revolting. almost felt like throwing up when i was washing up this morning. all the funny thoughts of being in this rat race is making me sick. everything we see is so so plastic! sobs. i don't like it. sigh. but yet i found myself being trapped in it at times. sigh. smtimes i wish God will just come and take me away altogether. there seems to be no other way out.

nthing substantial ever arise from convo with ppl ard me. its all abt BF, SEX, JOB, MONEY, INCOME, CLOTHES, BLAH. i am so so sick of it! yucks! sobs.

i just want to go back to the very basics.

i am so freaking bored at work. and its basically because i have nothing to do. sigh. smtimes i wish my wk will never stop so that 5.30 will be here before i know it. but i shall spend time to start mugging for my paper already. just flipped thru the past yr papers and its so bloody difficult. this time i think sure die. =X

on another note. i gt my result today for reading media text module. the module which i have so little confidence in, cos of sm screwups during presentation etc. but God, who was ever faithful gave me a distinction for it. got 78mks leh! what a joke right! highest among the 3 results i gt back so far. smtimes i think God is really humorous. so besides thanksgiving, it is still thanksgiving la.

hope i can keep up with the good work. if only i had study much harder since young. ugh. too late for regrets. nvm.

out for lunch with adel at clementi cos she wanted to get sm files fr big bookshop.but sold out. so just had lunch, her treat again. so nice. i feeling paiseh leh. i really did tried to pay but she always forbid me to. sigh. shall get her a big pressie when i say byebye worldkitchen.

its friday. but im nt as exhilarated as before. because...
1) it will come and go so fast, i don't even realise its existence
2) sucky proj mtg which i know will be super unproductive.

B.O.O.

then on thurs, classmate ask me help her buy sausage so i did. and its like she never even attempt to pay me back. sigh. honestly, its nt the money that mattered, but i just dont like this kinda "pai2kuan4" attitude. i think its a really ugly trait. and the other day when i bought water for her too. she just conveniently forgot cos she was on the phone. so now, once bitten, twice shy. i've learnt to play it smart.

but when i thought of all these, i rem smwhere in the bible where it goes like: if someone slaps you on the right cheek, offer yr left cheek to them too. i know im over-reacting/exaggerating. but yeah, at least i was the victim, and i was "cheated", not i cheat you.

its just a few dollars. i know. but this yucky character of yrs just turns me off. and also when u keep rattling abt yr life, abt yr bf, abt hw this guy is after u. honestly, yawns. bugger off. its nt like im jealous. but u are so self-centred. and the topic keeps revolving ard you. EWWWW. gross. am gonna put an end to all these!

colleague is gg to states. how i wish it was me.

i think my greatest dream ever, for now, is to travel. smwhr outta SEA. hopefully say America, Australia, Europe. and i will die happy.

but no worries, i know a dream's a dream, and the reason it remains a dream because a dream is something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence.

source: www.dictionary.reference.com/browse/dream

2 things that I told myself in the past week

1) I will not measure myself according to the standards that the world has set for me.
2) I will not allow anyone to hurt me.

food for thought eh, hmmm.

went for a haircut, looked the same as before. over to Raffles City to check our Shokudo, that marche concept Japanese Food Bazaar. but the queue was seriously crazy. So went to PS, had Ichiban, which ain't too nice. late dinner, had gastric, so even the yummiest of food wouldn't turn me on. HAHA.

Got a lift home, but it wasn't a pleasant end to the night. It's occuring too often. And i don't know what triggered me to react the way i did. sigh. instant guilt. its scary hw my mood changes within split seconds and then spillover effect to ppl whom i love dearly. Besides Sorry, its still SORRY.

classes tonight.what a dread,drag too. am so tired, perhaps i will give it a miss. bleah. I am so not in the mood!

was googling forums/blogs on Shokudo, and it does seem like they serve the loveliest of food there at affordable rates. damned, we shdve gone there ytd.

on another note, its thursday. shudders. scary how time flies.

mug hard June! (:

and one week later, the best friend is coming back! woots~! heehee. then i won't feel so lonely anymore. and then i can rant about anything and everything to her! my partner in crime!

anyhw, met with a nasty encounter on sat. it was definitely gross. yucks. scary too. thankfully had 8other classmates with me.

here the story goes:

We left a teammate's pad aft discuss our proj. so me and 7 other girls went off, all heading towards the MRT. we stopped along the street to grab some drinks before making our way to the MRT. i was walking in the front, and suddenly i heard this CHINESE AH JEK IN HIS FIFTIES on my right making some "noise", kinda ushering us towards his direction, since he was obviously trying to get our attention. and to my much horror/disgust, he was fiddling with his cock. it was hanging out and he was shaking it, wanting us to see!!! SCARY AND GROSS la! then 2 other girls saw it too, but the rest didnt. Little India sure is one hell of a scary place with MAD ppl! we contemplated calling the cops, but we didnt in the end. sigh. procrastination la. then we wanted to head back and all take out our cameras and start snapping pics of his bird. asshole!!!

super suay lor. i dont want anymore of such deals pls!

now twinnie and i sama sama liao. cos she met a flasher before too! LOL.

then on the very same day, i got 2 dresses, 2 pairs of shoes, and 2 skirts, all for the good deal of 53bucks! cheap or what?! hehhehs. and those things i gt were lovely!

but i shall quit being sucha shoppaholic.

on another note, church camp looks uber fun. they screened the slide show with a pic of times square and the image of twinnie and me on the roller coaster appeared at the back of my mind. fond memories it brought me. but sadly, most prob i can't make it cos of the exam on the last day of camp. sigh. saddening la. ): first time in 10yrs leh that i cant go for church camp.boo.

i want to jetset smwhere! wonder why i always feel so jealous upon receiving emails from the elf n pixie. just cant help but get jealous at the fact that they are having a gd time in sweden, and even have a chance to go jerusalem, bethlehem. blah. bleah. ):

the best friend has left for Haikou aka Hainan Island! my hometown too~! hehs.

and i miss her so! )':

back since she's nt around, I've got to be much more independent, cos I am relatively quite independent already, HAHA.

it's friday today, did u realise? don't u think the speed at which time flies is scary? sometimes i wish i had 36 or even 48 hours a day. i wonder how time escapes when we aint noticing.

proj mtg tmr and im so not looking fwd to it. just wanna quickly get it done and over with. hate all the conflicts and politics. eeks. why can't we all just work in harmony? sigh. but 9 girls is too crazy already. ohwells. i just want sunday to come la! so can relax & chill. hoping to play abit with Thaddeus and the other toddlers. perhaps i shall go get smthg nice for Thad! wheeee* at least i have smthg to look fwd to.

ok, gotta get my ass back to work already!

GOD is so good. He made me sooo busy with work such that time passses by so quickly and that i won't miss the best friend so much. (:

Maundy Thurs, Good Friday, Easter Sunday all came and gone. in a whizz! sadness now.

spent lazy fri at novena. once again, we jetset to a new place. and the cool thing was we attempted to walk back from novena to babe's hse. but towards the last leg, i was dead tired and so we took a bus. but we walked for a whopping 1.5hrs at least! what a feat!

lazy sat, wanted to do those chips dipped in choc, but as usual, we didn't succeed! HAHA. what's new? we're jinxed. so in the end we pack the room, and took out all the farnie clothes! and decided those that are going to the flea mart.

bad start to a day, but a good end to the night.

played for svc ytd and as usual, i screwed up once again. sigh. couldn't pass my own test, and so i broke down, yet again. but im fine now, will pick myself up and emerge stronger. am gonna let no one get me down.

had combined cell after, and topic was on sex. which kinda tickled me, hearing all the responses from the young ones. ! haha. so cute.

then we zipped to ridgewood for waffles and ice cream at Haato! new hangout place again.nice. but ice-cream and waffle was no show-stopping.

then zipped to Great World, park the car there, and we took a bus down to Paragon for Soup Spoon. i seriously think we spend too much on food. every meal seems to be so luscious and exp! we gotta start saving for rainy days! boo.

smtimes i get very blurred by the pack of dirty lies and secrets. i wish u would enlighten me.

the weekend was so short-lived! tsk.

i really enjoyed it! i really did!

