the eggieeeesss!!!

hee the cute msg on the card!

pinch your cheeks

well spent easter
but the agm was like hmmm. huh. oh. really. bad. how. ugh.
just pray that the Lord will put everythg in place in His time
got this super cute pressie from mei
cheep chicky card with choc eggs
*thanks gal, really sweet of ya...

and thanks to my dear twinnie
for that encouraging sms...
may the psychic forces be with us! haha...

aaa's down. kinda felt relieved...
was in shock when i saw the paper
but still with God's grace
i managed to do it bit by bit. =)
so theres another 3 more to go.
so much stuff to memorise.
yucks. i absolutely detest memorising.
cuz i've got very little room in my head for memorising stuff
ugh.

gave a tampon to my daughter today..
haha she seems rather fascinated by it.
hope she'll have a great time playing with it!
wahahaaa..

i wanna get *pinch yr cheeks from origins.
and perhaps that pair of silver flats.
right. retail therapy on sat. *grins.

Thank.God.Its.Friday.

having a mama who's a tailor is sucha good thing
from mini pouches to bikinis to shorts to skirts to shirts to dresses to belts to headbands to bags
just name it and she'll do it for me
sometimes to the extent that she'll be doing it till wee hours in the morn
though at times i'd scream n shout at her, and take her for granted,
she still does it for me ultimately, w/o complaining, even when she's already so exhausted.
just like today, when i got hm bout an hr ago,
i saw a pair of shorts n a skirt on the sofa
was exhilarated. she's so nice.

anyway, thank God for my grandmama
if nt for God, and nt for her, i wouldnt be alive.
why? cuz my mama was comtemplating whether to abort me or not
so by God's saving hands, i was born
wahaha.. thank God my grandmama offered to look aft me
else, i wont be here typing all these stuff nw, ha...
and of cuz my existence just prove happiness to all the peeps ard me
wahaha... *pukes

i think im a two-faced spoilt brat. sighs.
can be such a devil at hm, and an angel when im outside
beneath the angelic smile lies a devil?
hahas...
if i were to say my parents dont dote on me, i'd be caught lying.
they're so nice that i take them for granted.
they give me tons of freedom, nt interferring with what i wanna do
i dont wash dishes aft i have eaten
i leave my things lying ard
i dont help out with the housework
i talk back to them
i curse when im mad
all these they tolerated with me.

reminds me of our great loving Father above.
He too, loved us so much.
we disobey Him,
we question His existence,
we point our fingers at Him,
we take Him for granted,
He still love us like before, and He'll never forsake us nor leave us. never.

as i watched bits n pieces of passion today,
i was reminded once again of the love
love for the world that God sent His son to die for us
all the flogging, scourging, the pain, the torture that He had to go thru
just for you and me
are we worth it?
no if u ask me.
but its because of that first love, so great, it overcomes everything.
T.G.I.F.

obsession with shoes.

the toddler in son of the mask's really cute
tot the show was cute
cute but no oomph
prob the reason y no one was laughing
except the woman sitting beside me

stepped into bata
and spotted 4 pairs of shoes that i wanna get
but outta these 4, theres one pair which i really like
was 49.95 but nw gg for 29.95 hehs
so tempting!
oh and the sling bag i saw at queensway...
ahhhhh... i want em right away!!!

ok back to reality.
still got tons of stuff to cover.
wonder when im ever going to finish looking thru em.
time is definitely nt on my side

the tot of attachmt excites me
but as the day draws nearer,
depression began to sink it
why, cuz i wont have my hols
cant bear the thots of them suntanning, lazing ard at the poolside
while i gotta slog.
sobs.
life is definitely u.n.f.a.i.r.

my sweets/besties/daughters/chums for life!

gonna miss my girls...

gonna miss my girl - liz

gonna miss my girl - jess

oh man. i feel so darn guilty.
oughta be burying my head into all the notes but then..
im out almost every other day. ugh.
was out on sat.
was out on sun.
will be out on mon.
help~!
and then tanning tmr.
sigh/
i wanna study
yet i dont wanna miss out the fun.
sighs.
hopeless./
hopeless./
wondering how im gonna get thru the exams.
and i want retail therapy.
but im oh so broke.
='(

being alone doesnt mean lonely - easy to read, hard to absorb

ok so here's the deal
peanuts salary of 440/mth
which works out to be 20buckeroos a day
oh man, that is like so much! so nice of JCP! smiles widely.
like real.
so im gonna be cheap labor, doing all the dirrrty job.
need to do admin. research. data entry. analysis.
what the heck is research & analysis???
freaking me out but yet im really anticipating it.
just hope that i meet really nice ppl.
thats all i want.
doesnt matter if theres shitty or huge piles of wk
just want nice ppl to wk with
then i'll be happy.
and i hope i'd be well-liked by them
erm mayb liked will suffice
heehee...
anyway was really trouble this noon, cuz didnt want to go for the briefing alone
y? caused my 2 babes did their itp last sem
left me alone *sobs
u have no idea how glad i was to see u Eve
haha.. felt super relieved k.
guess im pathetic
just cant do things alone.
i will really just freak out.
sigh, no sense of security.
so please dont ever ever leave me alone.
i wouldnt be able to survive.

okies gonna catch the 2nd part of ella enchanted at my clubhse ltr!
till then, have a great weekend!

Cheryl, for yr info..

mikalah gordon sucks.
shd just die n disappear.

mikalah gordon suck.
shd just die n disappear.

Dear Glen, Your group project grade for Principles of Marketing is A. Please disseminate this information to the rest of your team. Individual marks may vary depending on my assessment of the peer evaluations.
Thank you.

Regards,
Lim-Wong Wai Mun

nt trying to brag.
how nice =)
really nice :)
delighted*

i scolded her idiot
and she said she was disappointed.
whatever.
she asked 'are these what God has taught u?'
i was ashamed. totally. but heck. felt like the devil.
i am sick of her accusing me of nt doing that
i did, alright?? everyday, w/o fail.
damn. whatever. cant be bothered.
and so i broke the 2nd commandment.
i hate it totally when people accuses me of things i didnt do.
i LOATHE it.
so dont attempt to do so
i make sure i bite u real hard

supposed to suntan with em ytd
but then i stayed at home... y? *hush*
hahhaahaaaa..
anyway was at tampines mall ytd
and of all people, i had to bump into the disgusting alex
yeah that one with the gay factor...

watched hitch at great world with hunk and babes
was a nice show. u know movies.
they always have such beautiful endings
thats why its never real.
anyway i really think the westerns are all so beautiful, so full of poise
just admire them and the way they bring the best outta themselves
and they can walk n run n dance damn well in stilettos
i think stilettos are nice
they nv run out of fashion
love a pair from mango since a long long time
think its cost ard $129?
but duh la, where will i wear it to?!
probably fall before i even begin to walk

yawns so bored..
why is it that one will always feel like snoozing aft lunch?

anyway God pays attention, right down to little details
im going for the passover thingy.
kinda excited bout it. hehs.

im bored bored bored.
supposed to officially start studying today
but i doubt so.
wahahaha..

im actually looking forward to attachmt
kind of anticipating it.
hmmm weird lah.
probably aft the first day i'll complain
thats me.

this is maddening can?!! blog twice, but hit some buttons accidentally and all the post are gone. wthell! anyway just wanna thank suemay for the *winks* and nic for the cd and the blogskin! hee... appreciate it all..

actually got lotsa rubbish to post but nw, no mood already lah.. anyway, the girls have officially have shifted in yesterday.. just pray tt the Lord will look over everything and may there be peace! *peace clap*

ok, so this is the end of my 2nd year life in NP. have to admit that time really really flies. just a twinkling of an eye, a semester's down. mixed feelings i'd say.. sad that i'll have to kinda say schuss to my girls and classmates.. but i guess all good things come to an end, and we all gotta move on. this semester has been really smooth, by God's grace, and yes, ive finally started studying etc, but to nt much avail lah.. haha..

