now im baffled really. all of a sudden their attitude changed. for the better of course. i dont know what to do now. totally lost. then til this morn i realised that the mails couldnt be sent to my LO. so i asked Nic and Aud to help, but same prob cropped up. in the end had to fax it to her. and up till now she havent call to inform me that she've received it etc. totally clueless now. sigh. and then uncle rashid seems not to be that trustworthy aft all. sigh. really confused nw, caught in this whole issue. sigh. i lost my appetite, couldnt sleep and eat well. sigh. durng the day i'll have terrible stomachaches that make me wanna go LS but i bear with it for the fear of them asking me to do smthg. just wonder how long i can bear with it. sigh.

nic and aud are leaving tmr. oh my. tmr. feel so unprotected w/o them. at a lost. sigh. and they'll be back only on monday. double sigh. wish they could take me with them.

sobbed again today when i talked to my mum. i really dont want to go back to that horrible place. daddy told me nt to be afraid, and said he'll call my LO tmr, but thing is, i think i shd wait for my LO to call me regarding the fax first. sigh. dunno what to do now. sigh. daddy says if she gets nothing done about it, he'll go down to moe. sigh.. i really dont know how.

Will u please show me yr way God. are u there. are u. i think u left me. or mayb i left u.

such a bad predicament.. of all people, but me. sigh. u have absolutely no idea how i feel when i see ppl ard so carefree, having fun, saying how boring attachmt is, that they have nothing to do. .no offence.