pluck and summon all my courage, went to find bestie's pops at coffeeshop to hitch a ride home with them. thankfully, geoffrey was there to entertain me! HAHA. God has it all planned out nicely. i just want to try for u babe. and i promise i will work much harder. (: then afterwhich me, twin, and her mama went over to ikea for sm shopping! heehee. Mamasoo got a blender at a cheap deal, she seemed pretty exhilarated.! then we settled for dinna at Anchorpt! yummy pasta. cont shopping at the factory outlets there, got a top for mama! hee. and yeah, she liked it! and got another nice bag which was absolutely gorgeous! both twinnie and i loved it! and we gonna share share SHARE! (: went over to ikea only at 9pm, then walk ard till 11. got shot glasses, thought of making smthg nice for naomians for easter! also got the pretty white flower light! cos was gg at a song, only 7.90! then gt a nice laundry bag stand, gonna use it to store my bags and wrapping papers!


then saturday had music practice, then went brunch with twin and gracie. walked ard. then watched Rule #1 which wasnt too bad la. then had dinna the homed.

sunday was spent in town n city hall, filled with boisterous laughters, n great company! i laughed so much my stomach hurt! wakaka.. then had a spontaneous stayover at babe's plc. supposed to send me home but i decided to stay! lazy to get butt gg home. super farnie laughing matters while washing up too!! hahaaa.my partner in crime!

the above was drafted before lunch.

now after lunch, the feeling is entirely different.

my toothache is back.sobs. its the root canal coming back to haunt me once again. sigh. i really cant bear the thought of those endless sessions at the dentist, each time a painful experience. that is nthg. but the money to be spent is just too much for me to bear. sigh.w hy cant things be easier for me?

sobs.

once again, the weekend is here, right before my eyes. i waited forever for this day to come, but when it does, i'll let it slip past w/o even knowing it.

i wanted to be the editor for the magazine proj.but sm others jus self-volunteered. it's like yr english is so bloody lousy and u still wanna be editor? *rolls eyes. seriously, what is the world coming to? sigh. i know i might portray some kinda arrogant, ignorant, dominating bitch, but honestly all i wanted was for us to get a fantastic score for our proj! sigh. i really hope God wil make things wk. some titles they came up with for the food magazine are unbelievable. super stupid and lame. i mean, cmon, INTAKE as a title for food magazine? u seriously got to be kidding me. let's hope and pray they will like the ideas i have!

or mayb let's pray that God wil change me and make me a more cooperative person, less of myself and more of others. sigh. so confusing la! tsk. i hate it! GRRRR.

i need to catch up on my beauty sleep! have a blessed weekend girls! relish it while u can~!

XOXO, girl with endless unlaundered secrets* winks.

this is what i want. like NOW. grrr.

eeks! its monday. my most dreaded day of the week. hais.

decided to take 185 to wk today. cos it's only 1 stop from home to wkplc! can u believe it? just one stop! but must walk abit to jurong east to take. still, its darn fast but to my dismay, i waited 10+ mins for the bus! so was late! but only ard 10minutes. still, it means i have to go out earlier if i wanna take that bus. boohoo.

ytd we sang to our hearts content at kbox, so as to fulfill dot's wish. HAHA. no more kbox til 6mths later pls!

was feelg very pekchek,pissed n down during cell.s igh. i desperately need to find another cell. or even another church. i know i can blame no one for my spiritual dryness. but im really v tired towards this entire issue. sigh. perhaps its time i move on to better places where i can do greater things for God? hmmm.ugh. i don't know la, grrrr.

friday night at home. was eventful, even in that tiny little space. the brother, the mother. sigh. smtimes i wish she didnt give birth to him. real hateful thing. trust such words to come out fr his mouth. sigh. poor mama. i do hope God sees it and does smthg abt it. i dont like it when she gets hurt like that time n again.

its back to sch tmr. supposedly looking fwd to the module. but the thot of the proj > to produce a 64-page magazine is giving me the heebies jeeebiess already! ))):

i want the weekend!!! ))):

its the weekend today!

yesterday marks the 4th twinniversary! haha. yup. 3years and our psychic powers are brewing up a storm! heehee. had a very nice dinna at pasta cafe, courtesy to bestie. then we zoom zoom zoom to mustafa where she grab some food for stockup. stop having just oats babe.! conspiracy. u are ANOREXIC.

anw, as i was saying, its FRIDAY! friday leh! my fav day of the week can. cos we are so gg to mediacorp's wardrobe sale tmr! and theres breakie at macs, i do hope we can wake up.(haha) its just gonna be lazy and warm saturday out! i sure hope the sun will not fail us tmr. then we can perhaps go kayak with the elijahs! and snap! if m.mil cant make it today, i shall have a nice rest at hm first before heading over to babe's pad. anyhw, we tried us this really cute pjs from cotton on. made us look like we got pink measles! so cuteee~!

blessed wkend.

by afternoon, i learn to let go and let God, knowing that things are beyond my control. i learn not to take things too hard, i learn to forget unhappy things.

it felt funny having my pops over at the office cos they needed ma's help to tailor sm uniforms. haha. nice time showing them ard, introducing them to colleagues. hehs. feels strange at same time, but well, strangeness in a nice way.

was a bad morning la. damnit. gt onto the ever packed 189 with a million ppl in the bus. was standing all the way to the front and when the driver did a swerve, i lost my footing and stepped on smone. i pity that person. can u imagine having yr foot stomped by an elephant? ouch. that hurts.

and it doesnt get any better when i thot of things that made me unhappy. liar. who ain't a liar? smtimes i wish i can let go and see beyond, and let the good ride over the evil. the more i scoop, the more yummy stuff i discovered, but these yummy stuff are so cloying. i wish i hadnt even scoop them up in the first place.

and just when i was thinking abt u, u appeared. period.

its tootsday darling! and i thought it was monday. wakaka. cos i had monday off. which was shiokness, minus sucky fact tt i had to chiong my assignmt. thanks girl for helping me with it, sharing the burden as if its yr proj too. thanks. can nv thank u enough la. for staying up till 5plus in the wee hours with me. am thankful. wkend. zipped ard again in the cute little red button of franc, haha! went to Great World macs and spent hours on that dumb ass assignmt. bleah. afterwhich we saw leap years!! nice. so lomantick i tell u. sigh. but smwhat a dream la, as if such happen in reality. lazy sunday aft svc, hm again to pia the dumb assignmt. lazy monday, i took leave! shiokness man. then went submit assignmt (Like FINALLY) then to btp, had pizza! slurps.then went grocery shopping and damn we keep bumping into ppl we dont exactly wish to bump into. so we made a quick exit. wakaka. and i got some nice colorful bags! with stickers. happy leh. cheap thrills!!! but the going home part was scary. we bumped into smone whom kinda resembles what KASTARI might look like! prior to that when we were walking to the bus-stop, sm lady was like running to btp. and when we turn to look at him, he too, to our horror, turn back, stopped walking and stared at us! and he was clad in dark clothes, with a cap pulled over his eyes. scary. and kinda walking with a slight limp. ahhhhh. we couldnt really identify him, so didnt call the police. but he sure is scary.

sigh. i know im getting over-paranoid. but who can i blame? the fact that a terrorist is roaming the streets and can just appear anywhr with a bomb is driving me bonkers. i sure hope and pray he be caught soon. think i'll have nightmares with his face passing every nw and then. grrrr.

its back to work today, and 1 week of break before school starts again. am gonna make sure i party hard!

notice the updates and all? perhaps ive taken a liking to blogging. or maybe im too bored.

as i was walking up the stairs for lunch, the sunlight was unbelievable awesome. adel said: wah today's sun very strong eh". then suddenly i had this wish of being able to soak up the sun, to be out there, having fun, heading to the beach, heading to the pool. i really do miss those times where we could do such so freely. of cos i need to work and support myself, but boy do i wish for say a week of break! then again, its prolly 1 more mth(max) at world kitchen, and its byebye WK, hello happy days again. which also means tt i need to get a new job. hais. life really is a paradox. smtimes i dont even understand why the necessity for the passing of each day. ):

i had a great time of unwinding ytd. we zipped ard the sub-urbs, went for prata at Fongseng, went for indian rojak at west coast, nostalgic i tell u! miss my sec sch days already. )': then we rounded the trip off with a stop at west coast park. and we had so much fun there. ridding, sliding, climbing. and we actually saw FROGS amidst the sand! madness. 3, THREE FREAKING FROGS. scary leh! they were like camouflage, cant really spot them. was so scared i'd step on them. eeks. and RORO actually said they might be PRINCES in disguise. like wth. say if i kiss them mayb the frog will turn into a prince. that's what u'll get when u have frens reading too much into a fairytale. haha. WAKE UP! anyhw, there's an extra 2 frogs for u to choose from also. so there. we'll take 1 each and leave the remaining one alone.