God as been really good to me, and i dont deserve it at all.. keep me in yr prayers yeah.. i really owe Him a lot. sigh.. i know.. words without actions are dead. life is filled with endless uncertainties. and i definitely hate them. the fear of mtg new ppl in a new environmt. having to step out of yr comfort zone and to form a clique and establish frenships with new people. the thought of it is already frightening enough. sigh.. but that'd probable be a part and parcel of life.. but i seriously hate going thru that process.. cause why? im shy. im nt an extrovert. u may think yeah bullshit, u introvert? but its true... really true.. will only be an extrovert when im with really closed peeps. other than that, im pretty much a reserved gal. no pukings please.

haha.. ok.. so ive shared some of my greatest fears in life - having to face uncertainties. lets pray that we'll trust Him wholeheartedly to lead us thru this walk of life yeah?

shouts out to polkathots: hee i got it all right yeah babe? actually i knew abt it already but tot u dont really want ppl to know so i hush it. nice to see u, really! miss u lots and im sure the woman does feel the same way too! anyway take care lurvve, may u have a peaceful and pleasant wk at worrk! huggies!

bleah.

Gold crown up for grabs

What Is A Root Canal?
Underneath your tooth's outer enamel and within the dentin is an area of soft tissue called the pulp, which carries the tooth's nerves, veins, arteries and lymph vessels. Root canals are very small, thin divisions that branch off from the top pulp chamber down to the tip of the root. Yes thats the thing that's bothering me right now. cool name huh? root canal? thwi. A tooth has at least one but no more than four root canals.

Why do I feel pain?
When the pulp becomes infected due to a deep cavity or fracture that allows bacteria to seep in, or injury due to trauma, it can die. Damaged or dead pulp causes increased blood flow and cellular activity, and pressure cannot be relieved from inside the tooth. Pain in the tooth is commonly felt when biting down, chewing on it and applying hot or cold foods and drinks. no i dont feel pain at all. nt for the root canal one. but for other holes at the back. screams weird.

Why do I need root canal therapy?
Because the tooth will not heal by itself. Without treatment, the infection will spread, bone around the tooth will begin to degenerate, and the tooth may fall-out. Pain usually worsens until one is forced to seek emergency dental attention. The only alternative is usually extraction of the tooth, which can cause surrounding teeth to shift crookedly, resulting in a bad bite. Though an extraction is cheaper, the space left behind will require an implant or a bridge, which can be more expensive than root canal therapy. If you have the choice, it's always best to keep your original teeth. Yes i need it before its too late. and where the hell do i get the money? damn. and yes i want back my original teeth. dont wanna be a bo gay. sobs.

What is a root canal procedure?
A root canal is a procedure done to save the damaged or dead pulp in the root canal of the tooth by cleaning out the diseased pulp and reshaping the canal. The canal is filled with gutta percha, a rubberlike material, to prevent recontamination of the tooth. The tooth is then permanently sealed with possibly a post and/or a gold or porcelain crown. This enables patients to keep the original tooth. my original tooth will probably be in hell cuz it has decayed too badly to make it to heaven.

What is involved in root canal therapy?
Once your general dentist performs tests on the tooth and recommends therapy, he or she can perform the treatment or refer you to an endo-dontist (a pulp specialist). Treatment usually involves one to three appointments.
First, you will probably be given a local anesthetic to numb the area. A rubber sheet is then placed around the tooth to isolate it. Next, a gap is drilled from the crown into the pulp chamber, which, along with any infected root canal, is cleaned of all diseased pulp and reshaped. Medication may be inserted into the area to fight bacteria. Depending on the condition of the tooth, the crown may then be sealed temporarily to guard against recontamination, or the tooth may be left open to drain, or the dentist may go right ahead and fill the canals.
If you're given a temporary filling, usually on the next visit it's removed and the pulp chamber and canal(s) are filled with rubberlike gutta percha or another material to prevent recontamination. If the tooth is still weak, a metal post may be inserted above the canal filling to reinforce the tooth. Once filled, the area is permanently sealed. Finally, a gold or porcelain crown is normally placed over the tooth to strengthen its structure and improve appearance. i'll have a ah-ma gold tooth infront. so i need to bun up my hair and change my image.

What are the risks and complications?
More than 95 percent of root canal treatments are successful. I'll probably be in the 5%. However, sometimes a case needs to be redone due to diseased canal offshoots that went unnoticed or the fracturing of a canal filing instrument used-both of which rarely occur. Occasionally, a root canal therapy will fail altogether, marked by a return of pain.

What happens after treatment?
Natural tissue inflammation may cause discomfort for a few days, which can be controlled by an over-the-counter analgesic. A follow-up exam can monitor tissue healing. From this point on, brush and floss regularly, avoid chewing hard foods on the treated tooth, and see your dentist regularly. relatively pessimistic that mine will continue rotting till the golf-course inside my mouth is complete.

a gold crown will do me just fine.
now im scared.
really scared.
the painful truth have just begin to sink in
wil u just keep me in yr prayers?
human beings need to be shaken to draw em back to their GOD.
im no exception.
shame on me.

shattered into a million pieces broken teeth

this is super depressing
trip to the dental was horrendous
omg.
whats gonna happen to me?
didnt know things will be so bad.
did 4 fillings, 3 xrays, 180 buckeroos gone jus like that
another apptmt soon
teeth infront got into some root canal prob
turning black
shit. its really shit this time.
he said 90+ percent it'll be very jialat
and he said i got a golf-course inside ma mouth
and the front tooth is bad, close to the nerves
and its gonna be like a mini op
will feel uncomfortable,
and requires an injection
oh my oh my.
how fair can life get?
and that'll prob cause btw 250-300 buckeroos.
just where can i get that money?

.shattered.

why are some ppl so likable
some so detestable
others cute
some u see n u wanna slap them

somethings are given to u
but u dont want it
some are nt meant for you
but u desperately want it

u know its wrong
u keep repeating the same error
but u think u can change it
and u think u'll correct it

God'll never allow such things
if u TRUST
if u OBEY
if u LISTEN.

__________________________

gays are everywhere.
and damn, they are cute.
wasted. sigh. i want em.

humans are terrible.
they love to judge.
but they forget that speck of dust in their own eyes.
that includes me.

feels great to be home
where everythg seems so familiar
a refuge, a safe haven, a shelter
schs cmg to an end
aint i glad
have been waiting for some time
then again theres the attachmt
which is giving me the creeps

anyway if u wanna bitch abt someone,
just bitch, dont try to act nice yet bitch at the same time
turns me off. coward.
wanna stare just stare.
dont turn yr eyes away when the other party stares bk.
geddit?

i think im a hypocrite. muahaha.
at least im honest.
alright i'll try to change.

my evil twin stitched a bear for me
so sweet!
thanks twinnie... =)
am gonna miss u while u're at work!

i want a pair of birkies
& a pair of melissa celebrations

dentist on fri
im scared
but i have make a trip before my teeth rot turn black like count olaf.

ok im gonna sleep soon.
dreamland here i come!!!
ta-ta! *grins

thank God that it wasnt sucha blur monday afterall. was a happy one infact, after the cranky wk before. really sucky week, so glad it has ended! the old is gone and the new is come!

what a kancheongfied morn. not a gd start. was suppose to bk-up but pants nt here yet. end up was on keyboard. but nvm, still worshipping God all the same.

my mama' became my twin today. was in the exact same style n colors with a black cardigan. wahaha.. and like i said, great minds think alike! hee.. or perhaps it was telepathy...?

