.: counting counting and still counting :.

sometimes i wish i could be living somebody else's life.. seems to me that im leading a really b.o.r.i.n.g lifestyle. i wish i could be doing more outrageous stuff, wish i have those really hippie friends, wish i could party all day long, wish i could spend like a running tap, wish i could be more rebellious. but the realities of life really BITE. and sometimes i get mad by the silliest things that can ever happen. sigh. and it wasnt pleasant at all. i wish giving was a 2 way kind of thing. but it seems to always prove me wrong. dont know whats wrong with me, always having silly thots that are just plain DUH.

well i must say im a little disappointed lah, but then again, life's filled with endless disappointments so i guess theres no point brooding over it, ha.. it definitely takes 2 hands to clap, how true tt statement is.. guess i have to get over it, wahaha.. bonkers. am always having weird thots. retard retard.

i'd be much happier if u can shut up for a while. just for a while. so f.o. =)

depressing. but i wont look back.