on another note, i haven't get started for the project. and this time, im really really clueless as to whr to begin. cham already.

revival mtg. do hope i'll get sm sort of encouragement in a way. bye and have a blessed wk ahead.

may friday be here soon, lest i smell it! (:

i scream "modular break!" wheee. its overrr! and i get 2weeks of R&R before another mad frenzy awaits me! but then, i'll be lookg forward cos its the Magazine Writing and Production module! smells like fun, albeit the sucky fact that i probably gotta do tons of writing. still, im gonna go have a wild time. had the test(40%) ytd. thankfully, it was relatively alright, cos i eh, uh, didnt exactly study for it! heehee. and once again i left the earliest. really do hope my classmates don't think im proud/snobbish or anythg.

weekend was goot! i had fun with loved ones. (: and it was so justified for i was thirsting for it like a dog. HAHA. supp to go swimming at delta on fri but we didnt made it in the end. day was turning dark, started drizzling. so we settled for a hearty, healthy, wholesome meal at tiong bahru mkt! Roro finally had her SHARKS MEAT lor mee.

saturday: went for lecture in the morn, and left shortly after to rescue Roro from the clutches of the pixie's sista. who can be equally toxic.! haa. its so obvious that she was so crestfallen when she saw me. oops. haha. and i actually felt good abt me. man, i know i can be a real bitch at times. then aftward mei, dennis n weijian had a spin in twinnie's daddy's new car! a spanking red mazda 2! heehee. so funns. i think i've smwhat fallen in love with that cute little red button.woots. afterwhich we zip ard town with gracie cos she needed to buy sm groceries etc! and it was retail therapy yet again! last week itself i gt 5tops and a dress. scary. i need to STOP spending and start saving for rainy days i know. and then gt eyelash curler from daiso, plus those cute little paper gift bags! and plum mints! then there was sale at chomel, which came as a shock cos we actually stepped in there. haha. it was a off-our-usual shop kinda thing. but they actually had sm really pretty tops and dresses, all going at a song! whee.e a fruitful day with cheap thrills.

svc n cell on sunday. then we caught JUNO, which i found very endearing and heartwarming. discourses were all so witty and entertaining. niceee. (:

and its back to work ): and back to assignment 3, back to revival mtg tmr. period of lent.

the very much sought after/craved for/awaited F-R-Y-D-A-E is finally, i repeat, FINALLY here! i have 0 idea why, but i seriously have been looking forward to this day. probably bcos the week was a tiring one, zapping and draining all energy off me. and perhaps the previous wkend was insanely packed with a million worries. oh wells, im just glad its friday once again. tho its gonna be super short-lived. stil, im glad. and i can at least let my hair down a little, party and rest.

i love shopping. shopping does wonders. its makes me exhilarated. its like all the happy endorphins starts swimming around in a frenzy. shopping is so therapeutic. be it a small piece of sticker, a bday banner, a silly octopus toy, a dress, whatever. i really derive lots of satisfaction by it. sigh. much to contrary, christians aint supp to be caught up with all these materials of the earth. ohwell. i dont know. guess i will try not to be overly obesessed with it. just wanted to emphasize the kind of joy.

that aside, i need some encouragemt for my horrible / almost non-existent spiritual life. i need a little boost and a little prayer. it seems so tough to even find time. everyday's about work and school, and playing a little. smtimes i wonder how i can have the cheek to leaf thru a magazine, or flip the papers yet am always procrastinating and pushing God's word aside. i need to repent, and start doing smthg soon. otherwise, i can forget getting into the kingdom.

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some people try so hard to get things they want but often they dont get it. some without trying, it just comes to them so easily. ): food for thought. sigh.

time for an update! its sch n wk this week, in betweens sandwiched with mini shopping time! gt nice tops over at westmall! so chio right dot! haaa.prob wanna go exchange sm dress today.hmm. that is if the bestie doesn't want it.

did lotsa manual labour, packing those leftover stock the company had, to be distributed for a whopping 3 hours. madness. can feel the ache today. ugh. tired! am thankful its thurs already. i need a breakkk! riyoki has gone home, home feels kinda empty. haha. i've forged a bond with that velvety chinchilla for about 1mth or so. hehs.

i really do appreciate the fact that smone much more seniority that me seeks my opinions for her nail colors, shoe color, clutch bag, etc! sounds v bimbotic i know but i like it tt way. helpg each other out regardless of age or whatever. (;

this is the 4857490818391832th time im gonna emphasize, i want a well-deserved break! a short getaway, an escapade, roadtrip, cruise, jet set to anywhere! pls bring me, pretty pls. )':

dear all, it's monday! another brand new beginning wk to challenges, work, school and evermore grace from above.

i haven't been the most faithful to God, havent been doing my quiet time for what seems like eons, and i haven't been praying much. but really, GOD has been ever gracious to me, making me learn to be thankful in all circumstances. His love is really UNCONDITIONAL.esp pertaining to my presentation on saturday. i do not deny it was freaking scary, and had butterflies in my tummy, to the extent that u feel the ache and wanna go bomb, which i did in the end, jus slightly before my presentation. but i so felt the peace from God during the whole 3mins of presentation!! wheee. hee. can u imagine talking in front of some 50ppl? was really horrifying, but i managed to breeze thru it, and even earned a 'interesting' from my lecturer! woohoo. i was pretty sure i was the first one he ever said such, and boy am i grinning fr ear to ear when i heard that. woots* but really am thankful to God for providing such a great fren, dot! that girl gave me all the great ideas, found all her grpmate's previous projs and emailed me so that i didnt have to do much research. and all those wk she sent me were distinctions! thank u so much babe. for staying up with me at macs til about 3am on fri night, for being with me, giving me soooo much support, for initiating to bring yr laptop, thumbdrive, lending it to me, being so involved as tho it was yr presentation, and for helping me so much in the entire proj! i am so ashame when i thot of the times when i snapped at u, and got irritated and pekchek, and cranky with u. i apologise here. but really, u the best babe! XOXO (:

other than that, wkend was pretty awesome. tho super shagged! only caught 3 hrs of sleep on fri nite. went over to ahmei's house for minibbq n steamboat on the hot plate! hee. had fun with eug,mei,suats n twin. was a cosy affair. i like it this way. i think i kinda prefer the "the less the merrier" idea. haaa.fun time of sharing and cooking, and we were all stuffed to the brim, busted! had custard apple too, was absoyummilicious! then gt angbao from mei, sm goodies she brought bk for us fr taiwan and nice shades, tho twin's one was kinda SONG2. still, we had fun! then took the 1130 66 from her pad to twin's plc then i took a cab home cos was so freaking lethargic. boo.

ytd we brought charmaine n mooncher out and i almost want to kill them when they couldnt come to a concensus as to where to have lunch. damnit. i always tell myself nv to bring them out but smhw the heart will soften, and we'll say yes, and regret soon after. wth. life's a contrary bitch la. but really wanted to strangle n kill them! grrr. thanks babe, for being with me and staying on, and taking charge. sorry for blowing my top off at u. ):

went hm early last nite,slept from 7-10, haha! i need it very much. am feelg more refreshed n recharged now. and my mama is bonkers la. gt sm dinner tonight and keep asking if i gt clothes she can wear, and keep disturbing me when im trying to fall asleep! tsk. but im glad we can share clothes!!! haha tho she said she aint sure its a gd thing or not. cos either 1) she put on weight or 2) i lost weight. but cant be the latter so haha not so gd for her!

anw, blessed wk ahead babes (:

ello, happy well-lantern's day! Mei u bee more row man thick, sack sea, bee tea full, loaf lee n at track teeth. heehee.

i had an awesome pre-valentine's/frenship day surp from adifferentdot. hee. went all the way to get a rose from holland v fr me. hw sweet. (: not forgetting the balloon and super cute card! such an apt card, with one of our fav songs "you light up my life" what a nice surprise! hee. and God made it happier by giving me another DISTINCTION for my theories of communication and persuasion module! wheee!

hee and i shall proudly attach a pic of it! am so thankful to God for making all these possible. juggling work with sch hadnt been so smooth n easy but He made it happened. am glad.