and as we were shopping alone the streets of bugis, we noticed abt 3 pairs of homosexuals. oh my.. wonder what on earth is happening to these ppl. is it cuz gals are depleting? i certainly dont think so, cuz there are so many gals out there who are still unattached! this is really weird man. what is the world coming to? and if u realised, homos are usually quite handsome. sucha pity they aint straight, so u can only feast yr eys on em, but nt devour them.. wahahaaa.. sounds like im a sick carnivore..

sundays are always well spent days with my darls and peeps i love. *muacks. God sent em to make my life so much happier.

but then. its Monday. which means the blues are here to stay. damn.

http://www.wolfie.cz/dog/

hilarious. comes with free vulgarities a quarter fish, 3 quater duck.. anti racism peeps stay clear.

tick tock tick tock

2.30 am and im still wide awake.
somethings wrong.
cant adjust the mode of snoozing time.
oh man.

im sick and tired of hearing the same thing over and over again! so stop it for goodness sake.

wj just told me we dont belong to this world.. thanks for reminding pal.. something's nt right. blame it on the weather, blame it on PMS, blame it on everythg but not me. damn. happy in one moment, depressed the next. wth. seem to be tearing almost every other day. becoming part of my daily routine. i seriously dont know what is up with me. and what is up with the people around me. i dont even want to think about it. make me even more depress.

shes doing it over and over again. im disappointed. but who am i to bloody well judge? whats the pt of doing qt but repeating the same sin everyday? isnt it contradicitng? u are just fooling yrself and thats dumb. and no, i dont think that's what God wants u to do.

i miss sleeping.
i miss my home.
i miss my dad n mum.
i miss the tv set.

above all, im crying yet again.

happiness doesnt last. so dont try to make it stay.

i l.o.v.e m.y K.e.r.p.a.u d.a.r.l.i.n.g.

Morning madness with a hint of kicking the dog.

yup, morning madness. eyelids are drooping.
i seriously want to get out of this rut.
havent been attending classes also.
crosses finger that he doesnt see the letter.

anyway jerky boys are really hilarious.
send me laughing til tears roll down my cheeks.
kinda vulgar, but all the less funny
and its not LAME, but FUNNY.

->nick
thanks so much for all yr help!
really appreciate it!
owe u one.

wonder what has gotten into me nowadays.
but the sight of u pisses me off all the same.
like i say, dont take me for granted.
and no im not gonna be nice anymore.
at least not to you.

being nice doesnt pay.
oh well. nvm.
its not worth it.
after all.
im nothing.
sigh.
and into the box i hide.

cheap thrills brings me expensive happiness

was distracted this time. cuz he was basically recapping what he taught us the previous time. but still cool lah. the way he play. im awed.

anyway. the finger issue. ahaha... think i worry too much, and get the jitters easily. saw blood and immediately gt dizzy spells. shock. haha. send out smses to that 4 ppl. u guys shd be privileged shd u rec that sms.. wahaha.. kidding.. so scared, i cried. useless bum. and uncle george better appreciate it and frame it up like what he said! ha..

got a pair of green shoes for just 6 buckeroos! so happy! and a watch too.. think im shopping too much recently. just gt a skirt n shirt last fri. and i got tons of things fr diaso too!!! hee. oh well. nvm. money are meant to be spent. so now im officially broke. which means that if u have money, kindly donate some to me. thanks! jk.

got smthg with dot for amei. haha kinda cute. feel like keeping it for myself. smthg really cute. i may just keep it for myself *shhhh...

ok so now theres nothing left on my shopping list. hmmm mayb that exodus shoes which is gg for a song? haha but its green. again. green. i guess hanging out too much with certain ppl will definitely influence one. oh man. im beginning to like green.

25.5/30 for pqs, 18/20 for sq proj. see how nice my God is? tho i obviously dont deserve it at all. He made all these possible. =)

so glad no classes tmr. om lect but think i havent attended more than 3 since sch started. but gotta do proj. siansation. but that's life. and it still have to go on. forget who just said that to me. hmmm... *ponders

Suaty said if i were a book, i am...
A fun read most of the time, mysterious @ sometimes, comes in handy @ alot of times?

up to you to interprete.

eh why so dark ah..

outside nydc!

nerds united!

pea & mrs tuck!

pearlie n wenjun~!

hee lianbangs united!

sec sch besties! & sisters in christ, haaa

Me and wenjun!

injustice shall not be tolerated! haahhaa..

thanks guys, for the sumptuous fare tonite.. i'd prob be hm alone w/o food if it werent for u all.. haha xie xie ni men... very yummy!

i really hate pqs. the worse thing is mr so&so and miss so&so.. need to stay up just to wait for em to send the bloody report so can complete the ppt slides. what the hell lah.. shitified.. think i shant wait. i wanna snooze already. hate that guy man. only know how to say, dunno how to do. ARGHHH. gross. so what if u dont like to draw lines? fcuk lah, then no need to do isit? stupid. dumb. in the end fish bone diagram also nt in microsoft wd. he just scan it in, with all his handwritings. oh my... *faints.

the second terrible thing's our om proj. how can a person use no. of words to grade a proj?!!! duh, u are supposed to give QUALITY wk, not quantity wk what! whats the point if u b u l l s h i t a lot and have got no substance and focus?! isnt is better if one produces good, short and sweet answers which are all straight to the pt? isnt the maximum no. of wds just a guideline?! duh... but nvm guys, we did our best... at least we came up with smthg within 2 days! wahaha... ok i shall stop self-deluding.

other than that, life has been GREAT. finally can tan again aft sucha long time. but todays sun was nt that cooperative lah.. and then they both came at 12?! when we have lesson at 2?! tan what??? hahaaa... didnt bathe aft that, think we reek of coconut oil smell when we step into the class.. so happy, there wasnt anything that i need to study, nor was there any wk to be done. but then again, have i ever done tutorials? haha.. * gd qns*

grossed out. cuz. yucks. bleah. just kill me.

1.5 mks... thanks...

He has been really good to me. help me time and time again when i tot that i couldnt make it. thank u Lord, really... i know it's You. It has been You who was there for me. You are the one who made it all possible, tho i refuse to admit it at times. im sorry.

met up with wenjun pearl weilun at holland.. so happie to see em, my clique in sec school.. had dinner at nydc then coffee and starbucks... and i wanna apologised, cuz when i get excited, i tend to talk and laugh really loud. and i think we were too noisy... was laughing damn loudly with shrieks in between. ppl kept giving us that bloody stares... if i were one of them, i'll prob ask the waiter to kick our asses out, haha.. but who gives a damn anyway, as long as u are having fun & enjoying yrselves yeah? was reminiscing the bout the good old days back in sec sch.. man, i miss those times already... upper sec sch had been tons of fun. just plain crazy... think our class is ultimate lah, things we do really are mad. hahaaa.. miss em all...

finally i can take a breather! no more tests, no need for retests, just projects! *heaves a sigh of relief...* hmmm mayb can go tanning tmr morn, if i can wake up! wahaha... yawns... oh yeah i wanna go for a hol! ahaha mayb just taking e train to KL for a great time of shopping! or simply putting out at a resort to take a break fr the hectic life... that'd be cool.. prob gotta start planning.. shall make the trip a short one during my study break... hehs.

come out come out, wherever you are...

chatted with her over msn. what a surrprise to see her online. guess she have been reeeli busy nowadays plus her msn screwed up at hm.. anyway she was saying that she shouldnt blame us for leaving her out, cuz ultimately, she hasnt been able to spend much time with us, so i guess distancing is inevitable. but nevertheless, i still love her, hoping to be able to catch up more with her.. also feel the wall that is wedging its way in. used to be so close, really really close, to the extent that we send smses to each other everyday.. was prob less than 2 yrs ago.. but suddenly, things changed dramatically... mayb nt in a dramatic way, but just feel the gap btw both of us now. definitely it'll be a lil saddening, but what to do? thats life... we still have to get on. anyway, she has been a really sweet sister, giving me advices everynow and then, enlighten me in many ways, letting me see things in a different perspective. and of cuz we have our misunderstandings at times, but at the end of the day, all things are resolved, and we're one step closer to knowing one another better that ever before. so i wanna thank God for putting her in my life! really! she has been a bundle of joy ever since i know her, say 5 years ago? though she has left some tracks of disappointments, i still love her all the same! all the notes of encouragements that we have exchanged, the smses, the lil sweet cards, appreciate it all!

its just amazing when i come to think of all the angels that God have sent me when i walk the path of life. one of the best things in life are all the people that God had blessed me with. i really cant imagine how i can survive w/o them. everytime i look forward to greater times of togetherness with them, be it parties, camps, cell, fellowship, mahjong sessions, bday celebrations or just heart to heart talk makes me feel that im loved. truly loved & treasured by them. its just the accountability that let me have the assurance that someone cares. and the familyhood that just bloom & blossom like a flower gives me hope that helps me to live on with a common purpose in life, which is to win more for Christ. and i know that they'll always be there, no matter what happens.

something that my bestie said when we had a misunderstanding some time ago. hope it encourages all of us in a way or so.

I am as perturbed & disturbed & perhaps even disillusioned at times. But despite it all, God IS great, He saved us & His love is undeniable, so let us just let tat simple fact awe us for a moment.

to her: Ohana means FAMILY, and family means that NOBODY GETS LEFT BEHIND.

no retail therapy but more n more binging
like i aint fat enough, haaaa
town today was awesome, just tt i didnt buy anythg, sob.
walked with lizzie til tanglin mall again
jess went watch movie with marilyn...

my results
aaa70/100
ec 77/100
om 31/50
pmkt 43.5/50
ep 90/100

im happy, and thankful. but i need to wk so much more harder on my aaa and om... pqs paper was ok, think i shd be able to pass. Ecd was a sucker. damn. so bloody difficult, wondering if i can sail thru it..

was blog surfing yesterday, and saw many depressing posts, all about having lost their papas/mamas, and it was really tear-jerking... come to realise that i should nt take things for granted, but to really cherish my parents and appreciate all the things they have done for us.

one particular one

- why is life filled with so many obligations? obligation to tidy my house, obligation to take care of my brother.. obligation to inject... medicine into my mother....
that long syringe... the worry of my mother's wounds being affected if i didnt wash my hands
properly... the tube that is partly inserted in her body and partly outside for me to inject the medicine to it.

the feelings of pain when i injected the medicine into her.. the tiredness she has... and the long days of not seeing my sis ard at home just because she cannot accept the fact that my mum is down with sickness... and i have the obligation to do the part of injection in sec 3.

"yesterday is yr chinese birthday, she died after that." the words that i heard fr my godma when i reached the hosp too late. the pain that i've felt have been tormenting me till now, she had waited.. after that..

i really wish i had the chance of sharing the gospel with her. she need the Lord. to get a new lease of hope, hope that is rooted in the wonderful acts of God in creation and history.

i L.O.V.E. walking.

"God has come to wipe away our tears. He is doing it; He will have it done as soon as He can; and until He can He would have them flow without bitterness; to which end He tells us it is a blessed thing to mourn because of the comfort that is on its way."

While we wait for that comfort, we can be assured that God will not allow us to be tested beyond our ability to bear the trial. Every difficult circumstance is timed with exact precision. Every hard situation is screened through His perfect love. We will not suffer one moment more, nor will we suffer more intensely than is necessary. "To a close-shorn sheep God gives wind by measure" goes an old Basque saying. In other words, God will not allow those most vulnerable to life's difficulties to be overtaken by them.

There may be deep waters through which you must wade; there may be fires through which the ore of your character must pass. But in the midst of them God promises to be your partner, companion, and faithful friend. He will "perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you" (1 Peter 5:10).

And then, when He has finished His work, He will take you home to heaven and wipe away all your tears”forever (Revelation 21:4). He knows our burdens and our crosses,Those things that hurt, our trials and losses;He cares for every soul that cries”God wipes the tears from weeping eyes.

Tears are often the telescope by which we can see into heaven.

f.a.l.l.e.n. a.n.g.e.l.

one of those really bad days where things just dont fall in the right place, and you begin to ponder just how you are gonna sail thru the raging seas that came crashing unto you. So you begin to doubt, doubt the existence of yr life. i mean c'mon its just mid-wk, wednesday, and there are 4 more days before it comes to an end. feeling so helpless and theres no one there who helps. everyone's busy with their own lives i know, and i cant expect them to be ard forever. i know there's one who's always there. always. 24/7. but He's just too far away. and we've lost contact. for about a year. i know He's still there. He's always there. He promised. im the one who has left.

at my wits end. i really dont know what to do anymore. anyway, crying feels great. releases me of all my sorrows for the moment. perhaps getting drunk helps too. nah, maybe not.

w.e.p.t. buckets. and it's cuz of u.

they sucked the life out of me. damned.

saw my mummy today, and aint i glad, like a familiar face that brightens my day. dunno why had gut feel i'd bump into her and abracadabra! i did but nt exactly bump lah.

so turned out that united artistes network guy was DON, = AH LIE from Double Happiness, the one who kena killed by wenjie, also jiaqian's bf or whatev. so he asked liz n me go down, fill up some form, then had an hr talk. talked bout their Co's aims which is help on realise his or her dreams... what he offered sounds rather lucrative i would say, all the parties, networking with big shots etc etc.. and he mentioned big names too, dick lee, john lee, clarissa monterio, jeremy monterio, ivan heng, yup all the peeps fr the performing arts scene... jeanette aw n fiona xie's also under their mgmt..they were in charge of some productions like light years, forbidden city, the nxt stage etc.. anyway, this Don's like really articulate, and we both thought his voice was quite man over the phone lah, ha.. had a good laugh when we saw him, cuz never did we expect it to be him. but then... must pay lah, 529 leh, to be engaged with them for a period of 18mths.. which includes gg for parties, auditions, engagements, networking with the ppl in the media industry.. definitely sounds fun... but think i shd be concentrating on my studies first, cuz nxt yr will be rather impt.. and i guess only when im free plus i have the money, then i'll go.. so he was saying like it'd be more of the acting scene for me? and i was laughing my head off inside.. ha. and liz will do the hosting one? lol...

i got a skirt fr fox, went home realised it was kinda short. and a sweater! *grins
anyway this week will be quite fucked up la. cuz i gt 2 tests, on thurs n fri, and i havent started much. and time's running out. fuck fuck fuck. damn stress nw i wanna cry. and sleep too. and the bloody **. bitch. waste our time. damn it.

God forgive me.

lao yu shen at hawks hse, thanks guys, it was yummy, haha.. hope fusao'll be aight by tmr, ahaha...

gonna be another d.a.m.n.e.d. day. f-c-u-k.

damn i super tired. doing the damn om proj can be so tiring. no choice, will be out tmr, so gotta get in done now. will cont tmr, cant take it man. write so much only 785 wds. ugh. help please.

thanks liz for the bbq food. haha.. cool rm u've got. thanks shui jing and tracy too for the angbaos.

legs are numb nw. damn.

think im nt wearing the pink polo jess. kinda small. ugh. prob wont wear the necklace too. ha.
anyway, thanks a million for the photobucket thingy. owe u one.

s.c.a.n.d.a.l.o.u.s.

i hate myself.