back to work on tues, and have been getting angbaos!! hee. tues from adel, wed from angie n beeling, thurs fr cuzzie, and today from sophia n belin. wahahaa. so nice ya. sweet gestures.

and being the sweet me, i gt nice little boxes of chocs and gerberas for the classmates and the bestfren! all in diff hues of pink. i luv gerberas! but i really abhor the auntie's attitude of hurrying me when i had to do the wrapping myself. HELLO u are supp to do it for me, im the customer lor! grrrr.made me so kanchiongfied. bleah.

went IMM during lunch ytd, grabbed all the pressies. was madness. but really, God is like 'scary' at times. He made things which seemed so far, so impossible, POSSIBLE! God really hears our wishes and prayers, no matter how insignificant we feel they are. so there!

anyhw, 29feb marks the last day of work for me at worldkitchen. shd be quite confirmed. hmmm. mixed feelgs. ugh. means i have to get my ass to start scouting for a job. new changes, new faces. damnit, hate that kinda phase. eeks. but for now, im elated its friday. tho i have classes tmr and the sucky 3-min presentatn. just pray that i wont talk at warped speed pls.

im dying for a holi, a short getaway, an escapade, a roadtrip. whatever.

was blogsurfing, happen to bump into this girl's blog which i'd thot was permitting private viewing but apparently some updates are still up. her life seems to be sooo funn! mann. and she is so pretty and she has gorgeous clothes! how green i got. was thinking, looks sure mean everythg eh? it is so easy to get things in yr favour. mann. i always wonder and ask God why i aint born with the perfect set of teeth, the highest of nose bridges, the megawatt smile, the sparkling eyes. but i realise, damn, ive nthg to complain. and who am i to complain?

that aside, CNY has been amazing so far. it has been mtg of same grp of relatives for the past 3 days but i really really had a good time. its really smthg to be thankful for. for keeping us so closely together after all these years. despite rare meet ups. they make the most significant ppl in my life. but of cos am refering to mama's side. daddy's side are just more distant and aloof. i just enjoy the discourses btw my ma, aunt and cousins. always so funny! *warm and fuzzy feel* despite certain times of "dunnowhattodoness" cos my aunt tends to be so enthu abt sharing how good God is in her life that she smtimes dunno when she shd stop. i mean its good that she's so hyper abt it, but smtimes we gotta tone it down a little, and prolly be a lil more sensitive to others ard us? i dunno. i do applaud her for ever being so open, so awed by God's grace in her family. but smtimes she need to brake! hehs.

anw, i learnt not to complain la. cos grass always greener at the other side. and i reckon there will be no end to it. anyhw, i seriously think i've put on weight, and in accordance to wat my relatives said, i've double confirmed it. ugh. i really need to shed some pounds else i'll turn into 200POUNDS BEAUTY SOON! hahahaa...

and once again, time flieeeeeeeesssssss when one is hvg fun. its sat alreayd, how fast. 2 more days and im back to sch, back to wk with nthg to look fwd to,damnit. and theres the mass comma party which im so nt lookg fwd to, so not thrilled. and i tot of giving it a miss. ohwells we'll see how it goes tmr.

i jus play 1 round of mahjong and here i am just back from it and they are laughing at me! ahhh. paiseh can. u all laojiao i only new bird, amateur hor. tsk!! bleah. and i gotta wait til ma finish mahjoning with cousins til ard 3 then dad come pick us.bleah. tired.. i wanna zzzzzzzz.

til then, u babes cont to have lotsa fun during this festive season! rem take gd care of health too! tata~! (:

hey babes, an advanced Happy Chinese New Year!

let out a long post earlier on but thot i shall not publish it. since it's over and seriously like duh of me. but anyhw, CNY is here! which means i get to rot, sleep and eat til like theres no tmr! wheee. am so happy now. i really do need the break badly. poof.

and im so gonna kapok some magazines back to read and kill time! but oops, i never return them all the time.ugh.

and oh, wenjun, if u happen to see this, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRL! am so sorry it slipped my mind. i really did want to wish u, but kinda tied up and just didnt remember. perhaps alzhemier came a little too early. haha. still, i hope u had a blast with yr loved ones, which i think u did, esp the lorries yeah? hee. take care and have a blessed CNY girl, and lets meet up soon!!! i promise i wil plan ok hehs.

bestie and i colored our hair. i dont like mine and she doesnt like hers. hahaha. wth. was a bad move. but heck la! just for the fun for it. and we always have such great psychic powers that its scary. in same color combi yet again! ahjek. hahaaa.

wheeee, am so happy, nthg can spoil my mood i hope. happy cny once again! (:

and 1 week later, here i am, giving a little update, we didnt so much screw the presentatn as we thot we'd did! God is amazing, cos He gave us a surprise, we got a DISTINCTION! wheee. tho others had HD, but im thankful enough!

and i got a DISTINCTION for my 1st module, PR Practice & Writing! woohoo!! first mod and this is my grade, im hairpeeee~! what a great kickstart to sch n 2008! (: cannot be any happier. and after submittg my remaining assignments tonight, im officially a free bird!! break for 2 wks! yay! happieeeeeee..and so i can enjoy my CNY in peace. thumbs up! but its only tues, and work is a bore! but gonna head to chinatown tmr so am lookg fwd!

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took leave ytd to rush proj for presentation. and boo, i screwed it big time. sigh. not all our stuff was postmodern, and i feel we seriously lacked substance. boo. sigh. and all she said was 'interesting'. how sad. perhaps we shdve pay more attention during class. sort of anticipated it already. cos til the 11th hour, even right before our presentation, i couldnt convince myself which part of the ppt was postmodern. and some parts were pretty out of point. arghh. damnit! bleah. was so sad. but at least for indiv assignmt i gt a distinction tho its jus upon a meagre 5mks. but i went home, and had sm yummy food and boy, that washed my blues away! wheee. had few mouthfuls of daddy's beef horfun, ate a hard boiled egg, had a few mouthfuls of tiramisu and truffle choc cake! was yummy!!! choc sure is therapeutic eh. and i was satisfied, and no longer upset. wakakaka~!

and sch's over! and i can have my 3wks break fr sch! whooohoo~! can now look fwd to CNY w/o having any worries. but of cos wil have to complete my remaining assignmts.

sigh. i hate it when im feelg green. cant help it. imagine being in a foreign land with yr loved one for 6mths, living life on the edge. damnit. why's God so unfair? sigh. why do bad things happen to good people, and why do good things happen to bad people? don't i even deserve smthg small? like a little trip across town? sigh.sobs.

twinnieeeeeeeeeee im sooooooooooooooo fkinggggg envious of the pixie and elf. esp aft i read her blog. sigh! hate it. ):

i am so silly. gt my new phone, changed SIM card last time to fiddle with it. then when i change bk SIM card to old phone, i forgot to change the time to 24hour format! damnit! and so i woke up at 7.47, and had to take a cab to work. bleah. luckily nt too exp, 9bucks. but still, i can feel the heartache. the acceleration of my heartbeat was like the taxi fare. madness. ):

there's classes today! dread it. only gonna reveal assignmt today and then submit and present on saturday. how am i gonna cope! sigh. its so freaking scary.

and i miss twinnie! she has been gone like since forever. but actually its jus a week ago. still, i miss her! boo. BUT, SHE'S CMG HOME TOMORROW! wheee. thankfully. supposedly nxt tues, but thankfully God made it possible for her to cm home soon. poor girl. my heart goes out to her.

had a relaxing night ytd, shiok! hadnt been able to watch so much tv with a night. hehs. think i watch from like 7-12, with shower breaks in btw. i really enjoyed American Idol7! super hilarious that i literally LOL. highly entertaining.

met up with sj n eve last sunday night. i appreciate them for being the same after all these years. simply true and genuine. unlike superficial ones. was a gd meet up with lotsa updates la kopi times. and i gt flowers for them! rose for eve and gerbera for sj! wheee. am i sweet or what, kakaka...

anw, conclusion: i am so dreading sch! sobs. BUT consolation is that the best friend will be home real SOON! (: then it'll be off to mustafa, makan, movies, shopping and fellowship times!

last post dated 7jan. this is what school does to me. deprive me of my beauty sleep. cos of the dumb reading logs i have to do everyday. sians. this week has been a super busy one! and there's another week of battle i have to fight. ugh. God gimme strength pls.