A big fat liar - thats ME.

firstly, a big thank you to daniel low for the great party! met esther earlier to get the cake n card.. Really had a great time ketchuping & fellowshipping with the crusaders.. so glad i went, cuz had been ages since i last saw em.. had tons of fun during worship, playing games, playing the piano, and celebrating sharon's bday.. and of cuz the food was fantastic! we had yummy pizza, bee hoon, shepherd's pie, coconut kueh, apple crumble and cake! all were equally YUMMILICIOUS! wahaha... im sucha pig.. and he got a nice house too! very classy like semi-d at west coast! so comfy that u wouldnt mind zzzing on the floor! heehee...

i feel so bad today. why? cuz i told a lie. my mama dropped her pouch for putting her shades in the bus. and when she gt down, i got up cuz she came bk from movie with dad, and i board the bus to holland v. she called and asked me to help check if it's there. i bend down, and there it was, in the front.
the bus was packed, nt very though, but i just find it embarrassing to go infront, bend down and pick it up. plus there were 3 ppl at the seats infront where u face each other. i was like ugh. how how how. gonna reach in a jiffy. did i pick it up? no i didnt. sigh. shit me. i know she'd have been really glad if i did. sigh. what a shitified daughter. useless. sigh. so i called her aft i alighted and told her i didnt see it. God forgive me.

have been sleeping bout 3+ nowdays, which is really nt me, cuz i cant really tahan.. was playing mahjong for the past 2 days, quite fun actually, to my surprise, managed to learn the ropes of it, bit by bit..

have another bbq party at liz's hse tmr! hehheh... hope it'll be fun! visiting my churchmates houses on sunday! cool eh, so much fun.

but damn, gotta submit Om proj on sunday, and we havent precisely get the ball rolling. and i've got 3 tests cmg up. heck & feck.

E-commerce Reflections...

Specially Directed for E-commerce Reflections only.

E-commerce to me, have been rapidly becoming a part and parcel of everybody's lives. There has been endless uses to it, such as making purchases online. It has fast spread to all parts of the world, and as long as one is connected to the internet, he/she will be able to make purchases from stores/people from all corners of the earth.

It has never occured to me that i'd ever have to build a website, as I'm not a IT-savvy person. However, after i've been throught the mid-point semester of the EC module, I am happy to say that it has indeed helped me a lot in terms of acquiring the skills and knowledge of designing a website for a online store.

The thing that i've gain most in this e-commerce module, is to build a website using dreamweaver. I am glad to say that building a website thus far have been a rather smooth job, except for a few screw-ups when previewing the site. In conclusion, E-commerce have been a rather interesting module to it, and whatever i've learnt there will certainly be put to good use in the days to come.

blogger is super spastic n sensitive
just a click n everythg i typed previously was gone
damned.

had reunion lunch at grandmama's place.. yummy suckling pig - ate myself! Wahaha.. but then it feels kinda awkward to be there lah.. cuz im nt very close to relatives of my daddy's side.. so am glad its just once a year, haha...

aft went to get the OP plum colored skorts at west mall.. yeeps. then came home, packed my room n the study table, til nt am nt done. cant be bothered.. shall wait til tmr.. anyway, nobody's cmg tmr, so i can sleep in til late, go suntan, cut my mag collage, deco my album, cont to spring clean, watch dvd, watch tv, pig out, sleep again, read mag, do some wk, pig out again, wahaha...

reunion dinner was at hm, me dad n mum n brud. nt very often that we eat tog, so i guess it was kinda nice, tho we dont really talk much.. had steamboat, which was actually disgusting cuz chopsticks used for fishing the food in the soup was also used to fish for food meant to get into our stomach. so i've come to a conclusion: IT WAS THE INTERCHANGED SALIVA THAT BINDS OUR FAMILY TOGETHER. yeah riiigghhhtttttt...

gg chinatown with hemeinu, laoda, nick, brigitte, hawk n ah diam ltr! hopefully i wont get lost in there! wahaha..

anyway, this joshua's mama is very cute, like the way she talked abt joshua etc etc.. make me laugh n feel warm! and then she talk about feng ge, feng didi.. wahaha.. jusy FUNNY.

what shd i do if im still left on the shelf by the age of, say 30? mayb i shd go be a nun, oops i mean a sister and serve God all my life, hahaha.. dunno why im so worried also, guess im feeling old already, yeah im a aunty. mayb i shall meet jess 9 yrs ltr at the place where we made the pact, and fly off to canada where they legalise lesbian marriages. grins. i keep telling ppl that having a bf is nt everythg, yet im actually worrying. contradicting huh. worstill, i need to have a christian bf, which means chances are super slim. think i shd just die n disappear. wahaha.

but then having a boyfriend is nt really everything. i believe that when it's time, and when God says yes my daughter, then its really time. there's no point hurrying and end up getting hurt. some ppl think that its so impt to have a bf, and that they'll die if they dont have 1. i think its like duh.

was watching news and then came this piece on a lil 4 yr old boy who drove to a vcd shop to get vcd! what the!!! goodness, must have scared the shit outta his parents! just 4 years old! but come to think of it, its a lil funny also lah, make one wanna laugh! cute but scary.

ANYWAY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (='0'=)

i am super tired. Oh my. Simply cant believe it. Combed the entire orchard rd a few times and yet i got NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. SOBS. so depressing yeah lizzie... tried on endless lingerie, skirt etc but got NOTHING. proj disussion from bout 12 til 1 plus.. then jalan ard for 9 whole hrs. and then aft that liz n i actually walked from town to grange rd, to gleaneagles, to dempsey rd. think we were a lil crackers to have actually done that. but it was fun anyway, sort of like exercising? ha... just doing lame things while walking, and snapping pictures away... think we made a hell lot of noise. too bad jess left early, she was tired, plus someone visited her... *winks

walked til dempsey, thought we'd take a cab... but we waited for what seems forever, for an empty cab to arrive... and guess what? it didnt! ugh.. so took 75 to jelita, got some ice-cream and hailed for cab, but to no avail. ugh. in the end, took 75 home. wthell can... then liz stop at my place and got a cab, haha.. dunno why but she seems really excited when she managed to get the cab. kind of like high', think a bit mad lah, but nt surprising lor.. think she more ke lian. want cut hair fully booked, want thread brows, fully booked. Sigh.

right now, my legs are aching from all the walking, but it was rather fun lah, something worth remembering. then aud asked me wanna go IMM aft 12am, turned out i think nic n brigitte fell asleep.. haha.. anyway, think my legs are too tired to carry me any further.

turns out that maggie and sharon will be putting out at hawk's place for the time being, which may actually be more than 1/2 a yr! so coooooool can! then can bring them go club and go home late late! Muahaha... but one's 14 and the other's 16... Hmmm... anyway, look forward to that! will be able to go shopping til super late n have companion back hm! yeah and i'll force them to go tanning, swimming with me! whaaha.. and can go for music prac tog! and can watch midnight movies! YAHOO!!! hehheh.. these are such great ideas! hmmm mayb can ask them help sweep the floor, wash toilet at my hse too!! GGGGRRRRRREEEEEEAAAAAATTTTTT!!!!! can do all sorts of CRAZY THINGS! late suppers at ALAMEEN! but they only make us fatter, hmmm nvm, once in a blue moon shd be fine! WONDERFUL!!!

ok this is great, papers down, and i got to go shopping later. sorry i didnt go cocco latte guys.. hope nobody's mad.. know u peeps sure had tons of fun!

oh yeah, nic n aud both got blogs! likle wah serious ah? haha.. nv would i have imagined them to ever ever have a blog, but anyway, good lah, can add to my links! wahaha... supposed to go tanning with fish n suat, but too bad i got prac.. anyway they cmg church later so we can all go shopping! and then ah diam may join us too, yeeps!

JESSELYN LIM!!! wahaha... i'm still SHOCK from the AFTERMATH. cant believe it . omg. omg. omg.

think im gonna have a 1 wk CNY break! cool huh, think it's gonna be e-learning
some things are sure funny. hmmm. really funny. i think my God is really really humourous. think im thinking too much on my part. but i really do wish u'd open your eyes wide and look around you, and tell me what you see.

YES, I've got the phone!
wanna say a huge thanks to my DAD in heaven!
and the one on earth too!
was grinning from ear to ear!
only prob.
i wanted the piano black one
but outta stock
still am very thankful! haha...
my very new toy!!!

gonna be out the whole day tmr
tan, music prac, party, mayb nt party
sunday too
church, aud's place
sigh... wanna study yet i dun wanna miss out the fun
ugh.

EC is nt getting into my head. nt at all.
sobs. and a/cs suck. BIG TIME.
cant wait for tests to be over.

i love gillman village.
wanna go back there soon!

almost wanted to kill that PUB ah beng
so rude n unreasonable.
my dad bathe half-way he switch off the water supply
told him nicely and ask if can switch it back
and he said " BU KE YI"
fcuk lor, go and die lah.
was damn pissed then
haha come to think of it
it was hilarious.

i really like this... but its for kids.. sigh...

*note to those having their first paper tmr
all the best guys!

i like chinese new year
infact im excited abt it
u get to pig out on goodies
u get angbaos
u get to meet up with ppl u haven seen for a long time!
u get to ketchup with em
u get to play with the kids
u get to play with the toddlers
u get to wear nice clothes
so who doesnt

vincents bday party's this cmg sat
not invited
but esther pulled me along
tot it'd be weird n duh if i go
but esther said rayson's the one who asked em along
kinda feel like gg
ketchup with esther june and all.
hmmm...

super unproductive today
sigh
tests getting nearer
yet i have no sense of urgency
this is so shitified
ugh.

saw this le coq sportif mini canvas tote in the mag
i wanna get it!!
and the freshbox bruce lee tee!!
and the gior jr!!
and the cups fr mini toons!!!
Ahhhh.
LASTLY, i want that phone.

now finally xxx has poured out xxx frustations
and i couldnt really be bothered
i know it all makes sense
but i just refuse to let it sneak into my mind
i dont want to get myself into the shit
yes i know its selfish.
but i shouldnt be the one suffering
i should be well provided for
i dont wanna make comparisons.
but it just isnt fair.
know everything have been given
but its not enough
i know im demanding too much.
sigh.

being a christian is tough.
i think im becoming not a lukewarm one,
but a really cold one
for sucha long time i've been neglecting His word
so long
u wouldnt want to know.
think He's ashamed of me.
i am ashamed of myself too.
very ashamed.

funny

Always freezing cold when I’m out at the balcony
Another day wasted, drifted away to papaya land
I think I’ve grown to be much more independent
Was tanning alone this morn. Alone.
Something that I’d never ever done
So I would proudly declare that I’m proud of myself!
*pat on the back

Guess this term really literally flies
Supposed to submit the PQS report last Thursday
But we just did it yesterday.
Just can believe how terrible we are
Oh my.

Dad says he’s gonna help me change the phone
But with the works going on at home
Doubt he’ll do it anytime soon
So it’s rather disappointing I would say
Perhaps good things come after waiting

So bored staying at home to study
Nothing productive was done at all.
Kept walking and walking around.
Touch this touch that.

I want to get this freshbox tee I saw in seventeen
It had a picture of Bruce Lee on it
Like it lots! Can’t wait…
The gior jr jacket that I wanted was no longer available.
Sobs.

So what if u had money?
It can’t buy you everything.

i wanna get this phone!

i wanna get this phone! *winks

1) I WANNA GO SHOPPING!
Thank God for sending me angels
To fill my pocket with funds
Just that I wish they could so it more often, heh
I need to buy things!!!

2) I WANNA HAVE A GOOD SLEEP
Know I’ve been having enough sleep
But think I’m lacking of oxygen today
Kept yawning and I slept in the hosp

3) I WANNA SPEND TIME WITH NAOMIANS.
Wish they would spare me some of their time
But guess it’s just wishful thinking on my part
They are always so so busy
With work, or rather with boyfriends
Hmmm maybe I should get a life, get a bf
Then again maybe not, haha.
Who would want me?
No thanks, not him. Bleah.

4) I WANNA KETCHUP WITH PEARLIE, JOANNA & VENOM
Want to meet up with them and catch up with one another
Just like we used to in the good’ old days
P’s always busy with what else but her bf
J’s always busy with her church stuff
V’s missing in action.
Probably stuck in some hole in LaSalle.
Sometimes I do wish that I’ll take more initiative in doing things

5) I WANNA PICK UP THAI, SPANISH, FRENCH AND DRUMS.
I want to learn a new lang!
Haha… but I know I’ll never get it done
I want to learn drums.
But… sigh…

was at zouk ytd with jess liz and lizzies frens
rather fun i would say
just that i totally loathe the bouncer
that idiotic fella who took a llong time checking our ic
think he probably failed maths in school
was there at ard 10.30
had screwdriver, lychee martini
which was so much nicer than acid bar's and
barcardi freezer cranberry
courtesy to liz's frens n jess's sista
music was nice only when it strike abt 2am
anyway like it
but wont be there often
only can sneak out when mamas out
phuture was quite nice
but damn packed
practically have to squeezed and force yr way in
hate that idiotic fella
already so obvious that we didnt want him to dance w us
yet he kept following us
wthell..
and the stripy girl
omg, just kill me
trying too hard. bleah.
but it was real stinky in there
all the smoke were like directed at my face
yucks.
get to see all sorts of ppl
had a good laugh.

anyway photography test was dumb.
wasted 1/2 hr of my time in sch
hol tmr. hols nxt wk.

father of landscape photography - Adams Ansel!!!
i know that! heh.

so she said she had a fucking day
loads of mtg n quarelling and arguing.
and so i tot it was the bitchiest of the bitches
turn out it was the coffeeshop
ok thats nt too bad
i mean afterall u just go there
and wk and cal the inventories etc
how bad can it get?

then today she couldnt control it anymore
so she wept buckets
which obviously scare the shit out of me
cuz i'll be at lost for words
unless it's kids who are crying
that i may have a way to handle
but now its a 25yr woman

thank God for naomians
who was there for her
lend her listening ears, shoulders to lean on
prayers to encourage her
not to forget hawk nic n the elijahs

guess its really stressful
root of the problem?
- ADAM & EVE -
if nt for them
everything will be fantastic nw
no sins
at all.
no sufferings.
no depressions.
no anger.

but then...
im sure God has His purpose for everything
so i guess theres smthg for her to learn behind all these happenings

so we went to the hosp today
and celebrated suats bday
guess she was a lil surprise
cuz she totally didnt expect it
glad she like the earrings
9 pairs in total
wahaha... a whole year supply

then grace fish eug suat left
so left me n dot
then came nic's relatives
so we went around exploring the hospital
checking out the nursery
the little infants were so cute!
the premature ones were tiny!
i think 3 of my fingers will make up one of their hand
super adorable!
hehheh...
which like dot say,
is a miracle that we can actually grow to the size of what we are now
God's amazing huh
He simple loves to create wonders

then we went to the sleeping disorders ward
but kinda scary la
cuz it says that the patients sleeping are monitored every single min
so i was like uh oh we had better leave the place
then we went to the operating theatre
which was scary too
anyway hospitals kinda freak me out
but it was fun n exhilarating
kinda like going on an adventure

thank God she was alright aft that
just hope that she'll be ok
and nt think too much
and that her stupid uncle will stop being stupid
and that her stupid aunty will stop being stupid

then went bk ward play daidee hahaha
aft that went jalan kayu eat dinner
yummy
yawns
gonna skip tmr's lects
dun even feel like gg for ec class.
ugh.

now i have nothing to look forward to
to keep me going for the week.
sobs.

slippery nipples!

lychee martini!

lychee liquer~!

smileee!

interesting menu!

yummy chips heh

Chips mask!

acid bar...