module's reading media texts. its quite interesting in a way, get to watch really morbid videos each lesson, the blue velvet, damsels be damned, kylie minogue, desperate housewives etc etc! interesting, but at the same time difficult to understand. all the really technical jargons, semiology, blah blah. sounds greek to me.

sch fees in cmg soon according to fel. like feb. sigh then i wil only have left 1 more cheque. then i dunno what wil happen aft that. but i trust that God will provide. and i really hope He will provide. sigh. pls pray for me gals. thks.

that aside, its amazing how God places frens in our life. so much happened in sch lately. with the new girl in the clique. spark off a series of bitchfits, sm rather sarcastic but i choose not to let it bother me. its like, HELLO, we're all friends right? plus its jus the beginning of sch, what makes u think we gonna like stick forever? wake up pls. anw, the gal is a christian, and i can see how we click better than with the rest. oh wells. i dont know la. whatever it is, im jus gonna commit it all to God. whoever He wants to put in my life. just that am pissed with this new intrusion of sm other girl when doing assignmt. its like she jus appeared of no where cos she gt no grp. apparently she already ask my grp mate and they said yes. nv even ask me. but sigh, i think i shd just be more big hearted and acceptable of others. afterall, if i cant even love others ard me, how can i even love God whom i've nv seen, right?

anw, theres lotsa cheem work to be done, dreading it! worst of all i have a individual presentation to do. sigh. imagine presenting to the whole class of say, 56? madness. im already shaking when presenting as a grp. now alone. i'll probably jus spasms and collapse on the floor. hais. arghhhh. shall nt think abt it since its not here yet.

had my beauty sleep today aft i came home fr classes. 6.30-9.30. feels great! its sunday. blessed sunday girls.

and i will catch YOU on the 18th! wheee~!

the best friend's leaving town for indo once again, while im reduce to a poor state here. but nevertheless, ive learnt we need to let go, cos only by then can we learn to be independent. sm training ground before either gets attach. maybe nt me. wahaha.

i hate to say this over and over again but i really hate monday mornings! pui. and the thought of sch makes it even worse. 2 weeks of hell again, rushing proj n assignmt. i really cannot wait for it to be over. bleah.

but weekend was great. potluck party on sat night for the jan babies as well as elf n pixie's farewell. im jealous cos they get to go sweden for 6mths. and they even get to go to jerusalem! how cool is that man. sigh. why do i nv ever get such gd deals? bleah. and they get to tour ard europe too. its so unfair! pfftt. sigh. grass on the other side is always greener. guess i'll just have to try to complain less. party wasnt as bad as hw i expected it to be. jus that sm guest were abit redundant.gross. still, i had a gd time karaoking! sing til we went hoarse in the throat. wakaka! i promise u we'll go kbox smtime soon k babe! cheeryup!

went for dinna/supper, had dimsum near mustafa, aft which we went to mustafa my all time fav hang out place! gt a maternity dress which is soooo chio! wahha. again yes. im so fat that i can fit into a maternity dress. i love it, albeit it being a hefty 30buckeroo.s hehs. then ytd we got the hooded vest in towel material in shocking pink and sky blue! so v pretty, different and cute! hehs. need to curb my retail therapy, save money and go on a holi!

on the other note, papa is jobless. pls pray that he will find job soon! cos my ma seems rather sad and worried abt it, but all he does at home is watch tv and eat oranges. haaha so v random.

i only look fwd to CNY nw, its the only thing thats egging me on! blessed week ahead! (:

today is Friday. and Friday makes Abia one happy girl! tho its gonna be short-lived. still, im relieved. cos from nxt wk onwards, its gonna be a long stretch of nightmares week! sigh. the best friend will be gg off again. just back for 2 weeks and off she goes again. it is so saddening, really it is. i wish she didn't have to go. no more confidante for the nxt few weeks. the worse thing is she doesn't even know when she will be back. sigh. hate it! sobs.

and sch is startg nxt wk, and theres where the other set of nightmare will begin. getting all tired, frenzy and all. sobs. and theres no one around to share my woes. damnit. sigh. i hate the new year already!

and im so tired with all the happenings in church. i guess its really time to quit stjames and move on to othr churches where i can grow, where true love is manifested. the scenes at sjccc are plain ugly. i don't even know where to begin. its so saddening to see how everyone shirks responsibility and turn the table around. im so very disgusted. sigh. even the ones above who're supp to be gd role models are living a life of the opposite. there is no confidentiality, no respect, nothing. feel like im just hanging on cos of the responsiblities in the worship team. its becmg a duty, a routine. yes, im ashame. but i cant help it. sigh. time to move on.

Happy 2008! This marks the first post ever in 2008. just thot it might be gd to pen down some thoughts here with regards to the past yr.

2007 came, gone, all in a whizzz.

Throughout this year, I've gain some, lose some. Significant changes were inevitable.

Wealth and health have been gd, by God's grace, tho if i could lose some pounds, that will be fab. Though i didnt work much, God has been providing me, am really thankful for that.

Studies and work were ok. Sch started a little shaky, but am glad i managed to get settled down, but i shall not dwell too much in it, cos only a fraction of my time is spent in sch. which is gd, means i get to spend more time with other loves. Work, ohwells, only had a proper job at the last qtr of the yr. and it was really God-given. Seeing that i didnt enjoy myself at Ducktours, He granted me smthg which i had nv asked for.

Best aspects in my life has got to be my family and friends. they make my world. the spontaneous, fun and ever-loving pops have been awesome for these 21 years, and i thank God for even their love for each other. and also always being so berserk, bonkers, eccentric and lame!

For friends, i've gained quite a bit. manage to build better relationships with much more ppl. tho i had some unhappy moments, i've learnt to let go and let God.(i hope) Had tremendous amount of fun with the best friend, not forgetting my churchmates. Tho r/s might turn cold with others, still, im thankful and i hope God will bring us closer in His time.

I guess being 21 ain't too easy. but God has sure open my eyes to see beyond what my human mind can comprehend. and thank God for granting me such a great gf, who has nv failed to be ard me at all times of life. i really wonder what i'll do without her. we've been great companions, going almost everywhere together, and almost all the time. and for being ard me when i went thru super tough times, helpg me call the bank, protectg me fr sunny, sigh. i can nv thank u enough. but i do hope im nt hindering u fr building r/s with others ok.! don't worry i stil love my 138 wahaha. Anyhows, sorry babe, for now u are stuck with me. hehs.

all that aside, spent the first day of new yr with bestie n her family (jus a while). haha then we went shopping! wheeee. i loveeee shopping! gt a mango shirt for bk-up singing, and a top fr cotton on! all super gd deals! wheee. best deal was my bundle pack fr spotlight! they had so many things inside, and was gg for a song at only 6buckeroos! all the arty farty stuff! and i love diaso too! we got some really pretty cards which looks super chinoserie chic! shall take a pic and post it. i love it. too bad dorothy soo wouldn't let me get another one. perhaps i shall go back there secretly! whoohoo. shhhhh. then we caught Lust, Caution. my first R21 show. and it ended at 12:30am! madness. am so thankful for my loving daddy who came to fetch us home! (:

great start to a brand new year, am awaiting and looking forward to all that is to come! May the good God bless all of u sweeties, have a fruitful and fulfilling 2008~!