My angels of love, peace and joy!

today shall be one of the angriest day of my life
fuck it man.
anyway cheryl, now i dont see whats the
big fat hairy deal bout saying this word
u were correct.
u, shut the fuck up.
gonna pay tribute to that.
fuckers bitches bastards all around.
wahaha
now i feel better.

anyway, aud's gonna be outta hosp
and then bk again nxt wk for a minor op
wil pray that all goes well
and theres this super cute guy visiting his fren there
really CUTE.
omg...
heehee...
and the doctor was also CUTE.
really heart melters!
ahaha, and nick says there are also another 2 cute guys
too bad i wasnt there to see for myself.

gonna go entertain aud tmr, hehheh...
miss hols, miss suntanning times, miss gg msia
miss ppl in sjccc, miss sleeping, miss shopping,
miss watching movies, miss church.
and i miss God.
hope u forgive me.

at jacq's hse

nice shades

retro nite fever!

Christmas at Hawk's

was acid bar in the night
kinda fun with the peeps
but was becoming more myself when __________.
anyway, had lychee martini
and it was bloody heavy in alcohol content
dont like it
mayb the one at Harry's wil be nicer,
according to Cheryl
and then had heineken beer,
which is so much more nicer!
and the hilarious part was Slippery Nipples
haha tasted horrible
but it looked damn freaking cute,
wil post the pic when my hello's ready...
guessed we were too noisy
kinda disturbed the others
but i mean
HELLO, we're at a bar
not in a mass
and then started to get high
and took daft pix with the potato chips.
the lamest was the potato mask
haha...
think cheryl's drunk
started blabbering rubbish
then again
think shes nt lah
haha

gtg sleep soon
need wake up at 8.
ugh.
happy birthday pearlie.

happy birthday ruth.
happy birthday fish.

kind of like long time since i last blogged... anyway, connection's fine nw, thanks to hawk.

anyway, im just THANKFUL to have my mama, papa and brother with me, ok mayb nt the brother part. happy for that perfect family, tho tensions may be running high at times. and i really CHERISH my Naomian chums - Dorothy, Grace, Aud, Nic, Suaty that He had blessed me with. No matter what happens, i know i can always count on them. It's just amazing to see how God plants nice people around you, to lend u a hand when u fall. and my two daughters Liz and Jess who have been thru thick and thin with me in school, from day 1 til now, life has been lots of fun with em around, and thank God they can tolerate my nonsense. Not to miss out Cheryl, my gg to sch and gossiping partner! and tho i havent been hanging out with Pearlie and Wenjun, they have a rather impt place in my heart too! and also June, who has been really nice and encouraging!

freaking cold these nights, and i miss suntanning times! ugh. and i 'miss my mummy' tons! poor thing, have to slog it out at the coffeeshop when u dun even know whether u'll get paid or not. i think the worse thing is she actually have to clear the plates, pick up the food from tables etc! that is like totally disgusting. but yet at the same time, im amazed at the fact that she actually does all those, cuz she is really yr typical tai-tai, get what i mean? and i admire her too, i mean how many ppl are willing to go help out at a coffeeshop tho it's their family business? they'd think that its totally degrading, trust me, cuz im one such person. and to be caught by their peers would be their greatest fears. ok ok perhaps im the only one who think in sucha way. anyway, thats her, and really respect her! but just hope that it wont be a barrier btw her and God cuz she missed the previous sunday's svc cuz they needed her there...

went to get fish's bday pressie today, and shun bian watched kungfu, tot it wasnt that nice afterall... should have read Glen's blog before i went! ugh... many things happened recently, ah bee's mama passed away, daughter liz almost blacked out in bus ytd, turned out she had gastric flu, aud's backache prob's back, sigh... tsunami earthquake etc etc... not a good start for the year i guess...

but then again, its a whole brand new year, new beginnings, new resolutions, but who keeps em anyway? so its 2005, and im gonna be 19, which is beginning to scare me, cuz in a moment's time, i'll hit 20s which is like SHIT. haha... im starting to know why women hate it when being asked abt their age, cuz it's really a scary subject to touch on, ugh.

oh and TIME REALLY FLIES, cuz im already in my 5th wk of sch, and projects are falling in and in 3 wks time, it'd be my common test, and i barely know anything abt sch. havent attend a single lecture in marketing and ec. oh my, this term's really a slacking term, ugh, need to buck up before history repeats itself!

gonna get a new pair of white shoes, those slip-on's with the front covered! and i've my eyes on the butterfly slip-ons but think shant get it so soon, else mama will kill me. and i want the gior jr. jacket! but its 32 buckeroos leh... wish someone will get it for me. haha and the wish will never come true, so i'll just dream on...

so many peoples' birthdays in January
- fish, ruth, pastor phoebe, samantha, xueying, pearlie
gonna be really broke.

YUCKS!

Rachel~!

Renee, super engrossed in watching incredibles!

Grace and Eugene!

Hawk and Brigitte!

Audrey and Hariette!

say CHEESE!

nice ice-cream!

Ethan - "i've got a BIG MOUTH!" WAHAHA...

haha my dearest mamadot!

YUMMY!

new year's eve party at hawk's hse!

haha cute bryan in pyjamas!

saw this in fren's blog
tot it was interesting
so here it goes

SOCIAL COMMENTARYdisclaimer: if the following short contents r likely to miff ur sensibilities (ha!) or bring slander to ur idol or watever hang ups u hav, or ur jus a narrowminded turd in general, pls go boil ur head now. the following blog is a humourous erm, slightly bitchy commentary on our sporean dress sense. it does not represent entirely our culture, its only PART of wat we usually see. u can disagree wid me, ur opinion might defer, but keep it entirely between u and ur imaginery fren. otherwise enjoy ; )

im sure many of us take a road down orchard road wid half a mind on ur fren's conversation, another half on how ur hair is n er another teeny part on wat ppl on the streets wear. (im not particularly good at maths. but anyway) wat singaporeans wear really is diversed. im talking abt our age grp. yes in between 18 to 65.

no jus kidding. most likely 16 to 24. n most of us will fit in one way or another, or a mixture of diff styles when it comes to clothes. n yes clothes does make a diff, it decides on who u attract, who u are and tells us how much money ur daddy makes in a month. hehe

n sometimes there r jus some styles tt we cant ignore. i dont noe abt the rest of the world but i noe i cant. sometimes a certain type of ppl jus stands out n demand my attention n i will be momentarily busy mentally restraining myself frm cutting them wid papercuts to their throats n wrists shouting "WAT WERE U THINKING?!?!"

ok outburst there.it is worth my time to talk abt this cos its also a whole set of thinking behind these diff grps of ppl.

first off, lets start wid a bunch tt hav suddenly popped out frm nowhere within these few yrs. my frens call them

The Trendies

Trendies r ppl who r Different frm us. now i emphasize on Different. cos they r so different, they hav to hav different look, different taste in music, different underwear, different clothes, different everything. n the best thing abt them is tt they hav such a healthy sense of self esteem tt it didnt occur to them tt UR as DIFFERENT AS THE NEXT TRENDY U IDIOT. ur so unique, u look exactly like ur trendy fren! hey wat a new concept. look up Unique in the dictionary.

they listen to obscure bands n read obscure books. anything to make them different, they will know it. so lets say, their typical conversation will be like this:

"yeah i fcuking hate Noamica for not selling me those tics to Glateci's gig. like fcuk man, i wanted to go wid my scene* girls n cant."

point to note. they hav cool names. like so cool, u haven heard of it before. n they always hav a concert they hav to go, a gig happening somewhere somehow. n they end their sentences coolly. its jus all so cool. different ma.