Christmas came and gone, action-packed! all over much to my relief. somehow Christmas just dont seemed as happy as ever. perhaps people do change, we grow up, and what seems like friends forever have diminished. reduced to mere acquaintance?

did our wrappings for the gifts til the wee hours of dawn. barely catch enough 40winks and had to wake up for svc. and sleepg late last night didnt help much either. woke up with puffyeyes and triple eyelids. madness.

carolling on the eve was great. i totally immersed myself into the spirit, and the ability to sing those beautiful carols to the residents just made it even more special. tho it was pretty short, it was also sweet too. i just hope and pray that more will come to know Him.

had a bad start on the Christmas morning. i actually allowed a small issue to screw up my day. just cos we forgot to bring a bag of presents to church. sigh. but thankfully the best fren managed to pull me back tog, so that i will stop sulking and stop allowing all the anger, sadness reside in me. and i really do apprec it. cos i know when i get frenzied, angst, its often the ones ard me who really suffers.

started svc, so many screw-ups. the projector wasnt wking til 1130.madness. then sudd the keyboard goes wiry. but thankfully many did respond during the altar call. that was nice. spent the afternoon playing with thadd n louisa. cute toddlers.! i likeee* hehs. then went for super late luncheon with the best fren at sakae to satisfy our cravings! then was jalaning, and then home sweet home. mayb nt so sweet, cos i end up hvg puffyeyes.boo. i hate mornings! hate gg to wk too. sucks! bleah. wish i had a longer break.

i wanna leave on a jetplane now. right now. to sm place where u can find me no longer! haha. right. just gimme a little break pls and cut me some slack, and be my nice santa and buy me a air-tic. tq. (:

its wednesday, till then~!

time waits for no one. it literally flies past me each time. but this time round, i like it. cos it means twinnie is coming back soon!!! YAY!

hee can't help but feel that im well-received. everyone wants to go out with me! everyone wants a piece of me. wahaha. kns i know. --> joshua, jacq, pea, eve & sijie, jess & liz, mass comma peeps. muahahaa.im the epitome of party! too bad had to do ot last night and turn down eve n co.boohoo. havent met the girls since they feb this yr. wanna get smthg ncie for them before mtg up. oh wells.

havent gt much pressies for main peeps. ugh. but the trip to IMM on monday was really fruitful man! got like so many things for the kiddos, the notebooks, glitters, and more notebooks! wheee. happieeee. but nw gotta think abt what to get for the babes tmr. damn. and for the party on fri too.ugh.

thankfully its a holi tmr! woohoo! means i can rolly ard in bed all morn! wheee. hope u girls have a great time with yr loved ones this season! God bless! (:

today is monday and twinnie is coming back on friday! wheee* and angels still cont to surround me! rec sms fr eve iniating a meet up with her and sj since they are both back from aussieland. woohoo! just that ive got no time to buy pressies for anyone. so far just that cute red rack, a diary for the kiddos, and a uber cute cow inflatable couch. thats abt it. zilch for church peeps. ugh.

anyone of u girls gt sm fantastic ideas? i luv diy, personalised stuff but i got 0 idea leh. time is running out. poly peeps on thurs, mass comm peeps party on fri. so shitified!boo.

and ive contracted alzhemier's. keep forgetting things. and the white hairs on my head are increasing in number. scary.

i cant wait for Christmas! but there aint much for me to look forward to. prob just awesome company of loved ones. guess its the presence that matters. (:

i hate rainy days! makes me so very dread gg to work. how i wish i can jus continue sleeping and nv have to wake up for work! boohoohoo.. wed blues too! boo. and i havent started on my essay. sobs. and theres a million things i need to do. bleah. i need a break pls.

smone pls just kidnap me on a jetplane to smwhere nice! thanks.

and byebye. im gg home.

twinnie has been gone for a week to be exact. and i sure miss her! perhaps we've clung on too tightly, and so now that she aint ard, smthing seems to be missing! and just being in the church office w/o her seems weird. my lunch kaki, bitchfit sessions kaki, retail therapy kaki, phone kaki, my everything kaki! sigh. and there's stil 13 days before she is back. soooo long. HAIS. but still, God has been so good and faithful.

the way He got His angels to surrond me and keep me co. God answered yr prayers twinnie!hehs. even before she departed sgp, i've already bumped into ppl whom i nv thot i'd see. hehs. and how eug told grace he wanted them to sit with me, which is what they've nt done before! they didnt even know twin aint in town. hehs. and r/s with classmates are getting much better, at least i gt to know em better! and actually havg a christmas party. woohoo. sch doesnt suck that much anymore, smore the dreaded presentn has come to an end! freedom after tonight's test and nxt wk's proj submission!

sigh. this year end has been a busy one for me, first time ever that i dont have time to get christmas pressies. oh dear. and the fact that i dont like to get things which everyone has seen before adds on the my agony! want to make smthg nice, but ive gt no time! and no ideas. boo. dieded. but shant let such blur the vision and real meaning of Xmas.

its sunday, and i've fallen into a deep slumber of depression. and the songs playing on gold90 makes me even sadder. sobs. smhw i can't help but feel sorry for myself. cos there will nv be a day where im the one whos off for a holi. but its ok, ive resign myself to fate.

its just me myself and i to brave the storm for the nxt two weeks. cos God seems really far away. sigh. i wonder how im gonna survive.

im so freaking bored at work. eyes are soooo heavy, anytime soon i'll doze off. skipped class ytd for a break n a haircut, look like a chinadoll now with a concave fringe.ugh. its friday, but sats gonna be a bloody longgg day from 9-5. hate it! grrrr. i wouldnt mind if lecturer's ravi or sm interesting fella but definitely nt this stephen gaunson guy!boo. anw this was type in the morn, now its almost knock off time. managed to pia finish the more impt wk. phew. else cant make in time for tonight.

on another note, the bestfriend is gonna be away from the 3rd til idunnowhen. sobs. lucky ass who gets to go jetset while im stuck in this miserable rut, having to balance job and sucky sch. my life's a mess. sigh. when isit ever my turn to go for a holi?! sobs. i hate wallowing in self pity but i cant help it. hais.

and adding on to my misery is the stupid ibank transaction thingy. they havent fucking gt back to us like since ytd . shit u for cheating my money. shites. bugger off! f.

its sat tmr and i gt yucky lessons.bleah. ): ive got nothing to look fwd to all wkend. and bestie has to go attend a wedding on sunday. mayb thaddeus will make me happy. i dont know. but i got a feeling he will.

ciao.

ok, im not trying to be cynical, or cold-blooded. there has been the recent big hoo-ha abt the misfortunate event of the 5 dragonboaters.what i cannot understand is the numerous no. of ppl being so upset about it when they aren't even related to them in anw. just like the princess di phenomenon. reminded me of the show"money no enough" whereby these few sisters wept buckets when they heard abt demise of princess di, and when their mother died, they couldnt even be bothered about it. mayb its just me being skeptical. smhw i feel that everyone seems to want a piece of it. being involved. attending their wake. signing on memoirs. whatever. i deem it as nt entirely genuine.

makes me wonder if it happened to a relative/whatsoever, would u be as bothered? sigh. this is so confusing. call me heartless, whatever. i don't care. but i'll sure cherish those ard me. i shall try.

and i shall skip class today and go for a hair cut. wheee. and tgif soon. sucks to have lesson on sat tho.sigh.

school has started and i was in much anticipation of it, only to be dismayed by a monotonous, uninteresting, ho hum lecturer. to think i have such high expectations of angmoh, but this guy makes me sleep. bah! the way he delivers is impossible. hypnotizing. and only this grp of girls in front are entertaining him. i thought young angmohs might be u know, engaging but i was wrong! So i started toying with rocher wrappers on the table, making hair extensions, making dummy ones which is seemingly real for mates. haha. funny shit. but yeah, thats what keeping me gg. dreading class on thurs and sat already. sigh. Am so not looking forward to it. deprive me of my beauty sleep and time i get to spend with loved ones. bleah.

on another note, went to watch my dad perf at sm singing competition. and i sure laugh my head off over his silly antics, nt forgetting all those farnie stuff that happened. the super unpolished emcees, the aunties with the blings and bk cracks instead of cleavage cracks(cos the dress were too tight), and some really impossible singers. ROFL. followed by supper with 2 unknown strangers, well frens of pops and they sent the twinie and i home. had supper with them and it was way beyond awkward. but they were rather nice la. cept that they make me feel a little small.poof.

on another note, i can hardly pry my eyes open in the morning. cant keep them fr closing. ugh. hate mornings! and ps. i dreamt of the stupid elf and the stupid pixie again.sigh. what does it mean if i keep dreaming of ppl i don't like? sigh.

22 november 2007

my mind was in a whirlpool. i was tired: physically, mentally and emotionally. somehow i feel God likes to play jokes on me. i don't know why either. some people try so hard getting things that were never meant to be theirs, some dont have to try and it just appear to their doorstep.

was reading my text for theories of comm and persuasion, saw this theory by this Bourdieu guy. and i kinda thot it ties in nicely. Quote"value is placed on products according to their social status, as well as cost and scarcity....Individuals and groups identify each other and their social positioning according to their taste, including their taste in music and clothing styles... people are not born with superior or inferior tastes in cultural products; rather, the economic system of capitalism requires disctinctions in order to operate.

the other fella critical of Bourdieu is good too. He, Baudrillard, in fact begins from a rather different perspective to that of Bourdieu. For him, contemporary culture is a deluge of signs, symbols and images. Quotes"the Princess Di phenomenon, the killings at Columbine, the love affairs of Leonardo DiCaprio-all are constituted through a new televisual culture, a new reality, a hyperreality, which has no substance and no fixed form. This hyperreality creates new forms of stimulation, new forms of arousal and demand, new forms of erratic consumption. The product becomes intensely sexualized, often through the deployment of a young female body - but this arousal is a stimulation and can never be satisfied.The consumer is prompted to act and consume; however, the deluge of images and signs is unending and the urge to consume is never consummated, never quite complete.