n the girls. they dont clean their mouth after eating n they hav a rice stuck to the side of their mouth. no la jus kidding. its their piercing. u noe the kind of piercing not like mine. mine is a labret. SYMMETRICAL to my face. they hav it at the side.

n they hav so much eyeliner on, their frens wont recognise them when they peel off the 5 inch thick makeup.

i give simple illustration. to spot them, look out for the following: tiny sling bag, black or vintage tops, wid slogan. hair carefully waxed to look messy but carefully n artisticly so. n it is short. rolled up jeans, studded belts, rice piercing, a gallon of eyeliner. n of course tt cool attitude. got cool attitude is a good dude.

though this is not to be confused wid the malay minahs.

the second kind tt is emerging rather proudly in our society r the cute cakeskirts.readers will erm.. by now noe wat im talking abt by cakeskirts.there r 2 kinds. jc n others. im talking abt the act cute kind.take a simple (not skillful) illustration of

the Actcute Cakeskirts.

urgh yes i used cyndi wang cos she is the epitome of demureness i wanna kill her wid my hp's radiation. these ppl will be so cute, u really feel like stabbing a rabbit infront of them.

they r dressed in pink. obviously they watch too much taiwanese idol soap serials. pink pink pink. furry pink. cutsey pink. damn cute the worz~

n their hps wil hav the really adorable soft toy. in my pic, i drew something, im not sure wat, but if its furry n cute, they will like it. they listen to cyndi wang n mouth the intricate n mind boggling lyrics to 5566's newest songs in their slp. when they're drunk, they're likely to burst into emotional rendition of jolin tsai's 72 transformation. or jaychou's something something.

n they tYpE lIkE tHiS dE wOrZ~ lOlx~ =)

its nothing new, so i wont elaborate too much here.

n then there are the queenbees.

THE CAKESKIRTS.

URGH! AHA! i used lindsay lohan cos she is the best representative i can think of. her best assets r her dress sense, it is able to draw ppl into looking at her teenage impossible voluptous body n their notorious silicon valley which has its own postal code and fansite.

i wont elaborate too much once again cos its already been too much on my blog.but hey, lets hav a checklist.

small flouncy flirty skirt? check.small tote bag (perhaps something branded daddy bought??) check.small tight top or white something?? check.small kitten heels strictly no more than 2 inch high??

check.girlish! nubile! nymph-like! bubblegum! pop!speaks strictly english, hair brush and totebags each sold separately.batteries not included, comes wid own bf in tow and clubbing mates.

BUT of course there r The Elites (pun unintended). the creme de la creme. the top drawer.

The Models.

gasp for this grp. i will keep silent abt them. shhhhh...dont disturb them cos its they're busy standing ard looking really posh n silent. shhhhh.....

dont get them riled up or they might jus step on u. no wait shhh... dont talk abt them... shh..... they wont look at u cos the world up there quite high, the air so much fresher too. but wait shhhh..... dont disturb them, they r busy now. dont talk to them cos we all noe sound waves travel in a straight line n if ur not 1.9 tall, dont try it. shhhh

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i left out the Sporty ones.
the Roxy Sporty But Not Really Sporty But I Really Wanna Be Sporty ones.
the Silent Nerds
the Ahlians
the spgs

cos we all noe them by heart now. n im really too lazy to put them on. n most likely, we're a combination of some. then again maybe not. its jus SOME of wat we see.n then there r the boy's version. which is another topic altogther.

stayed overnite in church ytd
played daidee with the elijahs
have to admit anthony's really cute
haha see him and u'll wanna pinch his cheeks
ytd's rally was quite fun
cuz i was in a costume
enjoyed the whole thing!

on christmas eve went to jacq's party
but im sorry it was kinda boring
so we left ard 9 and went to hawks place
then played uno attack with ethan n bryan
and stayed there til 3.30 am
wahaha... very exhilarating
cuz u dun know when the cards will suddenly thrust itself out!
haha...

then received another 3 pressies today
1) the led light from church
2) winnie the pooh bear from him
3) clip cum m'm cum enc card from fish

hee thanks
love all the presents!
one of the best part of Christmas!

ok am gonna skip sch tmr, and sleep well
may drop by fish's hse for the potluck party

actually im kinda sad Christmas is over
cuz there's like nothing for me to look forward to already

but mayb we'll have a new year's eve countdown party
and this nic says that when it strikes 12, we'll all
jump into the pool
tell me, how lame can he get

i must say this is kind of dangerous
because uncle hawk actually reads my blog
so i gotta be careful on what i post up here wahaha...

christmas has been great
all by God's grace
received tons of pressies! yeeps

jus wanna post up what i got for christmas this yr
no other meanings to it

1) cute happy hse trinklet box with a happy hse badge & a bracelet and a bottle of cookies with 2 candy canes on it from Jess
2) happy hse piggy best fren pencil holder and the cool sand art DIY brownie from Lizzie
3) fishing game from nic & aud
4) potpurri from pastor phobe
5) Car metal clip thingy with note attached fr dorothy and the nice humongous fruit cake which she baked for us
6) styrofoam snowman head with beaded earrings sitting on a jar filled with marshmallow coated with chocolate then dipped in shredded coconut and biscuits
7) a bag from sharon n maggie
8) a handphone pouch fr a church aunty
9) choc in a shell from eu
10) squeezed paint note on a frame from cheryl
11) self-made cookies from pearlie
12) porcelain basket from ana
13) natural source glittery body shower gel from suemay
14) burning essence & cute earrings from hawk n brigitte

thanks so much people, for all that u've done! appreciate it lots from the bottom of my heart!

but then sometimes i feel that just get too caught up with buying christmas gifts, decorating their houses, having parties, to the extent that the real meaning of Christmas has been deleted from our minds. it seems that everyone is celebrating Christmas, christians, non-christians etc etc... but the real meaning of it often slipped our mind. so as im typing this, i just hope to convey the msg that Jesus Christ was born on this day for u and me! and we ought to share this great news to all around us!

so as we celebrate this merry occasion with our loved ones, let's commemorate and remember that the Prince of Peace was born for us!

blessed christmas, God bless ya! =)

watched star awards last night
tot it was entertaining

sch was boring,
except for ec
tot the tutor was kinda nice

God was good to me
He listened to my prayers
thank u Lord
gonna go camp tmr!
yeeps, but think i'll pengsan
from all the bus and train rides

i wanna go Christmas shopping!
gonna go get the toys for the naomians!
or perhaps just some...
nice big bangles for mamadot
hoverdisc for nic
etc etc hehheh...
*winks* ;-)

i have to admit sch sucks
sigh
how to survive like that
alamak
have been skipping lectures

my brother gave me a levi's voucher
$60
i got a top
$79.90
their clothes are really exp
only rich ppl cab afford to buy

ytd was the rehearsal for christmas rally
it was kinda fun i guess
1) but i get conceited
too often
i try to harmonise
i sing at the top of my lungs
hoping that it can be heard
thats when it all happens
and God doesnt like it

so when i pray i ask God for a humble heart
in all i do
that its all for Him
truly from my heart

2) i told lies
i skipped lectures
and bluff my mama n papa
that theres no sch
im hopeless

3) i spend a lot
i go out with them
instead of lectures
go for hi tea
go for movie
go suntanning
oh no, im hopeless

next wk's camp
may skip a few lectures again
omy...
im really terrible.
really hate going to sch in dec!
ARGHHH....

God shave me...

twinkling of an eye, its gone
its gone gone GONE!
ugh, sobs.
no more swimming with my besties.
no more shopping with my besties.
humph.
but then...
im actually lookng forward to sch
why
cos i can catch up with my frens
wahaha...
and laugh my head off with em'

christmas is gonna be so fun
with all the party and the rally
cant wait!

sparkles!

MAMMA MIA! here i go again!

cake made by me and dot for grace's bday! nice huh!