In Baudrillard's terms, therefore, the sign overtakes the product as the primary source of arousal and action. Because it is nothing more than a sign, a powerfully sexualized sign, the consumer can never escape its abstraction. The proliferation of signs continues to stimulate.The BMW is sexually imaged and motivates some form of consumption - if not the car, then something else. But ultimately, there is nothing there. the sign is vacant, leading merely to another sign, another amorphous arousal, another vacuous avatar.... EVERYTHING IS AN IMITATION OF AN IMITATION - A SIMULACRA."

sorry if this is too much to digest for a friday, just some food for thought... thought it all makes sense. so duh can, then why the hell am i always so caught up in the rat race? ugh.life's a contradictory.

weekend came, and gone all in a whizzz! didnt even get to enjoy it cos of the proj. many thanks to help fr demin, i think i need to acknowledge her in the reference, as well as attribute to her. hehs. so glad its done and over with, and at least i can rest for a wk before beginning on another battle which wil last me 2 weeks! madness.



work is so sianing. totally dread hvg to wake up at 7plus in the morn. i so abhor mornings! if only nights will last forever. on another note, the pops are nt in town, over to our neighbour for some unwinding. wish i was there, sigh... so gotta seek refuge at the bestie's plc. who has been really nice and make me feel so welcome as usual. but i gotta cm outta the shell and nt be so frightened of the pops. and sista.



i wanna go do smthg fun. like to the beach.(ps nt cycling pls) haha. to the zoo.night saf.science centre. sentosa. smthg to let me unwind. i need it badly. nt shopping/movie. smthg else. desperately. gg bonkers in the office. but i did ot last fri and that day fetch me a good 100buckeroos. im sucha moneyface. need to get over it for materials like plastic, never last.

today is tuesday. aka tu4si3 day. hate the sucky feeling of gg bk to work. yucks.

anw, have been neglecting this baby of mine. thanks to endless piles of notes to study. dont even have time for reading newspapers/magazines but TV yes. haha. am so glad its all over! nw have to pia for proj then can let hair down for a wk before sch starts to torture me.

on a happier note, PR paper was a breeze!wheee. mann i studied damn hard for it ok! hehs. and God was faithful too. just hope proj can do well and at least get a distinction! went out with the class peeps for lunch at super sucky place called yuki yaki. RIGHT, IT WAS YAKI(YUCKY). gross man. i really think i cant click with sm of them. fancy gg to such places for lunch. if it was nt for the bday girl, i'd have violently objected! but i have to say churning the ice cream was fun tho i totally suck at it. boo. then went for some retail therapy before mtg the bestie.

outta here now. lunchtime's over. boohohoo...

i realised that if u stop counting down, time will just fly past! haha. gd or bad i dont know. but sure is scary. eeks. and i gt a million things to complete. study for paper, proj. heng managed to chiong out mtg mins.

anws, monday was scary. i rem vividly telling my incharge at ducktours saying i cant wk til end of mth. then sudd she msg me on monday ask me why im nt at wk. ugh. and so i told her say i cant commit anymore. scary! i was so very freaked out. but ive said byebye to duck already. so its hello world kitchen. which is gd. cos i think world kitchen pays me quite handsomely. wahaha. for the kinda work produce. and i always snake during work! haha. but have to snake secretly. but waking up so early sucks!

anw, i hope to go for the getaway to msia with mumsy and twin(maybe)! i wanna gooo eat shop play let my hair down.hehs.

combed jurong west on sunday and we met this scary ahjek. wat a day to rem. he was practical stuck to the window of our car and asking for money. so scary! gdness. always gt so many scary ppl ard me.ugh

anw.gg to sleep liao. nights all.

daddy banged sm motorcyclist down ytd.sigh. cos he was so kanchiong to pick up a passenger..motorcyclist turns out to be a butch la, and she was bleeding on her head and legs.sigh. ambulance came and all. thank God daddy's ok. jus that the glass on cab or smthg broke. but must pay ard 1k plus. hais. wth.

anw. today's last lecture for PR writing! wheeee. revision leh. then hvg exam on 12nov. if u happen to see this pls keep me in yr prayers thanks. dunno whr to start revising also.

anw, jus feel like heading out to sentosa/sm places of interest to have sm fun! hahas. job is mundane but peeps cannot be any nicer. (; sigh. theres nothing for me to look forward to now. sians! i need smthg exciting/thrilling to keep me gg. mann.

work is boring and mundane and it makes me so sleepy.boo.

tgif. gonna meet the best friend tonight!wheee. aft sucha long time.mann. mayb we'll go up the dhl balloon tonight or smthg. since i can tkae it free! wheeeeeeee. haha. have been looking forward to the weekend. and mama's almost done altering my maternity dress wahaha. which means i might get to wear it on sunday.muahaha. happieee. and i got another HD n another D for assignmt! one more HD and i'll get my full 10% for participation. hehs. ohwells. am over the moon. thank God for sustaining me. honestly i feel that my work's only mediocre. writing aint that well. but perhaps like wat he said, it was more of the formatting. so there. nxt wk's last wk of lect and then exam 3 wks later. ugh. fast or what. then start another new mod which means 4 days of sch in a wk. ugh. smore sat is from 9-5.pengs

theres so little time and theres so much to do. proj, minutes... sians! sigh. hope God wil cont to grant me strength! cross fingers for a great nite ahead. have a gd weekend girlies! til then~! (:

strangely dev symptoms of gastric flu - self diagnosed. and had diarrhoea like 5 times within 5hrs. gross. so had to skip church. which felt oddly dubious. and watching teevee when the rest were worshipping God made me felt smthg funny inside me stir. ohwells. but had a gd rest at home. and i miraculously recovered the following day, which was today. God is amazing man.woots. He knew i'd promised to go wk at cuzzies place so He sustained me. thank u God.

temping there is gd. cos of gd money. 8.5/hr w/o cpf. hopefully it wil be for long, then i can kick ducktours away. hiaks. but job is mundane.but peeps are extremely nice. mayb cos im my cuzzie's cuzzie.

that aside. im so touched by the overwhelming concern from my churchmates when they knew i was under the weather! so schweeet. the endless smses. cmg in today stil. and the best part! BESTIE! spring a surprise on me with a HUMONGOUS and i mean really HUMONGOUS sunflower can! and my fav brazillian soy bun, yums walnut&raisin loaf with a crusty sweet top.yums. slurps. thanks babe. tho u prob came and feasted more than u visit me. plus always falling asleep at my plc. HAHA. anw, loves!

gathering on sat with the chua side of the familieee was great. cept they spoilt my dangdangs. am abit upset abt it.but shall mend it and restore it to its original place soon.

finally home after almost a week of seeking refuge at the best friend's house.

XOXO for picking me from sch, driving me all da way to Changi Airport so tt i can have Popeye's! so sweet. all also on thurs night all the way to little india for dimsum, and nt forgetting out happy moments at mustafa! wheee. i <3 mustafa! so glad for surprises picked up there. the mirror, and my maternity dress! wahaha. yesss i got a maternity dress! i lurveee it absolutely, much to the disgust of the bestie. but gonna alter it and make it look niceee. wheee. hahahaha.

1 good news i got a HD for my assignmt! wheee. nt exactly an assignmt, but a marked exercise asking us to state our goals for public relations and hw we're to go abt achieving it. thanks babe for the copyright idea! i bluffed and said i wanna be a PR writer for FJ Benjamin! wakaka. wat bullcraps. but i gt a high distinction anw! im soooo happieeee. praise God!

gg for 2 intvs nxt wk. one's a hospitality officer at singapore national museum, the other's a guest relations associate at singapore discovery centre, tho nt concrete yet. hehs. if all goes well and i get the offers, i guess i'll quit the job at ducktours. its not providing me well. boo. hehs.

anw, the weathers so bloody hot nowadays its driving me barmy, making me pekchek! hate it. rains of blessing pls! till then. loves

pops nagged again abt so many things today. but primary issue is the job. sigh. asked me to change job since ducktours only require me to wk on so little days. sigh. i guess they wil probably be happier if they see me less. prob rejoicing if i have to do ot etc. like HELLO. im really not taking alot of money from you am i. the money u gave me will prob be used to buy 2 dresses by smone else. fuck. smtimes u sound as tho u give me like 3 thousand a month or smthg. hais. its so saddening la.

classes tonight. dont really dread it now. jus gonna go with an open heart n learn new things. have been chatting to classmates online and its amazing the kind of things they let me in. telling me abt family issues. wah. i seriously am taken aback. guess its a gd way to start things. weird thing is these peeps aint even in my clique. HAHA. ohwells. God wks in funny ways smtimes i reckon.

now i really hope nhb wil ring me bk n ask me down for an intv. sigh. then again. im really confused. perhaps i gotta go find a full time job or smthg. kinda regretted nt gg down for intv for internship at project smitten.

too late for regrets.

school is getting better i guess. God is stil nice to me. tho i dont deserve it. i've decided to do the proj with them. thot i shd prob not outcast myself. so there. mayb i'll just volunteer to compile it or smthg.

another marked exercise today. bleah. asked us to write our goals for public relations writing, what we hope to accomplish blah. have been eons since i last wrote smthg proper. ugh. i really think my angmoh cannot. eeks. and so i crapped saying i hope to be a public relations writer for FJ Benjamin! haha paiseh, i 'borrowed' yr ideal wk place twinnie. wahhaa. and say in order to get the scoops and all i have to read more fashion mags, blah. sigh. hope i can get a credit and above for it man. tho i think not. cos my writing is like shit = many diff pieces. HAHA.

today i managed to make more frens, and also exchange emails n nos. and all. things are probably picking up. i really hope it will. sucky part is that ive gotta craft a news release over the weekend! eeks.

actually lessons are quite interesting, i kinda enjoy it. and ive got farnie classmates who smell a little strange with their endless silly questions. i pray that things wil get better and better pls!

then had dinna with pops aft lesson n daddy send us home. awwww. so sweeeeeet.

per se: twinnie babe. i know u are going thru a rough period at this pt of time. but hang in there ok. God sees yr heart and i am so positive that He'll forgive us as long as we are willing to repent. it may seem bleak at the moment, but perk yrself up, it wil all be over soon. the rainbow will be out to embrace us, and from there shall we start anew.
*looking forward to our mtg tmr for i miss u so much! hugs & love.

my heart is pounding. any moment and it will explode. ahhh fuck. not like i dont have enough worries of my own. mediocre as it may seem to be. smtimes i wish i wasnt the one who fired it all. but then again, i'd nv have imagined such to happen. im so hating all these shit! fuck. i jus feel like dying. sobs.

why cant things be easier for me. sobs. i nv wanted much. jus small little things. or even for u to be happy with me. my heart is literally throbbing. so much pain in it. perhaps i am asking too much. perhaps its all too far-fetched. or mayb theres so much which i havent perceive it to be.

and i stil get jitters before gg for classes. really hate the process of makign new frens. its so gross and fake and smelly. and i really wanna do the assignmt alone, yet am afraid that nxt time when i need projmates, others will already form their own teams. sigh. why cant God make it easier for me. why do i have to go thru all these shit. sobs.

why do stars fall down from the sky
everytime you walk by?
just like me, they long to be
close to you.

God is faithful. and im really thankful how He has pulled me thru the past few days. to begin with, first day at sch sucked. i was late n so jus sat down along the aisle with sm girl. and i didnt exactly have much chance to mingle ard la, so i felt really friendless. sigh. was a depressing start. PR writing seems pretty tough. and work on wed was nt getting any better. cos familiar ppl weren't ard, but i gt 2 malays and 1 extremely quiet guy. sigh. hate tt freaking combi. and they made me take over a counter. like HELLO its only my 2nd day, and they seemed to expect me to rem everythg so clearly. bullcraps. then made me stay til the last duck came bk. like wth lor. the 1st day there, others were all so nice to me, and i even managed to knock off super early. but sigh. i sure hope i dont get that disgusting combi again. *cross fingers*. to top it off, my phone was cut off, no access to calling/smsing cos of delay in paymt of bill. that made me even more upset. was in tears when i rang twin up using the public phone. but thankfully i was able to use it aft an hr. and twin came to visit me cos she was mtg her friend there. then she lingered ard til i knock off n have dinna tog. sweet. then went for my mtg in church and she came to pick me up to send me home to take things n bk to her plc again.

then before i went back aft wk on wed, ppl fr office asked me to be on the kermee bus the whole day on thurs cos apparently there was some shoot going on, and i jus need to sit ard and make sure they dont do anythg stupid. so i went, thank God i called the captain, else he would have missed me cos they bloody didnt told him i was cmg along. anw i was redundant la. they were shootg a commercial to be aired in India. long story la. but quite interesting. tho i hate the fact that the peeps there were 99% guys. eeks. smore either ahbangs/nehnehs. so there. but adored the fact that i didnt have to be at counter! but then again, i really do get satisfaction when tourists smile at me, or even seemed really grateful for the info provided and all. haha. ohwells. what a contradictory. anw, went off to sch really early, like an hr early. haha. and i made new friends! wheee. i feel so much happier n relieved nw man. phew.

have been helping twinnie with the publicity thingy using macromedia. first time! and im so proud of myself for the little bit of poster done! but its making us pull all our hair out. ugh. can be quite frustrating man.

and tmr's the mid-autumn celeb thingy in church. hope the ktv doesnt screw up pls God. and that the balloon can be blown. (and burst too.HAHA.)

blessed wkend ahead~!

first day at ducktours last thurs. nice peeps there. but still feel pretty much lonely tho there was a new intern with me. prob takes time to settle down and mix in. so there. almost got myself screwed when we miscalculated and forgot to charge for 6 tics! thank God we managed to get the person. else habis. anw, job scope's pretty fun. haha. required to do boarding, meaning use the mic n asking them to gather and watch a 5min video before boarding the duck, then bringing them out to the duck, then tearing off the tic stubs. haha. slack! but just started training for the sales of tickets. guess i dont like that too much. haha scary! and then i had a nice surprise from bestie! she came with her mama. oops.paiseh. and she brought me mangopassionfruit from starbucks! so sweet. hee. muacks.

then i cut my hair on fri. bohoho. guess i dont like it. too much on the sides makes my face look fat.! ugh.nvm. hope it will grow out soon.

sat was spent at church for prac then over to suntec for bike fest. went down with twin, thinking mei wil be alone but alas! eug was there. haiya. nvm. its good to do nice at times.

sunday was good! had lunch aft svc then went to vivo for mini retail therapy at daiso! hee. then we caught evan almighty which was NICEEEEE N FARNIEEEE. hehhehes. then over to clarke for riverside indonesian food...! then we walked ard, and took many silly piccas. loved the day!
hope theres more to come with babe. cos it feels like a long time since we last hung out so freely. cos there was the chinatrip, the funeral.. so there. more happy times pls babe! (:

theres classes tmr! first class! ugh.s cary again. haiyo. new frens, new projmates. hope God'll grant me with nice peeps man.

work on wed n thurs. think i shd prolly get another job. any lobangs pls tell me, thanks!

shit happens because its a shitty day. sigh. first the hairdresser, then the pops, then the internship then the bloody jeans.skunk. __ anw i gt a job. so hopefully that will make YOU happy. i will jolly well get anothr since its part time. no worries, i will work v hard to support myself. and its work day tmr. meaning i must be up at 7. sigh. the thought of it is sianing enough. ohwells. do i have a choice? guess i dont. but am just thankful enough for a job. but already fretting what i shd do during lunchtime. sobs. sigh.

i need to cut my hair desperately. cos the locks are so long, its making me feel super HOT as in PERSPIRINGLY HOT. grrrr. and chris is missing. hw nice. ahhhh. guess its contributing to the temper these days. darn.

sigh. im feeling super down today. huai4 liao1.tsktsktsk. i hate myself for being in self-denial, self-deluding all the time. i always think that things will happen that way but it always turn out the other. sigh. i really oughta snap out of it. perhaps i mean nothing after all. and mayb when i reach enlightenment, things like this will nv bother me again and i wil be a free, spirited soul. yes i will be.

i hope the embark of a brand new day ahead will bring me surprises filled with lotsa love from above. God gimme strength, wisdom too pls. thank uuu.